It did stop me from having any friends for a very long time. I had problem trusting. It wasn't until 2004 when I met my best friend. I learned to trust again and open up. I guess it depends on what kind of friend you have too. Now, I just think that I can't control what happens behind my back. If it does happen, let it be so but I will not be friend nor try to repair that friendship with that person. I was young and naive back then so I accepted her apology but we've never been able to look at eachother the same way.