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Re: Drunk on LOve...
« Reply #30 on: April 28, 2020, 11:02:38 PM »
Xenogears...I dream a dream.

Fei Fong Wong
Dreaming...
I was dreaming... Perhaps it may have been but a long forgotten memory...

A dream... A memory...

Things remembered when one is asleep... Things forgotteen when one is awake...

Where the deepest layers of memories become the outmost layers of one's dreams...

Which are reality? Which are illusions? One cannot tell until one awakes...

Or perhaps they are, at the same time, both truth and fiction...

A vast nebulous... With no boundaries...

An emptiness equivalent to my own existence...

I dreamt such a dream...

A long, never-ending dream...

[Scene between Lacan and Mother Sophia]

Dreams...

A life of a man named Lacan... And the lives of countless other men...

All but dreams...

Now that I am awake, those countless numbers of long, heartrending dreams are almost impossible to remember at all...

In those dreams, I loved one woman... no matter the day, no matter the era... That did not change...

Nor did her name...

That dream changed me... That dream was the catalyst for me to resolve what my purpose was.

I think I know now... what I have to do...

That long, long memory of a dream... Perhaps it was the memory of my soul.

Elhaym Van Houten
A dream...
I was dreaming a dream... Or perhaps it was a memory from a distant past...

A dream... A memory...

Those words I was unable to convey... That day... That time...

Those thoughts I was unable to carry out...

Words and thoughts... The connection between the two...

Without words, thoughts cannot be conveyed... Without thoughts, there are no words... They are both as vital as each other...

They can never be divided... Like the wings of angels... Like a man and a woman...

An unchangeable destiny... Feelings one wishes one could change...

Meeting with the person who would change me... And watching myself change...

I dreamt such a dream...

A long... Never-ending, Dream...

[Scene between Lacan and Mother Sophia]

Dreams...

A life of a woman named Sophia... And the lives of countless other women...

All but dreams...

Now that I am awake, those countless numbers of long, heartrending dreams are almost impossible to remember at all...

In those dreams, I loved one man... No matter the day, no matter the era... That did not change...

Only his name...

That dream changed me... That dream was the catalyst for me to resolve what my purpose was.

I think I know now... What I have to do...

That long, long memory of a dream... That perhaps was the memory of my soul..

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=25LoJ3E99NU



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Re: Drunk on LOve...
« Reply #31 on: April 28, 2020, 11:22:00 PM »
Xenogears...Sm all of Two Pieces

Run through the cold of night as passion burns your heart
Ready to fight, a knife held close by your side
Like a proud wolf alone in the dark with eyes that watch the world
And my name like a shadow on the face of the moon

Broken mirror
A million shades of light
The old echo fades away
But just you and I
Can find the answer and then
We can run to the end of the world
We can run to the end of the world

Cold fire clenched to my heart in the blue of night
Torn by this pain, I paint your name in sound
And the girl of the dawn with eyes of blue and angel wings
The songs of the season are her only crown

Broken mirror
A million shades of light
The old echo fades away
But just you and I
Can find the answer and then
We can run to the end of the world
We can run to the end of the world

We met in the mist of morning
And parted deep in the night
Broken sword and shield and tears that never fall
But run through the heart
Washed away by the darkest water
The world is peaceful and still

Broken mirror
A million shades of light
The old echo fades away
But just you and I
Can find the answer and then
We can run to the end of the world
We can run to the end of the world

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Re: Drunk on LOve...
« Reply #32 on: April 29, 2020, 01:14:13 AM »
The Trinity of Love

The mind, psychologicall y
The heart, emotionally
The genitals, physiologicall y



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Re: Drunk on LOve...
« Reply #33 on: June 09, 2020, 09:42:04 AM »
7 common/colors of love or to why, I am that way while the drunk wine talks.

Eros. A sexual desire as in romantic in pursuit.
Philia.  A trusting friendship and good will in pursuit.
Familia. Family in pursuit, especially that between a parent and child, unconditional in nature.
Agape. A universal type of love.  Jesus Christ in pursuit.  Jesus loves you, I love you.
Ludus.  The love of sports, competition, or training in life.  "I love Kung Fu"
Pragma. The love of support, loyalty, or duty.  Commitment in long term pursuit.
Philautia.  Self love. Confidence, self esteem, ego in pursuit.

What does it mean when I say, "I love that about you..."
I have a genuine interest in you, a romantic desire. An intimacy both in mind and body.
I want a trusting friendship and good relationship with you.  A loving conversation always, whenever, where ever.
I want us to be together, make a life, living together, be a family.  We will build our future on it.
I just have a genuine love interest for you, in you, with you.  We will show the world our love.
I love to make myself a better person because of you, for you, for us, for the world we will create.
I have this love, to show you, to support you, my duty while I am with you.  The world will see our love is forever.
I have enough love from myself, enough to share with you, to show you how I can share this love with you and the world we have together.

I am pretty much the same as before...I believe I didn't change that much from what I was looking for. The reality check is age and time has changed. There is my philosophy of love and it has become more.

When I was young, I looked for that friendship along with intimate love, both Philia and Eros. I had hope to develop it into a Familia love. I had knew that within myself love didn't just happen from an external stimuli. I had this person, self love Philautia. I saw how I appreciate little things about others, say an aesthetic beauty in others.
As I grew past my adolescence, I began to see withing myself I had this temporary crush on people or in certain activities. It was a Ludus love. I wanted to chase or be chased. I wanted interaction. I wanted to be immersed in the presence.

In my young adult years, I began to develop this desire of a long term relationship. It was apparent in the choices I was making in life. I had a commitment, a loyalty, a duty to myself and others. Deep down inside, I was looking for such a partner in life. My Philia, my Eros, my Familia, my Philautia was all pointing to this Pragma love.

Despite everything that has happen, in the midst of all the wrongful things, pain and hurt I have received, I still held deep from within my that only I can truly have the integrity and resolve to my philosophy of love. Thus this made me see an Agape love about myself and my existence in the world.
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There seems to be seven main colors/shades to my philosophy of love. That person I'm looking for should coexist with those qualities/characteristics. Most of all, it ebbs and flows, the dynamic synergy of it. Yesterday is done and remembered. Tomorrow has not come yet. Today is today, the moment of.
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I wasn't drunk.  I was just waking up from sleep...



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Re: Drunk on LOve...
« Reply #34 on: June 25, 2020, 11:31:02 AM »
To that person that I want to love...

If there was one thing bad you would say about yourself, I would like to find ten things I would like to say about yourself.



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Re: Drunk on LOve...
« Reply #35 on: July 14, 2020, 05:55:05 AM »
Another reiteration...

Your flaws are what makes you astonishing. Your goofiness is what makes you so lovable. Your weaknesses are what makes you adorable. Your frailty is what makes you so precious.

Makes me want to love you, protect you, comfort you. After all there is only one of you, so only you.

There is only one of me and only me. My concerns, my treasures, my shortcomings, my resolve in life makes me want to share, to show, to discover, to grow with you in this moment and whatever time we have to live with.



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Re: Drunk on LOve...
« Reply #36 on: July 14, 2020, 06:26:28 AM »
Dear soulmate...Dea r

You need to yank on my soul chain a little bit harder.
Bang on my soul gong with the soul hammer a bit louder.
I am among just one wondering soul life
Bleed me more with the back of the soul knife
Speak to me, in my lucid soul dream
Feel me in my soul of misty steam

...or just stop being so scaredy cat, chicken out, cold feet
...or just stop being so timeless, wishless, off beat
A soul is always connected so they say
Alas afar away when will come that day
I am here, waiting or wandering, praying or wishing
When you get here, open arms, smiling and receiving

Dare soulmate...Dar e.



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