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Title: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on October 14, 2011, 09:16:27 PM
This shall become a place where I release my heart from its cage..... 

Growing tired of my job. It hasn't even been a year since they've hired me and I'm ready to walk out that door. And the oddest thing to it all is its not because of the people, the pay, the organization, or anything like that. I simply want to leave because there is nothing for me to do there. I feel like I stare at the clock every day asking when it'll strike 4pm. Sometimes I even feel like I've mastered the art of stopping time. Why couldn't I learn how to fast forward a few hours too? :-\ Oh well. I guess I shouldn't be complaining. I think back to when I sat around unemployed and that was worst. I guess I'll suck it up and wait for work to pick back up in the Spring.

Someone dear to me took his life today. I wish that he could have thought about all the tears we'll shed for him, about how precious life is, about all the great things he'll miss out on...sighs. I can't stop thinking about him tonight. I know he had a rough life growing up. Ever since his parents split he was forced to grow up and fend the world on his own. Everytime I looked in his eyes I remember I would always see this sadness in them. I wish that there was something I could have said to him to prevent what he did. It didn't have to be this way. He could still be alive if someone had convinced him that nothing is ever worth taking your life for. Damnit! Why? My heart is broken tonight. I lost a part of my family today. He was a good boy. One whom would have gone so far. Now I'll never get to see him get married or have kids...He often told me all he ever wanted was a normal family...to make up for the one he didn't have growing up. J, you're in my thoughts tonight. I'm angry you had to take that route. I wish that I could have helped. Those status updates on your facebook all make sense now. If only I had notice your cry for help. Take care of yourself. We love you so much. RIP young soul. :'(
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on October 19, 2011, 02:22:15 PM
KUV NIAM.  :)

I was writing my little cousin from Wisconsin and in the midst of it all, I remembered something mom had said to us girls yesterday. We were starting up “Bridesmaid” from redbox and as the movie opens up, the scene shows the lead, Annie, doing all these funny sex positions with her ex-boyfriend…So my mom goes, “Oh-ho, ua cas es nej yuav mus qiv tau ib daim movie li no los saib. Txhob saib cov zoo li no. Nws tsis zoo yog nej tseem yog hluas nkauj xwb.” My sisters and I just busted out laughing. Here we all were in our mid to late 20’s and she still thinks it “bad” for us to be seeing such things? Come to think of it, she fooled us into believing that if we watched any kissing, sex, or nude scenes on TV, our eyes would turn red. As kids we all believed it too. I remember the siblings and I would sit there watching something on TV and then when the mushy parts came on, we’d turn our heads, cover our eyes, or quickly flipped to another channel. lol. Imagine what that was like while watching movies in class? Anyhow, our answer to mom was, “Niam, peb twb laus laus lawm ne. Peb tsuas saib thiab kawm es lwm hnub thiajli paub mus ua haib haib rau txiv neej xwb os.” She laughs and says, “Ohyo. No way! Tsis good kiag nawb…..Kab (our baby sister who’s 18) tseem me me ne. Tsis txhob tso rau nws saib.” lol. I gotta love mom though.

Now that I think about it more, my mom sure fooled me with stories when I was young. She told me child labor consisted of the stomach being cut open with a big knife. Whenever my younger siblings were born, I’d always ask to see the wound that had been sewn up but mom never once showed me. Shouldn’t that have triggered something in my head? Then she’d also tell me that if us girls even slept next to a guy, we’d get pregnant. When the brothers and guy cousins/nephews slept next to me on “parents are away for funeral/party/wedding” nights, I’d think to myself…”I don’t want to get pregnant.” Mom would just be like, “Don’t worry, only boys from outside the family can do magic.” lmao. Or how when the kids cried a lot and mom would say there’s a niam tais poj ntxoog who listens carefully and if she hears you, she’ll come by to see why you are crying. Or that one about finding a lost bird, rabbit, cat, or doggy and don’t bring it home because it’s only poj ntxoov cov menyuam. I remembered when we moved this one summer and there were these kittens that got abandoned at the corner of our deadend block and mom told us not to feed them or even touch them. There’s way too many stories. I wonder if someday I’ll end up telling little such stories like these to my kids too? Wait a minute, I already do that with my nieces and nephews. Oyo! My favorite one is when those munchkins are crying and I go.. “Yivvvvvv, Maiv Naim los lawm nawb. Ntsia kiag tamsimno.” Works like a charm.

Oh how I miss my childhood. Now that everyone in the fam is grown, I bet it hits mom to know we’re all standing on our own (at least for 90% of the time). Mom doesn’t have to worry…I can never really detach myself from her. She’s still my extra breath of fresh air when I’m suffocating.


Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on October 21, 2011, 01:31:41 PM
I'm sitting at work watching the clock slowly tick away. My great nephew is over and I can't wait to go play with him. There's always this joy and innocence in babies I love. Gosh! To make it worst, my little sister had to text me this adorable pic of him sitting lopsided there like a pumpkin. I am so ready to go home. Just 30 more mins. Come on 2 o'clock! My weekend starts when you come. Hurry!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on October 24, 2011, 02:02:26 PM
I’ve been having some weird (even scary) dreams lately. :-[ My mom told me that it was never too good to dream about dogs and babies because they were just sickness and ghosts trying to attach themselves to me. Although some people don’t believe that dreams are real, I’m a sucka for them. I don’t know..I woke up with a headache and chills this morning. Maybe I’m just thinking too much. Just to be on the safe side, I’ll stick a butter knife under my pillow tonight. I'll have it ready in case I should need to battle it out in my dreams..
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on October 25, 2011, 02:17:05 PM
Mom is so cute. I always love hearing her love stories. It's sad knowing I won't have such fascinating and sweet stories to share with my girls someday. :-\ I'll probably just end up telling a short tale like..."Puag thaum ub os...koj mommy phem phem dab tuag tsis muaj ib tug hluas nraug hmoob nyob twg nyiam kiag. Muaj ib hnub kho kho koj mommy siab ces nws mus quaj tim pas dej nas has ciali ntsib koj txiv. Koj txiv tias “Nkauj hmoob, yog koj quaj li no koj hajyam ntxim hlub os.” Txij thaum ntawd los ces nkawd ob leeg ciali mus tuav tes ncig ntiaj teb ua ke. Nyob nyob koj mommy ciali hlub koj txiv. Koj txiv los twb hlub koj mommy lawm thiab. Nkawd ob leeg ciali sib yuav ces muaj nej xwb. The end." Maybe I'll have to twist it up a notch so it'll be half as great as mom's stories...
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on October 25, 2011, 09:35:45 PM
Tonight my heart aches. I wish that I could magically take this pain away so the tears would stop falling. Sometimes I wonder if anything I do would ever be appreciated or worthy. I’m always reminded of my place and that hurts. I don’t know what to say, how to put it…Should I run away and hide? 

Let tomorrow be a new day....I await the sunshine.  :'(
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on October 27, 2011, 11:24:39 AM
I'm working on a project for someone's birthday coming up in a few weeks time and I am rather excited to see the finish product. So far I've been digging up photos, turning my imagination cap on and thinking about how I'm going to get this all done in time. Gotta work hard. Fighting!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 03, 2011, 10:49:26 AM
This week has been so long. I can't wait for the weekends to come. Shoot, this weekend will be packed with things to do until nightfall. It's alright...that's tons of family time so I'm up! Bring it...! Let's just hope the sun sticks around for that whole time. Wait...that reminded me this weekend is daylight savings too! Sweet. One more hour back! What shall I use it for?

Excited for Friday night...mom, the girls and I will be sleeping at the new place to warm it up. There's not much there yet so we'll probably just resort to old-fashion 'sleeping on the ground'. It's going to probably be another week or two before everything has been moved there, the new furniture all gets settled in and I can finally rest and unpack. Until then, it's back-and-forth between the two homes. It's starting to wear me down. sighs. I think I'm coming down with something...as I'm writing this, my runny nose is distracting me, I can feel this little irritation at the back of my throat and worst of all...I've got the chills even with a sweater and heater on.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 03, 2011, 11:22:56 PM
Sitting in my room tired from running around department stores trying to get things for the house and then coming home to do more cleaning and packing. On the bright side, furniture delivery happens tomorrow. They called today and said one of our beds won't be coming yet so I guess we'll have to do with what we've got. No pissy mode since they did give us a whole lot of discount after all.  I can't wait to see the dining table though...fell in love with it the first time I laid eyes on it. I know it's quite pricy considering we probably won't ever sit there to eat much but it's nice to have it. Still have so much to do. I feel like I don't have enough time. I've already got a schedule all set for tomorrow. I suppose I should go to sleep...I will surely need it. yawns. Good night.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 06, 2011, 11:21:53 PM
I am such a horrible sister.  :'(
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 09, 2011, 10:40:18 PM
I want to get back into my working out mode again. Why did I let myself slip? Now I've got to work extra hard just to get where I want to be. It's a long way to go but I've seen the weight come off and I am determined to get further this time around. Please stay focus. You've got to look good in the next year or so. I guess it's back to starting small and increasing my load...fightin g!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: Dok_Champa on November 10, 2011, 12:41:06 PM
So sad what happened to that young man who took his life.  I'm curious, how did his birth parents reacted to this tragedy?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 11, 2011, 12:59:58 PM
Hard as it is, I find that statement to be true. I dreamt of carrying a crying bloody child looking for her parents and ohmy gees, I was ill for two months. I dreamt of a dog bitting me, and a car hit me from behind. But most of the time, when I dream of babies, I know I'll be sick later and it usually happens.  :-\

Bloody child? That is so scary. Chills. I've never had one of those and let's pray I don't. I remember I had this dream once about how my sisters kept giving me this newborn and telling me it was mines. I cried and told them it's not mines.  I went off about how I didn't have a husband yet so why would I already have a baby. But in the dream they just insisted it was indeed mines and I should take care of it because it was crying from hunger. If I remember correctly, I did hold the baby for a bit but as I looked at it, it looked too small to be a baby and it had a missing nose. I kinda freaked and was going to throw it in this ice berg thing but awoke. Don't remember if I got sick or not.

Dogs are scary too. For some reason I usually dream about black dogs trying to get inside the house to bite me. :-\ Does that mean the house needs some cleansing?

So sad what happened to that young man who took his life.  I'm curious, how did his birth parents reacted to this tragedy?

You know how we watch them Hmong movies and lovers die for love? I guess you can say this boy did the same. He was so foolish. Sometimes I still get angry at him for doing what he did. If only he had came to our side of the family and discussed his desire to marry his gf. Things would have worked out. Now he’s 6 feet under and all that surfaces are tears and memories.

Both his parents are torn and are still mourning even after they’ve buried their son. I’m sure both of them have much guilt for not knowing how to ua niam txiv zoo rau lawv cov me tub me ntxhais and probably blamed themselves for his death. At the funeral, both of them said the kind of words you just can’t walk away from without first shedding countless tears. Even when I recall what was said I start to get emotional.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 12, 2011, 08:50:05 PM
Lub siab ntsws ntsuag no...txhob tsim tsim koj tus kheej os.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 14, 2011, 03:01:19 PM
Feeling motivated. I shall try this one more time. This time around, I don’t want to slip anymore. I’m tired of this lifestyle...fe d up with people judging me....no longer wanting to edure those stares...sighs . Please stay positive, you! It’s going to be so hard bouncing back into those days of counting calories, weighing myself every day, cutting down portions, restricting what I take in, sweating my ass off but everything will pay off in the end. Nothing beats a good workout for the heart. I must devise a plan and hop back on. Oh how time seems so short. Need to get moving.

In the meantime, I’m putting other things on hold. Thov txim.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 16, 2011, 09:12:45 PM
Life is getting so dull. It seems like I've been hitting the repeat button one two many times. What do I need in my life this time around? 2011 is coming to an end and I at least want to end it on a good note...especia lly if I consider all the bad mishaps that took place in these past two months.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 17, 2011, 02:20:06 PM
Having a late lunch right now and I am so not enjoying it. I was going to skip lunch since I'm watching my calorie intake again but then decided that if I went that route, I'll probably pig out when I get home so I rather not. I can taste the soap from the container I packed my rice and chicken in though. Dang soap! You ruined my lunch. Why didn't you go away when I gave you water? Now you must cling to my rice? Aish. So much for a yummy lunch.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 21, 2011, 12:27:50 PM
It was such a busy weekend. The mom, sisters, and I did tons of grocery shopping and preparation for the family’s hu plig tshiab peb caug thing. Sometimes I wonder how far us younger folks would be able to carry forth with customs like these. Honestly those boys who are supposed to continue my family’s ways don’t even know anything anymore. They come sit around and socialize at these gatherings and don’t bother taking the time to learn our customs at all. Will our traditions make it another 20 yrs. from now? The thought of it scares me. Spiritually, where am I also headed? I really don’t want to convert…because…well…because this is part of me…who I am…who my family is. :( Regardless, Happy New Year. I can’t spend money for three days. The last day will be tonight….time to fill up my gas tank!!

Dang…speaking of cars…I don’t like the slippery roads at all. We got our first snowfall this past Saturday and my brakes are already hard at work. Today I was coming in to work and thought my car wouldn’t come to a complete stop (even when I was going so dang slow) at a stoplight intersection. My brakes were definitely gripping that road good. Ah geesh, driving through another winter puts a frown on my face already. Is this a sign I should get outta MN?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 22, 2011, 10:18:42 AM
I thought about Ntxawg while I was getting ready for work this morning. He hasn’t crossed my mind for so many months now so I don’t even know why I woke up missing him a little today. I guess this heart keeps remembering his good ways and forgetting what lies he fooled me with. Stupid heart! >:( You make me kho kho siab for nothing. You should remember that he has a family already….then maybe you’ll let him perish with the wind. Mloog kuv na!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 23, 2011, 09:48:45 AM
Because Thanksgiving is around the corner...  :)

Thankful for…
1. My mom because she’s the keystone to my family. Without her love, patience, support, protection and care, I would be lost in this world. Every day she is a reminder to me that good people still really do exist.  
2. All my 6 siblings. We’ve been through high and low but at the end of each day, you guys are the extra touch of warmth I need in my heart.
3. My job, car, home, and food. Muah!
4. The one and only cellphone. You are my life partner. What would I do without you? lol. Thanks for all those wonderful talks.
5. Rest of the family for your love. There truly is no better gift than that of belonging somewhere.
6. DKY and JT. Yes, despite the tears I’ve shed and heartaches I’ve endured, I treasure the memories and lessons I’ve taken with me this year.
7. Life. I have a purpose why I was brought here and I’m still on a search to find it. Thank you to every breath I continue to take…
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 29, 2011, 12:14:59 PM
http://youtu.be/0uggbWGSgY0

I want his album!!!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 30, 2011, 01:07:26 PM
:)


A smile goes a long way….it becomes a remedy to those great and small. That’s why I always make it an effort to smile at a stranger at least once per day. Smile often! :) You never know whose day you may make.

***

This cold weather ruins my morning. After snuggling under a nice warm Korean blanket the whole night, who wants to wake up to cold air slapping against every exposed skin of theirs? My mission for tonight is to insulate all those windows up so the house will stay cozy. It’ll help cut down the heating cost too. Looking forward to getting this done…the sooner, the better!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 01, 2011, 11:39:39 AM
(http://i1091.photobucket.com/albums/i389/puas_kam_nrhiav/3m.jpg)

I’m a huge 3m hook fan. Stopped by Walgreens last night to grab little miscellaneous things for the house and check if there was anything good out on redbox and in their weekly ads I saw…“buy one get one free”. You bet I got myself some for the house! Somehow I don’t like to drill in holes to the wall so I’ve resorted to my friend 3m. Now that I think about it...do they have anything along the lines of a “stick to wall” toilet paper dispenser holder??? I need one of those too. 3m work wonders. I’ve never been disappointed by their hooks. If only some other things in life were this great….

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 03, 2011, 10:23:26 PM
A person who doesn't want to change can't be changed. 
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 07, 2011, 01:42:01 PM
I know I shouldn't touch any of that money in the emergency fund box but that elliptical looks to dang sexy to pass up. I want it!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 08, 2011, 09:19:36 AM
Kuv twb tsis yog cov neeg ib txwm lam give up yog kuv ntshaw dabtsi tiag. Txawm nyuaj thiab zoo li hopeless npaum li cas los kuv yeej ua siab loj mus caum tiag seb puas tau. Tabsis zoo li ua cas kuv ze ze qhov es tsis xav vam dabtsi lawm. Kuv pheej cia siab thiab muab kuv zog los ntseeg tias tej zaum yog kuv ua tiag ces yuav tau thiab no…ua cas txog thaum kawg nws pheej rov kiv mus qhov pib xwb? I’ve been running in circles too long. My energy runs low and I think my spirit has wandered off a little. Kuv xav nrhiav ib txoj kev thaug….
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 09, 2011, 10:46:33 AM
It shortens my lifespan and is a waste of my energy. I must remember to not channel any hate in me.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 10, 2011, 08:06:12 AM
Woke up this morning sad.

He was such a shallow man. When you think you've just found someone you want to give a little piece of your heart to, he smacks you right in the face. :-[ I keep telling myself it's okay...that I can't make people like me if they choose not to. Why the heck am I even wasting tears on someone like him? I guess it just hurts knowing I was never enough. Once again I find myself shutting that door a little...build ing that gaurd to be much stronger than before....floa ting away to where hopelessness sleeps. I shouldn't give up but I've met disappointment after disappoinment. What am I supposed to do?

I should stop thinking about it. No man as shallow as that derserve to be acknowledged.. .
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 12, 2011, 10:28:22 AM
Ntsej muag kaydoo! Low lives who have nothing better to do but destroy other people’s values and property….I don’t get why they can’t just be banished to their own island and engage in whatever rebellious behavior they want there. Some people work really hard to get the things they need and want in life. Did bad people like y'all really need to come do that? Gosh! Damn you! Now that’s more money spent fixing up your stupidity. My family should really move outta that neighborhood. It’s gotten so ghetto and unsafe over these past few years.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 13, 2011, 11:45:21 AM
Oh how it would be so sweet if a guy sung to me….
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 14, 2011, 09:00:51 PM
The first few xmas presents went under the tree today! I can't wait to see their faces when they open it. :) Still have a few more shopping trips to do but I'll wait until those vacation days from work to catch up. I figure if I do it in increments then I won't be as tired as if trying to get it all done in one day. Besides, I want every gift to mean something to them so I'm taking my time to select this and that.

(http://i1091.photobucket.com/albums/i389/puas_kam_nrhiav/IMG_20111214_203447.jpg)

Our tree looks beautiful this year. Too bad my phone cam doesn't do it justice.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 14, 2011, 11:36:42 PM
It was raining today and while N and I were riding home today we talked about this particular memory we had of mom and us when both of us were still little. There was this one night when we came home late from school because it was icy and as the bus dropped us off at our usual stop we saw our mom waving her hands at us. Then she says something like, "Naib, nyob twj ywm ntawm neb nawb. Kuv mam li los." And then we watched her crossed the icy road to get to us. I remember holding my mom's hand as she held on to a wooden stick in her other hand and we slowly slid across the icy road to the other side. Then my mom told me to wait there as she went back to get my older sister and repeated the crossing. Once we all made it, we walked home together. I thought about this memory all night and I realized how great of a mom I have. Compared to many I'd say I was super lucky. She has given me the world and there has been days when I’ve grown so unappreciative of all she's done. How horrible of a daughter I am. :(

I’ve recently noticed how much she’s aged and I really want to take care of her now. If I could I would tell her to stop and just relax. I need to take her on vacation with me. Mom deserves it. For all she’s given me…sighs.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: lilly on December 15, 2011, 02:55:23 PM
KUV NIAM.  :)

I was writing my little cousin from Wisconsin and in the midst of it all, I remembered something mom had said to us girls yesterday. We were starting up “Bridesmaid” from redbox and as the movie opens up, the scene shows the lead, Annie, doing all these funny sex positions with her ex-boyfriend…So my mom goes, “Oh-ho, ua cas es nej yuav mus qiv tau ib daim movie li no los saib. Txhob saib cov zoo li no. Nws tsis zoo yog nej tseem yog hluas nkauj xwb.” My sisters and I just busted out laughing. Here we all were in our mid to late 20’s and she still thinks it “bad” for us to be seeing such things? Come to think of it, she fooled us into believing that if we watched any kissing, sex, or nude scenes on TV, our eyes would turn red. As kids we all believed it too. I remember the siblings and I would sit there watching something on TV and then when the mushy parts came on, we’d turn our heads, cover our eyes, or quickly flipped to another channel. lol. Imagine what that was like while watching movies in class? Anyhow, our answer to mom was, “Niam, peb twb laus laus lawm ne. Peb tsuas saib thiab kawm es lwm hnub thiajli paub mus ua haib haib rau txiv neej xwb os.” She laughs and says, “Ohyo. No way! Tsis good kiag nawb…..Kab (our baby sister who’s 18) tseem me me ne. Tsis txhob tso rau nws saib.” lol. I gotta love mom though.

Now that I think about it more, my mom sure fooled me with stories when I was young. She told me child labor consisted of the stomach being cut open with a big knife. Whenever my younger siblings were born, I’d always ask to see the wound that had been sewn up but mom never once showed me. Shouldn’t that have triggered something in my head? Then she’d also tell me that if us girls even slept next to a guy, we’d get pregnant. When the brothers and guy cousins/nephews slept next to me on “parents are away for funeral/party/wedding” nights, I’d think to myself…”I don’t want to get pregnant.” Mom would just be like, “Don’t worry, only boys from outside the family can do magic.” lmao. Or how when the kids cried a lot and mom would say there’s a niam tais poj ntxoog who listens carefully and if she hears you, she’ll come by to see why you are crying. Or that one about finding a lost bird, rabbit, cat, or doggy and don’t bring it home because it’s only poj ntxoov cov menyuam. I remembered when we moved this one summer and there were these kittens that got abandoned at the corner of our deadend block and mom told us not to feed them or even touch them. There’s way too many stories. I wonder if someday I’ll end up telling little such stories like these to my kids too? Wait a minute, I already do that with my nieces and nephews. Oyo! My favorite one is when those munchkins are crying and I go.. “Yivvvvvv, Maiv Naim los lawm nawb. Ntsia kiag tamsimno.” Works like a charm.

Oh how I miss my childhood. Now that everyone in the fam is grown, I bet it hits mom to know we’re all standing on our own (at least for 90% of the time). Mom doesn’t have to worry…I can never really detach myself from her. She’s still my extra breath of fresh air when I’m suffocating.




Aw, I envy you.  My mom has passed on.  You and a lot of people are very lucky to still have your mum.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 16, 2011, 01:40:37 PM
Aw, I envy you.  My mom has passed on.  You and a lot of people are very lucky to still have your mum.

I'm sorry to hear. :-[ A lot of things I have and own in my life right now is due largely to my mom's love, guidance, and support. If there were more moms like her, the world would be so much better. No doubt I am lucky to still have my mom. I'm the type that doesn't really know how to express my gratitude to my mom so sometimes I just give her hugs and hope she knows I love her. With my dad being gone all these years now too...I love her even more. If any day you ever need a mom, I'll share mines for one day.

.....

Someone had said to me last night that he could imagine me being those types of girls who demanded or made her bf buy everything she wanted for her. That really hurt me. I would have thought that after almost a year spent getting to know me, he’d at least know that was not even close to who I was. Maybe he’s been used to spending his money on women and thought I’d be no different? Who knows…Oh well, I guess people will have their assumptions and I won’t blame them too much. I just simply said to him, “I don’t need your money. I’ve never asked you to buy me anything thus far so why would I start now. Besides, my own two hands already make all that I need.”
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 17, 2011, 08:53:07 PM
I did some more xmas shopping today. The malls were too crowded. Trying to find a parking space wasn't any better. And the number of bad drivers just seemed to all surface at once. >:( Maybe next year I'll skip it all and just resort to online purchases.
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Post by: MSV on December 19, 2011, 12:59:42 PM
If it’s anything that annoys me, it’s when people put themselves on a make-believe pedestal to appear better than everyone else. Ugh! I got so fed up hearing him brag about himself that I didn’t hold back my tongue. I know I might have stomped on his ego a little by calling him out like that but he deserved to get put in check. Someone had to tell him….I guess I designated myself. lol. I don’t regret.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 20, 2011, 08:57:55 PM
To the water that flows pass me.....I wish I could collect every ounce of you.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 21, 2011, 02:47:20 PM
I've been feeling kho kho siab lately. It's draining me.
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Post by: MSV on December 23, 2011, 04:50:37 PM
Just got done deboning chicken wings in preparation for Sunday's xmas meal. Why do they make deboning look so easy on youtube? It took me about an hour just to do 10. At this rate I'd never get hired to work at those hmong flea market food places. ;D

Going out in a bit with the sisters...exci ted to spend some time with them. It's been awhile since I've sat down with all of them and just talked and laughed our butts off.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 27, 2011, 09:42:32 PM
It's so quiet tonight....I think I'm going to call it a night and catch up on my sleep.
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Post by: MSV on December 28, 2011, 02:43:50 PM
Maybe I should have taken a longer xmas vacation? Most of my coworkers aren't even back in their offices until the new year starts. It makes me wish I was doing other things besides being at work. Or better yet...I wish I had traveled someplace away from MN.

Kuv tuaj tim haujlwm los kuv twb tsis ua haujlwm dabtsi li. Lam zaum kov ub kov no kom txog caij mus tsev xwb. Tus neeg zoo li kuv ces tsis productive this week kiag li. ;D Kuv tus nai twb los nug seb kuv puas muaj work ua los kuv tseem dag me me rau nws tias kuv busy thiab. I feel bad for even saying that.

Well...I guess I should look at it this way...SAVE VACATION TIME TO BE SPENT IN THE SUMMER. If I look at it that way, I can at least smile a little.

Halfway through the work week...
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Post by: MSV on December 29, 2011, 01:59:26 PM
As this year comes to an end, I wanted to reflect upon it.

Ib. 2011 was a year of accomplishment s for me. I started the year off with a new job. The pay wasn’t much considering I was entering the non-profit world but I managed to pay all my usual monthly bills and still have money leftover to fill these almost empty pockets of mines. First thing I spent my paychecks on was a fish tank. I got myself three beautiful goldfishes to go along with it. As kids, my dad would buy us fishes to raise since we couldn’t have dogs or cats as pets in the house. When he passed, no one really bothered to take care of the fishies and they all ya mus sawm ntuj nrog kuv txiv lawm thiab. :( I guess that's where my love for fishies started and I wanted to bring that memory back. One 2011 goal down. Anyways, any extra money also went straight to a “new” used car. The owners (both doctors and damn loaded!!) I bought my baby from were selling their Camry for 11G (only 25,000 miles on it and accident free) so I couldn’t let that offer pass me by. I got my car and it became my new love! We’ve been growing strong ever since I drove it home….hahaha. It’s got some bumps and bruises here and there but it’s nothing big. Under my care, it’s got another guaranteed 10 yrs on it…or so that’s what my brother said. Of course after all that came a new house. This was the first house my family and I ever purchased so it was a milestone in our books. At one point it even saddened me because I wanted my dad to still be here and see it all. It’s been two months since our move and the warmth has filled our new home. I love that there aren’t any ghetto kaydoo or noob taum trying to do crap to our cars, values, and property. But I do miss the city life…the chitter chatters you can hear coming from outside…the cars that constantly drive pass every day. Now it’s just….QUIET. I should bring a little drama to the neighborhood or something. lol.

Ob. Ntses, the one who made it seem so real for me. I spent half a year getting to know him and growing to like him so much. He finally made me realize I wanted an older man who was mature and had his life set out. For once I really wanted to get married....to have babies…to devote myself to my husband for the rest of my life. Too bad he got lured back by his ex-wife after 3 yrs. of them separating. I guess to make me feel better, I kept blaming the wife for being jealous that he was finally moving on and wanting to be with someone new but really it was him. If he had really wanted something with me, he would have said no to her. Despite, time has allowed me to forgive him for hurting me. I really hope he did patch things up and is happy with his little family again. As far as I go….I guess another failed attempt just made me a little more doubtful of ever finding someone who’d really love me. I invested so much time only to find myself standing alone on the road once more. I know I should focus on the good and stay positive but sometimes it’s just so hard to hold that spirit in me when anger, sadness, and frustration knock at the walls all the time. Because of this, I will channel my energy elsewhere for next year

Peb. Another passing in the fam. It came as great shock to me because he committed suicide. Even to this day, I still can’t accept that he’s really gone. Whenever I think about him, I always think about that smile and those sad eyes. They sent two different messages and I often wondered what he was really feeling inside.  Wherever he is, I hope he is happy now. I know things were hard on him as he grew into a man...since he felt like there was no family there. This is why I get pissed at parents who act like lawv tseem yog menyuam yaus tsis paub qab hau.

I need a break...
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Post by: MSV on January 01, 2012, 09:24:06 AM
Nyob zoo xyoo tshiab! I didn't do much for New Year's Eve. Stayed home with the fam and just relaxed. Got a lot done around the house too. I feel accomplished. What a great way to end 2011.

2012 will be a year devoted to me getting out of my comfort zone. I wanna turn back into a YES woman! :) Here's to new beginnings and adventures. I  will travel to new heights and even if I should end up hurting myself, I promise I will not let it bring me down or stop me. I'm excited to discover bigger and better things. THAT'S RIGHT!

Need to work on getting back in shape. I always felt more lively and happier when I was always working out everyday. Note to self, start slow and stay away from sweets. lol.

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Post by: MSV on January 02, 2012, 07:01:17 PM
No work today so I went shopping with my favorite ladies. Got some pretty good deals! Even added a few more items of clothing to my closet. Which reminds me...I should really work on making sure I dress professionally to work everyday. They aren't too strict about the dress code as long as things aren't hanging out or see-through. I also want to glam my face up a little more. Is it worth 10 less mins of sleep in the morning?

Aside from a whole day of cleaning up, I also spent my day cleaning around the house. My older sister and I managed to finish organizing all the xmas things and packed them all up to be stored away. Once again I was stuck putting down the tree. This year I didn't have any helpers so it took longer than usual. Next year I'm going to make them get a real tree so we can dispose it afterwards. That'll save some time and storage space.

Now I'm just lazying around on the sofa ready to knock out. It's only 7ish so I won't let that happen. If only I had motivation to exercise tonight. I've been trying so hard to keep on track with my slow progress but it's so hard to get back into the motivated mood. I really need to push myself to do it again. So sick and tired....

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Post by: MSV on January 03, 2012, 09:09:30 PM
I got so bored that I decided to worked out for a good 1.5 hours. It's so hard to get my mind back into that mode. Had to really push myself and keep talking to myself to keep going and not give up. I can do it! If I keep at this, by the time it's nice outside, I'll be able to just jog around the lake. At least that's my plan. This will be my second attempt. I hope to lose more than what I did the first time around. I feel so good tonight. The body feels light. :) I just hope I don't wake up aching. Which reminds me...need to go get those weights so I can start toning my flabs. Kiss it all goodbye inch-by-inch.

Note to self. Try to eat a light breakfast every day before work. Drink a lot of water. No more sweets. Measure rice consumption. No more late night snacks....or eating anything after 7pm unless it's a fruit. I'm placing these up on post-it notes so I won't forget.

Hmmm. Should I turn this into my "Attempt #2: Aja Fighting" blog?
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Post by: MSV on January 04, 2012, 10:20:31 AM
http://youtu.be/s16g0kA_2N0

I have so many questions I don’t have the answer to. Puas yog nws pom kuv tsis zoo nkauj es nws tsis nyiam kuv lawm? Puas yog nws tu siab tias kuv tsis kam txhoj puab nrog nws hmo ntawd? Puas yog tias nws lam txias kuv txog tas no seb kuv puas kam nws saj kuv ib thib? Puas yog nws twb muaj hluas nkauj los yog poj niam es lam dag kuv xwb? He was such a good man in my eyes….the only one who really knew how to ntxias kuv when I cried.

I’m suppressing this hurt inside of me. I know it’s there but I don’t want it to surface cause it’ll just make tears fall. I’ve been masking it up these past few days and I thought keeping busy would mean it won’t cross my mind so much but it’s catching up to me. I feel it tugging at my heart. Damnit! Why can’t I control anything?

Nws siab phem ua luaj….mus ntsiag to tsis hais ib los txog tav no.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 04, 2012, 09:45:35 PM
1 hour of Just Dance 3 on wii with my older sister followed by 30 minutes on the elliptical. It feels great. The shower after a sweaty workout was even better! I hope I can keep this up. :)

I had dinner at 4:30 and now it's 9:40ish and my stomach is about to growl. Damn. No late night snack. I'll just ignore it. Eventually that fatass will cry itself to sleep. lol. Must resist it.....fightin ggggggggggggg! It's so hard in the beginning.
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Post by: MSV on January 05, 2012, 09:45:50 PM
Another hour of dancing on wii followed by an hour of aerobics and weight lifting. Awesome! My muscles are getting better. I can hold up longer than before. Yesssssssssss.

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Post by: MSV on January 09, 2012, 09:36:05 PM
Spent the weekend helping out at a relative's funeral. That made me lose three days of working out. As a result, I was just itchin' to break a sweat. :( I made up for it tonight. Almost 1.5 hr of JUST DANCE followed by 30 mins on elliptical and 15 mins weight lifting. It's so tiring but I keep thinking about that nice shower and cups of water I'll award myself with afterwards and I keep pushing and pushing to the very end. Gosh! Why did I let myself gain that weight? I worked so hard to work it off once and now I'm trying to lose it again. I don't have a goal set but I just want to be active rather than just sit around and be one fatass. Fighting!

.....

I realized that in order for me to even be attracted to a guy he must.....

1. Have a full-time job.
2. Own his own car.
3. Be ambitious and set goals for himself every year.
4. Know how to speak Hmong.

Is it really that hard to find them?
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Post by: MSV on January 10, 2012, 11:44:19 AM
I was getting ready for work and while in the midst of brushing my teeth this morning, my list of ""minimum qualification" came to me. The boy has to have good hygiene...espe cially when it comes to teeth. Sometimes I look at guys with yellow teeth or bad stains and think to myself, "Is someone really kissing those lips?" lol. Oyo.

.....

I had a nice phone conversation with my mom last night. She was asking me a lot of stuff and eventually we got into talking about marriage again. I wonder if she's disappointed in me because I'm not hitched? Tej zaum nws tsis kam hais tabsis nws twb tag kev cia siab tias nws niag ntxhais dab tuag li kuv no yuav tsis nrog luag muaj txiv thiab poj. :-[ Regardless, I'm glad she doesn't push me to hurry up. If anything she wants me to be happy with my choice. Hlub hlub kuv niam li os.

Aside from the whole boys talk, we also talked about vacationing in Florida and Thailand. I want my mom to see the world. She spent so much time raising my siblings and I that I think it's time she gets to really live. Gotta work hard to save up money and take her....it's really exciting plans to have. I'm sure she more excited than I though.
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Post by: MSV on January 11, 2012, 08:28:47 AM
Last night's progress....on e hour on elliptical, 20 mins on weights, 15 mins stretching and an hour of tv time. :) I should have done more but I don't want to overdo my routine. It might just bore the heck outta me and then I'd dread doing anything. I don't want that to happen. Just fighting this indoor workout style until the weather gets nice enough for me to be outdoors. I can't wait...

I'm so sore today. My legs definitely are hard at work. I love it though. At least it's a reminder that I'm waking up those muscles. In a few weeks I won't even feel anything anymore. It's always hard in the beginning but once I pass this stage, I can only improve what I'm already working on.

Note to self: Results come slowly.
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Post by: MSV on January 12, 2012, 09:42:41 AM
My cheeks are hot and my hands are so cold. Dang!

Last night was crazy fun though. The ladies were hilarious. We played Taboo and laughed our pants off. :2funny: Let's just say I have never realized how much hand gestures people use when talking. lol. Sadly it wasn't a Friday night so we had to cut all the fun short. Part 2 will be this weekend. I'm excited to see them all again.

I checked my email this morning and received a rather sad email. As I was sitting in my desk reading it, the heart got worked up and the eyes started to get rather watery. Then....drip. :( I quickly wiped it off my face in case my co-workers came by and asked what was wrong. Oh how words can be so powerful sometimes. Now this email is going to be on my mind all day....it's going to bother me.
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Post by: MSV on January 13, 2012, 08:30:02 AM
Yesterday I managed to do one whole hour on the elliptical. Half way though it, I thought I was going to pass out since I didn’t have any rice or big meal that day. Luckily I kept going to the very end. I know this one hour is nothing compared to what I did in the past but it sure seems like forever when I just stay in one place. If only it had the ability to take me places.

Add 15 mins. of toning and 15 mins of stretching too. I really still dread the whole lifting weights but I noticed I don’t wake up achy like those first few days anymore. I suppose it’s a good thing. Now I just have to make sure I keep it this way. The muscles will not get to rest. No way!

…..

I had a dream last night that I took a trip to Thailand. In it, a high school friend and I were studying abroad there. We were helping to rebuild this village. Is it my calling? I’ve always wanted to join the peace corps too. But that would mean giving up my stable job right now. Hummmm. Is it worth it?
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Post by: MSV on January 13, 2012, 11:19:29 PM
I didn't do any stretching today. I'm rather disappointed I skipped it since I know it's just as important to do it as any other exercise routine too. Aside from that I hopped on the elliptical for an hour and did a quick 10-15 mins worth of toning. Today was a rather lazy day. I wasn't feeling in the mood but didn't want to skip a day so I just went with it to get it over with. It was a pretty okay day.

Trying to alter my food so I can help speed up my weight loss. Added in a fruit or two a day. Been meaning to run to the store to get some nuts to munch on. That way I can stop with my chocolate cravings....

So tired. I have a wedding to go to tomorrow so I should sleep...
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Post by: MSV on January 16, 2012, 09:04:33 PM
Total exercise today = 1.5 hours

If it's one think I dislike, it's drunk people. Ugh! >:( Went over to my mom's and returned home to a stinky surprise. Turns out over the weekend, a bunch of the boys came over to hang with my little brother and they puked all over the bathroom trashcn and toilet after a night of crazy drinking. I was so digusted with the smell I spent today scrubbing every inch of the bathroom. I'm very germaphobic so I bleached the whole toilet, did two washes on the floor and sanitized the walls, sink and counters...Dru nks....ARG! I should put a sign up or something...th is is the second time I've had to cleanup this month. Pisses me off sometimes....I ended up biatchiing at my bro for leaving that spoiled throwup smell sitting in the bathroom for two days. YUCK! Time to enforce house rules again.
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Post by: MSV on January 17, 2012, 10:33:29 AM
http://youtu.be/wsMsCw1B-aY

What dreams are made of.

I’ve been sleeping earlier than usual these past few nights. As a result I’ve been dreaming like crazy again. The other night I had dreamt about going to the chicken farm and fighting with African and Hmong ladies to get the plumpest chickens. In the end I only managed to get away with one who had a split breast with flesh showing. Then the night before that one I dreamt of taking my 21 yr. old sister driving. The roads were slippery and not even ones I had guts to drive on but my sister just weaved up and down the roads like it was a piece of cake. She made me look like a horrible driver with her skills. And finally last night I dreamt about getting married. All my family, friends, and even high school classmates were there but where was the groom? He somehow was missing and I was waiting on him. In the midst of it all I was also trying to light these candles but no matter how much I lit them, they kept burning out after a few seconds. I got frustrated and stopped. That’s pretty much all I could remember….what does it all mean? My mom used to tell me never go with a stranger in your dreams. Hum.
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Post by: lilly on January 17, 2012, 04:03:17 PM
http://youtu.be/wsMsCw1B-aY

What dreams are made of.

I’ve been sleeping earlier than usual these past few nights. As a result I’ve been dreaming like crazy again. The other night I had dreamt about going to the chicken farm and fighting with African and Hmong ladies to get the plumpest chickens. In the end I only managed to get away with one who had a split breast with flesh showing. Then the night before that one I dreamt of taking my 21 yr. old sister driving. The roads were slippery and not even ones I had guts to drive on but my sister just weaved up and down the roads like it was a piece of cake. She made me look like a horrible driver with her skills. And finally last night I dreamt about getting married. All my family, friends, and even high school classmates were there but where was the groom? He somehow was missing and I was waiting on him. In the midst of it all I was also trying to light these candles but no matter how much I lit them, they kept burning out after a few seconds. I got frustrated and stopped. That’s pretty much all I could remember….what does it all mean? My mom used to tell me never go with a stranger in your dreams. Hum.


Interesting dreams, MSV.  Fighting for the plumpest chicken... lol!  You must be craving Hmong chicken.   ;D
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Post by: MSV on January 17, 2012, 10:45:36 PM
Interesting dreams, MSV.  Fighting for the plumpest chicken... lol!  You must be craving Hmong chicken.   ;D

I know right! ;D The funniest part to the whole dream was that after all that "fighting" my mom pops into my dream and tells me the chicken is no good and that I should not butcher it. hahahaha. As a girl growing up, I'd often follow my mom whenever she went to the chicken farm to slaughter some chickens to store in our freezer. While there, she'd teach me what kind of chickens were perfect to catch. "Naib koj yuav tsum xaiv tus muaj zog khiav. Cov ntsoo ces mob lawm xwb. Tsis tas li ntawd, xaiv tus loj loj tabsis tsis txhob khaws tus rog dhau lawm thiab os. Cov ntawv muaj roj ntau xwb. Thaum xaiv tau lawm ces koj muab nws saib zoo zoo seb nws puas muaj kiav txhab nyob qhov twg thiab." And that's how I do it to this day. Run and chase, grab a hold of the fast one, check weight, go beneath the feathers to see if there are any fleshy wounds, sores, etc. and if all is good, it becomes mine. hehehehe. I guess it's time to pay a visit to the farm soon. Yummy chicken here I come.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 17, 2012, 10:53:02 PM
1.5 hrs of aerobics and 15 mins of lifting weights. I dreaded it so much today for some reason. I wonder why? :-\

Everyone around me is either 1. Getting married or 2. Have a baby on its way. It's kinda depressing seeing so many friends move forward to their next step in life while I'm stuck here going in circles. Although I've managed to accomplish a lot, in the end I find myself still behind. I know I'm not getting any younger and time is ticking away...Sometim es I wonder what life would be like if I had taken another route other than this one. Would I be happier? Just thinking...no regrets of my decisions thus far in life though. I am here because I choose to walk the path I did.

Need to head to bed in a bit. It's back to work tomorrow.
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Post by: MSV on January 18, 2012, 10:35:12 PM
Got lazy today and only managed to pull off 1.25 hrs on Just Dance 3 and 15 mins of stretching. I've been pushing myself and my abs and triceps are rather achy today. Like all others, it'll strengthen in time. In the mean time I just gotta suck it up and just live with it. Nothing I can't handle.

Went grocery shopping today and was very careful in what I was going to buy. Although everything looked so tempting, I went towards all the healthy foods. Came out with some rather good choices.

Today I found out that I kinda broke a boy's heart last year. I didn't mean for us to be anything more than friends but I guess he took our relationship the wrong way and assumed there was something more. I wonder why he never told me? He's such a great guy that I felt rather bad unintentionall y hurting him like that. He deserves a girl who'll love him....that's all I wish for him.

Another cold night....
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Post by: MSV on January 19, 2012, 11:23:21 AM
Today we got our first below zero degrees temp in MN! OMG! My poor car. I could hear it hesitating just to start up this morning. And to make matters a little worse, I couldn’t get my driver door to shut completely too. I’ve got one of those cars that won’t lock unless all the doors are securely shut all the way. After many failed attempts trying to shut it, I just decided to drive to work with it half opened. lol. I made it 4-5 blocks down the small roads toward the freeway and thought, “What if it flies open in the middle of me going 60-70 mph?” I decided to stop and give it a good WHOOM and sure enough it worked! I hope it won’t be like this every morning cause it’d totally suck. This is my first winter with my car so I don’t really know what it’s like. 

This whole week has been irritating at work. I’ve gotten so many solicitors calling in. Damnit! I don’t think they get it when I say “NO THANKS!” Take it when I am still nice. I know I’ve been acting rather rude to some of them today. Like one this morning who said he was not solicitating when he clearly stated he wanted to “discuss better options for so and so services”. WTH! I just told him NO and when he kept rambling I told him straight up…”Sir, as far as I know, what you’re saying there seems like solicitation to me.” He went quiet and hung up. And then a while ago some douche called asking to speak with our IT guy cause he wanted to advertise new equipment with us. I said the usual message and he goes, “I’ll call back later.” Dude, you’re going to get the same message repeated to you if you call back. Ruam tiag! Arg! If only there was a way I can just bump their calls to the trash can.

My stomach wants food. :( Why am I such a fatass? Need to resist the need to eat so much.

*Post 1111...! That means I get to make a wish.  O0
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Post by: MSV on January 19, 2012, 10:21:41 PM
1 hour of aerobics and 15 mins lifting weights.

P90X seems like something I should check out. Hummm.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 21, 2012, 09:00:34 AM
Last night's progress.....4 5 mins on elliptical and 15 mins on weights. For some reason I was so tired and unmotivated yesterday. I guess it was  Friday night and I wasn't in the mood to workout. I'm glad I didn't totally blow it off. A few days of not exercising can switch my mentality quite fast.

Babies are popping everywhere. I think I need to move on it. It's afterall...the dragon year!

Having a lazy morning. What should I do today? Maybe it's best just to relax and do absolutely nothing. I haven't had a weekend like this in some time. Why is it that when I do get it, I wish I were doing other things? Doesn't make any sense....I shall go bug my sisters and see what they wanna do. Hopefully it ain't shopping...
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Post by: MSV on January 23, 2012, 02:04:19 PM
The snow made my morning commute to work extra-long today.  What should have taken 20 mins ended up being a good 1.5 hr drive. What if I was low on gas? That would have made me panic big time. There were some rather stupid impatient drivers making me wish they ran into ditches though. So many of them were taking the shoulder lane and cutting way in front. It’s in times like these that I sometimes wished I was working from home. Now I’ve got to stay later to make up for coming in late.

It looks so white and beautiful out though.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 23, 2012, 08:41:12 PM
Workout progress....1 hour of cardio and 30 mins lifting weights. How come it seems like all my hard work has lead nowhere?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 24, 2012, 11:52:02 AM
My head hurts. It's times like these that make me wonder..... ua cas?

Zoo li lawv pheej muab cov haujlwm lawv tsis xav ua rau kuv ua tasli xwb. >:( >:( >:( Nov twb tsis yog kuv qhov responsibility anyways na. Arg! I want to call it quits already. Damnit! 
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Post by: MSV on January 24, 2012, 10:27:59 PM
45 mins on elliptical...2 0 mins jogging....and that was the workout for the night. Wasn't planning to do any exercise but my body has kinda gotten used to it so might as well keep at it. I am so ready for spring. I'm so excited to go walking through those park trails and around the lake...I'm planning on some hikes up big moutains. This is the year to see more progress!

Another couple I know is getting hitched. They are so young and naive but I guess that's that. Honestly I'm crossing my fingers they will last. Knowing how young they still are....I'm kinda skeptical. Marriage ain't a joke and some people are so love struck they forget to see beyond just being in love. There's more to being married than just love. Of course I haven't been there but I've seen enough to make my guesses....wil l be eating meat soon.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 25, 2012, 03:19:32 PM
Siab phem! I will not be the fat friend you pretend to be friends with just to get to my single friends. I guess you really are heartless. 
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 26, 2012, 12:59:26 PM
Workout from last night…
50 mins on elliptical followed by a lazy 20 mins of lighting weights. I feel it!

I dreamt that my purse was stolen last night. My sisters and a few of my favorite nieces and I had gone shopping. They were having this huge sale at some random department store so I was strolling through their racks of clothes and got carried away. My purse was slowing me down so I told my 21 yr. old niece to hold it for me. Next thing I know, I find her drunk walking around with just a strap hanging from her shoulder. The first thing I said to her was, “Where is my purse?” And she tells me about how some person took advantage of her not being fully conscious and took off with my purse. I went looking all over for it only to find it abandoned at a corner. I grabbed it and checked to see what was missing. Luckily the thief only just took off with all the little amount of cash I had (I had another one two hundred hidden from view supposedly), my license and one credit card. Whew! LOL. I called right away to report my stolen credit card and found out whomever took it in the first place purchased a $19.50 pair of shoes with it. I thought, “That’s all you got from stealing my credit card? Ruam tiag.” Poof! I woke up.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 30, 2012, 01:03:22 PM
Damn these cramps. :-[ I can’t stay concentrated at work nor do I have the desire to eat anything. All I want to do is get rid of this argggg. I’m just so close to driving home so I can rest in a tub of warm water to soothe it. Hurry 3:30pm. I want to go home.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: lilly on January 30, 2012, 02:00:05 PM
Damn these cramps. :-[ I can’t stay concentrated at work nor do I have the desire to eat anything. All I want to do is get rid of this argggg. I’m just so close to driving home so I can rest in a tub of warm water to soothe it. Hurry 3:30pm. I want to go home.

Girl, I used to be the same way before kids.  The worst kind of cramps.  Makes you think you're dying or want to die.  After having kids... never had cramps again. 
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 31, 2012, 02:37:46 PM
Girl, I used to be the same way before kids.  The worst kind of cramps.  Makes you think you're dying or want to die.  After having kids... never had cramps again. 

I wonder why they go away? I guess my uterus is yearning to house a fertilized egg so much that it’s giving me crap so I can hurry up and find a baby daddy. lol. I usually manage okay but sometimes they just make me want to yell at people….awww…what another great method to soothe menstrual cramps.

.....

It’s funny how some people weave beautiful stories to make them sound like helpless victims to the world when in truth lawv twb yog tus niag neeg siab phem.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 01, 2012, 09:38:35 AM
I'm no longer going to sit and let people treat me like I'm worthless. I may not have the beauty men desire but underneath this all, my heart still beats like everyone else. I guess it's hard for others to understand but it's okay. I'm glad I was chosen to be one of those ugly ducklings wobbling around looking for her place. It’s made me who I am today so I am forever thankful for that. I figure I don't want and need people to treat me bad anymore. Those who love me will love me, those who don't, won't. Why make it hard on myself? Why blame myself? Why punish myself? Why waste tears crying over how cruel some creatures can be? It’s time to step ground and just say, “You know what…I’m not the problem. You’re the one with the freaken problem. Get outta my face!” lol. It sounds so right in my head right now.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 01, 2012, 09:46:16 PM
Mom's love is best. She brought me herbal meds today because I told her I was having bad cramps. :)

Workout today....30 mins in morning and 1 hour in the evening. The weather is getting nice. Maybe in a month, when all the snow has melted for good, I can go do some workout outdoors.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 02, 2012, 10:30:20 AM
I suddenly have this craving for honey mustard pretzels. Do they even make those anymore?

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 02, 2012, 03:17:23 PM
I was researching online to gather some info for outreach work and came upon this story on an organization’s page.

One morning a young man was walking on the beach when he saw an elderly man. As the young man got closer he saw that the elderly man was picking something up and gently putting it in the ocean. The young man asked, “What are you doing?”

The older man paused, looked up and answered, “Throwing starfish back into the ocean. The sun is up and the tide is going out. If I don’t throw them in, they will die.”

The young man replied, “But don’t you realize there are miles and miles of beach, and hundreds of starfish. You can’t possibly make a difference!”

The older man listened politely. He bent down, picked up another starfish, looked at the starfish as he prepared to throw it into the ocean, past the breaking waves, and said, “I will make a difference to this one!”


Although simple in story, it sends quite a message. It has reminded me today why I do what I do. :) I guess the next time someone goes on about why I even work where I work when I could be working someplace else with better pay....I'll remember to share this story to them.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 03, 2012, 12:47:11 PM
I'm excited to make my fruit cake tonight. It's been so long since I've baked anything....

Friday is PAY DAY! Getting a tad bit more than the usual with my raise finally kicking in but it'd be nicer to see an even bigger check. I'll get there....
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 06, 2012, 10:40:13 AM
Lub hnub ci ua luaj hnub no los ua cas hauv kuv lub siab nws tsis kaj li. Tagkis no kuv sawv los es kua muag tsuas pom poob tig-toog-tig-toog xwb. Vim li cas nws tseem pom nws tus hluas nkauj muaj nqis tshaj kuv niam peb lawm thiab? Yog ib tug neeg xav hlub yus tsev neeg thiab yus tiag puas tsim nyog nws hais kom yus xaiv yus tsev neeg los nws ma? Do I have reason to be so worked up about it? How can some people be so blinded by love that they forget who really loves them?? Chim thiab tu siab heev li os. :'( :'( :'(
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 10, 2012, 03:02:05 PM
I'm sure he does love you guys a lot but his heart is torn by his family and the love for his girlfriend. When you're in love, you're so involved with your own little world that you tend to forget those who truly love you sometimes. I was in a similair situation. I always knew who loved me, my heart just refused to listen at times.

I know he still loves us. He’s just lost his way a little and I hope he comes to his senses before it starts damaging the family. Right now it’s hurtful but we love him so we’ll just have big hearts. :) I’m just curious though…when you said you were in the same situation, which side were you on? The one giving the guy an ultimatum or the one having to decide? Knowing you, you’re probably the one having to choose.

*****

Munching on baby carrots but dang! I am craving for a tuna sandwich right about now. *drools*

Excited for this weekend. I haven't gotten two whole days to myself in a LONG time. Now that I've got it, I don't know how I should use my time wisely? Maybe I should go party this weekend? It's been so long since I've been out with the ladies. Gotta brainstorm ideas tonight.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 13, 2012, 01:22:27 PM
ST, my family won’t put my brother in that situation. We know we love her and won't ask him to choose but it’d be nice if she just wasn’t so selfish. I can handle hahainess, shadiness, laziness, rudeness etc. but I can’t deal with a woman who’s going to put one of my loved ones on the spot to make us seem like we are second best just so she can be center of the universe in his eyes. Sighs. Nothing but a wasted headache.

*****

Went to see Confessions of a Lazy Hmong Woman over the weekend with my sisters. Although the play wasn’t amazing, it did have some humorous parts that kept me entertained. One of my favorite scenes came at the very end. The lead had asked her niam laus (not blood related though) what her name was and she replies..”Kuv twb yog Niam something something ne”. Then the lead goes, “I meant the name your parents gave you.” And then the niam laus thinks and thinks and she can’t figure out what her name used to be and frowns. She then goes on to tell a story of when she had entered a prize drawing somewhere and they drew her raffle and kept calling her name to come claim her prize. The niam laus had forgotten that part to her. Eventually she came to realize they were calling her name. That part really hit me deep. I guess Hmong women lose a little part of their identity when they get married. The whole world starts to refer to them through their husband’s name and they become….. I hope I never forget who I am.

My nose is stuffy today. It’s annoying trying to breathe through one nostril only. Oh well, I’m going to enjoy my lunch.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 14, 2012, 01:46:23 PM
I’ve been doing a bad job recording my evening workouts. They’re less frequent now but the good news is that when I hopped on the scale this past weekend, I was done 5 lbs! I guess breakfast and targeting my muscles is starting to pay off. Now I’ve just to keep this up until it’s nice enough to venture outside. I’d say I’ve got about another two months to go.

Food doesn’t taste any good when I can’t even smell what I’m stuffing in my mouth. It’s almost making me dread eating my turkey sandwich. Dang this stuffy nose! Why? You’ve been annoying me all day. Shoot, I’ve got some yummies I’m making for the ladies tonight too. Ohyo!

Happy Valentine’s Day! I wish I were a kid in grade school passing out Valentine cards again. lol. Those were the days.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 15, 2012, 04:31:02 PM
VALENTINE'S DAY...

(http://i1091.photobucket.com/albums/i389/puas_kam_nrhiav/breakingdawn.jpg) + (http://i1091.photobucket.com/albums/i389/puas_kam_nrhiav/IMG_20120214_173621-1.jpg)

Breaking Dawn was pretty awesome! The beginning was draggy but once the story developed it was on fire! I loved the wedding scene. OMG, it was so gorgeous! But while watching that scene I got sad thinking about how my dad would never see me get married. I had to hold back my tears. Anyways, that's not the point...the imprinting story...unexpe cted baby and when Bella went into labor....OMG!!! Overall Valentine's Day was alright. Spent it with my favorite girls in the world so I was happy.

Woke up sick and somehow got an eye infection (which made me look like a monster) so I stayed home from work today. I spent the morning doing tons of cleaning and reorganizing around the house. I was more productive at home than at work. hahahaha.

Got an email that made my heart jumped today. I've been trying to get a position at a certain place for over a year now and they finally said they'll pass my resume on to the hiring manager. One step closer to getting in. Please let me hear a phone call from them. I need a new direction in my work.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 16, 2012, 10:41:41 PM
Went to watch "The Vow" tonight with the ladies. It was an overall okay movie. But goodness, I wish I could myself a man who would never give up on me like Leo wouldn't do for Paige. :love5: Ending wasn't what I expected but it's still a thumbs up rating in my books.

Still sick so I stayed home today. OMG! I've not been this bored out-of-my-mind in such a long time. I literally starting snacking on junk food to keep me "entertained". lol. I don't do that much anymore.....Go od thing I work or my munchies could turn into a weight gain disaster.

Feeling so sleepy. Probably gonna k.o. early tonight.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 21, 2012, 10:05:34 AM
I was watching a series of episodes documenting individuals who were 600+ lbs and what measures they were taking in a 7 yr. wide span to save themselves. Of the ones I watched, they all underwent bypass surgery – costing at a whopping $30,000 a procedure. Holy moly! But what I don’t understand is how can a person still operate at close to 1,000 lbs? I’m already a fatass and I already find that I have my limits on what I can do and can’t. I guess I should really work on myself so that I don’t ever have to get there. Ntshai ntshai li os.

Returned from a 3-day weekend and there’s not much to do at work today. I’ve only been here for 2.5 hours and I’m already starting to get super bored. What to do?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 22, 2012, 02:32:06 PM
Koj puas tau ntsia rau hauv ib tug neeg ob lub qhov muag es txawm nws tsis hais ib lo lus rau koj tau hnov los koj twb paub nws xav dabtsi tas lawm? You need not say anything...kuv nkag siab zoo lawm os. :-[
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 23, 2012, 12:19:07 PM
My lecturer shared this story to us in relation to teaching as a profession.

For what teachers do for us all, the amount they are paid doesn’t equate…of course this excludes those horrible wicked one. ;D How do you think you can use this same story to apply to your own life?

Yes, I have. The eyes tell a story (the truth). :-[

Next time I'm just going to close my eyes....

*****

How can I get things done correctly if I am not provided the information I need? Yog li tsis txhob liam kuv yog tias kuv ua tsis tau nej tej haujlwm rau nej nawb. End rant.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 23, 2012, 08:15:16 PM
I decided to try out live plants for my goldfish tank. I hope they'll like it! Next thing to get...a beautiful background. I've had my tank so long and it looks so bare and lifeless. Time to spoil my babies a little..they need life. Going shopping at Petsmart after work tomorrow.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 25, 2012, 08:13:13 PM
I used to have a 55 gal with fishes but no gold fishes because they shit alot! LOL I had Cichlids and used to have a silver arowana. I love fishes, I should go get a 10 gallon and set it up. The background would look really nice. If you do not get a background, make sure you use the fluorescent lighting. It will definetely make a difference on your fish tank. It bring out all the beautiful plant, gravel, and make your fish look really pretty. Live plants are very nice and also small rocks. Take a pix of your setting when you're done.

OMG! That's huge! I can barely lift my 20 gallon when I have to do a thorough cleaning of it. Hell yeah, goldfishes are beautiful but they poop so dang much. Thank goodness I only have three in mines...anymor e and I could be looking at an ammonia-infested tank.  Speaking of that, I stopped by Petco today and say the prettiest red cap goldfish. I wanted to buy that baby so bad but thought about the daily dump mines already do and had to turn away. :-\ My filter system needs to get upgraded. I'm thinking about one of those undergravel air bubble pump things. Have you ever had those? By the way, what happened to your fishes? Neglect? I'll surely snap a photo once I upgrade my tank. I'm excited! You know what, if I had more money and was really into raising fishes, I'd love to try out a saltwater fishtank once too.

****

Been shopping and preparing for all the baby showers coming up in the next few months. I got a bunch of diapers that I kinda want to turn into one of those fancy diaper cake or diaper stroller. Amazing what creative things people think of. I should go on youtube and find a project to do. Everyone is expecting little ones and I'm wishing I was part of that crowd too. Xav ua mommy heev li thiab.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 26, 2012, 09:47:02 PM
Sometimes I feel like I'm so busy piecing together other people's happily ever after that I forget to focus on mines. I guess I can be the fairy godmother for the time being....until ....until....I 'm not sure what's next. :-\
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 01, 2012, 09:09:37 PM
I know what you mean... :-\

I'm too busy sorting other people's lives but I can't even sort my own..

Sometimes I wonder why I even bother. :-\ I should channel more energy on own life. Maybe a few more days of sunshine would come through that way....

The big one was set up by my ex who took off and left me with it. I had it for a month but then I had to move out of my place so I sold it to a pher from here for $60.00. I sold him the tank, stand, and all the accessories. I love fishes too. I'm into betta as well. Weird, I know. I know how to breed them and set up the tank for them as well. hahaha. My ex was so much into fishes. We had parahana, ciclids, to arowana. Right now, I've moved on from the fishes to parakeets. I have 4 parakeets.

Yes, you should buy one of the underground gravel thing if you want more filtration system.

Betta too! Kuv ib yam. I've got three females that look like they are obese (cause my sisters keep getting tempted to feed them). Have you managed to raise baby bettas to adult size? I watched my brother do it once and it is hard work. They are so dang small you can barely spot them in the water.

Parakeets along with a cat? Are you sure that's a good combo? Ever seen love birds? I've always wanted to get my hands on a pair.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 01, 2012, 09:18:22 PM
There are those who doubt and there are those who support. I thought by now I would have found an answer but how come I get more and more confused? I think I'm starting to second guess myself.

*****

Yesterday I went in for my interview. Thinking back to some of my answers I provided, I almost wanna smack my head. Gosh, I don't get where all my good communication and thinking skills go when I'm under pressure. I always suck at selling myself to employers. I'm not feeling confident about getting this one at all.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 02, 2012, 11:23:38 AM
Yes, I know how to breed betta and raise them to adult size. It's not hard at all. hehehe. My birds and cat get along just fine now. He grew up with them so he know not to attack them but sometimes.. he still sneak behind them. They are too fast and will just fly away.  :2funny:

I forgot where I saw a pic of your cat but he’s a gem. His color is very vibrant which only indicates to me that he’s well taken care for. :) On a side note, my niece once owned a cat and it got so fat. I think they fed him way too much. Poor thing.

Do bettas eat each other? I actually had four female bettas at one time until one of them died. And then I found the other three nibbling at it like it was food - which they have never done before. Am I starving them too much? What’s considered healthy feeding each day?

*****

My supervisor sent an all staff email announcing this:

Hey everyone –

It’s ______’s one year anniversary today!

Thank you _____, for the great work you do. We all appreciate your organization, initiative and friendliness. Thanks for covering the phones, kindly helping visitors, maintaining the office equipment that we all rely on, and gladly taking on tasks from all programs and departments.

THANK YOU!!!


It made my morning. Now everyone has been stopping by my office just to say congrats and asking if I’ll be back Monday for another year or not. I have to admit, although it’s not the best pay, I enjoy the people I work with here and I couldn’t ask for a better supervisor to guide me. Happy one year to me!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 06, 2012, 03:03:30 PM
For some reason I was sitting at work and a memory came flashing back to me.

Setting: On a crowded school bus heading home
Time: Sometime in the mid 90’s
Characters: Fat girl and mean Hmong boy

One day I was running late and ended up having to sit at the back of the bus with these naughty Hmong boys because it was too crowded up front. I’m sitting there minding my own business when one of the boys sitting directly behind me throws me a note. I see it fall onto my left side but pretended like I didn’t. My little sister then nudges me while she picks up the paper and starts unfolding it. As she did that, I could hear laughs surrounding me. I knew then that it wasn’t something good at all. Once the paper was unfolded, my sister told me to look at it. Now that I look back on it, I’m glad she was too young to read then. Anyways, I glanced at what she had opened in front of both her tiny hands before quickly crumbling it in my hands and stuffing it in my side pocket. When I got home, I opened that note once more. Those boys had drawn a picture of a big fat stick person and wrote some very nasty things on there that I don’t necessarily recall. I just remember seeing FAT this, FAT that, FAT, FAT, FAT and how as I stared at that piece of paper longer, it started to eat my self-esteem away. I cried and cried knowing I hadn’t done anything wrong to deserve this kind of teasing. Eventually I tore up the paper. That night I vowed to hate that one boy who threw me the note. Even to this day I still know his name - Xong Vue if you're out there.....:-[. I kept that hate I had for him all the way through the years I had left before graduating there.

I don’t know how I can find it in my heart to forgive people sometimes. Is skinny and beautiful the only two things human can accept only? Why is it so damn wrong to be different? Someone please explain to me because I don’t seem to understand these ideas social media often fill our minds with.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 06, 2012, 09:39:40 PM
MSV, just think of it this way. Would you rather be fat and beautiful or ugly and skinny. They can't change their face w/o technology but you can always loose the weight. You are only beautiful as you deem yourself to be. Who cares what other people think because I'm sure there are plenty of skinny/beautiful girls that are very lonely out there.  ;)

I am who I am because of the path I've walked and the things I've seen. I don't think I would change the way things were....even if I'm just the ugly duckling.

What is beauty to you?

*****

My sister and I went walking today and it felt so good! If only there were less puddles to jump over. I can't wait for more time to enjoy the sun tomorrow after work.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 08, 2012, 08:52:22 AM
Had a weird dream this morning.

I was going on a site visit with my supervisor and some other co-workers and somehow we ended up at this place where there were gold dragons bouncing around in celebration of the Cambodian New Year. I thought to myself, “Huh?” as I saw Hmong vendors with their booths set up like how it’s done at our annual J4 tournament. I was going to go buy some greens for my mom but something running around at the corner of my eye caught my attention. I suddenly see two of these little boys like the one in the Grudge run into this dark room filled with kids. For some reason I decide to follow. I end up in this dark room and all I hear is laughter. Next thing I know the little grudge look-a-like boy starts coming towards my direction and I’m ready to smash it. It dashes for the door and escapes instead. I remember seeing two of them so I quickly focused my eyes again to scan for the second one. To my surprise I see my little niece standing next to me this time. She’s smiling at me and bam! bam! She hits the other grudge-boy. But turns outs this one was the real deal and it evolves into this ugly red devilish looking creature. I told us to run. That’s what we did.

Next scene takes place in this dim place where I see all my little nephews. I haven’t seen them for a while now so I started hugging them. Their older brother – the one that committed suicide – walks in. I looked at him and said, “I thought you died?” He didn’t say much besides giving me a sad almost angry face. I asked what was wrong and he told me he didn’t’ want to be saved…to be given life again. I cried and cried. I cradle his head in my arms and told him that although his parents are stupid and can’t love them the way kids should have been loved, he should never see his life any less. I also told him to take care of his younger siblings (since he was the oldest one) so they would not have reason to shed a tear over their parents dumb choices. And then….and then….my alarm clock went off.

Got me thinking…..I wonder how he’s doing in heaven? 
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 10, 2012, 08:59:58 PM
I got another eye infection and my left eye looks horrible today. My mom came to visit and the first thing she said to me was, "Ua cas rau koj lub qhov muag lawm na. Ib me ntsis ces tsis pom kev." I just told her it's probably my mascara going bad and that I've thrown it out since this is the second infection in a month.

Mom's knee has been bothering her a lot lately. A shaman said it's because my dad is doing it. Supposedly when we moved to the new house we didn't invite him and so he's disappointed. My family and I setted up some food and invited him to come have breakfast with us this morning. Sighs. I never like to see my mom in such pain. I wish I could do something for her.... :-\ I wish this pain would go away so I wouldn't have to watch her like this. I remember when my dad first passed and my mom got something similar to this. Please take it away dad.

Currently watching Shallow Hal with my sisters as I end my Saturday. If only some of these shallow guys could be hypnotized too.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 11, 2012, 11:30:48 PM
Vim li cas kua muag rov poob hmo no lawm thiab? Puas yog kuv lub siab ceev thiab muag dhau?  :'( :'( :'( I hate this.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 12, 2012, 09:36:55 PM
I had such a long day at work today. Nothing went right and I didn't even get time to have lunch. I think they wanted me to stay longer to cover the phones but I said I've had more than enough and need to get outta there. I'm not an overachiever so kuv yeej tsis go out of kuv txoj kev es ua tshaj rau lawm tas li. Came home tired. Plopped on the sofa and dozed off for a good three hours. OMG! I think the time change this weekend is also screwing my sleep schedule up. I barely wanted to get up at 6:30am today when my usual wake up time is 5:30-6am. I guess my body will need some readjustments.

While napping, I had a dream that my work place got broken into. Whoever got in destroyed my locked file cabinets thinking there was probably good stuff in there. Plus I dreamt that I ended up staying til work until 10:30pm today and was spooked out b/c I didn't want to see any ghosts. Since when did work start following me home?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 16, 2012, 10:12:35 PM
This week has been the craziest at work. I don't think I've worked this hard since my hire on. Whew! Gonna enjoy my weekend before I have to go back in and deal with all sorts of paperwork, applications and orders. I'm not looking forward to it at all. But who cares, it's Friday night.

I've started up my long walks with my little sister. Yesterday we went a total of 3.5 miles and it made us so sore. But after it all, I felt so good. :) The night before that one, we decided to job on our way back home and that was such a killer. I realized it's hard trying to get back into that mode of making my heart pump hard. Regardless, I'm hoping to keep this up so I can shed the weight I gained over the one year that I slacked off. Feeling motivated as ever.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 17, 2012, 10:04:53 PM
I'm such a neeg quaj taug.

Friend #1. I received a missed call from him so I rung him to see what was up. He starts out joking as always. Then all of sudden he starts playing the guitar and singing sad hmong love songs telling me he was kho kho siab that night. Ever since we've know each other, he's never really showed that side to me. I told him he better not be screwing around with me or I'll biatch at him. He just got really quiet and then talked about his parents death when he was young...how he feels alone...how he just wants to find love...how he doesn't have riches and is wealthy like others. He cried and I got emotional over it too. To think I've known him for so long and this was the first time be stopped holding his man ego so tight and just really let me see his weak spots. I'm no good with words so I just told him to ua siab ntev es hlub nws tus kheev....

Friend #2. He called me drunk...told me he was disappointed that I pulled a teeny bluff on him. I laughed it off. We were chit chatting for some time and for some reason he got really sad. "Do you think I am a good person?". he asked me. I told him he was a good person and he shouldn't punish himself. He broke down and cried. Then he started talking about all the bad things that have happened to him. Of course a large portion of it being over the breakup of his almost decade long gf. However, the saddest part was when he talked about how seeing his grandpa's picture at the funeral service made his heart hurt so much. His gasps for air made me realize what great pain he was in. The stories he share always hit the deepest spots in my heart. So often it reminds me of the pain I have when my dad passed.I always knew he was them boys who was quiet and had endured quite a past but this was also the first time I've really heard him shed any tears. I could tell he's so hurt. Anyways, we ended up crying together.

Hearing people's pain and suffering... :'(
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 20, 2012, 08:12:21 PM
I am feeling soooooooo fobby tonight. Time to cruise youtube and get me some new Hmong songs to jam to. :D

http://youtu.be/UoZNdw6wANE

Music is my life. I live and breath for it. Too bad I can't sing.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 24, 2012, 12:07:13 AM
BoO as, phooj ywg zoo tsis muaj tsawg tus thiab kuv laj laj nrhiav tau cov kuv ntseeg taus. Vim li ntawd kuv thiajli treasure the ones I have. As in all relationships, you give as much as you would want to receive.

Thank you for your caring thoughts. I want nothing more than for my mom to be in good health.

*****

I started my backyard garden today. I found so much peace and quiet just digging away as I listened to the birds chirping. So exciting to do some actual planting soon. What should I have this year? Lemon grass, cilantro, scallions, and hot pepper are a must!!!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 27, 2012, 10:14:25 PM
Waiting. I find myself waiting all the time. Do good things really come in the end? Or am I just fooling myself into believing that the pot of gold awaits me. I am going to be so disappointed in myself if my patience ends up.....nowhere .
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 28, 2012, 10:29:42 PM
What money does to people. :-[
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 01, 2012, 05:31:47 PM
Money is the root of all evil. ;D

It sure is - sad. I've seen some pretty down right evil things people have done just to fatten their pockets.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 01, 2012, 06:00:43 PM
There are some people in this world I know of that no matter how much I try to like them, it will never happen. This particular woman...she has got one of the ugliest hearts I've come to know of. Her mouth runs like that of a demon. She's made my mom, siblings and I shed far too many tears over the hurtful things she's said and done. We've kept it to ourselves all these years thinking it'll fade with time. I’ve tried to be forgiving and see her good but how can I see any when none exist? I know I should be the bigger person and just walk away but I don't want to anymore. I'm fed up with her. One of these days I will snap and give her a big biatching. I'm gonna be like, "Look biatch, who the hell do you think you are talking to my family and I like we are worthless. You better f*cken take your rude comments and selfish acts someplace else before I slap you right here in front of the whole world. Then after I do that, I'll laugh about it as I turn my back on you for good." Oooo, she made my blood boil yesterday.

*****

"Hauv koj lub siab puas muaj kuv?" BC texted me a rather surprising text this weekend. I wonder if he was just joking around or was he really trying to ask me if I ever saw him more than a friend? Part of me secretly wished he had a teeny ounce of a crush on me. But then again knowing the girls he dated in the past, I know I don’t stand a chance. After hesitating with an answer, I texted him back asking him how can a weed stand out in a field of flowers? Just thinking about it kills me sometimes. I’ve watched far too many good guys slip away into the “friendship” zone because I wasn’t attractive enough to satisfy them. I guess it’s okay always ending up being the cool chick they could share all their relationship problems with….who had all the hot friends that make them giggly when they are trying to turn on their mojo….who would tell them when they were doing wrong and put them in their place…..who gave them a shoulder when a broken heart made the man tears fall. I….I…..I don’t know what’s it like to be something more than a friend to a guy.  :-\ :-[ :(
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 05, 2012, 10:33:42 AM
Another unexpected text came through late one night.

Sorry she call. I hope you’re not thinking about me using you as a rebound. To be honest, I have some feelings toward you already. Just thought you should know. You’re a special woman. It doesn’t matter if you don’t feel the same towards me. I’m letting you know how I feel.

Ring! Ring!

Me: Hello! Ua cas koj rov hu kuv? I thought we said good night already?
BC: I’m sorry. Ntshe koj twb mus pw lawm poj? Did you get my text?
Me: Yes.
BC: I just thought I should let you know. I do have feelings for you.
Me: Ummm. *silence* Tsis txhob tso tso dag rau kuv na.

I laughed it off out of feeling awkward and switched the subject after that. Gosh, I get so dumb sometimes. lol.

Although he managed to send a bunch of girly giggles from me, I know it could never be. Deep down I feel like I’m suppressing certain feelings. I guess I’d rather never let them surface because I don’t want to push our friendship beyond what could be. I like where we are at and I don’t want to lose any of that. I hope he didn’t take my answer as a rejection.

****

Our backyard has so many dang dandelions. Why in the world did whomever lived here before us not take care of the lawn? Damnit! I’ve been spending so many days after work pulling our dandelions. Them suckers are deeply rooted which adds so much more work. I’m pretty sure there’s something out there that can easily kill them off. I don’t want to rely on them unless necessary. Aish. Looking forward to a green yard by the end of this summer.

My little garden has started up too. My mom gave me some seeds to jumpstart it. So far I’ve only managed to plant my cilantro and scallions. I can’t wait to see them grow. Shoot! I just remembered…I need to go get some fencing. Don’t want rabbits and other little critters in my garden.

****

I really want to get a shih tzu!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 05, 2012, 10:37:10 PM
OMG. FANNY AND BRIAN! My sisters and I were so in love with them back in their FTTS days......ahhh hhh! Stumbled on some of their music on youtube. I miss these two sexies.

http://youtu.be/bb6eQIIzLjI

http://youtu.be/yRFsYVQ6sZc

They are still amazing as EVER!!! I hope I dream of them tonight.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 08, 2012, 11:12:31 PM
Kuv zaum ib pob hauv kuv lub tsheb quaj ib pluag. Ua cas lawv thiajli tsis pom zoo li?

.....I’m so sad tonight.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 10, 2012, 11:46:04 AM
Leej twg tias kom lawv pheej qeeb siab tsis xa application tuaj ntxov. Tsam no deadline dhau lawm no ces lawv yuav hu tuaj piav pity stories thiab give excuses rau kuv mloog os? Please. ::) Take that somewhere else. Kuv tsis xav mloog hnub no. I’m feeling rather heartless. lol. My head hurts. Can’t wait to go home.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 11, 2012, 09:25:52 PM
Work is flying by so fast this week. I can't believe it's already Thursday tomorrow. But dangit, it's my longest day this week. Why do I have to sit through another boring useless meeting? ::)

Weeding is so therapeutic! After a long day of being mentally drained, it's nice to just dig up some dandellions. Every one I pull out brings me one step closer to having that awesome green backyard. Speaking of gardens...OMG! My scallions are starting to sprout. However, I noticed today that something has been digging them up. I've got to get that fence up so they can't get to my veggies. My mom said she'll come help me set that up....I hope it's this weekend.

Need new Hmong music on my phone....

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 12, 2012, 08:45:35 PM
2.5 more hours of weeding today. It was so relaxing. But goodness there are a lot of them. I wonder if I counted every single one I pulled out, how much would I have at the end of the summer? Planning to do some more weeding tomorrow after work. On top of that, I discovered another species of unwanted weed today and now I'm on a mission to get rid of those too. The sad thing is they are more deeply rooted than dandellions. :-\ So much work to complete. I guess I'll be busy for this summer.

 
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 15, 2012, 10:50:44 PM
Friday night...watche d "In Time" with some of my sisters. It's quite an interesting movie. What if time really did become our currency?

Saturday...nia m and me time. We fenced my garden....trim med all the evergreen trees and bundled the branches....di d some major ass weeding. Very productive day!

Sunday....mus haujlwm. Los txog ces lazy around the living room flipping random channels to pass the time. Watched this one episode called "Caught on Camera" and boy, some criminals can be quite stupid.

*****

Puas tsim nyog nyob tos? Zov zos npaum li no es puas zoo dabtsi? Kuv lub plawv thiab lub hlwb tsis mloog each other hmo no li os....it's been like this for a few days now. If I even question it, doesn't that tell me something already?

BC hais tias nws tau txawj txog kuv. I feel bad ignoring all those phone calls and texts. I never liked others worrying about me.

Another job interview in a week's time. Should I prepare for it?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 16, 2012, 08:02:15 PM
Got home and it was too cold to be outdoors weeding those dang weeds. I couldn't possibly sit still and watch tv so I went and cleaned my bathroom. I sanitized it so good that now I don't even want anyone to use it. ;D It's so refreshing having that nice scent of febreeze tickling my nose every time I walk into my bathroom. I know it won't last too long so I'll make the best of it. Too bad I'm not a fan of scrubbing toilets and bathtubs too. I'll try to make it a "every other month" chore for myself.

I've been having some pretty vivid dreams. The other night I had a dream that ib tug menyuam poj ntxoog los nrog kuv. And then there was one about Lil Wayne leaving his most treasured assests in my hand as he has a gunshot war with some kaydoo mobsters. Those bad guys later catch me and interrogate me to tell them information about where Lil Wayne is. I have no idea why I dreamt such dreams. As a friend said...maybe I ate too much before going to bed.

Kuv tsis paub es...tonight I have this heaviness in my heart like I'm longing or missing someone. But the thing is...there's no one. What does this stupid heart want? It's as bipolar as MN's weather. :-\

"Kev sib ncaim tsis yoojyim li lub siab xav...." Light of Day's song Mus Zoo Koj always gets to me. I'm listening to a cover by a youtuber and she's good. Off to youtube I go.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 19, 2012, 10:27:18 AM
Tagkis no kuv sawv los es nws txawv dua txhua hnub. Kuv hnov leej twg tham luag ntxhi upstairs. Kuv mus mloog ze zog na ham ho yog kuv tus niam laus xwb. I started giggling. Peb nyob laus li no kuv tsis tau hnov nws tham nrog ib tug hluas nraug nyob twg li. Tabsis ua cas a couple weeks ago, she bumped into someone and now…hehehe. Kuv zoo siab heev rau nws. I’ve always wanted her to find someone loving to build her life with and she finally hopped on it. Txawm tias nws qeeb zog los tsuav nws nrhiav tau tus hlub nws xwb. I hope that guy is not a player who’s just out to break hearts. Yog nws ua kuv tus niam laus quaj ces ntshe kuv yuav tau mus ua poj dab cem nws kom txaus kuv siab kiag. Kuv tus niam laus favnis dhau lawm os. I’ll make sure I give her some tips on flirting. Wait. kuv twb tsis paub flirt li es. :-\ WTH!

Damn! I should have never slacked off on my workouts. Tau ib week no kuv rov ua some kickass cardio thiab toning mas mob muscle tiag tiag. I feel it most in my abs. I love the sore feeling though. Gotta work hard and feel something if I wanna get somewhere.

Can’t wait for the weekend to come…baby shower and an ua neeb to attend. If I have extra time, I might possibly drop by a friend’s wedding too. So many celebrations…! It makes me want to throw a random one just for the fun of it.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 23, 2012, 10:05:06 AM
how is your garden coming along?

ST, my scallions and cilantro are sprouting! I say give it another month and they’ll be ready to be picked. How’s your planting coming? What’s growing this year?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 23, 2012, 10:33:00 AM
Weekend was so tiring. I literally knocked out by 8:30pm on Saturday and Sunday night. Who does that? Had a great time with the girls though. We are so silly when we get together. Maybe I should plan a weekend retreat up north in a cabin for us all? I wanna do something new and different this year. But with all those baby bumps, I don’t know who’ll be able to make it. 

Kuv tau nrog nws tham nag hmo. Nws haistias nws twb kam tso tagnrho nws lub neej rau kuv lawm. Ua cas kuv thiajli tsis kam qhib kuv lub siab rau nws? I’ve come to the conclusion that maybe I’ve developed this fear of wanting to ever trust another man again. I know it’s not healthy to assume and start withdrawing from every man I seem to be getting closer to but it serves as my guard. I don't want to be hurt...lied to...walked all over anymore.

Watched a rather compelling Hallmark movie titled “Firelight” last night. It was about a group of incarcerated young girls who - under the guidance of a counselor - were sent out to volunteer in areas such as putting out fires, building hiking trails, and assisting in natural disasters. This act was in hopes of helping the girls rediscover themselves, better build stronger relationships amongst people they’ll come across in life, and just have a sense of belonging somewhere. Overall, I was really impressed with the movie….even had me in tears at the end.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 24, 2012, 12:14:50 PM
Last night I was talking to a friend about cars and he had mentioned he got himself a brand spankin’ new red hybrid car while I’m driving down MN roads with my dull Camry. Anyways, somehow that conversation traveled into my dreams. I dreamt that my older saw a posting on craigslist for this awesome two-door sports looking red car. The seller was only willing to do a trade so we decided that if it was worth it, I’d trade mines in for his. We both went to look at the car and it was a beauty! I didn’t test drive it or anything though. Next thing I know, I’ve already swapped cars. A few days later I started to realize it was a BIG mistake. The value of that car was crap compared to my Camry…it didn’t even drive properly…mileage was off the meter….seats only fitted me and a passenger….plus I don’t even like two doors or sports cars. I started to regret my “purchase”. While panicking, I tried digging up information to get back in touch with the seller to see if I could get my car back…I thought about all the money I spent on my Camry and I nearly cried. All of a sudden I hear walking upstairs and wake up. Just to make sure, I ran and looked outside my window this morning to see if my car was still parked outside. lol. Thank goodness I was only dreaming…

I went shopping yesterday after I got off work and I got some really good deals. I ended up buying 7 pairs of jeans and a pair of boots for only $51! 7 hand soaps – all kitchen lemon - from Bath and Body for $21! $10 off $10 purchase from Kohl’s!  I love sales! Now I’ve got to ban myself from shopping before it gets outta hand.

Heels always put me in a "I feel sexy" mood. Too bad I don't wear them as often as I should.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 25, 2012, 10:32:54 AM
Why are men’s shirt sizes so complicated?

Came upon a vid on YouTube of a bunch of grandchildren singing a song for their grandma at her funeral and it made me miss my dad. Kuv nco nws heev. Perhaps that it why the sun is hiding behind clouds today.  I should pay him a visit and bring flowers to plant so he can enjoy them this summer.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 27, 2012, 02:32:27 PM
MSV, that is great!! Mine are too. I'm just planting the typical. Green mustard (which is growing right now), green onion, celantro, red peppers, tomatoe, thai basil, lemon grass, pumkin, beans, corn, cucumber, watermelon, and some hmong herbs for chicken. That's pretty much it. I already put down some seeds so we'll see if I will be sucessful this year. Take pix and let me see and I will do the same.

One way to really check if you've spotted a Hmong family is to look in their backyard gardens. ;D

It looks like you've got so many yummy stuff to look forward to. Do you know the names of all those chicken herbs? My mom and I usually get them when they are already seedlings since we don't know what they are called. It'd be nice to see them grow from scratch though. I'll remember to take a pic this weekend and share. Same goes for you...sharing time.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 27, 2012, 02:34:34 PM
Booked for the weekend! Ohyo. I'm going to be exhausted.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 01, 2012, 09:41:39 PM
Kuv nco koj. Kuv nco koj. Kuv nco koj. :'(

If I say it enough times, maybe...just maybe...this message will make it to you. I hope you know that I miss you so much tonight. Tau ntau hnub no koj ciali plog ntsia to tsis hais ib los rau kuv paub. Kuv kuj ntshai tsam koj lam muab lub siab phem mus ua tej yam yuav ua kuv los kua muag xwb. Tabsis vim kuv twb hais tias kuv mam li ua lub siab loj nrog koj ces kuv mam li nyob tos. Txhob mus ntev tsam kuv khiav lawm nawb.

*****

I've been knocking out at 10pm lately...what's up with that?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 09, 2012, 09:36:57 AM
I am with doubt and I feel like I am in need of some direction, hope and a little reassurance

Mother's Day is coming up. What to do for my mom this year???
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 10, 2012, 09:18:26 PM
MSV, who do you miss..?

hehehehe. That's a secret. ;)

How have you been? I've been meaning to still snap a photo of my garden for you. We'll see if I rememeber tomorrow. Anyways, we've been getting a lot of rain here lately so my babies are growing quite nicely. I should hurry...

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 10, 2012, 09:31:28 PM
I got so bored that I started a new backyard project. I'm tearing up the whole yard and replanting grass. Those dang weeds are too hard to keep up with. I just mowed the lawn a few days ago and the dandellions already managed to reach 5-6 inches high now. WTH! This time they look ever uglier because they've turned into this dirty maroonish-brown color. Ewwww. I'm on another mission to destroy them all. I took a look at our neighbor's lawn and it looks so pretty. Need to get there....

I had a dream about one of my brothers last night. I dreamt that I was hahaing at him for being selfish. I told him his gf shouldn't be his world because someday he'll need his family and if he doesn't realize that than he's dumb. I yelled at him and said some pretty mean things about his gf. All of sudden my brother starts crying. He is wiping his tears with kleenex and then I noticed chunks of blood coming out of his nose and mouth. Instead of running over or panicing, I just continued lecturing him.....I wonder what it all means?

Work is really picking up. I've been coming home drained. Today I felt so stressed and frustrated. I was so close to screaming at people who called my line....:-\ I need a long vacation. Need to get away and just breathe. I'm going to request some time off this summer.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 13, 2012, 09:59:40 PM
Too much grubbing on the weekends. This whole month has been like this. If I keep this up I'll end up packing on 10 lbs by the end of the summer. I'm glad all the baby showers, weddings, gatherings, etc. have all quiet down. Shoot, grad parties are around the corner. Ohyo!

Happy Mother's Day today to all the beautiful moms in the world. Today the siblings and I just cooked a great feast for my mom. We ate and kept it simple. I guess as the years go by we start running short of new ideas to do. Maybe for next year I'll plan something a little better....a weekend get-a-way?

Having second thoughts...gro wing hopeless. Is it really worth it anymore? I need a sign....

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 14, 2012, 09:42:47 AM
Kuv tuaj txog tim haujlwm hnub no es Ive been sitting here dazed this whole time. Kuv xav mus tsev tamsimno.just crawl back into bed and sleep until my body is happy. Im feeling super unmotivated and unproductive. Yog tagkis zoo li no dua xwb ces ntshe kuv yuav dag tias mob tob hau kom tau nyob tsev xwb poj? Im beginning to think this is another sign I really need to just take a detour from my busy work life and find time to relax. Ive especially been mentally and emotionally drained. *yawns*

Craving for something sweet. I want a slice of cake from Bravo or Caf Latte.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 15, 2012, 02:55:29 PM
Friends come and go but my sisters...they have no choice...they're stuck with me. lol. I'm blessed to have so many sisters. :) Without them, I'd feel so lonely.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 16, 2012, 09:53:13 AM
Me too.. I'm super happy that I have 4 sisters whom I can share things with and do things with. We all very close.

OMG, I tell yawe are so similar. I also have 4 sisters too. Are you my long lost twin? :D Anyways, in terms of sharing...do you often find yourself shopping in their closets, jewelry boxes, makeup sets too? All of my sisters and I have our own tastes and interests in everything but somehow we make it work for all of us. Honestly I dont really feel a need to have too many close friends because Ive already got my sisters. I love them.

*****
I cant wait to be wearing summer dresses!

(http://i1091.photobucket.com/albums/i389/puas_kam_nrhiav/targetsummerdress.jpg)
I was out shopping at Target a few days ago and fell in love with this particular one. Its simplejust how I like my clothes. I think I need to go back and get it. Its been at the back of my mind this whole time. Best part to it all is that I found a coupon for $3 off too. Sweet! 

 (http://i1091.photobucket.com/albums/i389/puas_kam_nrhiav/mauricessummerdress.jpg)
This dress from Maurices is super cute too!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 18, 2012, 10:25:53 AM
Did everyone in the office just decide to take a vacation today? The office is dead silent. Kuv mam li nyob ua si hauv PH kom txog caij kuv mus tsev xwb mas. In fact kuv mam li tawm ntxov thiab. Today will be an easy-going day. Thats the best part to Fridaysaside from pay days.

So sleepy.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 19, 2012, 12:25:01 PM
I got into an argument with one of my little sisters last night when we went walking. She's been angry with the world, negative in her thinking and plain down right mean and loud when interacting with guys. I just told her that maybe she just needs to go out and keep herself occupied with other things so she can snap out of her state. I think she's unhappy with how her relationship turned out with that one boy from Oklahoma so she thinks this is how she should cope with it all. She got really offended with everything I said and went off about how I don't know her. Of course I may be under my own assumptions but the family notices it too. We've made attempts to hint at her but sometimes the best route is just be direct. I feel kinda bad being like that but she needs to hear it. I know she's not like this.....it's just a stage she's going through to get over that boy but it's affecting our family too. I hope she'll understand that I didn't mean to put her out but rather make her realize it's not healthy....I hope she comes around.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 19, 2012, 12:52:35 PM
I like recording the dreams I recall...this one was from last night.

I dreamt that my mom, one of my sisters, and I were eating out at this crowded Chinese restaurant after a long day of shopping. When we were just about done, the waiter brought us the tab and I looked at the receipt only to realize they totally overcharged us. With a mouth full of food, I stood up and demanded the waiter recalculate everything we bought. As I was trying to figure out how much I still owed, I saw this handsome guy at the corner of my eye. His figure was familiar but I couldnt make him out. Anyways, he handed the waiter $19 to cover for the remaining charges. I turned my head to glance at him and smiled while thanking him. He got his navy blue coat, grabbed his girl's hand, and walked out of the place afterwards. Then my mom says to me, Naib, tus tub ntawd yog leej twg es ua cas nws hos lam muab nyiaj los them rau peb cov mov? Koj puas paub nws? And then.and then.that figure finally came to me. It was KPX! How could have I forgetten him? As soon as I remembered, I ran after him. I got out to the parking lot and tried to track him down. Everywhere I looked I just saw random Hmong people walking around. My heart was beating because I wanted to see him right then. I was about done searching when all of a sudden to my distance left I see a car with someone sitting in there. Is it him? I thought to myself. The guy looked over and noticed me so he got out of his car. Its KPX! I ran over to him and hugged him. He didnt say one word but just embraced me. After being nestled in his arms for a few seconds, I tilted my head up and asked him where he went all this time. I asked him if he was happy with his girl..I asked him if he forgot about me. He told me he was still with his girl but he never stopped thinking about me. He told me that if I had allowed myself to fall in love with him.we could have been in each others arm all the time like this. The dream became a blur after that.

Its been so long.I dont know why KPX came to me last night. Maybe he got married. *sighs*

I secretly long just to be in someone's arms. All my life I've always carried all this weight...troub le....tears... ..on my own. I wonder what it would be like to have a protector....
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: lilly on May 22, 2012, 01:28:47 PM
Aww, MSV and Sweet_Tears, you girls are so lucky to have sisters!  I want sisters too.  I hope in my next lifetime I'll have sisters like you two.  :'(
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 22, 2012, 08:47:06 PM
Aww, MSV and Sweet_Tears, you girls are so lucky to have sisters!  I want sisters too.  I hope in my next lifetime I'll have sisters like you two.  :'(

A few days ago I got into a dispute with one of my sisters and we didn't speak for a day or two. In that time of silence with each other, things felt off. Today she called me really early in the morning and our talk before work made me almost teary. I don't know about everyone else but I can't imagine my life without my sisters. They've shaped a great part of me. The love I have for them...it's endless. Perhaps you're like my mom....she grew up with my two uncles only. Even to this day she still wishes she had sisters somewhere to share things with. I told her she may not have a sister but she got herself a houseful of daughters instead. 

We can be the ph sisters. ;)

Yog lawm mas. Ua PH sisters los tau!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 22, 2012, 08:56:01 PM
ST,

Nov yog rau koj saib os. You can tell it needs a little tender, love, and care. lol. 

(http://i1091.photobucket.com/albums/i389/puas_kam_nrhiav/mysecretgarden.jpg)
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 22, 2012, 09:10:11 PM
I did an 11 hour shift today. Omg. Came home and sat in traffic with a migraine. If I did this on a regular basis I'd turn biatchy in no time. Long story short...I went to conduct interviews for youths today. I was telling my older sister how funny some of their responses are. For example I asked a Hmong girl to tell me about a time when she was faced with something difficult and how did she go about handling it. I don't know if she was nervous, didn't understand the question, bored or what. She says to me....3 o'clock? I looked at her and said, can you say more on that? Then she goes 6 o'clock? ;O Or another girl started talking about how her mom's finance moved in to live with them and brought some bratty kids she didn't neccassarily like. But of all the ones I did, the one who stood out was this one Hmong boy who chose to be socially mute. I've never encountered someone like that so I was really nervous about interviewing him. When he first entered the room, he shook my hand and smiled. Then we went through the questions one-by-one. Cov menyuam boy kaydoo were so polite too. I like how they say..."Yes ma'am." Anyhow...good day at work today even though it was super long. That means I get to leave work early on FRIDAY!!!! Yahoo!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: lilly on May 23, 2012, 09:46:14 AM
...tell me about a time when she was faced with something difficult and how did she go about handling it. I don't know if she was nervous, didn't understand the question, bored or what. She says to me....3 o'clock? I looked at her and said, can you say more on that? Then she goes 6 o'clock? ;O Or another girl started talking about how her mom's finance moved in to live with them and brought some bratty kids she didn't neccassarily like.

BWAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!   What a great start to my day!  Thanks, MSV, for the laugh!  I especially like the 3 o'clock, 6 o'clock?  HAAAhahaha!!!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 25, 2012, 12:12:58 PM

hahahaha.. your garden looks like my neighbor! Don't worry.. mine kinda look like that too. I don't have much growing  yet. Will get to it this weekend.  ;D

As long as the finished produce is yummy...that's all that matters. Right? hehehe.

BWAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!   What a great start to my day!  Thanks, MSV, for the laugh!  I especially like the 3 o'clock, 6 o'clock?  HAAAhahaha!!!

I love sharing work stories! In fact I got one more for today. I was doing follow-up calls for our youths today - since its one of those deadline days- and I happen to speak with one of the youths brother on the phone. Were going through a series of mini Q & A. Then just when were about done he asked for my personal number. WTH?  Trying to hit on me? OMG. Npwb ntawd os. Work story for today.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 25, 2012, 12:18:51 PM
Working OT this week. Mama gonna make that money.

I've been mad at my mom for a week now so I haven't gone over to visit or stay at all this week. Last night she called me. The siblings both left for their trips and no one was home with me. She asked me if I wanted her to come over to ua kuv luag. And when I said no, she says..."Txhob ntshai dabtsi nawb. Yog yus lub tsev xwb." Then she tells me that she misses me. My heart smiled but I replied back, "Koj twb tsis nco li hos." ;D I miss my mom too. No matter how angry she makes me sometimes....I could never cut her out of my life.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 29, 2012, 01:50:53 PM
Ua cas es! Lawv tab ua kuv lub siab mus zoj nov mus zoj tim xwb. Kuv twb ua ib siab nyob ntawm nov los lawv tseem sau kuv out of nowhere hais kom kuv mus interview nrog lawv thiab. Oyo. My summer plans/schedule might get cancelled because of this. Now my mind is wandering again.

Im going to be pulling a 12 hr shift at work today. Worst part iskuv tsis muaj kuv lub xov tooj nrog kuv thiab. :'( No texting to pass the time.

Memorial Day Weekend Recap:

1. Went to visit my dad at the cemetery yesterday with my mom and sisters. I tried to hold myself together but of course it always fails.
2. Did some major shopping. Got myself some nice shirts and even a summer dress. I still dont have a pair of sandals though. Maybe I should take a trip to the mallhavent been to one in months.
3. Gardening. I havent been able to help mom much this summer so she and I weeded until the rain started to pour. Then we drove home in a rainstorm. That was especially scary when the hail starting coming. Poor cars.
4. Slept. I had one morning when I slept until my hearts content. That was amazing!
5. Watched a whole ton of Lifetime movies.

Tsaug tsaug zog li os....zzzzz... ..zzzz.......z zz....zz
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 30, 2012, 11:19:08 AM
^ Its okay. Im sure your dad appreciates every visit you do. My dads bday is around the corner so Ill be stopping by the cemetery again. This year hes getting cupcakes and a small flower garden! I saw what you planted for your dad and its beautiful. I might just have to take up that edging idea too.

Lifetime movies are awesome. But Ive got to admitthey portray some psycho ass people in those movies. Speaking of thathave you ever caught episodes of Deadly Women. Great show to check out too. In fact if I had more time to watch TV.omg! Id be a total crime scene/suspense fanatic.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 30, 2012, 11:20:14 AM
Mission for tonight....wee d my garden and plant my chicken herbs. I hope the weather cooperates.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 31, 2012, 01:17:35 PM

Yes, we made a little small garden for my dad. It's just a way to honor him. He loves flowers..so I'm sure he's happy to have one. There's like 5 of us.. so we alternate to water it.. when it doesn't rain. You should... every year around spring time.. the flowers will blossom and it will be so pretty...
 
OMG!! girl, we must really be twins from another lifetime.. I love crime/suspense as well. I can watch those all day...I'm crazy. ;D

My dad wasnt a flower person but too badhes still getting a flower garden. ;D It gets too dull around his placea little color will liven the atmosphere. Plus its summer! What kind of flowers did you get? My dad is under this huge tree so Im looking for flowers that do better without needing a whole lot of sun exposure. Any suggestion?

You knowIve always wondered what itd be like to have an identical twin.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 31, 2012, 01:31:04 PM
OMFG! Ntsej muag kaydoo ruined my lunch break. I had a mom who called in saying she received a letter from us for her son but not her daughter. I searched through our databases trying to locate her daughters record and she wasnt in our system. Heck, I even checked all the returned mail envelopes I kept - in case instances like this came up. Still nothing. So kaydoo mom tries to talk slow to me like Im dumb or something. After repeating to her a few times that we didnt receive her daughters application at all, she said shell record the message I had left her a few days ago to prove Im wrong. I said to her, Okay, go ahead. Its been one hour and she hasnt called back. Thats what I thought! If it werent in such a professional setting, I would have put her in her place already. Ntsej muag kaydoo! UGH! ::) ::) ::) Koj tseem yuav los question kuv txog kuv kev ua haujlwm thiab os?

One more day to go before the weekend.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 01, 2012, 12:40:18 PM
My stomach is crying out to me. It wants to eat but I'm too lazy to walk to the microwave right now. ;D It'll have to wait for a few more minutes...

Finally finished weeding my garden yesterday night. It took me a good 2 hours just to clear the rest but I'm happy with my accomplishment! Next mission is to replicate that work with our family garden. That's going to take up the majority of my weekend this week. I'll consider it an awesome workout.





Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 01, 2012, 11:45:34 PM
I really miss my dad tonight. :'( Los los kua muag tsis paub ua li cas lawm. Puas muaj leej twg nco lawv txiv ib yam li kuv nco kuv txiv thiab. This pain....this hurt....this missing part.....this longing....it's draining me slowly.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 02, 2012, 01:31:12 PM
My back is aching from 6 hours of tua nroj with kuv niam this morning. Oyo, I know my muscles will catch up after tonight's rest. I should reward my hardwork with something delicious. I just went in to get two fillings on Friday and I'm already munching on sweets. This is bad...tabsis kuv tsis khes today.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 04, 2012, 10:13:13 PM
Last night I came to my senses. All this time, nws tsuas yog kev dag xwb. Kuv mob mob siab es quaj kom txaus siab tso  kuv mam li ua ib siab mus tsis thig rov ntsia li lawm.

My supervisor granted by long weekend for July. I'm going to go vacation somewhere where I can find peace and quiet with myself. Camping?

Wonderful long walk around Lake Nokomis today. I really have been slacking on my exercise. Wishing to get back in shape.

Beautiful song...
http://youtu.be/tktIRYo4wls (http://youtu.be/tktIRYo4wls)

Good night.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 05, 2012, 10:52:18 PM
I didn't realize how much junk I had in my room until I cleaned it out earlier today. Came upon some things from 10+ yrs ago and things have changed....Vua g!

Taking it one day at a time. It's hard but I'm staying strong.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 06, 2012, 10:23:27 PM
I wanted to keep busy so ended up scrubbing and sanitizing the bathroom. It smells so good in there now. I love it!

I've been noticing a lot of spiders in our house. Ewwww! I don't like them at all. I think I've smacked a good 3-4 dead today.  :-\ Gonna find some of those glue traps to catch them before it gets crazy.

Broke down and cried. I failed.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 07, 2012, 08:33:35 AM
Feeling well rested this morning. Had some really odd dreams last night that I don't really recall. Just remember being stuck in this big creepy house.

Kuv tuaj tos tos koj tsis pom koj tuaj. Kuv nyob tsis kaj siab li. Those words keep echoing in my head. Its amazing what little words nws hais rau kuv yet I fall weak for it everytime. Damnit! Dont give in yuav tsum tsis khes kiag.

Im beginning to think I should have a mission to fulfill every day after work. Itll give me reason to aim higher! What should I complete today? Hummm. Kuv paub lawm! Im going to bake some fruit and carrot cupcakes! Yummy! I guess thats a trip to the grocery store after work.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 07, 2012, 11:17:08 PM
Got done showering and now I'm lazying around the sofa listening to music. It feels so good. Good night.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 08, 2012, 11:15:07 AM
Please....plea se ....please grant me this! *crossing fingers*

I've been thinking....sh ould I get my palms read by one of the hmong elders?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 10, 2012, 11:07:37 PM
Not a day goes by that I don't wonder....

My eyes are so tired but it's hot and I can't sleep. It needs to rain some more.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 12, 2012, 08:37:14 PM
Beef tendons take FOREVER to cook. I've had it boiling for well over 2 hours now - that's not even the halfway mark yet. Can't wait to eat my favorite dish tomorrow.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 17, 2012, 09:12:18 PM

Don't do it. If they tell you something bad/negative, you'll be thinking about it all the time. It's better not to know. :)

That's what really scares me away.....tabsi s....sometimes I'm tempted to just do a sneak peek too.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 17, 2012, 09:21:14 PM
I stood in the rain sobbing as I celebrated father's day at my dad's resting place. Today the rain represents my heart....Happy Father's Day to all the wonderful dads in the world.

Tomorrow is going to be a long day at work. Not only am I going in early but I'm also staying late. Summer has started so the kids will be keeping my co-workers and I busy busy busy....I guess it's better than sitting around always dazed.

Off to watch some scary thai movies and then sleep. Good night world.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 18, 2012, 09:59:24 PM
Was flipping through some pictures on facebook and thought to myself....Gees h, don't these people ever get tired of clubbing? How can they keep up with all those events every weekend? Is there nothing better to do with life?

In need of music...

I've got a really big goal set for July. Will be posting it on the fridge so I won't forget each morning I wake up to start my day. Excited to begin.


Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 20, 2012, 09:48:27 PM

MSV, do you want to trade pix with me? I would love to see your face. :)

hehehehe. I not maij maij es. Txaj muag lawm poj.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 20, 2012, 09:51:58 PM
Hnub no nag los los ua kuv kho siab tiag tiag. I said I was going to stay strong but I ended up going against that once again.

So many babies this month. I went to visit one of them and he was such a bundle of joy. Now I want to be a mommy too.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 21, 2012, 02:04:48 PM

I don't care how you look like, I just want to see my twin. :D O0

Fraternal twin... ;D

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 21, 2012, 02:05:38 PM
I don't know which is more exhausting...t raining someone or being trained. Whew!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 21, 2012, 10:26:55 PM
I should get a karaoke machine.....
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 22, 2012, 01:37:24 PM
These cramps are making it extra hard for me to concentrate at work. I have a report due early next week and my mind is too focused on these cramps to do anything productive. It's so quiet around here...perfect setting to get something done but I can't.....  >:( >:( >:( Just want to go home and lay in a warm bath.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 25, 2012, 08:59:44 PM
Over this weekend I did something horrible. I was driving my little sisters and them to the mall and we're talking...talk ing...talking while on the car ride over there. All of a sudden I see this white thing floating across the road some distance ahead of me and I didn't slow down thinking it was just toilet paper. When I get near enough and realize it was a squirrel, I slammed on my brakes but it was too late. I felt the white squirrel crack as it got squished beneath my left wheels and I cringed. :-\ My sisters and us felt to guilty. Shoot, that's the first squirrel I ever ran over in my entire life....and it had to be white!!! Does that mean something? Anyhow, RIP squirrel. I'm so sorry...
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 26, 2012, 07:54:02 PM
I don't know what to make for my going away gathering.....
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 27, 2012, 11:17:54 PM
It was so hot and humid today. I hope it won't be like this for j4 weekend.

My older sister is so wonderful! She came home tired from work and still managed to help make coconut jello for me to bring to work tomorrow. With all the other prepping I've been doing these past two days, a helping hand was so nice.

Need to be up super early so off to bed....
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 29, 2012, 08:55:08 PM
Was up watching the travel channel last night and they did an episode where some vacationers got the chance to swim with sharks. It looked so fun. Now I really need to learn how to swim so I can do something like that someday too.

I can't find my makeup bag and mp3 player. Why am I getting so forgetful?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 03, 2012, 11:15:47 PM
Kho siab heev hmo no.....
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: jon_jon on July 03, 2012, 11:24:39 PM
It was so hot and humid today. I hope it won't be like this for j4 weekend.

My older sister is so wonderful! She came home tired from work and still managed to help make coconut jello for me to bring to work tomorrow. With all the other prepping I've been doing these past two days, a helping hand was so nice.

Need to be up super early so off to bed....
post coconut jello recipe plz....
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 10, 2012, 10:49:20 PM
post coconut jello recipe plz....

It will come with a price. ;) I kid. I'll have to ask her and get back to you on that.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 10, 2012, 10:53:29 PM
New job is draining me big time. I'm training in St. Paul all this week and traffic sucks too!

.....

Currently have my headphones plugged in and music blasted. In a trance I go..... I love you music!!! Feeling super good tonight.

http://youtu.be/GMJQgv1awMw (http://youtu.be/GMJQgv1awMw)
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 16, 2012, 10:33:57 PM
Hitting a road block..

Music, take me away once more....
http://youtu.be/-6JlqFCQ5jc (http://youtu.be/-6JlqFCQ5jc)
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 20, 2012, 06:30:12 PM
Baking cupcakes....

Need to find something nice to wear for the grad party this weekend. What should I go with...skirt or pants?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 21, 2012, 11:04:22 AM
I woke up this morning flipping through the channels trying to find something good to watch. I came upon the second half of this movie and it was so touching....Go sh, these love stories make me so weak.  :-[

http://youtu.be/BB5ag2hswmo (http://youtu.be/BB5ag2hswmo)

"Music is a powerful thing. One song can change your whole life."

Happy Saturday morning. It's gloomy outside but I'm going to find something to do. Perhaps tend to my garden...
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 23, 2012, 05:47:03 PM
Mov ncawv is so yummy. I wonder if one can get tipsy from eating a little too much of it?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 25, 2012, 09:22:38 PM
I finally got around to scrubbing the bathroom spotless and sanitizing it until I felt like it was germ-free. I also discovered how to tighten the toilet seat so it wouldn't wobble around whenever we were sitting on it. Who knew it only took some twisting here and there. It feels nice knowing my bathroom is clean!

Somehow tonight I was really in the mood to clean so I even tidied up the basement. To my surprise it looks like spiders have made our basement their sanction. ICK! Spiders are the ONLY thing I can never bring myself to like and here they were hiding. I think I managed to kill over 10 of them tonight. Ewwww. Reminder to self: Run to store and get those insect glue traps.

Mission for tomorrow....cl ean refrigerator and do laundry. Friday's mission.....te nd to my garden and clean room.

.....

Work has been rather exhausting these past few weeks. Sometimes I sit there staring at the comp while I slowly zone out and wonder if I made the right decision. But then again, when they allow my co-worker and I to observe those already on the floor, I am reminded why I chose this position. I guess I should remain positive at all times so it'll help boost my moral. I just have to get through this training period.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 27, 2012, 10:19:04 PM
Sometimes you think you know someone so well and then find out you don't know them at all. I found out today that someone hasn't been too honest with me. What a disappointment . I need to quit being such a gullible dumbass.

.....

Had a coversation with a co-worker the other day about minority gangs. We got into talking and I know she probably meant no harm but what she said was so racist. She said that people who immigrate to America and are troublemakers or menaces to society should go back to their country. "Is that mean to say?" she also says. I was so taken back but wanted to remain professional so I said to her, "Honestly if anyone ever said that to me I would be so offended. I was born and raised here so where would I go? I believe that everyone comes to this country because they want that chance at living the "American dream" - whatever that may be to them. But you know what, I think we fail to understand that a lot of them come with just the clothes on their backs so trying to find their place in this society is hard. They may not make the wisest decisions but I am a person who gives second chances. In my life, I've always wanted to guide others just like how my parents had held my hand and showed me the way. They realld aren't bad people; they are just lost. I would never tell anyone to leave....." And then she goes..."Oh, I'm not talking about you. I'm talking about those who actually have papers saying they aren't citizens here. *sighs* It doesn't matter who is a citizen or not. Everyone came to America for a better future. :-[ Meskas puas xav tagnrho li no ne? Perhaps the world has not changed at all.

.....

Ib hli xwb los ua cas nws seem like a century.



Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 31, 2012, 05:42:29 PM
POST IT note: Stay focus on making lots of money if you want that big vacation planned for 2013!

Got home from work and am hungry. I feel like some scrambled eggs with rice.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on August 01, 2012, 10:01:08 PM
In need of a walking partner. Also in need of new music.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on August 05, 2012, 10:18:38 PM
Watching the Olympics and youtubing!

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on August 14, 2012, 07:38:40 PM

No, but you can end up with a really bad heartburn. :P  Btw, hi to you.. it's been a while..since I read your thoughts.

I should put it to the test. How many scoops to get me all hyped and giggly. lol.

Nyob zoo koj thiab os. I've been busy with work. Haven't found time to come on here much anymore. How are you? Did you do anything fun this summer? We're on our last month of sunshine before the cold breeze moves in.... :(

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on August 14, 2012, 08:49:15 PM
Had a dream the other night that I was getting married....wel l more like ib tug menyuam hluas nraug hmoob fobby heev tuaj nqis tsev hais kuv niam thiab kuv cov family tias nws yuav xav yuav kuv. I took a look at him and thought to myself, "Why is he wearing such short shorts? Nws gay poj?" ;D Anyways, while hluas nraug hmoob pe rau lawv sawvdaws saying he'll love me and take care of me, I just stood there debating if I really wanted to get married. Somehow I knew he would be good to me but my heart hesitated. Maybe I'm scared to get hitched. Maybe that's why I'm still here....
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on August 18, 2012, 09:12:32 AM
Good morning! What a beautiful morning today is. The sun is out....the temp is near perfect.....an d best part of it all......I got to sleep in! I need more mornings like this.

Task to complete this weekend: Go walking at the lake.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on August 19, 2012, 05:30:39 PM
I've got this crayon in my hand and I don't know what to do with it. How come I can't be like a child and just use my imagination?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on August 23, 2012, 08:04:26 PM
Scribble or doodle...

 O0

I managed to scribble what looked like a straight line....  ;D
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on August 23, 2012, 08:16:33 PM
24th.....  :)

Supe from my previous job texted me to tell me she quit her job. I guess I made the right decision and left while the organization was still in good standing. I wonder if they are falling apart now? It's only been a few months and all this news. Goodness! I have to admit, I miss working with my old supe though. She was so good to me. At this new position, I don't ever see my supe. When we finally do see each other, she doesn't say much....not even a "hi".



Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on September 02, 2012, 11:24:21 PM
I will focus on me. Channeling positive energy. Loving myself. Change is coming! Watch out.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on September 04, 2012, 09:10:29 PM
I must be on a R.A.R.E marathon tonight! At least I'm not listening to depressing love songs. Bump it up!

My mom once told me...."tsawg kawg mas ib tug nplej yeej yuav tsum muaj peb lub txhuv nplej". :-\
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on September 05, 2012, 11:07:24 PM
My muscles ache. Must keep going. Slow and steady and increase with time.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on September 07, 2012, 12:08:32 AM
Tej zaum yus tsis zoo rau ib tug los yus yuav zoo rau ib tug. Txawm muaj ntau tus thaug kev dhau los nyaj muaj ib hnub twg ib tug yuav des es txuas lus nrog yus.

*sighs* Some guys are just really shallow.....
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on September 09, 2012, 06:22:44 PM
Already down 3 lbs! Gosh, so more to go. If I can maintain this steady drop for at least half a year...OMG! Must keep going. I think I need to post a sign on the fridge that says, "Fatass, no sweets!" I'm proud of myself.

Had a fun weekend with the loves. Too much laughing.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on September 11, 2012, 08:33:58 PM

Great job!!! I want to lose some weights too... still looking for that motivation. :P  hey, pm me a pix of you.

Hard work pays off. However, I wish I could just snap my fingers and be instantly thin. LOL. Now that would be a dream come true!

Daim duab os....kuv xav remain anonymous na.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on September 11, 2012, 08:35:46 PM
Tuned in to season premiere of "The New Normal". Looks promising!

Looking for some excitement to my life. What am I in need of?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on September 12, 2012, 10:52:51 PM
I felt so guilty eating ice cream today that I made myself do 2 extra miles to make up for it. But hey, it feels great to work so hard. Although I love it more when I'm at the end of a workout. It's the best part! lol. No more ice cream for a while.

Work has been going good. I've gone three months without requesting any vacation time or calling in sick. Going to save all that time for a big break. It'll all be worth it. For the time being, I'm crunching in to grasp as much information as I can before I'm left to handle my own caseload. Looking forward to the challenge. I hope I won't have to deal with too many BS.





Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on September 13, 2012, 10:14:38 PM
My bathroom is spotless again! How I love the smell of clean!!!

Another hard work out tonight. Suprisingly my muscles haven't ached. Am I not pushing myself enough?

Starting work early tomorrow. Off to bed. Good night world.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on September 15, 2012, 01:16:00 PM
Slept in a little and woke up with this burning feeling to clean. That's exactly what I did all day so far! O0 Wow, it's therapeutic. I must be stressed.

It's beautiful out! I should clean my car....and I need some milk for my corn pops. I guess that's a run to Target to get some weekend shopping done.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on September 17, 2012, 06:25:17 PM
My muscles ached today. Working hard....! Going on my third week.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on September 23, 2012, 06:25:21 PM
Sighs. Kuv tos ntev npaum no los ua cas tsis muaj ib tug los ua tau rau kuv siab sov li. Hnub twg kuv muaj hmoo ntsib tau kuv tus mas kuv yuav muab nws rau txim. Kuv yuav quaj ib pluag cem nws tias ua cas nws yuav cia kuv tos nws ntev ua luaj. Hmoob as, txawm koj yug los nyob rooj teb twg lawm los tsuag tsuag los nrhiav kuv os. Kuv tos koj ntev tag npaum li no lawm na. I need you....
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on September 24, 2012, 09:41:23 PM
Starting week four. O0 Feels good.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on September 25, 2012, 10:04:20 PM
My body feels so weak today. Not going to give it one day's rest though. It'll throw everything I've been working for off.

Such a cold night. Before I know it, I'll be waking up 30 mins early to warm up my car and dust snow off my windows.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on September 30, 2012, 05:15:42 PM
This has been by far one of my laziest weekends ever. I should have been more productive with cleaning and enjoying the sunny weather but instead I sat around watching random shows and movies on tv. Ohyo!

Just got back from taking my mom shopping. Next thing on the list....making steam buns. Can't wait to eat them.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on October 09, 2012, 11:03:57 PM
Work has been sucking all the energy out of me these past two weeks. I used to complain at my old job that I didn't have enough things to do to keep me occupied for 8 hours a day. Now I'm in this new position and I could use a few more hours in a given day to do my work. It's harder when I'm new and take twice as long to process everything. Let's just hope I learn and move quick so I don't end up falling behind. Must meet those deadlines!

Sore throat tonight. Hopefully it doesn't progress to something worse. Fighting it with cough syrup...

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on October 13, 2012, 09:40:33 AM
Craving for McDonald's this morning. Mmmmmm.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on October 17, 2012, 08:46:55 PM
Mob mob tob hau tsis xav mus ua dabtsi li. I decided to get a flu shot this year and this is what happens....
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on October 21, 2012, 09:38:01 PM
Qhov muag ntsia ntsoov...pob ntseg mloog lawv tej lus qhuag ntuas nws.....ncauj tsa tsis tau hais ib lo lus....siab poob kiag tob tob....

I wonder if it'll ever happen to me some day?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on October 24, 2012, 11:39:57 PM
I feel like making Halloween treats for work again this year. Time to go shopping for some ingredients!!!

Good day at work today.....got so much work done. On the flip side, so many phone calls but I ignored 99 percent of them. Those people will just have to wait because I'm really tired of dropping everything I need to do just to get their paperwork processed and approved. If they turned it in when they were supposed to, there would be no need for these voice messages on my phone. I've decided I need to stop being so nice. Show them they need to do their damn part if they want me to complete things in a timely manner. And honestly...I don't care if they contact my supervisor because I supposedly "never pick up my phone". Go right ahead! I'm harden up cause if I don't, these people will just continue to control me.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on October 27, 2012, 10:26:36 AM
A weekend full of Halloween fun has been cancelled because I caught the stomach flu. :( Well....so much for making plans.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 07, 2012, 10:43:18 PM
I really could use an assistant at my job. Feeling so overworked that I don't even do my lunches and breaks anymore. This is not the type of job I see myself doing for years and years to come. Need strength....mo tivation...... purpose to hold on. Will things really get better for me?

Been dreaming about dad again....
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 12, 2012, 11:03:33 PM
Too many bad dreams lately....

Kuv niam lub suab luag....it's something I love to hear. Over this past weekend, my sisters and I were joking around with her about something while on a long car ride to help some relatives and she laughed so hard. I sat there and smiled. My mom giggles like a little girl sometimes. I'm glad to know that although she's gone through so many obstacles in her life, she hasn't lost her spirit. I wish to always see her happy like this...
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 13, 2012, 09:53:28 PM
Stumbled upon a beautiful song on youtube. I'm gonna learn it and sing my heart out....

Nyob ib leeg kho siab luaj no
Tso lub siab ya tuaj cuag koj
Hais rau koj paub tias kuv nco
Nco ntsoov koj nyob hauv nruab siab

Hlub tau koj nyob deb ua luaj no
Tsis tau xav tias yuav siab phem
Vim nyob deb tuaj cuag tsis tau koj
Txawm tshua txawm nco los tuaj cuag tsis tau koj

Nyob ib leeg tu siab luaj no
Tso zaj nkauj twg los kho siab
Thiaj li hu zaj nkauj no tuaj
Rau koj mloog daws txoj kev nco

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 16, 2012, 08:19:05 PM
I was having such a quiet day at work today until some biatch ass lady decided to ruin my day. Just because I wouldn't drop everything I was doing to get things done for her, she demanded to speak to my supervisor. She seriously thought that was going to scare me? PLEASE! ::) Anyhow, funny thing was I transferred her over to my supervisor but didn't hang up the phone completely so there she was waiting on the phone for like 15 mins. LOL. I guess things happen for a reason...Ntsej muag ntawd na....

Looking forward to my holiday and Hmong New Year. Since I started this job, I don't ever remember taking some time off just to enjoy myself. I really need a breather. Going to make my time away from work worth it!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 20, 2012, 08:57:49 PM
Just wanted to wish you and your family a Happy Thanksgiving in case I forget! :)

Thanks ST. I'm excited to spend some time with family and friends. I hope you also have a wonderful Thanksgiving. :)
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 20, 2012, 09:00:25 PM
To wear or not to wear Hmong clothese for the New Year this year? I kinda want to lay low and do something simple. Mission for tomorrow night after work....dig through closet and find something nice to wear.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 25, 2012, 10:10:52 PM
If I say kav liam enough times, maybe it'll really go away...

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 28, 2012, 08:55:58 PM
I'm going to take it one day at a time and when that time comes and I can't take all this crap anymore, I'm going to slap my two weeks notice and be done with. I really need to make my one year mark. Keep aiming for it and trying to be patient but my energy runs low.  Only a few more months to go. Breathe.

---

Ua kuv poob kua muag. Tabsis sawv los kuv xav tau lawm tias kuv ua tsis tau dabtsi. Tsis khuvxim....tsi s ntshaw. Because really, kuv paub nws twb tsis deserve kuv anyways.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 29, 2012, 10:26:10 PM
Need to get some serious xmas shopping done. I've only managed to get 1 of 8 presents done so far. I guess it'll be a weekend full of running from store-to-store.

Xmas tree is up. It looks beautiful this year!

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 30, 2012, 09:20:44 PM
Another unsuccessful night of xmas shopping. How will I ever get done? :( Maybe I should turn to online shopping?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 09, 2012, 11:17:04 PM
Snow and more snow. Started out the morning thinking I'd love to get some shoveling done but by the 5th time and when it's like 10PM outside, I'm thinking to myself...."Damnit! Why does it have to snow so much." I know this back and these arms will be aching tomorrow from all this shoveling today. Snow day it was. I'm hoping for a smooth commute to work tomorrow even though I know it's probably going to be horrible.

I'd be happy if this was the only snow we got here for the rest of winter. Oh please be it.....

I should be off to bed. Need to be up and early to warm up the car and clear the chuck of snow that'll probably be blocking the driveway from tonight's street plowing.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 12, 2012, 04:27:33 PM
"I don't know....kuv twb tsis zoo tabsis ua cas kuv xav tau qhov zoo zoo xwb. Thov txim."

Those words have been echoing in my mind.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 13, 2012, 08:17:49 PM
I miss one day of work and I go back to a crap load of work. How can I do this job for the rest of my life? It pays rather good but considering what I have to go through just to collect my paychecks, I don't think it's even worth it anymore. I keep telling myself everyday to hang on cause things will get better but it seems like the more time I spend my time at this place, the more I become less passionate to help the poor.

Like for example, today a girl in her late 20's came in crying cause she needed help paying her rent. I had just returned from a long meeting and was already under so much stress (trying to play catch up before I left for the day) that when I found out she showed up without an appointment, it pissed me off. Anyways, as I sat there looking through her application to request for help, I didn't even bother to ask her once if she was okay. In fact at the back of my mind all I was thinking was....."Who told you not to take care of your ****? You chose to blow your money off on random **** so now you come crying thinking I'm going to pity your story and fix your money problems. I'm sorry, we all have to make sacrifices. Pay your bills first and spend on whatever afterwards. Get that right and you wouldn't be sitting here today. GOSH!"

This is not like me. I've always wanted to help those who needed it most. But this job, it's making me turn careless. :-[
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 14, 2012, 10:08:28 PM
Today was her last day....my partner in crime....my lunch buddy.....my go-to-vent-to-when-clients-piss-me-off co-worker.

She wrote me a sweet email recollecting many moments we've gone through since day one. As I sat there and read it, my eyes got watery. I ran to her cube afterwards and hugged her. Sighs. I'm going to miss not having her around anymore. Now I have to get out of my comfort zone once more and force myself to bond with new people.

....

School shooting in CT today. I can't believe heartless people continue to exist in this world. I'm watching the news right now and I'm still in disbelief. What person would ever do such a thing? What point were they trying to prove? Sighs. My heart and prayers go out to all those who lost their lives today and especially to the parents and families.  :-[ :-[ :-[
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 15, 2012, 06:39:40 AM
Good morning! I'm already up and ready to start my day. Mission for today: more xmas shopping.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 15, 2012, 08:27:00 PM
Continued news coverage about the shooting in CT. My heart sinks a little more as I learn more about the victims. To think these were innocent souls just living another day in their lives and then unforseen events like this shooting cut their lives short. It makes me sad and pissed knowing someone would be so selfish as to even point a gun into the direction of another living being. :( I feel bad celebrating xmas knowing so many families will be spending this holiday grieving the lost of their children, brother, sister, mother, father, friend....Such a tragic event. May peace be amongst those who became victims. May the families and friends find comfort in their loved ones and strangers as they endure this difficult time.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 17, 2012, 07:54:06 PM
How time has passed me by.....where have I gone?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 21, 2012, 11:50:05 PM
Wb tham tham es nws hais rau kuv tias nws tsis tau txais ib qho present los ntawm leej twg dua li. :( Tis the season to be giving. Hum. Perhaps I will go shopping tomorrow and find something.

Xmas is a few days away. Still need to tackle a few more people. Almost done!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 23, 2012, 07:43:44 AM
Been up early this morning lazying around. Stuffy/runny nose and sore throat. I wish I could have at least slept in a little today. Probably going to end up needing a nap later in the afternoon to make up for lost sleep time.

Craving for fluffy pancakes.....
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 23, 2012, 07:19:19 PM
:'( :'( :'(

Kheev lam zoo li luag es muaj ib tug kuv khiav tau mus quaj ib pluag rau hauv nws lub xub ntiag kom zoo kuv lub siab kiag. Ua cas hmo twg los kuv tau tswj kuv lub siab kom tawv tas li xwb? Kho kho siab hmo no li. Ntuj puas nrog hlub es tso kuv tus los ua kuv luag?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: laib_laus on December 23, 2012, 11:30:22 PM
:'( :'( :'(

Kheev lam zoo li luag es muaj ib tug kuv khiav tau mus quaj ib pluag rau hauv nws lub xub ntiag kom zoo kuv lub siab kiag. Ua cas hmo twg los kuv tau tswj kuv lub siab kom tawv tas li xwb? Kho kho siab hmo no li. Ntuj puas nrog hlub es tso kuv tus los ua kuv luag?

Here is my shoulder for you to cry on.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 24, 2012, 02:36:29 PM
U can cry on my shoulder. ;)

Here is my shoulder for you to cry on.

hehehe. Thanks you two! Today is a new day and I'm feeling so much better. :) Happy Holidays.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 25, 2012, 11:12:41 PM
Merry Christmas world! Today was a very busy day.  I was up early cooking my yummies. When the whole family finally arrived, we ate and opened our presents. My siblings and mom were so sweet....got be way too many things. I was actually surprised my mom had such good taste this year though. She got me a forest green color purse which I adore! After cleaning up all the boxes and wrapping paper lying around the living room, the fam got around to doing our usual annual xmas pictures. Yay! An exhausting day calls for a nice nap. hehehe.

My xmas gift to myself this year.....fixin g my CD player in my car! Can't wait to bust out my Hmong music for the summer!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 29, 2012, 09:38:19 PM
Girl, don't forget to play "Khuv Xim Tsis Tau Deev"... I heard that's pretty popular hmong song. LOL

LOL. Let me roll my windows down first.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 29, 2012, 10:06:47 PM
I must admit that over this long weekend, I lived in the shoes of a shopaholic. ;D Scored some super awesome deals though. It was well worth the time spent browsing through the malls.   

Got myself some new jogging shoes. Can't wait to put them on for spring and chase the wind with them. I am pumped and ready to be outdoors again. Was telling my sisters today that I feel winter coming to an end and spring approaching! Weeeeeeeeee! I can't wait for the nice weather and longer daylight hours!

*yawns* Need to sleep.




Title: 9
Post by: MSV on January 01, 2013, 10:27:13 PM
2012. Wasn't a bad year but wasn't a super great year too. I think I was too consumed by work to really enjoy myself. 

What to look forward to:

1. Pack my bags and take a long vacation overseas. It'd be awesome to do a SE Asia trip.
2. Perhaps start looking for a house or at least set some savings aside for it.
3. Drop 40 lbs by the end of this year. I did it once and I am determined to do it again.
4. Find me a husband! ;D
5. Fix them scratches on my car. 
6. Find a new job and throw my two weeks notice in. 
7. Be more social. I don't know what happened but I need to get out of the house more. :(
8. Camping trip!
9. Donate and volunteer more.
10. Eat more fish. Yummy tuna!

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 03, 2013, 10:51:45 PM
Whew! I shouldn't have put it off this long. Now my muscles have to be awaken once more. Go! Go! Go! Walk it off.

Ate the yummiest orange for a late night snack. OMG! It's hard to find oranges in MN that aren't already dried up or taste like they've been picked off the trees a month ago. Need to go back and get some more for the family.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 08, 2013, 10:10:32 PM
I've been feeling really good lately. I think it's those endorphines kicking in. :D

Had a rude ass client today. I called her to take care of some paperwork and she went off cussing at me. I tried to hold myself together but it wasn't working. Finally got annoyed by her hahay self and just hung up on her. I'm sure she probably made a call to my supervisor saying how rude I was to her but freak it....I don't give. All I know is, it felt so good just clicking the phone on her. lol.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 09, 2013, 10:34:19 PM
Flu viruses seem to be really bad this year. I hope my flu shot I got earlier in Sept will keep me a little more immune. I've already battled two weeks of on and off cold/flu like symptoms. It doesn't help when I'm working with the public every day too. Gotta take those lysol wipes and hand sanitizer out.

Another awesome workout tonight. My thighs and biceps were burning. I love it!

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 10, 2013, 05:40:18 PM
Delete! Delete! Delete! Oh it feels good!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 12, 2013, 10:57:28 PM
As part of my plan to shed some weight, I've been making effort to sleep early every night so I can get in my 8 hours. Anyways, because of that, I've been dreaming A LOT!

Tseg ntev tsis tau mus flea market lawm. Ntshe yuav tau mus vim need to go find Nkauj Noog's new album thiab.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 14, 2013, 10:16:37 PM
Mloog nkauj tsis paub dhua li os. What would the world be like if music was banned or worst....if music never existed?

Such a cold cold night. Can't wait to go snuggle underneath my two blankets.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 15, 2013, 09:35:00 PM
One hour cardio + 20 strength training.
Mood: Accomplished!

What I don't understand is how someone can say they are poor and have no money when they walk around with a coach purse.  >:( I've never owned a coach purse in my life nor do I want to own one and you don't see me telling some sappy pity story about how I'm broke and am in a crisis. Sometimes I wonder if we can eliminate poverty all together if people just live within their means instead of going above and beyond that.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: supadupac on January 16, 2013, 07:39:27 AM
One hour cardio + 20 strength training.
Mood: Accomplished!

What I don't understand is how someone can say they are poor and have no money when they walk around with a coach purse.  >:( I've never owned a coach purse in my life nor do I want to own one and you don't see me telling some sappy pity story about how I'm broke and am in a crisis. Sometimes I wonder if we can eliminate poverty all together if people just live within their means instead of going above and beyond that.


nice! goodjob at the gym! and yes i dont understand people lioke that either :/ ..
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 17, 2013, 09:57:25 PM

nice! goodjob at the gym! and yes i dont understand people lioke that either :/ ..

Thanks! As much as I dread going to the gym, it's always nice after I do finish. I keep telling myself that it's better than sitting around doing nothing....
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 17, 2013, 10:01:54 PM
Spent two hours at the gym tonight. I'm getting better at this. I discovered a new machine at the gym that works the abs! OMG! Aside from the thigh machines, I think this is one of my new favorite machine to work out on now. Hoping it'll help me work my problem areas. Keep this going!!!

I'm so glad tomorrow is Friday. This week was a long and crazy week at work. I have been waiting for my 3 day weekend and it's just around the corner now. YES!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 18, 2013, 09:23:42 PM
Happy Friday! Got an unexpected call this morning and it made my whole day. hehehehe.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 22, 2013, 06:22:19 PM
Brrrrrr. It's so cold. My feet hasn't warmed up since I got home and took off my socks. Need to go get them slippers....

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 23, 2013, 11:11:27 PM
5 miles today! Success!  :)
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 26, 2013, 10:07:13 AM
Two hours at the gym this morning.  :)

Craving for some kapia bad. Mmmmmm. I can taste it.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 29, 2013, 11:07:42 PM
I didn't realize how slippery the roads were today. Aside from that slight fast turn I did (only because I didn't want to wait another 4 mins for the stoplight to turn green before I could get on the freeway), the drive was pretty smooth. But as soon as I pulled into the parking lot at work, oh goodness!

Found out  today that my mom and one of the little sisters fell on ice today. :-\ The news also showed a lot of people being admitted into the hospital for falls too. MN winter weather mas ua cas es yuav crazy ua luaj. One day it's freezing cold....one day it decides to snow....then one day it makes me think Spring is just around the corner. I don't know how many more years I can endure this before I decide to pack up and just get out of this state. Will I be able to do that?

To go or not to go to work tomorrow. I guess it depends if I can make it out to the big roads okay. Yog ntshai dhau lawm ces mam li call in sick ib hnub. teehee.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 30, 2013, 10:22:29 PM
**I pushed myself and did 5 miles + 45 mins of weights today. It was a sweaty workout but well worth yet. One month down, many many more to go. Can't wait to be outdoors though. The gym scene gets kinda boring after repetitive visits to it each week. But hey, there's eye candy!!! :D

http://youtu.be/CX3h5tJ_klM (http://youtu.be/CX3h5tJ_klM)
Been listening to this song ever since I got home from work.....ua rau kuv kho kho siab hmo no. 

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 31, 2013, 09:57:58 PM
Another new record.....a little over 6 miles!!! I must have been feeling numb tonight because I kept going and going. Didn't even feel the heart beat once. But good sweat. Looking forward to another successful workout Saturday morning as well. Pushing myself to the max cause I'm out to prove my commitment.

Feeling so overworked. I'm running low of energy these days. Hanging on to this job because I would rather have something then nothing. I hope all the time I put into this job will get me where I want to get. Tomorrow will be a short day so I can make it! Can't wait for the weekend....or better yet.....when does retirement hit? ;D

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 03, 2013, 08:38:10 PM
On a cold night like this, why does the furnace have to act up? My hands are cold...my feet are cold....my nose is cold....  :-[

Discovered something this weekend and realized how slow I was. All this time I've been wondering why Sprint never sends me an envelope with my bill. It never occured to me to pay attention to the writings on the envelopes that always come every month. Looked at it this time and found out I could flip the envelope, tear off certain sections and reuse it to send it back. Pretty awesome!

Crazy shopping this weekend.....sa ved a lot and stocked for a month or two. Nice!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 04, 2013, 10:16:05 PM
2 hours at the gym. New record on elliptical tonight! Also decided to increase the weights for toning. Tonight my muscles are a little sore. Good start to month two. Don't see much results yet but I'll be patient.

Need new fast upbeat music to workout to.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 09, 2013, 11:03:00 PM
Today mom called all the siblings and I to a family meeting. She cried as she told us her worries about her health. I didn't say one word....just cried with her as she spoke about a lot of heart felt stuff. Ntuj as, keep her safe and healthy vim kuv hlub kuv niam heev. Mus nrhiav thoob qab ntuj los yuav tsis tau ib tug zoo npaum kuv niam lawm os. I don't want her to think about anything bad....just a life full of sunshine for her. Thov koj os.

Did some couponing today. Pretty successful.... Got 6 downy for $7.90. If I did my math right, that is a 75% savings! This can be addicting.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 13, 2013, 10:10:05 PM
Kuv tau sau ib tsab ntawv rau nws tabsis I never sent it to him. It's been almost a year and it still remains sitting in my email undelivered. Txhob muab cov lus no coj lo hais tawm zoo dua. Vim tsam hais ces cheem tsis tau lub ncauj. I kinda miss all those days we spent emailing each other and the excitement we had as we anxiously waited for the other to reply.

Tsawg zog heev li. Probably going to sleep early to make up for my lost hours of sleep last night. Shouldn't have gottten carried away on youtube.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 18, 2013, 10:18:12 PM
I have been craving for tofu with boiled chicken for a few weeks now. I don't like the packaged tofu they sell at the Asian grocery store though. Thinking about asking mom if she wants to teach me how to make it again since I can never make the tofu form correctly. It takes the hands of a patient person....that I don't know if I have. lol. Mmmmm. Tofu....!

Didn't exercise for three days straight and I felt like a complete bum. Tonight's workout was tiring but refreshing.

Had a rough weekend. Heart was not at ease because she worries me too much. My eyes can't see what's hurting her and my ears can only hear what she tells me but it never really makes complete sense. I wish I had magical hands so I could rid her of all her pain. I know a lot of it has to do with her spirit being sad. Please keep her healthy, safe, protected and loved. Kuv tsis xav pub nws mob qhov twg li os.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 25, 2013, 10:10:48 PM
I don't know what I dread more.....one hour of cardio or one hour of weight training. Going to be finishing up another month. Feels wonderful!

I can't seem to find my extra bucks I got from CVS and it's been bothering me for a few days now. I bet I'm going to find it once the value expires. And when that happens, I'm going to rip it up and throw it in the garbage because it made me look high and low for it only to end up empty handed.

Got a surprise text from my old coworker. She's pregnant! Goodness, all these babies coming this year....makes me want to make one too. :D

Still have to go file for taxes. What should I do with my return....at least I think I'm getting something back. If it's otherwise...no .....I don't want it to be otherwise.

Wishing for another beautiful day tomorrow. Good night.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 27, 2013, 09:41:18 PM
Kho siab ua luaj no li.... :-\
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 06, 2013, 05:17:45 PM
Normally on a sunny day like today, my heart would be leaping with joy. Tabsis ua cas pheej kho kho siab li xwb. I hate this feeling. I'm gonna go exercise even harder since it seems to be my only escape these days.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 07, 2013, 05:41:37 PM
I know what you mean... like yesterday, it was so sunny and it made me so kho siab... but I don't know what it is that I am kho siabing about. :(

That's what I'm saying! I've just been mentally drained from being overworked tim haujlwm thiab nyob tsev dhau lawm xwb es thiajli kho kho I siab poj? Well, I guess it's time to venture away and enjoy the outdoors. If only the weather would hurry up and warm up. Sun twb come out los tseem no no. I'm psyched to start gardening too. Aside from music, it's always been the best stress reliever for me....

Smile mas. :)
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 10, 2013, 08:39:34 PM
I usually spend the weekends at mom's but yesterday night we were sitting by the couch talking and she told me she's missed me so much. Awwwww. Mom has never really said that before so it took me by surprise. I couldn't help but smile. Gotta love my mom.

Weekend highlight....b aby shower and lunch date with my friends.

Got bored tonight so I decided to paint my nails red. Makes me feel so girly. hehehehe.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 11, 2013, 10:24:53 PM
I can't stand girls who can't do anything for themselves. Can't stay home alone....can't drive.....can't carry heavy stuff.....can't work.....can't make their own decisions....c an't handle a little dirty job. Seriously, do you really need a man to do everything for you? Can't always be depending on them to get things done for you.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 15, 2013, 10:42:51 PM
OMG. My tax return this year was horrible.  :-[ Damn! Next year I'm going to have to payback for sure since I'm getting a raise in July. This means I need to hurry up and pop some babies so I don't have to be owing the government anymore than what's already taken from my paycheckes every two weeks. Shucks!

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 21, 2013, 08:29:53 PM
My muscles ache and I love it! :D

Work is actually getting a lot better. I'm slowly learning to manage my everyday stress and those dang clients who have nothing better to do than make life that much more "arg!" for me. Still don't want to stay at this job for the rest of my life but I'll try to put in as long as I can and see where I go.

Been really thinking about doing a road trip to CA. hummmm.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 24, 2013, 09:04:14 AM
Dreams.

The other night I dreamt I bought a new house and discovered there was some psycho who had killed many people in the basement cause blood stains were everywhere. Scared the heck outta me...

Last night I had a dream I was not only doing 360 down the roads but also got pulled over by the police for speeding and not having my seatbelt on. LOL. I should be careful with my driving.

Wonder what's in store tonight?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 25, 2013, 11:05:40 PM
I walk up and down the same stairs every day I go to work. You would think that the most challenging thing to do is climbing up four flights of stairs but it's actually the going down that I always catch myself having to grab hold of the side rails. I swear, there's never been a time where I make it down and not get this feeling like I'm going to lose my balance. I've tried every method from racing down to not looking down on every step as I'm goind down but everytime I get to the last stair case, I always feel like I'm going to fall. I think it's those extra designs they put on the edge of the stairs. It probably distorts my eyes. I'm gonna work on it and make sure I make it to the very last step without having to slow down and check to see if my foot landed on the steps correctly. Stupid stairs, I'm going to master you! ;D

....

I keep telling myself I need to keep on going with this exercising b/c it's going to pay off. Lately I've been feeling a little down. There's been a few days where I feel like slacking on my routine but earlier I read this Hmong girl's inspirational weight loss journey and she reminded me to keep going. It's nice to get a booster upper again. Tonight's workout was nice. I feel revived. Plus my butt muscles are so going to ache tomorrow. hehehe.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 26, 2013, 02:23:04 PM
Work vent of the day b/c I'm pissed....

I hate how some clients can't get their *bleep* together and then they go around saying I can't do my job. Freaken ugh! Xav muab lawv cem heev....arg!!!! 
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 01, 2013, 09:54:45 PM
1.5 hours of cardio and I burned off 800+ calories today. Sweet!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: Mattster on April 03, 2013, 12:07:23 PM
Dreams.

The other night I dreamt I bought a new house and discovered there was some psycho who had killed many people in the basement cause blood stains were everywhere. Scared the heck outta me...

Last night I had a dream I was not only doing 360 down the roads but also got pulled over by the police for speeding and not having my seatbelt on. LOL. I should be careful with my driving.

Wonder what's in store tonight?

I had a dream recently that I was shot.  It was extremely weird because I've never had a dream like this before.  I've shot people in my dreams but have never been the victim before.  The experience was a little traumatic.  I don't think I will soon forget it.

Funny thing is I know I caused it myself.  Many times I determine the results of my dreams by my own subconscious suggestions.  I think in this case as I met this stranger in my dreams, I had thought for an instant "what if this guy had a gun?" and what do you know?  Dude had a gun and was pointing it at me.   ::)
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 09, 2013, 10:46:03 PM
I had a dream recently that I was shot.  It was extremely weird because I've never had a dream like this before.  I've shot people in my dreams but have never been the victim before.  The experience was a little traumatic.  I don't think I will soon forget it.

Funny thing is I know I caused it myself.  Many times I determine the results of my dreams by my own subconscious suggestions.  I think in this case as I met this stranger in my dreams, I had thought for an instant "what if this guy had a gun?" and what do you know?  Dude had a gun and was pointing it at me.   ::)

LOL. Thanks for sharing your dreams. :) Where did you get shot at? That reminds me of a dream I had 10+ years ago...dreamt a bullet went right through my head and I could hear my ears ringing as I laid there numb and bleeding. To this day I still can picture it.

***

Another scary dream from last night.

I dreamt that I had returned back to our house in the projects. I was trying to get pass the door but was blocked off by this mean nasty rottweiler. It growled at me as I pretended not to see it....or more like I didn't want to make eye contact with it. lol. Anyhow, I kinda attempted to shove it with my leg only moving it enough for me to dash for the flight of stairs next to the front door. As I'm making my move, the rottweiler gets distracted for a split second. However, next thing I know, it's chasing me and barking furiously. Ekkkk! I look back and there is it....right behind me already. Poof! I woke up with my heart pounding.

Why am I scared of dogs?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: Mattster on April 10, 2013, 04:30:00 PM
LOL. Thanks for sharing your dreams. :) Where did you get shot at? That reminds me of a dream I had 10+ years ago...dreamt a bullet went right through my head and I could hear my ears ringing as I laid there numb and bleeding. To this day I still can picture it.

***

Another scary dream from last night.

I dreamt that I had returned back to our house in the projects. I was trying to get pass the door but was blocked off by this mean nasty rottweiler. It growled at me as I pretended not to see it....or more like I didn't want to make eye contact with it. lol. Anyhow, I kinda attempted to shove it with my leg only moving it enough for me to dash for the flight of stairs next to the front door. As I'm making my move, the rottweiler gets distracted for a split second. However, next thing I know, it's chasing me and barking furiously. Ekkkk! I look back and there is it....right behind me already. Poof! I woke up with my heart pounding.

Why am I scared of dogs?

I was shot in the left chest.  I remember struggling with the culprit.  I could tell he was trying to point the gun at my heart. I knew if he got it aligned I would be dead.  I used all my strength to change the angle but at the very last second I felt my strength start to ebb away.  It finally went off and I felt it pierce my chest and lungs.  I had the sensation of blood being pumped out of me. It was warm and hot, but I felt no pain.  I woke up with my heart pounding and dripping in sweat...  It was quite a rush!

As for your rottweiler dream, I have nightmares of animal attacks all the time.  I wish for once I would dream of zombies, vampires, or even nightmarish clowns.  ;D I often have dreams of being stranded in hostile environments where I would encounter bears or other savage animals.  I usually just escape by the skin of my teeth.  Its like my subconscious has some sick agenda for me.

My paranoia has gotten quite bad that it actually prevents me from going on camping trips in the wilderness.  Also, I will not go hiking outside of the city.  :2funny:  I know my fear is quite ridiculous and unfounded but with my luck, the one time I let my guard down, something is going to happen to me.  I just know it.  :2funny:

Anyhow.. You must have some pleasant dreams on occasion.  Tell me about one you've had recently.  :)

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 14, 2013, 04:54:28 PM
^ Amazing how when we dream, it appears to be so real that we trick our minds into feeling everything. But then again, when we conjure up scary ones like these, I'm glad it's only a dream and with one quick command to open our eyes, those moments disappear. Whew!

Goodness, I always have dreams about animals too. My weirdest one was about an elephant who was trying to eat me. lol. It's funny because I love animals and yet I always dream about them attacking me or trying to hurt me. Hum.

Ohyo! Camping is not camping unless you go outside the city limits. I guess you're a backyard camper. lol. That can be super fun too. However it's probably scarier than the wilderness if you live in a part of town filled with ghetto, crooks, pedos, molesters, murderers, etc.

Pleasant dreams? Well, this might get rated xxx then. :D j/k Don't recall any from last night. Maybe an adventure awaits me tonight then.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 14, 2013, 09:29:20 PM
Finally got around to watching "The Hunger Games" tonight. Wow. What a movie! If the world were really like this....omg. Scary.

....

Fresh smell of laundry. Mmmm. I love it! Just took out my pjs from the dryer a while ago and I've already plopped them on while lazying around the sofa ready to go to bed soon. Can't believe the weekend is already over. It would have been a more enjoyable weekend if the sun were out. But I guess it was nice to sit out in the car today and just listen to the rain drizzle upon the windows. Makes me want to go camping now.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: biggieT on April 15, 2013, 01:59:35 AM
You have some messed up dreams!

Dogs usually are a sign of protection in my dreams. I have these dreams where I am hanging out in a meadow surrounded by HUGE white dogs of all kinds. St. Bernards, mastiffs, huskies, even a wolf or two. I'm just laying around, walking around, hanging out with these dogs and they keep close to me. I was laying in the middle of a field on a sunny day (using one of the dogs as a pillow actually) when two women came and started calling my name. The dogs all got up and created a circle around me and the women couldn't get through. I called out to the dogs to let the women by because I wanted to talk to them but the dogs but they kept their vigilance and kept the women outside the circle. When I woke up, I realized, holy crap the dogs were protecting me from something quite evil!! It's not the first time.

I love my guardian spirits.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 19, 2013, 02:27:34 PM
You have some messed up dreams!

Dogs usually are a sign of protection in my dreams. I have these dreams where I am hanging out in a meadow surrounded by HUGE white dogs of all kinds. St. Bernards, mastiffs, huskies, even a wolf or two. I'm just laying around, walking around, hanging out with these dogs and they keep close to me. I was laying in the middle of a field on a sunny day (using one of the dogs as a pillow actually) when two women came and started calling my name. The dogs all got up and created a circle around me and the women couldn't get through. I called out to the dogs to let the women by because I wanted to talk to them but the dogs but they kept their vigilance and kept the women outside the circle. When I woke up, I realized, holy crap the dogs were protecting me from something quite evil!! It's not the first time.

I love my guardian spirits.

You really think my dreams are that crooked? lol.

I was told that dogs represent ghosts/spirits in our dreams. Perhaps you do have gaurdians watching over you......cause yours are white. Whenever I dream about dogs they are always black or brown. Never cute or cuddly.

And YES....women ARE evil.  :D
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 19, 2013, 02:41:08 PM
Home early from working and eating ice cream. Mmmmmm.

I can't believe yesterday the snow was crazy and today it's so beautiful outside now. Well...it wasn't earlier this morning. Tried to avoid getting stuck so many times while on my way to work. First it was trying to figure how to get out from the driveway without killing my gas pedals. Next was trying to crawl my way from the small road onto the big roads. Thank goodness it was only two blocks out. Once on the bigger roads, I was hoping not to get stuck at the intersection where I normally turned to catch the freeway. And then finally when I pulled into the parking lot at work it was a game of dodging corners where snow had piled up. I only found myself weaving slowly through the lot to get to the only small space they had started to clear when I arrived. Snow no mas...ohyo. Please let this be the last snowfall this year.

Good day at work today....phone calls were almost zero. Not once did my blood pressure elevate from being frustrated with my clients. I should have more days like this. sighs.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 20, 2013, 06:00:36 AM
Why do I get up so earlier on the weekends but dread waking up in the mornings on the weekdays? Doesn't make any sense.

Had so many mini dreams...
1. Was house shopping and ended up at this random hmong drinking event with my relatives.
2. I put in my two weeks notice @ work but started regretting my decision b/c the other job decided not to hire me.
3. Make out session with a hmong boy I once knew so many blue moons ago. lol.
4. Chasing squirrels.  :o
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: biggieT on April 20, 2013, 09:16:02 AM
You really think my dreams are that crooked? lol.

I was told that dogs represent ghosts/spirits in our dreams. Perhaps you do have gaurdians watching over you......cause yours are white. Whenever I dream about dogs they are always black or brown. Never cute or cuddly.

And YES....women ARE evil.  :D
You really think my dreams are that crooked? lol.

I was told that dogs represent ghosts/spirits in our dreams. Perhaps you do have gaurdians watching over you......cause yours are white. Whenever I dream about dogs they are always black or brown. Never cute or cuddly.

And YES....women ARE evil.  :D
You really think my dreams are that crooked? lol.

I was told that dogs represent ghosts/spirits in our dreams. Perhaps you do have gaurdians watching over you......cause yours are white. Whenever I dream about dogs they are always black or brown. Never cute or cuddly.

And YES....women ARE evil.  :D

Mine's aren't cute and cuddly to everyone. They can be pretty fierce. My first dream about dogs was after I was having bad dreams and they hu plig for me. I was dreaming that it was night time and I was walking down the stairs at my parents' place. As I walked by the front door, a shadow grabbed me from behind. A huge wolf came from nowhere and attacked the shadow and tore it to pieces. After that, I stopped having the bad dreams I had before.

Tell your parents! Maybe your dreams have spiritual meanings you are unaware of!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 21, 2013, 07:48:09 AM
^ Ooooo. Your story sent teeny chills down my back.

I tend to discuss my dreams with my mom since she knows how to interpret a lot of them. But usually the bad ones I keep to myself b/c I don't want her to worry about me. In the past I'd always used to mumble jibble jabble what sounded like a hmong person mourning the death of a loved one. Not sure if that was over having bad dreams or if a spririt from the dream world was making me do it but it got to the point where my mom was worried and she sought out a shaman. Found out my spirit was lonely so it wanders at night. One night I was half asleep and found my mom saying these shaman stuff to me. She gave me this little sack of meds to wear to keep the bad dreams and spirits away. After that I stopped with those nightly noises. Whoops. Got carried away. Hehehe.

Wonder if I have any gaurdians too? It'd be nice.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 21, 2013, 07:53:29 AM
Zaum twg los mag zov pob zeb xwb.  :-[ One of these days I might just muster enough courage and throw all those rocks right back at them douches.

Woke up and I've just been listening to music this whole morning. Lazy Sunday syndrom in full effect. Hehehe.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 09, 2013, 10:29:00 PM
Silence......c omplete peace. Where do I go to find that?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 15, 2013, 09:21:10 PM
So many friends and family are expecting babies. As I celebrate and congratulate every one of them, I secretly am wishing to myself that I'd someday start a family of my own too. Thinking about making a posting to find a baby daddy. ;D Not a bad idea.

OT has already started for work. Since the weather has gotten nice, I don't want to do any at all. Currently OT is only voluntary right now but with the amount of work I have lined up, I need those extra hours to catch up. How can I make it? I am drowning myself everyday. Trying to stay afloat in this neverending flow of paperwork. I guess I have no choice but to stay and get some OT.

Was at the gym trying to burn off some unneeded calories and what was I doing too.....cravin g for onion rings. MMmmmm.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 16, 2013, 06:20:33 AM
Such a heartbreaking dream this morning. Perhaps that's really how it'll go down.....  :'(
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 24, 2013, 01:24:56 AM
Pw tsis tau hmo no. Lub siab seev ua kua muag los. Ua cas kho siab luaj no li. Ntuj puas nrog pom? Ntuj puas nrog hlub? Vim li cas tau nyob ib leeg txog tav no. Puas yuav muaj hnub nrog luag muaj? Hum...kheev lam tau kev hlub sov siab.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 31, 2013, 04:58:37 PM
Note to self: Get laptop fixed.

Stayed late to do some OT yesterday. Was chit chatting with a coworker as we headed out to our cars and as she went her way, I turned to go mines. I was happily walking to my car when I noticed this Asian guy sitting by the curb. He glanced up at me and we got caught looking at each other. I quickly positioned my eyes elsewhere and pretended to struggle to look for my car keys in my purse. He on the other hand pretended to fiddle with his phone as I walked closer towards him. We knew we just did an awkward moment and now didn't want to acknowledge each other's presence. While I walked passed him, I did a peripheral check of this eye candy. Hehehe. He was cute. Didn't dare look back as I plopped in my car and vroomed out of the parking lot. Unexpected awkward moments. LOL. Good end to a hard day's work.

Friday bbq. Friends are coming over in a bit. I should go check on the grill....
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 02, 2013, 09:45:09 AM
Storage of my dreams...

1. Was playing hide-and-seek with my sisters when I knocked over her cup full of fishes. I tried to scoop them all back up but one of them flops into my mom's bedroom closet. I opened the closet door to find it and discover a pool of about 5 inches of water and tons of minature goldfishes swimming around. I yell at my sister for keeping so many of them in such a compact place and dirty water. I told her I'd get my unused fish tank and have the fishes live in there instead. I left the room and started my way downstairs to grab my tank.

2. Greeted by this redish-brown snake with no head halfway down the stairs. I take a broom and start whacking it hoping that'd kill it. I was very cautious and made sure it wouldn't bite me. Anyhow, my hits made it struggle for a bit before it dashes down the rest of the flight of stairs. I scream my mom's name and tell her there's a snake in the house. Whoosh! My siblings, mom and I are suddenly outside fighting this snake. I had managed to somehow pierce my wooden broom through it once. LOL. This made the snake furious and it was going to attack instead of just trying to escape. My littlest sister starts helping me jab it too. I'm telling her to be careful before she gets bitten and ouch! Snake bit my right calf. No pain but I'm thinking to myself, "Shit! What if this is a poisonous snake? That means I can't kill it cause I'd need it's venom." Mom assures me I'll be okay so I forget about the bite. I return to hitting the snake. I discover where its head is and my little brother grabs the snake and bites its head off. Whao! We finished killing it and discovered it wasn't a snake but some weird creature.

3. I'm running in a marathon.....r unning and running but never out of breath of stop to rest. Turns out this marathon had a prize for the person with the best time. Everyone started at their own convience so I thought I had a chance too. I'm running and day turns into night. I approach this father and son and discover that the father was a janitor who worked there so he was showing his son the shortcuts so he'd win the race. Cheaters! I just continue running. Finished the marathon with a time of 21 minutes. Whew! Waiting for the results and...poof!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 07, 2013, 10:13:32 PM
I've been tagging along with my older sister, who is a big couponer, on her shopping trips lately. Gotta admit, she sure knows where them savings are! Not sure if I have the patience to do all that research to find all the good deals but it sure feels good to see the final price drop by like 75-90%. Whoohoo!

Missing mom. I need some quality time with her....
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 10, 2013, 02:43:36 PM
Random thoughts....

1. I notice I always speed up when I'm stuck driving next to a bus or truck.
2. It's amazing how many unattended purses I see lying around in people's shopping carts.
3. Do I have an obsession with plastic storage boxes? LOL
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 17, 2013, 02:00:11 PM
Kuv xav kom kuv muaj tis ya......
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 17, 2013, 05:40:37 PM
I had a few of those awkawd moments before. Especially, when you locked eyes with eachother for a split second. You don't know if you should say "Hi" or pretend that you did not see him. hehe. Funny moments.

Any funny stories to share?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 19, 2013, 12:36:16 PM
Txawm ceeg npaum twg thiab ceem npaum li cas zaus kom ua ib siab tso tagnrho mus los ua cas kuv pheej ua tsis tau li? I was doing so good for many many months now until a feeling recently surfaced. Tabsimno nws rov ua kab tom tom kuv lub plawv dua. I hate this feeling!

....

Best part to my work day so far today was arriving to work and getting my spot under the nice shade. Lately someone has been beating me to work and "snatching" my favorite parking spot but today I beat them to it! LOL. I guess I won't have to feel like I walked into a sauna when I drive home.....yes!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 21, 2013, 03:53:09 PM
Took a break and went walking with a coworker today. We were midway through the path when we noticed this guy who had passed us a few minutes prior waiting. For a moment I thought, "ohno! This better not be some creep." As we walked closer, he pointed to the ground and my coworker and I glanced to check what he wanted us to look at. To our surprise it was a turtle who had dug up a hole and was laying eggs in there. Omg! This was my first time witnessing a turtle pop its eggs. Cool stuff! I hope it stays safe because mama and babies were on the edge of a path that many walkers probably with pass through. Hopefully there will be baby turtles to come soon!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 23, 2013, 11:47:19 AM
More dreams....

1. The world was coming to an end and I was in charge of leading anyone still alive to safety. We're running from some sort of creature and it's hot on our tails. I run into a two-way tunnel intersection and had to decide which one to go down. One-by-one we went down the right one and end up on top of this bridge. Just right below the bridge was zombies who were sleeping. The thing about them was they would wake up if they sensed movement. I told everyone to be still but before I could finish talking, there's already zombies moving towards us. I grab a wooden stick and start using it as a sword to hurt some of them. Somehow I also grabbed hold of a bucket of fuel and throw it at all the zombies. Then I light the floor and a trail of fire grows. Kaboom! All those zombies die. But another battle suddenly surfaces when I hear screams and see that creature (turned out to be a snake) that was chasing us has gone through the same tunnel we exited from. I wrestle with the snake and it bites me. That angers me and I grab it by the head and squeeze it really tight while I instruct my siblings to skin it and cut it up. We all struggle trying to kill it and eventually I'm left holding the head of a dead snake. I take the remaining survivors into a village and they celebrate my bravery. LOL

2. My sisters and I go fishing and I decide to use gummy worms as bait. My baby sister laughs at me saying I won't catch anything. I throw my homemade fishing pole and the minute it lands in there, I get a bite. I'm thinking to myself, "This is a big one!" I start pulling in the lines with my hands and as my catch gets nearer and nearer, I can see splashes! Oh snap! After awhile of this pull and release technique, I finally see my catch. It's a large mouth bass the size of my arm! Everyone looks at me with jealous eyes because they've been there all day cadting their baits but no bites. Good catch!!!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 26, 2013, 07:10:23 PM
When was the last time I saw a monarch butterfly?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 28, 2013, 02:56:10 PM
I have never been so overworked and unhappy about a job I had until now. Everyday I come home exhausted and mentally drained wondering to myself if I should just not show up to work anymore.

Before I made the decision to take this job a year ago, I thought maybe it would lead me into the direction I wanted to go. However, with every headache and negative energy I draw from my clients, encounters and experiences at work, it changes my perspective and discourages me from wanting to help people now.  :-\ Why waste my time trying to help those who don't even want to help themselves anymore? It's so tiring having to always remain positive and think people are going to change to better themselves. It's this cycle they will probably never break from and I don't want to be that link that keeps supporting their bad habits. It's so sad to admit it but I'm slowly giving up....I'm not even going to try and fool myself with false hope anymore. Sick of it all. 

No more above and beyond effort towards work....I'm aiming for C+ now.


Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 08, 2013, 12:11:46 AM
You won't understand its worth until you're probably homeless and living on the streets. I hope someday you come to your senses and realize what you took for granted.....
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 09, 2013, 12:38:43 AM
I can't sleep because my heart is heavy tonight. Been thinking about life....I see myself traveling forward but how come I have not gone far at all? What do I need to do to get me to where I want to be? All this hard work....all this determination. ...all this hope.....all these sacrifices...w as it all really worth it? Perhaps I need a change of direction?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 12, 2013, 08:26:43 PM
MSV, where are you trying to get to? Maybe you are not ready to move to where you want to be. Our hearts can be stubborn sometimes. I know that mine is. There are people whom I would like to drop like a fly but yet, they are still clinging onto me. There are places that I want to be, but my feet won't move an inch. I'm stucked! :P

I'm not sure where I'm really heading but I have this feeling like I'm going the wrong way. Is that odd?

Like you, my heart is really stubborn. If only I can control it. lol.

*sighs* Wishful thinkings....c an we make it reality?  :-\

How have you been?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 12, 2013, 08:33:12 PM
The mind of a child.

We all start as innocent little beings but as we grow up and experience the ups and downs of life, it turns our world and we are never really too sure about anything in life anymore. Sometimes I wish I could have the mind of a child....so innocent...so free....so curious....

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 16, 2013, 08:32:07 PM
Now this is the type of concert I could totally lose myself in! I would fly to Thailand just to attend something like this.....

http://youtu.be/NOOoAA9dRzs (http://youtu.be/NOOoAA9dRzs)

Music.....I am so driven by it! Love love love!  :love4:
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 19, 2013, 08:28:34 PM
I'm in the same boat as you. I'm doing well.. summer is getting way too hot to work on my garden.. have to wait for the early morning and at night. I'm already picking my beans and turn them into juice. hehe.

Worst thing about waiting until it cools is those dang mosquitos. I was out pulling out some weed and old greens a few nights ago and those mosquitos decided to invite themselves to a feast. Omg!

Bean juice???
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 19, 2013, 08:41:12 PM
Vents.

1. This whole waiting....gos h! Ua cas kuv yuav dhuav ua luaj li os!
2. Why make plans just to cancel them?
3. I just don't care about your problems anymore. You had it coming....
4. Disappearing acts. Karma is coming.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 27, 2013, 08:41:18 AM
Woke up and still laying in bed listening to music cause this is the only day I really get to sleep in. It feels so good knowing I don't have to scramble to work only to find out I'm always a few minutes late. Haha.

Had two moments in my dreams...

1. Family get-together at my nieces house. Everyone is sitting around and suddenly my niece's dog walks toward me and I reach out to pet him. At first he licks my finger and nibbles on it but suddenly he snapped and bit hard on my finger. I look down and he's not the cute chiwawa I remembered anymore; it was an ugly scrubby abandoned looking dog. Anyways, I'm trying to remain calm but I can feel the pain getting worse. My niece screams and commands her dog to let go. He doesn't listen so she starts to hit him around his mouth area. Dog still doesn't let go. My niece calls for her husband to come over and help. Her husband pulls at the dog's head and mouth. After a few struggles, the dog lets go but comes barking at me and ready to attack. My niece's husband grabs the dog in time and drags him outside.

2. My family and I decided to go camping. Everyone is packed and set to go but I run back to do a sweep of the house by myself. I checked and found that windows were left opened and our back door was not shut. I quickly cruise through and secure the locks on every window. As I'm doing this, I get this eerie feeling like something is watching me. I pretend to be brave but hear something and panic.

The other night I also dreamt I went into labor too! Oh goodness! Been dreaming some crazy dreams.

***

Nag hmo kuv nrog nrog ib tug phooj ywg tham es kuv ciali quaj tsis ntsia li. Kuv hais rau nws tias kuv raug dag loj tshaj plaws los ntawm ib tug hluas nraug hmoob nyob kev deb. Kuv tos nws 2 lub xyoo tawm no es txog thaum kawg nws twb tsis khuxim kuv. Ntshe nws twb muaj poj niam menyuam los yeej tsis paub thiab. Tabsis kuv muab kuv kev nco nws tau ntau lub hli dhau los no los ua kua muag rau kuv ev. Nyav dhau nag hmo es thiajli quaj quaj tsis paub zoo siab li. Kuv tus phooj ywg hais rau kuv tias hluas nraug tseem muaj coob es kom kuv txog tu siab...txhob khaws tus tsis hlub yus tseg.....txhob roo nws lub npe.....I just cried more. I guess I needed this. Yuav quaj kom tag siab ntsws ces mam li fos txoj kev mob siab no tob tob kom txhob mus khawb tsis txog li lawm. I'm almost ready!

Craving onion rings and a sex on the beach!

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 30, 2013, 12:40:47 PM
On lunch break eating these yummy ass cucumber slices. Mmmmmm. Delicious!

Feeling the urge to make some Asian desserts or pasteries....
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 31, 2013, 04:40:45 PM
Niam ib txwm hais rau kuv tias txawm luag ua phem rau kuv thiab ua saib tsis taus kuv los kuv tsis txhob rov mus tej yam li ntawd rau luag....kom ua lub siab loj thiab siab ntev xwb. I am so tired of being a forgiving person. So many people step all over me because of it.  :-[ Xav mus ua neeg phem thiajli tsis muaj leej twg los thab kuv. Xav hais tej lus ua kom neeg phem hais tsis tau ib lo lus rov qab kiag. hahahaha. Tabsis niam paub tshaj. Maybe it is better to be the bigger person and just walk away.....even if it means it has to be like this everytime.

****

I keep having reoccurring dreams of me running.....la st night I had another one. This marks 4 in one month time. Am I running from something? Do I want to run from something?



Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on August 02, 2013, 04:36:59 PM
Paranoid by all these houseflies now. Ewwwww. I made one of those homemade fly traps using a pop bottle, sugar, water and some vinegar. Hoping it'll do the trick and lure all these suckers to their death. lol. Such yucky creatures!



Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on August 13, 2013, 11:17:12 PM
I've been feeling his music lately....Davi d Yang.

http://youtu.be/NhOtABAFpNw (http://youtu.be/NhOtABAFpNw)

I love hmong artists. No matter how amateur or professional, I appreciate all their talents!

Youtubing away tonight. Happy woman.  :)
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on August 14, 2013, 11:06:56 PM
I've had a lot of bad moments at work but none of them surpass the one from today. I had called a lady up to get clarification on information she had reported to me. Our phone conversation started off with questions here and there and then not too long into it, my clients started to haha and tell me how I didn't know how to do my job. I didn't say much to that because it's something I'm used to hearing a lot. Anyways. that mob nceeb went off blabbing about shiat some more. I started to zone out. Anyways, when I stopped responding and waited for her to shut up, she says this to me, "You freaken gook!" and hung up. I was so shocked and hurt by this personal attack that I sat there trying to hold back my tears. Unfortunately I ended up shedding a few drops of tears. NEVER in my entire life has anyone ever called me that term before. I can't believe this poor ass trailer trash white lady would say such things to me. Already emailed my supervisor requesting to remove this client out from my caseload because I refuse to serve her anymore.

Today's incident reminded me that no matter how I try to assimilate and belong here, whites will always see me differently. A lot of them probably keep a hush hush with their personal ignorant views but for those who run their mouths....GOSH! I really hope bad luck follows them like a shadow that will never disappear.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on August 15, 2013, 11:05:07 PM
Jam for the night...

http://youtu.be/WpYeekQkAdc (http://youtu.be/WpYeekQkAdc)

Yo', whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead in spreading love we're spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep my faith alive till love is found now ask yourself


Using music to empower.....to bring change! Now that's how it's done. Repeat button tonight.  :)
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on August 25, 2013, 08:19:20 PM
Zaub qaub. Mmmmmmmm! Best thing to eat on a hot summer day. Went to mom's and had a bunch. I came home and she packed me some too.

Niam ib leeg thiajli hlub....thiajl i txhawj tsam kuv tshaib plab....thiajl i pub qab rau kuv noj xwb. I feel so loved.  :love4: She's amazing!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on August 29, 2013, 11:11:58 PM
Tus nraug hmoob nov seev tau suab nkauj zoo tshaj li. I've listened to a handful of his songs and have never been disappointed with any of them. Ntsiab lus los zoo...suab hu nkauj los zoo thiab! Hummmm.....I wonder nws puas tau muaj poj niam ne? lmao. :D

Found a song on youtube tonight. Nws hu tau raug raug kuv siab heev......hitt ing repeat button until it's time to go to bed.


Lub Hauv Ncoo Ntsuag Nos
By: Pob Tsuas Xyooj

Pw ib leeg twm zeej los tau ntau xyoo
Ntawm ib sab tshuav ib lub hauv ncoo
Ntsuag nos tsis muaj neeg pw
Me nplooj siab koj nyob rau sab ntuj twg
Nyob rau lub qab ntuj khwb
Es nws puas tau muaj koj

Qab ntuj no cas yuav tshav ntuj li nrig
Cas tej me kab qoos liv
Nim ya sib caum luag ntxhi
Pom kab noog yam tuaj sib txeeb noj txiv
Nim tsaws pawg lus nto ntsis
Cas yuav kho siab ua luaj li

Chorus:
Nyob ib leeg ua neeg vam meej npaum cas
Lub ncauj noj qab, lub cev muaj tshiab zoo hnav
Los tsis cuag koj los pw sov so ib sab
Muaj nyiaj muaj txiag npaum cas los nqa los puag pw tsis tau

Los yog kuv nqa tau daim ntawv nraug laus (nkauj laug)
Tiam no yeej nqa tsis tau daim ntawv sau txwj sau nkaum
Lub cev ntaj ntsug laug zuj zus lawm
Hloov tau daim pam pua chaw
Niaj hnub khawm lub hauv ncoo qub
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on September 19, 2013, 05:53:58 PM
Me want onion rings from bdubs! Mmmm.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on September 22, 2013, 02:46:33 AM
Hmo no kuv nco koj ua luaj. Ntshe koj twb tsis paub tias kuv pw tsis tsaug zog vim quaj seev hu koj lub npe xwb. Koj nyob qhov twg lawm os? Koj puas hnov kuv hu? Nco....nco nco li os.

Currently listening to "Until You" by Shane Ward.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on September 22, 2013, 03:55:42 PM
I found it a month ago and thought, "hey I forgot about this". Tucked it away somewhere and didn't bother with it. Went looking for it yesterday and can't remember where I've placed it now. Dang! Where is that red flash drive. Why can't I find things when I need it but when I don't need it, it appears? Think.....wher e is it? Goodness when I find it, it's going on a landyard. So forgetful.

.....

I wonder how long I can operate for without sleep?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: yuknowthat on September 23, 2013, 07:20:19 AM
Zaub qaub. Mmmmmmmm! Best thing to eat on a hot summer day. Went to mom's and had a bunch. I came home and she packed me some too.

Niam ib leeg thiajli hlub....thiajl i txhawj tsam kuv tshaib plab....thiajl i pub qab rau kuv noj xwb. I feel so loved.  :love4: She's amazing!
agreed.. niam ntshai tsam yus tshaib yus nqhi .. ntshai tsam yus nyob tsis zoo.. niam ib leeg thaij li paub txawj xeeb txog yus xwb..lwm tu ces xyov li...ntshe yus twb tuag chim los ob peb zaug los twb tseem xam xam xwb
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on September 26, 2013, 12:43:59 PM
agreed.. niam ntshai tsam yus tshaib yus nqhi .. ntshai tsam yus nyob tsis zoo.. niam ib leeg thaij li paub txawj xeeb txog yus xwb..lwm tu ces xyov li...ntshe yus twb tuag chim los ob peb zaug los twb tseem xam xam xwb

Awwwwwww!  :-[ Yog li koj hais lawm mas. Tsis muaj leej twg hlub taus thiab txhawj xeeb txog yus li yus niam lawm os.

Kuv nrog pab tu siab rau cov tsis muaj lawv niam lawm los yog cov es yug los tabsis niam tsis khes hlub. If only everyone could experience the magic our mothers enstill in our lives. *big smiles*

Speaking of mom....

A few days ago I stayed really late at work and was super hungry. Was dreading the drive home because I didn't want to cook. The whole timeI was in my car I was thinking to myself...."Dang! So hungry tabsis sab ua luaj es tsis xav mus txog es tseem tau cook thiab". Got home and viola! Mom was over so she packed yummy homemade food. She knew I've been working a lot lately and probably always hungry. Should have seen the smile on my face and felt the warmth in me little heart. :)

Gotta love niam.....
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on September 26, 2013, 12:45:52 PM
October is almost here.....almos t that time again.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on September 27, 2013, 09:47:29 AM
***Friday work ranting rampage!!***

My freaken god! Can this damn phone stop ringing!!!!  :knuppel2: I'm not going to pick up. What part of "leave a message" did my clients not get? Did they think if they call enough times in a row that I'll drop my work and pick up? Ugh! Can't concentrate because all I hear is the dang phone ringing. Tried to pop on headphones so my music would distract me from hearing my phone but that doesn't even work. Maybe I should just unplug my phone for the rest of the day. Don't care. Not returning phone calls today and sure ain't in the mood to speak with any of my clients now.

Wish they would hire people to take our phone calls around here so I can actually get something done. Arg! Driving me nuts!

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on September 29, 2013, 12:01:29 AM
Mus mloog mloog nkauj ua kuv kho kho siab hmo no.

http://youtu.be/ALOEx9BWJ9k (http://youtu.be/ALOEx9BWJ9k)

Twb paub tias yog pob zeb xwb los ua cas kuv pheej tas zog zov? Ntshe kua muag poob tsis tau txaus es thiajli tsis kam tso tseg....

I wish to break free......ya mus.....mus rau ib qho chaws es kom lub siab nqig.

Tsis xav mus pw li.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on September 29, 2013, 03:11:42 PM
Spending my Sunday watching a marathon of Flashpoint. It's so intense! These type of shows keep me on my feet. Love it!!!!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on October 02, 2013, 01:03:00 PM
Pulling nonstop OT every week. I'm totally going to drain myself out at this rate. I feel like a robot....

My paychecks don't excite me anymore. Blah.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on October 05, 2013, 09:20:10 AM
Glad to know that we shared some interest. I love Flashpoint too!!! Can I tell you a secret? I had a sexual dream about that bald head sniper guy. Forgot his name. LOL

LOL. You are too funny ST. You know who was pretty hot from that show? That biracial black guy. Too bad he stepped on a land mine and had to die. Gosh! That was an episode of great acting! Had me speechless.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on October 05, 2013, 09:22:12 AM
If I count backwards, maybe I'll finally forget.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on October 05, 2013, 08:04:55 PM
Highlights for today....

1. Chasing chickens in the rain.
2. Candy crush! Beat another level.
3. Egg white facials with the sisters.
4. New music added to playlist!
5. Catching up with a friend. :)

Thank you for relaxing weekends.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on October 12, 2013, 10:28:04 AM
Yesterday brother-in-law went into the spirit world to see what was wrong with mom since she's been getting these random aches and pains out of the blue. Along the way, he started sobbing with his chants because he saw my dad. :'( He said dad tsis tshua pov hwm peb and that is why spirits are coming and going around us and both the homes. He also said dad didn't like the family living separately; dad wanted us to stay in one house together.

I could not hold back my tears.....Txiv, thov saib xyuas kuv niam peb os lov? Tsis muaj koj es twb tsis muaj leej twg li lawm ne...

***

Celebrated another year. My family....that was my wish this year.  :)
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on October 18, 2013, 09:31:15 PM
If I saved up all the receipts of every purchase I've made this year, I wonder what the total would be?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on October 19, 2013, 08:08:39 PM
http://youtu.be/RxciE8Tmh9Q (http://youtu.be/RxciE8Tmh9Q)

A good friend once said to me, "Koj yuav tsum ua tus muaj peev xwm."

For the ones who are stubborn like me......Txhob ntshai.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on October 23, 2013, 04:58:27 PM
Tej thaum kuv muab xav mas ua cas yuav tu siab ua luaj. Yug los ua ib tug ntxhais es txawm lub neej yuav zoo thiab vam meej npaum li cas los yeej tsis cuag ib tug tub. Txawm ib tug tub zaum txhua hnub ntsa taw tasli xwb los teb chaws twb qhuas thiab pom muaj nqis heev. Ntxhais niaj hnub sawv los ua tshais, mus kawm ntawv, mus ua haujlwm, los txog los tseem ua hmo thiab tu vaj tu tsev los tsis muaj leej twg pom li.

Ua cas laww tsis focus on bettering the hmong community es tseem waste time los set bride price thiab?

So sexist.....so disciminatory. ....so unfair.  :(
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: Special_K on October 23, 2013, 05:19:50 PM
Yesterday brother-in-law went into the spirit world to see what was wrong with mom since she's been getting these random aches and pains out of the blue. Along the way, he started sobbing with his chants because he saw my dad. :'( He said dad tsis tshua pov hwm peb and that is why spirits are coming and going around us and both the homes. He also said dad didn't like the family living separately; dad wanted us to stay in one house together.

I could not hold back my tears.....Txiv, thov saib xyuas kuv niam peb os lov? Tsis muaj koj es twb tsis muaj leej twg li lawm ne...

***

Celebrated another year. My family....that was my wish this year.  :)

This is painful to read and immediately brought tears to my eyes! thanks for sharing something so personal.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on October 24, 2013, 11:13:59 PM
This is painful to read and immediately brought tears to my eyes! thanks for sharing something so personal.
To
Awwww. Thov txim os. I didn't mean to get anyone teary with me. Xav xav es tu siab zog lawm es thiajli tau sau li xwb.

Happy day! :)
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on October 24, 2013, 11:17:00 PM
Putting together my halloween costume. So excited! I also went out to grab some stuff for the scary theme my sister and I are going to put together for the trick-or-treaters this year. I don't know why I all of a suddenly have this Halloween spirit in me.  :)
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on October 29, 2013, 07:21:26 PM
I've got such a sweet tooth. Need to stay away from chocolate.

****

And just like that....ciali ploj ntais kiag. Vuag!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: Mattster on October 30, 2013, 11:19:26 AM
Putting together my halloween costume. So excited! I also went out to grab some stuff for the scary theme my sister and I are going to put together for the trick-or-treaters this year. I don't know why I all of a suddenly have this Halloween spirit in me.  :)

Halloween spirit?  Is that safe?  Do you need an exorcism?  ;D
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on October 30, 2013, 01:02:19 PM
Halloween spirit?  Is that safe?  Do you need an exorcism?  ;D

Will you cast it out of me?  :D
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: yuknowthat on October 31, 2013, 06:57:56 AM
Tej thaum kuv muab xav mas ua cas yuav tu siab ua luaj. Yug los ua ib tug ntxhais es txawm lub neej yuav zoo thiab vam meej npaum li cas los yeej tsis cuag ib tug tub. Txawm ib tug tub zaum txhua hnub ntsa taw tasli xwb los teb chaws twb qhuas thiab pom muaj nqis heev. Ntxhais niaj hnub sawv los ua tshais, mus kawm ntawv, mus ua haujlwm, los txog los tseem ua hmo thiab tu vaj tu tsev los tsis muaj leej twg pom li.

Ua cas laww tsis focus on bettering the hmong community es tseem waste time los set bride price thiab?

So sexist.....so disciminatory. ....so unfair.  :(
txhob tu siab, tu neeg txawj xav thiab ntse tsis xav li ntawv. Vim lawv pom qhov yog thiab tsis yog
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 02, 2013, 03:53:51 PM
txhob tu siab, tu neeg txawj xav thiab ntse tsis xav li ntawv. Vim lawv pom qhov yog thiab tsis yog

Nyob ntawm tus neeg qhov perspective xwb. We were all raised up differently. Even the smart are sometimes wrong.

Ua tsaug rau koj cov lus zoo. :)
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 02, 2013, 07:52:36 PM
The other day I was listening to the radio as I drove to work and was reminded that I should focus on all the great things I have instead of getting depressed over what I want but don't have. Think positive! Studies show it leads to a longer lifespan!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 03, 2013, 12:29:59 PM
My sisters....my best shopping partners! Out on this beautiful day with my besties.

I don't want the snow to fall...the cold to come. Heck, winter can pass us by.


Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 05, 2013, 12:14:47 PM
It's funny how people interpret questions asked so differently. Just got off the phone with one of my clients. I was asking her what kind of car she owns. When I asked her what is the make, she replies, "Armor". I'm thinking to myself, "What kinda car is that? How come I've never heard it?" It was only after I hung up and thought about it that I realized she probably thought I asked her what materials were used to make the car?? Unless there really is an armor car? Ohyo!.  ;D

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 09, 2013, 02:53:44 AM
The world around me sleeps while I'm up. Shouldn't have taken that nap earlier....

*thinking.......pondering......wondering....*

Cas zoo ib yam li ib tug dej ntws es kuv yuav muab sij teg los cug ib pas haus kom kav kuv txoj sia los twb ua tsis tau li....yog muaj ib hnub kuv cug tau, ntshe kuv yuav ev kom tag cov dej ntawv mus tso tim tsev. Puas ua tau li nev??

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 09, 2013, 08:06:52 AM
Was dreaming and awoken from a dream cause my phone rung....

Anyways....jus t collecting my dreams here.....

It was hnub peb hu plig tshiab peb caug. I'm looking at the chickens caged outside and admiring how pretty they look. Suddenly my nephew runs outside and says my dad needs a chicken so he can start the spiritual calling ritual. I was in the middle of asking my nephew if my dad wanted it tug poj los lau when my littlest brother grabs hold of a nice plump hen. I told my brother I don't want to make the slice on its throat so he can do it while I hold the wings and feet. As my brother slices its throat, I watch the blood ooze and felt so bad for killing it. In my head I was apologizing to the chicken for taking its life. (I always do that in reality too)  ;D As I'm waiting for it to die before putting it a bucket of hot water to defeather it, I noticed the chicken twisting its neck towards me. The hen's eyes had also turned green and now I'm scared. "Yiiiiiiiiiiiii iiv! Tsis yog tus qaib no ua dab lawm os?", I thought to myself. LOL. Poof! Phone rings....

Ntshe nag hmo kuv nrog kuv niam tham txog how peb yuav ua hu plig tshiab peb caug es thiajli ua npau suav li no.....

I sure do miss my dad at this time of year. It was always him who did the spiritual calling....mom had to take over when he passed....but now ua tsaug muaj txiv laus ua tus hu peb tagnrho sawvdaws tu plig los. Nco koj os txiv.....I'll come visit you.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 10, 2013, 08:57:09 PM
Extreme hmong couponers are freaken cray cray! That's all I gotta say.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 12, 2013, 06:24:27 PM
http://youtu.be/ke6L3EozDm4 (http://youtu.be/ke6L3EozDm4)

Such a beautiful song......

I wonder why Hmong people use "120 years" to signify longevity?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 16, 2013, 01:40:56 PM
He's one of the very few elders we have left in our clan. I heard that he is not well....that he is in the hospital.  :-[ Mom said blood has been leaking in his brain and surgery is needed to be done very soon - the condition is continuing to get worse. Makes me sad because he is such a good man. After my dad passed, some people distanced themselves away from my family and made excuses to be "busy" so they didn't have to help us when we asked, but him....he never said no. Txhua zaus los nws pab dawb huv. Whenever I think about him, I always remember that one day when my mom and I were out farming. It was raining hard and one of the back tires got stuck in the muddy soil really good. His wife and him were also out farming and instead of ditching us, he helped me push the car while my mom stepped on the gas. Please keep him safe....I hope he will recover and everything will be ok. In my thoughts.....
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 22, 2013, 09:49:44 PM
Got some of them new benjamins today! Looks like monopoly money. Crispy and new. Oh yeah! I don't think I'm going to spend them though.

But a thought crossed my mind....those people who print these bills, just how tempted are they to take some? Makes me think of that movie "Mad Money".

...

Still up making goodies and prepping ingredients/food for the big event tomorrow. I miss everyone. Excited to see them all!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 24, 2013, 08:43:45 AM
Everyone around me is popping babies. Ua rau kuv ntshaw ntshaw ua ib tug mommy thiab.  :-[
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 28, 2013, 12:47:06 AM
http://youtu.be/Mx4zgTvnVh8 (http://youtu.be/Mx4zgTvnVh8)

*sighs*

 :'(  :'(  :'(

Because I also know the feeling of loneliness.

Thank you for reminding me of how fortunate I am....how much I am surrounded by the love of my family. I hope you will someday find that warmth so you too will understand what's it like to have a real family. *hugs*

I know....
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 30, 2013, 09:39:07 PM
Back-to-back episodes of "Impractical Jokes" tonight. Can't stop laughing.... :2funny:
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 21, 2013, 02:32:17 AM
Up 2 something in the morning. Can't sleep so what do I do.....wrap xmas presents. Yay!

Christmas is almost here. I'm more excited just to be off work.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 28, 2013, 03:03:46 AM
Up watching talents showcased at the Hmong New Years happening all across the globe.

Zoo siab yug los ua hmoob ib zaug. Lwm tiam los thov rov los hmoob dua thiab.

Stumbled upon a pretty awesome performance. I like lots! O0

http://youtu.be/JUZsyEXhc4M (http://youtu.be/JUZsyEXhc4M)
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 29, 2013, 09:32:34 PM
I noticed while fiddling with my phone today that I never use my left hand to text. I tried using both thumbs like I've seen a lot of people do and it was not working for me. LOL.

****

Xmas with the fam was wonderful. Got a huge surprise gift. :)

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 30, 2013, 06:30:48 PM
Still on a HNY performance frenzy on youtube. So much to watch. Have been pulling late nights.....

Ua cas peb yuav muaj ntau tus tub ntxhais hluas es yuav paub hu tau nkauj haib ua luaj. If only I had a great voice too. lol.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 31, 2013, 02:21:41 PM
Freaken black guy pumping his gas pump in front of me still has his car running. Omg! So stupid and dangerous.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 31, 2013, 02:24:46 PM
MSV,

Wishing you and your family a Happy New Year!! The best to 2014~

Always,

HS

Hey you! Thanks! I wish the same for you too. :)
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 05, 2014, 09:49:54 AM
Had a dream about you last night. It's been so long. I dreamt that I came to see you. When I got there, I called you and you were so happy. You hopped right into your car (I didn't think you knew how to drive) and was on your way to get me. We were still talking on the phone as you drove but then all of a sudden the scene changes to where I see you in a car accident. You had hit a bridge or something and you were laying there bleeding. I called your name but you were so knocked out from the impact that I only heard mumbles from you. I hope you are doing well and this wasn't one of those foreshadowing dreams.

***

Happy 2014! This year I want to just be happy. I normally make a handful of resolutions for myself but I decided to keep it simple.

Reflections of 2013. Hum. Received two raises so that was nice. Ending to a beautiful relationship. Oh the sweet memories all these couple of years spent with Dej. :( A lot more family events and new additions! 10 years since dad's passing...how it felt like yesterday only.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 07, 2014, 08:30:31 AM
As Akuma from that hmong dubbed Street Fighter movie would say, "Lub ntiaj teb no yog lub zoo tshaj plaws" *deep breath* "Lub ntiaj teb no yog lub zoo tshaj plaws." *deep breath again*

What a start to my morning at work. Just found out I got a crapload of work assigned to me this month. Supervisor sent an email to the whole unit to remind us to please do our best to cover those who are out on vacation. Why should I even bother when no one helped do my work when I was out? There's really no point in me overworking myself. I don't even want to try anymore.  :-\
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 08, 2014, 09:43:20 PM
Consumed by music. I don't normally like rap much but this one here I like.  O0  Got me feelin' the beat......                                                                                                       

http://youtu.be/OjlednRmh64 (http://youtu.be/OjlednRmh64)

Thank you world for music!




Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 13, 2014, 03:36:07 PM
Back to eating my grapefruits and monitoring everything I eat again. Gosh, it's going to be so hard but I know this will be best for me. Greatest part to all this is my family will also be participating. We will push each other, remind each other and motivate each other. Really hoping for success for us all.  :toothy10:

Must possess....
- determination
- commitment
- patience
- enthusiasm
- positivity

Let's go! 



Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 21, 2014, 11:01:18 AM
Ever since kuv tau ib tug nai tshiab mas I've dreaded this place even more. On the first meeting we had, nws hais rau kuv haistias nws tsis micromanage no tabsis all her actions have been showing she does. A few days ago nws sau email tuaj rau kuv es hais tias kuv need ua nov ua nov and to refer to policy if I don't know what I'm doing. I got irritated and even frustrated cause I know what I'm doing (and when I don't,  I do ask for help). Anyways, I went to talk to my old supervisor as well as those who do quality control or know policies well. They all confirmed I did my work correctly. Kuv rov los sau kiag email teb kuv tus nai tias kuv ua yog tas lawm....tseem also siab zoo enough es link kiag nws qhov policy thiab. ;D Tsuv tsus ntawv os. Loved putting her in check.

To work under someone who doesn't believe in my work....how I miss my good supes!

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 28, 2014, 01:04:24 PM
Last night my heart skipped a beat when I logged onto my email and saw that he had left me a message. After so many months of silence, I wanted to burst into tears.....let all that loneliness out. But instead I sat there staring at his email. It was so short and simple but the impact it left triggered my weakest spots to awaken. How I wanted to forgive him and hit the reply button to find answers to questions I pondered about when he left. I stopped myself though. No longer did I want to do this. To wait for him. To fall for his stupid sweet talking. To believe there was a future for us. To remain so faithful and only be treated like I was only an option or his last resort. I deserve better! I deserve to be loved! And so I clicked the "delete" button.

I am in control of my happiness. He once was my smiles but now I no longer need him. Chase the sun...I must go in that direction.  :)
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 29, 2014, 09:10:06 PM
If it ain't snowing, it's freezing. If it ain't freezing, it's snowing. What the....!

So tired of MN winter this year.....I hope we have a long summer to make up for all this.

Watching news and expecting 4-5 inches of snow tomorrow. That's going to make for a fun commute to and from work.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 30, 2014, 09:41:22 PM
Mom called me and told me you were getting married to this one old divorcee here in MN. My heart kinda sunk cause I really liked you back then. I heard you told your grandma that you waited for me to make a move and it never came so you doubted if I would ever muaj siab tiag for you. If only you knew how true my feelings were towards you then. Do you think I would have waited two years for you? Well it's too late now. I hope you'll build a wonderful life with her. I hope you'll remember the cute memories we once shared together. It's been long and to finally hear news of you.....*sighs* Congrats KX!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 02, 2014, 10:37:57 PM
While everyone was watching the superbowl tonight, I was busy youtubing. Hehehe. Found a beautiful cover. It has been on repeat for the past two hours...

http://youtu.be/WEAAV-FAMlw (http://youtu.be/WEAAV-FAMlw)
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 06, 2014, 08:26:40 PM
One of my clients came in today and told me he couldn't read or write. I felt so bad. I wanted to offer him help by filling out his paperwork but according to our policies, I couldn't do that. Gosh! Still wished I could have helped him more.

Almost Friday. Let's go!

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 11, 2014, 11:03:54 AM
Argggggg! I don't think my clients will achieve anything by constantly bombing my phone. Do they think if they keep calling one call after another that I will eventually pick up? That'll actually just make me want to unplug my phone even more. Gosh! Wished my phone had a call forward option. Where is the owner's manual....I am so irritated with my phone ringing. Can't concentrate or get any work done because my focus is drawn to the annoying ringing of my phone.

Tell me why I am here?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 11, 2014, 01:03:04 PM
Acceptance. Humans hunger for this one simple request of approval....as surance....con firmation of being "in".

I never asked for much....never wanted the spotlight beaming before me.

Does it really matter what others think? When was it so wrong to be different?

Perhaps if the world was more accepting of each other, we wouldn't have so much hate.

.......

It doesn't matter if I wasn't accepted. I walk away with my head held high and pride bursting out from my chest. I know I may not be amazing but maybe someday you'll look back at this and have your regrets. Your action was merely a prick....not a single drop of blood. :)
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 12, 2014, 12:45:13 PM
Last night I got caught up watching documentaries on youtube. Stumbled upon one about a boy who didn't have eyes but could "see". Long story short...boy was diagnosed with eye cancer and after many chemo treatments, the doctor gave his mom two choices....1. To remove both the little boys' eyes or 2. Continue with treatment and risk having the cancer spread to his brain.  :-\ The boy's mom went with the first option. Anyways I'm listening to this boy's mom talk about the first time her boy wakes up and realizes he can't see anything anymore. Got me thinking...wha t would one do if he/she woke up one day and suddenly couldn't see anymore? How would one adjust his/her life? What great beauties of mother nature would one miss out on?

Looking forward to more documentaries tonight. So much to learn! Love it!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 12, 2014, 09:41:34 PM
Great story! I love watching documentary show as well. Gosh, I don't know how I will live if I can't see. But would you rather see and be deaf or blind and can hear?

I also saw another doc about an old lady who's baby died in her tummy during labor and she left that fetus in her for 46 years!!!! It's crazy what the human body is capable of doing. You should watch it.

Which sense would I rather have? I need both! Need to listen to music. Need to see the world! What about you? Which would you choose?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 12, 2014, 09:49:52 PM
http://youtu.be/7P2OWJofVaM (http://youtu.be/7P2OWJofVaM)

Took a few listens but I like it....
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 13, 2014, 10:31:37 PM
I learned something new today. Chocolate is rather hard to work with if you don't know what you're doing. I attempted to melt some earlier and it didn't turned out right. Instead of being drippy, my morsels had turned crumb-like. I quickly googled search to see what I did wrong and sure enough this newbie just wasted a whole bag of chocolate. The key to melting chocolate was low heat. I never knew that.

Love the way all the sweets turned out. Too tired to eat them now.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 14, 2014, 12:53:59 PM
Valentine's Day memory....

I miss those days back in elementary school when I'd get to decorate a Valentine's Day bag and pass out cards to my classmates.

Or in high school when we had Valograms that were handed out during homeroom and everyone would anxiously wait to see if a secret admirer had sent them one.

A day for love....a day to spoil the most treasured people in our lives. Happy Valentine's Day to all those near and far!   :-* :-* :-* Round up the love!

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 15, 2014, 06:33:06 AM
Waking up earlier on the weekends than on weekdays. I don't get my body.  So want to sleep in. Isn't this what the weekends are for anyways? I'm gonna lay in bed and just youtube until the sun rises...!

Looking forward to a fun filled day with my besties!

.......

I hope this is real. I hope it's just not a dream......
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 16, 2014, 08:43:24 PM
Where is it? Where is it? Where is it? I hate looking for something small that has been misplaced. Need to find it. Gosh! Where is it?  :'(
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 20, 2014, 10:25:39 PM
The wind howls tonight. Snow...snow... and more snow. Will winter ever come to an end?

Roads were pretty bad today. Got too anxious and dipped work early. Debating now if it's worth making the drive through these slippery roads tomorrow. Mus los tsis mus haujlwm ne??
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 21, 2014, 10:39:43 AM
I decided to call in. That's a three day weekend for me!  :)

Was awoken by a dream I had of grandma today. I dreamt that I was getting ready to head out to work but I wanted to use the bathroom first. I'm dashing up the stairs and as I'm about to turn the corner, I see grandma. At first she appeared lost but I noticed she was crying. I asked grandma, "Niamtais, ua cas koj quaj quaj na?" Grandma looks at me with her watery eyes and tells me she's kho kho siab and that she misses her mom. I gave grandma a hug and told her she has us. I reach out both my hands to wipe away her tears and comfort her. Just as that is happening, my mom comes up the stairs too. She sees grandma and I and asked what happened. Just as I was about to explain to her....poof!

Quickly opened one eye to see what time it was....6:57am. Oh no! I'm going to be late for work!

Missing grandma. Need to go take another road trip to visit her when the weather gets nice.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 22, 2014, 05:42:57 PM
Home bound for two days now because of the slippery roads conditions.

Got so bored that I did some major cleaning around the house. It smells so fresh and everything looks spotless. Mission accomplished!

Now what shall I do tonight?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 22, 2014, 11:38:31 PM
Some women crave for attention so dang much that they slut-i-fy themselves just so they'll get that needed spotlight. Sad.

....

Cleaning out old emails sent from him when I noticed something. Display pic popped up on the side as I clicked a bunch of his emails to delete. Saw a picture of a little Asian boy. He looked no more than 5-6 years old. He was just sitting there...smilin g and with so much innocence. I wonder if that's his boy? Bet you he is! F him for lying to me all these years. I applaud him for his deceptive ways. I'm passed that stage of even crying because I feel betrayed. I've moved on to the "kuv ntsub everything about koj" stage. LOL. Eventually I'll find it in my heart to forgive his lies and find the last closure to every false memory he built in my mind. Healing and moving on is a slow process. Time really does work in my favor. I'm at a better place today than I was yesterday. I just pray that the next wonderful man that pops into my life...that he'll be real with me. Not asking for diamonds, gold, or any sort of money.....just a good hearted man.  =)

I smile because despite all the heartaches triggered by his lies, my hope lives on. Though I am still rather guillible at times and trust strangers as well as believe every human still has a good heart, I shall try my very best to not fall victim to one who doesn't have any intent to treasure my feelings anymore. With this, I'll draw a positive lesson from...Thank you for teaching me mister poob zoo. Perhaps that was the only purpose why our paths crossed.

....

Silence tonight. I hear the ticking of the wall clock and somehow it brings calmness to me. Normally I'd probably be so annoyed with it if I was trying to sleep. Oh night....
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: proudlao on February 23, 2014, 07:43:54 AM
There are good and great men out there, you will find him once your heart is fully healed. With your positive outlook and your desires in the simple kindness of men it should not be too hard. I wish you the best and keep on smiling no matter what.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 23, 2014, 09:00:10 AM
There are good and great men out there, you will find him once your heart is fully healed. With your positive outlook and your desires in the simple kindness of men it should not be too hard. I wish you the best and keep on smiling no matter what.

Thank you for your kind words.  :)
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 23, 2014, 09:15:56 AM
Bizarre dreams again....

1. I dreamt I was a surgeon. Was making an incision on the top of this little boy's skull and removing his brain. Eeeeek! Then as I'm sewing back up the skin, it keeps ripping further and further towards his face. While I'm doing all of this, I see one of my old high school classmate who looks pregnant as heck walk in. I'm thinking to myself, "Am I delivering her baby?". I quickly glanced her medical records as my hands are still tied holding a needle and pinching skin together. Looks like my next scheduled surgery would be a hysterectomy. How can a pregnant woman come in for that? Wth! LOL.

2. Went back to work at my old work place. I needed to go use the bathroom so I'm walking down the halls to get there. I see this old white coworker and he thinks I'm going to steal stuff from their company. I said to him, "If you are so worried, you can follow me!". I roll my eyes as I enter the ladies room. Doing my thing and the door won't lock. I figure no one is in the bathroom so it should be alright. All of a sudden, I hear someone pushing on my door. Bam! Door open and I flush bright red cause my pants are still down. Lady walks away and I'm struggling to grab the door. LOL.

Oh goodness! Sleeping too good!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 25, 2014, 10:12:05 AM
I dread training @ work but I suppose it's needed to better my skills. Besides, it gives me one week away from my clients. Will make the best of this week.

Pounding headache I have right now too!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on February 28, 2014, 09:22:51 PM
This year is my 10 yr HS reunion. I feel like I haven't changed.....ha ven't gone anywhere. Maybe I should pretend I invented post-it notes too!  :D To go or not to go?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 10, 2014, 10:17:55 PM
What happened to that Malaysian plane? My heart goes out to all the families still waiting for some hopeful news.  :-\ It's scary to think of the what if. Gosh...the ocean is so deep.

.....

Beautiful weather today. Melt away snow!

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: Wi_sweetguy on March 10, 2014, 10:42:30 PM
I just saw the yahoo! News and it said some muslims might be on the plane.  Is it always Muslims extremist? 
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 11, 2014, 12:32:45 PM
I just saw the yahoo! News and it said some muslims might be on the plane.  Is it always Muslims extremist?

I've been tuning in to any news about this case. It's such a big mystery that a big plane occupying 239 passengers could just disappear from radars like that. Yesterday night they were also mentioning on the news that most planes are equipped with a recording device that aids in locating is path. But they also stated that it's harder to track if submerged in water.  :-[ When I heard that I'm thinking...."The plane sunk into the deep ocean". Scary thought....pro bably more terrifying if that's really what happened.

I don't know which is worst...hijack ed plane or sunken plane?

Who knows if it's really Muslims behind this or not. Kinda sad we target certain groups just because of past incidents/events that have occurred.

I really hope that the families of those 239 won't have to hear any bad news. I hope their tears will not be from sorrow and grief but from an outburst of relief and happiness from the safe return of their loved ones.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 11, 2014, 01:00:43 PM
Ua neej nyob, tom ntej tsis pom, tom qab tsis xav nco tagnhro txog.
Niam thiab txiv ib txwm ua lub kaus qhia tias phem thiab zoo los yuav hlub thiab ua siab ntev.
Cas sijhawm zoo li ib ntsais muag xwb twb dhau ntau lub xyoos.
Lub cev txawj loj hlob tabsis lub siab tseem caum tsis tau cuag li.
Kuv ntsia kuv ob txhais tes nrhiav seb puas pom txoj kev los nrhiav tau koj.
Kaum tawm lus kua muag poob es kuv tau cug los ua cas tsis cuag li koj los pab so.
Mam mus nrog nraug hli tham hmo ntuj seb daws puas tau hom kab mob kho siab no.
Yuav ua siab ntev coj lus zog mus nce roob thiab qis hav kom thiajli pom ntiaj teb.
Yog hmoo muaj, koj thiab kuv mas li los sib phoom ua phooj ywg mus....

I'll be patient until that unforseen encounter. Hehehe.

Feeling fobby.  :D







Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 19, 2014, 12:39:32 PM
I guess the snow still wanted to hang around.  >:( Commute to work wasn't horrible but definitely some slick spots to dodge.

Slow day at work today. I'm pretty much caught up. Wish I had my ipad here so I could sneak in an hour of movie/youtube time! I've been hooked on watching National Geographics' series "Taboo" these past few days. Love it!

Dinner with the loves tonight. Saving my stomach for sushi. Hehehe.

I really love this new Loreal Paris Advanced Haircare shampoo/conditioner I'm trying out. Efforts to save my beautiful hair...a woman is not complete without her shiny smooth and soft hair.

Zzzzzzzz. My mind is just bouncing all over the place today.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 23, 2014, 02:23:12 PM
Hnub no kuv sawv los es kuv ciali kho kho siab....I need a hug.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 25, 2014, 10:19:32 PM
Must learn to say no to pop, juice, chips, and chocolate at all times! :( It's all mental. I'm going to rewire these nerves in my brain slowly. So far it's a challenge. However, I read somewhere that if I can go 20 days without a certain food than I'll be good to go. Counting down....

Cutting down on my rice intake too. I know I can never get rid of rice from my diet since I'm Hmong afterall but I sure can eat smaller portions. Limited to no more than a cup on any given day.

This is to me.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 27, 2014, 12:37:09 PM
*hug* hope you feel better.  :)

In spite of the gloomy weather today, my spirit has rejuvenated itself. Thanks ST!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 27, 2014, 12:56:46 PM
Last night I was lazying around the couch with my mom while we watched the news. They had this segment about how pets were getting fat like American society. I had turned to mom and suggested that she get a doggie so she wouldn't be so lonely now that everyone has grown up and she has no grandkids to take care of yet. Mom shook her head. I tried to convince her once more. "Niam, yog koj muaj ib tug aub ces thaum summer tuaj es peb tsis khoom nrog koj mus ua teb ces koj mam li coj nws nrog koj ua luag ne." Mom shook her head once more before replying, "Kuv twb tu tu aub lawm. Lawv tso quav tshua qhov chaws ntau dhau lawm." I laughed and told her she doesn't know that....animal s are clean too. That's when mom told me a story I've never heard before. She said when she was young, she had a dog. I think it was to protect her spirit. I know she once told me a boy really loved her but because his parents were heavy opium users, my grandma refused to let her marry him. The boy got tu tu siab and became sick and died after he heard that my mom got married. So back to story...mom told me she even gave her dog a name....Swj yiv (I think that's what it was). I giggled because I didn't think my mom liked animals as pets. She said she cared for the dog even when they were running through the jungle during the war. However in the midst of it, her dog disappeared. She doesn't know if it got stolen, died or worst...butche red up and on someone's dinner table. :(

I should surprise my mom with a dog. I'm sure she'll care for it a lot.  I still remember a few years back my brother and his girlfriend left their puppy with us for about 2 weeks to babysit and my mom always called to see if the puppy was fed and not crying. LOL. And she said she would not like doggies.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 31, 2014, 08:34:08 PM
I beat myself up trying to live by all these over the top no good standards set by society. It f'en sucks! I am different and full of flaws. So what? As Tyra Banks once said.... "kiss my fat ass!"

Feel like glamming up and going out for a night.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 03, 2014, 07:01:28 PM
Staring out the window watching the backyard and street get covered with snow once again. How many more days must MN have to suffer? I really hope this predicted 6-12 inches by tomorrow won't come true. Already dreading the morning drive since I'm sure half the people will act like they've forgotten how to drive. Snow....snow.. .snow.....

Guess I need to sleep early tonight.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 04, 2014, 01:57:00 PM
Whew!  Bought my tabs two weeks ago and was going to put it on my license plate before March ended but sure enough...I forgot!!! Thank goodness they weren't going around my work parking lot trying to ticket people. I would have gotten one on my window for sure. Close call.

Vacation time is nearing again. Yay!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 07, 2014, 09:32:29 AM
I QUIT!!!!!!  :-[
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 19, 2014, 10:55:28 PM
I promise to buy myself something with my refund. I will not worry about the price....shall not stash it away into my savings....I must spend a little of it. :) I deserve this!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 26, 2014, 03:11:04 PM
Go for it!!! We all deserve to be pampered once in a while.  O0

Hehehe. I ended up buying myself two pairs of gladiator sandals and currently on a hunt for a flashy purse....that's my treat to myself! The rest will go towards my future home. :)

What was your latest splurge on?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on April 26, 2014, 03:15:08 PM
How will I defeat this? I've let myself down. Must surprise the mirror once more... 



Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 01, 2014, 12:49:30 PM
Been sick this whole week. Now my body even hates MN weather. Gosh! Had no sleep at all last night because I was up coughing and fighting this stuffy nose. Can't wait to get well again.

No appetite for anything today. Just want to go home and sleep. 4 more long hours to go.....
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 03, 2014, 01:58:31 PM
I get so excited when I score an awesome deal on something!  :) Oh yeah! Never will I buy anything at regular price again. LOL.  A penny saved is a penny earned.

My car deserves a little love. Time to clean and make it beautiful inside and out.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 04, 2014, 07:36:06 PM
To be forgotten..... I wish that you would remember me.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 09, 2014, 12:43:21 PM
God dang! I was digging through the slots of my wallet to check and see how much cash I had on me and I found over 30 $1 bills. Wow! I should just hire a sexy male stripper tonight.  :D

Excited to get off work today. Planning to make delicious food because I'm craving something super yummy! The yummiest food always takes the most time to make. But it'll be worth the running around every grocery store for.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 11, 2014, 10:14:23 PM
I read her the message I had written inside her Mother's Day card and after getting emotional and on the verge of crying, she leans over with a smile and hugs me. "Ua tsaug rau koj cov lus zoo os", she says to me. I love this woman!

Happy Mother's Day!

How fortunate I am to have been born and raised as a daughter to my mom. Her unconditional love she has given me thus far in life, I shall forever appreciate.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 19, 2014, 04:25:50 PM
Damn some of these clients!!! Ntxim mag tsuj xwb. I just want to scream, "Get your damn f***** shit together!"

Need to go home. This place makes me feel crabby today.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 21, 2014, 11:34:06 PM
It's good to see that there are still good people in this world.

Tired to the max. Time for bed.....zzzzzz!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 22, 2014, 07:49:44 PM
I've been missing dad lately. Had a dream about him the other night. Like always, he never says anything in my dreams.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 26, 2014, 11:22:05 PM
http://youtu.be/aSZVYZTze74 (http://youtu.be/aSZVYZTze74)

Jamming to this tonight. Totally beats slow ballads.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 27, 2014, 01:04:11 PM
It's so empty. My hope...where has it gone?

I sat and cried last night. I'm so tired. I don't want to always be the good person anymore.

How the rain this morning saw the deepest part of my soul.

Fragments of thoughts soon to be lost in time....sighs.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on May 30, 2014, 09:19:49 PM
Since when did lazy people start calling other lazy people out? Ha! ::)

.....

My sandals came in the mail yesterday and I love love love them! Too bad they don't come in more colors. Maybe I should buy another pair?

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 02, 2014, 08:53:06 AM
Feeling so kho kho siab this morning.... :-[

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 03, 2014, 01:04:08 PM
Koj mus dua twg lawm? Cas kuv ntsia txhua qhov chaws los tsis pom. Hu los tsis hnov koj teb qhov twg tuaj. Koj puas paub kuv nrhiav nrhiav koj? Thov pab kuv.

.....

Spent the whole evening mowing the lawn and pulling out weeds. Love the clean yard and fresh cut grass smell.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 12, 2014, 12:43:44 PM
I keep waiting by my phone hoping to hear his voice again. I'm not trying to be needy or clingly but when I've become accustomed to waking up to his phone calls and giggling with him after a long day at work, it makes it so hard. He left me a facebook msg a few days ago assuring me he made it safely there. I thought I would be good for a while but I miss him too much. To think all those times when he made me chim chim and I'd let him call one phone call after another and I wouldn't even pick up once. Now he and I can't even communicate. I count the days on my finger and it gets longer and longer. Can't wait for his return...

***

Some of my meskas coworkers are so stingy and rude.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 14, 2014, 05:20:00 PM
She who grows selfish and forgets what really matters most will only realize when it's too late. Foolish is she thinking she's got everything under control. Oh the young soul she possesses. She knows nothing about the bad people who will deceive her. She continues to surround herself around them not having a clue the great harm they will bring her. I guess she has not shed enough tears nor understood what it meant like to care about anyone else. I only hope she will someday come to her senses. :( Selfish is she.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 15, 2014, 08:57:17 PM
Early this morning, I had a dream that my car fell into a body of water with strong currents. I remember pulling down the window and screaming "HELP!" to a stranger I saw at the corner of my eye as I slowly sunk. The water started to cover my feet and continued to rise higher and higher. I thought to myself, "This is it. I'm not going to make it." Suddenly I see that man jump in and grab my hand. I woke up suddenly and my body felt so limp. Ntshai tiag tiag!

It felt so real. Whew! Thank goodness it was only a dream.

****

Txiv, txhua lub xyoo hnub no los txog, kuv nco hu koj lub npe tshaj. Ua tsaug koj tseem ua peb txiv ib zaug thiab. Txawm tsis tau nyob ua ke ntev nrog koj los muaj ib hnub kuv muaj kuv ib pab, kuv yuav qhia lawv tagnrho txog lawv yawm txiv. Vim tias koj yog ib tug neeg coj tau zoo. Koj ib txwm tsis hais ntau tabsis thaum kuv tseem yog menyuam yaus, ntsia koj ua dabtsi los pom tias koj ua los ntawm kev hlub thiab kev siab zoo xwb. Zoo siab rau txiv hnub os! Nco koj.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 16, 2014, 08:54:23 AM
Cause and effect.  :(

1. I decided to sleep on the floor instead of on a comfy sofa or bed last night. Woke up with an achy back. I used to love sleeping on the ground because of all the space I had to roll around on. Now this old granny is too spoiled. lol

2. I knew today I had to get up early for work but instead stayed up until 1:30ish yesterday (got too carried away on youtube). Not only was I late for work but my mind isn't even awake yet. Explains why I'm doodling on here instead of working.

Mondays. *sighs*
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 17, 2014, 10:15:14 PM
Niam tias kom thaum twg xaiv txij nkawm, xaiv tus ua siab ntev thiab paub zam txim tau rau kuv es lub neej thiajli yuav zoo. Ua cas yog thaum txog tus zoo li ntawv kuv hos tsis nyiam nws kiag li?  This neverending cycle....I should really learn to appreciate a good man. Tsis ua li ces tsam tau laib xwb. lol

So tired....mus pw lawm os. Good night!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 26, 2014, 09:43:46 PM
Decided to add more dresses to my work wardrobe. Patiently waiting for my package to arrive all week. Ua cas es yuav siv sijhawm ntev ua luaj? I've been quickly driving up to the driveway after work anticipating to see a bag sitting near the front door but nothing. Maybe it'll be here tomorrow. *crosses fingers*
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 27, 2014, 12:11:58 PM
Lol I can relate to this. Sometimes we complained but when there is a good man there is no attraction.  :P

I don't like that feeling of forcing myself to like someone just because I know he's a good man and will treat me good if I did choose him. Ugh!

Ultimately I need good communication in a relationship. Not all good guys possess that quality. They are either too shy/quiet or hlwb qeeb zog lawm. lol
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 27, 2014, 12:21:07 PM
They must have missed the memo about professionalis m. Some of these meskas girls at work dress like skanks to work. I understand it's hot outside and you want to be pretty in your little dresses or see through blouses. When you come and see clients everyday, a skirt that barely covers your booty and that or undergarment showing is not appropriate. Just a while ago I just saw one of them snotty girls and her skirt looked like a booty short. To make it worse, she had a few tats on her legs showing too. Ick! And she was in flip flops! I wouldn't be surprised if another coworker who didn't know her accidently mistaken her for a client we serve. Some people just don't get it. Have some class when you're working.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: minorcharacter on June 27, 2014, 04:17:46 PM
They must have missed the memo about professionalis m. Some of these meskas girls at work dress like skanks to work. I understand it's hot outside and you want to be pretty in your little dresses or see through blouses. When you come and see clients everyday, a skirt that barely covers your booty and that or undergarment showing is not appropriate. Just a while ago I just saw one of them snotty girls and her skirt looked like a booty short. To make it worse, she had a few tats on her legs showing too. Ick! And she was in flip flops! I wouldn't be surprised if another coworker who didn't know her accidently mistaken her for a client we serve. Some people just don't get it. Have some class when you're working.
Hi, can I come visit your workplace?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 29, 2014, 10:23:32 PM
Hi, can I come visit your workplace?

You'll have to wait in line for "take your ph'er to work day"....currently serving person holding ticket #255 right now.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on June 29, 2014, 10:32:20 PM
I had the most delicious slice of watermelon this weekend. Yummers!!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 01, 2014, 12:52:06 PM
I should have bought it last night instead of giving in to these sleepy eyes. Checked this morning and it's all sold out now. I guess I'm outta luck. *sighs*

Can't wait to go to the tourney and eat some good ass food. Mmmm. I can taste it already.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 02, 2014, 10:42:54 AM
^ THANKS ST! I hope the weather is beautiful so I'm not stuck inside staring out the window.. You have a fun one yourself!

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 02, 2014, 10:47:52 AM
Shallow and judgemental people. There are too many of them....

Acting like we don't have hearts and souls. If you don't have anything nice to say, don't f'cken say anything at all. Thank you very much!  ::)
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 06, 2014, 11:54:40 AM
After a long tiring J4 weekend....wha t better way to spend my Sunday than watching back-to-back episodes of "The Walking Dead" (season 4).

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 07, 2014, 05:44:55 PM
In my loneliest of nights, I can't help but think of you. Kuv nyob ntsiag to tsis muaj tug nrog tham mas ua kuv nco koj lub suab tshaj. How I sometimes wish you didn't choose to leave me like you did. I know you never meant to stay in my life but it would have made me so happy if you did. Ntshaw ntshaw txoj kev sov siab dua xwb os.  O0

I'm ready to go back to work...still have one more day of vacation to go. What to do tomorrow?

Thunder rumbles by the bedside window. I'll lay here in silence and listen to the rain soon to come....
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 12, 2014, 12:40:56 AM
I can relate to that feeling. It was very hard for me to get used to the fact that he no longer is sleeping next to me. Sometimes without realizing and out of bad habits I would reach for him only to find an empty spot. It took me a long time to get used to be alone.

Awwweee. In place of that longing, you can always put a pillow there.  :)

It's easier to go from being lonely you to sharing your life with another. When you begin to build everything with someone and suddenly all that disappears, I bet it's hard.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 12, 2014, 12:47:14 AM
Laying here listening to music. Can't sleep. Xav txog.....how my heart feels so numb. It's like I don't have a feeling left in me anymore. I bet it's just waiting to burst. I'm not sure if that will be in the form of tears or shouts? Pump the volume up and just feel the beat of these tracks. Yeah!

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 12, 2014, 11:21:13 PM
Been listening to this non-stop that I managed to write out all the lyrics to this rap....

I may have just fallen for this boy's voice. hehehe. Good stuff!

Koj Tsis Paub Deathrhyme
ALBUM: DEATH HAS AWAKEN


Chorus
Koj tsis paub puas yog es txoj kev hlub kuv muab rau koj
Es koj tsis paub puas yoges koj tsis paub puas yog?
Ib puas tsav yam kuv muab rau koj es koj tsis paub puas yog?
Txawm kuv yuav ua npaum li cas los koj yeej  tsis paub puas yog?
Kuv lub siab kuv muab rau koj es koj tsis paub puas yog?
Kuv lub me hlwb tsuas yog muaj koj es koj tsis paub puas yog?
Koj tsis paub puas yog..es koj tsis paub puas yog?
Yog li mloog kuv mog kuv mam qhia rau koj.

Es koj tsis paub tias mob kuv lub me siab npaum li cas
Xav muaj koj lwv ntawm kuv lub hlwb los kuv lub siab nws tsis kam.
Pheej nco txog koj lub ntsej muag thaum koj luag ntxhi rau kuv
Thaum koj qhib koj lub qhov muag ci tau puv lub ntuj
Es koj tsis paub haistias tseem tsuav ib tug neeg li kuv
Nyob ntawm no tos koj thaum lub hli nws puv
Thaum twg lub hnub mam li los ci rau koj lub qhov muag
Es koj thiajli paub haistias kuv txoj kev hlub no nws muaj

**Repeat chorus**

Hais tias ib puas tsav yam hauv kuv lub neej no kuv muab rau koj
Txawm tias koj ua kuv tu siab los kuv twb ua txwj li kuv tsis mob
Es kuv yuav ua npaum li cas es koj thiajli paub
Es koj thiajli hnov haistias kuv xav txog koj txhua hnub txhua hmo
Dabtsi nyob hauv koj lub siab kuv xav paub thiab tiag
Nws yog tiag los nws yog dag kuv xav paub tiag tiag
Los qhia rau kuv vim lub sijhawm tsis tshuav ntev lawm
Vim hais tias lub hnub yuav poob lub ntuj yuav tsaus lawm

Es yog tias koj hlub, kov tsij los qhia rau kuv
Es yog tias koj hlub tiag, kov tsij los es puag kuv
Vim haistias kuv nco koj thiab kuv xav nyob ze koj
Thov los qhia rau kuv haistias nws tsis yog ib txoj kev npau suav
Kuv xav paub qhov tseeb tagnrho ntawm koj lub siab
Muab tagnhro cov lus los hais, muab tagnrho cov lus los piav
Nws yuav yog txoj kev tu siab, nws yuav yog txoj kev zoo siab
Dabtsi los xij, kom tsij los es piav

**Repeat Chorus**

Kuv mam li.li muab cia hauv lub siab
Es txawm koj tsis paub tias kuv hlub koj npaum cas los kav liam
Muab koj tso rau hauv kuv lub siab nco ntsoov txog koj mus ib sim
Yog es muaj ib hnub nws muaj tiag mam rov los sib ntsib
Mam li sib hlub dua thiab mam sib tham dua
Txij hnub no mus ces yuav tsis nco koj lub suab
Thaum twg kuv xav pom koj lub ntsej muag ces kuv mam li los ntsia koj daim duab

**Repeat Chorus 2x**

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: BTW on July 13, 2014, 09:15:13 AM
^^^One of my reasons for going to the tournament this year! He's very talented.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 14, 2014, 07:44:51 PM
^^^One of my reasons for going to the tournament this year! He's very talented.

Indeed! I actually didn't know which artists were going to be releasing an album prior to going to the tournament. Just randomly bumped into Deathryhme's booth and had to get his CD since I follow him on YouTube. He's one of the very few rappers I really enjoy listening to. He raps about life and its struggles...un like some who only rap about drinking, smoking weed and f'ing girls.  ::)

I assume you got to meet him in person too?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 14, 2014, 07:49:39 PM
That moment when you realize you just got tricked.  :crybaby2: Why do people do such things? What do they gain from it?

....

I want to get myself a super sexy red lipstick.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: BTW on July 14, 2014, 09:11:02 PM
Indeed! I actually didn't know which artists were going to be releasing an album prior to going to the tournament. Just randomly bumped into Deathryhme's booth and had to get his CD since I follow him on YouTube. He's one of the very few rappers I really enjoy listening to. He raps about life and its struggles...un like some who only rap about drinking, smoking weed and f'ing girls.  ::)

I assume you got to meet him in person too?

Hi, MSV. I agree, I did meet him. He's a great artist.

Yes, invest in the super sexy red lipstick. My current fave red lipstick is Outlaw by Kat Von D. I love the light finish for a long-lasting wear.   :)
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 19, 2014, 03:02:48 PM
Hi, MSV. I agree, I did meet him. He's a great artist.

Yes, invest in the super sexy red lipstick. My current fave red lipstick is Outlaw by Kat Von D. I love the light finish for a long-lasting wear.   :)

Ooooo. Yes to long-lasting wear. I'll definitely check that out. Thanks! :)

I love Deathrythm too!  O0

Yay!  :D
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 25, 2014, 06:14:58 PM
Because I can't bring myself to say it....  :(

Koj xav tias ntshe kuv tsis hais tawm ces kuv tsis paub no? Nws yeej mob tob tob hauv duab siab mas. Ntshe ua tau mas xav cia koj ev qhov koj ua phem rau kuv mus tas li. I want that guilt to grip you like a shadow that never cease to disappear. Thaum twg koj noj ib pluag mov twg qab los koj xav txog tias ua cas koj txawj muaj lub siab phem ua li thiab....ua kom koj nqos tsis taus kiag koj dia mov. But of course kuv lam hais los ntawm kev tu siab xwb os. Koj saib nyiaj txhiag muaj nqis tshaj los thov kom koj nrog luag muaj.....Maybe someday you'll come to your senses and realize that money ain't much. Txawm koj yuav muaj puv tsev tag los yog tsis muaj kev zoo siab thiab cov neeg hlub koj lawm ces nws zoo dabtsi na lov? I'll suck up my pride. Ib tug neeg li koj tsis deserve kuv ib tee kua muag.....
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on July 30, 2014, 12:51:13 PM
Dangit! I just wanted to eat this yummy orange flavored  jello for lunch but that small plastic tip came off while I was trying to rip it open. Can't open it now. I guess I'm stuck having to munch on a healthy hmong cucumber instead.  :-[



Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on August 04, 2014, 12:18:19 AM
 :'(  :'(  :'(

The heart hurts tonight....
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on August 06, 2014, 01:06:39 PM
Thank you Ms. ST. :)

....

Still 2 months out but today I requested to get that day off work this year. Best thing is it happens to fall on a Friday too so that's a double plus! I remember last year I worked right through my bday and even ended up dong OT.

Yawns. So sleepy today at work. I'm feeling unproductive.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on August 07, 2014, 12:49:57 PM
Last night I stayed late to catch up on some work. I'm walking to my car and at the corner of my left eye, I see someone get out of his car. My natural instincts kicked in and I picked up my pace. The closer I got to my car, the closer I saw that image get near me. I quickly pushed my key button once (good thing it only unlocks the driver side) and dashed into my car. Closed the door and locked it before starting up my engine. Just as I'm doing that, I check my peripheral view and that guy had walked right up to my passenger side and stood there. I didn't even dare to look him in the face. Just backed out and drove away.

Going to avoid staying late now. Haven't been scared at work before but yesterday my heart was thumping away.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on August 10, 2014, 01:35:52 AM
Mam nco ntsoov khaws cia thov rau lwm tiam mas.....

Because all good things can't be mines, I will not grow selfish.


Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on August 13, 2014, 08:02:18 PM
Oy! I can't stand people who are messy. Learn to clean-up after yourself! If you had time to make the mess, you should have time to clean it.  >:( Losing my cool because I'm growing sick and tired of sucking it up and cleaning crap all this time!! Arg!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on August 18, 2014, 09:48:43 PM
Yesterday I was out on a run to get ingredients to cook a feast for the fam. I didn't want to drive all over town since I was on a time crunch. Decided to stop by Walmart. Grabbed some cream cheese to make a dip later only to find out once I got home that it was almost 2 freaken months overdue!! I went back to Walmart and asked for an exchange plus to recommend they take off the rest of them still on the shelf. The dude totally ignored me. He just took the expired package from me and called the next customer in line! Freaken Walmart. Ghetto shoppers. Rude workers. Expired food. Dirty. This is why I am Team Target all the way! 

....

Please keep her safe.  :)

....

Heard my mom crying to my grandma yesterday on the phone. She said she dreamt about grandpa and his face was so clear. She told grandma she missed grandpa so much. I guess whatever our age is and wherever we go, our parents are two people our hearts will always miss.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on August 19, 2014, 10:03:20 PM
It's so weird. I've been operating on two hours of sleep this whole day and I'm surprised I didn't end up taking an afternoon nap or going to bed early to catch up on my hours. Hum.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on August 21, 2014, 12:34:27 PM
Feeling sleepless? Ive been having those moments too. Hopefully, it doesn't catch up.

Actually I'm always craving for more sleep.  ;D

Why are you sleepless? Perhaps a S.O.S on your mind?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on August 21, 2014, 12:54:21 PM
I was having a later than usual dinner last night when my phone vibrated on the table and gave me a quick scare. I picked it up and blinked a few times just to check that I wasn't seeing things. That picture popped up and his name ran across. I hesitated to pick up while it kept ringing. After gulping my food down, I answered it and it was silent. Nothing.

Less than a minute after that, a text came through from a friend saying they'll call me back later. I thought to myself..."this phone is playing with me! Had me hoping for a second there." So I went on to do what I had to do for the rest of the night.

It was morning when I was awaken by the thunderstorm outside. I reached out to check my phone to see what time it was and there that name was again. Missed call at 4:58am. :(

Ua cas yus twb tsis xav nco txog yav tag los lawm os ua cas lub siab tsis mloog lus li? I really hope my phone is just lying to me. Was doing so good!

....

On a good note.....I got state fair tix for the ladies and I this year!!! We're making mom go with us since she's never gone once since coming to America. She spent most of her life caring for us that I think she forgot to have fun....Can't wait to attend!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on August 23, 2014, 11:35:05 PM
http://youtu.be/FaFrWPdl0Js (http://youtu.be/FaFrWPdl0Js)

I had another dream about you last night. I dreamt that mom and us...we all bought a big beautiful house and we were in the middle of moving in. I saw you there cleansing the house and getting rid of any bad spirits that might still be there.

Txiv as...kuv nco koj hmo no. Ua cas xav xav txog es tu tu siab tias tsis muaj txiv nrog luag hu lawm. :'( Mus pom tej tub ntxhais tsis paub hlub lawv niam thiab txiv mas xav ntsa ncauj hais rau tias kom kov tsij hlub thaum tseem muaj tsam plam ib tug lawm ces kua muag yuav nrog tsis tag. Please remember to eat. Peb hlub koj.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on September 02, 2014, 12:39:43 AM
Just because you have eyes doesn't mean you can see.....

Hnub no yog ib xyoo lawm. *sighs*
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on September 08, 2014, 12:59:01 PM
Was wide awake this morning at 4:00 am-ish. Damn these cramps!! Got into thinking about life and death. It's scary to know that we all are breathing....e ating....talki ng today but someday all of us will have to leave this world. Will we know where to go? Will we be alone again? Will there be others whom are just as lost? Will we still remember anything about our lives before we passed? Will we have the ability to travel back and forth between the living and the deceased's worlds? Although I know it's a part of life....I'm kinda fearful of it.  :-[

I must make more effort to enjoy my life and continue to love those who are dear to me since time cannot be frozen.
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on September 14, 2014, 10:36:21 AM
While I was in the middle of a dream, my mom woke me up at 5 something this morning in a panic. "____! _____! I don't see your car in the driveway. Wake up and check." It took me a few seconds to panic and then I told her with my eyes still closed that I had parked it in the back alley. She proceeded to tell me it wasn't there either. My heart fastened as my eyes shot wide open. Then I thought about it and realized one of my little sister had picked me up yesterday to spend the night at mom's. Mom hugged me and goes..."Oh, niam sorry os. Nag hmo zoo li kuv twb pom koj lub luv fai cauj nrauv sav. Kuv tsis pom tagkis no lawm es kuv xav tias tub sab nyiag lawm no."

Morning fright! ;D

.....

I always look forward to Halloween! It's one of my favorite holidays. Went cruising around and got some pretty awesome decor for my desk this year. Can't wait until Oct hits!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on September 23, 2014, 09:56:06 AM
Turtles. Such beautiful creatures.  :)

Dreaming of owning a farm...raise some chickens. ..cows...pigs. ...horses...go ats...and of course a puppy!

This song I'm listening to...it makes me think of you. How I still miss you when I'm lonely.

Being self-employed doesn't seem like such a bad idea? Hum.

What's a good place to go for more Halloween or fall theme decor??

I'm sitting here thinking about everything except work. LOL. Training this morning was so boring. Now I don't want to do anything productive. Maybe I'll just sit here like this until lunchtime rolls around and then dip for an hour to get fresh air or do some shopping. Such a slow day. Wish there was a cozy bed in my office.

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Post by: MSV on October 01, 2014, 11:31:44 PM
Noj ua luaj hmo no. Hiding under my blankets. Brrrr!
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Post by: MSV on October 04, 2014, 10:01:58 AM
October is finally here! Despite this chilly weather, I will make sure this is a good month for me! Gotta get in my corn maze, haunted house, visit to the farm, fall festival, bonfire, costume and of course bday fun!!!



Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on November 02, 2014, 12:24:45 PM
I held her tiny body in my arms. As my index finger lightly rubbed her cheeks to wake her up so I could see those big black eyes staring back at me, I realized I too wanted to experience motherhood. All the girls I grew up with and my good friends have all begun that next chapter in their lives but what about me? Why do I feel so lost in time? What am I waiting for? Or am I afraid of something?

How precious babies are. When I am in their presence, it's like all my worries are lifted away...
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Post by: MSV on November 12, 2014, 07:16:34 PM
I am scared..... :-[ What if it's not something I want to hear?
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Post by: MSV on November 16, 2014, 10:57:45 AM
Ntev tag npaum li no es ua cas tsis sib ntsib li? Did you know that a shaman told me yesterday that my soul has been wandering from me to search for you? Koj nyob rau qhov twg lawm es ua cas tsis pub kuv nrhiav tau koj? People keep asking me when I'll find that man of my likings and get married. I guess kuv tseem tos koj es thiajli tsis tau hais "yes" rau leej twg. I can't come search for you anymore. Wherever you are and whomever you are, tsis txhob ntsim ntsim kuv lawm es los hlub kuv os.....
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Post by: MSV on November 17, 2014, 08:08:03 PM
Waiting. Only four more days to go. I don't know why I didn't think of doing this sooner. As nervous as I am, I know it's only for the best.

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on December 01, 2014, 01:34:56 PM
My heart doesn't belong here anymore. I feel like a robot day in and day out. I'm drained and stressed everyday. What's the point of working hard? They lie and tell me things will get better but I know that's never going to happen. No wonder so many workers quit! This job is not even worth it's pay. For all the shit we have to put up with, all of us should be millionaires by the time we've invested one year into this place. Did they think giving us a slight raise would excite us? I don't even care anymore. F'en work!!!!
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Post by: MSV on December 13, 2014, 06:56:24 PM
Xmas shopping was so tiring. I spent 3 hrs at the mall today and was pooped. Long lines, crowded parking lots and tons of foot traffic. Not my kind of shopping. :( The worst part was.....I didn't find anything to buy. I guess I'll have to resort to online. Time is ticking. Oh no!

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 05, 2015, 06:48:58 PM
The last memory I have of you is when you said...."I hate you."  :-[

Be careful what is said to others. Sometimes those very words never go away.
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Post by: MSV on March 06, 2015, 02:14:03 PM
I was youtubing and landed on a cock fighting vid. Why do humans exploit and torture animals for the sole purpose of their own entertainment? Isn't it already cruel enough that we consume them? Gosh! I don't even know why I spent 3 minutes of my life watching that video. It broke my heart to see two animals try to murder each other....and there was blood and feathers everywhere! Poor chicken got stabbed right between its head. :'( How can owners justify that they gave their cock a good life from images like these? You basically raised your chicken to have it get killed and score a chance at pocketing a few bucks!!!

Thank goodness such a sport is illegal in the U.S.

I know some Hmong brothers are still engaged in this "sport". Oooooo! I swear, if I ever find out who participates, I'm going to free all their birdies. I'm no PETA activist, but I don't see anything right about cock fights.

Come to think of it, I remember there was news headlines about a man who died from cuts made to his legs after a cock attacked him at one of those cock fighting events. As tragic as that was.....karma does hit.
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Post by: MSV on March 15, 2015, 04:31:35 PM
Was cleaning my room and ran across my journals again today. 10+ yrs of my life recorded in these treasures! I flipped thru random entries and read them. I sat in my room laughing and crying all at the same time. Came across something I wrote that pretty much reflected my younger days....

"My tears have fallen so much that I forget what happiness feels like anymore."

I guess it took me going thru so much to make me who I am today. My heart has grown strong and I am a much happier person today.  :)
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on March 22, 2015, 10:55:12 AM
It's been almost a year.....yet more missed calls from him this morning.

I don't get why he keeps calling me. Nws xav tias ntshe kuv tsis hais ib lo lus phem rau nws ces txhais tau tias kuv tseem hlub nws lov? I admit I used to pick up his calls because my heart had that glimmer of hope. Tabsis kuv yeej paub lawm tias nws ib txwm tsis yog tus kuv pheej tos tos. Ib tug neeg zoo li nws yog yom neeg es twb hlig dhau lawm ces mam li pom kev sov siab kuv muab rau nws. Kuv yuav tsis qhib kuv lub siab rau nws los tsim ntxom dua. Sometimes goodbyes are better.....I only hope he will come to accept our fates as well.
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Post by: MSV on June 29, 2015, 11:01:33 PM
I have been gone so long. Updates...

I hopped back into my workout mode. Almost 2 months in and down 20 lbs. Hopefully I can keep this up and keep finding that motivation to push me more. Oh yeah!

Found out some really bad news this month. I will remain brave!

Got promoted and have been stress free for a good two months now. I think my blood pressure dropped because of the shift as well.  ;D Despite, I just realized I'll be reaching yet another year pretty soon here. Wow! Did I really decide to stay this long?

My eyes are at war with me. They want to sleep but I keep forcing them to stay open. Zzzzz!

To be continued..... .

Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on October 25, 2015, 08:07:05 PM
I didn't imagine that I'd be so much in love with such a small creature. My world is so much sunnier!!
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Post by: MSV on March 24, 2016, 12:31:37 PM
It's been so long since I last made an entry. :(

I used my love for music to motivate me to keep practicing my hmong writing. The language is slowly dying but I will do my part and try to preserve as much as I can.

...

Neej Khuam Siab hu los ntawm Lily Vaj

Ib txwm hauv kuv siab koj yog txhua tsav txhua yam
Koj lub ntsej muag suab luag kuv nco tau tas
Koj txoj kev kaj siab zoo siab yog kuv lub hoom phiaj
Koj ua txhaum pestsawg los kuv lub siab tsis ntxub koj

Koj cov lus cog lo lus qab zib koj puas tseem nco
Tias yog wb tsis ploj tsis tuag ces yeej tsis hloov siab
Lub ntiaj tej thig koj hloov nrog lub sijhawm
Wb lub neej sov siab thiaj dhau mus ua lub neej khuam siab

CHORUS
Koj tsis nco kev hlub txhua lub sijhaum sov siab
Tiamsis nco ntsoov tias leejtwg thiajli yog tus hlub koj
Txawm wb lub neej los nag los kuv tsis pub nws ntub koj
Kuv yuav ua lub kaus roos koj mus txog hnub kawg

Ib lo lus txawm koj tsis hais kuv yeej nkag siab
Tsis tas hais ib lo yeej paub koj muaj tus tshiab
Txawm koj yuav ntxub koj tsis xav hlub
Tsis xav ua zoo pub rau kuv
Nco ntsoov tias ib tug siab lwj dhi tseem nyob tos
Kuv tseem hlub koj

Kuv lub kua muag nrog los yeej tsis mob koj siab
Koj tso pluav kuv tes ncaim mus yeej tsis tig ntsia
Kuv xav paub koj puas xav hlub puas tseem xav ua zoo rau kuv
Thov ua thib zoo xav ua ntej koj yuav ncaim mus

Repeat chorus 2x
Kuv tseem hlub koj

...

Such a beautiful song!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 04, 2017, 11:49:51 PM
Hmo no nws no heev. Even a blanket can't keep me warm. :( I no longer enjoy these winters. Go away!!

Nws lub npe surfaced into my memory tonight. I happened to log into a very old email I used to use many many years ago. There they were....the emails we used to write each other. I wonder nws nyob li cas lawm xwb? We were two silly peeps back then.

Fingers are freezing....ar g!!!
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Post by: MSV on January 10, 2017, 08:29:20 PM
My goals for 2017...
1. Eat less meat.
2. Do a good deed or give/contribute to a cause each month.
3. Eliminate negativity.

Time comes and goes so fast. I barely get to enjoy it. Stop! Wait for me!
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 10, 2017, 10:14:50 PM
Obama has been an amazing president! Feeling emotional. 8 yrs. *sighs*

Will we ever find a president like him again this lifetime???
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Post by: MSV on January 17, 2017, 01:03:43 PM
I wake up hungry; I go to sleep hungry....

Last night I had a dream that a bunch of my close ladies and I went to Laos (or was it Thailand?) We had brought along these two huge beautifully put together tiered cakes. We went into a Hmong village and sliced up pieces to feed the villagers. The crowd got bigger as everyone gathered around us with their hungry stomachs and eager faces. I worked quickly to drop the slices on paper plates before having the other girls drizzle each with melted chocolate and sprinkled chopped bananas. As we got closer to the final pieces, I looked over and saw we still had about 100 folks waiting. My ladies and I felt so bad that we couldn't provide for them all so we started whipping up donuts! I tried to resist eating any in case those weren't enough for the remaining villagers too but....Failed. I stuffed a star shaped donut in my mouth with no guilt. Num-num-num. Before I could grab a second one....poof!

Ok, my cravings were definitely following me into my dreams!  >:(
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Post by: lilly on January 18, 2017, 02:05:56 PM
I wake up hungry; I go to sleep hungry....

Last night I had a dream that a bunch of my close ladies and I went to Laos (or was it Thailand?) We had brought along these two huge beautifully put together tiered cakes. We went into a Hmong village and sliced up pieces to feed the villagers. The crowd got bigger as everyone gathered around us with their hungry stomachs and eager faces. I worked quickly to drop the slices on paper plates before having the other girls drizzle each with melted chocolate and sprinkled chopped bananas. As we got closer to the final pieces, I looked over and saw we still had about 100 folks waiting. My ladies and I felt so bad that we couldn't provide for them all so we started whipping up donuts! I tried to resist eating any in case those weren't enough for the remaining villagers too but....Failed. I stuffed a star shaped donut in my mouth with no guilt. Num-num-num. Before I could grab a second one....poof!

Ok, my cravings were definitely following me into my dreams!  >:(

Nice dream!  It shows the kind of person that you are!  Even in dreams, you have a big heart, you are loving and caring, you are a humanitarian!   :)
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Post by: lilly on January 18, 2017, 02:16:10 PM
Hmo no nws no heev. Even a blanket can't keep me warm. :( I no longer enjoy these winters. Go away!!

Nws lub npe surfaced into my memory tonight. I happened to log into a very old email I used to use many many years ago. There they were....the emails we used to write each other. I wonder nws nyob li cas lawm xwb? We were two silly peeps back then.

Fingers are freezing....ar g!!!

I have a "nws" that I sometimes think about too.  I miss him as he was back then many, many years ago.  Haven't seen him in over 20 years.  I hope he is doing well and I hope his life is happy and wonderful.  He deserves it.  Wish him nothing but the best.  (He had a great heart.  At the time, I had never been loved like that before, it was almost scary, almost impossible to think about.  Him, loving someone like me?  Nevertheless, I felt his love for me was true and I appreciated him so much--his love and his genuine concern for my well being.)

There are times in our lives when certain people will leave such a big mark that we will never forget them.  We will remember them always.  I will remember him and how he loved me, always.
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Post by: lilly on January 18, 2017, 02:26:30 PM
😢😢😢

What's that emoji?
Title: Re: Vim kuv tsis paub.
Post by: MSV on January 21, 2017, 09:48:17 AM
Nice dream!  It shows the kind of person that you are!  Even in dreams, you have a big heart, you are loving and caring, you are a humanitarian!   :)

Hehe. Thank you for your kind words.

I have a "nws" that I sometimes think about too.  I miss him as he was back then many, many years ago.  Haven't seen him in over 20 years.  I hope he is doing well and I hope his life is happy and wonderful.  He deserves it.  Wish him nothing but the best.  (He had a great heart.  At the time, I had never been loved like that before, it was almost scary, almost impossible to think about.  Him, loving someone like me?  Nevertheless, I felt his love for me was true and I appreciated him so much--his love and his genuine concern for my well being.)

There are times in our lives when certain people will leave such a big mark that we will never forget them.  We will remember them always.  I will remember him and how he loved me, always.

:) We can only wish them a happy prosperous life....even if it wasn't with us.

Yes, I have a nws mas. I lost contact with him many years ago. I could try sending him a message via email but I'd rather not open up anything. I like the cute memories I hold of him so I'll keep it as is and just ponder about nws from time-to-time.

Do you ever wonder if you are a "nws" to someone too?
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Post by: MSV on January 23, 2017, 06:55:20 PM
Getting hangry cause my brown rice is taking too long to cook. I've made dinner, went to shower and even snuck in a cookie while I waited. Still not ready!  >:(
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Post by: MSV on February 09, 2017, 05:45:15 PM
Txawm yuav mus nrhiav thoob qab ntuj los yuav tsis pom qhov twg lawm os. Cog dua lub tshiab seb puas yuav rov tau ntsib los yeej tsis zoo li qub. Ua ib siab...
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Post by: MSV on March 17, 2017, 02:22:18 PM
Today I went in to get a lady procedure done before meeting with my dr later this month. During the procedure, the dr seeing me says, "I'm just going to get a listen of your ovaries." And before I knew it, I heard this thump-thump-thump-thump sound. I laid there thinking about how it sounded so much like a baby's heartbeat. And then I started to wish that it me coming in for my first ultrasound instead of this.

Suddenly having baby fever. I want to be a mommy now. Need to find a husband!!!!