i have let myself down once to many times in my life. THIS was the WAKE UP call that SHOULD NOT have ever happened. tee as much as you say "ur a grown man u can make up your own mind" yes we all are grown folks. and i made up my mind to drink the way i do. to do the things i do. and those are my weaknesses as an adult. many times in our lives we are sooooo afraid to seek help either from friends. family. or other. now i am seeking all your help. people always say, "i cant help him if he doesnt want to help himself" now i am asking for it. i am not looking for help. i seek it. this is rock bottom for me. this IS the biggest set back in my life. i have to re-tool myself as a human being. to understand my weaknesses and build upon them into strengths. i know the road to recovery is NOT an easy one. but i hope with all you as great friends that you are, itll be a smoother ride from here on out.