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Our "friendship" Breakup
« on: July 11, 2016, 05:32:55 PM »
I wrote this because I am going through a friendship break up... I didn't know these things existed... BFF's are real. I liked my friend so much...even though she's ugly and doesn't offer much in terms of looks, I thought she was so cool and one of the nicest people I met. And then one day, she seemed off in her game, so I asked her what's wrong. Without explanation... she said that once she cuts someone out of her life, she doesn't go back on her word. I was so shocked... I didn't know what to say. She was a phoney from the start and I fell for her 'nice' trap. That's why I wrote a poem today. To explain how I feel about this female dog. JK, let's pretend to be friends again.  8)

Our Breakup

Today you didn't say a thing,
When all days you happily greet me,
I wonder what went wrong?
Things don't seem right,
"Good morning" I muttered,
But you don't look at me,

Your presence is awkward,
I look at you in silence,
A piece of me screams,
"What's wrong ...what did I do?"

Moment by moment,
I try to think of what to say,
The air is too heavy,
It's hard to breathe,

Instead... I gaze down at the floor,
Throat closed up... hard to talk.
Is this it...? I wonder...
Sadden at my loss of words,
I shake my head and walk away, ...(I'm sorry)

Weeks went by,
I see you every morning,
We don't say a thing,
Yet we stand here working together in silence,

I'm getting tired,
I don't know what's going on, ...(please say something)
When work is done,
We separate like oil and water,

Days are long with nothing to do,
I don't see you because I work nights...,
The evenings draw out like long shadows,
They come and they go, ...(I can't let go)

I walk through these lonely passageways,
Once boisterous by our laughter,
You walk silently by,
Shining like a ray of sunlight,

It's all a pretend game,
You stare off into the distance,
As though I don't exist,
And I don't care to see you,
As though you died, ...(I'm dying)

The hardest part of all this,
Is not talking to someone,
You used to talk to everyday,
Now we act like two complete strangers,

After some time I started thinking,
I started to get angry, (why are you like this?)
I don't understand it, please,
How can someone who says they are your best friend,
Quickly turn 180 and walk away from you,
Without the slightest of clues,

I fumed with hatred toward you,
I fumed through your pettiness; your irrationality,
I didn't care if you didn't know but, I didn't want to care for you,
And every pain you had, I laughed at you,
Every laugh you had, I laughed at your fakeness,
My sanity lied in the way I despised you,

Then one strange day,
They came to me...and told me something I couldn't hear loud enough,
They said that they were taking me away...
My heart sunk into despair,
Is this is it? Will we never have another chance?
But I still care and I'm still hurt,
I don't know if your heart is so cold...
No, I refuse to tell you.

Remember last year....?
It's kind of funny how ...for the same exact reason,
We went to lunch and when we came back,
There was already a girl here,
They said they sent her here to replace me.
Our heartstrings tugged and pulled,
The distraught look on your face were like those of a puppy,

Back then we sat together in sadness in silence,
Holding on to each other's company,
Neither one wanted to lose the other,

My friend we were so close together,
Now you act like you don't know me,
We work in the same space you and I,
Yet you stand so far away from me as if I'm the plague,
My heart's bleeding through my sleeve,
I don't get the coldness?

There is no point to this senselessness.
I still don't know what I did wrong,
I don't know why you're so mad,
Why did you build up the great wall,
Divide us like 57th parallel,
I guess I'll never know and I guess ignorance is bliss,

But I'm now going through a fork in the road,
Things are changing too fast and I'm too young to die,
I realized that... it doesn't really matter,
You'll never gave me an explanation,
Why you ended our friendship,
Why would you even tell me...
Presumably, I'm the worst person ever,
Or maybe you were wrong and couldn't face me?

Yet I laugh even louder without you,
I know I'm still awesome and people want me on their team,
You just couldn't handle it,
And if I ever met a stubborn cow, you're it,

Even though I've done a lot for you,
Without asking for anything in return,
You've done nothing but be a good friend to me,
But, one that also shut me down without a word!
What's a good friend to me?

I still think about you and what not...
Things with words... words and stuff...
I don't know how to come to terms,
Will we never be friends again?

It still hurts to think about it...
Last I checked I'm fine,
What does a little sting matter really?
I accept that you'll never look at me again,
And I won't waste the time of day on you,

In this small, small world, this small life we chose,
Where one can neither escape the other for a while,
I did my best as any friend could do,
I loved and supported everything you did,
Anything and everything about you.

Forget it.

With this said, even if we were to meet again,
I won't pretend that I don't know you,
I'll do us a favor and erase you from my memory,
So that your pretentious dreams come true,
My heart is no longer filled with black but blue,
Au revoir stranger, goodbye... adieu.


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Re: Our "friendship" Breakup
« Reply #1 on: July 20, 2016, 02:27:03 PM »
I didn't know what was wrong but I realized much later... I couldn't provide her the codependant relationship she desired. I don't want the person to be needy of me. Some people are just unloved and unstable. It IS sad. I am sad because I treasured what I thought was a true friendship but... how can I lose something that isn't even there.

It made for a really interesting poem. I hope it can speak to anyone who has ever lost a close friend. We all go through these hard aspects of life together :).



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Re: Our "friendship" Breakup
« Reply #2 on: July 28, 2016, 03:14:04 PM »
I enjoyed it.



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Making a hundred friends is not a miracle. The miracle is to make a single friend who will stand by your side even when hundreds are against you.

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Re: Our "friendship" Breakup
« Reply #3 on: July 28, 2016, 05:21:23 PM »
Thank you yubnag. =]



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Re: Our "friendship" Breakup
« Reply #4 on: August 02, 2016, 08:07:49 AM »
Dang!  Are you sure it was just a friendship??!?!

Other than my family and relatives, I only have maybe 2 BFF's, I'm glad to say we haven't broke up yet.

They're actually good friends.


Anyways, that's a pretty nice poem.



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Re: Our "friendship" Breakup
« Reply #5 on: August 02, 2016, 08:09:44 AM »
I remember when one of my bff would go on vacation or I would go on vacation and when either one would get back we'd be like "man!  You was gone for too long!  Work



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Re: Our "friendship" Breakup
« Reply #6 on: August 11, 2016, 04:56:09 AM »
Dang!  Are you sure it was just a friendship??!?!

Hahaha, it's a BFF so yes, it's more than friendship, lol.

What really happened... the week prior we had some argument about nothing--she cursed me out for asking why she was standing behind me at an outside event. I asked her what's wrong. She said 'nothing'. So I left her alone. A few days later I asked her why she was like that and she told me that, what I did was the same thing as 'physically' hurting her--to that, I told her she's irrational.

Some other small things happen after that i.e. like ignoring her FB message, lol, but normal people get over that.

Well, the morning of... she didn't talk to me so I jokingly asked her, "... are we still friends?" She didn't say anything at first. Then after a good 20-30 seconds, she answered "I don't know... once I let someone go, I usually don't take them back."

I told my cousin and she said, "that's weird, people only say that in relationships."

We're not in a relationship. Lol. We just liked a lot of the same things, laughed at the same things, at work our work ethic is the same, she's the only one more knowledgable than me, yet she follows me and looks up to me, and we were really good friends, looked out for each other... went through a lot together... suddenly over nothing, she calls it off.

There's really no sense in thinking about what went wrong since she isn't willing to talk. But I guess that was her nice way of saying I don't want to be friends with you anymore. She has her own reasons so whatever makes her happy it's fine.

Other than my family and relatives, I only have maybe 2 BFF's, I'm glad to say we haven't broke up yet.

They're actually good friends.

Anyways, that's a pretty nice poem.

Thanks, you're a lucky person, keep it that way.



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Re: Our "friendship" Breakup
« Reply #7 on: August 18, 2016, 12:25:05 AM »
Well my Bff at the time... he's still a good friend but we don't work together anymore don't even talk anymore, but I'm sure if we ever run into each other's neck of the woods and call each other up we'd just pick up where we left off.

Anyways, he said to me once... and he was serious about it...

He told me, he was contemplating whether he should be a real friend with me.  He told me all his real  friends are New York Knicks fans.  He said he thought long and hard but eventually he reasoned with himself that I'm actually a good guy and someone worth keeping as a friend.  He said I'm the only real friend that's not a knicks fan.

I looked at him like he was crazy, gave him a look saying "you're basing if you should keep me as a real friend on a basketball team??!?!?"   

He's a good guy. 




But oh wells!  Sorrie to hear about your situation, I know how going through hardships, working together through tough times, understanding certain situations and obstacles can bring people closer together.  I guess your bff just got hurt.  Maybe it was just the way you said it to her.  You said she looks up to you so you know how it is.  Usually when someone looks up to you and you say something and she took it the wrong way, they do really get hurt.  Why?  Heck if I know.  Probably becuase they see you as someone who'd never hurt them I guess.



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Re: Our "friendship" Breakup
« Reply #8 on: May 28, 2019, 07:12:35 PM »
I had never considered BFF...to me it stood for betraying f.ocking friend.  It's someone who will screw you over when you least expected.  And it's happened over many times.

I had thought that perhaps I needed someone as an older brother or even a younger brother in essences of a bonded external family.  I guess that even that wasn't enough, in the end they left at my time of need.

Even through all the things we did together.  When I had my accident and basically comatose and returned with amnesia.  That's when he made the exit.  I was left alone and mixed without any understanding of what's reality and what's fictionalized scenario.  I did things subconsciously, easily convince of anything.  I was a victim of anyone who wanted to violate me mentally or physically.  When I regain some senses, I felt dirtied through all of that.

Now I know a little better... :D
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