Summer in California has been a lot cooler compared to the previous past years. Since it's mid June, the temperature has cool down a bit compared to the past week when we were hitting the triple digits. Seriously, it was crazy hot especially if you drive in an all black car. I feel as though my AC wasn't blowing any cool air. Like seriously even though I blasted the thing.
Last week, it was indeed very hot. Imagine being outdoor at a funeral and in this hot Cali weather? You get what I'm saying? I got burnt but for a good purpose and more vitamin D's for my body.
I'm glad, the temperature dropped down during the weekends along with some nice cool breeze blowing into the valley. Since it's summer, I can't complain because it will get hotter as the days goes by.
This morning as I was woke up (still waiting for my alarm to sound), the sun was shinning brightly through my window even though it was 5:30 am. Thank god I do not live near any Asians who raised roosters or else, that damn sucker will be crowing in the morning before my alarm goes off.
I remembered driving home around 5 am a few months ago before the time changes and it was still very dark outside. It's crazy how the season changes and the 5 am a few months ago was still dark and the 5 am this morning was very sunny.
It has been a long time since I wrote anything on here. To be honest, I haven't been feeling like myself lately. I stopped doing a lot of things that I used to do and now all I do is, go to work and come home. My life is just that boring.
Well, a person just can't stop doing the things they enjoyed for a reason right? Most defiantly. I mean, there must be something that triggered or is wrong with the person for them to stopped doing the things they used to do. Well, today I would like to share my story with you. Its because I fell into depression. Depression is real. I, in my million lifetime never would have imagined that it will hit me this hard. Like seriously, I'd always been a joyful and cheerful person, someone who doesn't hold grudges and just full of life. A woman who is strong minded and knows what she wants/can make herself happy. However, I believe a person can only take so much on her plate and in the end, I broke down. I was so broken, I felt as though my two wings had been cut off and I couldn't fly or run no matter how hard I tried. I went downhill.
Today, I am slowly getting back on my two feet and since I'm getting treatment, hopefully, I'll become the MK I once was in here. Finger crossed.
When I was prescribed antidepressant
s, it helped me right away. Crazy as it sound, these med really helps. I feel as though, I had the energy to do more things and on top of that, I feel sharper and my mind is clear. When I hear stories from people, many said that the medications doesn't work for them and so forth. However, I'm the exact opposite and I do not know what to make out of it. My family doesn't believe in depression. What many think of it, most think that that person or I was just plain lazy. Well since I'm running out of time, I am going to end it here tonight. I asked to up my dosage and right now I am currently taking Wellbutrin. Well, until next time. Bye!
