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My Username
« on: June 18, 2016, 06:25:29 PM »
I am a writing a poem of how I came up with my username. I've had this username for a long time now and to be honest I've came a long way. I've outgrown this name by a long stretch... I need a new username, lol, anyway I wanted to share a part of me that's vulnerable and also at the same time I'm not ashamed that this happened to me, I'm thankful. Thanks for reading.

The Phoenix

I met you a long time ago,
But when you left,
It was then that I realized...
I had lost a part of myself,
I didn't know who I was anymore,
7 years seem like a long time,
7 years of commitment and sacrifice,
Came to an end in 7 seconds.
Why?

When I met you I was different,
I was confident, I was smart,
You said you loved me,
And that we'd be together forever,
Through the years of being together,
We shaped each other like clay,
Somehow things don't stay the same,
Where did you go?
And what did you do?
How did you change that we became strangers?
I guess I had changed too.

So many promises made,
All shattered like glasses,
How can you be so cruel?
Silent tears welled up and stream down my face,
Night after night I didn't sleep,
Day after day I didn't eat,
My friends said that it'll be okay,
My family said that they'd love me no matter what,
But deep down inside I was dying,
My heart swelled up inside my chest,
Darkness and loneliness were my best friend,
I wasn't suicidal but I sat and courted death,

Why won't these feeling go away?
Do I convince myself to still love you?
What do I need to do?
How can I have you back?
These ridiculous thoughts ran through my mind,
Day in and day out,
You are my world,
One day I thought... if I changed myself,
I'd have you back.

Many moons came,
And many suns rose,
I thought of you,
I hoped that you were doing well,
That I was a changed person and secretly you'd come back,
After a while the thoughts of you became fuzzy,
I even forgot about you,
Now I can't remember your face,
I realize that we were both young,
We didn't know what we want,
I'm glad that we met and even gladder that we left,
It helped to shape the person that I am today,
I don't have any regrets.




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Re: My Username
« Reply #1 on: June 19, 2016, 02:19:36 PM »
This is a nice, revealing, and intimate piece.  Some people don't like opening up and sharing a personal part of themselves, so thank you.   O0



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« Reply #2 on: June 20, 2016, 08:54:12 AM »
I'm an open book being vulnerable is a strength :).  Thank you tRouBLe for your compliment.



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« Reply #3 on: June 20, 2016, 09:43:07 AM »
Thank you for sharing. That moment of closure and being whole again is a wonderful feeling isn't it?



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« Reply #4 on: June 20, 2016, 11:08:22 AM »
Definitely is, you're welcome :)

Now I am so comfortable with myself my own mother wonders if I'm ever going to get married. :2funny:



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« Reply #5 on: June 21, 2016, 03:05:49 PM »
As far as personal experience, the natural progression goes;

First Crush > Puppy Love > High School Sweethearts > First Long Relationship > First Serious Relationship > First Can't-Live-Without-Them Breakup > Rediscovery > Last Love

And in the end you discover the advice your parent's have been giving you was absolutely right the entire time.



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« Reply #6 on: June 21, 2016, 09:18:19 PM »
I'm an open book being vulnerable is a strength :).  Thank you tRouBLe for your compliment.

You're welcome and yes, it can be a strength depending on the individual.   ;D



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« Reply #7 on: June 29, 2016, 03:17:27 PM »
As far as personal experience, the natural progression goes;

First Crush > Puppy Love > High School Sweethearts > First Long Relationship > First Serious Relationship > First Can't-Live-Without-Them Breakup > Rediscovery > Last Love

And in the end you discover the advice your parent's have been giving you was absolutely right the entire time.

Hahaha. Thanks for the progression chart. I guess I'm in the ... "don't give a shit" stage which is probably the same as the Rediscovery stage :).



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