The Not so private Diary of JonniJacco

[JonniJacko]

Tseem tsis tau hlig, nyuam qhua pib xwb
koj tsis yog moog phem, yog moog zoo
koj yog tus ntuj xaiv, ib tug ntuj txib

Txhob xav hlig, cia li tuaj siab
Txhob muaj xav ntau, us li kom tau
Ntau li ntau

Suav ntev, yog tsis txaum tiam no
Suav lwm tiam, Ua taub mus
lwm zaus thiab li yooj yim

Yeej ib txwm tsis tau hlig
Yeej tsis tau pib
ntau leej ntau tus
ntshaw koj txoj moog

Ntsua yog koj tsis xav pib xwb
Ua kom tau, ntau li ntau
Li lub ntuj txib

[JonniJacko]

Sorry, but I must go now. I will remember you- all the best

[JonniJacko]

Waking up feelin like the old me
Felt good but felt somethin missin

Can't run away from it
Wish this feeling would go away
But I want to know
Will I regret if I really do

Yes, I would......... .

Yes, I would.......

[JonniJacko]

I got there, but the store I was looking for wasn't there. At least, not anymore. I look around, and notice all the stores in the shopping center were all different from what I can remember from last time. I got confused. I started walking around and making small talks to strangers and asking questions where's the store I was looking for. They all look at me with confusion. "Burly what? Are you sure?" and "Hon, do you know where there is a Burlington store?"- "sorry, we're probably the wrong people to ask" As I walked more, I notice nobody, including myself had a cell phone. I walked into a housing complex, It look a little run down, and there, two men my age look at me. One of them complimented on my shirt, the other asked where I get my shoes. I was confuse, they were very normal attire. Nothing special. Probably even a little outdated and out of style I thought to myself.

I walked out and stop by a bleacher. When I notice 3-4 young boys, small but husky walking towards me with logs over their shoulders. Some little girls were playing joyfully nearby, and one of them came and asked me "are you going to help us build a tree house too?".

It was at this moment I knew, I was awake in this dream. Or was it a dream? I grew frustrated. All the roads, landscapes, and even street signs were the same or similar to how I remember them, but the stores, the people, and atmosphere was different. I knew, I have to close my eyes and fall asleep to get out of this situation. As soon as I fell asleep in this "dream", I slowly felt what might be my soul or spirite gliding back into my body and as soon as it settle in- I woke up from my...sleep.

The message here, don't take life for granted. Life could be worse, or less. In other parallel universes it is. And then the voice came to me "You got to do better, you can do better, you need to do better-some people would take your place in a flash in your current realm if they knew such exists....."

*just for entertainment folks, this experience really happened, but maybe I was just high on caffeine, or had caffeine crash. LOL

But what if parallel universes do exists?

I always knew this particular Burlington had a place in my heart. The location, the energy. It's serenity and solace vibe. The calm it gives me in low moments. I'm not a fashion junkie but due to my work, I constantly need new shirts the past 6 years or so and this was the store.

Stop by today and the store is close up. They are moving to a new location.

I knew I wasn't crazy, the experience above was a premonition for sure. I'm a little sadden, but it's good to know the force is still with me. Haha

[JonniJacko]

Dear family, this is a message from the truth, the fate of this world does not lie in the hands of the truth, but in the hands of us as humans. Life here is very short, it is very temporary. Value what matters most. That is, the things money cannot buy. Love, compassion and faith. Choose your poison or choose your blessings.

This world we exist on, was first created for good intentions, but many have betray the Truth, It is speaking to us, it is indeed trying to save us all. Everything in the Bible is true. The signs are every where,............

Let the Truth set you free......

[JonniJacko]

He shyly asked me if I could put down my contact info. He's applying for the police academy and needed a neighbor reference. I said, yeah, of course, I can do that. He became very enthusiastic. I asked him for his name. How old, and if he has a clean background. He said yes. I said we definitely need more Hmong police officers out there, esp. detectives. He said that he was leaning more into the swat thing, but thank me for the suggestion. I gave him some positive words. I can tell he was truly grateful. He was sent my way for my blessings.

Seen this kid grew up, walk to and home from school. And this was the first time we ever spoke. His parents raise him up right.

[JonniJacko]

They say life is what you make of it, but how do you really smile and laugh genuinely, how do you stay positive during war time, esp, when under fire. Maybe we were all sent here only to experience pain, heartbreak, and disappointment-so we don't take what's to come for granted- hopefully some place much better. Value those very few who truly has your back, wants nothing but genuine friendship, loves you for who you are, stand with you in your beliefs, and will die for or with you.....Pain is only temporary for those who believe. Live and love like you are at the mercy of the Truth- You do not want to come back here again, or somewhere much worse next time-The sad truth is, it's only gonna get worse from here on. There.. will... be... a final day.....just ask the dinosaurs....

[JonniJacko]

Lord, I'm sorry. I don't think I was able to save this person. Why must I fail this last one. Is my mission over. I do not want to be like everyone else.

One day you will understand, I would never set you up for failure

Lord,,,,

Enough,,,,....


Sorry fam, the time has come to an end here. Thanks to everyone who ever pm me, telling me how much I restore some faith and love back into your life. It's only because of the Truth, I am nothing with ITS blessings. Apparently, the truth wants me to finally live for myself and enjoy whatever  time I have left here. I don't want to, but I am only human after all, and the pain and challenges will only become overpowering from here on if I don't move on to the next chapter of this lonely journey.

Bless you All

[JonniJacko]

Boss said for me to take an hour lunch if I'm willing to go fetch him a pack of cigarettes and beers. Lol drove to 7/11. Got my chicken wings, my tea and the boss's stuff. A mean looking clerk rang up the stuffs. Asked me how old I am. I said 25. She said I.D. I hand her my i.d and said just joking, I'm 40. She laughed out loud and her co clerk laughed out loud as well. She then handed back my I d and said you look no more than 21. Lol

I knew I shouldn't have shave this morning. Lol

[JonniJacko]

You don't realize you've been walking on the path of darkness until you realize that the road starts to look familiar, realizing, you have been walking in circles and that, that light in the end of the tunnel, is not attainable, unless you take that leap of faith over the burning pit that separates the dark road and the light.


Slay the last of your demons. Your time is running out.........

[JonniJacko]

Sister n law asked me if I remember Tammy. I said who? Tammy, Lous ex wife. I responded I know Lou and his wife separated but I don't know her like that. Why the hell you bringing her up, Lou is a good guy. Lol well Lou cheated on her. But she said before meeting Lou you guys use to chat on Hmongtalk all the time. I have to think back hard. Okay I remember a Tammy now but we never did meet in person and we fizzle out. Then it dawn on me, Lous ex wife does look a lot like the photos I remember this Tammy girl sent me. I didn't know Tammy was just her nickname. In real life she goes by her birth Hmong name. Lol Maybe she look different in person. I thought to myself, no wonder this girl always give me a slight smile during extended family gatherings. Sometimes in front of Lou. I never thought much of it but that that's just how she is with everyone.

I said sorry, she had her chance a long time ago . Lol