Ramblings

[TuesdaysGirl]

Hmmm....I wonder if virginity's overrated or underrated these days....

[TuesdaysGirl]

Hey there stranger
Do you remember?
You were a part of my life
Early December
Think I remember?
Sentiment cuts like a knife
The seasons are changing
Life's rearranging
Full of could've dones
Would've beens
It's all your fault
And where have you been
And how time goes
And now I dont even know
How to fill in the spaces
of the love you erased in my life

Are you where you want to be?
Did you get there easily?
Did they make you sacrifice?
Did you make a sharp left
When you should've turned right?
Are you where you want to be?
Did you sell off all of your gold
Did you trade it in?
Did you wait for love
Or settle for somebody to hold?

And barely symphonic
But strangely ironic
Moments contained in one glance
Oh how I adored you
But now I'm ignored by you
No evidence of romance
And now it's vaguely familiar
I think I remember sharing every single intimacy
It doesn't seem so strange to me that we barely entertained
Even the politest of phrases
But sometimes at night
I conjure you up in my mind

Are you where you want to be?
Did you get there easily?
Did they make you sacrifice?
Did you make a sharp left
When you should've turned right?
Are you where you want to be?
Did you sell off all of your gold
Did you trade it in?
Did you wait for love
Or settle for somebody to hold?

While I was busy
Perfecting the art
Of deflecting compliments
I took it too far
And I let a ripple run right through my heart
Of battle stations we're building
You and I just grew apart
We grow apart

While I decided
To make everyone else happy
I just put aside
My foolish pride
I guess I denied
My own desire
I was too busy pleasing
To ever be pleased
I forgot how to breathe
Or question anything
Or ask why?
Am I?

Am I where I want to be?
Did I get here easily?
Did I make a sacrifice?
Did I take a sharp left
When I should've turned right?
Am I where I want to be?
Can I sell of all of my gold?
Can I trade it in?
Will I wait for Love
Or settle for somebody to hold

I'd settle for somebody to hold me now

You know that I've been up and I've been down
I've been picked up and spun around
I'd do it all again
If I could just have somebody to hold me now
I just need somebody to hold me now
Could somebody hold me now?
I just want somebody to hold me now
I'd do it all again 


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Sentimental B.S: My heart's bleeding...... .

[TuesdaysGirl]

"Something's wrong with you."
She stared at the person. "I'm fine."
"No." The person's head shook in added emphasis. "Something's wrong. What is it?"
"Nothing." But her eyes lowered and her face flushed.

[TuesdaysGirl]

LOL! 

DAM*N! The world sure is small. LOL! Six degrees of separation. Hehehehe
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Dear Mrs. Shaman,
Guys are D..KS! I...TS! J..KS! S........S!

[TuesdaysGirl]

My day:
Woke up.
Got ready.
Rushed to work.
Was late anyways.
Tried to stay awake at work.
Starved.
Went on break.
Ate lunch: Corn pops.
Tried to stay awake again.
Went on break again.
Tried to stay awake for the third time.
Came home.
Ate a mango.
Scribbled.
Got bored.
Came on PH.
Will leave soon.

[TuesdaysGirl]

I'm sad.

   

[TuesdaysGirl]

I'M HAPPY AGAIN! 

To Monday: Welcome! See you soon.

Oh my, I can't believe I'm looking forward to the New Years this year. Most of all, I can't believe I'm dressing up. I actually spent $300 this morning having Hmong clothes made.  I better look REALLY good. 

P.S - I've been making a lot of progress on my w._.i_._._.g.. ...it's a good thing.

P.S.S - To whoever keeps smiting me ---- 

P.S.S.S - I hope I have a great week.

P.S.S.S.S - I'm loving the weather. Ahhhh....the colors! The sweaters! The breeze!

P.S.S.S.S.S - To whomever is reading this: I hope you're having a great day or night! Smile! 

[TuesdaysGirl]

"Your cheeks look a little fuller and your skin's not as pale."
"I look happy?"
"No. Healthy."
She smiled. "I feel it."

[TuesdaysGirl]

I think I'm coming down with something..... it's so cold and I'm shaking.

[TuesdaysGirl]

I'm worried. Things are piling up and I feel cornered. Unshed tears wait to fall.

Life's all about changes.....ho w much have I changed?

"Let go," he said.
She shook her head. "I can't. Don't you think I want to? Because I do. So much it pains me. I want to close my eyes and forget every single worry. I want to close my eyes and feel free. But I can't. I won't. My world would crumble and I'll fall."
"I'll catch you."
She gave him a skeptical smile. It was a lie, she told herself. He wouldn't. It was better to hold on to what she had. Wishful thinking was for the naive. She wasn't naive. Not completely.

[TuesdaysGirl]

Family = my world
Nothing would ever change that.

[TuesdaysGirl]

I'm exhausted! I could fall into my bed, hug my pillow, and fall asleep.

[TuesdaysGirl]

in other words
he'll catch your panties
as they fall to the ground   

Speaking from experience?

[TuesdaysGirl]

It's raining....the first shower of the season. I hate it! Everything's gloomy and dark. The pond outside my window resembles a dark hole waiting to swallow you whole.

I want the sun! I want blue skies! I want to feel happy! Instead, I feel soooooo blah!

Rain, rain, please, please, please, please x 1,000,000 GO AWAY!

I have no plans, just as I have no social life, so more than likely I'll read today. The new one my J. Quinn sounds promising, though,  I HATED her last one. Hate's too strong a word, it just wasn't up to par with her usual standards. The last few books by her have been following this pattern.

I hope it doesn't turn out to be like H.W.W by S. James. That book, I HATED. I was so mad after finishing it I wanted to toss the book against the wall, rip out the pages one by one, and set it on fire. I pictured myself laughing evilly as the pages go up in flames before withering into tiny specks.

I didn't. Mainly, because I could never get a lighter or matches to work. Plus, I didn't want to appear nuts.

+1 for terrible book
0 for me

Just like my fight with the evil refrigerator at work. No matter how much I pulled yesterday, it wouldn't open. I almost fell on my backside trying to open it. The door was suctioned tight. I finally gave up and allowed my amused co-worker to try. She had no problem.

+1 for evil refrigerator
0 for me!

[TuesdaysGirl]

Two journal entries in one day....gosh, today has been a long day.

Well, I'm almost done w/ J.Q's latest. Let's just say:
+2 for terrible books
0 for me

Need I say more?

On another note, my mom just gave me some happy news. Though, I can't imagine being 15 and having a baby. At 15 my greatest worry was missing my favorite Saturday morning cartoons. It crushed me every time I missed Recess. Kids today are maturing waaaaaaaaayyyy too fast.