4- I was introduced to music and singing became my newest obsession. I loveeeee to sing as a little girl and I remembered singing at home/school and also with my little group of friends at the neighborhood park.
1st-5th grade- Even though I attended the same school as my cousins and friends, I didn't get the same teacher or room like them. I was always with the mekas kids because I scored higher on my reading. It really sucks though.
Each year, my cousins started moving away because of job opportunities for their siblings and I was the only one left by the time I was in 5th grade. I remembered my parents moved and I had to relocate to a different school and leaving my friends behind was so sad. Half way through 5th grade I was placed in a different class without Asian kids and it was very sad.
6 grade- My first and last art class that I took. I did an art project made from scrape and it was unique so it got placed in the library. I made a figure of a man in a hula hoop his and his head was made out of a empty thread holder. I had no interest in art because I feel I wasn't artistic enough so this was my last art class that I ever took until this age.
7th grade- I took a music class and I didn't enjoyed it as much as I thought I would.
8th grade- Converted from Shamanism to Christianity and I was very shy to sing or attend church because the Leaders were not well organized. I didn't know how to read Hmong in the first place so there's no way I was able to sing in Hmong and follow along.
9-12th grade- I was introduced to cooking. I started learning how to cook american food and I especially enjoyed baking. I learned my measurements and whatsoever. I also started learning how to read in Hmong. I didn't like boys but I had a crush on a neighbor. When I see him outside with our other neighbors, I would be so shy to see him or even go outside.
I learned how to wear makeup and dye my own hair. I started talking to older guys when I was in junior year and those I met from online chatting. I was talking to older guys and they taught me to be wise and to act mature. I guess I should give them thanks.
My senior year, I stopped talking to older guys and started talking to guys around my age. I noticed, my attitude changed and I wasn't that nice young lady a year before. I didn't go to prom because my sister didn't so no prom or high school grad night either.
I was talking to my first ex a few months before graduation.
19- I was living life and doing lots of things. I broke up with my first ex because I didn't want to get married. I got my license a year before and was driving my parents pick up truck. More like sneaking when they're not using it.
20- Got diagnosed with Hypothyroidism and they removed my thyroid by radiation. Started gaining weight afterward...
21-33 Dated my Mexican boyfriend. Did a lot of things... Lose weight, gain weight and whatever's on my mind. Left my Mexican boyfriend after 12 years of being together in June 27 2018. A few days later in June 30th 2018, dated a Mien guy. In October, got diagnosed with depression. Was heartbroken and whatsoever...
34 years old-Still learning to take it one day at a time and a new chapter is about to begin. My future goal is to get well, healthy, lose weight and relocate to Sacramento.
I learned that you must learn to love yourself no matter how old you are. If you don't, you'll get hurt in the long run. You need to find some activities that you enjoyed doing to help relieve stress and make life more enjoyable. Still learning in the process.