Today, higher management took us in a group of five and told us that our business sector was not meeting its business goals. Many things are being impacted by this which means people will be laid off. When we all came out that door, I came out feeling pretty good and didn't think too much. The rest of the entire crew sat still, quiet, and silently I heard everyone truly working. You can hear the chitchat slowly died down. The keyboards clicking away. And whispers asking for work around the corners of the hallways.
For the first time I actually felt a bit sadden. For the girl who always puts everything on my desk, yes I felt for her. For my director who never cared about my inputs, yes I felt for her. For the co-workers who never ever talks to me, yes I felt for them. For everyone who had been a great team player and always going the extra mile to get something done, yes I felt for them.
I did not feel sad for myself though. It's not that I believe I will not get laid off, but I am ready to go - for quite some time already. Told one of my close co-worker that I am ready to go, should it affect our dept. She was so sad and told me that she hope I am not one because I work way too hard to get my job done + someone else' job done. Being part of & the lead of Rewards and Recognition team brought so much life and sunshine to our dept that she did not want to see it be diminish down since they never had that before. I gave her a hug and told her my life has changed a lot for the better and I am ready whenever.