You had me for a moment...
It ended quickly as it began. I don't know what made you do the things
you did. But you know, in the end someone got very hurt. I know I couldn't
have been as hurt as she was. Somewhere deep down, your actions revealed
to her that you don't love her in the way she wanted you to. But as we know
it, you're just a man and you have needs. That's why you came to me.
And gosh, you were good. You had me for a moment. You had me writing
"P.... + J.... = 4ever", decorated with red hearts and gleaming stars. Yeah,
I posted that sh.it on my bed wall, right next to my pillow like a little girl,
head over heals for a boy, for the first time.
Yeah, I'll admit, you had me all falling for you and dangling at your hands.
I made you the joy of my day and my comfort. I allowed you to caress my
body and leave your kisses on my skin. I even let you strum my hair as
you smiled at me. And I even let my heart be filled with such sweet
romance that you were romancing me with. I craddled your head in my arms,
your heavy head rested on my chest but I didn't mind. You made me
speechless when you said, "I can sleep with the soothing of your rising
and dropping chest. " Man, I felt absolutely special, not to mention complete.
It's a good thing she never caught you with me. It was better that I caught
you with her because you know, I deserved better. I just hate it that
you couldn't even develop the decency to tell me that you've changed. I'd
understand, you know I've always been understanding. But you're not the
understanding type. That's why you could never be honest with me. I did put
up with all your crap towards the ending but that wasn't enough to save
us.
So my last option to cut you lose or I'll lose too. You were caving, you couldn't
feel the magic anymore. I did what I had to do. I packed my bags, left and
got out of your way. Sure it hurted me. And you'd promised to rub that in my
face until I die. But you know what, I'll never hurt myself more than you've
ever hurted me. Don't be upset that your reign it over. Cherish our best memories
and go love her, the other one, the one worth losing me over.