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Creative Corner => Online Journal => Topic started by: yubnag on May 27, 2009, 03:31:00 PM
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I've been so fed up. For once, it's not relationship problems. I'm cool with that now. Other than that,
the only major thing left in my life is my family. Yeah, that must be it. I haven't gone away from them
since December of 2008. I've been stuck here with them, tolerating their crap. I feel so much pressure,
pressing me from every where.
Too bad I'd missed my bonus during last quarter. I'd said that I'd spend that money on myself, perhaps
go out of town or something like that. But suddenly, I'd spent it all on paying bills. That's where most
of my income goes towards anyway. I usually have no problem with that but, I've been finding it to
be intolerable to pay for so much bills, bills that I didn't not caused alone, per se. Everyone that lives
here uses, electricity, gas, water, garbage, the cable. Yet, they blindly avoid paying for the share they've
consumed. I really wouldn't mind paying for so much but when I need help, I really need help and no one helps.
I've always thought that since I'm the bread winner in this household, I'd cover for more of the expense
but lately, I feel like it's only been me, whom has been making the sacrifices. Living at with my parents
and siblings didn't suck until now.
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alcohol is my friend in those cases... no lie!
I'm abstaining from alcohol but thanks.
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cancel the cable! who cares about that anyways!
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YEAH, cable ain't all that. Plus, with this current weather, you do not need heat. My husband and I have not turned our heat on for a month. No need for AC either, that's what your windows are for.
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YEAH, cable ain't all that. Plus, with this current weather, you do not need heat. My husband and I have not turned our heat on for a month. No need for AC either, that's what your windows are for.
central valley in cali u will die with no AC!
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central valley in cali u will die with no AC!
When I visited my cousins there one summer, they did not have AC and I'm still breathing..hah a
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When I visited my cousins there one summer, they did not have AC and I'm still breathing..hah a
i couldnt do it......110 in the summer
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Honey, if you don't have AC in Fresno during the summer,
you'll be cooked. The mayor of Fresno declared a state
of emergency about a year ago because people kept dying
from the heat. The heat in Fresno is no joke.
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You had me for a moment...
It ended quickly as it began. I don't know what made you do the things
you did. But you know, in the end someone got very hurt. I know I couldn't
have been as hurt as she was. Somewhere deep down, your actions revealed
to her that you don't love her in the way she wanted you to. But as we know
it, you're just a man and you have needs. That's why you came to me.
And gosh, you were good. You had me for a moment. You had me writing
"P.... + J.... = 4ever", decorated with red hearts and gleaming stars. Yeah,
I posted that sh.it on my bed wall, right next to my pillow like a little girl,
head over heals for a boy, for the first time.
Yeah, I'll admit, you had me all falling for you and dangling at your hands.
I made you the joy of my day and my comfort. I allowed you to caress my
body and leave your kisses on my skin. I even let you strum my hair as
you smiled at me. And I even let my heart be filled with such sweet
romance that you were romancing me with. I craddled your head in my arms,
your heavy head rested on my chest but I didn't mind. You made me
speechless when you said, "I can sleep with the soothing of your rising
and dropping chest. " Man, I felt absolutely special, not to mention complete.
It's a good thing she never caught you with me. It was better that I caught
you with her because you know, I deserved better. I just hate it that
you couldn't even develop the decency to tell me that you've changed. I'd
understand, you know I've always been understanding. But you're not the
understanding type. That's why you could never be honest with me. I did put
up with all your crap towards the ending but that wasn't enough to save
us.
So my last option to cut you lose or I'll lose too. You were caving, you couldn't
feel the magic anymore. I did what I had to do. I packed my bags, left and
got out of your way. Sure it hurted me. And you'd promised to rub that in my
face until I die. But you know what, I'll never hurt myself more than you've
ever hurted me. Don't be upset that your reign it over. Cherish our best memories
and go love her, the other one, the one worth losing me over.
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Of all the things I can have, memories is not one of them.
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Why do I feel that a lot of Hmong people in Wisconsin are losing their minds, no offense?
The other day, I received a call from a Hmong man reporting that the Madison PD and two other
Hmong couples are conspiring to murder him. He wanted legal help in suing those that are
planning to murder him. After a lot of babbling, he says, "Okay, if I need to
talk again, I'll call back." That just left me dumbfounded. Was he joking?
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let it all out.
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Dude is a club carrying low-brow.
Over my head. ;D
let it all out.
Thanks I sure am.
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PaHay, you have a lot of good metaphors, I'm learning a lot. 8)
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Yeah? Could be worse. LoL :D
No, keep 'em nice! :D
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I'm sick of staying home.
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If you and your friends were closer...I'd take us out for dinner and drinks. Seriously!
Wouldn't that be nice?
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Hope- it's like one of those rainy days with dark clouds on one side, rain pouring through and through, meanwhile
the sun is shining from the other side of the sky of blue and white; you just know, just know that the rain will pass.
God's promise in the Eastern sky after the heavy rain and hail.
(http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/70/l_9a0e3e88f3c34238baa849deb9092f9a.jpg)
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Some book smart people have a serious lack of life lessons.
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I've been so fed up. For once, it's not relationship problems. I'm cool with that now. Other than that,
the only major thing left in my life is my family. Yeah, that must be it. I haven't gone away from them
since December of 2008. I've been stuck here with them, tolerating their crap. I feel so much pressure,
pressing me from every where.
Too bad I'd missed my bonus during last quarter. I'd said that I'd spend that money on myself, perhaps
go out of town or something like that. But suddenly, I'd spent it all on paying bills. That's where most
of my income goes towards anyway. I usually have no problem with that but, I've been finding it to
be intolerable to pay for so much bills, bills that I didn't not caused alone, per se. Everyone that lives
here uses, electricity, gas, water, garbage, the cable. Yet, they blindly avoid paying for the share they've
consumed. I really wouldn't mind paying for so much but when I need help, I really need help and no one helps.
I've always thought that since I'm the bread winner in this household, I'd cover for more of the expense
but lately, I feel like it's only been me, whom has been making the sacrifices. Living at with my parents
and siblings didn't suck until now.
i agree with the first 2 response... cancel cable... and have a family meeting with your family... let them know that they need to help... at least with one of the bill if not all... sorry to hear that you have to put up with your family in this way... but then again... you always have the option of moving out... since you do already pay for everything already... you will be fine on your own... :)
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i agree with the first 2 response... cancel cable... and have a family meeting with your family... let them know that they need to help... at least with one of the bill if not all... sorry to hear that you have to put up with your family in this way... but then again... you always have the option of moving out... since you do already pay for everything already... you will be fine on your own... :)
Thanks for reading and for your input.
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Mutherfucker!
Are some people really dumb or just acting it?
I just received the most annoying phone call, ever, in my line of work. This man called from Wisconsin asking
his state health plan to correct the mis-spelling of his daughter's name. When I took this call, it was the second
call he'd made today to his health care plan. In the first call, the correction was made already. So, then he receives
his mail and the health plan had mailed out a letter regarding his daughter with the mis-spelling. He then calls
back a second (this is the call I took), to make the correction. The health plan representative explained to him
that he'd already called in to make the changes, he was given instructions to call the state (only the state can make
permanent changes and then update the information with the health plan) to make the correction on his daughter's
name, and that change has already been updated with the health plan's system and proceeded to ask him what
else he may need. Again, he expressed his concern about his daughter's name. So, basically, the cycle of explanation
and question cycled about 3 times before I snapped and told him sternly so he'll understand.
I doubt he understood me and only claimed so, so I would calm down. Forgive me, if he is a person with a hindered
mental ability, but from his speech, he don't seem to be mentally challenged at all. After thinking about it, I think
he intentionally acted that way to annoy me!!
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Sharing my Sky!
(http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/149/l_392e1225e2f948e18e665940f682fd32.jpg)
(http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/147/l_8b71f6284fdf46eb80bfae11d4bb836c.jpg)
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what a cute puppy...awww how adorable
thanks!
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Mai, my condolences to you and your family. :'(
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I just washed all my winter clothes and stored them when it was in the mid 70's, yesterday!
Today, it's in the high 50's and chilly again! As a matter of fact, it just rained! >:(
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I've been so fed up. For once, it's not relationship problems. I'm cool with that now. Other than that,
the only major thing left in my life is my family. Yeah, that must be it. I haven't gone away from them
since December of 2008. I've been stuck here with them, tolerating their crap. I feel so much pressure,
pressing me from every where.
Too bad I'd missed my bonus during last quarter. I'd said that I'd spend that money on myself, perhaps
go out of town or something like that. But suddenly, I'd spent it all on paying bills. That's where most
of my income goes towards anyway. I usually have no problem with that but, I've been finding it to
be intolerable to pay for so much bills, bills that I didn't not caused alone, per se. Everyone that lives
here uses, electricity, gas, water, garbage, the cable. Yet, they blindly avoid paying for the share they've
consumed. I really wouldn't mind paying for so much but when I need help, I really need help and no one helps.
I've always thought that since I'm the bread winner in this household, I'd cover for more of the expense
but lately, I feel like it's only been me, whom has been making the sacrifices. Living at with my parents
and siblings didn't suck until now.
That's why you gotta move on your own sweetie!!!
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That's why you gotta move on your own sweetie!!!
Soon as my parents let me.
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It's damn cold today, 45 degrees! Unbelievable!
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Again, honesty is the best policy.
Some people claim to be friendly, talkative, open-minded, yet, they're not close to being congenial at all!
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It drives me nuts thinking about how much he gets me. :D
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A jam for me and him.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i5CE_metvqA&feature=related
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Sunday Afternoon
(http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/131/l_8b893d5c3b27462cbd41fef1fae9abc2.jpg)
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DAMN!
I think I write too much. I just typed a 4 page, single space, letter to my friend Phia.
Enjoy Phia!
;D
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It's either a vineyard, or some sort of citrus grove. Or is it something else? ???
I don't know. I was driving and photographing.
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It looks more like a vineyard.
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Nice pictures PahAy! Thanks for sharing!
I want a Persian Kitty
(http://www.catsofaustralia.com/images/persiankitten_22.jpg)
*Ahem* PahAy!
;D ;D ;D ;D
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I have black hair...spiked, sort of.
I hardly noticed!
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Back hurts, so much. :'(
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Notes*
Becoming a Category of One - Joe Calloway
Seven Habits of Highly Effective People - Stephen Covey
The Magic of Believing - Claude M. Bristol
Acres of Diamonds - Russell Herman Conwell
How to Win Friends & Influence People - Dale Carnegie
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Time to clear the inbox again. 8)
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Such a soothing, sad, and truthful song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fj61Z2PvHis&feature=PlayList&p=0DC1CCA9ACBD3DE5&playnext_from=PL&playnext=1&index=26
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This is a pretty dumb compliant! >:(
So, there is this Hmong lady from St. Paul who's getting all dramatic about the IRS not using her
service to interpret for a Hmong taxpayer. So now, the taxpayer isn't wiling to pay her 'cause
technically, she didn't interpret for him. Now, she's gonna write a letter to her district attorney
about the IRS's CS, deeming that it's improper, well, at least, she'd threatened so.
I think that's pretty stupid on her behalf. The IRS provides their own professional language
service, with Language Line. How is that poor customer service? Given that the taxpayer won't
understand all the English prompts prior to reaching a live rep, yet I'm certain the taxpayer
at least know someone whom can help him get pass the prompt, reach a rep, and request an
interpreter to be on hand for the taxpayer. Moreover, he can walk into a local IRS office and
receive help with interpretation . Seriously, she's got no case.
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8)
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pRMa4pjFonQ
Why should I always have to apologize for my emotions?
I feel betrayed and misunderstood.
Who'll be venial?
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I know I shouldn't be eating this but I enjoy cooking, what can I say?
;D
Batter shrimp with Broccoli
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Thanks HPA! I know I shouldn't be eating that stuff but did have a little of it, though.
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Thanks HPA! I know I shouldn't be eating that stuff but did have a little of it, though.
you trying to live up to someone standards? as long as you know your going to work out and burn the calories, etc you should be fine. broccoli is very good for you so that's a great start.
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you trying to live up to someone standards? as long as you know your going to work out and burn the calories, etc you should be fine. broccoli is very good for you so that's a great start.
No, it's my own standards. ;D
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A song for confusing times.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oQ17YV5obwI
Tell me, where am I supposed to go?
Who am I supposed to believe?
If only you knew what I knew
Then you could see just what I see.
So I grab my bags and go as far away as I can go
cause' everything ain't what I used to know.
And I try to hide, but I just can't hide no more.
There's nothing worse than feeling like a ghost.
You say I look fine.
If only you knew what was on my mind.
You'd see a whole different side.
I couldn't show you even if I tried.
I must'a got lost in time when I found out
I was only free to be wherever I want to be.
Some say I'm out of sight.
How ironic that we're all so blind.
If you could open up your eyes
you could see what I couldn't describe.
And if you'd see the signs, and then
your soul would be set free, and then
you'd be released.
And I'm terrified, like I've seen a UFO
cause' everything ain't what I used to know.
And I try to hide, but I just can't hide no more.
There's nothing worse than feeling like a ghost.
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A giant was created in Guatemala City after a tropical storm beat down.
This is damn scary, talk about 2012. We think we can clean up and remount
every time there is a natural disaster, i.e., Hurricane Katrina, the Tsunami,
the Haiti earthquake, who are we kidding here? Feels like the end is coming
near.
The sinkhole is a 30 stories deep and 18 meters wide.
(http://s.ngeo.com/wpf/media-live/photos/000/211/cache/guatemala-city-sinkhole_21110_600x450.jpg)
(http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/15/l_24d2770f68514c6cac5ba9bffca30b44.jpg)
Your deep fear may be aroused.
:(
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Young Bae sweeps my heart.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oQjcJBGIFsA&feature=fvw
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I guess it's starting.
I dreamt about children.
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Duab hnub los nco koj, tsaus ntuj los nco koj.
Thaum twg mas hnov koj moos?
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What a weekend, burnt out!
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She is the fire that burns brightly in him. He is the air that fuels the fire, he brings her to life.
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Are you talking about me again?
:-[
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Have faith in, "all things will workout if it's meant to be.". 8)
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And when he asks me back, he realizes how wrong he was.
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"I knew I love you before I met you.", means I've finally met the person I've been dreaming of.
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Just wrapped up my stats final on Monday.
Let me tell ya'll, stats is no joke.
This stats class was like playing Mortal Kombat. Through out the semester, I'm just struggling and struggling
to be on stop of things and just when I thought I got it down, the professor throws the final in front of me,
and I can hear the narrator in my head saying, "Finish her!".
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I got a B in my stats class! :headbang: :hello2: :icon_cheers: :notworthy:
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I am the controller of my life and what God blesses me with
For my every action and inaction, I have to step up to the consequences
I refuse to be wielded by any force, perspective, or politics
And as my friends and loved ones, you will help me grow
Until lions become lambs, I'll never be too small or too big
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Like the waves upon the shores, we'll keep coming back for more.
I'll be your champion and you'll be mine.
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And the moment of truth, I lost 5lbs in a week just by dieting! :D
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I've never felt so little, so faithless, as my friend lies dying in critical care in downtown. I prayed and I told God, "We love him, let him be with us."
God must be making a decision about this barely 22 year old that cooks and cleans for his folks. He goes under and then he fights to come back.
The shaman says, he's upset with his parents, so hurt that his spirit left, far and beyond. The wandered spirit must be captured and tied down.
And if the spirit stays, he'll recover from his already dying body, with organs failing one by one. His toes are dried and lifeless. You can tell that
circulation is poor. What a poor baby, just 22, suffering in such a condition. He's hardly awake now.
Last night, the medical staff wouldn't allow any visitors, even me, his dear friend. I remembered how we'd talk, we'd talked so much. He would
share his ambition of becoming a chef, aspirations from all the cooking he does for the family. He'd shared opinions about the family. It was
especially difficult to deal with a house hold of growing males; everyone had his own opinion. His father didn't make things easier either, always
demanding, condescending. He dealt it best he knew how; he eventually minded less about the family issues, and shared about it less. We'd have
talks about girls too. But he didn't care for one, always having his hobbies on his mind. But everything seems so far from grasp now, the ambition,
the hobbies, the dream, even the family issues, are all far from reach now. Poor baby, he just lies motionless, relying on tubes and needles to survive.
A decision was made last night. Such a decision is especially difficult to make but it was done. Only his mother disagreed to unplug him. He's incubated,
dependent on machines and medication to live. But poor mother can't see her child go; it's too hard to bury your own child. And she wailed and wailed.
But poor boy, his organs are shutting down, one by one, multiple strokes, two heart attacks in one night, multiple seizures, brain lesions, how much should he endure?
We, who all love him, sit and wait with all the hope we have left in our tormented hearts can only prepare for the worse. If he pulls through, he'll
be a vegetable. How fair is that to the poor boy? How selfish will we get to just have him with us, even as a vegetable? This is so tormenting that somewhere,
in our heart, we subconsciously want this to end, no matter what the turn out is.
Lord, please be with him and his family.