So I'm now sick...nothing serious, just a minor cold. Actually right now I've got me a nice headache! Thanks to someone's thoughtfulness I've to run to get me some theraflu. My mom was mad at me bc I've been "lazy". I wish I could sleep in, but that's just couldn't happen-and I had to do my laundry today.
Turkey day is coming up and my lil sis and bil will be here soon. I'm excited but at the same time, we're all going to be pretty busy. Thankfully I'm going to ask off for a few days-well, I'm thinking about it at least. We're suppose to get some family pictures done as well...we'll see.
I'm glad that I'm not stressed as I was a few months ago. But turn one leaf to only find more cobwebs and spiders lurking underneath, I swear! It's not hard, just complicated and frustrating. Many times I just want to throw my hands up and say screw it. But I know in my heart I can't do that.
*sigh* it's funny how busy I am and how forgetful I've been lately....rega rdless somehow, some way-I find myself thinking about you. I probably shouldn't be...and maybe it's naive of me to even think of u in such a way. You'd figure someone as old as I-would not get so giddy-like a lil school girl but there's just something about you. I'm not going to let it get to this dear head of mine. It is what it is, whatever that may be. For now, it's like a cute puppy....somet hing that brightens up this dark hole of mine...somethi ng that makes me smile and forget about all my worries-even if it's for a second. I thank you for that...because some days I feel like I'll never crawl out of this dark hole...and sometimes I feel like I'll eventually get buried alive. There's no one to save me....but myself. So even though you don't know it, I appreciate your existence-even if you go throughout your day huffing and puffing about your daily tribulations-know that there's someone here who thinks the world of you. Thank you-for giving me a taste of what happiness could be.