Yer Shao, Tswv ntuj, sky king, each race/culture has a name for the sky king. Why? within each human being God puts his existence in their awareness/consciousness so that no one has excuse about his existence.
I know you just don't want to admit it but within you, you believe there's a higher power at works in the world, universe just that you don't know who, what, where it is...
If you don't, you're NOT normal or in denial like some people think covid is not real, put their heads in the sand, out of sight, out of mind.