I wrote this to a dear luv back in the day when I was in 8th grade ('94). This was a luv who had "left" me and how I "coped" with the separation and deep feelings still lingering after the fact. When you're young....it's funny how one person meant the whole world to you (and you thought you knew what luv was all about). Anyway, enjoy.
Dreams of Loneliness
Long ago I had a dream
A dream about you
My once true love
A man of generosity, patience, and warmth
Something I once held on to
And never wanted to set free
But in my heart
You are cherished and kept safe
Nothing to harm you as you go through your day
Knowing that you'll be happy no matter where you are or whatever you may be doing
It brings your spirit out of you
Shining brightly through
A candle to guide me through my lonely nights
With you I feel complete
Yet, we live separate lives of unknown paths
Death may be beyond at the end
But together?
Might not be
You're living with unconscious thoughts contradicting my vibes
As hard as I may try
I can't make things work
So, on with my life
Setting you free is one of my dreams
That I may have
Hard to do
'Cause in my soul I kept you so close
Now you're on your own
Doing like before--whatever pleased you
Desperately holding on
But broken dreams are sensible things
That are not able to mend as well as a broken heart
Words have been left unsaid
Thoughts of you sweetly melting away with the winter snow
Slowly running through the river
Drifting along my path I follow and see you no more
Patiently I wait to see if you will come back
But I was out of luck
Along your path you have gone
My dream I once dreamt long ago
Lost and is among the white clouds
maybe heaven is a place where we'll meet
But our paths will only tell us our destiny
This dream is one to save and cherish
But only fools would do so
Moments drifting in my mind only making me more sad
Tears not of joy for taking my heart
Broken, that is
To lose you, my heart shall be of no more
To death I see myself, dreaming dreams of a fantasy.