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Title: On my exciting and amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on September 22, 2011, 07:04:13 AM
I remembered my biology teacher saying if you put a frog in hot, it will immediately jump out.  However, if you put it in cold water and slowly boil it, it will stay there, get boiled to death and die.

I need to wake up and take my life in the direction that I truly want to go




I am pretty discipline, but I will be absolute discipline to my principles.

Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony - Ghandi (I realize that my thoughts and actions are in harmony, but they are not in harmony with what I say.  It is what I say that is what I want to do, and I need to bring my thoughts and my actions to be in harmony with what I say.

I do not put poison in my mind or my thoughts.

I do not consume alcohol except when it's a vital must (funeral and weddings)

I have stopped and do not take nicotine, and I will never do it again

I will only pursue my work 8 hours a day, and nothing more.

I will apply principles at all times, and accept whatever I get.

I am joyful, confidence, and contentment, and thankful for moment of my life

I am a vegetarian, except for the rare moments when its a gift (not at funerals and weddings).

I will find time to volunteer

I will give my best to everyone I meet and empower others including myself

I will take the time to laugh, learn, and grow every day.

I remember to apply my principles at all times, they are my joy.

My greatest goal is to conquer myself.

To my future myself, please come into my life now, starting today......... :)

Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 06, 2011, 07:02:45 PM
I back test my results in my work and my self every day, and only principles work.  They are objective while whims subject to emotions will lead to failure.

To my future self:  Please adopt strong principles and never break them for any reason or anyone, including those trying to get under your skin. :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 07, 2011, 03:30:01 PM
No matter what is happening.  If I apply my principles.  My results will always work out. 

That is the lesson that I learned this week.

My Principles always work. 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 11, 2011, 06:40:28 AM
To the person that I want to be

Come into me today.....and Stay forever....
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 20, 2011, 09:24:45 AM
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http://finviz.com/screener.ashx?v=111&f=cap_midover,sh_avgvol_o1000,sh_price_o20,ta_beta_o1&ft=3 (http://finviz.com/screener.ashx?v=111&f=cap_midover,sh_avgvol_o1000,sh_price_o20,ta_beta_o1&ft=3)

http://finviz.com/screener.ashx?v=111&f=cap_midover,sh_avgvol_o1000,sh_price_o20,ta_beta_o0.5&ft=3&r=21 (http://finviz.com/screener.ashx?v=111&f=cap_midover,sh_avgvol_o1000,sh_price_o20,ta_beta_o0.5&ft=3&r=21)
1. Beta > .5
2. Over 1 million shares
3. Over 2 Billion Market Cap
4. Over $20 price


Best stock screener

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http://www.youtube-to-mp3.audio/ (http://www.youtube-to-mp3.audio/)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 21, 2011, 09:28:37 PM
I am going to make $1,000,000,000 and more trading the stock market.  It is only a matter of time

I will do it because I have a great entry

I will do it because I have a great trading plan, with all the discipline and contingency built in

I will do it because a billion is just number, there is nothing large about it

I will do it because I want to do it

I will do it because I have learned and became stronger

I will do it because I must

I will do it so that I can move on to and it will help me with my other path and passion, which is volunteering and helping others.

I will make a billion dollars and more in this life through trading the markets.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 22, 2011, 09:28:40 PM
Thank you to me for taking the time to think and reflect on and making the right choice by walking away from something which I would regret.

Thank you for coming up with the strength to do what is right.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 23, 2011, 08:24:09 PM
wow so enlightening! i hope u achieve what you want. :)

Thank you sis for your encouraging words. :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 23, 2011, 08:34:31 PM
To Paul L:

Out of all of us you were so good, the very best.  I know why you started to fail lately, lack of a definite plan and absolute discipline to it.

I will try to learn from you my friend, and succeed for us all.  I hope you are doing great in your current endeavor.



To Frank L:

You are very good as well.  I think that the market was changing and so were we and our expectations.  However we fail to realize how difficult the coming changes were and kept doing what we did before.  When it didn't work, we kept blaming the market and kept on doing it, because we had personal cushions.  We should have made much bigger changes and create better plans for success, that was we failed.  Lets learn our past and create a much more successful future.  Yes, we need much better and more detailed methodology.


To Richard D:

You were very successful.  You gave your methodology to the kids, who gave it to the world, because of your pride.  When such a method is revealed to the world, it will work less than it did and then it will stop working because everyone will start to use it.


To Me:

I know a reason for my failure is the same as Paul and Frank.  Another reason for my failure is my wanting to smooth the curve of my trading system.

My lessons to me.

1.  Since I have a complete system already, absolute discipline to my trading plan on every single trade of every single day.
2.  From Richard D, never reveal my system
3.  I have a system that was developed through pain of trial and error, and I will trade and apply it on every single trade of every single day.  I will never second guess my system.  That will only lead to failure.  Thank you for the wonderful system that I have.

Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 27, 2011, 07:10:37 AM
Thank you for being my coach.

Your words made me realize that before I can perform flawlessly, I have to envision it and then practice it flawlessly first.

Therefore I will proceed to persistent practice, practicing flawlessly of my vision.


Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 27, 2011, 07:13:23 AM
Communication:

I will always remember to listen 4-1

I will communicate from my heart with every intention fixing, healing, or empowering the relationship

I will never communicate for vengeance or belittling or destruction, it doesn't matter who the other person is......
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: SV1985 on October 27, 2011, 07:15:58 AM
One thing bro is stop using hypithecal phrase. (and or terms)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 28, 2011, 06:29:22 AM
One thing bro is stop using hypithecal phrase. (and or terms)

Thank you very much for the suggestion.  I will consider it. :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 03, 2011, 07:57:24 AM
Re: To Me

I excel in the past because I took risk, calculated risk when I trade Bert and Nicolai's list.

I excel later on when on my own when I took on a role model, my friend Paul.

I won because I focused on principles and cut my losses quickly

I started to fail when I embraced the success and forgot the reasons why I succeeded in the first place.

I forget to enjoy and cherish each moment...as if I wanted it to last forever.....
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 04, 2011, 03:38:21 PM
Thank you Musashi for teaching us that, That negative emotions like rage, anger, impatience.... can kill or defeat us.

We must watch our thoughts at all times, and always chose calm, joy, and happiness.

Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 07, 2011, 09:39:25 AM
http://www.timeanddate.com/calendar/
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 08, 2011, 08:44:24 AM

Emotions are the investor's worst enemy. Did you ever sell into
a panic, buy at the top, wony about being caught in a bear market,
or fear missing the next big bull run? Rational Analysis can help
you avoid those traps by giving you a reasonable basis to make
fully informed decisions. Then, instead of being a member of the
crowd, swayed by greed and fear and making the same mistakes
time and again, you can hold your head up high as an
independent investor acting in your own best interest.

 -  John Bollinger    'Bollinger on Bollinger Band'
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 10, 2011, 06:42:24 AM
Emotions are the key everything, because it is what drives us (as well as everyone else).

It is the key to winning and success

Make sure you drive your emotions with your thoughts rather than allow your emotions to drive you and your thoughts.


Emotional Intelligence


Silence is golden..... :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 17, 2011, 01:18:24 PM
With a high VIX, I have to be more conservative in my limit orders.

With a low VIX, I can be a little more aggressive in my limit orders.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 18, 2011, 05:54:49 AM
The dual strategy of options and equity can work side by side to maximize capital allocation.

Options stock needs volume > 5,000,000 shares per day.

Equity can do with less volume > 750,000 per day.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 18, 2011, 08:36:43 AM
With my current strategy, my options has to go out 1 1/2 months or more

If I cannot find a trade that has that criteria, I will pass up the trade. 

There's no reason to put on a trade that has such a large Theta going against me.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 18, 2011, 10:48:00 PM
Apply Delta and Gamma into order.

Go deeper in the money, less risky.

All about decreasing risk, because containing losses is 90% of battle.

Daily patterns may be a little reliable than intra-day, but its still very good.

Keep VIX in mind, and all the other rules.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 19, 2011, 08:11:23 AM
We are not only conductors of information, but we are also conductors of energy as well.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 19, 2011, 08:12:28 AM
Behind every success story, there is a plan, calm, cool, and absolute discipline and persistence to the plan.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 21, 2011, 08:19:41 AM
http://www.prismagems.com/castaneda/donjuan1.html

The Teachings of Don Juan.

The four natural enemies are:
1. Fear
2. Clarity
3. Power
4. Old age.....
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 21, 2011, 10:12:57 PM
Thank you Rafe, for your teachings of love and trust, level VI thinking, problem solving thinking, and everything else.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 22, 2011, 08:20:55 AM
Make the growth choice a dozen times a day.  - Maslow
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 22, 2011, 06:16:59 PM
"Someday" is a code word for "Never"
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 27, 2011, 07:27:06 PM
Desiring, or being attached to, results is dangerous.  It can lead to disastrous results.

The only way is through sound trading plan, and absolute discipline to to your plan.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 27, 2011, 07:28:07 PM
What the great traders found is a methodology that fits "your personality" - Jack Schwager
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 27, 2011, 07:35:01 PM
"Even a poor system will make money with good money management system."

"It's one of the stupidest things ever said" - Jack Schwager

Because there's no edge.  You need an edge.....to win.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 27, 2011, 08:19:03 PM
Zen in Trading :

"Just like in archery, whenever there is effort, force, struggling, straining, or trying it's wrong."



"Every trader follows their own light."  Story of Jack Schwager and friend
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 27, 2011, 08:29:26 PM
The Zen of Trading
Author: Greg Hodges
http://www.daytradinginsider.com

Being a day trader isn`t for everyone. Opening a scottrade account does not automatically qualify you as a trader. As a matter of fact, you have to be a little “special” to make your living in this manner. You`ve got to be cool, calculating, and always ahead of the most slippery of animals-the markets you trade in. But more than that, you need to know yourself.

You may think you know yourself, but being a day trader will teach you who you really are. And this fact is one of the most important and long-lasting effects of being- day-in and day-out, riding the wave of uncertainty. If you have any self-doubt, a propensity to be negativite or an inflexible ego…your goose will certainly get cooked before you can say “this must be rigged”. But if you have the ability to recognize your weaknesses honestly and take them head-on, the benefits can be much more than just financial.

But, alas, its only human to have moments of weakness and it becomes necessary for a successful day trader to develop a system not only for trading, but also for keeping the spirit tuned up and ready to rock and roll. This is a neglected yet most essential part of trading. The following is one method used by the author to mold a rather tentative and crude “trading head” to a survivor of fifteen years of making a living on delta (change).

Pillow Talk
Clearing ones mind of extraneous thought has been a key tenant of day trading years. In today’s world of “information overload”, we are constantly bombarded and overwhelmed by media of various sorts. A trader must not let their mind get cluttered by the constant distractions. More importantly, a trader must keep a positive and optimistic attitude. How does one do that?


There are numerous books on self improvement and spirituality that offer many methods and philosophies. As for the author, I found a very practical and effective system as expounded in The Handbook of Higher Consciousness by Ram Dass. In his wonderful book, Dass makes the connection between emotion and programming the brain. We learn by a powerful combination of emotion coincidental with a learning experience. An example is when you are frightened or angry; we are at our most vulnerable to program-in behavior because of the chemicals and hormones amplifying behavior. That’s why we sometimes act very irrationally because we were programmed when we were children and we keep responding to that infantile conditioned response. Dass recommends a very easy way to reprogram ourselves. We need to stimulate emotion at the same time we program instructions to our brain. He suggests that we cover out head with a pillow and scream into the pillow “no negative thinking” over and over again. The more emotion, the better. My friends, it works for me. When ever I get negative, it’s to the “screaming pillow” I go. Maybe it will work for you.

Because of my need to keep positive in my trading (keep in mind that a trader may have almost as many losing trades as winners), I learned a valuable technique that helps me keep positive in all situations-all the time. Without my pillow, I would have probably been like most normal traders when going through a losing streak…. “lose my cool”. When you lose your cool, fear and doubt can push you to abandon your system and with it- your capital.

You may not need a pillow, but you should find a way to keep centered and positive. There`s a lot of literature on the psychology of trading and investing. Believe me, under- standing your-self and how to “be above the fray” is as important as a good trading system. Moreover, your self-awareness will help you immensely in all aspects of your life.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 28, 2011, 06:26:17 AM
Three things you need for success.

1.  Heart
2.  At any moment, Sacrifice what you are for you will become
3.  Pain is temporary, but the pain of quitting lasts forever

Eric Thomas
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 28, 2011, 07:15:14 AM
Use a higher Standard Deviation when the VIX > 30

Instead of using 2.1, consider using 2.5 or higher

Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 28, 2011, 07:17:41 AM
I missed a trade in BHP, because I cancelled the order.   

The trade would not have been filled on that day, triggering a 2 trade violation.  It would have been filled the next day.  I didn't want to repeat JPM again.  JPM was faulty on many levels.

However, BHP was a better entry.

But that's okay, I will have many opportunities to trade.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 28, 2011, 08:32:34 AM
Trigger needs to be close to BB......
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 28, 2011, 09:17:02 AM
I cannot curve fit my trading plan to match what works.  For example, I cannot move my Bollinger Band MA to 24 or 28, because it will miss out on some very good move in trending markets.

The BB MA28 does work much better in volatile markets, but then it will not work at all in trending markets, because it will miss most of the signals.

What will work is paying attention to the VIX.  With a high VIX, make sure my signals are better.  I think I failed myself with my MAN and JPM entry.  As a result, I got a little nervous.  The MAN entry would have been okay under normal market circumstances, but considering the high VIX, it was better to go with the Three Bar Rule.

My new recent adjustments does accommodate a high VIX, without curve fitting the bollinger band.  I do not want to curve the bollinger band, because I will miss out on the strength and heart of my strategy, the P2s.

Focus on VIX and better candle signals.....
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 28, 2011, 11:04:40 AM
Re:  Trading Confidence

If you're not sure you're gonna win, then you're not there yet.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 28, 2011, 06:03:11 PM
Using the Cheetah analogy:

I chased the strong (JPM, CCL, and MAN) gazelle, too early, and when the lame baby (BHP & Mur) gazelle came along, I ran out of strength to go after it.

That is my lesson that I will take with me.  I will consider the VIX in all my entries.  Therefore depending on the VIX, I will apply strong candle signals or not.

Thank you for these powerful lessons.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 28, 2011, 06:52:24 PM
It takes a strong candle pattern or trigger to enter in a uncertain market.   

The more uncertainty, the stronger the candle trigger needed. 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 28, 2011, 07:58:16 PM
Thank you Alex for the education in Calm, Cool, and absolute discipline
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 28, 2011, 10:49:31 PM
"I don't care how smart you are.  Nothing takes the place of hard work." - Freeman Hrabowski

Thank you for reaffirming that "Emotionally intelligence" is the key to success.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 29, 2011, 02:16:38 PM
How silly of me to gloat about my preparations for each day, when I am barely starting out.

There was only one major reason to do such silly things, to make my self look better.

But people see through that kind of disguise.  Therefore, just do it and keep it to myself until they ask. :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 30, 2011, 09:08:21 AM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sw4b4T_XYKY


“If you want a thing bad enough to go out and fight for it,
to work day and night for it,
to give up your time, your peace and your sleep for it…

if all that you dream and scheme is about it,
and life seems useless and worthless without it…

if you gladly sweat for it and fret for it and plan for it
and lose all your terror of the opposition for it…

if you simply go after that thing you want
with all of your capacity, strength and sagacity,
faith, hope and confidence and stern pertinacity…

if neither cold, poverty, famine, nor gout,
sickness nor pain, of body and brain,
can keep you away from the thing that you want…

if dogged and grim you beseech and beset it,
with the help of God, you will get it!”
---Les Brown
______________ __
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 30, 2011, 09:13:07 AM
I am not 3 times the man I was yet.  I have simply known why I failed.  I have failed because I am responsible for it and no one else. 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 30, 2011, 10:15:09 AM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ae-VJ_lauCw
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 30, 2011, 12:35:51 PM
There's no more but in my life.  


What is the one thing that I am best at and love doing?  The market.....

What is the one thing that I want to learn from other people.... The market.....

What is the one thing that I want to be the best in the World at.....The market......
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 30, 2011, 12:58:04 PM
"In life, you will always be faced with a series of God-ordained opportunities brilliantly disguised as problems and challenges." – Charles Udall.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 30, 2011, 08:31:04 PM
Again, my eagerness in JPM or MAN has cost me some trades on the back end when the good patterns really hit. 

What did I learn?    Be patient like the cheetah?
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 01, 2011, 09:25:16 PM
Re:  Broken Rules

BID:  Thank you for the move, I had 93% of the move already.....

CCL:  The traded started wrong.....too many contracts, and too close to expiration.  I was already nearly 80% of my time duration.  Covering this trade is sort of undoing my ignorance.

Again, I cannot break my trading rules.  It is my only definition of success.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 01, 2011, 11:45:21 PM
Re:  Broken Rules

BID:  Thank you for the move, I had 93% of the move already.....

CCL:  The traded started wrong.....too many contracts, and too close to expiration.  I was already nearly 80% of my time duration.  Covering this trade is sort of undoing my ignorance.

Again, I cannot break my trading rules.  It is my only definition of success.

There's a saying, "Amateurs go broke taking large losses, professionals go broke taking small profits."

I have made enough of the amateur's mistake.  Let's not make the professional's now. :)))
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: ToxicCum on December 03, 2011, 09:26:36 AM
I remembered my biology teacher saying if you put a frog in hot, it will immediately jump out.  However, if you put it in cold water and slowly boil it, it will stay there, get boiled to death and die.


A psychiatrist would view this as a sign or symptoms of a possible future serial killer.....hen ce the torture-ish style of slow kill...  ;D  ;D

as many killers, tortured animals in their youths....(yes, thats a actual fact)...

disregard, as my post is irrelevant to the actual point of this thread.....
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 05, 2011, 07:15:18 PM
A psychiatrist would view this as a sign or symptoms of a possible future serial killer.....hen ce the torture-ish style of slow kill...  ;D  ;D

as many killers, tortured animals in their youths....(yes, thats a actual fact)...

disregard, as my post is irrelevant to the actual point of this thread.....


Thank you for stopping by.  Have a great day.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 05, 2011, 07:16:51 PM
I will be one of the best 2 weeks trader in the World.

How?????  By never allowing fear, desire, and greed to become a part of my decision making process, and be absolute discipline to my Principles at all time, on every single trade.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 06, 2011, 03:15:24 PM
Farewell my uncle.  Thank you for all you did and give to us all.  Have a wonderful journey back.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 06, 2011, 10:10:09 PM
Holy cow, I witnessed my own negative internal affirmations today, and I couldn't stop.  I witnessed my thoughts influencing my emotions, and then influencing my actions...
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 06, 2011, 10:11:51 PM
As my trading grows, one day, during a really good day, I will make 10 times, then 100 times, then 1,000 times, and then maybe 10,000 times what I made that one day.....becaus e that is part of the plan..
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 07, 2011, 10:55:51 AM
I noticed that within the last two weeks, despite my effort to be completely discipline to my trading rules, there were still influences of fear and greed.

With every passing day, I need stronger resolve to transcend fear and greed, or else it will completely fail.

Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 08, 2011, 06:10:45 PM
Thank you to Simon Yates, Joel Simpson, and Alex Honnold for your inspiration.

"There's no adrenaline rush.  If I feel a rush, then something has gone terribly wrong."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ICBrXUuwvgg
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 09, 2011, 09:06:04 AM
"If there's no enemy within, the enemy outside can do us no harm." - An African proverb
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 09, 2011, 11:21:12 AM
Thank you Zig Ziglar

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cRMogDrHnMQ&feature=related
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 10, 2011, 09:59:42 AM
There's wind that blows in from the north.
And it says that loving takes this course.
Come here. Come here.
No I'm not impossible to touch I have never wanted you so much.
Come here. Come here.
Have I never laid down by your side.
Baby, let's forget about this pride.
Come here. Come here.
Well I'm in no hurry. Don't have to run away this time.
I know you're timid.
But it's gonna be all right this time.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-DzWUlYqup8&feature=related
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 10, 2011, 10:20:50 AM
Milkshakes (Poem from Before Sunrise)
Written by Iris Watts Hirideyo

Before Sunrise

    Daydream delusion
    Limousine Eyelash
    Oh, baby with your pretty face
    Drop a tear in my wineglass
    Look at those big eyes
    See what you mean to me
    Sweet cakes and milkshakes
    I am a delusion angel
    I am a fantasy parade
    I want you to know what I think
    Don’t want you to guess anymore
    You have no idea where I came from
    We have no idea where we’re going
    Launched in life
    Like branches in the river
    Flowing downstream
    Caught in the current
    I’ll carry you. You’ll carry me
    That’s how it could be
    Don’t you know me?
    Don’t you know me by now?
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 11, 2011, 08:10:57 PM
Focus on the Entries.....The exit and the discipline of staying in the trade will be conditioned in.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 11, 2011, 09:15:39 PM
Do not tempt myself, because the bad habits strengthens very fast.  >:D
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 14, 2011, 09:42:54 AM
RENO, Nev. (AP) — A Montana man convicted of running an investment scam on the Internet was sentenced Tuesday to 25 years in federal prison and ordered to pay $13.2 million in restitution to more than 1,400 investors.

U.S. District Judge Larry Hicks in Reno told Rick Young, 52, of Lewistown, that the fraud carried out by his Nevada-based Global One Group from 2006 to 2007 was "incredibly repulsive."

Many of the victims, the judge said, were vulnerable, "middle-class working people taking money out of accounts, trading out of their 401(k) plans, their pension plans, even off of their credit cards."

"Frankly, it was nothing more than a type of Ponzi scheme, but it was incredibly sophisticated," he said.

Among other things, prosecutors said Young and his partner used the money for their own gain in 2006 and 2007 partly by falsely marketing the Global One as a licensed securities broker. A federal jury in March convicted Young of one count of conspiracy to commit mail and wire fraud, two counts of wire fraud, three counts of money laundering and one count of securities fraud.

Young appealed to the judge for "mercy and leniency" so that he might see his disabled 49-year-old wife again before one of them dies.

"This case is a big cluster. It's all messed up," said Young, who denied any criminal wrongdoing and said he was a victim of overzealous law enforcement and a former business partners who stole from him.

"I never thought in 1,000 years I'd be sitting here. It shows the glaring injustice of the justice system," he said. "Maybe I was a bad businessman. Maybe I made some mistakes. But never did I step out to do something criminal."

Hicks said that he had to give Young credit for one thing — his "smooth" sales techniques on his webcasts.

"It's the court's view the defendant obviously was impressed with his own skills in salesmanship that he could tell his story to the jury just as successfully," he said. He said Young may have begun with some good intentions but "got carried away" in a "snowball" of greed.

"By the time it was at the bottom of the hill, he was so deeply mired in the fraud of these people that this court finds it, frankly, incredibly repulsive," he said.

Young's co-defendant, William Willard, 68, of Bozeman, Mont., was sentenced later Tuesday to 15 months in prison. Prosecutors recommended that penalty based on his cooperation in the investigation and in the prosecution of Young. Willard pleaded guilty in February to conspiracy to commit wire fraud.

Assistant U.S. Attorney Steven Myhre acknowledged it was a harsh penalty to seek for white-collar crime but Young deserved 30 years in prison.

"Young molded and perfected a sophisticated and wide-ranging fraud perpetrated over a three-year period where he controlled all the money, manipulated information, drained the savings of victims, captivated and brainwashed others through repeated lies and false promises spewed over and over again through the Internet, defamed and denigrated those who dared challenge him and enriched himself in the process without a care for those who suffered enormous loss," Myhre wrote in a sentencing brief.

Hicks also rejected a defense request that Young be allowed to serve the sentences for various counts concurrently instead one after another, which have put his sentence somewhere between 17 and 20 years.

"I feel this case is so aggravated it calls for something more than a concurrent sentence," the judge said.

"This is such a massive fraud with so many victims who suffered such real loss and whose lives are still affected," said Hicks, who's been on the federal bench 10 years but said he couldn't recall a case where the criminal activity had adversely affected so many people so seriously.

Prosecutors said Young, Willard and others marketed Global One, which wasn't a licensed broker, as a company that provided educational opportunities on trading techniques on the foreign exchange market. Investors were charged $500 annual memberships for access to Global One's website, conference calls and Web-based seminars, and instructed to open accounts with foreign exchange brokers recommended by Global One.

In presentations, investors were told that Young made 8,000 successful trades in a year without suffering one loss, and that the company had a software program that could automatically execute trades.

Prosecutors said the claims were not true and there was no automatic trader, even though Young could be seen on webcasts telling investors it was "working its magic."

"Go Auto! Go Auto!" Young would say while three people manually executed the trades.

Prosecutors said they could not confirm it was a record, but that the 25-year sentence was one of the most significant ever for white-collar crime in that district of Nevada. The added length was due in part to Young portraying himself as a "man of God" and appealing to investors religious faith, they said.

Myhre said in a statement after the sentencing that the case shows consumers should be suspicious of so-called investment experts who offer above-average rates of return, as well as those who "appeal to your personal status, such as your religious beliefs, need for financial security and sense of belonging."
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 14, 2011, 02:24:32 PM
"The Profit Gap" - difference between theoretical results and actual results of executing a Trading Plan.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 14, 2011, 04:59:39 PM
Case Study BRCM at 34 (11/15/2011).  In a kinder low VIX market, it would have rallied.  In a higher VIX market, the stock trended down.

That is the influence the market has on stocks. 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 15, 2011, 05:38:15 PM
    In individuals, insanity is rare; but in groups, parties, nations, and epochs it is the rule.

                          -  Friedrich Nietzsche, Beyond Good and Evil
                             German philosopher (1844 - 1900)
   
This is why the market is so insane at times.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 15, 2011, 05:58:30 PM
Discipline is the "Key" element in trading - Adam Hueson

It is the most important thing.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 16, 2011, 02:00:24 PM
We finally meet, at last.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eN0GyX0mz6A&list=PLFE143E6552F2C80A&index=1&feature=plpp_video
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 16, 2011, 08:33:21 PM
"We can't change the wind, but we can adjust the sails." ...


Don't wish for a better wind, but wish for the wisdom to set a better sail - Jim Rohn
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 18, 2011, 12:50:51 PM
Take it to the edge, that's where interesting things happen.  - an Origamist


(self) Discipline - applying all that we know.  - Jim Rohn

Consistent Self discipline
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 18, 2011, 01:53:12 PM
Plan for every day, every week, months, and years. - Jim Rohn
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 18, 2011, 07:48:17 PM
Trading isn't about being right or wrong.  It's a probability game.  - Mark Douglas

Train your mind to be absolute discipline and belief in your system.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 19, 2011, 12:59:33 PM
When you give kindness, its not gone, its invested, and it will come back to you time and again. - Jim Rohn
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 20, 2011, 09:15:42 AM
Zengetsu, a Chinese master of the T'ang dynasty, wrote the following advice for his pupils:
No Attachment to Dust

Living in the world yet not forming attachments to the dust of the world is the way of a true Zen student.

When witnessing the good action of another encourage yourself to follow his example. Hearing of the mistaken action of another, advise yourself not to emulate it.

Even though alone in a dark room, be as if you were facing a noble guest. Express your feelings, but become no more expressive than your true nature.

Poverty is your treasure. Never exchange it for an easy life.

A person may appear a fool and yet not be one. He may only be guarding his wisdom carefully.

Virtues are the fruit of self-discipline and do not drop from heaven of themselves as does rain or snow.

Modesty is the foundation of all virtues. Let your neighbors discover you before you make yourself known to them.

A noble heart never forces itself forward. Its words are as rare gems, seldom displayed and of great value.

To a sincere student, every day is a fortunate day. Time passes but he never lags behind. Neither glory nor shame can move him.

Censure yourself, never another. Do not discuss right and wrong.

Some things, though right, were considered wrong for generations. Since the value of righteousness may be recognized after centuries, there is no need to crave an immediate appreciation.

Live with cause and leave results to the great law of the universe. Pass each day in peaceful contemplation.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 21, 2011, 02:17:24 PM
The New York Times has unmasked 80-year-old Cornell alum Charles F. Feeney as the anonymous donor who gave the school a $350 million donation to construct a new technology-based satellite campus on Roosevelt Island in New York City. Officials at The  Atlantic Philanthropies, the foundation started by Feeney in 1982, confirmed to the paper last night that he was the one who made the gift for the project, which is expected to generate an extra $1.4 billion in tax revenue for the city, plus 20,000 construction jobs and as many as 30,000 new jobs once the facility is up and running.
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Which leads to the inevitable question: who is this guy? To begin with, he's a very rich guy. He co-founded Duty Free Shoppers Group in the early 1960s, and sold his stake in the company to LVMH Moet Hennessy-Louis Vuitton for $2.47 billion in 1996. At the time, The Times noted Feeney's "net worth far exceeds the $975 million estimated by Forbes magazine." After the sale, The Times reported estimated that the proceeds, paired with other funds Feeney turned over to the foundation "left the charity with $3.5 billion, even after the $610 million that has already been distributed to charities."
Related: Strauss-Kahn Pins Defense on Datebook, Claim of Consent

To that point, he'd be donating anonymously, but it was Judith Miller of The New York Times who coaxed Feeney into discussing his donations with a member of the press for the first time in 1997, though he wouldn't pose for a picture.
Related: Bloggers Unite Against Drunken Puppy Shopping

In adidition to donating to universities and hospitals, Feeney told Miller that he's also made personal contributions to Sinn Fein, the IRA's political arm, worth up to $280,000, which made him the organization's biggest American donor (Feeny holds dual citizenship.) As of 1997, the foundation's largest grant was $30 million, a figure that Feeney has dwarfed in recent years. In 2009, he gave $125 million to build a new medical center for the University of California-San Francisco that would treat women, children, and cancer patients. Over the course of the last decade, he's given more than €46m to the University of Limerick in Ireland. Hs total donations for Cornell over the years -- not counting the latest $350 hit -- exceed $600 million.
Related: Inside the Miraculous Math of the 9/11 Memorial

Perhaps not surprisingly, he took the "Giving Pledge" created by Bill and Melinda Gates earlier this year, vowing to give away everything in the Atlantic Properties coffers by 2020. As Dealbook noted at the time, the rapid timetable illustrates Feeney's specific brand of philanthropy, which eschews trusts and foundations for what he calls "giving while living," in which the philanthropist's goal is to become flat broke before his own death.
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Nearly every profile makes note of how unimpressed Feeney is with what his wealth can buy him, noting that he flies coach, wears a $15 watch, and doesn't own a house or a car. When Miller asked him why he decided to give everything away, Feeney replied, "I simply decided I had enough money."

In 2007, when The New York Times convinced him to sit for a profile again, Jim Dwyer said, not inaccurately, that Feeney was "what Donald Trump would be if he led his life backward."
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 21, 2011, 07:29:24 PM
Philosophy

"I had one idea that never changed in my mind—that you should use your wealth to help people. I try to live a normal life, the way I grew up," Feeney said. "I set out to work hard, not to get rich."[5] A report explaining Feeney's "Giving While Living" approach to philanthropy and its lasting impact on the philanthropic community was issued by The Atlantic Philanthropies in 2010. It profiles Feeney as well as other philanthropist s who give in this manner and the impact of their grant-making.
[edit] Foundation

Feeney founded The Atlantic Philanthropies in 1982, and in 1984, having made provision for each of his children and for his first wife, as well as very modest provision for himself, transferred the bulk of his wealth to the foundation.

As of the end of 2009, AP has made grants totaling more than $5 billion since 1982 and plans to spend its remaining $4 billion endowment by 2017.[9] The Atlantic Philanthropies grant-making supports health and social projects in Australia, Bermuda, Northern Ireland, Republic of Ireland, South Africa, the United States and Viet Nam. It is one of the largest charitable donors in each of the countries in which it operates,[10] and is the single largest funder of ageing and of comprehensive immigration reform in the United States.[11][12][13]
[edit] Education

Feeney has been a major donor to his alma mater Cornell University, which has received over $950 million in direct and AP gifts, including an initially-anonymous donation of $350 million towards the New York Tech Campus[14]. He has also donated around $1 billion to education in Ireland, mostly to third-level institutions, most notably the University of Limerick,[1] and over $220 million to causes in Vietnam.
[edit] The Giving Pledge

In February 2011 Feeney became a signatory to The Giving Pledge.[15] In his letter to Bill Gates and Warren Buffett, the founders of The Giving Pledge, Feeney writes, "I cannot think of a more personally rewarding and appropriate use of wealth than to give while one is living - to personally devote oneself to meaningful efforts to improve the human condition. More importantly, today's needs are so great and varied that intelligent philanthropic support and positive interventions can have greater value and impact today than if they are delayed when the needs are greater."[16]
[edit] Books and articles

Feeney first went public about his philanthropy in 1997, in an article published by The New York Times;[4] at the time, he decided to end his anonymity when it became apparent that a dispute with Robert Miller, his former DFS partner, over the sale of DFS Group was likely to lead to a lawsuit that would reveal his donations anyway.[4]
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 22, 2011, 11:37:04 AM
Secret to profits: Touch something and leave it better than when you found it - Jim Rohn


Key to wealth:  spend 70 cents, 10 cents to charity, 10 cents to active capital, and 10 cents to passive capital.


Its okay to be rich, as long as its in the service of others, and not the expense.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 22, 2011, 04:07:45 PM
I dreamed about you last night again.  It is funny that when I reflect on my memories with you, my most cherished memory was the day when I couldn't touch you at all.  I still remembered your confidence and your smell.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 22, 2011, 07:58:45 PM
Because of my rush into NFX, I couldn't bring myself to enter ALTR.  ALTR was the better pattern, and eventually the better performer.  There was no Trigger in NFX, and no Trigger at all.


NFX, not APKT
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 23, 2011, 09:05:47 PM
1. Positive self determination
2. Self reliance
3. Self Discipline
4.  Self enterprising
5.  Work well with others
6.  Self appreciation


1.  Focus concentration
2.  Resilience
3.  Integrity
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 24, 2011, 09:42:07 AM
I desired change in 2001, without wanting to work for it and without understanding all its implications and the necessary work to make it work, and that is why I got the result that I got back then.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 24, 2011, 10:25:06 AM
2001 was a really difficult period to trade, because of the melt down of stocks like akam, inkt, jdus, pmcs and many others from 200 + to 20 or 10.  Because of the extreme volatility, my very good fills are sometimes stopped out, or they reach target within a day or two.

 However, both methodologies work.  There were a lot less signals.  Going down fast always generate less signals.  I think it was even more difficult to trade than the melt down of 2008.

When you have time, you should visit these other time frames.  It will only make you better to realize what is in store for different time frames.


Okay, good job to me for following my trading discipline all week.  Let's do that every minute, every hour, every day, every week, every month, and every year from now on.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 25, 2011, 12:33:36 PM
Three things I learned from my studies.

1.  Strength is not only in my Entries, but really in my system too.  By applying  overall system, I will:
     a.  Cut losers quickly with my stops.
     b.  Let winners ride, because I have to let my trades sit for 8-12 days.
     c.  I will never re-enter a stopped bollinger trade, but I will keep on re-entering a stopped Swing trade as long as I get another signal.

2.  BB, slightly harder to execute in stocks that have had large moves, internet bubble or large trend up.  This is because the charts' scales have changed.  However, under normal circumstances, look for quality triggers and enter orders according to my rules.
     a.  Charts' scaling only change if it trends down or up hard. 

3.  I have to trail my stops to achieve Stop2 and Stop3.  They are the key to minimizing my losses by keeping it small and by preventing a winner from turning into a loser.



Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 26, 2011, 01:29:11 PM
What I have learned in my back testing over the years is that stock will and can go any where.  Even the NASD 100 can go from 0ver 100 to 20 in a couple of years, and that is an index.

Therefore stay with trend, trade the system and never question your system.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 26, 2011, 06:29:44 PM
In my homework, I will create 4 list from my five.

1.  Bollinger Longs candidate
2.  Bollinger short candidate

3.  Swing longs candidate
4.  Swing short candidate

So that I will be better organized instead of being all over the place.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 26, 2011, 07:18:45 PM
I noticed that the Dell chart from late 02 - 03 didn't look that beautiful.  However the Dell 03 charts look beautiful, including the beginning.

A rally or sell-off stretches the charts and makes them look more beautiful.

Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 27, 2011, 08:07:40 PM
One of the things that I did not test was:

Coinciding my trades with movements in the SPY.

For example Spy breaks out and take all the Strong candles

Spy breaks down and take all the entries with weak candles, or short swing entries.

I may have to pay attention to that to increase my chances of success.

I will have many triggers, and it is best to go with the market.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 27, 2011, 08:55:18 PM
Since I will have approximately over 900-1000 signals:

Take a page out of my study at Vanderbilt and time my trades with the SPY for maximum effectiveness and a greater chance of success.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 27, 2011, 09:02:50 PM
I just noticed that, out my later triggers last week, I did enter two of the lesser performers.

That doesn't change anything, I will continue to execute my trading plan the best of my ability.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 28, 2011, 03:37:43 PM
To stay with the Trend in Swing, make sure to stay with the side that is usually poking the Bollinger Band.

For example when a stock turns up it will poke the upper bollinger band and retrace to the 20 for a swing signal

Or when a stock turns down, it will poker the lower bollinger band, and retrace to the 20MA for a swing signal

Stay with the side that is riding or poking the bollinger band.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 28, 2011, 04:52:51 PM
The market really is:  All the hopes and fears of all the traders and investors, big & small, playing out their biases as a whole.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 28, 2011, 05:12:49 PM
Since I will not break my trading rule on the back or the exit.  My focus will be absolutely to not break my trading rule on the front end, or the Entry.

1.  Is this a beautiful Bollinger or Swing Pattern?

2.  Does it have a Good Trigger?

Enter only if "Yes" to both questions.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 28, 2011, 08:47:20 PM
One thing that happened to me was a recent trade that I entered under Bollinger Band.   However, this trade would not have been entered had I consider or been aware of the Swing criteria (S3).  There was an opposite Swing Trigger about two weeks back.  Making this stock inappropriate for this entry.

I think, we may get confused sometimes, especially if the stock whipsaws back and forth between the 20MA (especially S2 or S3).  However, I am thinking, for longs stay with strength.  One thing that has helped me is finding scenarios that has hit the upper band recently with a bullish swing trigger.  For shorts find scenarios that has hit the lower band recently and with a  bearish swing trigger.

Use Swing and BB to understand each other.  They can't both be right, and one will hint at strength or weakness.

The example is ROC  12/01 to 12/15.  The S3 would have nullified the Bollinger Band Entry.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 28, 2011, 08:57:32 PM
One thing that happened to me was a recent trade that I entered under Bollinger Band.   However, this trade would not have been entered had I consider or been aware of the Swing criteria (S3).  There was an opposite Swing Trigger about two weeks back.  Making this stock inappropriate for this entry.

I think, we may get confused sometimes, especially if the stock whipsaws back and forth between the 20MA (especially S2 or S3).  However, I am thinking, for longs stay with strength.  One thing that has helped me is finding scenarios that has hit the upper band recently with a bullish swing trigger.  For shorts find scenarios that has hit the lower band recently and with a  bearish swing trigger.

Use Swing and BB to understand each other.  They can't both be right, and one will hint at strength or weakness.

The example is ROC  12/01 to 12/15.  The S3 would have nullified the Bollinger Band Entry.


Therefore I will not short an P1 against a beautiful S2 (C&H) as well.  When the patterns Contradict go with the Strength of the pattern.  Where is it hitting the Bollinger Bands.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 29, 2011, 07:06:16 PM
The SIG bearish signal is not coming through, because the pattern is still closer to an S2, and not an S3 because of the tighter bands.  Therefore, it will take its time, yet.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 30, 2011, 02:58:51 PM
David:  Thank you for a very well written book.  Your words of wisdom are treasures.  Unfortunately, words of wisdom never really sink in unless its through trial and suffering.  I do appreciate them and they re-affirm in me what it takes to succeed in Trading.  Thank you.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 30, 2011, 03:06:00 PM
From David Nassar's book:

The Harvard Business Review conducted a study regarding leadership qualities for business people.  The study showed the balance of power between cognitive intelligence and emotional intelligence.  Emotional intelligence won out by almost 5 to 1 in terms of importance.  If you chose to believe these studies and opinions, you can then begin to build yourself into the trader you want to be.  But it is important to recognize that cognitive intelligence with emotional intelligence is prone to be over analytical, while emotional intelligence without cognitive intelligence is prone to be vulnerable to swings in the market and gambling.

Therefore, no matter what is happening in the market, up or down, no matter what is happening with my PNL, positive or negative, my best response will always be the same:  Calm, cool, and absolute discipline to my Trading Plan. - Me
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 30, 2011, 03:11:28 PM
From David Nassar's book:

Live within your means.  Many people will live far beyond their means in the belief that things have always worked out and will continue to.  This is unfair pressure to put on yourself if you are to be of healthy mind while trading.  Financial pressure is precisely a reason that you should not trade.  The emotions associated with such pressure when living beyond your means jades objectivity and, in the end cheats you.  When you money motivation is the only reason to trade, danger is not usually far behind.  This rule can apply to, other professions, or life as well.

Trade without desiring results.  Therefore, no matter what is happening in the market, up or down, no matter what is happening with my PNL, positive or negative, no matter what is happening in my life, my best response will always be the same:  Calm, Cool, and Absolute Discipline to my Trading Plan.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 30, 2011, 03:17:06 PM
From David Nassar's book:

We evaluate results because we're in a state of confusion.  When we're making money, most will not take steps to evaluate how results are achieved.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 30, 2011, 06:41:05 PM
Thank you Toni, for your two commandments (to be etched in stone)

1.  Protect your principal
2.  Trade to trade well (not to make money)


My trading plan already incorporate those principles, but you have re-affirmed their importance.  Thank you.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 30, 2011, 06:44:05 PM
The four stages of Trading

1.  Unconscious incompetence stage

2.  Conscious incompetence stage

3.  Conscious competence stage

4.  Unconscious competence state

Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 30, 2011, 06:49:12 PM
Some traders worst days have come after their best - therefore never allow your confidence to exceed your skills

Mind management - clear focus - clear head

The best traders learn to lose, because its part of the game.

Learn everything possible from people that are already successful, follow the rules reasoning they share.

Specialize
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 30, 2011, 06:51:03 PM
For success, one must raise the level of one's expectation.

"No matter what is happening, I will be absolute discipline to my trading plan"

That is my only expectation.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 30, 2011, 07:27:21 PM
David Nassar on Exiting.

Doing the right thing may not seem easy at first, but once you form the habit of cutting losses quickly, it becomes quite routine and very gratifying.  Taking the devil's advice will prove very damaging very fast, but in time you will not hear from him anymore. 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 01, 2012, 01:51:53 PM
Thanks to my friend and mentor Toni Turner

Center Point 1: The power of commitment
     Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back, always ineffectivenes s.  Concerning all acts of initiative (and creation), there is one elementary truth, the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves, too.  All sort of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred.  A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one's favor all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamed would come his way. - W. H. Murray (Climbed Mt. Everest)

Center Point 2: Empower your personal beliefs
     Your potential is unlimited.  Aspire to a high place.  Believe in your abilities, in your tastes, in your own judgment.  Imagine and perceive that which you wish to be.  Back your image with enthusiasm and courage.  Feel the reality of your "new" self; live in the expectancy of greater things and your subconscious will actualize them. - Brian Adams

Center Point 3: Your Vision: Life's Invitation to Greatness
     What would you do if you knew you could not fail? - Dr. Robert Schuller

Center Point 4: Extend your reach
     The only way to discover the limits of the possible is to go beyond them, to the impossible. - Arthur C. Clarke

Center Point 5: The Miracle of giving
     He who loves others is constantly loved by them.  He who respects others is constantly respected by them.  - Mencius (4th-3rd Century, BCE)

Center Point 6: Coincidence or Synchronicity?
     The basics of belief in synchronicity are that every single life has a purpose and a deeper meaning than we are generally aware of.  Behind all form is an intelligence that is exquisitely perfect, and that works in synchronized fashion.  Everything happens for a purpose, and the puzzle pieces of life fit together perfectly.  When you trust and know these thoughts, you will daily recognize evidence for your belief in synchronicity. -  Dr. Wayne Dyer

Center Point 7: Detachment, Pathway to Freedom
     Anything you want be acquired through detachment, because detachment is based on the unquestioning belief in the power of your true self.  - Deepak Chopra, MD

Center Point 8:  The Power of Intuition
     It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye.   - Saint-Exupery

Center Point 9:  Practice Healthy Selfishness
     Do you want to be a power in the world?  Then be yourself.  Be true to the highest within your soul and then allow yourself to be governed by no customs or conventionalit ies or arbitrary man-made rules that are not founded on principles. - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Center Point 10:  Release the Past
     People are always blaming circumstances for what they are.  I do not believe in circumstances.  The people who get on in this world are the people who get up and look for the circumstances they want, and if they cannot find them, make them. - George Bernard Shaw

Center Point 11:  Create a Prosperity Consciousness
     You are an expression of the infinite creative flow, the infinite creative process.  You have everything you need to achieve a life of abundance.  You only need access it by claiming your entitlement from within.  Know that you are a center within an affluent universe, and guidance, ingenuity, and opportunities await you. - Eric Butterworth

Center Point 12: The truth about Fear
     Begin difficult things while they are easy, do great things when they are small.  The difficult things of the world must once have been easy; the great things must once have small... a thousand mile journey begins with one step. - Lao Tzu

Center Point 13: Live consciously, Succeed Miraculously!
     Follow your heart, your dreams, your desires.  Do what your soul calls you to do, whatever it is, and allow it be be finished; then you will go on to another adventure. - Ramtha
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 01, 2012, 01:54:19 PM
The day I started trading from my head, and not my heart, I started making money consistently, trade after winning trade.

First Commandment: Protect your capital
Second Commandment:  Trade to trade well (not to make money)


 - Toni Turner
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 01, 2012, 02:02:05 PM
I returned to trading about 4 years ago.  I use to be a market maker on NASD, and I left on negative terms.   I knew how to make markets, and thought I was a very good trader.  I changed my strategy and didn't put in the required work to make that change work.  I experienced so much inconsistency and negative emotions.   I thought I would have an edge when re-entering trading years later.

It just occurred to me that my history actually delayed my ability to trade successfully.  A couple of reasons. 
1.  I was still carrying a biased that I knew enough to win, when I didn't.   
2.  I was carrying the pain of my past losses and fears.

That was why it took much longer for me than someone new to learn to trade effectively.

I now finally have a tested system, and I am finally understanding the markets the way it needs to be understood.  Thank you for the long journey.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 01, 2012, 02:03:52 PM
Consolidation vs Range
Continuation or Reversal
Your first lost (stopped) is your smallest lost - The Old Trader
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 01, 2012, 02:07:21 PM
Forgiveness     

     The best way to release the past is to forgive....for give ourselves and those people and situations that hurt us.  Just as our bodies heal physical bruises, our inner self wants to heal emotional injuries.  We heal by releasing those injuries.  We release by forgiving.
     To forgive, we face the matter and own it.  We acknowledge that the negative energy we've carrying around no longer serves us.  We choose to leave the situation behind and, in doing so, we forgive.
     Forgiveness is a gift to ourselves.  It release us from the past, fills our lives iwth positive emotions, and frees us to shape an abundant, successful tomorrows.   - Toni Turner
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 01, 2012, 02:12:13 PM
Buy Low, sell high works well in real estate.  It rarely works as well in the stock market, especially in short-term trades.  Remember when you choose a stock to buy, it's like choosing players for your ball team.  You don't want to choose a guy with a broken arm, or the girl who's clumsy.  You choose the strongest people available to make a winning team.  When you're trading, you choose the strongest stocks to make winning profits. - Toni Turner
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 01, 2012, 02:16:18 PM
A thought + a feeling => action     - Psyc 101?

I didn't know this.  It took T Harv Eker to tell me this.

My most formidable enemy in Trading:  My emotions. (Therefore no matter what is happening, my best response will be calm, cool, and absolute discipline to my trading rules and plan.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 01, 2012, 02:19:07 PM
Thanks for the signal in APKT, however if I had kept a Swing eye on it, I would never have entered the order.  My third question before entering a trade will be.

Did the stock recently came from a bollinger band in the direction of which I want to trade?  This is vital for determining strength for longs and weakness for shorts......
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 01, 2012, 02:22:05 PM
The market is always going to go higher than I think it can, or lower than I think it will. - Jim Rodgers
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 01, 2012, 02:23:23 PM
The higher your self-esteem, the more positive your thoughts - Mark Douglas

The market is like a river, you can't change it, but only flow with it.  - Toni Turner
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 01, 2012, 02:32:01 PM
From Toni Turner's book:

First, imagine a thought plus a feeling, minus the action-especially if the action relates to pleasure.  Thought: I've had a long day at work, and a beer would taste good before dinner.  Automatically, you imagine a frosty mug filled with the golden elixir, a foamy top.  Feelings: pleasure.  Your mouth anticipates the taste of cool, refreshing, robust liquid.  Gratification flows through you at the feeling of relaxation that always follows and reward for a long day.  Action: Yes, you'll have a beer.  You reach into the refrigerator-but there's no beer.  Rats.  Now your feelings of expected pleasure turn to irritation.  Thought, plus a feeling, minus the desired action.
     That's how we humans are built.  We think of something, qualify it with feelings, and carry thorough with action (or inaction).  I'm out of bee(thought), disappointment 9feeling), so you go (or decide not to go) to the store (action).

This thought and action seeking comfort in disappointment is very detrimental to trading.  It has nothing to do with success in trading.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 01, 2012, 02:40:35 PM
Thank you to my good friend for inspiring my New Year's Resolution.

Become the change you want in the world. - Ghandi

For you my friend, I will honor my New Years resolution.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 01, 2012, 07:54:10 PM
"As I have stated throughout this book, many of the qualities required to trade successfully are the same virtues we hope to possess in other facets of our lives: humility, grace, passion, patience, generosity, and discipline." - David Nassar
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 02, 2012, 10:15:23 AM
I lost money trading in 2004 because.....
1. I did not have a good enough trading plan
2. I hadn't put enough work into earning success
3. I did not have enough discipline because I didn't have a plan to have complete faith in.
4. I didn't have a good enough understanding of the emotional intelligence to succeed.

I lost money in 2008, and 2009 because
1.  I sill do not have a trading plan that I have complete faith in.  What I have was trying to recollect my thoughts on what it took to succeed.  I still do not have an understanding of the emotional discipline/intelligence required for complete success.
2.  I kept experimenting with new methodologies, without the required work and discipline training that is vital for success.
3.  I picked up where I left off in 2004, in some ways, because I am scarred by my losses and how I dealt with such losses back then.  I piled on more and hung on and prayed, until it was too much and then I covered everything.  That has nothing to do with success.
4.  I still needed to better understand myself.

2012
1.  I have a complete trading plan that has been tested for over 12 years.   It works very well every year on both dimensions of percentage and winners per trade vs losers per trade.
2.  In all my past failures, I did not have absolute rules to follow (position size or time constraint) or I broke my rules once the stock starts to move.  I am conditioning in "absolute discipline to my trading plan".  That will be my only definition of success.  I will never break a trading rule.
3.  My main focus this year will be to spot better entries, and to be absolute discipline to my trading rules.
4.  I am finding joy in every moment and everything I do.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 02, 2012, 10:18:12 AM
I was asking myself recently why do I wake up in the morning, exercise and meditate.  It surely is not for something as shallow as wanting to look good, is it?

I finally found my answer.  It is to remind myself that we all have to push ourselves every day.  By doing it in the morning, I remind myself of that very early each day.  Hopefully, it will translate to the rest of the day.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 02, 2012, 10:28:21 AM
Thank you to all my mentors and friends that have came into my life, and helped me understand my life better.

Thank you to:

Tony Robbins - You started me on my journey to healing and growth
Deepak Chopra - You allowed me to understand that its not a human journey, but a spiritual one, much more than we could understand or comprehend.
Wayne Dyer - You allowed me to understand the idea of an infinite intelligence.  
Mark Miniverni - You taught me how to trade.  The lesson was longer than I wanted, because I carried too much pain from my past, but you taught me how to trade.
The Miracle man
Bob Proctor
Sidartha Gautama
Steven Cohen
Jack Monopoli
Frank Longman
W. Mitchell
Vulch
Uncle Pao
Bill Yancey
Jack Schwager
Toni Turner
David Nassar
Mark Douglas
My mom
My DadMy father-inlaw
My mother-inlaw
My beautiful, loving, and brave daughters
My Handsome and very smart son
Adam Huelson
Jim Rohn
Les Brown
Eric Thomas
Michael Master
Jim Rogers
.......

And so many more

Thank you for coming into my life.  I hope to live up to your examples.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 02, 2012, 03:38:45 PM
It is said that your most formidable foe in trading is "Emotions"

If I am absolute discipline to my Trading Plan, I will be rid of this most formidable foe.  There's no room for emotions to make a decision.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 03, 2012, 05:48:39 AM
Markets can only do three things.  Go up, down, or sideways.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 03, 2012, 07:09:25 PM
Thank you Toni for clarify and reaffirming that desire results could be the death of Trading Principles.

The desire will be so strong that it overrides winning trades and losing trades as well.  The only way to get around this is to apply my Trading Principles everyday, regardless of results.

This is especially true, if a Trader is looking to make some money before heading off to do something else.  The need to make $500 will destroy potentially 5 times that in Capital.  The desire to make that money will create entries into useless patterns that will result in losses immediately.  And then to correct that, the trader will double up the position, turn into a swing trade, put up more money, write options against the position, turn it into an intermediate trade of up to 10 days.

This is why I lost so much right before going to up Bao and her Cousin.  I was hoping to make some money before leaving to run the errand.  

Thank you Toni for clarifying my experience, and strengthening my resolve to apply my trading principles no matter what happens.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 03, 2012, 07:11:42 PM
Thank you for a wonderful week Cubbers.  I look forward to seeing you again soon.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 03, 2012, 07:43:00 PM
Trending Patterns like S1, S2 and P2 works without going against Resistance or Support.

Support or Resistance, like CH & Double Bottom.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 03, 2012, 09:44:37 PM
Window to the Sky

Jill, thank you for your inspiring story
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 04, 2012, 09:30:49 AM
"Mental skills is required for success" - Mark Douglas
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 04, 2012, 10:05:41 AM
Some of the things I hope to gain this year:

A much better understanding of myself and how to execute my methodology to the best of my ability

One of the enemies of my current strategy will be time.  However, it will not always be there in the future as my strategy shifts to equity, away from options.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 04, 2012, 12:51:05 PM
Let a man who has to make his fortune in life remember this maxim: Attacking is the only secret. Dare and the world yields, or if it beats you sometimes, dare it again and you will succeed.

William Makepeace Thackeray



Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 05, 2012, 05:57:12 AM
"At the end of Pain is success."  -  Eric Thomas
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 05, 2012, 06:04:29 AM
"Success is like knowing combination to the lock." - Jack Canfield


Developing emotional intelligence and bridging it with the law attraction.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 05, 2012, 07:19:14 AM
I was driving home from JCP, and I was looking at all the traffic through the windows of my car and at the same time wondering about my consciousness as if I was inside of this vehicle we call our body.  Just about everything I know or am is conditioned or learned through the vehicle.  A thought occurred to me that our own individuality (or acceptance of it) is learned from being in the vehicle.  Our acceptance of individuality, like many other things for example emotions, is designed for continuity of the vehicle.  It is nature and life's evolution to survive.  We are greater than that individuality, because we all are one. 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 05, 2012, 09:25:04 PM
I don't know why you were on my mind today (or recently), but I just want to thank you for making all my fantasies come true.  And yes, thank you for the jumping jacks too.  :D
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 05, 2012, 09:26:28 PM
I have my work cut out for me in Swing.  I can see the forest when back testing, but I can't see it as well, for now, during live trading.  I have to keep studying the patterns of the past.  Thank you.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 06, 2012, 10:21:37 AM
To my beautiful wild girl:

Thank you for visiting me and distracting my work this week.  You're so intoxicating, almost too much for me.  I had a very good time, and I wish you the best.  Now, let me get back to constructing my plans, and studying, towards my goal of being a very good trader.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 06, 2012, 02:00:01 PM
The Best Traders know they have already won before they even started.   - Doctor Vanthorpe
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 06, 2012, 02:30:18 PM
There's the fool who does wrong at all times, but then there's the Wall Street fool who thinks he must trade at all times.

- Jessie Livermore
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 06, 2012, 02:55:09 PM
Why I should permanently give up the idea of playing poker?
1.  It will seriously interfere with my True ambition, the stock market.
2.  I am simply wasting my time, and my sleep.
3.  I do not have the patience or nor do I have the discipline, right now, to conditioned two hard subjects.
4.  There is no future in Poker, at least for me.
5.  No matter how I have won, I seem to lose it back in poker.  The nature of the game, doesn't me time to pause and evaluate like the Stock Market.  I find that my emotions get too easily influenced.
6.  It makes me break other principles.
.......
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 06, 2012, 03:32:06 PM
Lesson for the Week.

LUK vs DIS

Go with the Trend, not the cheaper stock.  DIS was trending, LUK wasn't yet.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 06, 2012, 03:56:05 PM
Thank you for everything in my life.


Man's search for meaning

Frankl concludes that the meaning of life is found in every moment of living; life never ceases to have meaning, even in suffering and death. In a group therapy session during a mass fast inflicted on the camp's inmates trying to protect an anonymous fellow inmate from fatal retribution by authorities, Frankl offered the thought that for everyone in a dire condition there is someone looking down, a friend, family member, or even God, who would expect not to be disappointed. Frankl concludes from his experience that a prisoner's psychological reactions are not solely the result of the conditions of his life, but also from the freedom of choice he always has even in severe suffering. The inner hold a prisoner has on his spiritual self relies on having a faith in the future, and that once a prisoner loses that faith, he is doomed.  

ViKtor Frankl.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 07, 2012, 01:46:31 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eOU0JhkHY3w

Thank you, for teaching me that every day I can turn all the negative things in my life into a beautiful symphony by falling in love with life itself.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 08, 2012, 03:58:21 PM
Trying to stay focus on the Process instead of blowing by wondering "What if this trade goes wrong?".  That is mental skills. - Mark Douglas
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 08, 2012, 07:13:22 PM
To my beautiful smart and giving big girl. This too shall pass, and so I will love all I can and all I have, without judging you. 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 09, 2012, 10:29:55 PM
To my Ex-wife:  I hope everything turns out alright.  I wish you nothing but joy and happiness.

Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 09, 2012, 10:31:55 PM
How to relieve myself of the stress of bliss?

I have no stress, because I want nothing for myself, but only to keep giving the best part of me.

Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 09, 2012, 10:39:58 PM
Why am I uncertain in my S3 patterns?  Because I do not yet have all the variables, and at the same time, I am assuming too much about my knowledge of Swing patterns.

But I have settled much of the issues, I am ridding myself of S3s, and I have decided to not go against major support in S2s, and there is my solution and out my problems.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 09, 2012, 10:41:21 PM
"Success is something you attract by being the person you become." - Jim Rohn
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 09, 2012, 10:42:38 PM
Formula for failure - Could Should Don't

Formula for failure - Could Should Will
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 09, 2012, 10:44:14 PM
"Nothing can resist a human will that stakes even its existence on its purpose" - Benjamin Israeli
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 09, 2012, 10:47:08 PM
Your ambition must serve you, not the other way around.  - Jim Rohn

You get what you deserve, not what you need. - Jim Rohn

"Get into debt strategically, not habitually." - Jim Rohn

"It's easy to get rich slowly" - Jim Rohn
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 09, 2012, 10:48:44 PM
Job Interview

Do you have any questions?

"Yes, how do I help you get a gold star on your review next year?"
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 09, 2012, 10:49:34 PM
All the patterns works best, by not going against Major Support or Resistance
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 09, 2012, 10:52:05 PM
Paul the appostle: "This is what I want people to say about me."

1. I fought a good fight
2. I finished the task
3. I kept the faith
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 10, 2012, 12:04:38 PM
The rewards of a discipline life is great, but it is often delayed until some time in the future.

The rewards for lack of discipline are immediate, but they are minor in comparison to the rewards of consistent self discipline.

The rewards for lack of discipline is a day at the beach, while the rewards of discipline is owning the beach.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 10, 2012, 12:17:35 PM
3 Steps to Consistent Self Discipline

1. Realizing that discipline isn't the easiest option
2. Discipline is a full-time activity
3. For every discipline effort, there holds multiple rewards

Your consistent self discipline is the "Magic Catalyst"
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 10, 2012, 08:04:31 PM
Thank you Jim for all your words wisdom.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 10, 2012, 08:05:15 PM
You'll be as happy as you make your mind to be "Now" - Abraham Lincoln
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 10, 2012, 08:06:43 PM
Have the ability to dream, well defined and vivid dreams, and then make them come true.  That is how you achieve your dreams.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 10, 2012, 08:09:43 PM
Today is a Success because:

1.  I finished my reviewing my Swing Studies.  I am able to better defined what it is I am looking for.
2.  I lent a hand to the mother of my children.
3.  I focused on the joy of each moment.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 10, 2012, 08:10:37 PM
Service, going beyond sale, will lead to multiple sales. - Jim Rohn
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 10, 2012, 08:11:19 PM
"I was successful, because I did not neglect to do the easy things." - Jim Rohn
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 10, 2012, 08:16:21 PM
I am adding a trade to my Swing.  When I have a great looking pattern, there are times, when it does not swing below or above (for over night), but for the day only.  It results in a Hammer with a great pattern.  However, that does not qualify for an Entry.

Therefore, after all my studies, I will take a Hammer (which swung intra-day) and a very good pattern as a Signal.  I think this is definite better than taking a Swing trigger with a so/so pattern.

I finally found what I was looking for with my Swing Review.......D o not go against major support or resistance in swing trading.  It is futile.

I will also take an RC with Swing as a trigger.  

In BB, I will take all patterns now.  But in Swing, I will not take all signals.  I will only trade with the Trend......tha t includes my second Swing pattern.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 10, 2012, 08:20:23 PM
The greatest value in life is not what you get, but who you become.

Are the disciplines I am currently engaging in taking me where I want to go?
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 11, 2012, 09:10:50 AM
How to defeat the "Time Value" only option?..... Go farther out in Time.  Therefore, it will depreciate less because of the lower Theta
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 11, 2012, 09:18:26 AM
How to defeat entering an order like A?

1.  The stock rose on a negative day, therefore it will keep rising because there are buyers out there.
2.  For a low priced stock, like that, I cannot enter my order early.  I would have seen the large bar and use the 3BR.



3.  Stocks like APA rose on a positive day.  It rose only with the market, therefore, it will fall with the market.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 11, 2012, 02:30:51 PM
"You get in life, what you are, not what you want."  - Les Brown
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 11, 2012, 02:51:31 PM
In the prosperous time, you put it in your pocket.  In the lean times you put it in your heart, and discover who you are." - Les Brown

You're going to experience some turbulence when going up.  Don't be frighten by that.  When ever you decide you want to go to another level, you have to fasten your mental, psychological, and spiritual seat belt.  Because it will be awhile before you experience a comfortable altitude.  - Les Brown

Thank you Les for clarifying growing pain.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 11, 2012, 03:19:46 PM
When the stock is too far away from the BB, one could experience buying or shorting a large bar, and miss out of the 3BR play.  Two out of three of these are losers already. 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 12, 2012, 05:52:42 AM
Cancelling an order when the stock got close, due to emotional trend, however my signal is still good.

ALTR -   It cost me 3.75 points or 220
BHP  -   It cost me 11 points    or 480


Entering an order when the stock is still too far away cost me (Small Bodies), because when the stock gets there real quick, my signal becomes invalid.

RCL -    -170  (I did learn from this trade, by making my contracts smaller, and going out longer in duration)
JPM -    -186  (I did learn from this trade, by making my contracts smaller)
A     -    -100


Therefore, there are two things that I can learn from this.  

1.  Do not put in my order too early when there's still a large distance away,  because a large move towards to Band would nullify my order (but in this case fill it)
2.  When my pattern or signal is still good, and the stock is slowly moving towards my entry price.  Let it sit, or move it away a little to get a better fill, but keep the order and do not cancel it.


Other lesson that I have learned recently.
1.  Keep the emotion of the market in mind (VIX direction and direction of market)
2.  Make sure to trade with Recent weakness or recent strength, that helps make patterns like P3 or Swing
3.  Do not trade against major support or resistance, it is defeating the purpose of trading with the trend.

When going long and the market will open weak, move your orders down a little, but do not cancel them

When going short and the market will open strong, move your orders up a little, but do not cancel them
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 12, 2012, 10:05:14 AM
"You don't know what's out there. " - John Burroughs

"That is why I must go." - Rhoda Williams

From the movie, Another Earth
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 12, 2012, 04:50:14 PM
In recent cross patterns, the 40 MA needs to be trending down as well, and coming off a base or OEXT.  Otherwise, you can be looking at a consolidation period with even a stronger trend.

RC:  40MA needs to be going down as well.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 12, 2012, 06:53:55 PM
An old Hmong lady was telling me a story about a long time ago when she came to the USA.  The welfare check would usually be in the wife's name, but for some reason her family's was in her husband's name.  Her husband usually does the shopping.  But one day, her fellow sister in-law was going grocery shopping so she asked him for some money.  When she returned, the first thing her husband said was, "Where is the change."  She thought to herself, why I was hoping to pick less items and keep a few dollars for myself, but she gave the change to her husband.  Next time she went to the store again, when she came home, she offered him the change and he greedily took it again.  She asked him, "Are your intentions to never give me any money?"

Which he replied, "Yes, in this country I will never give you any money."

Right there in that moment.  She felt her arms became strong like iron, and she became filled with joy from celebrating her inner strength.  She also realized that when someone belittles you or yells at you, that is a blessing.

I see her all the time, and she's became such a wonderful giving person.   She's so tireless and energetic.  And she's became so wise too.  She's my mother.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 12, 2012, 06:59:34 PM
Enemies of Success:

Enemies to do battle with every day:

1. Indifference
2. Indecision
3. Doubt
4. Over caution
5. Worries
6. Fear

Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 13, 2012, 06:51:58 AM
My Lesson from PEP (long), BRCM (short), and ANF (short)

PEP, 3 out of 5 Bars was negative, and the last one was very negative.  Although, the pattern looks nice, its deceiving.  It is deceiving, because it is PEP, and there's nothing new or special about PEP for growth.

1.  3/5 last bar is negative, with large red bar



BRCM, even though the stock looks weak and had a short trigger, the stock is no longer in a short area.  It would be in a short area, if the emotional content of the market is sympathetic with it.  However, the emotions of the market has changed from negative to neutral or positive.  Besides the pattern is against, FLAT bollinger band at OEXT, which makes it an undesirable pattern.


ANF, there was a trigger, but I do not like pattern.  The gap down and quick moved down and then sideways makes the pattern undesirable to trade.  It is not beautiful, but erractic.

The lesson that I am learning from these three patterns is that I have to pass them up, and wait for better patterns.  Yes, I do have a green light, but it doesn't I can cross the street.  I still have to look both ways first.  And when I look both ways, if I do not like it, I have to wait for the next green light, which will be coming along any moment now.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 13, 2012, 07:15:08 AM
I am so in love with this day, all the good or bad, exciting or boring, important or insignificant, and mellow or learning opportunities and events that today will bring.  Thank you very much.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 13, 2012, 11:23:08 AM
Re: My lesson from CTXS

It is good to get a good fill, but do not move the order so far away, that it doesn't get filled.  Be reasonable with the fill as long as its at the Bollinger Band or better.

Thank you for the lesson today.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 13, 2012, 06:53:51 PM
LVS's trigger on 12/28 wasn't good enough, because there was not trend, but a zigzagging stock. 

I do not trade against major trend....and then plus the market.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 13, 2012, 06:56:58 PM
Never celebrate positive results....

And never frown upon negative results....

No matter what is going in the market, up or down, no matter what is happening with my PNL, positive or negative, and no matter what is happening in my life, my best response will always be calm, cool, and absolute discipline to my trading plan.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 15, 2012, 03:19:11 PM
I know what happened Friday now.  Seeing that the market was in my direction.  I started to celebrate results.   Something I cannot do, ever.

I know what happened during the week now.  I went for any BB orders, as I told myself I would.  However, that is not what I want to do.  I want to limit my P3s to less than 25% of my entries per week.  Or, I can only have one P3 per week.  The best is the P1 or P2s, they are the ones with the Trend.

My ambition is to trade with the Trend....

My only goal is to trade well, not getting results

The only question, I will be asking myself to determine success is:  Was I or am I absolute discipline to my Trading Principles and Rules?

If the answer is yes, then I am in a blissful state no matter.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 16, 2012, 08:40:26 PM
"The game is more important than the money." - Billy Walters
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 16, 2012, 09:04:41 PM
Thank your for the wonderful message. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=be4hYmRwpag&feature=autoplay&list=PLFA5ADF7367143C8A&lf=plpp_play_all&playnext=1
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 17, 2012, 06:24:24 AM
"You Reap what you Sowed"

GALATIANS 6: 7-9 (KJV)
7: Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap.
8: For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting.
9: And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 18, 2012, 07:21:07 AM
 Thank you to the MRS NLY for showing that being a kind and giving human being is the way to happiness.  You're rare and an example for us all to emulate.

Thank you.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 18, 2012, 04:19:09 PM
My desiring results today, late last week or any day, is not good.  There is only one thing I want from the market, and that is absolute Discipline to my trading Rules, nothing more.

At every moment, Absolute Discipline to my Trading Rules.

No more 3 Entries per day, no matter what.

No more entry away from my bollinger band.

And never 1 entry more than my Trading plan.


No matter what is happening.  My only desire is absolute discipline to my trading rules.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 18, 2012, 05:50:47 PM
I know why I am stressed out over the last couple of days.....My desiring brought me to thinking about the beer.

I can't do that, because nothing good comes out of it.

And also again, do not talk about my trading.  Doing so will lead my ego to defend my trading where it does not need defending.

The only thing to do is do not desire results, apply my system, follow my rules, learn from my actions, and nothing else.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 18, 2012, 07:51:37 PM
From Senna:

Wonderful humility

Always be true to your values

If you don't for a gap that exist, then you are no longer a race car driver


Ayrton, thank you for the inspiration and everything else.

My follow up question:  Did Ayrton error in pursuing the technology he once despised in the Williams car?  As a result, did he get away from his real passion, which driving?
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 18, 2012, 08:50:59 PM
Re: LRCX  vs UA

LRCX was against CH
UA topped was with CH
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 19, 2012, 09:08:14 AM
Further Testing is not needed in my system.  The reason is that I am wanting to test how my system will work going with an Over bought SP-500.  However, in trending markets, the SPY will stay in over bought for long durations.  Therefore, it is not necessary to test it further.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 19, 2012, 09:13:22 AM
In our search for greatness or meanings to our existence,  it is never just for us.  Through our efforts and results, we inspire others.  Therefore, whatever we do, it is for everyone in this generation or the next.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 19, 2012, 09:16:51 AM
The controversial 3BR cannot be used, unless.

You are with the emotions of the market.
You're not against convention patterns, like strong support or resistance.


Therefore the 3BR can only be used in very good scenarios, or else it will fail.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 19, 2012, 09:18:59 AM
Trading Growth.

I know I want to pile on more positions, because I am not ready.  Any position I put on will be questionable and born of desire, not of my Trading Plan.

Therefore, I will expand my position 1 per week for every 2,000 in capital earned, and not before.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 19, 2012, 09:25:35 AM
Be careful of the trap of thinking that I am good enough or I have mature enough to experiment with less than great patterns and entries. 

Be careful of the trap of thinking that now I am better, and the market should be giving me money. 

There is no such thing, except continual learning and absolute discipline my Trading Rules at all times.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 19, 2012, 09:26:19 AM
As distorted as some teachings are, for most of us guidelines are better than no guidelines.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 19, 2012, 09:27:28 AM
Thank you for the recent lesson of BBBY, TKR, and RHT, also for the lesson is being focused on Trading Plan.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 19, 2012, 02:33:42 PM
I can think of many examples that desiring results can lead to Negative Results. 
Poker at Windstar (up 3,000), gave it all away, because I desired results.
$4,500 for Summer.

Watching your PNL diminish will trigger tilt or bad action.  Do not focus on PNL or Chips.

My only focus will be "Absolute discipline to my Trading Plan"
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 19, 2012, 04:33:37 PM
I need to manage my trades better too by moving my stops and minimizing my losses.  The profits will take care of itself.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 20, 2012, 06:07:11 AM
Uncle Txawj, thank you for teaching us such humility.  That is the one quality that I will try to emulate from you.   - Best wishes
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 20, 2012, 08:59:29 AM
"The difference is not your pay check.  The difference is your philosophy. " - Jim Rohn
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 20, 2012, 09:41:15 AM
"My youngest daughter is like a frog in cream." - Jim Rohn

Part 35, 7:40
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 20, 2012, 09:45:56 PM
What we think, we become.

An idea that is developed and put into action is more important than an idea that exists only as an idea.

However many holy words you read, however many you speak, what good will they do you If you do not act on upon them?

Teach this triple truth to all: A generous heart, kind speech, and a life of service and compassion are the things which renew humanity.

Words have the power to both destroy and heal. When words are both true and kind, they can change our world.

There have been many Buddhas before me and will be many Buddhas in the future.

All living beings have the Buddha nature and can become Buddhas.

We are the same as plants, as trees, as other people, as the rain that falls. We consist of that which is around us, we are the same as everything.

Neither my life of luxury in the palace nor my life as an ascetic in the forest is the way to freedom.

If we destroy something around us, we destroy ourselves. If we cheat another, we cheat ourselves.

As soon as we think we are safe, something unexpected happens.

No one can escape death and unhappiness. If people expect only happiness in life, they will be disappointed.

Life is dear to all beings. They have the right to live the same as we do.

Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.

In the sky, there is no distinction of east and west; people create distinctions out of their own minds and then believe them to be true.

Hunger (for things) is the supreme disease.

Do not overrate what you have received, nor envy others. He who envies others does not obtain peace of mind.

Work out your own salvation. Do not depend on others.

Awake. Be the witness of your thoughts. You are what observes, not what you observe.


There is no way to happiness, happiness is the way


Life can only take place in the present moment. If we lose the present moment, we lose life.

The cause of all pain and suffering is ignorance.

A dog is not considered a good dog because he is a good barker. A man is not considered a good man because he is a good talker.

All that we are is the result of what we have thought. If a man speaks or acts with an evil thought, pain follows him. If a man speaks or acts with a pure thought, happiness follows him, like a shadow that never leaves him.

All that we are is the result of what we have thought. The mind is everything. What we think we become.

All things appear and disappear because of the concurrence of causes and conditions. Nothing ever exists entirely alone; everything is in relation to everything else.

An insincere and evil friend is more to be feared than a wild beast; a wild beast may wound your body, but an evil friend will wound your mind.

Believe nothing, no matter where you read it, or who said it, no matter if I have said it, unless it agrees with your own reason and your own common sense.

Do not overrate what you have received, nor envy others. He who envies others does not obtain peace of mind.

Ennui has made more gamblers than avarice, more drunkards than thirst, and perhaps as many suicides as despair.

Even death is not to be feared by one who has lived wisely.

Every human being is the author of his own health or disease.

Hatred does not cease by hatred, but only by love; this is the eternal rule.

Have compassion for all beings, rich and poor alike; each has their suffering. Some suffer too much, others too little.

He is able who thinks he is able.

He who experiences the unity of life sees his own Self in all beings, and all beings in his own Self, and looks on everything with an impartial eye.

Health is the greatest gift, contentment the greatest wealth, faithfulness the best relationship.

Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned.

However many holy words you read, however many you speak, what good will they do you if you do not act on upon them?

I do not believe in a fate that falls on men however they act; but I do believe in a fate that falls on them unless they act.

I never see what has been done; I only see what remains to be done.

In a controversy the instant we feel anger we have already ceased striving for the truth, and have begun striving for ourselves.

It is a man's own mind, not his enemy or foe, that lures him to evil ways.

It is better to conquer yourself than to win a thousand battles. Then the victory is yours. It cannot be taken from you, not by angels or by demons, heaven or hell.

It is better to travel well than to arrive.


Just as a candle cannot burn without fire, men cannot live without a spiritual life.

Just as treasures are uncovered from the earth, so virtue appears from good deeds, and wisdom appears from a pure and peaceful mind. To walk safely through the maze of human life, one needs the light of wisdom and the guidance of virtue.

Let us rise up and be thankful, for if we didn't learn a lot today, at least we learned a little, and if we didn't learn a little, at least we didn't get sick, and if we got sick, at least we didn't die; so, let us all be thankful.


No one saves us but ourselves. No one can and no one may. We ourselves must walk the path.

On life's journey faith is nourishment, virtuous deeds are a shelter, wisdom is the light by day and right mindfulness is the protection by night. If a man lives a pure life, nothing can destroy him.

Peace comes from within. Do not seek it without.

Teach this triple truth to all: A generous heart, kind speech, and a life of service and compassion are the things which renew humanity.

The only real failure in life is not to be true to the best one knows.

The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, nor to worry about the future, but to live the present moment wisely and earnestly.

The tongue like a sharp knife... Kills without drawing blood.

The way is not in the sky. The way is in the heart.

The world, indeed, is like a dream and the treasures of the world are an alluring mirage! Like the apparent distances in a picture, things have no reality in themselves, but they are like heat haze.

There are only two mistakes one can make along the road to truth; not going all the way, and not starting.

There has to be evil so that good can prove its purity above it.

There is nothing more dreadful than the habit of doubt. Doubt separates people. It is a poison that disintegrates friendships and breaks up pleasant relations. It is a thorn that irritates and hurts; it is a sword that kills.

Those who are free of resentful thoughts surely find peace.

Thousands of candles can be lighted from a single candle, and the life of the candle will not be shortened. Happiness never decreases by being shared.

Three things cannot be long hidden: the sun, the moon, and the truth.


To enjoy good health, to bring true happiness to one's family, to bring peace to all, one must first discipline and control one's own mind. If a man can control his mind he can find the way to Enlightenment, and all wisdom and virtue will naturally come to him.

To keep the body in good health is a duty...otherwi se we shall not be able to keep our mind strong and clear.

To live a pure unselfish life, one must count nothing as one's own in the midst of abundance.

Unity can only be manifested by the Binary. Unity itself and the idea of Unity are already two.

We are formed and molded by our thoughts. Those whose minds are shaped by selfless thoughts give joy when they speak or act. Joy follows them like a shadow that never leaves them.

We are what we think. All that we are arises with our thoughts. With our thoughts, we make the world.

You can search throughout the entire universe for someone who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and that person is not to be found anywhere. You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe deserve your love and affection.

You will not be punished for your anger, you will be punished by your anger.

Your work is to discover your work and then with all your heart to give yourself to it.

- The Buddha
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 21, 2012, 05:21:14 PM
I think my study is correct on the Swing trade, because I can see the forest.  However when I am live trading or doing paper trading, I feel that I can get lost. I am going back to my most recent years and visiting my S1, S2 to understand what it is that I am really looking for.  I am seeing some S1 and S2 patterns that I do not feel comfortable taking.  I am not sure why, and I want to understand why I thought of the pattern.  I am going back and marking with Arrows my exact entry so that I can review better when I want to.


Find my list Review of Swing Study.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 22, 2012, 06:32:23 PM
Despite reducing my candle Trigger to only one of 5 components, it still has the final say in the sense that if we have a very negative candle, then the trade is a no go, especially on 4 ranked trades.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 24, 2012, 02:11:46 PM
Daniel Shannon

If U come up with a VISION 4 what “good” looks like N UR life, U deserve 2 C it come to fruition. Chase it as if nothing else will suffice!

Thank you for reminding me.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 24, 2012, 03:21:04 PM
ABX  vs NEM..... :)

Despite ABX having the slightly better chart, it was up against more support. 

In NEM, there is no resistance.  The stock is more free to follow through. 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 24, 2012, 05:34:07 PM
I think it falls more into the psychology side assuming system is in place and 90% of the trades are profitable trades. For instance, Sun Tzu said in Art of War, never interfere with the generals plans once it is executed. In corporate, the Chairman does not interfere with the Executives' plans once it is set. For trading, once the trade is in place, never interfere with it's trading plan. Win or lose, it's trusting in the trade, the general, the corporate executive.

Or it is said in business that if you're in business and you have to be there, you own a job. It is when you own a business and still generate income without you there. Therefore, that is why franchises are some of the most successful businesses. A well established franchise is like a well defined, low risk, high probability trade. Each trade is a franchise itself. Let it do it's job regardless of news, weather, recession, depression and etc.

So then perfecting the trade entries using quantifying and our feedbacks is like building a well established, proven franchise. I'll call this the technical side. With the above angles, it's the psychology or business side.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 24, 2012, 05:44:06 PM
The errors of wanting to get into a trade....becau se....

TKR   1.1
NVLS  .45
RHT    .7

2.25

This is only a lesson.  It is the past, and I will learn from all my errors and improve on my entries and everything else I need to.

Thank you for the lessons of the past three weeks, especially last week.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 24, 2012, 07:16:34 PM
"All created things must past, strive on, diligently."   - the last words of The Buddha
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 24, 2012, 07:20:45 PM
"Be your own lamp. Seek no other refuge but yourself. Let truth be your light". -- The Buddha.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 25, 2012, 07:22:28 AM
Because we do fear retributions from them, our attitudes towards helpless animals reflect our true nature that is within us. - from The Story of India
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 25, 2012, 10:10:53 AM
I found a reason to paper trade.  Comparison and education of trading in my system.  The emotional lesson, I will work on that side by side.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 25, 2012, 03:00:08 PM
Before you talk, listen.
Before you react, think.
Before you criticize, wait.
Before you pray, forgive.
Before you quit, try.

- Donnita

By way KVH

Thank you
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 26, 2012, 09:03:38 AM
That was a very good question on the stress of trading. The answer is that we all get stressed because we are desiring something that chances are may not be happening.  Our stress is created by our emotions of fear, greed, and desire of results.  All of which has nothing to do with success in trading, but can only derail trading success.  The answer is that we have to measure our success using another yardstick, not results.  Our success should be measured by ability to execute our rules, and not results.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 26, 2012, 10:13:18 AM
My garbage trades has cost me:  6 x 1.32 = 7.94

My lack of definition on entry made me miss very good trades.  9

Therefore, with quantified criteria, I will be able to look at my trades with more objectivity.


Thank you for the great lesson from last week.  It is what I needed.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 26, 2012, 03:50:40 PM
JWN  vs SPG

Although they look very similar, the chart in JWN has more resistance built in.  The SPG chart had less resistance. 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 26, 2012, 06:18:06 PM
Looking at it from Quant will

Eliminate dangerous trades 10
Get me into sensible trades 11

Do not move away from Quant.  It allows me to look at everything objectively.  This is one lesson from this month.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 26, 2012, 08:28:39 PM
Reviewing my trades of the last two months, I know that I am going in the right direction.

Reviewing the errors of the last 2 weeks helped me to find what is missing.

The Quant will definitely allow me see potential trades from a better angle.

Thank you for the lesson.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 27, 2012, 06:39:05 AM
Once I have entered a trade, then the action to follow will be very simple:

1.  Stopped out (1,2, or 3)
2.  Target reached
3.  Time stop

Therefore, there is no need to follow it or look at up and down results, especially during live markets.  It may make me feel good when my positions are up, but it can make me feel bad when my positions are down or I have lost back money that I made.

This emotional up and down has nothing to do with trading success.  In fact, combine the negative emotions with a thought, and you will get an action to disrupt your trading in the worst possible way.  I have recently entered 4 trades that have no value at all in my plan.  I never planned to enter them, because they did not meet the criteria for entry, but did it hoping they would work out.  All because I was watching the performance of my positions.

However, through this journey, I have learned to be objective in my entry selection.  This was the biggest lesson, I was hoping to learn this year, and I am glad to have come across it so early.

I have learned, hopefully, that it is futile to watch my trades fluctuate during the day.  I am still going to be absolute discipline to my trading rules, therefore there is no reason to watch the trades at all.  They will take care of themselves.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 27, 2012, 09:51:55 AM
Thank you Taylor Swift for teaching me that self created fear is preventing me from reaching true freedom, happiness, moskha, and nirvana
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 27, 2012, 10:03:36 AM
If you take nothing away from this, then take this "Every trader I have interviewed, they have found a methodology that fits their personality." - Jack Schwager
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 28, 2012, 03:18:58 PM
I get it now.  I know why I started on my recent hesitation in trading.

1. I was desiring results, because I thought I had reached the next level of consistency
2. When I was given temporary results and it was taken away, I was a annoyed, because of my expectation for positive results.
3. Then I entered a couple of borderline trades, because I did not quantify my entry criteria then.
4. When they got stopped out, I entered a few sub-par trades that I was clearly not comfortable with, for reasons I couldn't explain then
5.  Then I entered a few trades that were not on my list at all, but stabs in the dark. 
6. All these trades were stopped out
7.  It all started with looking at my results and desiring expectations, and then not having a way to qualify my entries I went for marginal trades and then lower those standards even more.......
8.  By last week, I had worked enough to understand my situation.  I entered some trades got stopped out, and got stopped out of my trades from last week.  However, my actions from last week is exactly what I wanted in terms of door and key.
9.  It took making mistakes to find a better door.  It took making mistakes to re-affirm that there is only one key to trading.
10.  Thank you for the experience of set back so that I may grow to become stronger and be absolute discipline to my trading plan.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 29, 2012, 03:17:34 PM
"War is a matter of life and death.  This is the key principle." - from Sun Tzu
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 29, 2012, 04:39:14 PM
You have mentioned Sun Tzu a couple of times, and I have never replied along that line of thinking, because I kept focusing on thinking of our trading plan as a 70% weighted coin in our favor.

I remember Sun Tzu's talk of failure to follow an order.  If there is failure to follow an order, there are only two reasons,  1. The order wasn't clear and its the commander's fault, or 2 the order wasn't executed properly and that is the subordinate's fault.

Okay, when we do not achieve our objective in trading.  There are only two reasons.  1.  Our trading plan wasn't good enough.   2.  If our trading plan is good enough, then we not are executing it properly.

I feel that given the fact that we have quantified our entry brings more objectivity to analysis and making our trading much closer to being good enough.  Therefore it now becomes our responsibility to execute the plan properly.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 30, 2012, 09:19:39 AM
In over extended situations, do hot go against recent an Engulfing Bar.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 31, 2012, 10:55:07 AM
"Success is the steady progress towards the goal you set, daily, weekly, monthly, for your life, for you family, for use business, for your self.

If a man tells me, pretty soon I am cashing it all in and I am going to head for the mountains and live in a cabin and feed the squirrels and live off the land.

I am telling you that if I get a report later than said that this man did that, cashed it all in, head for the mountains, bought a cabin, is feeding the squirrels and living off the land.

If I were to hear that, I would say this man is a smashing success." - Jim Rohn  (part 24 at the 6:30 minute)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 01, 2012, 11:03:42 AM
Grace, thank you for coming into my life.  Please always stay at my side and never leave.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xBLQRmuUXnE&feature=related
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 02, 2012, 09:24:28 AM

David Nassar on Exiting.

Doing the right thing may not seem easy at first, but once you form the habit of cutting losses quickly, it becomes quite routine and very gratifying.  Taking the devil's advice will prove very damaging very fast, but in time you will not hear from him anymore. 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 02, 2012, 11:01:49 AM
I guess found out that I am still paying my breaking my trading rules in NVLS and RHT.  Because my entries and entries, I was restricted from entering a trade, that is now very profitable.

Yes, if I break a rule by taking an action based on desires or negative emotions, it sill make the situation 3 times worst.....
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 02, 2012, 06:02:19 PM
LRCX VS COG

There difference here is that COG had major resistance.  LRCX was against major support.  It looked like it was breaking down, but that was deceptive, because it buying NVLS and that created a fall in the stock.

There with Resistance wins.   Against support lost.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 03, 2012, 09:25:00 AM
Did you see TEN?  My paper trade reached target today.  The lesson I learn from this is do not mess around.  Because I messed around in RHT and NVLS (got in too big with no reason except they were too high, after BBBY for the same reason of irritation).  Later in the day, I cut my position down to half.  They were considered day trades, and so I was limited to one entry per day (for the next 5 days).  I tried to enter Ten, but my order was rejected.

My trades in RHT and NVLS were stopped out, and as a result, I could not get into a good trade too.  The lesson is not in TEN, but my lesson from this is never mess around by breaking rules or taking actions based on fear and desires, because it will make the situation at least three times worst.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 03, 2012, 09:28:22 AM
I know for options it matters, because implied volatility, but does Earnings matter in my Equity Trading?  I don't think it does, but let's keep that in mind.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 03, 2012, 09:30:03 AM
Will we run through periods of less than 50% accuracy?  Just because that is the way it works, and then it will be followed with 90% percent accuracy on more trades too?  Just curious so I am putting this thought down here.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 03, 2012, 09:42:29 AM
Tight Bollinger Bands works best in S2 scenarios, not necessarily S1....
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 05, 2012, 09:00:49 PM
Gold stocks have their own Market Direction VIX, because they do not follow the logic of the market.  The reason is that sometimes Gold stocks are used as hedges, therefore the market can be going down, but they are going up.

So many times, use a .5 for the criteria.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 07, 2012, 06:44:56 AM
I do not like Drinking, as it can easily create an undesirable habit.  Every time I drink, when it doesn't make sense logically, I have put the poison in my mind before putting it in my body.

I do not want to start drinking again ever.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 07, 2012, 10:04:19 AM
Fundamentals of a Winning Attitude.
1. Always be excited.
2. Stop making excuses.
3. Always be "up."
4. Make a total commitment.

Attitude isn't just a little thing, it's everything. Three rules that are critical to our success in all areas of life:
1. Always be positive
2. Always be positive
3. Always be positive


Thank you for these words today.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 07, 2012, 02:05:07 PM
I came across this yesterday....

We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, then, is not an act, but a habit.
 - Aristotle


Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 07, 2012, 02:12:28 PM
Today, and every day I will be a World Class Trader.

Today, and every day I will be one of the best two weeks time frame traders in the markets


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NaoUlSSWUsI&feature=BFa&list=PLB869FE30C4DFAB7B&lf=view_all
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 07, 2012, 07:48:53 PM
RAS - Reticular Activating system
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 07, 2012, 07:52:40 PM
I backed tested it a long time ago, but when we started paper trading.  I was really nervous.  I put on seven trades and was hoping to money.

I will always remember ETN, because all the other trades got stopped out for losses.  ETN was the only trade that was a winner, and I kept the trade until exactly my time stop.  It is easy sometimes to take profits when you are down, but I kept my winner all the way until the end. 

Because of it, I cut my losses in half on the one winner that I had.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 07, 2012, 07:55:00 PM
Sometimes I may consider myself not being there yet, but maybe that is the reason I am not there yet, because my mind believes what I am telling it.

Therefore today and everyday, I will a World Class trader.

Today and everyday, I will be one of the best 2 weeks time frame traders in the market.

Today and everyday, I will be....
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 07, 2012, 07:59:47 PM
Last year, I came up with this trading plan already.  Its not as good, but the main strategy was already there.  I back tested it every day too.  I could not make it work, because even though I had a very good plan, my psychology wasn't ready for success.  The external was there, but I didn't have an internal to match it.

Success is from within, and from this day, I will be absolutely successful from within.

I will be absolute discipline to my trading rules, independent to result.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 07, 2012, 08:05:58 PM
"The key to success is rituals." - Tony Robbins

For an incredible life, practice incredible rituals and standards.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 08, 2012, 05:55:50 AM
I once was an undisciplined trader, I just had to win before I closed out the day and was happy.  I was trading MOS against the trend and I entered a position that is not correct.  I wanted to make some money before I left and took the kids to go snow tubbing.   The desire to make money, small money, made me lose 4 times the amount I wanted to win.  When I was losing, I couldn't pull myself away from the computer. 

I am glad that is in my past.

Here is the lesson:  Whenever I take an action that is based on fear, greed or desire, it will make the situation three times worst.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 08, 2012, 06:00:25 AM
Once I was watching a DVD on trading by Oliver Velez, and he said that 90% of day traders will break their account within 1 year.  I thought that's not going to be me.  If we do not know and understand and exactly how to control our thoughts and actions, if we are not certain of that, then that will be come "ME".  It is in hour human nature to lose in trading or gambling.  In order to win, we have to change the internal dialogue and to change the emotions.  It is even more of an internal journey than an external journey.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 08, 2012, 06:03:03 AM
When I ever I lose money or get stopped out of a trade, I would always review the trade to see what I can do different next time.  On my last two stops, I do not have answer as to what I would do different.  My answers were, I would do exactly the same thing, and the losses were as a result of random fluctuations in the market.

Those comments make me happy, because something internal is beginning to change.  I believe its first time that I started to write like that.

Thank you for the journey.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 08, 2012, 02:35:58 PM
Thank you for the advice, Sir Richard Branson.  Coming from a very confident (egotistical) person such as you, its gold and silver.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VH35Iz9veM0&list=PL5786CD2E89264F69&feature=view_all
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 08, 2012, 07:51:32 PM
Re: a question on success

Would you say if you were successful every single day of the week, then your week is successful?  If every single week of the month is successful, then would you say your month is successful?  And if every single month is successful.... .well you get the idea.

How to define success every single day?  Do you remember those two questions I wanted to ponder every time I think about the market.

Today, did I execute my trading plan exactly the way I wanted and tested? on:
1. Applying my quantified entry
2. Applying my money management rules


Today, was I absolute disciplined to my trading rules?
3. Managing my live orders
4.  Managing my live positions
5. My exit rules

6.  Did I follow through and do my homework today?

It occurred to me that if we did all the above, six criteria, our day is a success.  If we absolutely focus on that, maybe even quantify for 100% goal, then we will achieve our objective.  Can you think of anything else we need to do for success?
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 09, 2012, 10:55:25 PM
I don't know why I got started watching this video, but it makes me think of you, and meeting you.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v_yTphvyiPU&ob=av2e
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 10, 2012, 06:27:47 AM
Interesting Article

The big swings are not driven by a fundamental bet that the bank will be more profitable because the economy is getting better or a real concern that it will lose more money than others if there is a default in Greece.

Instead, Bank of America is the stock of the moment for high-frequency trading, the supercomputer-driven buying and selling that barely existed a few years ago and now accounts for as much as two-thirds of U.S. trading.

In high-frequency trading, investors use computer algorithms to exploit small changes in a stock's price. If a computer can seize on a stock like Bank of America a fraction of a second faster than the rest of the market, it can book a tiny profit.

Those pennies add up over tens of millions of shares a day to produce big gains. And when computers rush to buy or sell a stock like Bank of America, it can result in accelerated moves in the stock price. Buying leads to more buying, selling to more selling.

The stock traded as high as $15.31 last year. Then investors, worried about how deep the bank's mortgage problems might be, drove it below $10 in July. High-frequency traders pounced, and Bank of America's volume exploded. It was 147 million shares last summer. On Thursday, 477 million shares changed hands.

The low price put it in the sweet spot for high-frequency trading. If a high-frequency operation is trading blocks of 100 shares at a time to capitalize on a 1-cent change, there's a lot less risk working with a $5 stock than a $500 one.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 10, 2012, 02:53:42 PM
The life lessons taught by John Wooden have become legend. Here's a collection of some of the greatest "Woodenisms."

"Things turn out best for the people who make the best of the way things turn out."

"Never mistake activity for achievement."

"Adversity is the state in which man mostly easily becomes acquainted with himself, being especially free of admirers then."

"Be more concerned with your character than your reputation, because your character is what you really are, while your reputation is merely what others think you are."


Jeff Lewis/US PresswireWoode n's wisdom has withstood the test of time.

"Be prepared and be honest."

"Be quick, but don't hurry."

"You can't let praise or criticism get to you. It's a weakness to get caught up in either one."

"You can't live a perfect day without doing something for someone who will never be able to repay you."

"What you are as a person is far more important than what you are as a basketball player."

"Winning takes talent; to repeat takes character."

"A coach is someone who can give correction without causing resentment."

"I'd rather have a lot of talent and a little experience than a lot of experience and a little talent."

"If you don't have time to do it right, when will you have time to do it over?"

"If you're not making mistakes, then you're not doing anything. I'm positive that a doer makes mistakes."

"It isn't what you do, but how you do it."

"Ability is a poor man's wealth."

"Failure is not fatal, but failure to change might be."

"Consider the rights of others before your own feelings and the feelings of others before your own rights."

"Do not let what you cannot do interfere with what you can do."

"Don't measure yourself by what you have accomplished, but by what you should have accomplished with your ability."

"It's not so important who starts the game but who finishes it."

"It's what you learn after you know it all that counts."

"It's the little details that are vital. Little things make big things happen."

"Talent is God-given. Be humble. Fame is man-given. Be grateful. Conceit is self-given. Be careful."

"The main ingredient of stardom is the rest of the team."

"Success comes from knowing that you did your best to become the best that you are capable of becoming."

"Success is never final; failure is never fatal. It's courage that counts."
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 10, 2012, 05:54:51 PM
Thank you John Wooden for teaching your definition of success.  As all success are the same, now you definition of success will become my definition of success as well.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 10, 2012, 08:20:36 PM
I will always make a choice for patience and calm every day.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 12, 2012, 11:34:24 AM
"(...) The archer ceases to be conscious of himself as the one who is engaged in hitting the bull's-eye which confronts him. This state of unconscious is realized only when, completely empty and rid of the self, he becomes one with the perfecting of his technical skill, though there is in it something of a quite different order which cannot be attained by any progressive study of the art (...)"    - Zen in the Art of Achery
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 12, 2012, 11:36:18 AM
http://www.seykota.com/tribe/pages/2003_July/July_6-12/index.htm


http://tradingcrude.blogspot.com/2012/01/zen-and-art-of-trading.html
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 12, 2012, 11:49:24 AM
http://www.bigmiketrading.com/trading-journals/4211-zen-art-small-account.html

Thank you for the story, I hope you achieve your success.

Here goes....

So my account size started at $5,000. Its all I had left after a 15 year mortgage career that both made me almost "rich" and then took it all away. I got close. I made over 2 million dollars over a 6-7 year period. I owned commercial real estate, no debt other than my house, traveled a lot and gave a lot of money away.

But when the real estate collapse happened here in Arizona, it took my brand new mortgage office I had just opened with $250,000 of borrowed money and flushed it down the toilet. I lost the mortgage business, an Allstate insurance agency I owned, $1,000,000 of commercial real estate and filed a business BK to keep the creditors from taking everything else. I got off easy. Many of my friends lost their wives, their kids and one guy I know was homeless for a bit. I managed to keep those things and my health as well. I am fortunate!

I tell you this so you know where I am coming from. I know how to make $25-40K a month. I've done it once and I think I can do it again. The first time I did it, I did it in a business I knew nothing about but learned very rapidly. Just like in trading, the mortgage business was all mental.

The account size is no longer $5,000. I have refunded it a couple of times over the last year. The guy that got me into trading said it would take $10,000 and a year to "get it" and become profitable. It has taken every bit of that.

But I thought I was too smart for that. After all, I was in financial services, I traded interests daily and was very good at it. But my time horizon was always a month out, so I guess you could say I was swing trading rates. Trading against the customer that is.....so I figured I could do it in 6 months. LOL....that is funny. Shows you what being arrogant will get you. Frustration in spades.

Fast forward 16 months to today. I am finally beginning to show some consistency on sim. I decided to trade my small sim account as though it were my actual account for a month. In other words, if I could develop an edge in sim, I can do it with real money.

Even though my account is not $1,000 that is the amount I will start with for this journey. Why, because at one point, my account was down to $1,000 and that's when I decided to find out how to trade instead of chasing the holy grail. That was about 4 months ago. You can read my elite journal (aztrader's journal) if you want to read more about this. I figure some of you are at the $1,000 level and are desperate to find out how to make that $1,000 blossom into a stead income.

This post will include my daily trades, my thoughts, and a spread sheet tracking my equity curve.

I am not perfect. In fact, I'm probably not the person to have this thread. But I had the idea and just went with it. Here is my promise to you. I will be 100% transparent about this journey. Nothing held back. If it happens, you know about it. In return, please be honest with me as well. It'll be good for the thread and others will benefit from your thoughts as well.

I hope you find value in this thread.....ple ase make sure to leave me your feedback. Its important.

Next post is about what I think are the essential rules and strategies for turning a small account into a living.

Start small but think big...thats what I say!
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 12, 2012, 09:16:02 PM
http://www.seykota.com/tribe/TT_Process/index.htm
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 13, 2012, 06:06:49 AM
My friend, find your happiness and joy in golf and you will find winning again.

Tiger Woods tends to have a pretty good handle on state of his golf game, but it's safe to say even he didn't see the meltdown coming Sunday at Pebble Beach. Less than 24 hours after Woods holed his final putt on 18 on Saturday to close out a stellar 5-under 67, he showed up for his head-to-head battle with Phil Mickelson with a chance to not only beat one of his biggest adversaries, but also capture his first official Tour win in more than two years.

But there was just one problem: Woods forgot to bring his swing to the course. In one of the most shocking rounds we've seen from him since his first-round implosion at the 2011 PGA Championship, Woods completely lost it at Pebble Beach, blowing his tournament hopes to pieces with a final-round performance that will certainly have him wondering where it all went wrong.

How bad was it? Put it this way: Woods' amateur playing partner, Tony Romo, shot a lower final-round score … and he was playing as a scratch golfer. But that wasn't the only black eye for Woods. He didn't just lose the tournament to Mickelson — who was two shots behind Woods when the day started, he finished the final round with a 3-over 75, which was 11 shots worse than Mickelson's 8-under 64.

"I didn't hit it as bad as the score indicated, but I putted awful," Woods said after his round. "I just could not see my lines. I couldn't get comfortable."

As CBS analyst Nick Faldo noted during the closing holes of the tournament, if Mickelson and Woods were going head-to-head in match play, the match would have ended 7 and 5. Simply put, it was a "Mickelson Massacre."

[Related: Phil Mickelson wins Pebble Beach, reminds everyone why he's a future Hall of Famer]

As quickly as the good vibes came in for Woods following three rounds in the 60s this week, they all but disappeared like the surf in Stillwater Cove in a matter of a couple holes on Sunday. Woods looked robotic in the final round, rehearsing his swing over and over again in an attempt to try and find it on the back nine. But it never came back. Hard as it is to believe, Woods went from owning his swing for a majority of the tournament to looking completely lost when it mattered most.

We've seen Tiger take two steps forward and three back over the last couple of years as he tried to rebuild his confidence and swing with instructor Sean Foley, but after after watching him fail to make a move during the final round in Abu Dhabi, and melt down on Sunday, you have to wonder what's next for Woods.

Based on all the progress he's made over the last few months, it's hard to believe the final-round struggles are going to turn into a trend (Tiger's made too much headway to make that assumption). But if he gets himself in this position again and fails to produce on Sunday? Well, expect the
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 13, 2012, 07:17:39 AM
"Opportunity is a haughty goddess who wastes no time with those who are unprepared."

"Will power is but the unflinching purpose to carry a task you set for yourself to fulfillment. If I set for myself a task, be it ever so trifling, I shall see it though. How else shall I have confidence in myself to do important things?"

"When I set a task for myself, I complete it. Therefore, I am careful not to start difficult tasks, because I love leisure."

"A part of all I earn in mine to keep...let it be not less than one-tenth and lay it by...but lay by that portion first...what a rich feeling it is to own a treasure upon which you alone have claim."

"Counsel with wise men. Seek the advise of men whose daily work is handling money."

"That what each of us calls our 'necessary expenses' will always grow to equal our incomes unless we protest to the contrary."

"A man's wealth is not in the coins he carries in his purse; it is the income he buildeth, the golden stream that continually floweth into his purse and keepeth."

"Every owner of gold is tempted by opportunities."

"I urge all men to be in the front rank of progress and not stand still, lest they be left behind."

"Procrastinator ...he accepts not opportunity when she comes. He waits. He says I have much business right now...Opportun ity, she will not wait for such a slow fellow."

"Men of action are favored by the Goddess of Good Luck."

"A bag heavy with gold or a clay tablet carved with words of wisdom; if thou hadst thy choice, which wouldst thou choose?"

"Help must be given wisely, lest...in our desire to help we but take upon ourselves the burden that belongs to another."

"How can you call yourself a free man  when your weakness has brought you to this? If a man has in himself the soul of a slave will he not become one no matter what his birth, even as water seeks its level? If a man has within him the soul of a free man, will he not become respected and honored in his own city despite his misfortune?"

"The soul of a free man looks at life as a series of problems to be solved and solves them, while the soul of a slave whines, 'What can I do who am but a slave?'"
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 13, 2012, 09:00:59 AM
Here's a quote from The Richest Man in Babylon that summarizes the three key lessons learned in chapter one:

You have learned your lessons well. You first learned to live upon less than you could earn. Next you learned to seek advice from those who were competent through their own experiences to give it. And, lastly, you have learned to make gold work for you.

Simply great advice. Here's how I translate these three key learnings and recommend you apply them:

1. Spend less than you earn. It's the one way that the majority of people reading this can become wealthy.
(A part of all I earn is mine to keep.)

2. Seek advice from people/resources you know and trust. This means friends and family as well as magazines (I recommend Money), books (here's my recommended list) and websites like Free Money Finance. Learn all you can with the intention of becoming your own best advisor. In my opinion, the best manager of your money is you.

3. Make your money work for you. Simply said, invest the amount you generated from spending less than you earn (I like index funds as investments) and do this for many, many years. Then, time and the power of compounding will start to work for you -- making you wealthy over time.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 13, 2012, 07:44:39 PM
From 'The Richest Man in Babylon'

Every gold piece is a kind of slave to work for you. Every copper it earns is its child to work for you.   If you want to become wealthy then what you save must earn and its children must earn.  In this way your abundance grows.

“Wealth like a tree grows from a tiny seed.  The sooner you plant the seed the sooner it grows”

“A part of all I earn is mine to keep (not less than 1/10th)”
Do not hoard money, but make your money become your slave and work for you, and its children and children’s children
Council wise men who knows about money, who’s business is to work with money.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 14, 2012, 01:16:32 PM
I ran into an interesting situation today. 

I never want to carry more than my 14 positions, because that is my maximum.  However when I put orders out there, I do end up more than 14 positions.

My solution is to cut away the positions that are set to expire tomorrow.  Cut one bad for one good.  They have already had their chance to perform.  It's now time to make the money work somewhere else.

I also ran into another situation as well.  I ran into a position that almost expired, but there is still time left.  However, there is a large negative candle against the position.  Therefore, I covered the position, and it also helped my compliance with my maximum amount of positions as well.

My actions today was a little different from my plan of action, but they are consistent with position management for success.  I didn't think of this before, because I have yet to encounter the situation, but the solution does make sense.  Thank you.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 14, 2012, 05:43:39 PM
V vs MCD

They both displayed similar patterns, but clearly one is a better growth stock, for the fact that its a newer IPO.

V
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 14, 2012, 06:10:42 PM
Thank you for the lesson:


Zen and the Art of Trading

I am a trader.

I have a plan.

I follow it.

Trading is boring.

Perhaps Zen is boring.

Perhaps boring is good.

MUTs are exciting.

Perhaps exciting is bad.

Yes.

Let me first state that anything I say has worked, or not worked, for my trading, and my trading only.

It may have absolutely nothing to do with your trading and any implementation of my thoughts toward your trading may make it worse.

I have learned that I will not get all the moves in the market place. I have always theoretically known this but have not been able to implement it. In other words I kept chasing the "missed" trades.

Curve fitting a system to take yesterdays missed trades is idiotic.

Have I mentioned humans are stupid?

Dr. Brett Steenbarger states one of the keys to trading success is recognizing when market conditions change and then adapting your trading technique to the new conditions.

I disagree.

I can't do that, I wind up chasing last weeks market conditions in this weeks market.

What I have to do is use a plan that has minimum and maximum conditions in it. Before my plan always had minimum conditions to be met in order to trigger trades, it now (last 5 months or so) has maximum conditions as well. I could call my system the Goldilocks trade. I only want the porridge luke warm.

So there are more days now when I just sit here.


I sit here and do nothing.

The results have been nice, higher win rate, higher RR, less trades, less comm, and a sense that I have a niche in the market, a niche that works, I just have to sit here and wait for it.

    “I've wondered why it took us so long to catch on. We saw it, and yet we didn't see it. Or rather we were trained not to see it. Conned perhaps into thinking that the real action was metropolitan and all this was just boring hinterland. It was a puzzling thing. The truth knocks on the door and you say, "Go away. I'm looking for the truth." And so it goes away. Puzzling.”

    Robert M. Pirsig
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 14, 2012, 08:20:38 PM
VISIONaries see what's invisible to others! Vision Speaks Louder than Words - by way of Daniel Shanon
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 15, 2012, 09:50:20 AM
Why did I not enter any trades in my Options account?

There are many opportunities to enter, and I have only one trade to show for.

There should be at least a couple more trades.


My biggest regrets is not being in charge of my thoughts.....
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 15, 2012, 10:50:07 AM
Yes, it is true whenever I break a rule out of fear, greed or desire.  It makes the situation three - four times worst.

DVN
OMC
Swk

My system works very well......I am glad to have found it, and I will never break a rule or fail to apply my trading system again.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 15, 2012, 11:36:15 AM
I can't believe I gave away my confidence in one of my stocks.......I had it right and I didn't have enough confidence to follow through on my analysis.  That will not happen again.  NYX
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 15, 2012, 11:39:08 AM
I don't know other people, but I have a hard time memorizing Hmong Cultural phrases.  Sometimes, I feel "Stupid", then I reflect on how it becomes impossible for us to memorized other telephone numbers now, and it make sense that most our new generations in the US have adapted to not having a need to memorized cultural phrases, just like the telephone numbers scenario.

We can still do it, but it will be a little more work.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 15, 2012, 11:54:18 AM
I notice that I find myself too easily on the verge of carrying 140% of my equity.  That may be too much exposure for comfort in general, on the rare chance that the market turns......

If I adjust my position down a little by 10%, my max positions will be 126%, which is a lot more bearable.

I have worked out the numbers for both figures, and they are still very respectable as well.   In this business it's always best to error on the side on caution and safety........

I will continue to test at 140%, but will keep my options open at 126%.

The reason, I brought this up, because we have a general tendency to max our positions.  The other thing I notice too is that I have to be more careful with my Trigger valuation.  I may need to be a little more conservative on that component.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 15, 2012, 08:07:06 PM
Earnings do not matter.....how ever I have to be consistent and apply my rules at all times.  If earnings is tomorrow morning, I can back off until afterwards.

Earnings so far do not matter.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 15, 2012, 08:35:55 PM
I have to be more careful on my Triggers, I am giving too much weight where there is not that much.  I have to give it fair weighting and that's it.

I have to also think about my support and resistance.  Give it fair weight, and not more than it deserves.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 15, 2012, 09:06:31 PM
For many reasons, it is always a mistake to interfere with a trade, especially out of fear or greed or desire.   It is always a mistake.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 15, 2012, 09:08:43 PM
I have been wondering how my system would work in a mild retracement.  I am glad to have my system tested.  Had I been more aware, I might have had better days with my system early.  Getting great results is not my objective anyways.  Apply my plan and rules is.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 15, 2012, 10:10:54 PM
I know why I had been a little off the last couple of days.  I have been wanting to see these positive closes turn into positive strong moves the next day, and I have been not getting it.  I have been desiring positive results, along with all the paper work I had sort out, that is why I couldn't watch my thoughts better.

Thank you for letting me know, again, that desiring results can only lead to frustration... ..and unproductive actions.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 16, 2012, 05:48:39 AM

VISIONaries are the bearers of new possibilities! We paint the horizon line! Be an artist, be a Visionary!  - Daniel Shannon
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 16, 2012, 10:19:47 AM
Are you a stock broker or a trader? j/c

Thank you for asking.  I am a stock Trader.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 16, 2012, 10:21:16 AM
The messing with Trades before their exit time is getting to me at this minute.  I am learning that breaking rules will only make the situation 3-4 worst time.  Thank you for the hard lesson, I am having to experience at this minute.


My system works very well.  Today, and everyday, I will execute my trading plan, exactly as tested and the way I wanted.

Today, and everyday, I will be absolute discipline to my trading plan and rules.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 16, 2012, 11:51:07 AM
Do you manage portfolio for other people?

Not quite yet, but that is my objective.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 16, 2012, 02:52:20 PM
"There is no knowledge without sacrifice.  This is one of the hard truths of human existence.  In order to gain anything, you must first lose everything." - Jane Hirshfield, Poet
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 16, 2012, 02:58:04 PM
Dissatisfactio n (not desire) = Suffering

I see myself not satisfied because the market has gone up and I am not maximum long or if I am very long, I am fearful because the market has sold off today.

Both condition has nothing to do with success, and dwelling in it will lead to actions which makes either situation 3-4 times worst.

In my study, I have already detailed the route to success.  It is only through follow that path that makes its a success, there is not other path to success, no matter how tempting.

Over the last couple of days, I have begun to understand this message a little better.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 16, 2012, 02:58:59 PM
Suffering didn't begin with birth and end with death
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 16, 2012, 03:01:04 PM
The step of renunciation of dying  in one's life is essential to being reborn as someone who sees. - WS Mervin
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 16, 2012, 03:03:53 PM
Your reality is nirvana.  It is your ignorance that makes you think you're separate by turning off the Universe.

We are burning craving and desire, we have to put the fire out.   - The Buddha
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 16, 2012, 03:07:23 PM
"I am leaving your teaching, because it doesn't tell me if there's life after death or there's another world."

"Did I ever say I would give the answer to those things.  Because these are things you do not need to know.  The things you need to know is how to deal with suffering, because at this moment what made you ask that very question is suffering." - The Buddha
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 16, 2012, 05:48:33 PM
The Dilemma or paradox of BHI has came back to even the score. 

That's okay, because I deserved the lesson when I broke my own rule and then I was dancing in it when it went in my favor. 

It came back to even the score in the form of DVN and SWK.....I will never execute a trade like the exit of BHI, DVN, and SWK again.  It is too laced with desire for results.

My solution that works, and benign of emotional content, is a moving stop.  For example for BHI, put the stop two points lower, for SWK, I had my stop already, but I overwrote it, and with DVN, a moving stop would have worked beautiful

The best thing about this solution is that it allows me to be independent of results, and keep my mind......Than k you. :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 16, 2012, 08:44:53 PM
Thank you Linda Raschke:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wsH6fWVP3Z8&feature=related
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 17, 2012, 10:31:44 AM

Thank you for the lesson:


Zen and the Art of Trading

I am a trader.

I have a plan.

I follow it.

Trading is boring.

Perhaps Zen is boring.

Perhaps boring is good.

MUTs are exciting.

Perhaps exciting is bad.

Yes.

Let me first state that anything I say has worked, or not worked, for my trading, and my trading only.

It may have absolutely nothing to do with your trading and any implementation of my thoughts toward your trading may make it worse.

I have learned that I will not get all the moves in the market place. I have always theoretically known this but have not been able to implement it. In other words I kept chasing the "missed" trades.

Curve fitting a system to take yesterdays missed trades is idiotic.

Have I mentioned humans are stupid?

Dr. Brett Steenbarger states one of the keys to trading success is recognizing when market conditions change and then adapting your trading technique to the new conditions.

I disagree.

I can't do that, I wind up chasing last weeks market conditions in this weeks market.

What I have to do is use a plan that has minimum and maximum conditions in it. Before my plan always had minimum conditions to be met in order to trigger trades, it now (last 5 months or so) has maximum conditions as well. I could call my system the Goldilocks trade. I only want the porridge luke warm.

So there are more days now when I just sit here.


I sit here and do nothing.

The results have been nice, higher win rate, higher RR, less trades, less comm, and a sense that I have a niche in the market, a niche that works, I just have to sit here and wait for it.

    “I've wondered why it took us so long to catch on. We saw it, and yet we didn't see it. Or rather we were trained not to see it. Conned perhaps into thinking that the real action was metropolitan and all this was just boring hinterland. It was a puzzling thing. The truth knocks on the door and you say, "Go away. I'm looking for the truth." And so it goes away. Puzzling.”

    Robert M. Pirsig
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 17, 2012, 06:06:19 PM
INTU  2/16/2012.

Should I stay from this pattern?  Or grade it lower?

Breakout that is over extended.



Similar to MRK.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 17, 2012, 06:07:54 PM
A bullish Trigger on a weak day signals a very good long candidate.


A bearish Trigger on a weak day signals a very good short candidate.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 17, 2012, 08:30:13 PM
No one ever made it to my job by taking stupid risk - From the movie 'The Adjustment Bureau'
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 18, 2012, 07:31:26 AM
The little reasons for failure.

I guess what has really been bugging me was the little reasons for liquidating my positions.  The little reasons, that are not consistent with my exit rules.....  The problem with these little reasons is that by listening to them they allow human emotions to creep in and eventually take over what is a very good and well tested exit strategy.  By listening to the little reasons, one is already factoring fear and desire, one of the greatest reasons for failure....My failure to execute DVN became from the likes of BHI, SWK, and OMC....my resolve was already weakened by  compromising for the little reasons.

My overall system is very good.  It is the best I could come think of, and:

I will execute my trading plan, exactly as tested
I will be absolute to my trading rules, at all times (regardless what the market is showing)
I will do my home work and review

I will always remember to execute my plan, independent of the little reasons.  They can do nothing but lead to failure.  The little reasons are struggling, trying, effort, or force.   Zen in trading "Just like archery, whenever there is effort, force, struggling, straining, or trying, it's wrong."
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 18, 2012, 08:03:13 AM
I am getting better.  I am executing my strategies better.  Despite set backs, my progress is getting better.  And it will continue to get even better.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 21, 2012, 07:57:28 PM
Thank you Ed.....

Trading Tribe Member Philosophy

 

Trading Tribe members tend toward a common set of beliefs.

I like to promote the personal growth of all members.

I like to be intellectually and emotionally open.

I have mastery of basic trading concepts.
   
I like Freedom, Free Enterprise and Capitalism.   

I like to show a profit.   

I commit to consistent attendance.

I like active listening, mirroring, pacing and encouraging Fred.

I use intentional language:

Feeling-intensive.

Grammar: SVO-p: Subject-Verb-Object, present tense.   

No Direct Questions, especially "Why?"

Share feelings: wonder, confusion, curiosity.

No judgments or advice or name calling.

No direct advice; no use of the word, should.

Validate feelings of others.

I realize results indicate intentions.

I use problems as entry points for growth.   

I Follow Trends - and don't try to figure out the markets.   

I let winners ride and I cut losses and I manage risk,   

I believe in holistic evolution, not linear causality.

I celebrate my feelings.   

I care about the feelings of others.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 21, 2012, 08:18:36 PM
The market will stay irrational for much longer than you can stay solvent.

Re: Two trading mistakes which will destroy your account


1. Knowing you're right in your analysis, but the market is moving against you.
2. Trying to avoid missed opportunities
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 21, 2012, 09:11:19 PM
Thank you for an interesting 2 hours.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VT50SV3W5K0
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 22, 2012, 09:24:57 AM
Could it be that you're on to something with Entering a pattern too early?  Thank you for bringing it up.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 22, 2012, 01:23:23 PM
Thank you for weighing in Support and Resistance.  Otherwise, I would have missed out on many good trades.  I should consider it better too for stocks that have trended higher already.......
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 22, 2012, 02:48:10 PM
Do you go by any other nick? j/c

Which one(s) do you think is also me?  Guess right and I won't deny it.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 22, 2012, 02:50:10 PM
Thank you for weighing in Support and Resistance.  Otherwise, I would have missed out on many good trades.  I should consider it better too for stocks that have trended higher already.......

A Great reason to favor the support criteria, potential breakout move.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 22, 2012, 09:11:12 PM
Maybe I'll pm you instead.

Ok
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 22, 2012, 09:34:11 PM
I have to be more careful with stocks that have made that extra move after trending higher already....... VNQ.....MRK
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 23, 2012, 06:00:03 AM
Yesterday and today, I am so reminded, for the first time that it is so close to home, the impermanence of our World. 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 23, 2012, 10:42:29 PM
When the lower BB pulls up to tighten, it is a great sign........fo r a strong pattern.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 27, 2012, 08:49:36 AM
To John:  Thank you for stopping to help me and tow my car.  I am so use to stopping by and helping others, and now I am on the receiving end.  Thank you for reaffirming goodness and kindness in people, and I will remember to pay it forward, as usual.  Thank you and Wishing you the best my friend.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 27, 2012, 04:16:18 PM
Thank you for a great week and a half of successful trading. 

I executed my trading plan exactly as tested and the way I wanted on...
Detached to results, I was absolutely discipline to my trading rules....
I finished my daily and weekly homework and reviews....

Thanks.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 28, 2012, 01:57:59 PM
Just Decide, ask for exactly what you want......

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c3OGivKM-6M
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 29, 2012, 10:13:07 AM
Thank you for testing me today.  This is what I was waiting for.  I am all one way, and let the market turn against me and see how my theory works.

Thank you.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 01, 2012, 06:11:42 AM
Thank Carlos for your words of wisdom.


Leadership doesn't matter when things are going well.  Go for only 3-4 elements that of change, that would make a difference.



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hEZ7NV3VHVc
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 02, 2012, 08:10:57 AM
Our emotions twist our reason and logic into thinking that it fits or is right when it doesn't.  Thinking back that was why I would think of such a crazy idea as N.Y.  Clearly I have to make sure that I make use of my reason and logic at all times, so that I do not error.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 06, 2012, 02:59:14 PM
This is better for me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8BrI1-tVjyg&feature=related
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 06, 2012, 06:25:02 PM
Funny, my mind is not my mind today.  It is driving my thoughts in directions that I know I do not want to go.  It is like a crazy emotional monkey.   I guess emotional moments can do that to a person.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 06, 2012, 07:24:32 PM
To a fellow kwv luag

It was very good to meet you again.  Thank you for saying hello in such a warm fashion.  I do admire your courage to strive and go forward, and I will use your example as strength to help in my own journey.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 06, 2012, 10:48:46 PM
I may have overstayed my welcome on my Market Criteria.  I think I have to be more flexible and not use the moving average, but rather answer the question of would I get into the SPY at this point.  Would I still strongly get into it, and then consider the VIX into it.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 07, 2012, 06:58:57 AM
I have not yet broken a trading rule, but out of shared emotional stress, I have compromised too much of my other principles.  This needs to stop immediately.

There is no reason to compromise any principles at any time.  Doing so is like breaking a trading rule, it can only make situations 3-4 times worst.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 08, 2012, 12:19:59 PM
The conclusion I have come is this: If you do not have a plan for achieving success, then you will not have success in anything.  The most important thing is plan for it and execute your plan
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 08, 2012, 12:21:24 PM
My recent lesson in my trading journey is that I have to watch my variables better.  I cannot call it trending or a great pattern when it is no longer so.  I rather enter a trade that has all (or most) of my variables working in harmony.

Value my variables more conservatively
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 08, 2012, 12:41:59 PM
Most traders with a good system wash out of the markets because psychologicall y they are not prepared to win. - Alexander Elder
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 08, 2012, 03:37:37 PM
My consolidation needs to be consolidation and not a topping pattern......
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 08, 2012, 04:04:39 PM
The only thing I have is my mind, I cannot poison with chemicals and thoughts ever.

And that applies to everything that I have decided at one time or another that it wasn't good for me.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 08, 2012, 08:53:22 PM
It was suggested to me by a very successful trader that when he came across these twelve steps he it made a difference for him in his results.


These are the original Twelve Steps as published by Alcoholics Anonymous:[10]

    1. We admitted we were powerless over alcohol—that our lives had become unmanageable.
    2. Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
    3. Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.
    4. Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
    5. Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.
    6. Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.
    7. Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.
    8. Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all.
    9. Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.
    10. Continued to take personal inventory, and when we were wrong, promptly admitted it.
    11. Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood Him, praying     only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out.
    12. Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to alcoholics, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 08, 2012, 10:01:10 PM
One thing I changed that has the potential to give me larger losses on more volatile stocks is my Stop.

I have to keep track of it and maybe change it back.  A wider stop will serve its purpose for longer trades, but my trades could be too short to give that kind of stop.  So I will monitor this change in variable.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 09, 2012, 10:18:08 AM
I imagine the psychotic individual who's hurt and has a very skew definition of reality, someone who can hurt and kill others.  My vision is to be just as psychotic, except for one thing, I will not take but give.  I will not ask what's in it for me, but how can I make each situation better for others. 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 09, 2012, 01:22:01 PM
I have to re-adjust my position size to incorporate a average.  The price I will use for determining position is  (.75xP + .25xAverageP)/2.  Therefore I will increase position size to large stocks by a little and decrease position size to smaller stocks by a little.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 09, 2012, 03:37:07 PM
One thing that I wanted to do was stay away from "Riding the Band Situations." unless the rating is really high.

I rode the band in CLF, WLT, FCX, and X.

CLF. - Too many negative bars......Ridi ng the Band
WLT - No execution at Bollinger Band
FCX -  No execution at Bollinger Band....execut ion was away from band. (order would have expired)
X - No execution at Bollinger Band....execut ion was away from band, after time expired..... (order would have expired....)


There were no clear signals or patterns in these trades, when I got my execution.  I have to do a better job of staying within my discipline and avoid these costly errors based on wish and hope.

I would not have taken these trades, because they did not fit my entry criteria.  I had to stretch it so that fit and doing so with a poor trigger.

Even though they four trades meet my valuation criteria, they did not have an execution trigger.  None of the trades were at the Bollinger band when they were executed.

These trades are Not executable.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 09, 2012, 04:00:21 PM
No matter how good a trade Rates, if its not executable then its not a trade.

I do not go against large ENG to start a reversal.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 11, 2012, 09:07:39 PM
Thank you for such colorful and nice nieces and nephews that spent a couple hours with today.  I never noticed it before.  Thank you to such caring grandparents as well, always looking to teach us whenever we were willing to listen.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 11, 2012, 09:19:04 PM
Thank you for the recent set back in my trading.   There is always a great lesson to be learned when we are able to look past results.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 12, 2012, 04:27:50 PM
I am powerless over my Trading Plan and Rules
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 12, 2012, 04:33:46 PM
The three M to winning in Trading by Stuart McFee
1. M - Mindset
2. M - Methodology
3. M - Money Management


The three keys to winning in Trading by Alexander Elder
1. Psychology
2. Market analysis and methodology
3. Money management

The Trader is the weakest link in a trading system
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 12, 2012, 04:36:42 PM
"You can only succeed in trading only if you handle it as a serious intellectual pursuit.  Emotional trading is lethal. To help ensure success, practice defensive money management.  A good Trader watches his capital as carefully as a professional scuba diver watches his air supply."  - Alexander Elder

Thank you very much for writing your book and sharing with your penetrating analysis on what it takes to succeed in trading.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 12, 2012, 05:57:56 PM
Today is a Trading success, because....

I executed my trading plan exactly the way I wanted and tested and the way I wanted.

I was absolute discipline to my trading rules

I did my trading homework and reviews
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 12, 2012, 06:01:10 PM
When I was reading a psychiatrist's description of alcoholics and I realize that I am an alcoholic. 

I am powerless over alcohol and I will never have one drink again.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 12, 2012, 06:13:17 PM
Trade with your eyes open

Every winner needs to master three essential components of trading: 1. a sound individual psychology, 2. a logical trading system, and 3. a good money management plan.  These essentials are like three legs of a stool - remove one and the stool will fall, together with the person sits on it.  Losers try to build a stool with only one leg, or two at the most.  They usually focus exclusively on trading systems.
Your trades must be based on clearly defined rules.  You have to analyze your feelings as you trade, to make sure that your decisions are intellectually sound. You have to structure your money management so that no string of losses can kick you out of the game.

- Alexander Elder
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 13, 2012, 05:15:00 PM
My system, but so far I am drawn to less attractive trades that have slowed down my result.

That's okay as long as I continue to learn.

APKT vs ASML   - ASML is clearly the better choice, because of it is trending.

Metals, against LRB makes it a  no entry.... given two choices, pick trend over cheapness.

EQR, qualifies, but I cannot enter my order too far away, or else, I will not get fill at all.



The recent lessons that

1. Execute exactly as tested.   Tame my quantifying of my criteria.  They are too strong..... when its trending. 
2. Take trades with trend, over cheap stocks.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 14, 2012, 07:44:48 PM
P3  Counter Trend is only after......ove r extended run, not against a Recent Cross in the moving averages.   That is why NEM and ABX failed...
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 14, 2012, 07:46:12 PM
Despite the fact that its under performing right now, I am still very discipline to my trading plan.

I have to give better thoughts to my entry and their valuation.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 14, 2012, 07:48:39 PM
The Five Laws Of Gold

1. Gold cometh gladly and in increasing quantity to any man who will put by not less than one-tenth of his earnings to create an estate for his future and that of his family.

2. Gold laboreth diligently and contentedly for the wise owner who finds for it profitable employment, multiplying even as the flocks of the field.

3. Gold clingeth to the protection of the cautious owner who invests it under the advice of wise men in its handling.

4. Gold slippeth away from the man who invests it in businesses or purposes with which he is not familiar or which are not approved by those skilled in its keeping.

5. Gold flees the man who would force it to impossible earnings or who followeth the advice of tricksters and schemers or who trusts it to his own inexperience and romantic desires in investment.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 14, 2012, 07:55:05 PM

For strength in the middle of discouragement, let VISION fuel your courage! - Daniel Shannon
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 14, 2012, 09:47:28 PM
http://www.aliceboyes.com/via-signature-strengths-questionnaire-free/
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 15, 2012, 11:01:56 AM
The Serenity Prayer is the common name for an originally untitled prayer by the theologian Reinhold Niebuhr.[1] The prayer has been adopted by Alcoholics Anonymous and other twelve-step programs.

The best-known form is:

    God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
    Courage to change the things I can,
    And wisdom to know the difference.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 15, 2012, 11:04:42 AM
Thank you for my recent set backs in trading.  Because of it, I know exactly where my work lies.  My system works and does work very well.  My rush to prove that it works well made me apply it too quick.

I realized that I entered trades that were not part of the plan, and at the same time I missed trades that would have worked. 

My system does work, and I am glad for the lessons that I am learning concerning the execution of my system and Trades.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 15, 2012, 11:27:00 AM
We adapt when we have no choice, when there's a choice we struggle.....
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 15, 2012, 11:31:26 AM
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The beauty of the tap code is not only that it allowed communication, but the communication strengthen the Vietnam POW fortitude to survive, grow, and thrive.

We all need tap codes in our lives.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 15, 2012, 11:34:58 AM
Thank you for you very powerful and spiritual wisdom.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=izEWkq2l8gY&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fVod66zqoF0&feature=related
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 15, 2012, 02:05:58 PM
Thank you for your beautiful contribution to my growth and well being.  I am so glad to have met you yesterday.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nuKklYvceOE&feature=related
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 15, 2012, 02:40:32 PM
Today, I rid myself of false teaching that money is evil and that a rich person will never get into heaven.  This teaching was giving to me and others to scare us into giving all our money and wealth to the church, and nothing more.  Yes, there is truth in the fact that if one pursues money all your life, you may miss out on the real lesson life has to teach.  There is truth in the fact that money is is not the key to happiness.  However that's like anything else in life.  Therefore today, I will rid myself of the false teaching that money is evil.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 15, 2012, 02:43:14 PM
Why does a trader as successful as Ed Seykota spend so much of his time delving into the subject of feelings?
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 15, 2012, 02:43:59 PM
PSD - Poor, Smart, and Deep Desire to become rich
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 15, 2012, 02:44:44 PM
Answer the Questions.

"Now what?"
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 15, 2012, 02:46:29 PM
Stress in trading....str ess .....I have been learning about stress lately from a couple of source.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 15, 2012, 02:47:23 PM
Our Morals are our rules for our own happiness....w hen we break them ultimately we suffer, therefore we must never break them, not for others, but ourselves.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 15, 2012, 02:50:07 PM
Sunk Cost Experiment.

Having bought a $10 ticket and then losing ticket.  88% will not, repurchase ticket again.

Or Not having bought ticket yet, but losing $10.  46% will not purchase ticket.

Get rid of addiction to Sunk Cost.....it is devastating to success in trading

Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 15, 2012, 02:53:41 PM
I see it more as a matter of choosing between what is in accord with your nature of changing your nature to accord with your dreams.  Most people don't recognize this as a choice point.  They get praised into a career.  You're good with people, you should be a sales person or you're good in math, you should be a computer programmer.  Few realize that it is possible to hold their dreams constant and vary their behavior until they are good at what they need to be good at.  And usually, there is a bit of both.   - Trend Following
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 15, 2012, 02:57:09 PM
If you're going to chase success, the basic principles, the basic psychological requirements are the same, no matter what you do in life.  You still have to wake up every day with a deep desire to be successful.  Then you have to make it happen.  You have to be consistently focused every day.  You can't just wake up and say, hey, I'm going give a little bit of effort today and see what happens.  If it doesn't work out for me, I can say I tried and complain to my wife or girlfriend. You can't just jump around because the newspaper or some TB analyst says, here's some get rich quick scheme or holy grail.  You must know what you're going to do, be keenly aware of the role human behavior plays, and go make it happen.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 15, 2012, 02:57:59 PM
To freshen a room a room, open a window.  Works for minds too, and for hearts. - Ed Seykota
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 15, 2012, 04:33:32 PM
Karen Levine:  Thank you for sharing your story of humility.  I find it to be very inspiring for this time in my life.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 15, 2012, 08:01:38 PM
Dexter is the first to admit that all of his and Birdie's accomplishment s-business, charity, personal, and family-are the result of hard work. "Nothing much happens without working to make it happen," he says. "If you can accomplish a goal without working, chances are the goal has little value. I want to help people understand that a dream unrealized is a dream imprisoned by your greatest enemy: fear of failure!" Dexter finishes this thought with perhaps his best-known advice, heard by countless thousands of people the world over:


"Don't Let Anybody Steal Your Dream!"
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 15, 2012, 08:20:21 PM
Three good things today....

1.  I was absolute discipline to my trading plan.....I have not yet broken a rule. However I do need to work on my entry.
2.  I reviewed my entry situations.  The trades that were less than 4 resulted in 11 losses out of 12.  That is a very good reason to check and double check my criteria.
3.  I ventured out and checked out a possible solution for my future.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 16, 2012, 08:18:13 AM
I think the market's resilience in bouncing back in the long run reflects human's resilience and striving for to growth and prosperity.

No matter how bad things get, our human spirit, once tested, always reflect the best in us.  That is why the market seems to be trending ever higher, in the long run.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 16, 2012, 01:03:24 PM
Thank you again, Louise.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wu-U_rvtIKA&feature=related

Awareness is the first part of the journey.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 16, 2012, 01:32:54 PM
When you want rain.....do not pray for rain, but imagine yourself in the wet soaking rain.  Feel the joy of the rain, and give thanks for the rain that you already have.......Thi s also works with anything else you want in your life as well....
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 16, 2012, 02:42:28 PM
There's a law and a process....pla nt a seed in the ground and it will grow.  Whatever you want, plant a seed, water it and it will grow.


Because no gardener ever goes out and says, "Give me some vegetables and I will water you."
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 16, 2012, 02:43:44 PM
Trading is not about buying into companies.   It is about making money, nothing more.

The best measure of your intention is the result you get.

Absolute return vs Wall Streets standard of aversion to the mean.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 16, 2012, 02:44:39 PM
If you don't risk anything, you risk even more. - Erica Jones
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 16, 2012, 02:51:07 PM
What is the book "Trend Following" telling me?  It is telling that my system works, and I have to pursue it, learn, and execute my trading plan exactly the wanted and tested.....
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 16, 2012, 02:54:29 PM
Wall Street works hard to make what they do, which nothing more than buying and holding, appear complex and sophisticated.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 16, 2012, 03:51:49 PM
I didn't take SOHU.  I checked and double checked it, but I didn't take it.  For me to take it, I would have had to have taken it after the first day.  I didn't take it because it didn't make any sense now...... The qualify was there, but I didn't take it.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 16, 2012, 03:53:28 PM
I know that my system works..... be patient and keep executing my trades the way I wanted it.  Do not be distracted by results, but keep focusing on execution exactly as tested.

In the old days, I would have been short and struggling now.  I have broken away from that and I am trading it the way I wanted to.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 16, 2012, 07:41:58 PM
Weekly Review.

For this week, I went back and noticed that some of the trades that I labeled incorrectly were devastating to my account.

Some were not correctly valued, some were not correctly entered, some should not have been entered at all because my order has expired.

Not correctly valued:
1. Too much confidence
     1. ROK - Too much valuation on (Trigger or Support)
     2. TXN - Too much valuation on Pattern
     3.  CE - Not a Trigger.  Over value.
     4.  NEM & ABX - Candle was not strong enough.  It is actually weaker than I assigned.
     5.  BBBY - Overvalued. (does not qualified).  The previous time qualified, because there was a stronger signal.
2.  Error in judgement
     1.  CLF - With Pattern, Trigger needs to be close to Band 
     2.  DE - Too much valuation on BB


Not Correctly Executed:
1. No real Trigger (not at BB or no Swing)
   1. MRK - No Trigger at all.           
   2. WLT - No Trigger or execution         
   3.  MAN - No real Trigger                         

All these positions were long, but they failed in a rallying market.  They possess the potential to work really well, but they need to be executed exactly according to my criteria.

By valuing my entries better, I will be executing my trades exactly the way I wanted.  This is my lesson for the week.

2.  Allowed Original order to stay too long.





Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 19, 2012, 04:40:15 PM
Discipline!...discipline!!....discipline!!!....is today's subject!!!!

Someone wrote this today.....and it occurred to me that to achieve discipline, one has to change one inner beliefs or else the internal struggle will lead to failure, or lack of discipline.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 19, 2012, 05:56:07 PM
The common denominator... ..for beating cancer......(despite all the treatment) is changing a thought.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 19, 2012, 06:00:22 PM
How did I get into a loving relationship with my ex-wife?  How did I get to make all that money?  Through constructive thoughts of success and feelings.


How did I get here?  Poor and wife-less?  Through negative, fearful thinking.  Through thinking what's in it for me?

How do I rebound and excel even higher?  Yes.....throug h constructive, joyous thinking of success.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 19, 2012, 06:01:12 PM
It is through our trials and suffering that awakens our purpose in life.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 19, 2012, 06:17:46 PM
Re-looking XOM and BBBY.

XOM was successful, because the candle trigger was better.

BBBY failed, because the candle trigger was not that strong.  There were many positive candles, and one DOJ, which did not justify an entry.

The lesson is that every thing counts and so therefore make sure to take the Triggers seriously.  Do not rush to get in on Entry.   BBBY worked the previous time, because it had a really strong candle.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 19, 2012, 06:55:39 PM
I was on my way to being really Rich, and then I got sidetracked by the fact that I didn't know enough, about the methods and myself, to accomplish that goal.

I was on my way toward a wonderfully fulfilling life with my true love, until I got sidetracked by the fact that I was not worthy of such love yet, because I didn't have it inside of me.

Therefore I had to wait patiently and learn to become a rich and loving person inside and take up my journey to love, richness, and happiness again when I am prepared enough.

Thank you for making me pause so that I can learn to be a better person for others and for myself. :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 19, 2012, 08:16:50 PM
"The only way to avoid whipsaws is to stop trading." - Ed Seykota
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 19, 2012, 08:51:19 PM
"Life shrinks or expands in proportion to ones courage." - Nais Nin
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 19, 2012, 08:53:21 PM
The value of a disciplined trading approach is that it allows you to design your strategy during non-stressful times.  Then, when the markets are tough, you need only to execute your plan rather than being forced to face difficult decisions under pressure when you are mostly likely to make mistakes. - Rob Romaine
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Calypso on March 19, 2012, 09:20:19 PM
I've been reading bits and pieces of ur thread for awhile now. Just wanted to say that u got a lot of good stuff here--very interesting and insightful. Keep it up.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 20, 2012, 10:15:59 AM
I pulled something..... .


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IxjQ6E0Bu4c
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 20, 2012, 10:17:49 AM
I've been reading bits and pieces of ur thread for awhile now. Just wanted to say that u got a lot of good stuff here--very interesting and insightful. Keep it up.

Thank you for taking the time. 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 20, 2012, 10:22:05 AM
One of the most rarest feats in golf is not the hole in one, but the double eagle, aka as the albatross.  It is getting a 3 under in hole.  You can't even get it in par 3 whole, but only in a par 4 or par 5.

The only double eagle that is also a hole in one accomplished by Andrew Magee in 2001.  Here are the details:


In the history of the PGA Tour, there has been only one ace on a par-4, and it came at the TPC Scottsdale, home of the FBR Open.

The hole was No. 17, the year was 2001, and the golfer was Andrew Magee. But the circumstances were anything but normal.

Magee, just an average driver of the ball, didn't think he'd be able to reach the green on the 332-yard par-4. So he didn't wait for the group ahead to clear the green. Instead, he teed up, and - steaming over a double bogey two holes earlier - muscled up. He let her rip, and the ball went farther than he expected.

So far that it ran up onto the green while the group of Steve Pate, Gary Nicklaus and Tom Byrum were still putting. The ball raced past Pate and Nicklaus, who both saw the ball, then clanged off the putter of Byrum, who was caught by surprise.

The ball ricocheted off Byrum's putter, caromed about eight feet, and dropped right into the cup. Hole-in-one. Still the only par-4 ace on the PGA Tour, and surely one of the more unusual aces of any kind on the tour.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 20, 2012, 10:27:20 AM
If you trade on a definite trend-following loss limiting-method, you can "trade" without taking a great deal of time from your regular business day.  Since action is taken only when certain evidence is registered, you can spend a minute of two per market in the evening checking up on whether action taking evidence is apparent, and then in one telephone call in the morning place or change any orders in accord with what is indicated.  Furthermore a definite method, which at all times includes precise criteria for closing out one's losing trades promptly, avoids....emot ional unnerving indecision.  - Donchian

"Of course to reach the minute or two takes preparation time.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 20, 2012, 08:58:47 PM
One of the lessons I want to learn from having had you in life is that I will never desire anything so much that I would compromise my principles to attain it.

Without my principles, I am homeless.  My principles is my haven of fortitude, and I will never destroy it, for anything or anyone again.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 20, 2012, 10:06:02 PM
Revisiting SOHU:

The reason for:  The rating on the Quantify is very good.

The reason against:  The entry was actually a day late.  Given normal entry parameters, I would have entered higher by 2 points. 

The reason for justifying a late entry on that day....because the candle trigger was so strong that I had to stay away.  The candle trigger was so strong that it did not make sense to enter on that day.  Therefore the delayed was justified.....

For such a rating, I have to take the trade....
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 20, 2012, 10:11:20 PM
Why should you invest with me when I have failed in the past?  Because it is my failure that is my greatest teacher.  It is my failure that will help propelled us to consistent future success.

When I made markets, I have also failed, and sometimes very badly.  However it is my failure which lead to better questions and ultimate consistent success. 

They say 90/100 people will fail in trading.  However, in that 10% that succeeds perhaps 80 - 90 percent of them will have gone broke many times before achieving consistent success.  Therefore more than 95% of those that venture into trading will have failed, and it is up to them to pick themselves or not.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 21, 2012, 08:35:03 AM
I was jogging today and reflecting on a very strong emotional dream I had 15 years ago.  Why was it so emotional strong?  How can overcome it or how can I view it in a more constructive light?

And I finally have answer after all these years.....I gave myself permission, through my subconscious mind, to experience it so strongly.  I will not reflect so strongly on things in my past anymore.  My past is for learning and nothing more.  It is a tool for survival and growth, which is my purpose here.  I will not dwell, long for, or fear anything in my past, but live for each day to build for a better tomorrow. 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 21, 2012, 08:53:23 AM
I saw this funny "truth" on facebook about guitars.

http://www.dailydawdle.com/2011/10/funny-guitars-thats-exactly-how-they.html
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 21, 2012, 11:54:03 AM
Thank you Jenny for your help..... I hope we both find what we're looking for.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 21, 2012, 11:55:41 AM
No matter how well I do in the future, I want to always remember this trying and special time in life.  It is this uncertain time that I was able to reach inside and ask what do I really want.  Thank you for making me pause to find myself on my way to everlasting happiness.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 21, 2012, 01:14:10 PM
Over the weekend, I suddenly found myself distracted with negative thoughts of whats in it for me?  Then suddenly I realized that I have to turn the thoughts around, by asking what it is I would want for the other people involved?  What I would want is their happiness..... So therefore their happiness is more important than mine and what I can do to make their situation a little better?
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 22, 2012, 06:52:47 AM
Sometimes I think I could be "curve fitting" or "Smooth fitting" my system to make it very nice and neat.  However, I don't think that is the case.  I arrived at my system intuitively and then proceeded to develop and test my system.  That is where I am at, and not the other around.

My system was develop from intuition (BB), and not through curve fitting.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 22, 2012, 07:32:51 AM
The Front page on Yahoo Finance says,


Global Economy Fears Stalk Markets
AP

A run of poor economic figures weighed on markets Thursday in what is turning out to be one of the worst weeks for stocks this year.


It makes you almost think that the market will be down over 200 points.  However the Dow is projected down 68 points, NASD -13, and SPX -8.

They either have drama writers at yahoo or they are trying to influence the market.  Why?  Because with the recent run up, we are still trending up very much, and one would expect any retracement as well.  I have to stop paying to the dramatic titles here at Yahoo finance or anywhere else and keep to my methodology and plan.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 22, 2012, 12:04:20 PM
You taught me to focus so much on myself, because you focused so much on yourself.  You wanted attention for every little thing that you do.  Sometimes you want it so bad that you would take it away from others and little childish games.

I no longer feel that is the right path and I do not share your beliefs, therefore I will do what it takes to stay away from that.   Thank you for teaching me, finally, that what we see isn't always the right path to take.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 22, 2012, 12:43:03 PM
I think I spent too much money on the herbalife product for myself to try.  The reason I did so is that I know how it will work before actually convincing others.

I don't think most people will want to spend that kind of money, not to mention actually following through with the discipline which is the more difficult part.

I will try it for a month and see if I see any results.  If I do not become a distributor, perhaps I can find some GNC products to supplement a nutrition idea similar to herbalife.

Yes, that became a little more than I thought I wanted to spend.  But I wanted to know and learn.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 22, 2012, 01:17:08 PM
How do I weigh the market criteria at a stage like this......it is harder for me to give such a high rating......


Perhaps my rule of thumb should be would I buy the market SPY index right now?  And then proceed from there.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 22, 2012, 05:48:26 PM
Three good things today.

1.  I execute my trading plan, exactly as tested on money management  rules and my entry
2.  I am absolute discipline to my trading rules on managing my live orders, managing my live positions, and my exit rules.
3.  I accomplished my daily home work....



Thank you for watching my thoughts today....
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 22, 2012, 06:04:07 PM
What licenses do you need to start or manage a hedge fund?

    24 August, 2008 -
    Hedge Fund Questions and Answers -
    Tags : blue sky laws, broker-dealer, FINRA, Investment Advisers Act of 1940, NFA, Series 3, Series 63, series 65, Series 66, Series 7
    14 Comments

Question: What licenses do you need to start or manage a hedge fund?

Answer: This is a question that comes up quite often. Many people wonder whether they need a series 7 license or the series 65 license or the series 3 to manage a hedge fund. First, a potential hedge fund manager does not need to have a series 7 license in order to manager a hedge fund. The series 7 license is the general securities representative licese which allows an individual to be a representative (broker) of a FINRA registered member firm (brokerage firm or broker-dealer). The series 7 allows a representative to take and place trades for a customer. It is also a prerequisite for many of the other FINRA exams (such as the series 24). Because the hedge fund in not regulated as a broker, a hedge fund manager does not need to have a series 7 license (assuming that the manager is also concurrently acting as a broker-dealer representative).

Second, a start up hedge fund manager may need to have a series 65 license in order to become registered as an investment adviser. There are two potential ways a hedge fund manager would be required to register as an investment adviser – under the federal rules (the Investment Advisers Act of 1940) or under the various state rules (commonly referred to as the state blue sky laws). If a manager is required to register with the SEC under the Advisers Act* then, for federal purposes, the manager will not need to have taken the Series 65. However, the Advisers Act allows states to impose certain requirements on all federally registered investment advisers with a place of business in their state. Generally the states will require all federally registered investment advisers to “notice file” in their state which entails paying a fee to the state. The state can also require that all investment adviser representative s have the series 65 license. This means that anyone who talks to clients/investors or makes any trading decisions or analysis will need to have this license. The definition of investment adviser representative basically encompasses every employee or owner of the investment adviser other than secretary type employees. If you are a federally registered investment adviser you should discuss whether members of your team need to be licensed as representative s at the state level.

If you are not a federally registered investment adviser (generally all managers with less than 30 million of assets under management) then you will need to determine whether your management firm needs to be registered as an investment adviser at the state level. Many states require investment advisers with a place of business** in the state to register. Some popular states that require investment adviser registration are California, Texas, Washington and Colorado. However, there are many states which have exemptions from the registration requirements. Some popular states that have exemptions (through regulation or special order) from investment adviser registration for hedge fund managers are New York, Connecticut, Florida and Georgia. Again, you should speak with your legal counsel or compliance professional to determine whether your hedge fund management firm will need to be licensed as an investment adviser in the state.

Finally, if the hedge fund trades futures or commodities then the manager may need to be registered as a commodity pool operator with the National Futures Association. In order to register as a commodity pool operator at least one person at the management company will need to take the Series 3 exam. For more information on the Series 3 exam and this part of the registration process please read how to register as a CPO or CTA.

* Many potential hedge fund managers are confused with whether a management company will need to be registered as an investment adviser with the SEC. The answer is that in most cases a hedge fund manager will not have to be registered as an investment adviser with the SEC because of an exemption provision within the investment advisers act. Section 203(b)(3) of the Advisers Act specifically exempts from the registration provisions “any investment adviser who during the course of the preceding twelve months has had fewer than fifteen clients and who neither holds himself out generally to the public as an investment adviser nor acts as an investment adviser …” The term “client” in the hedge fund context means a “corporation, general partnership, limited partnership, limited liability company, trust …, or other legal organization … to which you provide investment advice based on its investment objectives rather than the individual investment objectives of its shareholders, partners, limited partners, members, or beneficiaries…”

This means that as long as a hedge fund manager will not need to count the investors in the hedge fund as his “client” and that the hedge fund itself is the only “client.” You will probably recall that a couple of years ago the SEC proposed a change to the rules under the Advisers Act that required a manager to count all of the investors in the hedge fund as clients. Under the proposed rule hedge fund managers would have been required register with the SEC (if they had at least $30 million under management), but Phillip Goldstein successfully challenged the SEC in court. His successful challenge to the rule change allows hedge fund managers to escape SEC regulation.

** “Place of business” of an investment adviser means: (1) An office at which the investment adviser regularly provides investment advisory services, solicits, meets with, or otherwise communicates with clients; and (2) Any other location that is held out to the general public as a location at which the investment adviser provides investment advisory services, solicits, meets with, or otherwise communicates with clients.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 22, 2012, 07:23:24 PM
Did I oversold myself on the Herbalife and therefore missed out on reason, logic, and practicality.?
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 22, 2012, 09:32:01 PM
“I discovered later, and I'm still discovering right up to this moment, that is it only by living completely in this world that one learns to have faith. By this-worldliness I mean living unreservedly in life's duties, problems, successes and failures. In so doing we throw ourselves completely into the arms of God, taking seriously, not our own sufferings, but those of God in the world. That, I think, is faith.”
― Dietrich Bonhoeffer

http://www.goodreads.com/author/quotes/29333.Dietrich_Bonhoeffer
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 23, 2012, 06:19:05 AM
SB,

I had a dream about you last night.  I guess it shows, how close we were at one point.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 23, 2012, 02:07:37 PM
I am asking myself to be a giver, and not a taker.  I am asking myself to be kind to others and always wait patiently for the benefit of the doubt.  I am asking myself to put others happiness others desires, needs and wants ahead of mine.

I am not asking this for a higher purpose or reason or so that I may gain entry into heaven.  I am ask this of myself for the very selfish reason that doing so will make me the happiest in my daily life.  For it is when we desire things that we suffer.  It is when we take from others that we suffer.  It is when we put ourselves first that we suffer inside.  Therefore, for ever lasting happiness, just be happy and give all I can everyday.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 25, 2012, 12:32:34 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q377uHhyNe0

I was driving yesterday morning.  And then I heard an acoustic version of this song, and at the same time I was reflecting on a couple of recent teachings I had in the past, one was from the Odyssey by Homer.  Then I finally understood the message or the teaching of Jesus.  I understand why they wrote the story now, why its true, and why and how we can find Salvation in Jesus's teaching.  

Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 25, 2012, 09:40:57 PM
"I can do everything through him who gives me STRENGTH." - Phil 4:13
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 27, 2012, 07:35:11 PM
Thank u for the small pain in my head over the last couple of days.  It means that I am growing.  :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 27, 2012, 09:33:29 PM
It is through out suffering that we will find salvation, and meaning in our lives.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 27, 2012, 09:36:17 PM
I was going to criticize love ones for their lack of support, then I realize that by doing so, it doesn't make it true.  I am only dwelling in my negativity and eating away at my determination and will for success and happiness.  By doing so, I am only dwelling in negativity, instead of focusing on constructive and positive, enjoying each moment, and finding creative solutions towards achieving my objectives.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 27, 2012, 09:37:31 PM
Thank you for allowing me stay on my path of being the person that I want to be.  No matter what is happening, I have to stay on the path.  I will not put any poison in my mind or my body.  Please help me.....
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 27, 2012, 09:38:59 PM
Today is a success in trading, because I executed the trades exactly the way I wanted.....Ind ependent to results, I am absolute discipline to all my rules, and I accomplished my home and reviews......M y trading is successful today..
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 28, 2012, 07:00:02 PM
"What if, with every thought you have, you are actually creating your present and your future?"  - Louise Hay
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 28, 2012, 07:23:56 PM
The quality of the Trigger is how it happened in relation to the Market.  For example a long trigger happening in a down market is very strong.  A long trigger happening in on a very strong market day is not that strong.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 29, 2012, 05:45:47 AM
The number 1 reason people get fired is tardiness and cheating the clock. 

The number 2 reason people get fired is going to inappropriate websites.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 30, 2012, 07:06:46 AM
The only way to succeed is through a well thought plan and proper execution of that plan.  Success will not suddenly land on my lap through luck.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 01, 2012, 10:45:43 AM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6eWsFFQP0gA
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 02, 2012, 08:40:08 PM
"Do not seek refuge in anyone or anything.  Be your own lamp.  Let truth be your guide." - The last words of the Buddha
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 02, 2012, 09:00:02 PM
The charting on Tradestation may be too good to give up, not to mention the simulation software.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 03, 2012, 04:40:28 PM
Best part of the a very good movie.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u0PUrNwvvBk
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 03, 2012, 06:18:38 PM
What if I was born in the Mountains of Laos (and died there) and never had a chance to come to the USA and never had a chance to know and accept Jesus Christ into my life.  What if then?  Would I be condemned to hell, because I never got a chance to be taught and accept Jesus in my life.  Would I be condemned to hell because I was born somewhere Jesus teaching didn't penetrate.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 05, 2012, 09:12:52 PM
This scene contained one of my favorite quotes.  I kept it for a long time, through failure and success and then I don't have it any.

"Back then, well, I thought there would be other days.  I didn't realize that that was the only day."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y9yrupye7B0&feature=results_main&playnext=1&list=PL1B0B60F9FEB2BAD7
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 08, 2012, 06:30:17 PM
Our future represents our current thought.  Think glorious thoughts and you will have a glorious future. - Louise Hay
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 08, 2012, 09:25:24 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j4WP1MfRoSA
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 08, 2012, 09:27:25 PM
If I ever came across someone who's childishly testing my patience (in any way, shape, or form), may I always have to strength to keep my awareness and take the better road.  There is nothing else that would give me better more satisfaction.. ...
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 08, 2012, 09:29:25 PM
If you ever want to connect with God, you can do so by connecting with God's creation, which is all around you and all that you see.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 09, 2012, 04:25:12 PM
"This is the end -- for me the beginning of life." Deitrich Bonhoeffer's last words.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 09, 2012, 07:39:50 PM
Daniel Shannon
VISION only becomes reality if "plan" and "action" do not part each others company
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 09, 2012, 09:19:48 PM
Ken Tropin of Graham Capital:

In order for a system to be successful, it has to be what I call robust.  Robust means that I can test that system in a market I designed it around.  Say I'm using it in the treasury bonds, and then If I switch that market and I try that system in the Euro, it still works.  And if I change its parameters, it still works.  And if I switch it over to corn-something totally different than treasury bonds-it still works.  And if I look at some data that was out of sample from what I designed it around, it still works.  Then I have something that might be interesting and have a chance of living in the future.  Because the nature of data is it changes a little all the time.  And so the key to success in systems trading is to have what I call a loose fitting suit. I can't have a suit that's so tight and perfectly proportioned to me that if I gain two pounds, it won't fit the data anymore.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 10, 2012, 05:17:13 PM
What is wrong with my current take on the market criteria is that I will be late.....

I will be late when the market has sold off and is over extended.
I will be later when the market has rallied and is over extended.

Therefore from now on I will ask myself the question of whether or not, I will step into the market at this point.  That will be my valuation on my market criteria.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 10, 2012, 05:20:15 PM
Whether you are going or staying or sitting or lying down,
the whole world is your own self.
You must find out
whether the mountains, rivers, grass, and forests
exist in your own mind or exist outside it.
Analyze the ten thousand things,
dissect them minutely,
and when you take this to the limit
you will come to the limitless,
when you search into it you come to the end of search,
where thinking goes no further and distinctions vanish.
When you smash the citadel of doubt,
then the Buddha is simply yourself.
Daikaku
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 10, 2012, 05:22:21 PM
One of my favorite Zen Story.

Ryonen's Clear Realization

The Buddhist nun known as Ryonen was born in 1797. She was a granddaughter of the famous Japanese warrior Shingen. Her poetical genius and alluring beauty were such that at seventeen she was serving the empress as one of the ladies of the court. Even at such a youthful age fame awaited her.

The beloved empress died suddenly and Ryonen's hopeful dreams vanished. She became acutely aware of the impermanency of life in this world. It was then that she desired to study Zen.

Her relatives disagreed, however, and practically forced her into marriage. With a promise that she might become a nun after she had borne three children, Ryonen assented. Before she was twenty-five she had accomplished this condition. Then her husband and relatives could no longer dissuade her from her desire. She shaved her head, took the name of Ryonen, which means to realize clearly, and started on her pilgrimage.

She came to the city of Edo and asked Tetsugyu to accept her as a disciple. At one glance the master rejected her because she was too beautiful.

Ryonen then went to another master, Hakuo. Hakuo refused her for the same reason, saying that her beauty would only make trouble.

Ryonen obtained a hot iron and placed it against her face. In a few moments her beauty had vanished forever.

Hakuo then accepted her as a disciple.

Commemorating this occasion, Ryonen wrote a poem on the back of a little mirror:

    In the service of my Empress I burned incense to
        perfume my exquisite clothes
    Now as a homeless mendicant I burn my face to
        enter a Zen temple.

When Ryonen was about to pass from this world, she wrote another poem:

    Sixty-six times have these eyes beheld the changing
        scene of autumn
    I have said enough about moonlight,
    Ask no more.
    Only listen to the voice of pines and cedars when no
        wind stirs.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 10, 2012, 06:53:51 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=fvwp&NR=1&v=bI8SviHawBo
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 10, 2012, 07:01:34 PM
Last week, I had 16 entries, 7 more than my system Max.  This is not good trading.  My weekly maximum is only 9 total, and that is if I had two stops that week.

This money management rule is for my own protection.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 12, 2012, 06:38:35 PM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ru6rYXI4rn8

Once a long time ago, you wrote a poem for me.  I only remember the beginning and the end now.


XXX XXX XXX
Do you know that I love you

You're so fine
Like the sunshine

Or like the sand
In a faraway land

.....
....

.....
.....

You're like a shining star
Except you're close to me, not far.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 14, 2012, 09:26:59 AM
What is wrong with my current take on the market criteria is that I will be late.....

I will be late when the market has sold off and is over extended.
I will be later when the market has rallied and is over extended.

Therefore from now on I will ask myself the question of whether or not, I will step into the market at this point.  That will be my valuation on my market criteria.

In order to correct this measure.  Everyday I will look at the QQQ, IWM, DIA, SPY (& TRIN) before making a decision on market assignment.  If I simply go by MA, then I will be stuck very long while the market hiccups or very short when the market has a dead cat bounce, could result in minor set backs and irritations.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 14, 2012, 09:38:37 AM
First Analysis

Every day, For Market and VIX, use combination of:
1.   IWM
2.   DIA
3.   QQQ
4.   SPY
5.   TRIN
Market and VIX = (Sum (IWM + DIA+QQQ+SPY)/4 + TRIN)/2

In the context of RC and PA, and rate it by whether I would (or not) enter into the above instrument with the prevailing trend.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 15, 2012, 08:24:30 PM
When I hear this song, I am so reminded of you and your time in my life now.  Since we can't stop time, I will cherish every moment that I have with you all, my beautiful kids.  Have an awesome time in your school and your work, and I will wish you joy and happiness in every single moment of your life.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ichO7gAeOGE
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 16, 2012, 07:07:19 PM
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Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 18, 2012, 05:10:41 PM
Thank you for sharing your wisdom with me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nuKklYvceOE&feature=related
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 18, 2012, 06:40:15 PM
Is it it better to live for 1 second in joy than to live a lifetime in pain?
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 20, 2012, 06:10:25 PM
I was driving to work this morning, and I was pondering the age old question, brain vs brawn.  And I finally realize that its neither.  It's something much more powerful.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 22, 2012, 09:10:56 PM
Yesterday while at my cousin's house, my left leg was attacked by their dog, leaving bite mark.  It is then that I was reminded of the Buddhist quote, "An insincere and evil friend is more to be feared than a wild beast; a wild beast may wound your body, but an evil friend will wound your mind."

I felt so much compassion and kindness toward the dog that bit me and I wished him peace and harmony.

Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 23, 2012, 08:20:32 PM
Thank you for coming into my life very briefly and loving me for nearly an eternity.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wvZSdCTcS-A&feature=BFa&list=PLE9F58720B0ED5BFE
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 24, 2012, 04:40:30 PM
Wealth has to do with consciousness and deserve-ability. - Louise Hay
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 24, 2012, 08:54:00 PM
"Most Illustrious Lord, Having now sufficiently considered the specimens of all those who proclaim themselves skilled contrivers of instruments of war, and that the invention and operation of the said instruments are nothing different from those in common use: I shall endeavor, without prejudice to any one else, to explain myself to your Excellency, showing your Lordship my secret, and then offering them to your best pleasure and approbation to work with effect at opportune moments on all those things which, in part, shall be briefly noted below.

1. I have a sort of extremely light and strong bridges, adapted to be most easily carried, and with them you may pursue, and at any time flee from the enemy; and others, secure and indestructible by fire and battle, easy and convenient to lift and place. Also methods of burning and destroying those of the enemy.

2. I know how, when a place is besieged, to take the water out of the trenches, and make endless variety of bridges, and covered ways and ladders, and other machines pertaining to such expeditions.

3. If, by reason of the height of the banks, or the strength of the place and its position, it is impossible, when besieging a place, to avail oneself of the plan of bombardment, I have methods for destroying every rock or other fortress, even if it were founded on a rock, etc.

4. Again, I have kinds of mortars; most convenient and easy to carry; and with these I can fling small stones almost resembling a storm; and with the smoke of these cause great terror to the enemy, to his great detriment and confusion.

5. And if the fight should be at sea I have kinds of many machines most efficient for offense and defense; and vessels which will resist the attack of the largest guns and powder and fumes.

6. I have means by secret and tortuous mines and ways, made without noise, to reach a designated spot, even if it were needed to pass under a trench or a river.

7. I will make covered chariots, safe and unattackable, which, entering among the enemy with their artillery, there is no body of men so great but they would break them. And behind these, infantry could follow quite unhurt and without any hindrance.

8. In case of need I will make big guns, mortars, and light ordnance of fine and useful forms, out of the common type.

9. Where the operation of bombardment might fail, I would contrive catapults, mangonels, trabocchi, and other machines of marvellous efficacy and not in common use. And in short, according to the variety of cases, I can contrive various and endless means of offense and defense.

10. In times of peace I believe I can give perfect satisfaction and to the equal of any other in architecture and the composition of buildings public and private; and in guiding water from one place to another.

11. I can carry out sculpture in marble, bronze, or clay, and also I can do in painting whatever may be done, as well as any other, be he who he may.

Again, the bronze horse may be taken in hand, which is to be to the immortal glory and eternal honor of the prince your father of happy memory, and of the illustrious house of Sforza.

And if any of the above-named things seem to anyone to be impossible or not feasible, I am most ready to make the experiment in your park, or in whatever place may please your Excellency — to whom I comment myself with the utmost humility, etc."
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 24, 2012, 08:57:39 PM
In the sky there is no distinction of east and west.  We make our own distinctions and believe them to be true. - The Buddha
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 24, 2012, 09:00:44 PM
Daniel Shannon
Your VISION for tomorrow cannot afford to be at the mercy of current frustrations. #getoverit #stayfocused #keepmovingforward
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 25, 2012, 05:20:29 PM
Once, I had a few dollars more than the next guy.  Once, I had for a wife a girl, who was the prettiest girl I ever I saw.  I thought I was special, better than the next guy.  Now I have a few dollars less than the next guy, and I do not have any girl in my life at all.  I am glad they both went away, my money and my girl.  Because then I can truly experience the pleasures of my life, every day and moment.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 25, 2012, 06:56:34 PM
What if all our emotions, which drives our actions, are just programmings to make sure we survive and fulfill our purpose here on earth. 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 25, 2012, 07:02:08 PM
Thank you my brother Tong for your kind action, and mostly your words of kindness and wisdom. 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 30, 2012, 06:27:01 PM
Thoughts of the day:

It takes patience to appreciate domestic bliss, volatile spirits prefer unhappiness. - George Santayana

That's the nature of women....not to love when we love them, and to love when we love them not. - Miguel de Cervantes

It is because of men that women dislike one another. - Jean de la Bruyere

When science discovers the center of the universe, a lot of people will be disappointed to find out they are not it. - Bernard Baily
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 30, 2012, 08:30:06 PM
My not considering the Market VIX better, and patterns carefully cost me 26,887.  I am adjusting to (.25 - 1) and then adding .5. This will give me better objectivity.

I am changing market/vix to whether I would go long or short it.  From there, I can establish my market and vix.

For a particular pattern, I will only consider a higher rating, not the standard.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 01, 2012, 05:15:18 PM
Thank you for the wonderful results in my trading.  I am growing and learning everyday, and one day, I will become the trader I envision now today. :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 01, 2012, 09:18:39 PM
Thank you very much for the $20 dollars you have just given to help us.  I know you worked very hard, for at least at hour or two, for that money and so I thank you so kindly from the bottom of my heart.  Many blessings for your kindness.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 01, 2012, 09:19:54 PM
"Unless you're making mistakes, you're not learning a whole lot." - an MSU student
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 01, 2012, 09:23:23 PM
Thank you for your inspiration. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7ybe5GkMLyg#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7ybe5GkMLyg#ws)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 01, 2012, 09:24:14 PM
I will dedicate my life to giving the best of me every day, to all situations.

Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 01, 2012, 09:25:44 PM
"Unless you're making mistakes, you're not learning a whole lot." - an MSU student

Therefore, thank you for the empowering lessons in trading from April 2012.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 01, 2012, 09:34:25 PM
Thank you to my beautiful kids for coming into my life.  I am so proud of all of you, and I am so blessed to have just wonderful and strong kids in my life.  Let's all grow stronger together. :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 02, 2012, 07:54:50 PM
To my youngest beautiful pretty thing, thank you for teaching me today that I need to have more patience around you.  It is me who has to constantly change, not you.  I love you and I will try harder to love you more.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 03, 2012, 04:38:37 PM
Missed trade.  I am forgetting to grade trades and enter them properly.  I am missing patterns, because of my missed assignments.  My new approach of assigning the patterns makes perfect sense and will work towards getting better objectivity out of my patterns.

My problem is that I am too eagle to make a .25 pattern a .5, example CDE, TJX, ROST, and so on.....
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 03, 2012, 06:38:32 PM
Thank you for the extra honey in Billings MT, and, for a couple of hours, making me wish I was young again.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 06, 2012, 07:38:30 AM
I have to go after the beautiful patterns, like AIZ or APC or TS or AKAM.  That is why I design my system to put more weight on the Patterns.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 07, 2012, 05:19:36 PM
I just realized that I "Stress" is only my own system sending me a message to get better, and nothing more.  The more message I receive, the stronger I will become.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 07, 2012, 05:22:19 PM
At this moment I can feel the stress that I just allowed in block my creative mind and shutting down my mind through negative emotions.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 07, 2012, 07:03:22 PM
We should all be like "The Wolf" and we will find constant joy and happiness.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wWmRTjLRMfU# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wWmRTjLRMfU#)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 07, 2012, 07:04:40 PM
Thank you for the story of Tooj Pov (from Thailand).  It really says that love does build bridge and brings joy and happiness.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 07, 2012, 07:06:20 PM
I will win the inner battle and not get distracted by anything.  The harder the situation, the more calm I will become, because it is then that I need my mind.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 07, 2012, 07:07:46 PM
I ran into two Hmong words, txwv feej and looj mem, and I don't know what they mean.  I kind of get the idea.

Or the phrase "Txhob tseem mus ntaws nyuj qab vag."

"Plaub xaus nceg ntug"   (Plaub ntug)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 07, 2012, 07:12:24 PM
A couple of thoughts I had to day:

1.  To love something is to set it free

2.  Does a woman's love or loving a woman really inspire man. 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 07, 2012, 07:13:15 PM
In life, our desire makes us grow, and then others as well.  It is part of our programming, and maybe nothing more.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 07, 2012, 07:15:22 PM
The power of confessions:

Before one can change his or her ways, you have to be able to say I am wrong.  When people go to confessions, the first thing they say is, "forgive me father for I have sinned."  They have already admitted the first step.  Perhaps confession is a little than just a way for us to mend our ways when we get lost in this world.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 07, 2012, 07:19:39 PM
I have hear so many people talk about how good this or that food was a long time ago.  Since I am getting older, what if perhaps love is just like good food.  It is better in the past when we held a certain emotional attachment to it.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 07, 2012, 07:24:00 PM
HWY52 Patience:

I was driving on HWY52 toward St Paul on Friday and suddenly the cars stopped, and I quickly made an exit.  I, then, proceed to find my way to zigzag to my destination, which is the Legacy Funeral Home.  As, I was under the concord bridge, I noticed the large Truck that was in front of me cruising nicely over the bridge.  I could not get on the freeway.  The lesson is  that most of the time it is better to simply be patient in traffic, rather than zigzag around.  You may be moving, but in all sorts of direction.  Stay the course, learn patience, and you will arrive there much faster.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 09, 2012, 08:48:59 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BnD6ojjA0OA# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BnD6ojjA0OA#)

I use to listen to this song a long time ago.  Thinking of find "it" or "someone" to disprove this song.  I then heard the song again today while driving my beautiful kids home, and I realized that I have found what I am looking for, bliss.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 09, 2012, 08:50:13 PM
I live in a world of I can......I will not live in the other world anymore.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 09, 2012, 08:52:49 PM
I heard from my 8th grade science teach, a long time ago that if you put a frog in hot water it will jump out.  However if you put it in cold water, and slowly heat up the pot, it will swim around and die.

Then I thought of all the people (myself included) who has become like that frog.  We are so use to our environment and habits that we will continue on even if it kills us.

Let's not be the frog in slowly heating waters.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 09, 2012, 08:55:55 PM
Hunger is there so that we can eat to survive.  What if love (our very strongest emotion) is simply another tool the universe uses to make sure procreate and survive, and nothing more.  Even our feelings of loneliness is there to make sure we reach out and live in harmony.  What if all these are programmings to make sure we do our job?
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 09, 2012, 08:57:41 PM
When we take away our desires (our condition for personal survival), what it is we want for ourselves ahead of others, the world suddenly becomes very clear.  We are hear to serve and help others, especially the next generation.  That is the flow of life.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 10, 2012, 07:12:03 PM
"Life is an exciting journey or it is nothing." - Helen Keller

I finally get it.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 10, 2012, 07:13:44 PM
1. The Road Not Taken
 
 
TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,   
And sorry I could not travel both   
And be one traveler, long I stood   
And looked down one as far as I could   
To where it bent in the undergrowth;           5
 
Then took the other, as just as fair,   
And having perhaps the better claim,   
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;   
Though as for that the passing there   
Had worn them really about the same,           10
 
And both that morning equally lay   
In leaves no step had trodden black.   
Oh, I kept the first for another day!   
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,   
I doubted if I should ever come back.           15
 
I shall be telling this with a sigh   
Somewhere ages and ages hence:   
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I   
I took the one less traveled by,   
And that has made all the difference.           20
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
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Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 15, 2012, 09:23:32 PM
Still too early on the metals in GDX and NEM.  I have to wait for a better pattern.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 16, 2012, 09:38:08 PM
What finally brought me some peace......bei ng in charge of my happiness by assigning my happiness to how much I do and follow my plan each day, instead of getting.   I am happy because I am able to contribute each day; it is all in my control and no one else.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 16, 2012, 09:38:59 PM
We must endeavor to become like the lotus flower.....
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 16, 2012, 09:40:37 PM
Evil is death and destruction, we have life, so it must be all good.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 16, 2012, 09:42:01 PM
This weekend, I am reminded of the MSU student quote, "If we never make any mistakes we would not learn a whole lot"
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 16, 2012, 09:42:50 PM
My having to learn at work is a reminder that I have to learn all the time, especially in our daily lives outside of work, like my Hmoob classes.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 16, 2012, 09:43:45 PM
To my beautiful kids, I know what I am supposed to give to you now.  Thank you for being so patiently kind and so loving.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 17, 2012, 07:56:25 PM
Be honest with my criteria.  If they miss they miss.  I will trade again when it hits my criteria.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 18, 2012, 05:55:45 AM
What I learn or need to learn today is that it is always a people thing......the refore be respectful, humble, and kind.  Empower others at all times and never speak down to anyone.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 19, 2012, 07:11:34 PM
Daniel Shannon
Don't let life's problems be a distraction from the promise associated with your life's VISION! see past the problem to the promise!
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 20, 2012, 09:36:37 PM
I have heard it said that our brain grew tremendously around 250,000 years ago in a span of around 10,000 - 20,000 years when our ancient ancestors had to deal with wildly fluctuating seasonal patterns in Africa.  It was very wet and then very dry for every thousand years.  Our having to deal with this uncertainty forced our brains to grow.

It is said that the person that became the Buddha was born a prince, with his mother dying from child birth.  Thus he was able to experience both extreme pleasure and pain.  As a result, he became wise and pursued happiness and became enlightenment.

The nun Ryonen was born into an imperial court.  However the Empress die suddenly and her life and future became uncertain.  It was then that her vision of reality became clear.

We may need to have experience both extreme pleasure and pain to achieve a clear understand and peace.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 22, 2012, 05:50:55 PM
"There is nothing but God" - The Quantum Activist
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 24, 2012, 05:31:08 PM
I think someone accidentally gave me $53.00 worth of gas.  It felt like a prepaid that stopped at $53.00.   If someone did, thank you, and I am sorry for your lost.  If not, even better, because I paid for my own gas. 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 24, 2012, 05:33:14 PM
I am so proud of my two little girls, saving all those caterpillars.  I am so proud my little girl too.  She had a caterpillar crawling all over her legs and she was just screaming in laughter of joy.  I am so glad to have you both in my life.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 25, 2012, 07:20:18 PM
I was listening to this song for the last couple of days and then I finally see the notes in the beginning.

This is for the man who walked out on me the day I found out I got cancer!  You know who you are.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UyTuvqCOuMY# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UyTuvqCOuMY#)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 28, 2012, 08:01:17 PM
Do you have a movie scene that made you almost cry?  This is mine.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nBdGQ6oBcgw#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nBdGQ6oBcgw#ws)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 29, 2012, 09:04:20 PM
"What we have to remember is that we can still do anything. We can change our minds. We can start over. Get a post-bac or try writing for the first time. The notion that it's too late to do anything is comical. It's hilarious. We're graduating college. We're so young. We can't, we MUST not lose this sense of possibility because in the end, it's all we have."   - Marina Keegan in her final essay at 22 years old
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 30, 2012, 07:42:50 PM

‎"To succeed you must first improve, to improve you must first practice, to practice you must first learn, to learn you must first fail."-Wesley Woo
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 31, 2012, 06:17:16 PM
Wow, I never saw that picture of you before.  I have always wondered what your senior picture looks like.

http://www.classmates.com/yearbooks/?miscj=CMHeader& (http://www.classmates.com/yearbooks/?miscj=CMHeader&)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wiZJP_XLmrQ#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wiZJP_XLmrQ#ws)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 01, 2012, 06:08:24 PM
In SIVB and ALB short, I had a really strong rating, and yet I was too conservative on the Entry.  I missed both trades.  The results or difference would have been......ALB 889  and SIVB 908 (3995 + 3644.9) = 7639.9

The lesson here is that if I have a really strong Trigger, I should not be conservative on the trade......
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 02, 2012, 09:25:25 AM
What is the youth we cherish is not in the physical body, but in the mind.  In our youth, we are looking towards tomorrow, but in our old age, we look and see nothing because we have planted nothing. 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 02, 2012, 09:27:08 AM
Stop criticizing the past or the future generations, look in the mirror and tell that person to change.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 02, 2012, 09:29:09 AM
I have been thinking about the enlightenment and the last temptation of the Buddha.  During the last night, Mara the tempter shot arrows at the Buddha and he turned them into flowers. Life is all flowers and never arrows.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 03, 2012, 08:49:43 PM
One of the best things we should do, if we want a fulfilling life is to raise strong children, children that are confident, loving, and kind.  It is a measure of success in life.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: DonJuan on June 03, 2012, 09:14:17 PM
One of the best things we should do, if we want a fulfilling life is to raise strong children, children that are confident, loving, and kind.  It is a measure of success in life.

You can just do your best.

Each child has his/her own heart and mind.
In the end, your children would have to choose their own path.

The greatest gift is to let them choose and make their own mistakes without you criticizing.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: DonJuan on June 03, 2012, 09:21:28 PM
In life, our desire makes us grow, and then others as well.  It is part of our programming, and maybe nothing more.

Desire is a learned thinking and behavior.
Desire is one root of suffering.

Desire is wanting something outside us to be happy. That something becomes our identity in which we become attached to. And when we do not get what we desire, some of us get angry and kill.

Desire is the ego wanted identity from outside to feel recognized.

All prophets had no desire.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: DonJuan on June 03, 2012, 09:26:35 PM
I have hear so many people talk about how good this or that food was a long time ago.  Since I am getting older, what if perhaps love is just like good food.  It is better in the past when we held a certain emotional attachment to it.

Pleasure is looking for an emotional past. 

Love does not exist.

Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 03, 2012, 09:46:20 PM
You can just do your best.

Each child has his/her own heart and mind.
In the end, your children would have to choose their own path.

The greatest gift is to let them choose and make their own mistakes without you criticizing.

I absolute agree.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 03, 2012, 09:51:39 PM
"Success means having the courage, the determination, and the will to become the person you believe you were meant to be." - George Sheehan
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: DonJuan on June 03, 2012, 11:57:42 PM
Whether you are going or staying or sitting or lying down,
the whole world is your own self.
You must find out
whether the mountains, rivers, grass, and forests
exist in your own mind or exist outside it.
Analyze the ten thousand things,
dissect them minutely,
and when you take this to the limit
you will come to the limitless,
when you search into it you come to the end of search,
where thinking goes no further and distinctions vanish.
When you smash the citadel of doubt,
then the Buddha is simply yourself.
Daikaku

Indeed. The reality you inhabit is the perception of your own mind tainted by your culture, society, religion and personal experiences. The mirage of your life is the false sense of self, the identity that gets hooked and attached to status, people, ideas and materials.

And it jumps all the time, going from a newer car to a bigger house. The ego in that identity always desires more to ground itself because it is lost in all those things it is looking for.

It searches because it does not live, it is just alive, almost dead.

You must look with open eyes, without the past which is identity which is the ego.
You must look just in the moment without the noise of the world, with no thought. Only then, can you see true reality.

Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: DonJuan on June 04, 2012, 12:06:45 AM
What if all our emotions, which drives our actions, are just programmings to make sure we survive and fulfill our purpose here on earth. 

Emotions tell us we have much to learn.

Emotions tells us we still are dysfunctional beings.

But emotions also are part of the organic world.
It is ok to cry but only if it's in the moment of now and gone.

The one who is perfect does not cry, he/she is compassion itself. Compassion does not hold emotions. Compassion has no past is just in the moment.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: DonJuan on June 04, 2012, 12:08:07 AM
"Success means having the courage, the determination, and the will to become the person you believe you were meant to be." - George Sheehan

Success is realizing you are dysfunctional and full of madness.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: DonJuan on June 04, 2012, 12:09:42 AM
"Do not seek refuge in anyone or anything.  Be your own lamp.  Let truth be your guide." - The last words of the Buddha

Indeed.
I have no dignity, no pride, no family, no country.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: DonJuan on June 04, 2012, 12:10:51 AM
What if I was born in the Mountains of Laos (and died there) and never had a chance to come to the USA and never had a chance to know and accept Jesus Christ into my life.  What if then?  Would I be condemned to hell, because I never got a chance to be taught and accept Jesus in my life.  Would I be condemned to hell because I was born somewhere Jesus teaching didn't penetrate.

There lies the flaw.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: DonJuan on June 04, 2012, 12:12:34 AM
Suffering didn't begin with birth and end with death

Suffering begins with " I in me " and does not end with death.

Suffering is a state of mind.
Suffering is not accepting the now.

If you are healthy, have food to eat. You should not suffer. Everything else is a luxury.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: DonJuan on June 04, 2012, 12:19:12 AM
I am asking myself to be a giver, and not a taker.  I am asking myself to be kind to others and always wait patiently for the benefit of the doubt.  I am asking myself to put others happiness others desires, needs and wants ahead of mine.

I am not asking this for a higher purpose or reason or so that I may gain entry into heaven.  I am ask this of myself for the very selfish reason that doing so will make me the happiest in my daily life.  For it is when we desire things that we suffer.  It is when we take from others that we suffer.  It is when we put ourselves first that we suffer inside.  Therefore, for ever lasting happiness, just be happy and give all I can everyday.

Indeed. An action is judged by the intent and motive.

The action itself is irrelevant if the intent exists.

But to reach that goal, go to war against yourself, your identity, your ego.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: DonJuan on June 04, 2012, 12:23:18 AM
"War is a matter of life and death.  This is the key principle." - from Sun Tzu

Death tells us what is material in life.
Life gives the opportunity to realize our true nature behind this organic form.

Life exists for us to become perfection.
Perfection holds no identity, no past, no anger, no emotion.
 Life just is.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 04, 2012, 06:23:03 PM
"Affirmations are magnify if we use them in our dream state, because at that moment the Ego is asleep.  The logic mind is resting.  Therefore you have a perfect opportunity to program your future." - From Louis Hay
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 05, 2012, 06:13:11 PM
"Stay thirsty my friends" - The most interesting man in the world. (It's not about the beer)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lGdnIrRKDTI#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lGdnIrRKDTI#ws)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 05, 2012, 09:12:37 PM
What is enlightenment?
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 06, 2012, 06:11:36 PM
However many Success or Happiness words I write, or However many Love, Calm or Peaceful words I speak.  What good will they do me, if I do not act upon them. Therefore I will practice and apply all the teachings of my Inner Self Blue Print everyday.

I wrote this a while ago, and I just came across while.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 07, 2012, 04:57:42 AM
It doesn't matter how good a pattern is, if it doesn't have a Trigger then it cannot be entered.  The example most recent example is MON.  Seriously, the last five candles results in something less then .4.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 07, 2012, 10:34:04 PM
I ran across this today on a poster at Michaels.


To laugh
often and much,
to win respect of intelligent people
and the affection of children;
to earn the appreciation of honest critics
and endure the betrayal of false friends;
to appreciate beauty;
to find the best in others;
to leave the world a bit better
whether by a healthy child,
a garden patch, or a
redeemed social condition;
to know even one life
has breathed easier
because you have lived.

This is to have succeeded.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 07, 2012, 10:37:54 PM
Over the last couple of days this Zen Koan is becoming more clear to me.


A Cup of Tea

Nan-in, a Japanese master during the Meiji era (1868-1912), received a university professor who came to inquire about Zen.

Nan-in served tea. He poured his visitor's cup full, and then kept on pouring.

The professor watched the overflow until he no longer could restrain himself. "It is overfull. No more will go in!"

"Like this cup," Nan-in said, "you are full of your own opinions and speculations. How can I show you Zen unless you first empty your cup?"
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 09, 2012, 05:38:37 PM
There lies the flaw.

There are many flaws....
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 09, 2012, 05:43:09 PM
To my friend who un-friended me from Facebook.  Thank you for doing so, I was thinking of doing the same thing, but I am glad you did it for the both of us.  Since we are out of each others' social network, best wishes to everything.  Have a fun and exciting journey ahead of you.

May flowers line your path and sunshine light your day
May songbirds serenade you every step of the way
May a rainbow run beside you in a sky that is always blue
Any may gladness fill your heart each day, your whole life through.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 10, 2012, 02:06:26 PM
We can do anything in life, once we change our perception as to the size of the carrot (or whip).
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 10, 2012, 07:38:41 PM
To be kind is more important than to be right.  many times, what people need is not a brilliant mind that speaks but a special heart that listens.  - From a facebook friend.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 13, 2012, 08:24:24 PM
Beware of late P3 positions.  They are late, because the market is already turning.  It should be graded less just like a late P3

1. Never enter a trade under 3.85.....Never .

2. Never enter a trade with Candle Trigger less than .5

3.  I am putting too much weight supports and Resistance.  The support/resistance needs to be stronger to deserve a 1, not just price.

4.  When ever my positions gets above 14 trades, I will put in orders to liquidate the trades nearest expiration (the next day) to bring it to 14 or less.


Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 14, 2012, 05:35:14 PM
Most of the stuff that makes up our bodies comes are billions of years old.  It was created in the stars in big bangs from a long time ago.  We are almost as old as the universe.  Maybe our consciousness is borrowed from the Universe as well, and recycled again and again, in away which we cannot understand yet.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 15, 2012, 09:53:33 PM
Why is it that each new generation have to learn the lessons of life.....becau se it is an emotional lesson, not a mental.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 16, 2012, 09:27:42 AM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JLdA1ikkoEc# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JLdA1ikkoEc#)

Ask not what the World can do for you, but what you can do for the World.  Make that your primary goal, and everything becomes very clear.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 16, 2012, 09:31:58 AM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6vQpW9XRiyM# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6vQpW9XRiyM#)

I use to listen to this song thinking about all the sorry people in the song reflecting on their past, and now I am one of those sorry people.

I think we become one of those sorry people when we run out of dreams to pursue.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 16, 2012, 11:16:20 PM
I was never that good of a trader.  I caught a small glimpse of what it takes to succeed, and with a friendly environment in NASD, I was able to run with it.  But now I know I wasn't good enough to hold on to success then.  That is why my success eventually turned into failure, and therefore I will prepare better for tomorrow.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 16, 2012, 11:34:56 PM
I saw you with your new life, and I happy that you're putting it together and moving on.  You really do deserve to find that happiness which you've been seeking all your life, and that which is truly yours. 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 16, 2012, 11:43:59 PM
Thank you for everything in life.  I love it all.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 17, 2012, 10:18:37 PM
What if the force of gravity is like speed, at extremes it changes into ways we could not yet understand.  Then Dark matter would not be needed.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 17, 2012, 10:19:11 PM
If I keep blaming the World my situation, I could never grow one bit at all.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 17, 2012, 10:20:15 PM
How to turn arrows into flowers?  "Everything is flowers."
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 17, 2012, 10:21:26 PM
When I am uncomfortable in a situation, it only means that I have not practice enough or I am still thinking (too much) arrow and not flowers.  Therefore practice and rejoice in the situation.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 18, 2012, 09:44:25 PM
The way is not in the Sky.  The way is the heart. - The Buddha
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 19, 2012, 10:13:29 PM
Did I get the results that I desired or wanted?  No

Did I make the absolute best effort I know how?  Yes, I did

Therefore my day is a smashing success, and keep on doing what I am doing every single day more to come.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 20, 2012, 09:43:35 PM
This morning, I finally get why we invented the concept of heaven......it is an extension our desire to want to live on and survive (a desire necessary for survival).
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 20, 2012, 10:00:44 PM
Did I get all the results I wanted to day?  No

Did I give it all I have and did everything I wanted to do, including making logic decisions?  Yes

Then it's a successful day. :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 24, 2012, 07:49:58 PM
I am finding that I talking down other religions, especially those of love ones.  I am not so right in my beliefs.  It only works for me.  Just because it works for me and brings me peace of mind doesn't make it truth and correct.  One of my underlying principles is of love and compassion for others no matter what.  By simply criticizing others, I am already breaking this principle.  Therefore from now on, I will criticize others for own ego (to try to make others think I am so smart).  show love and kindness, instead of communicate for my ego. 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 24, 2012, 07:51:56 PM
Did I get the results I wanted?  Maybe maybe not.

Did I do all that I can, with kindness and compassion?  Not quite yet.

Did I hold my tongue and not act on anger?  yes

Did I do all that I needed to do, finish all my chores and show each step of the way?  Yes I did. 

Thank you for a great weekend then.

Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 24, 2012, 09:19:01 PM
I heard this song over the weekend on XM radio.  For some reason its staying in my head.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kkxj5xVLyj0# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kkxj5xVLyj0#)

Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 25, 2012, 04:40:11 PM
We are so conditioned by our environments, starting with your looks.  You look the way you because you are similar to those that gave birth to you.  All the other things follow as well, including your definition of who you are. Unlearn every thing that's been forced fed into you from birth.  Break out of it and truly be who you want to be!!!!!
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 25, 2012, 04:44:45 PM
Ryonen Clear Realization

The Buddhist nun known as Ryonen was born in 1797. She was a granddaughter of the famous Japanese warrior Shingen. Her poetical genius and alluring beauty were such that at seventeen she was serving the empress as one of the ladies of the court. Even at such a youthful age fame awaited her.

The beloved empress died suddenly and Ryonen's hopeful dreams vanished. She became acutely aware of the impermanency of life in this world. It was then that she desired to study Zen.

Her relatives disagreed, however, and practically forced her into marriage. With a promise that she might become a nun after she had borne three children, Ryonen assented. Before she was twenty-five she had accomplished this condition. Then her husband and relatives could no longer dissuade her from her desire. She shaved her head, took the name of Ryonen, which means to realize clearly, and started on her pilgrimage.

She came to the city of Edo and asked Tetsugyu to accept her as a disciple. At one glance the master rejected her because she was too beautiful.

Ryonen then went to another master, Hakuo. Hakuo refused her for the same reason, saying that her beauty would only make trouble.

Ryonen obtained a hot iron and placed it against her face. In a few moments her beauty had vanished forever.

Hakuo then accepted her as a disciple.

Commemorating this occasion, Ryonen wrote a poem on the back of a little mirror: In the service of my Empress I burned incense to     perfume my exquisite clothes Now as a homeless mendicant I burn my face to     enter a Zen temple.

When Ryonen was about to pass from this world, she wrote another poem: Sixty-six times have these eyes beheld the changing     scene of autumn I have said enough about moonlight, Ask no more. Only listen to the voice of pines
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 25, 2012, 06:05:10 PM
Thank you my friend for showing us how to live.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ji5_MqicxSo# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ji5_MqicxSo#)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 26, 2012, 04:12:25 PM
When things in my life do work out the way that I wanted or expected it to, then I the gift of experience or of wisdom.  Therefore, I always receive something wonderful everyday.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 26, 2012, 04:14:04 PM
I don't want my life to be easy.  I want my life to be hard.  Please just give me the courage and wisdom to be harder than what life brings me and to enjoy each day's challenges and difficulties.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 26, 2012, 06:23:11 PM
To my first love.  We never got to dance to this song.  I always imagined that I would bump into you and dance with you whenever I hear this song.  It will have to stay a dream.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qTTkZVrvnT0# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qTTkZVrvnT0#)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 26, 2012, 10:31:03 PM
Did I do everything that I wanted to do today?  yes I did.

Did I get the results I wanted out of me?  Yes I did

Did I push on when I was tired?  yes I did

Then my day is a success, and I keep doing this so will be my week, my month, and my year too.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 27, 2012, 06:44:24 PM
http://news.yahoo.com/blogs/lookout/student-loans-basically-ruined-life-yahoo-news-readers-105332697.html (http://news.yahoo.com/blogs/lookout/student-loans-basically-ruined-life-yahoo-news-readers-105332697.html)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 27, 2012, 06:47:06 PM
What if our memories does not define who we are?  What if they are really just a tool for learning and survival? 

My memories will not define who I am.  I am defined by who (or the person) that I want to become.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 27, 2012, 06:48:42 PM
Did I get the results I wanted today?  No.

Did I get my best efforts today?  Yes I did.

Was I absolute disciplined to who I want to become?  I made a very good effort to change my negative momentum around.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 28, 2012, 10:23:42 PM
Don't seek comfort, it will lead to softness and weakness, but seek being at ease in uncomfortable situations. 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 01, 2012, 06:52:20 PM
I am really liking the idea of terminating earlier trades early due to the fact that new trades are coming in.....They reflect a more accurate opinion of the market, especially if the market is turning....
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 01, 2012, 07:44:05 PM
Thank you to all my very mature co-workers.  You are so kind and wonderful.  I hope to learn from you and carry your legacy with me wherever I may go.  Thank you again, very much.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 01, 2012, 07:44:53 PM
Insecurity is best.....it keeps me on my toes.   I love it, and I will always use to empower me.  Thank you.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 01, 2012, 07:45:45 PM
Nothing is really difficult.  It is only appears difficult, because we are not use to doing it or have not yet acquired the skills to do it.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 01, 2012, 09:34:41 PM
I must be missing the little ones.  I am finding a small vacuum where there is always determination to be my best each day.  I will see you soon my love.

I think I did everything that I wanted to do today, to the best of my ability.  Thank you.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 01, 2012, 09:46:33 PM
This song makes me think of you from so long ago.  Thank you for coming into my life and making me feel how it is like to be loved.

Take the ribbon from your hair,
Shake it loose and let it fall,
Layin' soft upon my skin.
Like the shadows on the wall.

Come and lay down by my side
'till the early morning light
All I'm takin' is your time.
Help me make it through the night.

I don't care what's right or wrong,
I don't try to understand.
Let the devil take tomorrow.
Lord, tonight I need a friend.

Yesterday is dead and gone
And tomorrow's out of sight.
And it's sad to be alone.
Help me make it through the night.

I don't care what's right or wrong,
I don't try to understand.
Let the devil take tomorrow.
Lord, tonight I need a friend.

Yesterday is dead and gone
And tomorrow's out of sight.
Lord, it's bad to be alone.
Help me make it through the night.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pDB550Ayu2E# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pDB550Ayu2E#)

Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 02, 2012, 05:07:23 PM
Daniel Shannon
VISIONaries see every moment as their big moment! We have the VISION to see our goals being accomplished as we work towards them
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 02, 2012, 07:59:24 PM
I dare you to PM me. 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 02, 2012, 08:04:18 PM
I had this tune in my head for the longest time.  I cannot make out the song.  I can hum it from time to time.  Finally I made up my mind that it's a song that I remembered from one night of soothing.  Then I finally ran across it last night.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 02, 2012, 08:09:51 PM
The execution of Trading is going awesome.  I had a market go against me tremendously and I was able to adjust and turn without even being here to watch the market.  My MKT criteria is making sense.  Let's see how the 2nd half of the year will go.  I am very excited to be progressing every week and month.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 03, 2012, 04:59:01 PM
As my trade approach expiration, do I tighten my stops and target?
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 03, 2012, 05:36:57 PM
http://firstfinancialsecurity.com/opportunity.html (http://firstfinancialsecurity.com/opportunity.html)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 03, 2012, 05:55:00 PM
When great patterns start failing, it is a sign that the market is turning and changing.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 03, 2012, 05:59:05 PM
Do not fear the large candle with the Trend after a very long move.  It's the Bears or the Bulls trying desperate to make one more push, which will fail badly of course.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 05, 2012, 10:37:15 PM
My five Year Goal: 
1. I hope to have a fund up and running, with 3-4 years under my belt

2.  What I ever I do, I hope to practice excellence and patience.  I will always do things from a calm perspective designed toward achieving maximum effectiveness everyday.  The tougher the situation, the more calm I will be.  I will be the best of me, starting from a calm demeanor.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 05, 2012, 10:39:34 PM
I never have any problems in my life, but only challenges and opportunities for learning and growth.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 07, 2012, 09:06:32 PM
After all the things that I have said, my happiness each day will come from how well did I focus on doing exactly what I wanted to do, never from results or fluctuations in results.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 07, 2012, 09:07:45 PM
Many things didn't go the way I wanted to, today.  But it is exactly what I wanted, because it will make me stronger learning to deal with not getting what I wanted, and yet holding on the right course of action.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 07, 2012, 09:08:48 PM
My number one goal at every moment:  To stay calm at all time.  The tougher the situation or more desperate the situation, the calmer I will be.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 07, 2012, 09:13:03 PM
From Yax:

Be conscious of goals.
1. What are my goals for me and for my tean?
     a.  How did I do?
     b.  What will I do about my results?
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 07, 2012, 09:15:05 PM
Through the awful grace of God comes wisdom - Eschylus
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 07, 2012, 09:16:15 PM
Everything seems so hard, because we are not use to it and we gave our subconscious mind permission to label it hard.  It is really easy, if we made that choice too.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 07, 2012, 09:17:26 PM
When we feel grate we want to live forever.  When we feel depress, we want to give up.  Our feelings are reflection of our thoughts.  Therefore, live forever by creating empowering thoughts.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 07, 2012, 09:19:41 PM
Don't trade your poverty for a life of comfort - a Buddhist philosopher
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 07, 2012, 09:22:53 PM
Invictus

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.
William Ernest Henley
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 12, 2012, 04:35:28 PM
Evolution:  What if it's like a house or car.  It's very difficult to build, but can be burned down in 1 hour.  What if we mess up our evolutionary process with our carelessness.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 12, 2012, 04:36:17 PM
It's not that people can't change, it's because they think they do not need to change.  The whole world should change for them.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 15, 2012, 07:38:47 AM
Once, I wanted to love you so bad, but I kept messing it up.  I never knew why I until recently.  It is because my subconscious mind gave up loving you and was intended on hurting you like you hurt me.  I could never do anything that my subconscious mind do not want to do.  That is why I failed and kept sabotaging the relationship until it died.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 15, 2012, 07:42:14 AM
I use to feel special being Hmong.  I use to feel special being Human.  Then I realized that I look like my parents.  I look I look like Hmong.  I am Hmong because of where I was born and how I was raised.  And I felt special being so, because that is what I was conditioned to believed.  What the energy that makes up my consciousness, what that energy can appeared anywhere, in another race, or even in another specie.  I would never know the difference, because I would be conditioned from birth to believe that is who or what I am.   Therefore all living things may be the same.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 15, 2012, 07:44:46 AM
Life is hard, because we are always looking for ease and comfort.  We are conditioned to seek that.  What if we conditioned ourselves to seek challenges and enjoy that.  What if we look forward to a hard challenging day and enjoy stretching ourselves every day.  Then life would be so easy and so full of joy and relaxation.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 16, 2012, 04:39:09 PM
We can't see the truth, because our desire manifests our reality.  We would rather believe our desire and it's dreams, not logical reasoning.  Wow.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 17, 2012, 10:05:40 PM
I have a cousin who' very pretty.....the n I found out that she's dating a Vietnamese guy.  I am thinking, WTF?????  Then I thought some more and I realized that many times we're not worthy and that is why they date outside the Hmong race.  We do not stand up and become better men for our worthy sisters.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 18, 2012, 05:13:07 PM
There is no such thing as luck in success, especially in continual long terms success.  It is always earned, everyday.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 18, 2012, 05:15:04 PM
In order success, joy and happiness, our inside effort must match that demanded by outside principles.  It is when we cannot give the effort, but want the results that we find success and joy so elusive.  The only place that you can change is you, therefore step your efforts everyday.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 18, 2012, 05:16:40 PM
My greatest realization is that I am moved and charged or energized by my emotions, and also that I am free to charge those emotions by my thoughts and conditioning.  Everything comes inside and is determined by inside of me.  I am the source of my greatest joy, and lets stay in joy.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 18, 2012, 05:18:14 PM
I had a thought of the day, which I only wrote "Capital tied up", now I do not remember the importance of those three words together. :)

I remember now.  It was a very good idea too.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 18, 2012, 07:39:41 PM
I am too tied up in Support and Resistance, when I should be tied up with Trend.....Tren d......Trend.. ...
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 19, 2012, 07:12:20 PM
  It doesnt matter how experience (or how many years of work) someone has.  What we really get is the core of their personality, their inner values.  That is the most important thing that will manifest itself in the physical world.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 19, 2012, 07:13:41 PM
My swings in the long and the shorts.

I have had my shorts swing against me, and then my long swing against me.  Each time, it knocks about 2-3 percent of my performance.  But then I am learning and getting better....
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 21, 2012, 05:49:56 PM
I am stuck in finances on S1, when there isn't quite enough for S1.  S1 if for a beautiful trending market, or at least a beautiful RC.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 21, 2012, 05:55:47 PM
To the girl that was once the love of my life:

This song reminds me of our last moments, so long ago.  Have a fund and exciting journey in your new path.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q8JA9Qs2Mho# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q8JA9Qs2Mho#)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 21, 2012, 06:07:38 PM
Funny funny song.....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NyL1UmjJgas# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NyL1UmjJgas#)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 21, 2012, 10:36:52 PM
From Nicole, the sister of the beautiful Monica Ricardo.....

1. Humility
2. Preparation
3. Wisdom (inner)
4. Give kindness to others, they're always watching
5.  Forgive....

Thank you for your words of wisdom and your examples.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 21, 2012, 10:40:14 PM
It was a very special to have met all of you, Daniel from Cameroon, Abdul, Quincy, and Mikal from Sierra Leone.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 21, 2012, 10:41:53 PM
Did I get all I wanted to do accomplished today?  No

Did I give the effort that I wanted from me?   I think so.

Did Friday finished the way I wanted?  No.....

Did I give my best and stayed calmed in the fashion that I wanted?  Yes......

I can do better, inside and outside.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 22, 2012, 06:23:12 PM
There is no equilibrium (long term), because each moment is its own equilibrium and its always changing based on new information which is coming in.......  Therefore be ready for change.  Do dwell or expect things to work as they have in the past......
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 23, 2012, 09:25:04 PM
After this weekend, I came to the conclusion that every man needs a    

PERFORMANCE TOOL 2.5 TON GARAGE FLOOR JACK W/ SWIVEL CASTERS AUTO CAR TRUCK SUV
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 23, 2012, 09:25:42 PM
Thank you for the recent set back in my trading....bec ause of it, I am learning so much more everyday.  Thank you.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 23, 2012, 09:27:53 PM
When it is a boring party......eve ryone wants to leave.

When it is an exciting party.......no one wants to leave, ever....   

Therefore our wanting to leave or not is based on our interpretation of the party, nothing more.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 25, 2012, 10:26:24 PM
All Passing Trades will be strained through the PATTERN MASTER.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 25, 2012, 10:28:09 PM
The reason that my results are not reflecting back testing results is that I am still learning.  I will not jump into any trades early anymore.   All trades will be filtered to the Pattern master.

BB trades will have at least .5 criteria.    and  Swing will have at least .55 pattern criteria.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 28, 2012, 12:29:09 PM
My early entries.....do not meet the requirements of Pattern Master, and they are very destructive as well.  Because I then I miss the entry (on the real move) when the pattern has formed.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 28, 2012, 12:30:44 PM
When there is failure, there is only a message that says that I am not good enough yet, and nothing more.  When life is hard and I am clueless, there is a tremendous opportunity for growth.  The harder life is, the more opportunity there is for betterment.  :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 28, 2012, 09:18:36 PM
I have learned a lot over the last 6 months, now I am starting a new study for the next year.  I will studying and applying what I have learned.  I already what I am doing is working.  The only problem is that I am learning to bring objectivity to my trading plan.

1.   I believe that I am able to look at the market much better now, thanks to my rating of the four major markets.
2.   I believe that I can look at each stocks more objectively now as well, because I have been able to rate the criteria which I feel are most important to success......m ost the trend.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 31, 2012, 09:59:21 PM
A new trading journey with Pattern Master......Th ank you for all the lessons of the last six months.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 01, 2012, 09:26:14 PM
How do you train a falcon?
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 01, 2012, 09:27:35 PM
Universal laws are constant...... If that is true, then we should be subject to universal laws......whic h means that we no more special than any other living creature.....
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 05, 2012, 09:20:46 PM
Thank you for a wonderful and quiet weekend with my daughter.  Thank you for everything in my life.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 09, 2012, 09:20:54 PM
I am driving a 1998 Toyota corolla, and it feels like I am driving a BMW 5 series.  I am so glad to be appreciative of everything in my life.  Thank you for such a rough day at work yesterday. :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 09, 2012, 09:22:22 PM
The reason you called, was that why I had such a disturbing dream before I woke up?  Thank you for calling and asking for a date.  We'll finally get to talk tomorrow, and who knows where it will lead. :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 10, 2012, 11:02:55 PM
Thank you for the wonderful date tonight.  Maybe our similar paths will bring chemistry.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 11, 2012, 06:15:43 AM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VBBIZkOKprA#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VBBIZkOKprA#ws)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 11, 2012, 06:22:12 AM
When my life became clear to me, I realize that one of the most important goal or objective in life is to make the next generation stronger.  Maybe everything else is simply a reward of pleasure so that we can live to achieve that objective.  Therefore to be a great loving father is my primary objective.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 11, 2012, 06:29:43 AM
If we start a journey together, the only one that thing that I never want to forget is that I am here to give and not take.  If I cannot bring positiveness and encouragement everyday, then I do not belong in your life.   If we do not start a journey together, thank you for stopping by.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 12, 2012, 08:45:01 PM
The butterfly effect hits home.   I have to be more careful of my actions.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 13, 2012, 05:14:48 PM
Thank you for sharing ice cream with me.  I have never done that with anyone else before.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 13, 2012, 05:15:06 PM
Okay, I am in a territory that I do not want to be in.  What is the best thing to do right now?   Stop digging.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 15, 2012, 04:16:50 AM
Stop digging and everything will be okay.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 15, 2012, 07:29:53 PM
Thank you Mr. Shannon for your words of wisdom.

Daniel Shannon

VISION w/o execution is a daydream, execution w/o VISION is a nightmare.

VISION Speaks Louder than Words
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 15, 2012, 09:21:21 PM
Everything becomes very clear and peaceful when you want nothing and asks nothing for yourself
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 16, 2012, 05:40:46 AM
One of the best things my ex-wife about me was that:  Valentines day is for the other men, so they can make it to their wives, because I make her feel like its valentines day everyday.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 16, 2012, 05:41:38 AM
I love my struggling day today, because it means I will be asking questions and getting stronger.  And also when the good time comes, I will appreciate it much more.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 16, 2012, 05:42:34 AM
Sometimes don't you just wish they email or text so you can ignore it.  But yet they are just ignoring you.  :2funny:
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 16, 2012, 05:43:37 AM
To MS:

Before you can open the window to allow sunshine and warmth in, please close the back door tightly.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 16, 2012, 07:13:53 PM
In a way, I am glad that we finally went our separate ways.......but this song does remind me of my ex-wife. 

For there was a time that I dedicated this song to her in my heart everyday.....I must be getting old.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ObG48PZHU2k# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ObG48PZHU2k#)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 16, 2012, 09:35:22 PM
The best decision are so made not in the heat of the moment, but in the calm after a long walk and careful thinking.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 19, 2012, 12:41:32 PM
Sometimes don't you just wish they email or text so you can ignore it.  But yet they are just ignoring you.  :2funny:

I realized over the weekend, that this is so destructive.  It's these destructive thoughts that leads to counter productive and roller coaster relationships.  I final realize that I had a large gaping hole that needs to be corrected or else, I will never be any good for the next pretty girl to come into my life as well.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 19, 2012, 12:42:39 PM

A Cup of Tea

Nan-in, a Japanese master during the Meiji era (1868-1912), received a university professor who came to inquire about Zen.

Nan-in served tea. He poured his visitor's cup full, and then kept on pouring.

The professor watched the overflow until he no longer could restrain himself. "It is overfull. No more will go in!"

"Like this cup," Nan-in said, "you are full of your own opinions and speculations. How can I show you Zen unless you first empty your cup?"
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 19, 2012, 01:01:24 PM
"Your time is limited; so don't waste it living someone else's life.  Don't be trapped by dogma, which is living with the results of other people's thinking.  Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner vice.  And most importantly, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition.  They somehow already know what you truly want to be become.  Everything else is secondary.  - Steve Jobs.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 19, 2012, 01:51:42 PM
Thank you for you love and understanding.  It has helped to push my understanding of self to a different level.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 19, 2012, 01:52:49 PM
I had a really bad swim, but I know that I can stay afloat now.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 22, 2012, 05:55:58 PM
Funny funny song.  ;D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RttjPi_knV0#noexternalembed-ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RttjPi_knV0#noexternalembed-ws)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 23, 2012, 04:59:46 AM
I was so wrong to let my imagination and my fictitious expectation go unchecked.  Again, thank you for being such a kind and loving girl, and for coming into my life.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 23, 2012, 05:05:42 PM
I noticed that people who can't take the corrections, still do know when someone is doing the right thing.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 25, 2012, 08:14:26 PM
I got this from a FB friend:

Definition of Stupid:
Knowing the truth, seeing the truth, but still believing the lies.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 26, 2012, 07:30:23 AM
Sometimes it is better to keep silent than to tell others what you feel, because it hurts badly when you come to know that they can hear you, but cannot understand you.  - a FB friend
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 26, 2012, 06:47:08 PM
"Don't love someone who's already in love with another one.....becaus e if you do, it's like buying a gun to shoot yourself, loaded with unlimited bullets." - a FB friend.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 26, 2012, 06:48:12 PM
"I don't know what my future holds, but I am hoping you're in it." - a FB friend.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 26, 2012, 07:56:48 PM
I think I may have met my future wife (again) a couple of weeks ago.  I can't imagine anyone better.  I am looking at a picture of you now and its driving me nuts, because you're away.  Have fun and return to me, soon.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 26, 2012, 09:35:15 PM
Here's your quote that you gave me on our first date: 

        God, give us grace to accept with serenity
        the things that cannot be changed,
        Courage to change the things
        which should be changed,
        and the Wisdom to distinguish
        the one from the other.

Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 27, 2012, 08:34:01 PM
I wish you would communicate better.  I hardly know you, and I have many things on my mind.  I do not want to assume either way. 

But it always works to stop digging.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 28, 2012, 04:25:11 PM
"Its hard to find a friend that's 96% funny, 98% sexy, and 100% sweet......so don't lose me!." - a FB friend
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 29, 2012, 04:47:25 PM

A Cup of Tea

Nan-in, a Japanese master during the Meiji era (1868-1912), received a university professor who came to inquire about Zen.

Nan-in served tea. He poured his visitor's cup full, and then kept on pouring.

The professor watched the overflow until he no longer could restrain himself. "It is overfull. No more will go in!"

"Like this cup," Nan-in said, "you are full of your own opinions and speculations. How can I show you Zen unless you first empty your cup?"
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 29, 2012, 09:50:16 PM
MS,

Thank you for making my Summer a little less boring.  I wish you nothing but the best.  I hope the situation works out to your heart's liking.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 30, 2012, 06:04:22 AM
I am so proud of my strong girls.  I wanted to swim to another little island and they wanted to come along.  I told them that I think it's too far.  I asked L what are you going to do when you run out of energy, and she said, "I will just float on my back."  They were disappointed that I didn't let them swim, but I am so proud of them for wanting to venture.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 31, 2012, 09:43:41 PM
Stop digging is one of the lesson that I strongly learned this week..... When you act on negative emotions, it actually makes everything so bad and makes you feel so grotesque and sick for succumbing to it.  Therefore keep positive thoughts and lose like a champ. 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 01, 2012, 07:41:30 AM
It is the thought that I will not let'em get the best of me...... that does the most the damage to us.  It is no longer becomes them hurting us, but us escalating it and hurting ourselves even more than they ever could.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 01, 2012, 07:45:45 AM
Thank you for your wisdom.....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7LE4wtPaano# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7LE4wtPaano#)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 02, 2012, 06:47:04 AM
You will never find the right person if you could never let go of the wrong one. - a FB friend
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 03, 2012, 08:18:05 AM
The thing I learn from last week is that if you have something negative, stop talking about because it will only create more negative energy.  And 2, stop digging, because the whole will only get bigger.

Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 03, 2012, 08:18:45 AM
I am so proud of my three strong girls.  They are so courageous and brave.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 03, 2012, 08:20:08 AM
I have forgotten this, especially lately, but yes I have found what I am looking for already.  I have found the zen that is to be found at the top of the mountain. - K
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 03, 2012, 08:26:36 AM
This is for the beautiful girl who will be coming into my life.  I can't wait until you get here.  Please do not make me wait too long.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qQ-15YIvH5Y# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qQ-15YIvH5Y#)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 03, 2012, 09:44:07 PM
I am finding again, embarrassingly that it is still my expectations and perception that is faulty and creating very strong mixed feelings which escapes in destructive ways.  It is still mostly in me.....recentl y.  Thank for you patience and kindness MS.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 03, 2012, 09:44:57 PM
A good relationship is someone who accepts your past, supports your present, love you and encourages your future.... - a FB friend.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 03, 2012, 09:48:55 PM
I'm here not because I am supposed to be here or because I'm trapped here, but because I'd rather be with you than anywhere else in the world. - Richard Bachman.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 03, 2012, 10:00:41 PM
Certain people enter our lives at the perfect time, for the most beautiful reasons, and you know right away it was a gift from God.  - Brigitte Nicole.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 03, 2012, 10:02:30 PM
Don't let the people who do so little for you, control so much of your feelings and emotions.... a FB friend.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 03, 2012, 10:03:53 PM
Save your heart for someone who loves you breathless - a FB friend.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 03, 2012, 10:05:23 PM
Please double check and be stronger on my expectations.. ..they are responsible for my imagination going wild.....and uncontrollable .
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 03, 2012, 10:10:29 PM
From compassion and kindness, I finally see someone who's afraid and was only acting to protect herself from pain (or new pain) even if it means going back to old pain.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 11, 2012, 05:53:17 AM
My lesson from X....make sure the candle trigger is .55 or higher.. Or else it may be stopped out, and I will be left watching from the sideline.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 12, 2012, 07:24:08 PM
I have to be more zen in my thoughts.....b ecause it is my imagination that is running wild....not the truth....
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 12, 2012, 07:24:44 PM
Have you ever kissed anyone in the rain?    :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 13, 2012, 11:19:18 PM
I am very thankful that you came into my life.  I will give my best to you and us.  That is a promise.  I will plant trust in my garden.  I will plant kindness in our garden.  I will plant understanding in our garden.  I will plant flexibility in our garden.  I will plant affections in our garden.   I will water it with love everyday.  Thank you again for coming into my life.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 19, 2012, 06:34:25 PM
I cant change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to reach my destination.  Jimmy Dean
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 22, 2012, 06:53:30 PM
You will never be brave if you don't get hurt.

You will never learn if you don't make mistakes.

You will never be successful if you don't encounter failure.

 -  a FB friend


Thank you from me.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 24, 2012, 10:17:28 PM
Thank you for closing a chapter in your life, and opening a new one.  Let's make it last. 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 29, 2012, 07:53:03 AM
Success is not the key to happiness.   Happiness is the key to success.  If you love what you are doing, you will be successful.  - a FB friend.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 29, 2012, 08:26:37 AM
When I say I love you, I don't say it out of habit or to make conversation.  I say it to remind you that you're the best thing that ever happen to me. - a Love Poem
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 13, 2012, 04:36:10 PM
I think I have had only one love all my life......she just comes to me in different forms and leaves me for a while and then comes to me again in another form.   
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 15, 2012, 07:48:59 PM
Will I be a statistic?  Or will I plow on in the direction of my beliefs?  I want to plow on in the direction of my beliefs.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 16, 2012, 06:11:26 PM
For the first time in my relationship with her, I realize that she needs me.....as much or more as I need her.  As colorful and unpredictable as she is, she needs me to be her anchor.  I should do all I can to help her in the way she wants and needs.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 17, 2012, 07:03:06 PM
Vision transcends ordinary moments to momentous events in history! Change the world, be a Visionary! - a FB friend.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 02, 2012, 09:15:04 PM
I am learning more and more about you everyday, including what kind of lover you are.  Sometimes you are very reserve, that I wasn't sure what you are, but at other times you are very giving as well.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 11, 2012, 10:14:35 AM
I haven't came to write about you in a long time.  We normally write when our hearts trouble us.  My heart must not have been troubling me in a while, thanks to your adjustments.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 24, 2012, 09:49:47 AM
Lambeau: Most days I wish I'd never met you 'cause then I could sleep at night. I didn't have to walk around with the knowledge that there was someone like you out there. I didn't have to watch you throw it all away.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 24, 2012, 09:09:01 PM
"I understand about u were saying about wanting to meet the old me who had dreams n wasn't going to let anyone tell her she can't have it because she was a girl and she was married.  I am sorry for being angry with you when u were just helping me see who I was n who I can become because of my fall.  I love you." - MS
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 24, 2012, 10:47:34 PM
Hi MS!!!!  :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 24, 2012, 10:48:03 PM
Are enjoying reading my thoughts? :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 24, 2012, 10:53:34 PM

Hello MS,

Since you made it this far, I will share you a story about letting go of the past. :)


14.   Muddy Road

Tanzan and Ekido were once traveling together down a muddy road. A heavy rain was still falling.

Coming around a bend, they met a lovely girl in a silk kimono and sash, unable to cross the intersection.

"Come on, girl" said Tanzan at once. Lifting her in his arms, he carried her over the mud.

Ekido did not speak again until that night when they reached a lodging temple. Then he no longer could restrain himself. "We monks don't go near females," he told Tanzan, "especially not young and lovely ones. It is dangerous. Why did you do that?"

"I left the girl there," said Tanzan. "Are you still carrying her?"
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 25, 2012, 08:21:21 PM
That is very funny that your song from your previous marriage is also 'I love you to want me' by Lobo.  That was also mine.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0mBS0f9MJHE#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0mBS0f9MJHE#ws)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 27, 2012, 05:11:58 PM
Daniel Shannon

‎2 often ppl look around 4 inspiration, consequently they neglect the greatness within themselves. If u wanna be a light, let ur light shine!
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 27, 2012, 10:07:36 PM
Changes to Trading Plan

1.  Factor in crossing of 20 & 10 MA against trend.
2.  Change Market Criteria to reflect RC, and TOBB
3.  S1 pattern should only be entered with a market rating that is +60 or more.
4.  The 7.95 factor should be adjusted for price range as well.
5.  When I am at 14 positions, I can only have 5 outstanding orders.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 29, 2012, 08:28:27 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G1kkx2m-JSg# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G1kkx2m-JSg#)

Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 02, 2012, 04:36:51 PM
Hi stranger..have nt read u for awhile now. Hope u are doing well.

Thank you for stopping by and reading.  Everything is going good.  :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 05, 2012, 07:35:03 PM
http://www.innoveproject.org/ (http://www.innoveproject.org/)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 05, 2012, 07:47:20 PM
No army can stop an idea who's time has come.......Is is that time?
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 05, 2012, 08:52:01 PM
Even trending stocks can have a support/resistance under 50, especially if they came against support or resistance that is less than 6 months old........exa mple is PXP on 11/28.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 05, 2012, 09:45:04 PM
I cannot enter Swing positions into market conditions that are less than .60.  The reason being that I want to enter into strong markets....... .Swings works really bad again OEXT markets.  All it takes is a little hiccup and the positions come tumbling down.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 07, 2012, 09:25:30 PM
I have been watching my negative thoughts, and acting on them, and I realize that I am getting negative results very quickly.  I am undoing all the positive things that took such a long time to build up. 

I cannot go down this road, because it could be very hard to come back from.  I have to focus on goodness, love, kindness and giving the best of me at all time.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 08, 2012, 05:55:00 AM
Life begins at the end of your comfort zone - a FB friend
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 13, 2012, 08:03:21 PM
It's really good to study losers.....I had a bad month last month, but the lesson is badly needed.  I got into trading Swings because I do not want to miss certain moves in the market.  However, my swing trades need to be with the market, which means I need my market criteria to be at least .60 or higher..... then I am with the market.....

My Bollinger band patterns will fare much better with the market the way it was, because it designed to be entered with or against the market as long as it meets the criteria.  The reason is that I am counting on statistics to win out.  My criteria in Swing will be tighter.

I do not need to trade all the time.  I need only a couple hundred very good trades a year, and I will get the result that I am looking for.  Therefore, tighten my entry criteria in swings.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 16, 2012, 02:16:57 PM
Do not go against large gaps or multiple gaps......the gap destroys the candle trigger already.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 21, 2012, 06:06:49 PM
TOUCHING STORY:

My mom only had one eye. I hated her She was such an embarrassment. She cooked for students and teachers to support the family.
There was this one day during elementary school where my mom came to say hello to me. I was so embarrassed.
How could she do this to me? I ignored her, threw her a hateful look and ran out. The next day at school one of my classmates said, EEEE, your mo

m only has one eye!
I wanted to bury myself. I also wanted my mom to just disappear. I confronted her that day and said, If youre only gonna make me a laughing stock, why dont you just die?
My mom did not respond I didnt even stop to think for a second about what I had said, because I was full of anger. I was oblivious to her feelings.
I wanted out of that house, and have nothing to do with her. So I studied real hard, got a chance to go abroad to study.
Then, I got married. I bought a house of my own. I had kids of my own. I was happy with my life, my kids and the comforts. Then one day, my Mother came to visit me. She hadnt seen me in years and she didnt even meet her grandchildren.
When she stood by the door, my children laughed at her, and I yelled at her for coming over uninvited. I screamed at her, How dare you come to my house and scare my children! GET OUT OFHERE! NOW!!!
And to this, my mother quietly answered, Oh, Im so sorry. I may have gotten the wrong address, and she disappeared out of sight.
One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house. So I lied to my wife that I was going on a business trip. After there union, I went to the old shack just out of curiosity.
My neighbours said that she died. I did not shed a single tear. They handed me a letter that she had wanted me to have.
My dearest son,
I think of you all the time. Im sorry that I came to your house and scared your children.
I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion. But I may not be able to even get out of bed to see you. Im sorry that I was a constant embarrassment to you when you were growing up.
You see..when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye. As a mother, I couldnt stand watching you having to grow up with one eye. So I gave you mine.
I was so proud of my son who was seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye.
With all my love to you,
Your mother.

MORAL LESSON:
Always LOVE your parents. They are a blessing to you.

NOTE:
We only have one mom, so love her, you will come to cry when she's gone.

If you love your Mom, press "LIKE"
and
write,"I LOVE U MOM" if you are proud of her:)
If possible include her name
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 22, 2012, 06:06:27 AM
The Letters I never sent you:
You said a couple of things that makes me wonder tonight. One you said you could have any man. I don't think that's true...but it is what you think, and it makes me wonder are you testing that theory from time to time, just for the ego and not carrying it out, unless it got out of control. Besides, what ever you find underneath the great big sky, you won't find me. I don't need you to complete my happiness, because I bring my own happiness to share with you. But you can get me all torn up inside due to your breaking the two simple rules that is meant to foster and cultivate trust, and love. Two, last night you said you came home, when you could disappear and be anywhere.....y ou already are doing that to me from time to time. At each moment you always know where I am, and I could always be reached with a phone call. For proof that I am going to a funeral, I have forwarded you the email I sent to all the cousins. You could tell me things like how much you love me, but your emotional actions is telling me to be careful right now. If you and I end now, you won't even be a love in my life, but a complicated issue I ran across. I say that, because I know what loving someone is. I would do just about anything to be with that person. I would rush my chores, tell my family I am busy, brush my friends off, listen to their dreams and try to make it a reality, cheat on my sleep, and more, just to be with that person. I would even break my personal principles from time to time, because not doing so would break my heart. I use to do that all the time with you, but now I finding that I might be running into a brick wall only. One thing you will always be to me is a very good friend. We have too much in common on the intellectual side. No matter what happens I do want you to find joy and happiness in each moment of your life. Okay, I will tell you one of the things you do that makes me laugh and smile inside.....whe n I see you picking your teeth, especially when you are standing there listening to a conversation and flossing your teeth at the same time. It's so cute and funny, because hardly any flossing is done. When I think of that or I see that I am filled with a warm feeling for you, even now. I am so sorry for further complicating your life, well because our habits and understanding of love are far apart. I am always ready to love you with all of me, when you should ever decide that you are ready to do the same. Just in case I don't hear from you (or my communication break is longer than I thought):

May flowers line your path and sunshine light your day
May song birds serenade you every step of the way
May a rainbow run beside you in a sky that is always blue
And may gladness fill your heart each day your whole life through : )


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0iE7DrwHlx8#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0iE7DrwHlx8#ws)

Honestly, I want a girl in my life who looks for reasons and excuses to be with me, instead of one that breaks dates with me. Like I said earlier, if you wished to be with me, you would be with me.....you weren't because you didn't wish to be.......Have a great weekend.

We did have plans. The first time you changed it, it was for a valid reason. The second time you changed it (and not communicate to me), it was simply because you would rather be elsewhere but here.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 26, 2012, 05:32:24 PM
The Dalai Lama, when asked what surprised him most about humanity, answered,

"Man. Because he sacrifices his health in order to make money. Then he sacrifices money to recuperate his health. And then he is so anxious about the future that he does not enjoy the present; the result being that he does not live in the present or the future; he lives as if he is never going to die, and then dies having never really lived."
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 26, 2012, 06:47:26 PM
I think the criteria of >.60 of the market is too high.  I will use >.55 market for now.  With that, there were sound trades that would have met the criteria.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 26, 2012, 06:48:02 PM
Perhaps with exiting a trade, I should adjust my final OCO as well.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 30, 2012, 08:28:29 AM
in sportsbetting (as well as other forms of gambling), there is an emptiness that comes with losing; there is an even greater emptiness that comes with winning. - a FB friend
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 30, 2012, 08:39:33 AM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4R3PzVQ9mIs# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4R3PzVQ9mIs#)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on December 30, 2012, 08:51:42 AM
http://www.thebigview.com/buddhism/dhammapada-01.html (http://www.thebigview.com/buddhism/dhammapada-01.html)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 06, 2013, 04:13:47 PM
If my system were to be executed correctly the last year, it would generate a 48.84 % return in the first 11 months.  I am learning to execute it correctly now....

For candles that go against gap, consider the strength of the market condition, BB, and candle trigger.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 12, 2013, 01:52:20 PM
For the last year, VIX was mostly under 20, and at many times at around 16.  That explains the lack of volatility and therefore opportunity. 

I am thinking of executing very strong P1 trades, with CT> .70, BB>.85, S/R>.9, B-RC at market similar to Swing trades.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 20, 2013, 11:05:26 AM
What lies in our power to do, it lies in our power not to do. -  Aristotle

It isn't until you come to a spiritual understanding of who you are - not necessarily a religious feeling, but deep down, the spirit within - that you can begin to take control - Oprah Winfrey

Anger is only one letter short of danger.  - Anon

Without discipline, there's no life at all. -  Katharine Hepburn

Self-control is the quality that distinguishes the fittest to survive. - George Bernard Shaw

Many people have the ambition to succeed; they may even have a special aptitude for their job.  And yet they do not move ahead.  Why?  Perhaps they think that since they can master the job, there is no need to master themselves. - John Stevenson

Waiting is one of the great arts. - Margery Allingham
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 20, 2013, 11:13:07 AM
No man is free who is not master of himself - Epictetus

Freedom is not procured by a full enjoyment of what is desired, but by controlling that desire - Epictetus

He who reigns within himself and rules his passions, desires, and fears is more than a king - John Milton
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 22, 2013, 05:16:17 PM
There's a way of playing safe, there's a way of using tricks and there's the way I like to play which is dangerously where you're going to take a chance on making mistakes in order to create something you haven't created before.
~ Dave Brubeck
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 27, 2013, 04:42:31 PM
Tipping is not a city in China......... .What is the capital of Thailand - BangKock  - The Blue Horseshoe
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 28, 2013, 07:29:50 PM
The Special....... If Pattern = B-RC, and S/R >/= 80, and Mkt >/= 65, then it's okay to chase S1 patterns and be more aggressive.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on January 30, 2013, 09:43:43 PM
My purpose in trading is to help other people construct their dreams
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 02, 2013, 08:17:59 AM
I use to enjoy hearing this song on the radio, back in high school.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TTqi7iEZEWA (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TTqi7iEZEWA)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 02, 2013, 05:25:04 PM
Two Things I must absolutely do.

1.  Do not keep on digging any longer........
2.  Wait a month 3/1/2013 before moving on........
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 05, 2013, 05:07:44 PM
I have a solution now..... I made so many amateur errors, and that is why I fail.  It is a lesson for success.  Thank you learning my lesson.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 07, 2013, 07:42:52 PM
I will never lose myself again.....
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 07, 2013, 08:17:36 PM
It was relaxing ...N it got me to thinking some more.  I'm not coming over.  We r are not married n we should not see each other every night.  It's not right.

If I'm going to work toward being a good person...Good people don't sleep over all the time when they are not married.


That is so funny.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 18, 2013, 04:20:35 PM
If you're not willing to risk, you cannot grow. - Les Brown
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 18, 2013, 04:29:05 PM
"The Only Real Failure in Life is not to be True to the Best One Knows." - The Buddha
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 18, 2013, 09:45:45 PM
"I am going to succeed because I am crazy enough to think I can." - a FB friend.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on February 20, 2013, 07:08:16 PM
Thank you for the February Lesson from PAY.  I can only use the RC and Great Support with stronger than > = .56 MKT.  Otherwise, I am asking for trouble.

I am using a 4 day exponential moving average with criteria of >= .55 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 10, 2013, 04:35:42 PM
"Think about it... if I catch you in a lie about the little things then how can I EVER trust you about the Big Things." - Karen Kostyla
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 10, 2013, 04:50:44 PM
MS - thank you for a wonderful get away.  I have never done that before.  Hopefully we have come to a better understanding of where we are headed. - k
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 10, 2013, 06:57:26 PM
I met co-worker and his family at a random event and started talking to him.   I realized, again, that we are all very special.  We should talk to others more to learn about one another.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 14, 2013, 08:24:47 PM
MS,

You're so funny sometimes....
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 28, 2013, 08:51:02 PM
"When you move leave love behind and you will find love in your new place." - Louise Hayes
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 28, 2013, 08:51:48 PM
A dad's greatest gift "I believe in you."  - Jimmy Valvano
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 28, 2013, 08:54:47 PM
Instrument rating of .525 or higher
Breakout of range > a month
MKT Criteria     > .525
Support           > .75
Candle Trigger > .75
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on March 31, 2013, 08:48:53 PM
"The trash is the only thing that's keeping you from this moment, here and now." - Socrates (Peaceful Warrior)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 01, 2013, 06:54:11 PM
We should be fathers like Jim Valvano's dad.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MfwmJpSjhNI#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MfwmJpSjhNI#ws)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 11, 2013, 08:36:55 PM
Once I was cruising in my brand new yellow corvette, and this song happens to come on.....I felt like I have made it...and now I am driving a 98' corolla.  ;D......But I am loving life more than ever than I did before.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gqnx6p0C8CU# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gqnx6p0C8CU#)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 12, 2013, 06:17:26 PM
If I know what love is, it is because of you - Herman Hesse

Having you in my life is a gift I treasure every day.....Happy Valentine's Day with all my heart....From the Card you give on our first and maybe only Valentine's Day together.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 12, 2013, 11:04:35 PM
Allura's Song

Hello my father, is it as I fear
That mothers heart and yours are no longer near

It cannot be so, youre so close, not now
You two must make up some how

I was looking forward to meeting all my siblings
I have been here patiently sitting

I was looking forward to walks on a beach with fine sands
With me, Allura holding my mother and father's hands

I dream to live a life that is kind and giving
Allura's beautiful Song, I must sing

Mother, you, and I are meant to meet
In this life, not the next, so to each other speak

Oh my father, I know I am speaking in vain
Because adults hearts are hard to change

Goodbye my father, I will miss you
And my beautiful loving mother too
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 12, 2013, 11:05:44 PM
It's not wise to try to change the direction of the wind.... and that is why I failed.  I am sorry.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 13, 2013, 08:22:33 AM
A bell's not a bell 'til you ring it,
A song's not a song 'til you sing it.
Love in your heart wasn't put there to stay,
Love isn't love 'til you give it away!

- Oscar Hammerstein II
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 14, 2013, 06:42:58 AM
Thank you for the understanding that my heart reached last night.....that my heart didn't cheat on the love I intended to give you.  It never found fertile soil to grow....And I can only live with my heart and my beliefs in what would make love/life work.  Wishing you smiles and happiness.

Out of the night that covers me
Black as the night from pole
I think what ever Gods maybe
For my unconquerable soul

In the fell clutch of circumstance
My heart has sometimes winced, but not cried aloud
Under the bludgeoning of chance
My heart is bloody, but unbowed

Beyond this place of deceit and tears
Looms not love, but only heartaches
And yet the pain of all the years
Finds and shall find my belief in love, unafraid

It matters not, how straight the gate.
How filled with punishments the scroll
You are the master of your fate
and I am the captain of my soul
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 14, 2013, 07:06:51 AM
I am missing too many P2s from my live testing....... They should be as abundant as P1s and much more than P3s.  I need strong assignment of 40MA, and stronger assignment of SR for trending stocks.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 17, 2013, 07:31:47 PM
Thank you Les Brown

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NaoUlSSWUsI#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NaoUlSSWUsI#ws)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 21, 2013, 09:36:31 PM
The loyalty from John Wooden's pyramid of success isn't loyalty to others.  It is loyalty to what one's heart knows to be true......

Thank you for this understanding.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 23, 2013, 08:21:20 PM
If you are reading this, you better be strong and come my way......becau se I cannot go your way.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 26, 2013, 04:44:32 PM
Thank for coming into my life and testing in many ways.  My big head does needed it more than I could ever imagine. :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 29, 2013, 10:48:00 PM
I am proud of you today...for many things and especially for being a good friend to your friend.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on April 30, 2013, 08:20:20 PM
The Goose in the Bottle

An old koan asks, "How can you get a goose out of a bottle?" We're asked to imagine that a baby gosling was placed inside one of those big glass bottles with a little opening that you see model ships in, and raised inside, until now it is full grown and can no longer fit through the neck of the bottle. How can you get the goose out of the bottle? It's actually a frightening image when we think about what an artificial, cramped and constricted life that poor goose must lead in there, and how unimaginable a life of freedom must be to an animal raised under such conditions. And yet, that's what the old teacher who thought up this koan was saying about our lives- that we lead lives so confined and constricted that we can hardly begin to imagine what true freedom is like.


Thank you for helping me break out the bottle.  The glass is at least cracking.....
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 03, 2013, 09:36:33 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ac3HkriqdGQ#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ac3HkriqdGQ#ws)

Thank you.  I don't know why but this song came into my head.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 03, 2013, 09:49:29 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iElty90IPiw# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iElty90IPiw#)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 06, 2013, 09:20:40 PM
I under estimated the TRIN, low trin driving a market.  Now I am splitting the TRIN in two, dynamic and static.  It deserves to be so.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 07, 2013, 05:33:34 AM
If someone wants to be a part of your life, they will be there, they will make the effort.  Don't waste your time saving a place in your life for someone who just cant be bothered to make an effort. - a FB friend of a friend.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 11, 2013, 10:00:55 AM
What if we are all connected to the same field of consciousness. ...
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 12, 2013, 07:25:36 AM
For once upon a roof top......

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1SCOimBo5tg (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1SCOimBo5tg)

Thank you so much.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 12, 2013, 07:28:31 AM
In love the wise man and the fool becomes the same.....I am sorry for the embarrassing moment last night, forgive me.....All along, I kept thinking there's something to save, when there may not be......I kept thinking I could change the direction of the wind, and then I became a fool for thinking so.....regardl ess, Kind and happy thoughts always. :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 12, 2013, 12:10:03 PM
Her last text to me: I will try.  You will be happier and more peaceful.  I miss u.

Thank you for coming into my life and opening an interesting chapter.  I think I needed your help to make me grow, or at least to test me where I have never been tested before.  I will miss you too.  Do know that I was hoping you would be the one for me for the next 45 years of my life.  I hope you find whatever it is you're looking for, each and everyday of your life filled with joy and laughter.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 12, 2013, 02:13:40 PM
To a love that is moving on.....

May flowers line her path and sunshine light her day
May songbirds serenade her every step of the way
May a rainbow run beside her in a sky that is always blue
And may gladness fill her heart each day, her whole life through
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 12, 2013, 06:39:39 PM
Today, I am personally reminded of the lyrics of this song.....Sprin gfield Mountain


As life grow old
and love grows cold
and memory fades
in distant time
you will love another
And I never will have a love that once was mine


Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 12, 2013, 06:40:54 PM
Everything that happens in life is good.....We get to enjoy the good and learn from the bad, which makes the bad good.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 13, 2013, 05:48:03 PM
I behave really bad last night too.  I am sorry.


I know, I tried to tell you your 180s were giving it all away.  I think it's a good thing though.  Because I wanted it to be your decision....so I wouldn't feel so guilty.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 13, 2013, 05:48:33 PM
Now that my mind is clear now, I finally see the association... ....GS.  Thank you very much.

Not true, my mind was scarred, and I wanted negative association.  It is a sign of weakness, not strength.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 13, 2013, 08:54:16 PM
Invictus

Out the night that covers me
Black the pit from pole to pole
I thank whatever Gods may be
For my unconquerable soul

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced or cried aloud
Under the bludgeoning of chance
My head is bloody but unbowed

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the horror of the shade
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall me unafraid

It matters not how strait the gate
Or how filled with punishments the scroll
I am the master of my fate
I am the captain of my soul

William Ernest Henley
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 13, 2013, 09:08:25 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KSxuvNGSrmc# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KSxuvNGSrmc#)

I am beginning to understand this song lately. :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 15, 2013, 05:20:54 PM
That was very kind of you to stop by to say sorry.  It does mean a lot to me.  Thank you.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 15, 2013, 10:48:48 PM
Thank you for Powers Lake....under a starry night.  I will always cherish it.

Thank you for keeping me warm during such a long winter.

Thank you for all the sweet lunches you packed.

Thank you for saying hello and for saying goodbye.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 18, 2013, 10:32:02 PM
I thought Wednesday was a great ending.....the n you had to give me the guilt trip on Thursday only to surprise of Friday........ ..That was quite a shocker....... ....mostly for me too.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 22, 2013, 06:26:10 PM
I woke up today and realized that I was in a circus and I was actually the clown (someone else was the ring master).....so I had to leave.  I was hoping you would runaway with me, but your silence already said enough.  One day, when you are ready for me, you will return to me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YUmaNK7M-iM# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YUmaNK7M-iM#)

We'll always have the rainstorm. :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 28, 2013, 12:18:19 AM
I had a dream about you tonight, and that is why I got up to write to you.  I know part of tonight's mystery was about Dxxxx.  I just wasn't sure if I pushed you there or not.  I don't think I did.  My subconscious mind still dreams about you.  For a long time now, I know that your actions indicated that your mysterious intentions were not good for me.  I am still disappointed and a little shock about our my meeting on that Friday between you, me and Dxxxx.  I held on as long as I could so that we could have a soft landing, and leave each other in friendship, even if we do not talk.  I do not regret chasing you and your friend, because it is that action that pushed it over the edge so that you can be free from me. I do not know what is in your heart, but I know that we could never build love, much less friendship or marriage with the kind trust we have.  I could never love someone who designed a secret path to the past with all the support of her friends, and with deception.  I know how to love only one way and that is with all I have to give with clarity and honesty.  I am not what you want in your heart, and so I asked you, or am letting you know, that I will not come back, and should have left a long time ago, as a love in your love or your good friend, and please accept that.  Having said that, please pursue your your desire with clarity of heart and mind knowing that you are no longer cheating on me in any way shape of form.  You didn't tell me so, but I already know so.  Always, joy, happiness, and beautiful smiles.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 28, 2013, 12:20:02 AM
You're a big goofball.  Please be happy in all that you do, including the one thing that lead to our failure.  I will be happy for you as long as you are happy regardless.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 28, 2013, 06:16:54 PM
For a beautiful smile

May the road rise up to meet you.
May the wind be always at your back.
May the sun shine warm upon your face;
the rains fall soft upon your fields and until we meet again,
may God hold you in the palm of His hand.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 28, 2013, 07:42:35 PM
"Never ignore a person who loves you, cares for you, and misses you. Because one day, you might wake up from your sleep and realize that you lost the moon while counting the stars. "
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 28, 2013, 08:03:08 PM
That was a really wild ride....someti mes I laugh and cry from one moment to the next.....thank you for an interesting time. :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on May 30, 2013, 07:44:04 PM
Thank you for teaching me detachment.... ...first hand.  If you had played fair, I would not have to learn it, so thank you for being unfair.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 01, 2013, 09:30:02 AM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U2AHmarH_04#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U2AHmarH_04#ws)

Funny
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: BuckFuddies2 on June 02, 2013, 02:18:51 AM
Apologies for intruding but I read this and it struck a chord with me. Personally I think this is how people should love each other. There's so much deception and so many hidden agendas in the world already; love should be exempt from it.

You've brightened my day. Now I know someone else who loves with a similar heart like mine.

Best wishes to you and everything you do.  :)

That it why you are weak and naieve.  It's much deeper then words can ever know... which, you think you're pretty good with it.  Words that is.  But you FAIL in the whole scheme of things.  Girls like you need an 'awakening'.  Hahahaha.  Sorry, just thought I would wake you up from your slumber.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 03, 2013, 08:51:53 PM
Apologies for intruding but I read this and it struck a chord with me. Personally I think this is how people should love each other. There's so much deception and so many hidden agendas in the world already; love should be exempt from it.

You've brightened my day. Now I know someone else who loves with a similar heart like mine.

Best wishes to you and everything you do.  :)

No apologies necessary, this is a public forum.  Thank you stopping by.  Best of luck to every you do as well.  :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 03, 2013, 08:53:14 PM
Thank you for a wonderful smokeless day......Yes, I will come back......
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 06, 2013, 08:36:18 PM
Thank you for a wonderful smokeless day......Yes, I will come back......

It's been a smokeless week.....thank you for making the effort
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 06, 2013, 08:36:54 PM
The Queen of Diamond said she will return into my life, if I find a reason for her to stay.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 08, 2013, 08:23:12 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NdYWuo9OFAw# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NdYWuo9OFAw#)

This song was on my mind to day, when my brothers started talking about the Goo Goo Dolls
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 08, 2013, 09:10:49 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2IH5AhnUc7Q# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2IH5AhnUc7Q#)

I'll always remember the interview with Rob Thomas for this song.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 08, 2013, 09:11:57 PM
Hi!

Your friend found a home.....you should too.

What do I really want out of our relationship.. ...your happiness first and foremost, without stepping all over me to get there....

I think you are very happy recently and as far as I know, not stepping on me, so I am happy.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 08, 2013, 10:08:31 PM
I use to tell you, you better know what you are doing or saying, because love last forever......I now realize that it doesn't, not that kind of love.  It is too selfish is only meant for this life.  We say that or ask, because we want to feel we belong to someone special for all eternity.  The truth is, it last as long as or until we make our mind or hearts to move.  The wind cannot be captured or held.  The winds have change and the past is the past.  Always kind and happy wishes for you. :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 09, 2013, 05:46:47 PM
I am responsible for everything in my life.  I will not blame others, justify my wrong actions, or complain loudly to contaminate and poison my mind.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 12, 2013, 09:16:01 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kvz_gW5C2cY# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kvz_gW5C2cY#)

Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 12, 2013, 09:17:46 PM
Because I was kept in the dark, and I didn't find out the facts until it was too late.....By the time I found you were emotionally hijacked already.  I could not have saved our relationship.  I did make it accelerate our demise by keeping giving you time off.  You used to time to get more emotionally hooked.  I know you don't know what you are doing......So I hope it works out to your satisfaction.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 15, 2013, 07:44:20 PM
Something entered my thoughts...... .from my supposed my vacation, and I wonder if it will be strong enough for me to overcome the silly things you do.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 15, 2013, 08:03:21 PM
http://psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2008/08/04/how-to-spot-a-narcissist/ (http://psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2008/08/04/how-to-spot-a-narcissist/)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 22, 2013, 04:11:01 PM
To once upon a dream, I just got done watching Atlast Shrugged part 2.  Well, there will be a part three.  I was going to write you myself, but I can't do that anymore, because it would be going against my very strong beliefs, and I do not want to get lost in myself.  I hope you are doing great.  Always best wishes.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 22, 2013, 10:02:43 PM
"You have been hit.  Getting up is up to you."  - Charles Remington
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 22, 2013, 10:06:48 PM
"You have been hit.  Getting up is up to you."  - Charles Remington

I have been hit very hard......now getting up is up to me.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 23, 2013, 11:28:37 AM
Starting to day, I will focus on where I want to go, and accept nothing less.  I do not accept excuses for failure from me, why I should accept it from others, especially if it was only meant to deceive me.  SO HELP ME GOD.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 27, 2013, 07:10:30 PM
I had a dream of you last night.  You weren't Hmong, but a mixed of white and something else.  You had a daughter.  You asked me, why am I always telling my daughters that I love them, but hardly ever you.  You stormed off, and I chased after you.  You had amazing curves.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 30, 2013, 08:12:23 PM
Even our feeling of freedom is meant for this life only  - Kou
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on June 30, 2013, 08:12:56 PM
"Or else Pizza's gonna send out for you." - Space Balls
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 03, 2013, 09:59:13 PM
Not all lives are meant to be saved....It was out of your hands. - The Ancient one
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 06, 2013, 03:29:57 PM
Desire closes the door to true happiness, and freedom.

The pain sets me free....can no longer stay in the host.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 07, 2013, 02:17:46 AM
I have been hit very hard......now getting up is up to me.

Again????????  As always, I wish you well, joy, happiness for the rest of your life.  Out of all the people I know, you deserve it the most, and that is why I stayed with you for such a long time.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 07, 2013, 06:11:23 AM
MS,

Thank you for freeing me at last.  I truly appreciate it.  I hope you find the same joy and happiness from the incident as well.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 07, 2013, 01:41:21 PM
Dear MS YYYY,

Congratulation s on accepting the GF/Best Friend position with XXX XXXX LLC.  It was a long interview, but I believe you are an exceptional person and is great fit for the position.  You have a beautiful mind, beautiful body, and you are a beautiful person.  You have potential to make full partner ; ).

We are disciplined, but are flexible. We prided ourselves in flexibility and empowering others to be their best by allowing them to come up with creative solutions.  If our people are not happy, how can they give their best efforts to the team.  We endeavor to create a positive environment for our people, so that they can come up with positive solutions.  By the way you are the one and only employee, and will be the only employee as this kind of joint effort requires one on one dedication with no distractions at all.

XXX XXXX LLC runs on strong core values like, honesty, kindness, trust, communication, and love.  We water those core values everyday with affectionate kisses and warm smiles.
At this time there are no financial benefits, there is only emotional and physical benefits.  You will be asked to provide accommodations for XXX XXXX when he comes to St Paul for business or pleasure, should you need accommodations in Woodbury from time to time, it will be provided for you as well.  You will expected to provide special services to XXX XXXX, if he should desire it. J/K  Of course it will reciprocated as well.  :P.

I hope you have a long career with XXX XXXX LLC and make full partner, and the firm's name will be changed to XXXX & YYYY LLC.  Best wishes on beginning your career with XXX XXXX LLC.

Sincerely,

XXXXX XXXX XXXX
President
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 07, 2013, 04:54:25 PM
You gotta admit it wasn't the old boring just romantic relationship we had. :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 11, 2013, 06:22:35 PM
I had a dream about you last night.  I couldn't remember your phone number in the dream.  I think it is because I was frustrated and wanted to communicate with you.....which will be a mistake both ways, if not in the short run, in the long run.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 14, 2013, 08:43:15 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=52tsmZQY9lo# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=52tsmZQY9lo#)

Courage.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 20, 2013, 09:17:23 PM
Sorry our tree died.

A half finished book is like a half finished love affair - Robert Frobisher
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 20, 2013, 09:29:16 PM
Everyone was right about you.  I was wrong, but I am still very glad that you came into my life and gave me so much.

May the road rise up to meet you.
May the wind be always at your back.
May the sun shine warm upon your face;
the rains fall soft upon your fields and until we meet again,
may God hold you in the palm of His hand.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 21, 2013, 07:18:18 PM
It just occurred to me that robots/AIs will inherit the world.  They are much smarter and stronger than we could be, and they could live forever through upgrades.  Our most recent evolution is our thinking and logic, not our emotional side.  They will have that too.  To think otherwise is simply human hope.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 22, 2013, 07:52:40 PM
This might be one of the last time we danced....

http://www.hmongidealmodel.com/component/muscol/P/191-phooj-ywg/364-vol-2/3704-tsis-tau-pom-dua.html?Itemid=142 (http://www.hmongidealmodel.com/component/muscol/P/191-phooj-ywg/364-vol-2/3704-tsis-tau-pom-dua.html?Itemid=142)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 22, 2013, 09:21:01 PM
I use to wake up to each day with all the energy and focus on having a great no matter what.  I will now have time to focus on that again. :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 23, 2013, 05:17:25 PM
I had to change my number just to get rid of my girl-friend.  I hope this works.  I know pathetic me.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 23, 2013, 08:50:57 PM
Why can't you just be a man and tell her that you don't want her to call you anymore? Changing a phone number w/o telling someone is like slapping on a sticky on the fridge.  :P

I told her that I am moving on and changing my number. 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 23, 2013, 08:52:31 PM
Thank you for all the lunches, all the drives to work, all the arguing as well, for teaching me to be a better person, but mostly thank you for loving me.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 24, 2013, 06:39:57 PM
The body's addiction to nicotine is nothing, compared to the mind's addiction to nicotine.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 24, 2013, 06:40:27 PM
Why is it better give?
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 25, 2013, 08:08:39 PM
Not that I want you to come back.....becau se I want you to be happy where you are....Your being happy will make me happy, but this song will always remind me of you because I first listened to it on your phone on the way back from Mankato.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7_IXEqpRps4&list=PLE5C8AEF96F7D1D93 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7_IXEqpRps4&list=PLE5C8AEF96F7D1D93)

Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 27, 2013, 05:25:03 PM
Honesty is an expensive gift, do not expect it from cheap people. - a FB friend.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 27, 2013, 06:26:34 PM
I had such a beautiful day yesterday..... .Just went out and enjoyed time at happy hour with newbies from work.....came home and then went to watch a Wolverine with my daughter.....c ame home and walk underneath the starry skies with my other daughters.  It was amazingly beautiful, I haven't had that kind of Friday for a very long time.  All that because I did not have to worry where my girlfriend was or where will she get lost to or lie to me about, because I no longer have a girlfriend.  Please be happy with yourself too and do not make me feel guilty for not letting you back into my life.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 29, 2013, 06:55:34 PM
You are so smart, I wish you could see the World the way I see it.  You would understand how beautiful it is all the time, everyday, and every moment.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 29, 2013, 07:12:39 PM
I love "The Secret."

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gaJMP_fDD_w (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gaJMP_fDD_w)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 30, 2013, 06:36:17 PM
I can kill again, I have a reason to live. - From Hot Shots Part Deaux
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on July 30, 2013, 06:50:31 PM
If you hadn't been so mysterious, it wouldn't have taken me so long to get to know you and also it would have been so rough on the both us.  I know you will be okay, you are super smart and a workaholic.  You will find your bearings and one of the best among us all.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 04, 2013, 02:22:03 PM
What am I going to do about a path that has no future......th ere is only one solution and that is to leave it alone.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 04, 2013, 05:58:59 PM
What you think
What you feel
and what manifests
Is always a match

- The Secret
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 04, 2013, 06:14:28 PM
That's not who you are.  That is who you were, because that is the residual outcome of your past thoughts and actions. - The Secret.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 05, 2013, 09:09:09 PM
You are so talented and amazing at times, how do we get you to be at your best?
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 08, 2013, 07:55:49 PM
Listening to the wisdom of the Secret could have saved our relationship.. ...or if only I knew you were so goofy.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 08, 2013, 07:57:28 PM
I had a dream of you the other day.  I dreamed that we went to a resort, and went into the room.  I went outside and came back and I couldn't find our room anymore.  I spent so much time looking for our room.  Later when you found me, you also told me that you couldn't find our room also.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 13, 2013, 07:08:36 PM
It was a really messed up way of seeing things.  I can't believe you did what you did, but today I am so glad that you came into life and made it unbearable at times as well as so pleasurable.  I am reminded of the sudden growth in human development 200,000 years in Africa.  Thank you for coming into life and taking my emotional pain to the extreme.  I needed that suffering to grow stronger.....
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 14, 2013, 09:14:24 PM
Visual the goal as if its already been achieved.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 18, 2013, 08:41:46 PM
I finally get the story of Adam and Eve, and the story of the tree of life......and the bible.  It all makes perfect sense.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 18, 2013, 08:42:37 PM
Success....is doing the right thing in the face of all the negative emotional pressures.  This will always be my definition of success in my book.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 19, 2013, 09:13:13 PM
If you find someone who makes you smile, who checks up on you often to make sure you're okay, who watches out for you and wants the very best for you, don't let them go.  Keep them close and don't take them for granted.  People like that are hard to find. - Unknown.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 20, 2013, 05:42:01 PM
The starting point of maturity is the realization that "no one is coming to the rescue".

Everything you are and everything you will be is entirely up to YOU... - a FB friend.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 22, 2013, 07:32:33 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6ppdB6JX99Q#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6ppdB6JX99Q#ws)

To my uncle who's moved on.  You are so loved and will be missed.  Thank you for your bravery.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 22, 2013, 07:46:55 PM
Thank you for all the gifts of today. :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 26, 2013, 07:05:41 PM
It is in the suffering that wisdom is found.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 27, 2013, 06:24:01 PM
Nash: I don't exactly know what I am required to say in order for you to have intercourse with me. But could we assume that I said all that. I mean essentially we are talking about fluid exchange right? So could we go just straight to the sex.  - from a Beautiful Mind
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 29, 2013, 07:07:05 PM
To my beautiful and strong aunt who just left us.  Thank you for  you kind love.  You will be missed.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xvfqmo0V_4w#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xvfqmo0V_4w#ws)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 30, 2013, 08:22:51 PM
Thank you for allowing us to come to a soft landing and be nothing more than just friends.....I do care about you and that is why I tried so hard to not let you lose me so foolishly.  But, foolishly, you did.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on August 31, 2013, 01:11:39 PM
Yes, words of advice.  If you are interested in her, take the friendship at a slow pace.  Be charming and have a sense of humor, make her laugh more than she is serious.  She's been struggling most of her life and is looking for someone who can offer her the world.  If you can't don't pursue her or you ll be heart broken. But I tell you this, if you can win her heart, she will be make you love her more.  Take good care and good luck to you.  - From her sister (regarding my blind date)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 01, 2013, 08:22:26 PM
Yes, words of advice.  If you are interested in her, take the friendship at a slow pace.  Be charming and have a sense of humor, make her laugh more than she is serious.  She's been struggling most of her life and is looking for someone who can offer her the world.  If you can't don't pursue her or you ll be heart broken. But I tell you this, if you can win her heart, she will be make you love her more.  Take good care and good luck to you.  - From her sister (regarding my blind date)

Thank you big sister for your words of advice.  You are right in many ways.  Thank you.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 01, 2013, 08:35:20 PM
Success....is doing the right thing in the face of all the negative emotional pressures.  This will always be my definition of success in my book.

My definition of success.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 01, 2013, 09:26:50 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xEY3o00LRHI# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xEY3o00LRHI#)

One day I had this theme in my head and I couldn't find out what it was....and then it came to me.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 03, 2013, 07:00:07 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GJ-TyZtSf4k# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GJ-TyZtSf4k#)

Thank you pretty girls for staying with me over the Summer.  I love you all very much.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 19, 2013, 10:45:39 PM
Thank you for the date, but I think that will be our last date.  You are hurt and scared, until you are ready, thus you will not contribute.... .Therefore nothing will grow here.  Take care..
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 22, 2013, 06:02:03 PM
Our mind is made of and still part of this world, it cannot possibly figure out what is beyond.  It is too limited.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 22, 2013, 06:03:42 PM
My aunts and uncle, their kids, and the importance of having loving parents......T here is almost nothing more important than being a loving parent to those that we brought into this world.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on September 30, 2013, 07:56:31 PM
Beauty is being so Not Egotistical... .your ego will make you less attractive to me....your humility will amplify it.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 02, 2013, 07:36:52 PM
TX, thank you for showing me that beauty and truth lies in humility and kindness.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 02, 2013, 07:38:03 PM
LX, 

You came into my dream again last night.....It was very nice, but please stay away......It was a very long time ago, another life.   My focus is on where I am going.....It was good to meet you, but please move on.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 08, 2013, 09:44:23 PM
The way I talk to my beautiful strong daughter Mxxxx is the way I should talk to everyone...... .
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 09, 2013, 07:08:04 PM
Today, I realize and understand that the true measure of a man is not how hard you can hit back......but how well you restrain yourself when you get hit.  Thank you...... for never hitting back so far.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 09, 2013, 07:09:11 PM
Wisdom is the currency (and freedom) that we can spend everyday without end.....
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 10, 2013, 08:16:38 PM
I am sorry.....but I told you a long time what love is.....please understand.  Thank you and I will be your friend.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 13, 2013, 08:41:21 PM
True beauty is really within......do not think otherwise or you will be disappointed..
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 15, 2013, 05:31:26 PM
Hey beautiful warrior, thank you for believing in my potential for success.  I think sometimes you believe in me more than myself, and that is your amazing gift to me.  I believe that once you realized that you are at the center of the universe, you will be better than most of us.  I luv you and may your wonderful journey to the stars be filled with AWE everyday.  :)  Goodbye my love.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 16, 2013, 08:46:38 PM
I know why I had to change my number now.....why I can't simply avoid you.....It is because you tell beautiful ugly deceitful lies.  If you had been truthful, no matter how beautiful you are or how much past we had I would have show yourself the door and let it be.  It is best to not repeat the same pattern again.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 16, 2013, 08:48:53 PM
An insincere friend is more to be feared than a wild beast, a wild beast may wound your body, but an insincere friend will wound your mind. - The Buddha

 Sometimes, I am surprised that I made out in this great of a shape, still.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 16, 2013, 08:51:57 PM
The other day I was randomly thinking and I came across the first fable I ever told you.....the scorpion and the frog.  For a long time, I thought you were the frog....and your ex was the scorpion.  Now I realized that you are the Scorpion....He was the frog got tired of caring you to happiness, and found someone on his back.  I am now the frog, and I am getting stung like crazy every day, trying to carry you to the other side, Happiness.  I am no longer your frog.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 16, 2013, 08:52:53 PM
What is dark energy......it's so out there, but yet we cannot detect it.  It is what is beyond our simple minded understand of the universe and God.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 17, 2013, 08:04:31 PM
When I am running with you and you say, "I love you dad."  I touch a little a bit of heaven.  When you typing away on the computer and I look around the corner, and I say, "Hey You!!!!", and you say, "Hi Dad."  I touch a little bit heaven.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 19, 2013, 12:44:40 PM
I hope you don't mind the intrusion?  I just want to say that I love the randomness but the steadfast voice of continuity is truly inspirational! Thanks!  :)

Of course, I don't mind at all.  Thank you for visiting and saying hello.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 19, 2013, 04:27:20 PM
I hope you don't mind the intrusion?  I just want to say that I love the randomness but the steadfast voice of continuity is truly inspirational! Thanks!  :)

SMH, is that you Samantha Mee Her?

SMH - Merrill Lynch Semiconductor Index ETF.  Semiconductor was really hot in hey days of tech stock growth from the late 90s.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 19, 2013, 04:27:43 PM
Sane love is no love... - from Ek Tha Tiger
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 19, 2013, 04:29:31 PM
We have our logical mind....we have our emotion mind......Our logical mind will be right, but we will act according to our emotional mind, and the further they are part the more pain we will experience.  Bring your emotional mind very close to your logical mind and you will experience bliss.....
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 20, 2013, 11:45:26 AM
Freedom - being free is being happy where we are at each moment and we are free.  Freedom is in the mind, not the physical universe.  To actually go out there to gain your freedom implies that you're not free, because the freedom is attached to what is outside.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 20, 2013, 11:46:26 AM
Norman: Dear Jesse, as the moon lingers a moment over the bitterroots, before its descent into the invisible, my mind is filled with song. I find I am humming softly; not to the music, but something else; some place else; a place remembered; a field of grass where no one seemed to have been; except a deer; and the memory is strengthened by the feeling of you, dancing in my awkward arms.  - A River Runs Through it
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 20, 2013, 11:49:13 AM
 ODE
INTIMATIONS OF IMMORTALITY FROM RECOLLECTIONS OF EARLY CHILDHOOD

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Thanks to the human heart by which we live,
Thanks to its tenderness, its joys, and fears,
To me the meanest flower that blows can give
Thoughts that do often lie too deep for tears.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 21, 2013, 07:55:17 PM
Thank you for a wonderful and productive day.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 21, 2013, 08:09:24 PM
 What though the radiance which was once so bright
 Be now for ever taken from my sight,
 Though nothing can bring back the hour
 Of splendour in the grass, of glory in the flower;
 We will grieve not, rather find
 Strength in what remains behind;
 In the primal sympathy
 Which having been must ever be;
 In the soothing thoughts that spring
 Out of human suffering;
 In the faith that looks through death,
 In years that bring the philosophic mind.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 21, 2013, 09:01:35 PM
I wonder if I blew my chances for a foursome.....w ell I did, but was it the right thing to do to screw it up.  Now we wouldn't have to look at each other in embarrassing ways.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 22, 2013, 06:10:53 PM
Thank you for a wonderful and refreshing day of freedom......u nfortunately it is because I am free from your untruths and you had to take it in a negative way.  Please be happy tomorrow.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 22, 2013, 07:29:43 PM
I am free at last.  That was hard because of the untruths, but I am free at last.  Thank you for coming into my life and thank you for leaving.

Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 22, 2013, 07:55:52 PM
Platinum Rule:  When you're negatively charged emotionally, saying less is so much more......beca use you don't have to look like an a$$ later.  Because I regret just about everything that I have said when I am negatively charged.  I am sorry. :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 22, 2013, 08:25:17 PM
I am in such a blissful state right now.......and listening to this, all the while studying the stock market.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jzF_y039slk#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jzF_y039slk#ws)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 24, 2013, 06:13:47 PM
I have to get out of that loop before something regretful happens, something that I cannot fix and cannot live with.  It is clear that I do not belong there now.  Thank you.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 24, 2013, 06:14:58 PM
I get high watching you grow so strong or wise every day.  You are so much stronger than me, you are also my very good friend too.  Thank you for making me keep my words.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 24, 2013, 08:38:38 PM
To the girl with the million dollar smile.....I am sorry, but I have to quiet my heart and my thought before I return to you as a friend.  You also have to do the same thing too.  I will see you soon, so please stay safe for me.  Take care of your little family. Please always keep your kids at the center of your love and devotion.

Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 24, 2013, 08:59:23 PM
To once upon a roof top,

During my troubled and distracted heart of this year, you became my Vanilla Sky, but now that I found a better understanding of who I am.  Thank you but the past is the past.  Take care of your self.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 24, 2013, 09:02:45 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zhi6nNYNOxQ# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zhi6nNYNOxQ#)

When I hear this song, I know it's not me.....I understanding why he still haven't found what he's looking for, because he's looking in the wrong the place, out there.  I think I have found what I am looking for.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 27, 2013, 10:21:55 PM
The Law of life: You either grow or you die. - Tony Robbins.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 27, 2013, 10:22:51 PM
Freedom: Always cherish the freedom to prepared for a better tomorrow, not the physical freedom.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 27, 2013, 10:25:19 PM
A Story of Love:  Last year I met a cousin, Txos, from Wisconsin, at a funeral.  He was eating a pastry and he got some on his shirt.  Without criticizing, his wife gently wiped it off and straighten his shirt.  I thought that is one of the sweetest love scene that I had ever seen....becaus e that rarely ever happens to me.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 30, 2013, 03:06:20 PM
Do you guys notice that there's not enough bullsh1t in the bullsh1t soup now a days? 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on October 30, 2013, 03:07:47 PM
Freedom is finding the mind power to be happy where you are currently at.  If you are happy where you are at, there's no place else in the world you would rather be, therefore you are FREE.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 02, 2013, 02:48:24 PM
Thank you for freeing me.  Please take care of yourself. :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 02, 2013, 07:17:54 PM
Everyone should date a cheater and a liar once in their life, because it forces you to deal with really tough emotions, and therefore it will test you and make you stronger.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 02, 2013, 07:18:30 PM
Thank you Tooj Pov for showing that love, compassion, and kindness is the way.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 02, 2013, 08:35:06 PM
Good Bye to my Good Friend:

Beautiful warrior,

You deserve a better good bye from me, so I will give it to you.  I am sorry, but I have to go.  I cannot live in a world filled with lies and cheating at every corner.  I stayed so much longer than I initially wanted, because our friendship has grown through my growing understanding of you, and I guess I was hoping you would find in you the girl that I was looking for in you or sometimes I feel that I could make a positive difference in your life.  I realized now, I cannot change the direction of the wind.  I am so glad that I stayed so long through the frustrations, because I think it has made me a more patient and understanding person.  I now see so much beauty in each moment of my life.  A gift, I would never have received if I had quit much earlier.  I am thankful for every experience that I have had with you, especially the tough ones.

You spend so much time and effort trying to deceive me, now you don't have to anymore.  I use to spend so much time and thought tracking you and now I don't have to anymore.  All that time, can be used constructively to build our lives for a better future so that we both will have something to look forward to as we both grow into the coming different stages of our lives.

Should we bump into each other by accident, you will always be a good friend to me.  Please take good care of each other.  Make him commit, because you have given up a lot to be there.  Let him know that I do not hold any animosity towards him, and I hope you both make it work for the long road ahead.

Always,

XXX

P.S. The Green Hmongs have a saying, "Zag nu tsis zoo li zag ub." or  "This time is not like the other time."  I will not come back in any way shape or form, so please take care of yourself.  I am asking you right now, please do not call me at work.

For the last time, on your exciting journey to the stars, may everyday of your life be filled with AWE.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 02, 2013, 10:20:42 PM
I finally get the story of JOB.  It is do not let external events deter you from your internal compass. :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 03, 2013, 03:04:17 PM
Thank you for such a sweet love, that too eventually faded away.  I never knew what love is until you came home.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1SCOimBo5tg# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1SCOimBo5tg#)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 04, 2013, 05:53:23 PM
I don't know to say.....it got scattered into wind.  Thank you for the wonderful memories.  I will always cherish them.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 06, 2013, 08:14:49 PM
No matter how I get angry I get at you or how much you hurt me......I cannot live with myself if I retaliate in with the negative emotions.  When I chose to use positive emotions to seal and heal the wounds then I can sleep in peace, and I can smile knowing that I did not cause you harm and pain.  It doesn't mean I will stay forever and let you hurt me or our situation time and time again.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 06, 2013, 08:19:48 PM
The other night and my very confident daughter's concert.....I learn something that I have heard before.......


"Repetition is the mother of all learning."    Thank you.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 08, 2013, 11:06:26 PM
Thank you for the soft landing......I appreciate it.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 08, 2013, 11:07:01 PM
You should have came home, because you belong with me.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 09, 2013, 06:21:58 PM
The smartest you can you is to make someone smile. 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 09, 2013, 06:22:49 PM
When I hear you laugh loudly and in your funny voice, it makes me happy, because I know that at moment you are happy too.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 09, 2013, 06:23:29 PM
I enjoy watching you sleep, because when you sleep you have a peaceful grin on your face.  One that you will never see and appreciate.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 09, 2013, 06:24:36 PM
Thank you for giving me a hard day everyday.  It's too kind and more than I deserve.  Thank you for blessing me so fully each day.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 09, 2013, 06:25:20 PM
If you're happy and content, you need or desire nothing in your life......beca use you are already there.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 09, 2013, 06:27:37 PM
Quantifying... ....beauty.... ....as Beckett grades cards....even though there are four criteria....th e heart of the individual deserves half the valuation.  It's that important.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 09, 2013, 06:43:45 PM
Now I know why you have to sing.....and I agree with you.  Thank you for saying my words for me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uYn0OaSo10k# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uYn0OaSo10k#)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 11, 2013, 07:44:56 PM
When you learn to observe properly, you have learned it all. - Tai Chi Hero.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 12, 2013, 08:19:38 PM
The journey though life is really how much can you really take control and charge your emotions in a way for happiness (or sadness).........not how much you get.  We all will eventually get nothing but a pine box.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 12, 2013, 08:21:26 PM
RATS....the power of love.‏  Love has the power to change genetics for the better.  Lack of love has the power to change genetics for the worst, in one life time.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 12, 2013, 08:22:35 PM
J. Monopoli....Th ank you for positive encouragements ....from such a long time ago......it did make a difference and I didn't realize until recently.  You might have been the difference that allowed me to become successful.‏
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 12, 2013, 09:02:47 PM
I finally have my mission statement:

On my amazing journey to the Stars,
Every day, I will be an awesome father
A good and awesome human being, and 
The best two weeks time-frame trader
in the World.
.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 12, 2013, 09:56:12 PM
Let's take this week to wind it down and the weekend to seal it.  It deserves to be put to rest for good. 
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 13, 2013, 07:39:46 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6eWsFFQP0gA#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6eWsFFQP0gA#ws)

Funny!
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 13, 2013, 09:39:08 PM
Do you have a Gordon Street?  I don't....because I married her.  I did not want it to turn into Gordon Street when I am an old man.  Eventually we fell apart, but at least I do not have a Gordon Street in my heart anymore.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 14, 2013, 06:32:12 PM
The more difficult it is to forgive someone, the more you should..... because it shows how strong you have become.‏
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 14, 2013, 06:34:54 PM
I am walking around at work today, and I am thinking how disgusting most people there would look naked, even the pretty faces. :)
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 14, 2013, 07:22:19 PM
Most of the time our logical mind knows what to do.  Our emotions dictates what we should do.  When we are able synchronize our emotions to our logical mind then we can achieve a blissful state.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 14, 2013, 09:21:53 PM
:-[

What is wrong?
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 14, 2013, 09:24:20 PM
J. Monopoli....Th ank you for positive encouragements ....from such a long time ago......it did make a difference and I didn't realize until recently.  You might have been the difference that allowed me to become successful.‏

Had a dream about you last night my friend.
Title: Re: To the person that I want to be
Post by: Ajax616 on November 14, 2013, 09:25:22 PM
I use to listen to this song all the time....just saw a different version on FB.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jjNgn4r6SOA# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jjNgn4r6SOA#)
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars......
Post by: Ajax616 on November 14, 2013, 09:36:17 PM
I am looking a picture of my very empowered daughter M, thank you for coming into my life.  I have so much to learn from you.  Have a good night.
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on November 15, 2013, 07:37:23 PM

    Respect your husband.  - Notice how it doesnt say Respect your husband if he has earned it. A mans greatest need in this world is to be respected, and the person he desires that respect from the most is his wife.  The trap that weve all been ensnared by is that they only deserve our respect when they earn it. Yes, we want our husbands to make decisions that will ultimately garner our respect, but the truth is that your husband is a human being. A human being who makes mistakes. This is the man that YOU have chosen to walk alongside you for the rest of your life, and to lead your family and he needs to be respected for that quality alone. Take it from me when respect is given even when he doesnt deserve it, it will motivate him to earn it. That doesnt mean you pretend that his choices are good ones when they arent. Things like that still need to be communicated, but you can flesh out your differences WITH RESPECT. It makes all the difference in the world to him.
    Guard your heart.  - The grass is not greener on the other side. Do not believe the lie that with a slimmer figure, a higher salary, a faster car, or a bigger house, you will be a happier woman. The world is full of things and people that will serve as reminders that you dont have the best of the best, but its simply not true. Live the life youve been blessed with, and BE THANKFUL. I get that we all have struggles, and there are even times when I would love 1,000 more square feet of house to live in, but square feet is not fulfilling relationships are. Guard your heart from things and people that will try to convince you that your life or your husband is not good enough.  There will always be bigger, faster, stronger, or shinier but youll never be satisfied with more until youre fulfilled with what you have now.
    God, husband, kidsin that order.  - I know this isnt a popular philosophy, especially among mothers, but hear me out. Its no secret that my faith is of utmost importance, so God comes first in my life no matter what. But regardless of your belief system, your husband should come before your kids. Now unless youre married to someone who is abusive  (in which case, I urge you to seek help beyond what my blog can give you), no man in his right mind would ask you to put your kids aside to serve his every need while neglecting them. Thats not what this means. When you board an airplane, the flight attendants are required to go over emergency preparedness prior to takeoff. When explaining the part about how to operate the oxygen mask, passengers are instructed to first put the mask on themselves before putting it on their small child. Is that because they think you are more important than your kids? Absolutely not. But you cannot effectively help your child if you cant breathe yourself. The same holds true with marriage and parenting. You cannot effectively parent your children if your marriage is falling apart. Take it from me I tried. There will also come a time when your kids will leave the house to pursue their dreams as adults. If you have not cultivated a lasting relationship with your spouse, you will have both empty nests and empty hearts.
    Forgive.  - No one is perfect. Everyone makes mistakes. If you make forgiveness a habit for everything from major mistakes to little annoyances (every day, I have to forgive my husband for leaving the wet towel on the bathroom counter ;) ) you will keep resentment from growing.
    Over-communicate.  - I used to have a bad habit of not speaking my feelings. I played the standard You should know why Im mad game, and thats just downright unfair. Men are not wired like women, and they DONT always know that theyve been insensitive. Im still growing in this area, and there are often times when my husband has to pry something out of me, but Im trying to remember that I need to just communicate how I feel.
    Schedule a regular date night.  - This one isnt new, but its very important. Never stop dating your spouse.  Even if you cant afford dinner and a movie (which we seldom can), spending some regular one-on-one time with your spouse is essential. Dont talk about bills, or schedules, or the kids. Frankie and I often daydream about our future, or plan our dream vacation. We connect emotionally and often learn something new about each other even after four years.
    Never say the D Word.  - If youre gonna say it, you better mean it. Plain and simple, threatening divorce is not fighting fair. I did this a lot in my previous marriages. Im not proud of it, but I learned better. I was hurting deeply, and I wanted to hurt back, but it never helped me feel better.
    Learn his love language.  - Everyone has a love language. The way you perceive love is often different from the way your spouse perceives love. Does he like words of affirmation, or does he respond better when you give him gifts? Whatever his love language is learn it and USE IT.  Edited to add: If you are unfamiliar with the principles behind love languages, you can learn more about it here.
    Never talk negatively about him.  - I learned this lesson the hard way too. If youre going through a difficult time in your marriage and you need advice, see a counselor. Family counseling is a great tool, but try to remember that your family members and friends are not the most objective people to give advice. The argument they are hearing is one-sided and they often build up negative feelings toward your spouse, which usually doesnt subside once you and your husband have gotten past it. Protect his image with those that youre close with and seek help from those that can actually be objective.  News flash, ladies your mother cannot be objective!
    Choose to love.  - There are times in a marriage that you may wake up and not feel in love anymore. Choose to love anyway. There are times when you may not be attracted to your husband anymore. Choose to love anyway. Marriage is a commitment. In sickness and health, in good times and in bad. Those vows are sacred. They dont say if you have bad times. They say in good times AND in bad, implying that there WILL be bad times. Its inevitable. So choose to love anyway. Hes worth it.
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on November 15, 2013, 07:41:01 PM
Someone came into my life briefly, she tried to tell me that she was you......but I know she's not you.  She actually ended up making a better man for you.  I am still waiting you.  Come home soon.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NaMuBX4aMmw#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NaMuBX4aMmw#ws)
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on November 15, 2013, 07:42:25 PM
I am thinking of writing you a long letter explaining the logic of it all, then it occurred to me that silences is best.....Silen ce is mostly because when we talk it's only ego explaining itself or showing off. 
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on November 15, 2013, 07:44:08 PM
Is it only my Ego that is creating this unquenchable thirst we call desire?  Which ends up creating it's own problems.  In reason and logic, we will all get nothing but a pine box in the end, if we are lucky.
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on November 15, 2013, 07:46:46 PM
I look around and my former colleagues and friends are Senior VPS or managing directors of financial firms.  Have I really fallen that far behind?  I think I am asking the questions that I have ever in my life.  My confidence in myself and my view of life has never been so clear as now.

I do remember the pain before my rise before....I am filled with that kind of pain and questioning again.
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on November 15, 2013, 07:51:09 PM
What you say above is true but I can't seem to synchronize my emotions with my mind.

I see....don't stop trying, because the happiness you receive is ever giving.
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on November 15, 2013, 08:36:59 PM
You can't step into the same river twice - Socrates

Let's not try.
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on November 18, 2013, 09:48:18 PM
Why lies create unhappiness... ...It finally occurred to me..... It's almost like trying to find happiness by assigning it to something out there.  Lies create an ocean of separation between expectation and reality.  That difference in expectation and reality, the larger it is the larger the pain and suffering..... ..
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on November 18, 2013, 09:49:51 PM
Happiness..is the lack of space between desires and and reality.
 
That space is only created by our imagination, our expectations, and our past, nothing more.

That is why according to Lao Tzu happiness and content can be found in enjoy and believing that you have it all already.
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on November 18, 2013, 09:51:05 PM
The True never ending pleasure in life is becoming someone you are proud of everyday, someone that will bring you smile, because you are truly Good.‏
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on November 18, 2013, 09:51:42 PM
One day, I will tell you about your farm, but not today.
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on November 18, 2013, 09:52:50 PM
Ur Credit Score - reflects your character.  Many people that I know that has low credit scores or lack of credit scores always have low character morals.  ‏
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on November 19, 2013, 06:14:44 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LR4j8iWu-OI# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LR4j8iWu-OI#)
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on November 19, 2013, 06:40:49 PM
It occurred to me why kids that are raised with grandparents help become more confident and well rounded, because the art of raising a child takes so much more to learn and also grandparents raise them with more love than discipline.
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on November 20, 2013, 08:31:38 PM
Like any challenging events in my past, I will grow past it too.
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on November 20, 2013, 08:37:34 PM
This song reminds me of a life that once belonged to me.

http://www.4shared.com/audio/74Wl7hd4/Ncaim_Mus_Tsis_Qhia.htm (http://www.4shared.com/audio/74Wl7hd4/Ncaim_Mus_Tsis_Qhia.htm)

Kuv tso lub nplhaib tso saum hauv ncoo
Kuv sau tsab ntawv tso rau saum txaj
Kuv tso nyiaj txiag, ib puas tsav yam
Kom tsis tshuav dabtsi khuam rov tom qab

Kuv tso kasces rau ntawm qhov rooj
Kuv tso lub tsheb rau hauv garage
Kuv tso vaj tsev txhua tsav txhua yam
Kuv mus zaum no yuav tsis rov qab

Chorus:
Kuv ncaim nws mus tsis qhia nws paub
Txawm kuv nyob los rua muaj sib ceg
Txawm hais npaum twg los ua txuj tsis totaub
Vim nws tsis hlub kuv lawm ntev
Kuv ncaim nws mus tsis pub nws hnov
Txawm kuv nyob los nws tsis xav pom
Kuv ncaim zaum no yuav tsis rov los
Vim nws tsis hlub kuv thaum ntxov

Kuv tso lub neej uas kuv tau muaj
Nrog rau tus neeg kuv hlub thiab tshua
Kuv tso lub neej uas kuv ntshaw tshaj
Kuv mus ntsiag to tsis tig rov qab

Chorus

Kuv tso lub neej uas kuv tau muaj
Nrog rau tus neeg kuv hlub thiab tshua
Kuv tso lub neej uas kuv ntshaw tshaj
Kuv mus ntsiag to tsis tig rov qab
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on November 21, 2013, 07:51:20 PM
Thank you for an amazing journey to the stars, the material borrowed for my body is now returned to the universe and so is my consciousness. 
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on November 21, 2013, 07:58:00 PM
Freedom may be the one of the few true joys or happiness in life. There are just many ways to get there or many missed interpretation s.
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on November 21, 2013, 09:38:16 PM
Let me tell you about your farm.  It will sit on the side of a hill and it will not really be farm, but just be among farms, like the English country side.  Your house will look into a valley where a creek runs.  During the summer the creek will be teeming with life.  You can look across to the other side and beyond.  There are hills and trees everywhere, and within your property you will have wooded trails that you love to walk every day. Your house is always warm and welcoming.  There you are on vacation as well as home, and you can be there for months without feeling the need to be anywhere else.  Your family and friends visits you often for they know that your story is one of success and happiness.  During the summer days, you will tend your own garden that is filled with your favorite fruits and vegetables.  During the summer nights, you will have bonfires that last way into the nights with your kids and grandkids.  In the fall, you will watch the colors change in your own back yard.  In winter, you will enjoy sliding down your own hills and staying warm inside your cozy home.  In spring, you will look forward to doing it all over again, and again.  You will have finally found peace and happiness. 
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on November 21, 2013, 09:54:09 PM
http://brushrealityaside.tumblr.com/post/62311010977/molgars-i-am-going-to-physically-die-from (http://brushrealityaside.tumblr.com/post/62311010977/molgars-i-am-going-to-physically-die-from)
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on November 22, 2013, 08:54:40 PM
Did you write all this? It's great advices!  O0

Unfortunately, I did not.  Probably wrote by a woman who loves her man.
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on November 24, 2013, 06:22:48 PM
http://www.ehmongmusic.com/displayimage.php?album=647&pos=13&title=14-ib-tag-hmo-lawm (http://www.ehmongmusic.com/displayimage.php?album=647&pos=13&title=14-ib-tag-hmo-lawm)

This song will remind me of you for a long time.  We could have met much sooner, it wouldn't have worked out, but we would have met.
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on November 24, 2013, 08:08:51 PM
I have explained this before, but now I do actually have a situation where there's a difference in expectation and reality that is causing Buddhistic suffering.  At last, it is an opportunity to practice enlighten wisdom.
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on November 24, 2013, 08:10:45 PM
It is most difficult to let something go which we think is beautiful and/or could be saved.  Which is why I will let it go, because it is difficult. The reason and logic has to win out.  I will be stronger afterwards.
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on November 29, 2013, 11:20:40 AM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-aW5n7p6Pwg#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-aW5n7p6Pwg#ws)
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on November 29, 2013, 11:25:16 AM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GT0TBWg3C3k#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GT0TBWg3C3k#ws)
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on November 29, 2013, 11:34:54 AM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U_eZmEiyTo0# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U_eZmEiyTo0#)
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on November 29, 2013, 03:49:26 PM
I have been sick over the last couple days, and food tastes so plain to me.....and suddenly I became aware of the fact that my taste buds is a tool for survival.  Food is pleasurable because we needed it for survival.  If food taste like the way it does to me now for the rest of my life, I will starve to death.
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on December 01, 2013, 10:51:59 AM
I think I am becoming a monster....... I better deter myself from that path very quickly.
Title: Re: On your amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on December 01, 2013, 11:04:49 AM
Farewell my friend P.W.  Thank you for all the memories.
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on December 01, 2013, 02:23:13 PM
Thank you to myself, and the sacrifices of my pretty things, for helping preserve some of my dignity.  It cannot happen again to such a kind and wonderful person.
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on December 01, 2013, 05:14:48 PM
FORGIVENESS.......
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on December 02, 2013, 06:39:11 PM
I just had this song on my mind the other day.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h3gEkwhdXUE# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h3gEkwhdXUE#)
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on December 03, 2013, 07:31:59 PM
Hope you feel better. It's that time of the year where everyone get sick.

Thank you....by Friday evening I felt much better already. 
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on December 05, 2013, 09:17:54 PM
One of my favorite opening scenes.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CV5QskX_oW4 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CV5QskX_oW4)
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on December 05, 2013, 09:21:44 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u8t4eZ_btmU (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u8t4eZ_btmU)
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on December 05, 2013, 09:22:26 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eOU0JhkHY3w (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eOU0JhkHY3w)
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on December 06, 2013, 08:29:37 PM
To my hero, Nelson Mandela, thank you for showing us that love and forgiveness is the only way to live.

Out of the night that covers me,
      Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
      For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
      I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
      My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
      Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
      Finds and shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
      How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate,
      I am the captain of my soul.

Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on December 08, 2013, 05:45:40 PM
Thank you for sharing it with us.

It's my pleasure.
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on December 08, 2013, 05:47:14 PM
A co-worker of mine introduced me to this song.....I enjoyed it for awhile, then please move on with your life and stop thinking about the past.  It can only bring you pain and suffering to reach for something so unattainable, separated by time.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SpOlKYF_-WA&list=PLE9F58720B0ED5BFE (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SpOlKYF_-WA&list=PLE9F58720B0ED5BFE)
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on December 10, 2013, 09:14:49 PM
Good luck to a friend who will be joining the US Navy.  I know you will excel and gain a better understanding of yourself. 
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on December 11, 2013, 08:55:27 PM
R, I think you are so a beautiful an amazing person in many ways.  I could fall for you.
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on December 11, 2013, 08:58:45 PM
R, I think you are so a beautiful an amazing person in many ways.  I am glad you're working so hard for a better future.
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on December 13, 2013, 09:29:38 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YUmaNK7M-iM# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YUmaNK7M-iM#)

For some reason, I am reminded of the time you came to the airport picked me and we made out in the parking ramp.  You always smell so great.
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on December 13, 2013, 09:31:43 PM
Wow, my intuition about you is confirmed.  You are carrying out your written goal.  That is not good for your future or for ours, but the most important thing is that I am at peace with it.  Now I know and can deal or know what I am giving up.  Thank you for such an interesting journey.  I hope one day you will become the wonderful person that I imagine you could be.
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on December 13, 2013, 09:38:28 PM
UFC welterwight champ Georges St-Pierre is typically classy in announcing hiatus
Title: Re: On my amazing journey to the stars.....
Post by: Ajax616 on December 13, 2013, 10:04:35 PM
The Scorpion and the Frog
One day, a scorpion looked around at the mountain where he lived and decided that he wanted a change. So he set out on a journey through the forests and hills. He climbed over rocks and under vines and kept going until he reached a river.

The river was wide and swift, and the scorpion stopped to reconsider the situation. He couldn't see any way across. So he ran upriver and then checked downriver, all the while thinking that he might have to turn back.

Suddenly, he saw a frog sitting in the rushes by the bank of the stream on the other side of the river. He decided to ask the frog for help getting across the stream.

"Hellooo Mr. Frog!" called the scorpion across the water, "Would you be so kind as to give me a ride on your back across the river?"

"Well now, Mr. Scorpion! How do I know that if I try to help you, you wont try to kill me?" asked the frog hesitantly.

"Because," the scorpion replied, "If I try to kill you, then I would die too, for you see I cannot swim!"

Now this seemed to make sense to the frog. But he asked. "What about when I get close to the bank? You could still try to kill me and get back to the shore!"

"This is true," agreed the scorpion, "But then I wouldn't be able to get to the other side of the river!"

"Alright then...how do I know you wont just wait till we get to the other side and THEN kill me?" said the frog.

"Ahh...," crooned the scorpion, "Because you see, once you've taken me to the other side of this river, I will be so grateful for your help, that it would hardly be fair to reward you with death, now would it?!"

So the frog agreed to take the scorpion across the river. He swam over to the bank and settled himself near the mud to pick up his passenger. The scorpion crawled onto the frog's back, his sharp claws prickling into the frog's soft hide, and the frog slid into the river. The muddy water swirled around them, but the frog stayed near the surface so the scorpion would not drown. He kicked strongly through the first half of the stream, his flippers paddling wildly against the current.

Halfway across the river, the frog suddenly felt a sharp sting in his back and, out of the corner of his eye, saw the scorpion remove his stinger from the frog's back. A deadening numbness began to creep into his limbs.

"You fool!" croaked the frog, "Now we shall both die! Why on earth did you do that?"

The scorpion shrugged, and did a little jig on the drownings frog's back.

"I could not help myself. It is my nature."

Then they both sank into the muddy waters of the swiftly flowing river.

Self destruction - "Its my Nature", said the Scorpion...
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 14, 2013, 10:35:40 AM
Beautiful, handsome, strong and kind warriors, on your amazing journey to the stars, have an awesome day today.   - Text this to my kids everyday.
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 16, 2013, 07:11:05 PM
I dreamed I met you again last night.  Is it finally getting close that you're coming back to me?
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 18, 2013, 08:36:10 PM
Laughter is good and empowers the soul.  Laugh all you can my friends.
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 19, 2013, 07:43:25 PM
Have you found your star yet?

It's the journey, not the destination, but no not at this time.
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 19, 2013, 07:44:25 PM
Maybe I am not as much as I think I am....because we all think we are more than we really are many times.  No matter, love and kindness will be my guide.
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 19, 2013, 07:47:11 PM
We never had the chance to take a romantic vacation together....‏

I think you would fit right in at Mardigras.I think you would fit right in with me and a cabin up in the mountains.. I think you would right in with me on a weekend trip to Chicago or New York.
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 19, 2013, 07:49:45 PM
Our youth.our beauty.our love ones..time moves on and so must weto try to hold on to something that cannot be results in the greatest pain of the heart.

The beautiful things in our life that we want hold onto cannot be held onto forever, or until we are completely content. 

So just be content inside, independent of external variables.
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 20, 2013, 07:13:42 PM
Have you found your star yet?

I found something better. :)
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 20, 2013, 07:14:51 PM
I just realized that over the last month or so I am not as discipline as I wanted to be....in fact this whole year, but lately I have been making decisions towards like love, kindness, and compassion and that is what I really wanted more than the discipline.
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 20, 2013, 07:15:56 PM
If you really want change, please change your emotion understanding or else they will overwhelm you on your journey to change.   Make sure that change is good all those around you.
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 21, 2013, 07:32:11 AM
http://distractify.com/people/reasons-why-pope-francis-is-the-person-of-the-year/ (http://distractify.com/people/reasons-why-pope-francis-is-the-person-of-the-year/)


I Knew Pope Francis Was Good, But When I Found Out Everything He Did in 2013, I Was Blown Away

    Mark Pygas
    5 days ago

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Pope Francis has been declared Times Person Of The Year. Looking back on 2013, he has done some incredibly progressive things to lead the Church.
1. He spoke out against frivolous spending by the Church

Pope-Francis-I-Angelus-and-Blessing-from-the-window-overlooking-St-Peter-s-Square Source: catholic-ew.org.uk

The average set of cardinals clothes costs as much as $20,000. In October, Pope Francis urged officials to dress more modestly and to not squander such money. In the same month, he ordered a German bishop to explain how he had spent $3 million on a marble courtyard.

Source: globalpost.com
2. He invited a boy with Downs Syndrome for a ride in the Popemobile

pope_1492085f Source: thehindu.com

During a general audience, Pope Francis invited Alberto di Tullio, a 17-year-old boy with Downs Syndrome, to ride in his Popemobile while thousands watched. The boy and his father were said to be "chocked up" when he was embraced by the Pope.

Source: cbsnews.com
3. He embraced and kissed Vinicio Riva

POPE FRANCIS' GENERAL AUDIENCE Source: huffpost.com

November saw Pope Francis embrace Vinicio Riva, a man scarred by a genetic disease. Fighting agonising pain on a daily basis, such an act restored the faith of a man who says he is often mocked in public.

Source: cnn.com
4. He denounced the judgment of homosexuals

76fcdecc95af21 19b8a4cf64a6f4 9c6a Source: cnn.com

Pope Francis has stated several times that the Church has no right to interfere spiritually in the lives of gays and lesbians. Though Francis maintained the right of the Church to express opinions on homosexuality, he believed that Christians should not judge or ridicule. This led to The Advocate, a gay  rights magazine, naming Francis the 'single most influential person of 2013 on the lives of LGBT people.'

Source: cnn.com
5. He held a major ceremony at the chapel of a youth prison

2. Source: incarnationpar ish.org

In March, the Pope held a major Holy Week service at Casal del Marmo jail for minors, rather than the Vatican. During the service, the pope washed and kissed the feet of 12 young offenders to commemorate Jesus' gesture of humility towards his apostles on the night before he died. During the service, he broke tradition by washing the feet of women and Muslims.

Source: reuters.com
6. He urged the protection of the Amazon Rainforest

20130728nw155 [amazon pope]-001 Source: nationalpost.c om

During his visit to Brazil, Pope Francis met with natives who have been fighting ranchers and farmers attempting to invade their land. He encouraged that the Amazon be treated as a garden and protected, along with it's native people.

Source: nationalpost.c om
7. He personally called and consoled a victim of rape

Pope-Francis Source: catholicvirtue .org

A 44-year old Argentinian woman, raped by a local policeman, was one of thousands to write a letter to Pope Francis in 2013. The woman was surprised when she later received a phone call from Francis himself--who consoled the woman and told her, You are not alone.

Source: catholicvirtue .org
8. He snuck out of the Vatican to feed the homeless

6. Source: newsfirst.lk

More recently, it has been discovered that Pope Francis regularly leaves the Vatican at night to feed the homeless. Dressed as an ordinary priest, he joins Archbishop Konrad Krajewski to feed the poor of Rome.

Source: huffingtonpost .com
9. He auctioned his motorcycle to benefit the homeless

7. Source: dailymail.co.u k

In October, Francis donated his own Harley Davidson motorcycle to fund a hostel and soup kitchen in Rome.

Source: ncregister.com
10. He acknowledged that atheists can be good people

mujica-pope-francis Source: mercopress.com

Earlier in 2013,  Pope Francis spoke out against the common interpretation within the Church that atheists, by nature, are bad people. He stated that, Atheists should be seen as good people if they do good. After meeting the Pope, the openly atheist president of Uruguay, Jose Mujica, compared Francis to a friendly neighbor.

Source: theguardian.co m
11. He condemned the global financial system

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In May, Francis denounced the global financial system for tyrannizing the poor and turning humans into expendable consumer goods. He believes that, Money has to serve, not to rule!"

Source: timesofmalta.c om
12. He fought child abuse

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The Catholic Church has been rocked in recent years by allegations and admissions of child abuse by members of the Church. Pope Francis became the first Pope to take effective action against such atrocities. He ammended Vatican law to make sexual abuse of children a crime, and he also established a committee to fight abuse.

Source: bbc.co.uk
13. He condemned the violence of the Syrian civil war

12. Source: blogspot.com

In regard to the use of chemical weapons in Syria, Pope Francis asked for peace and declared that, "War, never again. Violence never leads to peace, war leads to war, violence leads to violence.

Source: reuters.com
14. He redirected employee bonuses to charity

pope-francis-2013-2 Source: ibtimes.com

When a new Pope is elected, Vatican employees receive a bonus. Upon his election, the extra money was given to directly to charity instead.

Source: washingtonpost .com
15. He spoke out against the Churchs obsession with abortion, gay marriage and contraception

15. Source: indiatimes.in

In a voice of reason, Francis shocked the Catholic world when he stated that the Church was an unhealthy obsession with abortion, gay marriage, and contraception. He criticized the Church for putting dogma before love, and for prioritizing moral doctrines over serving the poor and marginalized.

Source: nytimes.com
16. He called for cooperation between Christians and Muslims

Pope Francis waves as he arrives to lead Angelus at Vatican Source: catholicsun.or g

During his Angelus address, Francis paid respect to the end of Ramadan. He stated that both Christians and Muslims worship the same God, and he hoped that Christians and Muslims would work together to promote mutual respect.

Source: catholicherald .co.uk
17. He took part in a selfie

17. Source: telegraph.co.u k

In what might be his most progressive feat of all, Pope Francis met with youngsters to be part of a truly remarkable selfie. His is embracing the present, and he is undoubtedly taking the Church to a more loving and accepting future.

Source: telegraph.co.u k
18. He invited homeless men to his birthday meal

Pope Francis and archbishop Konrad Krajewski welcome some homeless men at the Vatican Source: theguardian.co m

On December 17, Pope Francis invited a group of homeless men and their dog into the Vatican to share his birthday meal along with his staff. The Pope had decided that he wanted a small birthday event, which would do some good, rather than a large and expensive event.

Source: theguardian.co m
19. He refused to send away a child who had run on stage to hug him

enhanced-buzz-4836-1383073705-19 Source: buzzfeed.com

During the Year of Faith Celebrations, a young boy ran on stage as the Pope was giving a speech. When assistants tried to remove the boy, Francis allowed him to stay.
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Post by: couchpotato on December 21, 2013, 07:42:31 AM
I agree about this new pope. I like how he is not untouchable. He loves the way Jesus showed us and taught us to love. What a breath of fresh air for Catholics. :)
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 21, 2013, 07:43:40 AM
We are all Walter Mittys.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QD6cy4PBQPI#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QD6cy4PBQPI#ws)
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 21, 2013, 08:00:55 AM
A sad letter someone wrote on youtube (stuck in my memory).

Why did you leave me?  What didnt I do right?
I was here for you always.
Everyday and everynight.
I stayed faithful and loved you.
But yet my heart you tore.
Im trying to get over it but
Im so lost without you.
Dont you realize you were all I had?
Ive never been hurt so bad.
How could you leave me?
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 21, 2013, 08:14:28 AM
You Mustn't Quit
Taken from The Book Of Virtues by William J. Bennett

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest! If you must -- but never quit.

Life is queer, with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won if he'd stuck it out;
Stick to your task, though the pace seems slow--
You may succeed with one more blow.

Success is failure turned inside out--
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt--
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--
It's when things seem worse that you mustn't quit.


What is it that you mustn't quit on?  "Yourself."
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 21, 2013, 09:54:31 AM
One of the nicest things my ex-wife said about me was.....that Valentines Day wasn't me, it's for the other men......
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 21, 2013, 09:55:35 AM
I was about to do something very stupid and emotionally attached because my mind thought of it until I got to reading one of my favorite books again.  I should read it more often.
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 21, 2013, 10:11:28 AM
For all the guys out there that do not know what to give to your girlfriends, here is an idea:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6WmTlHvTSm4#noexternalembed (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6WmTlHvTSm4#noexternalembed)
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 22, 2013, 07:01:41 PM
For the first time in my life, I was given the sobriety test last night.  I am glad to have passed.
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 22, 2013, 09:18:19 PM
To the girl that keeps stealing a look at me last night.  Let's bump into each other again.  Yes!!!! I think we will be a good fit.
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 23, 2013, 10:20:23 AM
"Life, you hit like a little b1tch."
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 23, 2013, 04:57:11 PM
I was busy driving around doing this and that, until I sudden realized that today was my wedding anniversary.
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 23, 2013, 05:01:45 PM
Today.....so you know I do miss you and I realize that I do make you happier by allowing to vent and talk with me or put your head on my shoulder, but as I said, I have a different goal for the next year, one that will be very different from this year.  I would like to be your friend, but let me give it some thought away from you.  I hope you are enjoying each moment of your day.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UJKaToL98es# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UJKaToL98es#)
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 26, 2013, 11:02:39 AM
Hardships often prepare ordinary people for extraordinary destiny. - C.S Lewis
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 27, 2013, 01:47:22 PM
~Merry Christmas to you and your family~

Thank you very much.  Merry Christmas to yours too.
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 27, 2013, 01:48:00 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AFks9A9TCF0# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AFks9A9TCF0#)

The Secret Life of Walter Mitty.
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 27, 2013, 01:54:56 PM
I just realized within the last couple of days that I know so little about you, because you tend to hide things, but you do give it away with your emotional actions.  This is not the kind of relationship that I want to be in from the very start.  Please find your better self, be clear and honest, because you will need it for the long road.  Have a wonderful journey next year, and you will always be a good friend to me.
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 27, 2013, 02:28:58 PM
For once upon a roof top, on a bridge on Friday night, a bright sunny day near a lake, a sensual kiss by your work place......and so much more.



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1SCOimBo5tg# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1SCOimBo5tg#)
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 29, 2013, 10:27:16 AM
Have you drove in the morning when all its quiet and then you hear a song, that's different, but captures your thoughts and emotions.  And when that similar occurs, you will always remember those moments.  I have driving home this morning, and I heard a song, I forgot what it was actually, but it reminded me off these songs from my past.

I was driving from work, after an all nighter, knowing that I had found the person that I want to spend my life with.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6xU6Tw9RtTk# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6xU6Tw9RtTk#)


These next two are a little unique, because they have no additional emotional ties to them, but they took place on a quiet Saturday morning.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TvMS_ykiLiQ# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TvMS_ykiLiQ#)


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XqMEEvmfyQU# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XqMEEvmfyQU#)
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 29, 2013, 10:28:12 AM
The Universe is very patient....... .you (or I) should practice it too.
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 29, 2013, 10:31:30 AM
Mike Tyson

Once there was a time when Mike Tyson was thought to be unbeatable.  He had an aura of invincibility (and with it confidence) that made him to tough to beat and in the minds of the other fighters, until a guy name Buster Douglas who just gotten out of alcohol rehab beat him in Tokyo.  Mike Tyson never regained his mental form and confidence.
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 29, 2013, 10:51:28 AM
Peaceful Warrior, this itself is a test for your next great journey in life.
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 29, 2013, 05:42:49 PM
 Hatred never ceases by hatred, but by love alone is healed. This is an ancient and eternal law.
-Buddha
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 30, 2013, 08:22:31 PM
Howard Zinn on optimism. "small acts, when multiplied by millions of people, can transform the world."
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 31, 2013, 09:42:01 AM
Revenge heals a small pain, but destroys and turns us into monsters.  I will learn from 2013 and be very good in 2014.
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 31, 2013, 09:47:00 AM
The Buddha's Last Words

After the conversion of Subhadda, the Buddha spoke again to Venerable Ananda. "It may be, Ananda, that some of you will say, 'without the Buddha, the Sublime Teacher, there is no teacher for us'. No, Ananda, you should not think in this way. Whatever doctrine and discipline taught and made known by me will be your teacher when I am gone."

Then the Buddha, addressing the other monks said, "If any amongst you has any doubts as to the Buddha, the teaching, or the order of monks, ask me now so that afterwards you may have no cause to regret that you did not ask me while I was still with you."

But at these words, none of the monks said anything. None had any questions, and all of them were silent. For the second and third time the Buddha addressed the monks in this way. And for the second and third time, all the monks were silent.

The Buddha said, "Perhaps it may be out of respect for the teacher, that you do not question me. Let a friend, O disciples, tell it to another friend." Still the disciples remained silent.

Then Venerable Ananda spoke to the Buddha, "It is wonderful. It is marvellous, Lord! I do believe that in all this great company of monks there is not a single one who has doubts or questions about the Buddha, the teaching or the order of monks, or the path and the method of training and conduct."

"With you, Ananda," said the Buddha, "this may be a matter of faith and belief. But, Ananda, I know that not one single monk gathered here has any doubt or question about these things. Of all the 500 monks here, Ananda, he who is the most backward is a sotapanna, not subject to fall back to a lower state of existence, but is certain and destined for enlightenment."

Then the Buddha addressed all the monks once more, and these were the very last words he spoke:

"Behold, O monks, this is my last advice to you. All component things in the world are changeable. They are not lasting. Work hard to gain your own salvation."

Then the Buddha lapsed into the jhana stages, or meditative absorptions. Going from level to level, one after the other, ever deeper and deeper. Then he came out of the meditative absorption for the last time and passed into nirvana, leaving nothing whatever behind that can cause rebirth again in this or any other world.

The passing away, or the final nirvana of the Buddha, occurred in 543 BC on a full-moon day in the month of May, known in the Indian calendar as Vesak.
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 31, 2013, 09:49:06 AM
http://www.goodreads.com/quotes/tag/buddha (http://www.goodreads.com/quotes/tag/buddha)
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 31, 2013, 09:51:07 AM
http://buddhist-meditation-techniques.com/buddhist-quotes/ (http://buddhist-meditation-techniques.com/buddhist-quotes/)
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 31, 2013, 09:52:02 AM
"Therefore, Ananda, be a lamp unto yourself, be a refuge to yourself. Take yourself to no external refuge. Hold fast to the Truth as a lamp; hold fast to the Truth as a refuge. Look not for a refuge in anyone beside yourself. And those, Ananda, who either now or after I am dead shall be a lamp unto themselves, who take themselves to no external refuge, but holding fast to the Truth as their lamp, and holding fast to the Truth as their refuge, shall not look for refuge to anyone beside themselves, it is they who shall reach the highest goal." ~Mahaparinibbana Sutta
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 31, 2013, 09:53:47 AM
I was too easily distracted because I am not strong enough yet.  My mind still has yet to be discipline further.
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 31, 2013, 11:07:33 AM
I can relate to this statement.  :P  Happy New Year!

There is only one place to be in life and that is to be good regardless of what is happening around you. 
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Post by: Ajax616 on December 31, 2013, 03:39:28 PM
Most of the times certain dishes taste better in the past.  Our emotional memory skews it making us think that its very good when it no longer is.  This pertains to many of things as well  Thank you for reminding me.

Having tasted it, I will never cook that dish again.
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 02, 2014, 06:28:51 PM
To a distant fading memory.  Please take care of yourself.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1SCOimBo5tg# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1SCOimBo5tg#)
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 02, 2014, 06:44:16 PM
The discontentment in your heart is preventing you from find true joy and happiness.‏  Please it from the inside first.
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 02, 2014, 06:45:13 PM
Thank you so much for stressing me out all of last year.......bec ause it will lead to a better me for the future.
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 02, 2014, 07:50:31 PM
I teach one thing and one only: that is, suffering and the end of suffering. -  The Buddha
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 03, 2014, 08:53:22 PM
From a FB friend.

6 Harsh Truth that will make you a better person.

6. The world only cares about what it can get from you.

5. The Hippies are wrong.

4. What you produce does not have to make money, but it does have to benefit people.

3. You hate yourself because you don't do anything.

2. What you are inside only matters because of what it makes you do.

1. Everything inside you will fight improvement.
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 03, 2014, 09:01:44 PM

http://www.ehmongmusic.com/displayimage.php?album=647&pos=13&title=14-ib-tag-hmo-lawm (http://www.ehmongmusic.com/displayimage.php?album=647&pos=13&title=14-ib-tag-hmo-lawm)

This song will remind me of you for a long time.  We could have met much sooner, it wouldn't have worked out, but we would have met.
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 04, 2014, 01:43:23 PM
Laugh the world laughs with you.  Weep and you weep alone. - Ella Wheeler Cox
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 05, 2014, 08:18:24 PM
What am I doing?  I cannot let my thoughts out of control.  I am suppose to be your champion, but this is not what I want.  I sense revenge in me......I need to contain that thought before I hurt you.
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 08, 2014, 06:36:39 PM
I was hoping for someone special to come into my life, I hadn't figure on training you for the Olympics.
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 08, 2014, 06:37:07 PM
Wish for Wisdom......no thing more.
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 08, 2014, 06:37:43 PM
You can run faster with 100 who wants to go than one with a Ring around your neck.  - Les Brown.
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 08, 2014, 08:14:17 PM
I am complaining too much about things that do not matter.  I am talking too much about things that are nobody's business.  As before, silence is GOLDEN.
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 08, 2014, 08:23:49 PM
Solution:  I cannot listen to one more lie that you have to tell again.......it s all been nothing but lies since the beginning.
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 08, 2014, 09:42:59 PM
I made a list of the logic of the decision and it all becomes very clear....just have to execute it.
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 10, 2014, 06:29:46 PM
The suffering last night brought about an epiphany....I think I am no longer asking anything of you....I am free....Thank you for everything.
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 11, 2014, 01:23:15 PM
You are a funny guy....http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7EJLoxdoI-Q#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7EJLoxdoI-Q#ws)
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 11, 2014, 01:28:54 PM
We have a regular broad based, slender neck bottle. We take a little tiny goose and put it thru the neck into the broad body of the bottle and proceed over the next few days/weeks to feed and nurture it. Over time, it grows in size until one day it fills the entire area of the broad section of the bottle.

Now the riddle goes, how do we remove the goose alive safely out of the bottle without harming the goose in any way. Take note, breaking the bottle in any way may run the risk of hurting the goose.

Through Bliss's example with her mom, we had the goose out.
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 13, 2014, 06:11:42 PM
Wish for Wisdom......no thing more.

Wow, little scorpion you sure know how to sting.  Please be careful and do not get yourself sting, I do worry about you.
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 13, 2014, 06:22:03 PM
Thank you for a wonderful and exciting day.
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 14, 2014, 07:50:01 PM
When to cut a loss in stocks......be fore you enter a trade.  Put in your stop loss and when it gets triggered let it.  Otherwise you would bought a great stock like CSCO at 50 because its a great deal down from 80.  Held on to it for 13 years and now its at 22.5.

When to cut a loss in a relationship.. ....when they tell you the first lie.....or else the lie will get bigger and bigger until one day you wake and you have been in there for so long you don't know how to leave....

I am learning in both.  Thank you for my lesson in humility.
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 14, 2014, 07:50:48 PM
When I had a wife.....my wife was the best woman in the world.....I wanted no other, because she was the only one for me.  I will never settle.
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 14, 2014, 09:36:01 PM
Thank you for the kind and loving thoughts.  There's no other way to live.
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 16, 2014, 09:16:48 PM
The Queen of diamond will smile on me again very soon.....becau se I have earned her love and trust through hard work (HBLM Capital).‏

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YUmaNK7M-iM# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YUmaNK7M-iM#)
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 18, 2014, 12:18:19 PM
Just so you know, the more you fight back...the more fun it becomes because it is now both fighting and make up love all in one session.
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 18, 2014, 12:19:59 PM
One of the most amazing thing that I was able to come across and hope to learn is, "The way is not in the sky, the way is in the heart."
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 19, 2014, 05:44:54 PM
What if the fear of death itself, is a tool for survival.  We are conditioned to fear death only so that we will live in this life and fulfill our purpose.
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 20, 2014, 12:07:16 PM
Neat opening scene.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UQXUDwIOSE4# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UQXUDwIOSE4#)
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Post by: WordGirl on January 20, 2014, 05:28:45 PM
What if the fear of death itself, is a tool for survival.  We are conditioned to fear death only so that we will live in this life and fulfill our purpose.

Hi,

I read this the other day and thought to myself, very true. I thought about it today and it makes me angry, it made me break down, and cry.  :-[

I’m heartbroken today because life can be taken away from us so quickly and without warning. A tool for survival…do you realize how many people live believing their purpose is yet to come? How many people tell themselves death can be the release from life’s purpose? What about the people who LIVED because someone was their purpose? What happens when death decides to take your purpose for living?   :'(

Sorry, for the emo rant! Thank you for letting me type...for making me cry. I needed it. So, thank you! 
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 20, 2014, 06:53:41 PM
We defend our lives, because it's the only thing that we ever knew so far. It's us as far as we can remember, but there's more.‏  We cannot be allowed to know that which is more or else we may give this life and move on.
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 20, 2014, 06:57:07 PM
Hi,

I read this the other day and thought to myself, very true. I thought about it today and it makes me angry, it made me break down, and cry.  :-[

Im heartbroken today because life can be taken away from us so quickly and without warning. A tool for survivaldo you realize how many people live believing their purpose is yet to come? How many people tell themselves death can be the release from lifes purpose? What about the people who LIVED because someone was their purpose? What happens when death decides to take your purpose for living?   :'(

Sorry, for the emo rant! Thank you for letting me type...for making me cry. I needed it. So, thank you! 

The purpose has to come from within through understanding, then it can never be taken away.  That is why I wrote it.

You're welcome.  I also believe when we cry something dies and a new door opens, I hope your opens up for you as well.
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 21, 2014, 06:16:38 PM
Wow...
 
I didn't know it's now classed as mental illness.

http://screen.yahoo.com/new-york-times/china-39-junkies-124730949.html (http://screen.yahoo.com/new-york-times/china-39-junkies-124730949.html)
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 21, 2014, 06:40:49 PM
The monster in me is very contained, through my understanding that we all will get nothing in the end of this journey and it best to give all the love and kindness that we have, so please stop rattling the cage.  Because it will not work. :)
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 23, 2014, 07:35:26 PM
I heard this one lazy Saturday morning, and it got stuck in my head.......


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U8VMYLniuDk#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U8VMYLniuDk#ws)
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 25, 2014, 08:17:39 AM
I think for the first time in my life, I finally met the personificatio n of EVIL, and I am telling you that it does not wear a hood and a scarred face or carry a sword ready to strike, it's looks is very deceiving and very easy on the eyes and very innocent, but it lacks a conscience and will say and do anything to anyone at anytime.  As there is no real evil in the world, the formal psychology term for it is NPD.

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Post by: Ajax616 on January 25, 2014, 09:53:24 AM
The Buddha explained how to handle insult and maintain compassion.

One day Buddha was walking through a village. A very angry and rude young man came up and began insulting him. "You have no right teaching others," he shouted. "You are as stupid as everyone else. You are nothing but a fake."

Buddha was not upset by these insults. Instead he asked the young man "Tell me, if you buy a gift for someone, and that person does not take it, to whom does the gift belong?"

The man was surprised to be asked such a strange question and answered, "It would belong to me, because I bought the gift."

The Buddha smiled and said, "That is correct. And it is exactly the same with your anger.

If you become angry with me and I do not get insulted, then the anger falls back on you.

You are then the only one who becomes unhappy, not me. All you have done is hurt yourself."

"If you want to stop hurting yourself, you must get rid of your anger and become loving instead. When you hate others, you yourself become unhappy. But when you love others, everyone is happy."

The young man listened closely to these wise words of the Buddha. "You are right, o Enlightened One, "he said. "Please teach me the path of love. I wish to become your follower."

The Buddha answered kindly, "Of course. I teach anyone who truly wants to learn. Come with me."
Read more at http://www.funzug.com/index.php/stories/how-to-handle-insult-maintain-compassion-story.html#4E3RHMXmKBxUwYxM.99 (http://www.funzug.com/index.php/stories/how-to-handle-insult-maintain-compassion-story.html#4E3RHMXmKBxUwYxM.99)
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 25, 2014, 09:58:24 AM
Lack of empathy is one of the most striking features of people with narcissistic personality disorder. It's a hallmark of the disorder in the same way that fear of abandonment is in borderline personality disorder.

"Narcissists do not consider the pain they inflict on others; nor do they give any credence to others' perceptions," says Dr. Les Carter in the book Enough of You, Let's Talk About Me (p. 9). "They simply do not care about thoughts and feelings that conflict with their own." Do not expect them to listen, validate, understand, or support you.

This is exacerbated when the person has a touch of antisocial personality disorder. Then it becomes frightening, as in this all-too-common example. A woman says:

    He would abuse the dog in front of his 11-year-old daughter by repeatedly pushing the shocking collar and making the dogs wail. The daughter would scream and wave her hands and if I hadn't been there to take the control away from my husband I don't know how long he would have kept doing it.

Let's look at what this means on a more moderate basis. Here are examples from partners of narcissists:

    He would actually get mad at me if I was sick. I said, "I sat here with you for days when you were depressed and couldn't get out of bed. And now you can't even be a little nice to me when I am sick?"
     My partner would hurt my feelings just when things were going well. When I would question him about it, he would make up excuses and tell me I'm wrong for feeling the way I did, and if I didn't like it there was something wrong with me.
    I could spend an hour detailing how I felt hurt and she would sit there, cold as ice. When it was her turn to speak, she tore down every word that came out of my mouth until I had to apologize for expressing how I felt. I ignored this red flag and made excuses to myself and others.

Note that narcissists can pick up on social cues and can "fake it" when necessary. Aside from looking "normal," the hope is that they will get something back. Partners said:

    He has made adaptations that allow him to "appear" to be thoughtful and concerned about others. Early in our marriage, he would ask me what I would like to do. Then one day it dawned on me that while he asked, we never ended up following my suggestions! When I mentioned this to him, he had a crestfallen appearance and behaved like child who had been caught doing something wrong.
    I think that faux empathy stems from a number of things. A need to fit in, socially--to appear like a feeling, caring person is certainly one of them. In some cases, it's probably an acquired social skill, albeit a superficial one. Like learning which utensil to use when dining in polite company. In other cases, it's a means to getting what you want from people.
    She had "intellectual" empathy:  almost as if she knew she should react that way. She didn't feel it at the soul/being level. She knew the words, but couldn't hear the emotional music of our relationship.

This lack of empathy is so foreign to us--even some animals show evidence of empathy--that shocking instances can break through the denial and the hoping that one day we will get our turn. While it may leave us outraged, hurt, and feeling betrayed, it can be an eye-opening incident that we really need to acknowledge the limitations of individuals with NPD. As painful as it can be, though, we no longer feel as confused by the push-pull (or in some cases, just the push).

In my own life, my moment of truth came when an arsonist burned down my garage to the bare foundation. It happened in the middle of the night, and my family practically had PTSD from awakening in the middle of the night to see flames shooting up to the sky. The neighborhood lost power. We lost both cars and everything stored in the garage, including some priceless sentimental objects. The insurance only paid half of what we needed to put up a new garage.

After I mentioned this twice to the NP in my life on the phone, s/he got bored and made it clear s/he wasn't interested in prolonging the topic. Although s/he lived 20 minutes away from me, s/he never bothered to come over and see the damage or see how my family was doing.

Since this way of living is so foreign to us, if we have someone with NPD in our life, we need to understand how they think. One NP explains it this way:

    People are tools to be I use to get what I want. No one cares what a hammer or nail thinks, nor do we even notice anything unique about them unless they don't work right. The only nail I would notice is one that bent when I hit it with a hammer. Just as it should be. Really I was not that callous, but if I could use someone to get me what I wanted, I would. And rarely would I feel guilty about it. I mean if I played you, you should have been paying more attention. You'll get over it.

Narcissist and author Sam Vaknin (Malignant Self Love--Narcissism Revisited) reveals:

 The narcissist lacks empathy: is unwilling to recognize or identify with the feelings and needs of others.

 I am aware of the fact that others have emotions, needs, preferences, and priorities - but I simply can't seem to "get it into my mind." There is an invisible partition behind which I watch the rest of Mankind and through which nothing that is human can permeate. I empathize more with my goldfish than with my "nearest and dearest."

    To me, all people are cardboard cut-outs, sophisticated motor contraptions, ersatz and robotic. I know how I should feel because I am well-read--but I cannot seem to bring myself to emote and to sympathize. I care more about my material possessions and belongings than [almost] any man or woman alive.

    Over the years, I have deciphered the code. I have learned to imitate and emulate expertly the more common affect and expressions of one's inner landscape. But this veneer is easily breached when I am frustrated or humiliated ("narcissistic injury"): the mask slips and the real Me is out: a predator on the prowl.
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 25, 2014, 10:07:15 AM
"Why lack of empathy is the root of all evil."

http://www.independent.co.uk/life-style/health-and-families/features/why-a-lack-of-empathy-is-the-root-of-all-evil-6279239.html (http://www.independent.co.uk/life-style/health-and-families/features/why-a-lack-of-empathy-is-the-root-of-all-evil-6279239.html)
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 25, 2014, 04:28:39 PM
"All emotions are positive.....t hey point at a need that needs filling."
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 26, 2014, 12:19:08 PM
Rule 1. Understanding is for love and kindness, not for being right.

Rule 2. Please refer back to Rule 1.
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 26, 2014, 02:12:45 PM
To the man responsible for breaking up my relationship.  Thank you for teaching me that I do not have enough love and kindness in me yet, and that is why I failed.  That I need to grow to be more understanding, loving, and kind at all times, regardless of what is happening.  I will take that lesson to the next relationship.  I really do admire your demonstration of love and kindness for our funny friend.  Please continue to give all the unconditional love that she needs.

"Hatred (anger) never ceases hatred (anger), but only through love that is the eternal and ancient rule." - The Buddha.
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 26, 2014, 03:24:16 PM
:(

It took me a very long time to arrive at that conclusion.  Then everything cleared up, and I began to hope and want to learn to be a better man.  Yes, heavenly criticizing others is just that, no matter what is going on.  It's saying I don't have to change.
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 29, 2014, 06:12:55 PM
To once upon a rainstorm on a bridge and a distant fading memory....


http://www.ehmongmusic.com/displayimage.php?album=647&pos=13&title=14-ib-tag-hmo-lawm (http://www.ehmongmusic.com/displayimage.php?album=647&pos=13&title=14-ib-tag-hmo-lawm)
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 29, 2014, 06:20:10 PM
Thank you for a clear head today.  Love and kindness is the way.
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Post by: Ajax616 on January 31, 2014, 07:31:12 PM
Love requires a synchronizing of hearts, morals, and understanding, because that is require to build trust for the long road.‏ 
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 02, 2014, 04:11:11 PM
You came into my dream last night and ask me to forgive you because you want to tell me something.  Then you sang me a song....that ended with goodbye.  Goodbye to the girl who had asked me to marry her.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 03, 2014, 06:24:01 PM
My mind was free.....becau se I stopped thinking, but enjoying each moment that was given to me.  I stopped asking all the Whys, what ifs, but accepted it and for that my mind because free.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 03, 2014, 06:26:30 PM
Recently, I realized that no matter what is happening thoughts of kindness and compassion immediately gives the peace that I am looking for.  The negative thoughts, however creates frustrations and more negative thoughts.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 04, 2014, 06:33:17 PM
No Attachment to Dust

Zengetsu, a Chinese master of the T'ang dynasty, wrote the following advice for his pupils:

Living in the world yet not forming attachments to the dust of the world is the way of a true Zen student.

When witnessing the good action of another encourage yourself to follow his example. Hearing of the mistaken action of another, advise yourself not to emulate it.

Even though alone in a dark room, be as if you were facing a noble guest. Express your feelings, but become no more expressive than your true nature.

Poverty is your teasure. Never exchange it for an easy life.

A person may appear a fool and yet not be one. He may only be guarding his wisdom carefully.

Virtues are the fruit of self-discipline and do not drop from heaven of themselves as does rain or snow.

Modesty is the foundation of all virtues. Let your neighbors discover you before you make yourself known to them.

A noble heart never forces itself forward. Its words are as rare gems, seldom displayed and of great value.

To a sincere student, every day is a fortunate day. Time passes but he never lags behind. Neither glory nor shame can move him.

Censure yourself, never another. Do not discuss right and wrong.

Some things, though right, were considered wrong for generations. Since the value of righteousness may be recognized after centuries, there is no need to crave an immediate appreciation.

Live with cause and leave results to the great law of the universe. Pass each day in peaceful contemplation.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 05, 2014, 07:30:00 PM
In human relationships, do NOT bring discipline others to the equation, unless you're in the military.  Bring love and kindness, and it will last and grow.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 05, 2014, 07:33:41 PM
The moral story of Adam and Eve.

Once we all lived in Paradise, were made for another, we were clear, naked and exposed to one another without fear.  Our love was made in heaven and will last forever into the many lives to come.  Then one cheated, because he or she thought they knew better or listening to the temptations of others.  As a result, we came ashamed to show ourselves and hid ourselves behind clothing and leaves.  We then, forever, lost our paradise, and can never return.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 06, 2014, 08:48:11 PM
The moral story of Adam and Eve.

Once we all lived in Paradise, were made for another, we were clear, naked and exposed to one another without fear.  Our love was made in heaven and will last forever into the many lives to come.  Then one cheated, because he or she thought they knew better or listening to the temptations of others.  As a result, we came ashamed to show ourselves and hid ourselves behind clothing and leaves.  We then, forever, lost our paradise, and can never return.

Yes that is my story too and all the stories of the divorcees out there.  Let's all find and live in our paradise again, because it lives in us, not out there.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 06, 2014, 08:51:02 PM
A beautiful song I bought from someone who claims to be Thom Pace himself.  He actually signed the CD, and it only cost $5.00.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rFvWU7KfNxw#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rFvWU7KfNxw#ws)

It reminds me that I am so free right now.  A huge weight was lifted off of me.  Thank you for your interference, and I know you don't what you're getting yourself into, but everyone has to learn.  Thank you my friend.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 06, 2014, 09:26:38 PM
Thank you and check your inbox tomorrow. ;)

OK, I will.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 06, 2014, 09:27:38 PM
You have to have seen the episode from "how I met your mother" to really appreciate this song.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KgmSA6uL5z4# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KgmSA6uL5z4#)
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 07, 2014, 05:07:37 AM

"Therefore, Ananda, be a lamp unto yourself, be a refuge to yourself. Take yourself to no external refuge. Hold fast to the Truth as a lamp; hold fast to the Truth as a refuge. Look not for a refuge in anyone beside yourself. And those, Ananda, who either now or after I am dead shall be a lamp unto themselves, who take themselves to no external refuge, but holding fast to the Truth as their lamp, and holding fast to the Truth as their refuge, shall not look for refuge to anyone beside themselves, it is they who shall reach the highest goal." ~Mahaparinibbana Sutta
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 07, 2014, 05:09:49 AM
If you really want change, please change your emotion understanding or else they will overwhelm you on your journey to change.   Make sure that change is good all those around you.

My emotion understanding is getting there....
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 07, 2014, 05:18:26 AM
I think I am becoming a monster....... I better deter myself from that path very quickly.

I have been thinking about this and yes there is a monster in all of us, but I realized that mine is very contained by understanding, because the monster is very wrong.  And I don't want to be wrong.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 08, 2014, 10:56:54 AM
Karma has came back to get me.....Sorry R. You also experience your own karma revenge too.  Karma always takes it course.‏  It's not what is out there, but when we think we can change the rules, something inside us changes making other perceive us so, and treating us in such a way.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 08, 2014, 03:30:03 PM
Love making is an expression of freedom....we become transparent at the moment and we have nothing hide.  We are free and open.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 08, 2014, 03:30:41 PM
Real test of a person's strength is not how hard you can hit back, but how much you can restrain yourself when hit.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 09, 2014, 11:07:10 AM


My candle burns at both ends;
It will not last the night;
But ah, my foes, and oh, my friends
It gives a lovely light.
Edna St. Vincent Millay

But oh my friends, do not burn your candle at both ends,
Just for a lovely light
Because when tomorrow comes
You will need it for another night
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 09, 2014, 06:28:25 PM
The beginning of finding a true sense freedom comes, out of love and kindness, asking what can I do for those around me. If you ask whats in it for me, you're already blinded by desire
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 09, 2014, 06:29:09 PM
Did you write this? Very nice.

BTW, thank you.  ;)

I wrote the second part.  The first is a real poem.

When say live life to fullest, because it could be your last day.  That is not true.  We don't when the last day is.  Live as if you will live forever.  Do not burn your candle away at both ends.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 10, 2014, 05:23:12 PM
Oh yes....ROSA LOPEZ, I have earned her trust this time around so she will have a reason to stay for good.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 11, 2014, 05:57:10 PM
The other I was recording a song from Youtube to my little recorder, and my daughter said "Dad" in the background.  I shush her, but it's my favorite part of the song when I am listening to it.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 11, 2014, 07:23:13 PM
Thank you for a wonderful peaceful day.....I am getting there, slowly but surely.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 12, 2014, 09:17:05 PM
I came out alone on my way to my tryst.
But who is this that follows me in the silent dark?

I move aside to avoid his presence but I escape him not.

He makes the dust rise from the earth with his swagger;
he adds his loud voice to every word that I utter.

He is my own little self, my lord, he knows no shame;
but I am ashamed to come to thy door in his company.

Rabindranath Tagore
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 13, 2014, 06:00:21 PM
Thank you for a wonderful and peaceful day.....
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 14, 2014, 06:09:23 PM
Freedom is being happy wherever you are, even just in the moment.  See, now you are free.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 14, 2014, 06:10:03 PM
Thank you for continually teaching me "love and kindness" and craziness too.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 14, 2014, 06:10:32 PM
Anger never ceases anger, but only through love that is the eternal and ancient rule.....
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 15, 2014, 10:15:26 AM
Since it is Valentines Day, once my ex-wife wrote in her journal that Valentines Day is not for me.  It is for the all the other men who needed it to make it up to their wives.  I already make very day feel like Valentines Day.  That was a very long time ago.

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Post by: Ajax616 on February 15, 2014, 10:31:23 AM
My favorite teachings:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7LE4wtPaano# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7LE4wtPaano#)
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 15, 2014, 10:41:44 AM
I am forgiving you for the dis-clarity that you planted in our garden.  I will continue to live with clarity all my life, because it what brings me peace.  It is what will empower me to be my best and allow me to live leading with love and kindness.  Your lack of clarity are not mine to keep, but thank you for the lesson.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 15, 2014, 10:56:09 AM
I don't know why this silly song is stuck in my head, have to post it once.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aieNz3Y79eY# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aieNz3Y79eY#)
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 15, 2014, 11:00:34 AM
I don't know why this silly song is stuck in my head, have to post it once.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aieNz3Y79eY# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aieNz3Y79eY#)

Okay that was a really bad song and idea, but I will live with it on my blog.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 15, 2014, 11:13:46 AM
I came out alone on my way to my tryst.
But who is this that follows me in the silent dark?

I move aside to avoid his presence but I escape him not.

He makes the dust rise from the earth with his swagger;
he adds his loud voice to every word that I utter.

He is my own little self, my lord, he knows no shame;
but I am ashamed to come to thy door in his company.

Rabindranath Tagore

I will rid myself of my own little self so that I won't be ashamed to come to thy door.  He has no place in my life.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 15, 2014, 11:17:48 AM
A great mentor.....Jim Rohn

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zb6GY-mMILw# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zb6GY-mMILw#)
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 15, 2014, 05:55:52 PM
Just in case the video is hard to understand, the son was actually the one that passed away.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=68xBh2ZklL8# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=68xBh2ZklL8#)
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 15, 2014, 05:58:51 PM
In the long run, life, like the stock market, reason and logic triumphs because it makes sense.  In the short, we act on our emotions because it gives understandable and immediate satisfaction.  Charge our emotions to completely understand reason and logic, and we will find performing tough tasks for long term success easier.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 15, 2014, 06:02:45 PM
I was spending with my daughter today and MOA.  She showed me a really sad video, and then she showed me a bunch of pictures of anime that she likes.  In one of the anime was the name Honda......the n something occurred to me.....
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 15, 2014, 08:24:06 PM
For ST, one of my favorite stories on physical beauty:

Ryonen's Clear Realization

The Buddhist nun known as Ryonen was born in 1797. She was a granddaughter of the famous Japanese warrior Shingen. Her poetical genius and alluring beauty were such that at seventeen she was serving the empress as one of the ladies of the court. Even at such a youthful age fame awaited her.

The beloved empress died suddenly and Ryonen's hopeful dreams vanished. She became acutely aware of the impermanency of life in this world. It was then that she desired to study Zen.

Her relatives disagreed, however, and practically forced her into marriage. With a promise that she might become a nun after she had borne three children, Ryonen assented. Before she was twenty-five she had accomplished this condition. Then her husband and relatives could no longer dissuade her from her desire. She shaved her head, took the name of Ryonen, which means to realize clearly, and started on her pilgrimage.

She came to the city of Edo and asked Tetsugyu to accept her as a disciple. At one glance the master rejected her because she was too beautiful.

Ryonen then went to another master, Hakuo. Hakuo refused her for the same reason, saying that her beauty would only make trouble.

Ryonen obtained a hot iron and placed it against her face. In a few moments her beauty had vanished forever.

Hakuo then accepted her as a disciple.

Commemorating this occasion, Ryonen wrote a poem on the back of a little mirror:

    In the service of my Empress I burned incense to perfume my exquisite clothes

    Now as a homeless mendicant I burn my face to enter a Zen temple.

When Ryonen was about to pass from this world, she wrote another poem:

Sixty-six times have these eyes beheld the changing scene of autumn

I have said enough about moonlight, Ask no more.

Only listen to the voice of pines and cedars when no wind stirs.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 16, 2014, 10:45:34 AM
Love is giving.....and sometimes we need to find love so that we can give.  Not having someone to give it to, the love sits inside and can eat us up too, as well as the negative emotions.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 16, 2014, 12:05:12 PM
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our Light, not our Darkness, that most frightens us.

Read more at http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/authors/m/marianne_williamson.html#5UtHIwDPqgZC5h28.99 (http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/authors/m/marianne_williamson.html#5UtHIwDPqgZC5h28.99)
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 16, 2014, 12:06:26 PM
A queen is wise. She has earned her serenity, not having had it bestowed on her but having passer her tests. She has suffered and grown more beautiful because of it. She has proved she can hold her kingdom together. She has become its vision. She cares deeply about something bigger than herself. She rules with authentic power.
― Marianne Williamson
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 16, 2014, 12:08:36 PM
 Forgiveness is not always easy. At times, it feels more painful than the wound we suffered, to forgive the one that inflicted it. And yet, there is no peace without forgiveness.
-Marianne Williamson
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 17, 2014, 05:46:24 PM
Forgiveness - Giving all hopes for a better past.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 17, 2014, 05:48:18 PM
Last night, I couldn't sleep.....unti l I chose to give up the thing that was keeping me awake.  I became at peace and was able to fall asleep.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 17, 2014, 05:50:34 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1_z3fzQEmCw#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1_z3fzQEmCw#ws)

A song I heard from a long time ago.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 17, 2014, 05:51:24 PM
If you desire something with all your heart....the universe conspires to give it to you.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 17, 2014, 05:52:15 PM
I need to give something to the boys......befo re I leave, if I leave......
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 17, 2014, 07:50:03 PM
Thank you for the clarity of thought today.......
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 18, 2014, 08:29:36 PM
NE, Something occurred to me today.....is that why you wanted a girl?
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 18, 2014, 08:32:16 PM
My addiction was swelling up until something occurred to me again.  Then I gained a handled it and came home in peace.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 18, 2014, 08:39:48 PM


 1 And the Lord sent aNathan unto David. And he came unto him, and said unto him, There were two men in one city; the one rich, and the other poor.

 2 The rich man had exceeding many flocks and herds:

 3 But the poor man had nothing, save one little ewe lamb, which he had bought and nourished up: and it grew up together with him, and with his children; it did eat of his own meat, and drank of his own cup, and lay in his bosom, and was unto him as a daughter.

 4 And there came a traveller unto the rich man, and he spared to take of his own flock and of his own herd, to dress for the wayfaring man that was come unto him; but took the poor mans lamb, and dressed it for the man that was come to him.

 5 And Davids anger was greatly kindled against the man; and he said to Nathan, As the Lord liveth, the man that hath done this thing shall surely die:

 6 And he shall restore the lamb afourfold, because he did this thing, and because he had no pity.

 7 And Nathan said to David, Thou art the man. Thus saith the Lord God of Israel, I aanointed thee king over Israel, and I delivered thee out of the hand of Saul;

 8 And I gave thee thy masters house, and thy masters wives into thy bosom, and gave thee the house of Israel and of Judah; and if that had been too little, I would moreover have given unto thee such and such things.

 9 Wherefore hast thou adespised the commandment of the Lord, to do evil in his sight? thou hast bkilled cUriah the Hittite with the sword, and hast taken his dwife to be thy wife, and hast slain him with the sword of the children of Ammon.

 10 Now therefore the sword shall never depart from thine house; because thou hast adespised me, and hast taken the wife of Uriah the Hittite to be thy wife.

 11 Thus saith the Lord, Behold, I will raise up aevil against thee out of thine own house, and I will take thy wives before thine eyes, and give them unto thy neighbour, and he shall lie with thy wives in the sight of this sun.

 12 For thou didst it secretly: but I will ado this thing before all Israel, and before the sun.

 13 And David said unto Nathan, I have asinned against the Lord. And Nathan said unto David, The Lord also bhath put away thy sin; thou shalt not die.

 14 Howbeit, because by this deed thou hast given great occasion to the enemies of the Lord to ablaspheme, the child also that is born unto thee shall surely die.

 15 And Nathan departed unto his house. And the Lord struck the child that Uriahs wife bare unto David, and it was very sick.

 16 David therefore besought God for the child; and David afasted, and went in, and lay all night upon the earth.

 17 And the elders of his house arose, and went to him, to raise him up from the earth: but he would not, neither did he eat bread with them.

 18 And it came to pass on the seventh day, that the child died. And the servants of David feared to tell him that the child was dead: for they said, Behold, while the child was yet alive, we spake unto him, and he would not hearken unto our voice: how will he then vex himself, if we tell him that the child is dead?

 19 But when David saw that his servants whispered, David perceived that the child was dead: therefore David said unto his servants, Is the child dead? And they said, He is dead.

 20 Then David arose from the earth, and washed, and anointed himself, and changed his aapparel, and came into the house of the Lord, and worshipped: then he came to his own house; and when he required, they set bread before him, and he did eat.

 21 Then said his servants unto him, What thing is this that thou hast done? thou didst afast and weep for the child, while it was alive; but when the child was dead, thou didst rise and eat bread.

 22 And he said, While the child was yet alive, I fasted and wept: for I said, Who can tell whether God will be gracious to me, that the child may live?

 23 But now he is dead, wherefore should I fast? can I bring him back again? I shall go to him, but he shall not return to me.



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Post by: Ajax616 on February 18, 2014, 09:27:40 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zKf84RgSx7E#noexternalembed-ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zKf84RgSx7E#noexternalembed-ws)

The pearl of wisdom.....if you don't want to watch the whole thing....watch the last 6 minutes.

Wisdom cannot be stolen.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 18, 2014, 10:07:04 PM
Listening to the Temptations of the serpent will break your paradise forever, until you repent.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 18, 2014, 10:11:56 PM
I am running across evil and I do not know what to do about it.  At least I recognize it for what it is, but at this point, I have no wisdom to deal with it, except keep myself in check and at safe distance.  Not sure to help and yell and scream, "evil."
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 19, 2014, 05:38:29 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vl7aM3nCqC0# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vl7aM3nCqC0#)

To Jacques Cousteau...... a life of service for others.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 20, 2014, 05:49:15 PM
Despite being right, I was wrong, because I should have lead with kindness...... ..kindness will lead to building a tomorrow.  It is like calling a thief a thief, nothing good will come out of it.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 20, 2014, 05:49:51 PM
It's never too late to stop trying to fix it and let an old problem go.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 20, 2014, 05:52:39 PM
I was reading a book on trading and the author was getting coached by a world class teacher.....sh e had everything and the position was working, suddenly the market changed and it reversed.  She called over her teacher and asked what's going on.....he looked at it then, "There are more buyers than sellers."

Whether it be people or bets in the markets....som etimes we have to let people or positions go, because they no longer belong there despite how much we wish it would work out.  Bets in the market and people create desires that overwhelm our sense of logic.  How to over come that is, exit rules.......

I will not look back or dig two graves but reflect on positive and constructive course of actions.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 20, 2014, 05:55:20 PM
Great scene from one of my favorite movies.....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QjYkuJb40J0#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QjYkuJb40J0#ws)
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 21, 2014, 07:03:50 PM
Came so close to having a car accident yesterday, while slipping and turning....my mirror clipped another vehicle's tail light.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 21, 2014, 08:01:06 PM
Wow that comment really silenced you....I must have touched on something very close. I am sorry to discover your intentions.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 21, 2014, 08:18:35 PM
Very scary. Glad it wasn't major.  :)

I give it a lot of room, but it was much more slippery than I thought.  At the last moment, I definitely thought I would hit that car.  Believe it or not, my mirror survived completely intact too.  I thought I saw parts fly.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 21, 2014, 08:19:05 PM
huh? are you referring the above statement to me? ???

Not at all, but now that you mention it, Still NO. :)

It's darker and meant for someone else.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 21, 2014, 08:43:08 PM
While aimlessly driving our late last night, I got a chance to do some good chores.  I helped dug out my neighbor, because they were stuck in their driveway.  Thank you for giving me the opportunity to help.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 22, 2014, 11:00:12 AM
Interesting journey.  May I come along?

Which journey, the people, the market, or the amazing and exciting journey to stars?  Either way of course, because it is our journey.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 22, 2014, 11:03:01 AM
This was just in my head recent, "why is good stronger than evil?"  Evil is ruthless and will do anything to destroy others, but good stronger because evil has a huge ego, thinking that he can do anything.  As good, one realizes that it requires thinking, planning, and executing something that works.  Good is stronger than evil because of love, caring and kindness for others.  Evil has a huge ego that will eventually lead to its destruction.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 22, 2014, 02:58:38 PM
It's just occurred to me that the timing of the moment is so soft and perfect now.......it can only get worst.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 22, 2014, 07:00:03 PM
Stop persecuting this kid, and take a look at who you have become. - Anne Butterfield, Endless Love.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 22, 2014, 07:00:47 PM
Change is the only constant in the Universe...... .Rivers do not flow back up and you cannot step into the same river twice.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 23, 2014, 01:19:22 PM
Every chain is only as strong as the weakest link.....there fore if you want your chain to be strong then fill it with strong links.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 23, 2014, 01:23:58 PM
Law of Life:  Survival of the fittest.  Law of the Universe: A generous heart, kindness speech, and a life of service and compassion to others.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 25, 2014, 05:13:14 PM
Today, I am questioning the validity of my philosophy a little.  I should not though, because there is nothing wrong with forgiveness, love, and kindness.
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Post by: LadyLionness on February 25, 2014, 05:21:09 PM
What makes you question your own philosophy?
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 25, 2014, 05:25:32 PM
In Failure, do not ask why you failed, but what you can do better next time.  There's no failure, except not to try.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 25, 2014, 05:27:27 PM
What makes you question your own philosophy?

The questioning is only a temporary moment.  There's no other philosophy I would take.  To answer your question, extreme volatility in results vs. expectations of other people. 
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 25, 2014, 05:28:25 PM
The real first question is:  What can I do to make others lives better?
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 25, 2014, 05:54:02 PM
There are no demons in us, except for Mara the Tempter.  I hope you reach that conclusion one day, my goofy friend.
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Post by: LadyLionness on February 25, 2014, 06:38:38 PM
Results and Hypothesis (i.e. Expectations) rarely match in real life.  Even in science, we were taught to throw out the data points that were too off base...


This was a good lesson Don Juan taught me.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 25, 2014, 06:54:38 PM
Results and Hypothesis (i.e. Expectations) rarely match in real life.  Even in science, we were taught to throw out the data points that were too off base...


This was a good lesson Don Juan taught me.

That is the way it should be.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 25, 2014, 08:18:41 PM
The questioning is only a temporary moment.  There's no other philosophy I would take.  To answer your question, extreme volatility in results vs. expectations of other people. 

I forget how beautiful life is.....and how beautiful the path I have chosen.  There is no other path, I would rather take in this life and the next.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 25, 2014, 09:19:00 PM
The Frog and the Scorpion

Two strangers met along the banks of the St Croix one late Summer.  They both were different, but they see a lot of similarities in each other.  They see that each was very unique and different, and filled with a zest for life.  Despite their different pasts and beliefs they became friends and lovers.  She said she was looking for a home, and he was looking for someone special to provide a home to.  He rarely looks, because theres no one out there to find.  They both were hoping to find the best in each other, however they carried their pasts, present and future with them and some of the parts and paths do not agree.  They made the best of the journey and enjoyed each others company for a while.  She was a great cook and he loves to cook and help her clean.

The past caught to them and the journey became very turbulent at times.  He stuck in there for much longer than he wanted, because through each set back, she help made him a better and stronger person.  She taught him forgiveness, love and kindness. He believed that certain ways will lead to success, she believed in living in the moment as if tomorrow may not exist.  When their constant disagreements became too much for the relationship, the frog and the scorpion parted ways, never to be lovers again, but good friends from a distance, and help council each other from time to time.  They forgave each other for all the frustrations and realized that they were not made for each other at this time or maybe this life.  They became true friends at last.

In time, the frog found a wife and had a good career that he was starting to develop when he met her.  He had two more sons and for the first time his only son had brothers in his life.  He retired at 70, and when his wife passed away due to an unforeseen illness, and his kids are all now grown up, left for Northern India. He became a monk at a temple near the birthplace of the Buddha.  When his friend the scorpion gave birth to her only daughter, he came by to bless the beautiful child and congratulate her on her long awaited joy.

She started to listen to her friend the frog, who became more objective now and was always considered wise anyway, she quiet down her thoughts and met a very loving man.  She gave up a life of independence and invited Allura into her life.  She was filled with joy for the first time in her life.  She found the contentment that Lao Tzu reminds her every day.  She became an awesome mother and Allura became a very strong young woman.

When Allura grew up and became a woman, the scorpions restless spirit renewed and she separated from her husband to live a life of independence again.  She visited her good friend in India and spent a year goofily mimicking the life of a monk.  She even shaved her head and put on an orange robe.  Despite enjoying her friends companionship, that was not the life for her so after a year, she left India and came back to support her kids and be a loving mother and grandmother.  Five years later, she passed away from contentment, as she has finally found the peace she was looking for at last.  The Frog in his 80s came back to see her friend off.  She was cremated and, as wished, was distributed into the St Croix.  The Frog cried for the first time in a very long time, but happy to see his very good friend finding true peace at last.  The Frog went back to India, gave up the life of a monk and became a servant of the people to help others.  He passed away 10 years later, and per his wish, was brought back to the US.  He was cremated and distributed into the St Croix.  Being a strong swimmer in life, his ashes caught up to hers in the river.His consciousness found hers in the infinite universe.  They were united again in this life and the next.  In life, they could not be united, but in death the frog and scorpion were able to shed their earthly definitions, past and desires became one.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 26, 2014, 04:59:21 PM
Results and Hypothesis (i.e. Expectations) rarely match in real life.  Even in science, we were taught to throw out the data points that were too off base...


This was a good lesson Don Juan taught me.

Which Don Juan?

Don Juan Demarco?
Don Juan Quixote?
Don Juan Corleone?
Or Don Juanson?

:)
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 27, 2014, 06:49:26 AM
LOVE the story!!! Thanks for sharing. Awesome, I wish for it to happen to true love.

Thank you for taking the time to read it....
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 27, 2014, 06:31:57 PM
A long time ago, my one and only wife, at time, went out with her friends and back drunk.  I was asleep and were visiting family from out of town so she didn't have a key.  She rang the door bell and my dad answered the door. "Nyab koj pais dab tsis."  She didn't answer, but just came.  He went up stairs, and so being so drunk she started crawling to bed.....she crawled and crawled suddenly the floor got slippery and cold and then she hit her head on the commode in the bathroom. 
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 27, 2014, 06:36:05 PM
About three months ago, I went to a funeral home.  They were not planning to be opened all night so they didn't buy any cards.  Suddenly there are too many people and they decided to open.  Well they asked me to go and buy cards and so I did.  I bought 8 decks from the local CVS.  I didn't want to spend that much money, but I figure if they are going to use it then I should.  When I got they only use one deck.  Three people were playing a game and the other 10 were watching them play.  I felt so bad.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 28, 2014, 06:58:20 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kAplLy3tzmI# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kAplLy3tzmI#)

A song my beautiful daughter and kind daughter just shared with me.
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Post by: Ajax616 on February 28, 2014, 07:17:17 PM
How to escape Samsara.....in this life.‏.....The Suffering is all inside.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 01, 2014, 05:51:36 PM
A thousand candles can be lit from a single candle, and the life of the candle will not be shortened. - The Buddha
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 01, 2014, 06:00:06 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ehlw-9PJkIE#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ehlw-9PJkIE#ws)

If it's true, then our thoughts have much more powerful than we think.  We know so little about our world and universe.

Dr. Masaru Emotos Rice Emotions Experiment
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 01, 2014, 06:05:31 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uaHDCcUcmc0#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uaHDCcUcmc0#ws)

Success: Progressively realizing a worthy idea.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 01, 2014, 06:09:54 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uaHDCcUcmc0#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uaHDCcUcmc0#ws)

Success: Progressively realizing a worthy idea.

Key to Success: We become what we think about. Believe and succeed.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 01, 2014, 07:15:12 PM
I am finding that I am learning so much about myself, success, and failures recently.  I do want to learn from my failures and catapult them into success.  I have been naive to think that I am there, but I am and always will be a student.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 02, 2014, 10:47:27 AM
Logically, I knew I did not want to live in the bottle any longer, but emotionally I still was, until you can along and helped me to sort it out live without the bottle.  Thank you.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 02, 2014, 10:50:21 AM
The Fact that Sidartha experienced both extreme pleasure and extreme pain helped him on his journey to understanding.  I think he was so seeking to find a path to his mother who had died giving birth to him. Understanding gave him a path to everything. If he had a mother and been born poor and desired wealth from childhood, he might have simply ended up a rich man, and nothing more.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 03, 2014, 05:55:55 PM
I asked my very tough and spirited daughter the other day.  I asked her, "When you do you think you can say, "I have made it.""

She gave me something about paying off her student loan and so on and so on.  I said no, when you can get each day and have full confidence that you can handle each day, live each day with love and kindness, and if you have happen to run into a problem that you can't solve and lose your life, gladly accept it, then you have made.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 03, 2014, 06:03:59 PM
I used to have bad dreams regarding my 2nd house in Texas.  It was old and I put so much work into that house.  It was hot in the Summer and cold in the winter. The pool cracked and I kept having to buy new pool cleaners.  It was also there that my wife and I decided to part ways.  I kept having bad dreams like sometimes even moving back there, until I apologized to my house and thanked it for sheltering me during the hot Texas summers and cold Texas winters.  I accepted responsibility for what went wrong.  Apologizing and thanking brought my subconscious mind peace and my bad dreams went way.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 03, 2014, 06:04:45 PM
Okay, beautiful and handsome warriors, let's play monopoly. :)
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 03, 2014, 06:05:11 PM
Mantras for her inner peace. :)
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 04, 2014, 05:58:11 PM
Maybe I am not giving enough credit to MKT patterns in MKT, like I do in stocks. 

Making all my variables add up to 1.1 is not the key either.  The key might in using the VIX better.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 04, 2014, 06:00:12 PM
When will I be able to say that I have made?  When I know that I will be able to handle each day with full confidence in everything I do, independent of results, and always with, empowering others, love, kindness and forgiveness.  Then I will have made it. :)
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 04, 2014, 06:01:46 PM
I will default back to the calm dream that I had of you.  The dream I had after a couple of crazy days, even you proposing to me.  When I woke up, everything was so peaceful and made perfect sense to me.  I was even very calm the next day, until I started listening to you again.  The dream made perfect sense and was filled with clarity, logic, and love. It is the reality that has gone way beyond help.  Thank you for coming into my dream and into my life.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jzF_y039slk#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jzF_y039slk#ws)
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 04, 2014, 06:21:29 PM
Thank you for teaching me Jim Rohn's "Resilience."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YAk3ovFaKEM# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YAk3ovFaKEM#)
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 04, 2014, 07:24:32 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8DoARSlv-HU# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8DoARSlv-HU#)

It shrinks.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 04, 2014, 08:37:19 PM
One first time in a very long time, I am feeling compassion for you, as a true friend.  I hope you are doing well and are happy tonight.  Have great night.  I hope you get some rest for another long day tomorrow, because you work so hard. 
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 04, 2014, 08:40:41 PM
I dreamed about you last night.  You actually said, "I have moved on to bigger and better things."  In reality, I believe you think you have.  I can read through the situation, and it is that you are still stuck in the same pattern I found you, except now you are so use to it, and it belongs to you now, not up for negotiation.  I hope you peel back the ego a little and compromise on your still long journey ahead. 

I haven't thought of it in awhile, but you said, "You're Crazy." (with sort of a smile) to me, hugged me and then left.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 05, 2014, 05:23:31 PM
When will I be able to say that I have made it?

When I have full confidence that I will handle each day with nothing but joy and contentment to best of my ability, independent of results or actions of others, always with empowering others, with kind speech, with love, with kindness, and with forgiveness.

Then I will be able to say that I have made it.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 05, 2014, 07:42:57 PM
What soap is to the body, soap is to the soul. - A Yiddish Proverb
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 05, 2014, 07:43:35 PM
I like the night.  Without dark, we'd never see the stars. - Stephanie Meyer
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 05, 2014, 07:44:45 PM
If you had the biggest sign in the World, what would it say?

Mine would say, I understand what is my purpose in life now.  Thank you to all my mentors that gave it to me.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 05, 2014, 07:45:36 PM
We had only this moment, sparkling like a star in our hand, and melting like a snow flake. - Marie Beyman Ray
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 05, 2014, 07:46:15 PM
The web of our life is of a mingled yarn, good and ill together. - William Shakespeare
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 05, 2014, 07:47:00 PM
Let us be grateful to people who make us happy, they are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom. - Marcel Proust
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 05, 2014, 07:47:24 PM
You have to harness your will to challenge yourself. - Les Brown
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 05, 2014, 07:48:23 PM
Hatred darkens life, love illuminates it. - MLK

Hatred never ceases hatred, only through love, that is the eternal and ancient rule. - The Buddha
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 06, 2014, 06:00:06 PM
MATAJURA wanted to become a great swordsman, but his father said
he wasn't quick enough and could never learn. So Matajura went to
the famous dueller Banzo, and asked to become his pupil. "How long
will it take me to become a master?" he asked. "Suppose I became
your servant, to be with you every minute; how long?"

"Ten years," said Banzo.

"My father is getting old. Before ten years have passed I will
have to return home to take care of him. Suppose I work twice as
hard; how long will it take me?"

"Thirty years," said Banzo.

"How is that?" asked Matajura. "First you say ten years. Then when
I offer to work twice as hard, you say it will take three times as
long. Let me make myself clear: I will work unceasingly: no
hardship will be too much. How long will it take?"

"Seventy years" said Banzo. "A pupil in such a hurry learns
slowly."

Matajura understood. Without asking for any promises in terms of
time, he became Banzo's servant. He cleaned, he cooked, he washed,
he gardened. He was ordered never to speak of fencing or to touch
a sword. He was very sad at this; but he had given his promise to
the master, and resolved to keep his word. Three years passed for
Matajura as a servant.

One day while he was gardening, Banzo came up quietly behind him
and gave him a terrible whack with a wooden sword. The next day in
the kitchen the same blow fell again. Thereafter, day in, day out,
from every corner and at any moment, he was attacked by Banzo's
wooden sword. He learned to live on the balls of his feet, ready
to dodge at any movement. He became a body with no desires, no
thoughts - only eternal readiness and quickness.

Banzo smiled, and started lessons. Soon Matajura was the greatest
swordsman in Japan.

Success comes after total dedication and practice with detachment to results.

What is it that you want to do and be the best in the land at it?  I know I what I want, and I have taken my beating on the head and backs for it.  I am close, thank you these inspirational stories......b ecause the pattern of success is the same everywhere.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 06, 2014, 06:01:53 PM
Musashi and The Book of Five Rings........a ttention to details, discipline, control your emotions, and practice.  Success has the same formula no matter what.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 06, 2014, 06:19:29 PM
The Sun, the stars, and the sky lives forever, because they give, no matter what, without asking for anything in return. If you want immortality, then give all you have and ask for nothing.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 06, 2014, 06:20:12 PM
You just asked me one of the most silly questions I can think of.....to put you ahead of my number one and maybe only purpose in life.‏

I think you're the real mentor between us, and I the mentee.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 06, 2014, 06:20:39 PM
Sometimes I enjoy it when things are not working, because it is an opportunity to learn. You can't learn from success, but from failures alone.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 06, 2014, 06:26:27 PM
If you want something with all your heart, the Universe conspires to give it to you.

What is it that you want with all your heart?
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 06, 2014, 06:34:01 PM
Once I was successful, but I could not tell you how I got there or what my daily plans are for success, and eventually I failed.  Now I am broke, but my thoughts are very clear and I have all the details to rise back up and stay there.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 06, 2014, 06:37:10 PM
Stewart McPhee - Key to success is a Trading Plan and sticking to it, no matter what.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lFkXllWe3mY#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lFkXllWe3mY#ws)
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 06, 2014, 07:56:19 PM
Can't say it.

I am not saying it either, because my heart already knows. :)
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 06, 2014, 07:58:56 PM
I was gonna text this to you, but I will just put it here. Once I saw you put a post on Facebook that you're happy that your prayers are finally answered.  Thank you for thinking that I was worthy of your friend.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 06, 2014, 08:02:01 PM
What I want, it's not obtainable.

I see and I understand.

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Post by: Ajax616 on March 06, 2014, 08:54:26 PM
Do you have a song that takes you to a special place and time.  They say emotions have their own memories.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ktAYHSq6T9k# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ktAYHSq6T9k#)

Every time I hear this song it takes me to Belle Isle in Detroit, MI a long time ago, when I was very in love with my then wife.  We were driving around at night and this song came on the radio.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 08, 2014, 09:10:38 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5G7oGm2AFMo# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5G7oGm2AFMo#)

Funny  ;D
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 08, 2014, 09:12:33 PM
Is that song by Anne Murray? If so, this is one song that will always bring me memories of my past. I remembered driving over the hills to Los Angles and this song was playing in our car.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eZi6qNi9TeU#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eZi6qNi9TeU#ws)

No, it's by Rita Coolidge.  Thank you for sharing.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 08, 2014, 09:13:49 PM
If someone was able to steal your SO away, then she deserves to be stolen away, because she doesn't belong with you anyway.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 08, 2014, 09:15:27 PM
You have to harness your will to challenge yourself. - Les Brown

Harnessing your will is not enough, you have to harness the power of your subconscious mind.  Harnessing your will implies that you do not totally believe what you are doing to be a great or awesome adventure yet.  Harness your subconscious mind and it will all become very easy, because you absolutely believe that it is the only way.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 08, 2014, 09:22:08 PM
When will I be able to say that I have made it?

When I have full confidence that I will handle each day with nothing but joy and contentment to best of my ability, independent of results or actions of others, always with empowering others, with kind speech, with love, with kindness, and with forgiveness.

Then I will be able to say that I have made it.

When will I be able to say that I have made it.

When I have full confidence that I will begin and end each day with clarity, humility and calm, and bring joy, laughter and contentment to myself and others, and then give the best of me, independent of results, to myself and others always with empowering, with kind speech, with love, with kindness, with compassion, with understanding and with forgiveness.

Then I will be able to say that I have made it.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 09, 2014, 12:30:46 PM
The Goose in a bottle Zen Koan,

The Goose will be free when you finally realized that you are more than all that you have ever been taught, and you start living it.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 10, 2014, 04:35:36 PM
Why are you talking to yourself?  ;D

Was talking to you. :)
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 10, 2014, 05:17:35 PM
Harnessing your will is not enough, you have to harness the power of your subconscious mind.  Harnessing your will implies that you do not totally believe what you are doing to be a great or awesome adventure yet.  Harness your subconscious mind and it will all become very easy, because you absolutely believe that it is the only way.

It has played its course a very long time ago, even before I knew it.  No matter how much I adjust, it will not bloom to become something that I can water everyday or enjoy it peacefully.  I have my own journey to travel.  I am on an amazing journey to the stars and I have to go, TODAY.  This is the message that my subconscious mind needs to accept.  Thank you for a very interesting and enlighten adventure.

I will honor myself and my own journey from now on with no distraction.  I am so close to kick starting a new exciting chapter in my life.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 10, 2014, 05:40:52 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RV-Z1YwaOiw#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RV-Z1YwaOiw#ws)

To my very strong, kind, and compassionate daughter.  You are so much stronger than I could ever become.  I know you are on a spiritual journey to strengthen your soul.  For that I am so proud of you.  You are my friend and sometimes my council.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 10, 2014, 07:36:35 PM
Druckenmiller's flexibility on Black Monday.

A monkey will do better than a human in trading, because we seek comfort. - Bill Eckhardt

What is the rallying cry of a losing trader?  I will get out when I am even.  - Marty Schwartz

I am not concern about losses along the way, because my methodology will win in the long run....that is all that matters.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 10, 2014, 07:41:06 PM
Today, I am reminded of this poem by Rabindranath Tagore

I came out alone on my way to my tryst.
But who is this that follows me in the silent dark?

I move aside to avoid his presence but I escape him not.

He makes the dust rise from the earth with his swagger;
he adds his loud voice to every word that I utter.

He is my own little self, my lord, he knows no shame;
but I am ashamed to come to thy door in his company.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 10, 2014, 07:42:12 PM
The Tongue like a sharp knife kills without drawing blood - The Buddha

Anger will never disappear as long as thoughts of resentment are cherished in the mind.  Anger will disappear as soon as thoughts of resentment are forgotten. - The Buddha

If you speak and act with a polluted mind suffering will follow you as surely as the oxcart follows the ox - The Buddha
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 10, 2014, 07:47:18 PM
Pay no attention to the faults of others, things done or left undone by others.  Consider only what by oneself is done or left undone. - The Buddha

Do not look for faults in others, but look for faults in yourself and purge them like bad blood. - The Buddha

Since you cannot tame the mind of others until you have tamed your own, begin by taming your own mind. - The Buddha
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 10, 2014, 07:50:22 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LTsb-woP3jI# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LTsb-woP3jI#)
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 11, 2014, 07:40:22 PM
a CTA could have all good years, and more than 50% of the accounts closed could be losers, because they cannot stand the draw down.  They start changing plans and getting out.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 11, 2014, 07:41:53 PM
I was stressed out over something that I did over something really unworthy of my time......I cannot put myself in a situation like that again.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 12, 2014, 04:55:17 PM
It is my pure wisdom mind that tells me you're insane, and my judgmental perception that is constantly wrong thinking there's someone worth saving in you that I can reach.  There is, but it will not be done until you have come to your own understanding.  May peace and happiness be with you always, and if not may you find it one day.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 12, 2014, 07:24:00 PM
The Sermon on the Mount

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D7Q69QJkYLM#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D7Q69QJkYLM#ws)

Seek first the Kingdom of God....Thank you for the teaching.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 12, 2014, 07:24:58 PM
It is my pure wisdom mind that tells me you're insane, and my judgmental perception that is constantly wrong thinking there's someone worth saving in you that I can reach.  There is, but it will not be done until you have come to your own understanding.  May peace and happiness be with you always, and if not may you find it one day.

My constantly wrong perception created a suffering which needed to be filled, but was doomed to be unfulfilled. Thus making everything deteriorate in all directions. May we find true friendship one day.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 12, 2014, 07:35:46 PM
I am beginning to study again which I neglected for a long time....I am happy that I am.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 12, 2014, 07:40:06 PM
The true never ending pleasure in life is becoming someone you are proud of everyday.‏

I am not and will not become a wolf in sheep's clothing.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 13, 2014, 06:01:15 PM
There's almost nothing more fun than having pink eye :)‏


Waaaaaayyyyyyy y after you have had it.  ;D
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 13, 2014, 06:03:26 PM
I am able to see a small glimpse of eternity, but of course I cannot understand it in this form. :)
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 13, 2014, 07:13:22 PM
Sorry this song was on my mind today. :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8l-vJ4fdac8#noexternalembed-ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8l-vJ4fdac8#noexternalembed-ws)
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 14, 2014, 12:51:08 PM
Is that what you had? I've never had it before.. how is it?

It was actually a long time ago, but it's so much worse than you could imagine.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 14, 2014, 01:25:03 PM
I heard it's contagious.. How are you today?

I am home, and not working today.  I am contemplating my how to be better.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 14, 2014, 01:26:55 PM
I hate being right and wrong at the same time.  I am right because its the only way for success, and I am wrong because I fail to act or lead with kindness.  I believe in kindness first before being right, because the kindness will resolve everything.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 14, 2014, 03:50:34 PM
I have to remember this as my ultimate goal every day.

When will I be able to say that I have made it.

When I have full confidence that I will begin and end each day with clarity, humility and calm, and bring joy, laughter and contentment to myself and others, and then give the best of me, independent of results, to myself and others always with empowering, with kind speech, with love, with kindness, with compassion, with understanding and with forgiveness.

Then I will be able to say that I have made it.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 14, 2014, 04:07:04 PM
It failed it lately because, for many reasons including that its a bad model, but mostly because I have wanted it to fail for along time now, because I was scared it would work and I would have to live with a model that is constantly unnecessarily tested too often for silly reasons.  That is why it failed recently, I was the cause of the failure.  My thoughts and wishes were for failure. The law of attraction prevails.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 14, 2014, 06:09:35 PM
I will continue to push for success everywhere else in my life.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 15, 2014, 08:30:11 AM
glad that you had the day off to think about life... Have an awesome weekend!  O0

Thanks you too. 
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 15, 2014, 08:30:54 AM
Get the toxic people out of your life, they're no good for you. - Les Brown
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 15, 2014, 09:15:22 AM
glad that you had the day off to think about life... Have an awesome weekend!  O0

It was very good to take the day off to reflect and how to be able to stay on path that I have chosen and want to go.  Have an awesome and amazing weekend too.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 15, 2014, 09:23:01 AM
Once I wrote, we have to forgive all those that trespassed against us.  The harder it is to forgive, the more should because it shows your strength..... Therefore I apologize for bringing a little heat and I forgive you T.  You should know that when we start something with untruths and hidden agenda, that the results will usually be unpleasant for everyone.  There are many concerns that has nothing to do with me, but it seems you keep wanting to journey.  I forgive you and you can have your journey because I have my own amazing journey to the stars already.  May you have better success than I did and take care my friend.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 17, 2014, 05:11:27 PM
I don't think I have ever met the girl that wanted to go the stars with me.  I think she couldn't wait for me and died a long time.  It is her ghost that I see, but she was gone way before I got there.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 17, 2014, 07:16:53 PM
Crazy psychotic ex-girl friends please get out of my dreams.  You're no longer welcomed there too. :)

Sorry had a bad dream last night.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 17, 2014, 07:46:12 PM
Do you have a moment when time freezes for you but yet passed away so quickly that you wished you could bottle it and enjoy it again.  The first time, I sat at a park with my ex-wife.  She was dropped off at her cousin's house to go to work and she was late so she was just standing there.  I asked her if I could walk her home and she said yes...I chose the route that would take us to a park.  We sat there for a couple of hours, all that time, I was just looking at those lips.  We talked about everything from ghost to aliens and I am thinking, why is it that its me that is here.  It should have been someone else better.  Then she had a small gap on her upper tooth and a mole by eyes.  Everything about her was perfect, including her small feet and her dirty work clothes.  I am looking at her and she was so contented to be with me too.  I knew I had to kiss her before I let her go, so after being there for a couple of hours, I asked to kiss her on the cheeks.  She said yes, so when she closed her eyes I completely missed her cheek.  No I do not want to bottle it up, because then it wouldn't be special anymore.  It is moments like that that helped made my life more complete and content.  I didn't miss out on the prettiest and one of the smartest girl of my time.

I am sorry we went our separate ways, but I told you it wasn't wise.  It's okay though, because I needed to find my own journey too.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 17, 2014, 07:50:31 PM
I know now that what I did is nothing compared to what because "An sincere friend is more to feared than a wild beast, a wild beast may wound your body, but an insincere friend will wound your mind and your hear." - The Buddha
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 18, 2014, 07:46:18 PM
hahahaha.. you and me!  ;D
Awww... The first time I met my ex.. it was by accident but we did take a long walk to the park and spend a few hours taking pictures and enjoying the moment there. Looking back, I do not regret a single memories.

If everyone kept these memories near our hearts at all times, no would be no EXes, but we would all be in Eden.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 18, 2014, 08:37:48 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QSCzIzeW4cA# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QSCzIzeW4cA#)
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Post by: Wi_sweetguy on March 18, 2014, 11:54:49 PM
If everyone kept these memories near our hearts at all times, no would be no EXes, but we would all be in Eden.

It's funny how people sacrifice everything for that special moment in time, but as soon as they are together, they have already forgotten about their sacrifices. 
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 19, 2014, 05:58:49 PM
I was put hold today and this song was playing.......

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uN4BbDbsC9w# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uN4BbDbsC9w#)

"Love Will Keep Us Alive"

I was standing
All alone against the world outside
You were searching
For a place to hide
Lost and lonely
Now you've given me the will to survive
When we're hungry, love will keep us alive

Don't you worry
Sometimes you've just gotta let it ride
The world is changing
Right before your eyes

Now I've found you
There's no more emptiness inside
When we're hungry, love will keep us alive

I would die for you
Climb the highest mountain
Baby, there's nothing I wouldn't do

Now I've found you
There's no more emptiness inside
When we're hungry, love will keep us alive

[Solo]

I would die for you
Climb the highest mountain
Baby, there's nothing I wouldn't do

I was standing
All alone against the world outside
You were searching
For a place to hide
Lost and lonely
Now you've given me the will to survive
When we're hungry, love will keep us alive
When we're hungry, love will keep us alive
When we're hungry, love will keep us alive
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 19, 2014, 06:01:09 PM
Last night, for the first time in a very long time, I was so happy I couldn't sleep.‏  Wasn't thinking about tomorrow, but just happy. I know what the reason is.  :)
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 19, 2014, 06:02:42 PM
When we say I am happy.....what do we mean.. (I am glad to be here....I have everything I need or want...and I will have a better tomorrow)‏.  That kind of says it for me, doesn't it for you too.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 19, 2014, 06:04:16 PM
True happiness lies in Freedom.... Do not go out there to get freedom, but free your inner self from constricting thoughts.  The freedom cannot be taken away then, by time and space.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 19, 2014, 06:06:47 PM
Life is amazing full of joy, peace, calm and happiness when you get rid of the toxic people out of your life.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 20, 2014, 05:40:17 PM
I AM (fvcking) KRAZY.....and so are you.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 20, 2014, 06:54:01 PM
Am I adjusting the curve too much in my trading plan. The most recent change does make a lot of sense to me, but am I killing it too?
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 21, 2014, 06:16:54 PM
I was wondering why I am so sleepless the last couple of nights when my mind was very clear.  It is because I am so filled with energy. 
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 21, 2014, 06:17:22 PM
Don't ever forget that I am Neiman Marcus and Tiffany and nothing less.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 21, 2014, 06:23:06 PM
I do not really know you at all. The only way I knew you, was by looking at your shadow and how it moves.  I hope you know yourself, because you will need your best.‏  Let me ask you, what is dream?  What is your five year plan?
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 21, 2014, 11:07:04 PM
The Fault in Our Stars

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Li8uojsfGc#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Li8uojsfGc#ws)
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 21, 2014, 11:08:08 PM
Be wakeful and think.  Never let the fears or desires overwhelm your sense of logic.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 21, 2014, 11:10:38 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PIdOZsEubYc# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PIdOZsEubYc#)
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 21, 2014, 11:11:23 PM
Thank you for a wonderful week of rediscovering my principles.  I haven't been here in a very long time now.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 23, 2014, 10:33:15 AM
Had a great time with the cousins and the near adult and young nieces and nephew at Fun Zone.  Thank you to my youngest daughter for showing your best the entire night.  You are so amazing at times.  Thank you to my eldest daughter for being so classy and calm.  We were even treated to some dramatic entertainment.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 23, 2014, 03:15:56 PM
The Picture of Dorian Gray  - Oscar Wilde

In the end of the book, when Dorian stabs his cursed picture: Does it mean his soul is pure again, for his dead body now endures his age and sins while the picture that represented his soul is young again, or it's just about his curse being broken?
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 23, 2014, 03:18:24 PM
First they came for the Socialists, and I did not speak out--
Because I was not a Socialist.

Then they came for the Trade Unionists, and I did not speak out--
Because I was not a Trade Unionist.

Then they came for the Jews, and I did not speak out--
Because I was not a Jew.

Then they came for me--and there was no one left to speak for me.

Martin Niemoller
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 23, 2014, 03:20:36 PM
Dietrich Bonhoeffer (German: [ˈdiːtʁɪ ˈboːnhfɐ]; February 4, 1906 April 9, 1945) was a German Lutheran pastor, theologian, dissident anti-Nazi, and founding member of the Confessing Church. His writings on Christianity's role in the secular world have become widely influential, and many have labelled his book The Cost of Discipleship a modern classic.[1]

Apart from his theological writings, Bonhoeffer became known for his staunch resistance to the Nazi dictatorship. He strongly opposed Hitler's euthanasia program and genocidal persecution of the Jews.[2] He was also involved in plans by members of the Abwehr (the German Military Intelligence Office) to assassinate Adolf Hitler. He was arrested in April 1943 by the Gestapo and executed by hanging on April 1945 while imprisoned at a Nazi concentration camp, just 23 days before the German surrender.



Without a purpose.  There's no reason for continuation of life.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 23, 2014, 03:25:40 PM
Hey Hello in there, hey - what's so important, what you got here that's worth living for.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X90qKQAMh8A# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X90qKQAMh8A#)
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 24, 2014, 05:12:11 PM
GC, I think it's your work with people that you're able to see human nature better.  You made the correct decision from the start.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 24, 2014, 05:13:27 PM
Sometimes...on e has to be embarrassed and felt shame to learn - Yawg Soob Ntxawg.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 24, 2014, 05:20:30 PM
I change my mind....I am not fvcking Krazy but have the clearest perception on my journey through life and I intend to use it for maximum love, kindness, and understanding for everyone, including for myself.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 24, 2014, 06:27:03 PM
You cannot step into the same river twice - Heraclitus
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 24, 2014, 06:27:33 PM
No I am not in love.  I just remembered this song from a long time.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n_c7CAvIAD4# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n_c7CAvIAD4#)
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 24, 2014, 06:29:17 PM
I love this song the first time I heard it along time ago.  It reminds of a wonderful future I would have meeting and spending a life with the love of my life.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gvDwr9-MlfE# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gvDwr9-MlfE#)
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 24, 2014, 07:03:23 PM
To an amazingly talent person I know.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-HKh1eTWlhE# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-HKh1eTWlhE#)
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 24, 2014, 08:05:39 PM
Then out spake brave Horatius,
The Captain of the Gate:
"To every man upon this earth
Death cometh soon or late.
And how can man die better
Than facing fearful odds,
For the ashes of his fathers,
And the temples of his Gods."[4]
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 24, 2014, 08:08:07 PM
Christina's World.

http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/en/a/a2/Christinasworld.jpg (http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/en/a/a2/Christinasworld.jpg)
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 24, 2014, 08:33:29 PM
Don't ever forget that I am Neiman Marcus and Tiffany and nothing less.

Therefore act like it.  If someone wants to trade down to KMart and Wedding Day Diamond, let them and move on, because I know my worth and my value. 
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 24, 2014, 09:06:50 PM
Muddy Road

Tanzan and Ekido were once traveling together down a muddy road. A heavy rain was still falling.

Coming around a bend, they met a lovely girl in a silk kimono and sash, unable to cross the intersection.

"Come on, girl" said Tanzan at once. Lifting her in his arms, he carried her over the mud.

Ekido did not speak again until that night when they reached a lodging temple. Then he no longer could restrain himself. "We monks don't go near females," he told Tanzan, "especially not young and lovely ones. It is dangerous. Why did you do that?"

"I left the girl there," said Tanzan. "Are you still carrying her?"
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 25, 2014, 06:17:15 PM
Be independent of the good and bad opinion of others. - Wayne Dyer
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 25, 2014, 07:53:23 PM
I have made it as a beautiful strong soul, because

I have full confidence that I will begin today
and end today with clarity, humility and calm, and
I will bring joy, laughter and contentment to myself and others,
and I will give the best of me, independent of results,
to myself and to those around me always with empowerment,
with kind speech, with love, with kindness, with compassion,
with understanding and with forgiveness.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 25, 2014, 08:40:14 PM
Whoever fights monsters should see to it that in the process he does not become a monster. And if you gaze long enough into an abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you.

Thus do I counsel you, my friends: distrust all in whom the impulse to punish is powerful!

Friedrich Nietzsche

Interesting!!!


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Post by: Ajax616 on March 25, 2014, 09:13:40 PM
To an amazingly talent person I know.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-HKh1eTWlhE# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-HKh1eTWlhE#)

I never knew you at all, I wished you had trusted me enough to allow me to get to know and you .....to know me.

May you find your happiness and peace every single day.

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Post by: Ajax616 on March 25, 2014, 09:35:40 PM
There is no death......but a transformation of our energy, what we can and cannot see, into a form which no longer make sense in this world and in our human form.  Life is eternal and beyond our simple understanding.

Our fear of death is only fear of the unknown and our attachment to our familiar world.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 25, 2014, 09:36:35 PM
Whoever fights monsters should see to it that in the process he does not become a monster. And if you gaze long enough into an abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you.

Thus do I counsel you, my friends: distrust all in whom the impulse to punish is powerful!

Friedrich Nietzsche

Interesting!!!





So that is what was happening..... .I get it now........ Thank you so much Mr. Nietzsche for clarifying it for me.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 26, 2014, 05:25:32 PM
Confidence needs to be backed up with thoughts and hard work, or else it's only ego and rude.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 26, 2014, 05:26:24 PM
Have you ever thought, what if you're already in heaven....your wanting to be there or thinking that you're not there is making you not there.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 26, 2014, 05:28:01 PM
No one ever crosses me without my permission.... therefore no one can cross me at all.‏  Whatever they want to do, they can and I will walk away if it gets stupid enough, because you do not have my permission to rile me up.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 26, 2014, 05:30:36 PM
Come with a clear conscience with no expectations, but with reason and logic and you will not have suffering caused by the difference between expectations and reality.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 26, 2014, 08:03:16 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KOEXkaow0ko (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KOEXkaow0ko)

Discovering Buddhism Module1
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 26, 2014, 08:08:44 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dVF6IZ0M_hU (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dVF6IZ0M_hU)

Discovering Buddhism Module 2: How to meditate.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 26, 2014, 09:21:22 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ItX3PfZ2ZL4 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ItX3PfZ2ZL4)

Discovering Buddhism Module 3: Presenting the path.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 26, 2014, 09:24:22 PM
The Buddha may not have achieved enlightenment if he had not been born rich....If he was born poor, he may have used that extra ordinary intelligence and insight to become rich.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 26, 2014, 09:41:38 PM
My ex-wife use to tell me she loves me by saying "you're dumb."
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 27, 2014, 06:10:45 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oa0CMdNtbbo (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oa0CMdNtbbo)

Discovering Buddhism Module 4: The Spiritual Teacher.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 27, 2014, 08:46:22 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y9GnNOjFOP8 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y9GnNOjFOP8)

Discovering Buddhism Module 5: Death and Re-birth.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 27, 2014, 08:46:59 PM
Why? I don't get it. Isn't that a put down?  >:(

You should know, it's not what people say, but how they say it. :)
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 27, 2014, 08:53:36 PM
Continuity of consciousness. ......Buddhist idea.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 27, 2014, 08:54:47 PM
Ah, I see... Do you miss it?

It gives me a smile thinking about it, sometimes, but it's lost forever in the swamp.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 27, 2014, 09:13:04 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uy8MOMmk0KM (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uy8MOMmk0KM)

Discovering Buddhism Module 6: All About Kharma
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 28, 2014, 07:15:09 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=226w04QMPzQ (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=226w04QMPzQ)

Discovering Buddhism Module 7:  The three jewels.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 28, 2014, 07:25:24 PM
You  brought so much negative kharmic actions out of me, I couldn't believe it.  Thank you for testing me to show that I am still very vulnerable if I am not careful.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 28, 2014, 07:39:31 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=226w04QMPzQ (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=226w04QMPzQ)

Discovering Buddhism Module 7:  The three jewels.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=226w04QMPzQ (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=226w04QMPzQ)


Discovering Buddhism Module 7:  The three jewels.
[/quote

Listening to the these Buddhist teaching recently, I am seeing the carrot and the stick.  That's not true, but something for childish conditioning only.

I would hate to have the need to wear an orange robe all my life.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 28, 2014, 10:01:58 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K1S5ZVjN3J4 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K1S5ZVjN3J4)

I have been wanting to watch this movie for a while now.  Finally watched it tonight.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 28, 2014, 10:02:41 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hWjlUj7Czlk (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hWjlUj7Czlk)

My favorite Ethan Hawk movie.  Movie is better than the trailer.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 28, 2014, 10:04:02 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3cqJG-fOoTM (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3cqJG-fOoTM)

Favorite scene from one of my favorite movies of all time.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 28, 2014, 10:07:06 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MfwmJpSjhNI (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MfwmJpSjhNI)

My bags are packed for your exciting journey to the stars.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 28, 2014, 10:10:00 PM
Maybe it's best to stay in the swamp.

It's more than that.  It's ancient history.  It's another time, another place, and in another dimension now.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 28, 2014, 10:12:40 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Ws04VqqiZY (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Ws04VqqiZY)

Discovering Buddhism Module 8:  Establishing a daily practice.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 29, 2014, 09:57:48 AM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MU8B4XDI3Uw (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MU8B4XDI3Uw)

Just saw the singer hosting SNL.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 29, 2014, 10:01:40 AM
But on you will go
though the weather be foul.
On you will go
though my enemies prowl.
On you will go
though the Hakken-Kraks howl.
Onward up many
a frightening creek,
though your arms may get sore and your sneakers may leak.

- From Oh the Places you'll Go by Dr. Seus
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 29, 2014, 10:08:09 AM
Suffering = Difference (Reality - Expectation)

The greater the difference the greater the suffering, and we will do just about anything, and in most case our efforts are useless, to gap the difference by trying to change the reality to our sometimes miss guided expectation.  Suffering can easily be created with a lie from outside or inside.  That is why we get so mad when some tells us a lie.  It creates a gap in reality and expectations.  What is the real answer?  Maybe to manage our own internal Suffering (difference between reality an expectation), instead of worrying about someone.  Let us be our own judge, instead of judging someone else.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 29, 2014, 03:02:58 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mNkP-lOZxrk (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mNkP-lOZxrk)


She's got your eyes, she's got my nose
Oh and I get high just watching her grow
We always dreamed we'd live in a castle, oh but
We're in the same old shack


This song reminds me of my daughter and her wonderful journey to grow as a strong, kind, and wise individual.




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Post by: Ajax616 on March 29, 2014, 03:15:12 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=283of7l320E (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=283of7l320E)

Hooked on a feeling - Blue Swede
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 29, 2014, 07:27:44 PM
No matter how bad things are, we can begin to immediately make tomorrow with our thoughts. No matter how good things are, we can begin to immediately make tomorrow with our thoughts.  Therefore, we can always begin to make things better tomorrow with our thoughts.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 29, 2014, 08:03:45 PM
I was watching this the other day, and I thought it was so funny.

https://screen.yahoo.com/dateline-chopped-guy-000000353.html
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 29, 2014, 08:07:58 PM
Channing Tatum hosts SNL.

https://screen.yahoo.com/channing-tatum-monologue-customers-000000644.html
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 29, 2014, 08:14:41 PM
Steve Buscemi hosts SNL.

https://screen.yahoo.com/steve-buscemi-snl-skits/steve-buscemi-monologue-improvisation-000000546.html

https://screen.yahoo.com/steve-buscemi-snl-skits/steve-buscemi-monologue-character-actors-000000703.html
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 29, 2014, 08:28:08 PM
Chris Farley: Down By The River.

https://screen.yahoo.com/chris-farley-snl-skits/down-river-000000356.html


Chris Farley: Chippendales Audition

https://screen.yahoo.com/chris-farley-snl-skits/chippendales-audition-204009746.html
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 29, 2014, 08:43:59 PM
How to pick up chicks from 'Scarface'.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ORQJtxicrA (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ORQJtxicrA)
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 29, 2014, 08:48:44 PM
John Forbes Nash JR "let's skip to the sex."

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tTN-CVQuBR8 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tTN-CVQuBR8)
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 31, 2014, 05:14:23 PM
You Mustn't Quit
Taken from The Book Of Virtues by William J. Bennett

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest! If you must -- but never quit.

Life is queer, with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won if he'd stuck it out;
Stick to your task, though the pace seems slow--
You may succeed with one more blow.

Success is failure turned inside out--
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt--
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--
It's when things seem worse that you mustn't quit.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 31, 2014, 05:15:20 PM
You Mustn't Quit
Taken from The Book Of Virtues by William J. Bennett

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest! If you must -- but never quit.

Life is queer, with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won if he'd stuck it out;
Stick to your task, though the pace seems slow--
You may succeed with one more blow.

Success is failure turned inside out--
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt--
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--
It's when things seem worse that you mustn't quit.

What mustn't you quit on?  Finding and being your best self.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 31, 2014, 05:36:39 PM
HV, I have never told you this because we have never really talked, but I am so proud of you.  You have reached out with love and kindness and become a permanent part of our family. You're such a happy and friendly person, and a role model for us all.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 31, 2014, 08:32:31 PM
I am concern about you tonight.....yo u are so strong and for you to feel off, I am a little concern.  I hope you will come out of this much stronger than before, as usual.
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Post by: Ajax616 on March 31, 2014, 09:33:10 PM

Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss, you'll land among the stars.  ― Norman Vincent Peale
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 01, 2014, 09:17:58 PM
I am concern about you tonight.....yo u are so strong and for you to feel off, I am a little concern.  I hope you will come out of this much stronger than before, as usual.

I was glad and relieved to hear you sounding much better.  :)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 01, 2014, 09:20:02 PM
You told me that you do not feel guilty because you haven't done anything wrong......I know...... because I arrived at that conclusion awhile ago too.  You will be jeopardizing only your future, because that is what you will also attract to you.  People who have no guilt returning your negative favors.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 01, 2014, 09:23:11 PM
To an old friend, thank you for stopping by to visit.  I hope that I have answered all your questions.  I hope you know that it will be a very difficult road ahead, if you should chose this endeavor. It was great to see you and your wife together.  That is how couples should be all their life.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 01, 2014, 09:57:31 PM
Food is a substitution for the love that we are craving from our love ones, especially as children.  If we receive an abundant source of love and is happy.....we do not need food.  If we do not have that love, then we will fill it with food, and that may be a conditioning in our mind all our lives.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 02, 2014, 06:49:21 PM
My fortune for the day "You will have an exciting business adventure."

Thank you for taking the time to have dinner with me, my beautiful strong warrior.  You are so strong, smart, and wise.  I get high thinking about your beautiful future.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 02, 2014, 06:52:41 PM
I wrote this for my daughter and then I told her when I met her:

Suffering comes from difference between expectations and reality.  Therefore, if you want you an easier life, expect a hard and challenging life.  If you want a life filled with compassion and love, then expect to give the best of you to those that you meet, and expect nothing in return.  Challenge life and give, and you will have a very easy life.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 02, 2014, 06:54:23 PM
What is the worst thing that can happen to you in life? A meaningless life.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 02, 2014, 09:53:15 PM
https://screen.yahoo.com/christopher-walken-snl-skits/more-cowbell-174128899.html

Could I get a little more cowbell?
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 02, 2014, 10:01:14 PM
https://screen.yahoo.com/snl-current-season-skits/louis-monologue-061239778.html

Louis CK's SNL Monologue.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 03, 2014, 04:43:29 PM
Who am I really?.....the more negatively emotional charged I am, the more I am ground to this reality and will miss the overall picture.  I will miss the truth that love and kindness really drives all good things.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 04, 2014, 05:12:36 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OkOGQqwg0Tw (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OkOGQqwg0Tw)

I was walking outside and watching the snow melt.  The water were all running with no effort all and Bruce Lee's quote came my mind, but more I suddenly realized, "learn the subtle rules of success."  Be water and it all becomes effortless.  One needs no effort, because it will flow like water.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 04, 2014, 10:13:53 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=20zF8Ug0MjM (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=20zF8Ug0MjM)

Tears into pearls
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 04, 2014, 10:33:52 PM
Haha I was just thing about Bruce Lee today too. I was thinking about his quote  "Be like water"

Really?  What made you think of that quote?
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 04, 2014, 10:34:33 PM
Blaine the Train is Insane.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 05, 2014, 06:47:04 PM
I want to know if his theory or philosophy is accurate.!

Did you see and feel his influence in the World?
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Post by: ButterflyKisses on April 05, 2014, 08:17:59 PM
As age catches up with me, I am beginning to bend and become like water. 

Hello, Ajax.  My name is ButterflyKisse s.  You have beautiful insights into human nature.  What is the most profound thing you have discovered since you started on this journey to the stars?
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 05, 2014, 10:34:11 PM
As age catches up with me, I am beginning to bend and become like water. 

Hello, Ajax.  My name is ButterflyKisse s.  You have beautiful insights into human nature.  What is the most profound thing you have discovered since you started on this journey to the stars?

It's a big of a question.  Thank you for the kind compliment, but I don't have answer or maybe I am too embarrassed to give you an answer. Sorry. :)
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Post by: ButterflyKisses on April 05, 2014, 10:41:50 PM
Your writing and the clarity of your thoughts left me with nothing to say and nothing to add.  Very few people have the ability to make me speechless. 

I have only read a few of your writings, but it has touched me in a profound way.  I will be back to read the rest. 
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 06, 2014, 08:25:56 AM
As age catches up with me, I am beginning to bend and become like water. 

Hello, Ajax.  My name is ButterflyKisse s.  You have beautiful insights into human nature.  What is the most profound thing you have discovered since you started on this journey to the stars?

No we become like water, not because of age, but because it's the way for effortless success.  That was what came to my mind.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 06, 2014, 08:32:47 AM
Your writing and the clarity of your thoughts left me with nothing to say and nothing to add.  Very few people have the ability to make me speechless. 

I have only read a few of your writings, but it has touched me in a profound way.  I will be back to read the rest. 

Sometimes, you will find that I am a jumbo mess and that is why I write, to find patterns in the mess.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 06, 2014, 06:05:42 PM
My beautiful strong daughter who's a vegetarian made us Ratatouille tonight.  It was very interesting.  Thank you Bxxxx. 
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Post by: ButterflyKisses on April 06, 2014, 10:39:52 PM
No we become like water, not because of age, but because it's the way for effortless success.  That was what came to my mind.

Most of my life, I have been like an ice cube, but over the last few years, I have begin to learn to be more malleable, more like water. 

So what do you consider success?
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 07, 2014, 11:06:25 AM
Most of my life, I have been like an ice cube, but over the last few years, I have begin to learn to be more malleable, more like water. 

So what do you consider success?

It depends, internal or external success.  One should always start with Internal.
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Post by: ButterflyKisses on April 07, 2014, 04:54:48 PM
It depends, internal or external success.  One should always start with Internal.

Internal success has always been very personal and is often different for each person.  External success is a little bit more universal. 

What is one internal success that you have reached and how did you get there?  For me, it's understanding what it means to love me.  It is not the same as being selfish, but it could look like that to those looking in.  Like a lover whom we seek to please, the same concept should be applied to ourselves.  Love really is the greatest of all.  It is the foundation for such basic needs as joy, happiness, patience, tolerance, generosity, kindness, etc.  However, contrary to the popular belief that the love of a great woman or a great man is what makes all of these possible, it is the love of oneself, caring for oneself, meeting our own needs that cultivate a heart, mind, and soul that becomes the fertile ground to growing everything else.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 07, 2014, 04:58:33 PM
Internal success has always been very personal and is often different for each person.  External success is a little bit more universal. 

What is one internal success that you have reached and how did you get there?  For me, it's understanding what it means to love me.  It is not the same as being selfish, but it could look like that to those looking in.  Like a lover whom we seek to please, the same concept should be applied to ourselves.  Love really is the greatest of all.  It is the foundation for such basic needs as joy, happiness, patience, tolerance, generosity, kindness, etc.  However, contrary to the popular belief that the love of a great woman or a great man is what makes all of these possible, it is the love of oneself, caring for oneself, meeting our own needs that cultivate a heart, mind, and soul that becomes the fertile ground to growing everything else.

Wow, you have been doing some thinking.  :)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 07, 2014, 04:59:50 PM
I do pride myself on clarity of thought, but I still need work on clarity of action regarding certain small areas of my life.  That is the truth.
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Post by: ButterflyKisses on April 07, 2014, 05:08:50 PM
So, these thoughts, do you put them on a shelf and admire them from time to time?  Or do you plant them into your heart, water it, and hope that they take up roots and growing into something tangible that can benefit you and those around you?  For me, an idea, no matter how great it is, if not applied, it is nothing more than just an idea. 

Often times, when I talk to people, they always say, "I know.  I know." 

Great!  I am glad you know.  But are you using it?  Are you doing anything about it?  It's actions that give life to an idea.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 07, 2014, 05:31:31 PM
No matter how bad things are, we can begin to immediately make tomorrow with our thoughts. No matter how good things are, we can begin to immediately make tomorrow with our thoughts.  Therefore, we can always begin to make things better tomorrow with our thoughts.

I am reminded of the application of the above phrase today.  Thank you to myself for having wrote so that I could reference for this day. :)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 07, 2014, 07:18:02 PM
I am putting the dishes away, and I am reminded that those dishes were passionately washed by my beautiful girls yesterday.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 07, 2014, 07:25:47 PM
Thank you for teaching me that I should always follow my instincts when things do not make emotional sense.  It is less stressful and will generally lead to happiness for everyone in the long run.

I guess here we are.....thank you again.
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Post by: ButterflyKisses on April 07, 2014, 09:37:48 PM
The little things we do are the ones that leave behind an impression and remind people of us long after we are gone.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 08, 2014, 05:17:09 AM
"An insincere friend is more to be feared than a wild beast, a wild beast may wound body, but an insincere friend will wound your your heart and your mind."  - The Buddha

I have to accept that I cannot deal with an insincere friend and that I need to turn away immediately.  No you did not wound my heart or mind, I just naively thought that I can heal your pain.  We are exactly where I wanted to be lately and that makes me absolutely filled with joy.  Best wishes.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 08, 2014, 04:12:43 PM
Why is it that I failed....I wanted to satisfy my emotional suffering base on hope.... and I did not act on the beauty of sound reason and logic.  That is why I failed and that is why most people fails in the stock market. 

I will not fail, but excel in the market.  I will use that lesson and succeed where once I failed recently based on hope too. 

Cutting losers, and accepting losses, is the key to winning in the market..Cuttin g losers is also the key to personal success too.
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Post by: ButterflyKisses on April 08, 2014, 04:22:46 PM
The stock market is pretty scary.  If I have the chance, I would like to get into some real estate investment.  But I need to settle down in one place first.  Do you have anything in the real estate or only in the stock market?
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 08, 2014, 04:40:46 PM
The stock market is pretty scary.  If I have the chance, I would like to get into some real estate investment.  But I need to settle down in one place first.  Do you have anything in the real estate or only in the stock market?

We are scare of what we don't know.

My only focus is the stock market, and in the 2 weeks time frame period.  The only thing you really need to know about the stock market is that it's participants are people.  They drive the moves in the market.
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Post by: ButterflyKisses on April 08, 2014, 04:43:00 PM
My only focus is the stock market, and in the 2 weeks time frame period.

Really?  Just 2 weeks time frame period.  Is this what you do professionally or more on your personal time?  To play the market like that, you must have a lot of finesse. 
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 08, 2014, 04:50:59 PM
Really?  Just 2 weeks time frame period.  Is this what you do professionally or more on your personal time?  To play the market like that, you must have a lot of finesse. 

I took the conversation private. :)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 08, 2014, 04:59:06 PM
Re: The scorpion and the frog.

We needed to end because we are different, but thank you for coming and staying awhile.  Please have a blast and an exciting adventure while away from me.  I will too.

In this change, I am reminded of this quote from the Buddha, it will help me keep my solitude.  Everything changes, we should not desire to hold on to anything of this world.

"Behold, O monks, this is my last advice to you. All component things in the world are changeable. They are not lasting. Work hard to gain your own salvation."

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KgmSA6uL5z4&list=PL8F29888A9D718594 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KgmSA6uL5z4&list=PL8F29888A9D718594)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 08, 2014, 05:10:39 PM
Someone once very close gave me this song a long time ago, and it clicks in my head every now and then.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ac3HkriqdGQ (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ac3HkriqdGQ)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 08, 2014, 05:17:18 PM
The Buddha's Last Words

After the conversion of Subhadda, the Buddha spoke again to Venerable Ananda. "It may be, Ananda, that some of you will say, 'without the Buddha, the Sublime Teacher, there is no teacher for us'. No, Ananda, you should not think in this way. Whatever doctrine and discipline taught and made known by me will be your teacher when I am gone."

Then the Buddha, addressing the other monks said, "If any amongst you has any doubts as to the Buddha, the teaching, or the order of monks, ask me now so that afterwards you may have no cause to regret that you did not ask me while I was still with you."

But at these words, none of the monks said anything. None had any questions, and all of them were silent. For the second and third time the Buddha addressed the monks in this way. And for the second and third time, all the monks were silent.

The Buddha said, "Perhaps it may be out of respect for the teacher, that you do not question me. Let a friend, O disciples, tell it to another friend." Still the disciples remained silent.

Then Venerable Ananda spoke to the Buddha, "It is wonderful. It is marvellous, Lord! I do believe that in all this great company of monks there is not a single one who has doubts or questions about the Buddha, the teaching or the order of monks, or the path and the method of training and conduct."

"With you, Ananda," said the Buddha, "this may be a matter of faith and belief. But, Ananda, I know that not one single monk gathered here has any doubt or question about these things. Of all the 500 monks here, Ananda, he who is the most backward is a sotapanna, not subject to fall back to a lower state of existence, but is certain and destined for enlightenment."

Then the Buddha addressed all the monks once more, and these were the very last words he spoke:

"Behold, O monks, this is my last advice to you. All component things in the world are changeable. They are not lasting. Work hard to gain your own salvation."

Then the Buddha lapsed into the jhana stages, or meditative absorptions. Going from level to level, one after the other, ever deeper and deeper. Then he came out of the meditative absorption for the last time and passed into nirvana, leaving nothing whatever behind that can cause rebirth again in this or any other world.

The passing away, or the final nirvana of the Buddha, occurred in 543 BC on a full-moon day in the month of May, known in the Indian calendar as Vesak.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 08, 2014, 06:20:59 PM
A long time ago, I woke up to song playing, and it got trapped, programmed, or hypnotized into my subconsciousne ss mind, well because my conscious mind was asleep.

I woke up in the bedroom of my teenage wife then too.....so I am always reminded of our youth and what wonderful things would come our away....unfort unately now I know, both good and bad.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s6VaeFCxta8 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s6VaeFCxta8)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 08, 2014, 06:28:41 PM
I am getting a two year stress free opportunity in personal development.  I am so looking forward to making the best of it.  Because somewhere in there, I will launch HBLM too. Thank you so much now and hopefully I will thank you in the future that you would like too.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 08, 2014, 07:08:56 PM
I failed miserably today.. I'm so disappointed in myself. I will have to start next week. It's someone's birthday and I'm taking that person to eat dimsum this Saturday.  :P

And to think, my tough little thing did it for 28 days.  She is as tough as nails though.  You're funny.

You will succeed, but remember that is not something I would advise.  I prefer a more balance and happy route, with lasting quality.

Thank you for the update.  I am still cheering for you.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 08, 2014, 08:21:47 PM
Field of Dreams and a different path.

Dr. Graham: It was like coming this close to your dreams and then watch them brush past you like a stranger in a crowd. At the time, you don't think much of it. You know, we just don't recognize the most significant moments of our lives while they're happening. Back then I thought, 'Well, there'll be other days.' I didn't realize that that was the only day.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y9yrupye7B0 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y9yrupye7B0)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 08, 2014, 08:26:00 PM
Be wakeful and think.  Never let the fears or desires overwhelm your sense of logic.

A wonderful reminder.....t hat will get drowned in alcohol.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 08, 2014, 08:35:53 PM
Karma - Law of cause and effect.

Review the negative and positive actions of the day. Purify what needs to be purified.
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Post by: ButterflyKisses on April 09, 2014, 09:06:32 AM
Love, like unforgiveness, has the ability to make us prisoners of our own mind.  While the other person lives freely and happily, we shackled ourselves to the prisons of our minds.  The kicker is that we hold the key to our freedom. 
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 09, 2014, 06:12:14 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KnGo6Qm0Wt8 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KnGo6Qm0Wt8)

Sometimes it makes me wonder. :)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 09, 2014, 06:18:00 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HenZ4Z7w0qM (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HenZ4Z7w0qM)

One of my favorite scene from this movie.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 09, 2014, 06:19:21 PM
Your thirst can only be quench by your understanding, not by drinking more....seek understanding and not more water, and you'll be absolutely content.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 09, 2014, 06:20:21 PM
Saving aggravation why am I still pushing it, EGO or the reasons for many destructive behaviors, nothing left to win, except to lose.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 10, 2014, 04:48:20 PM
Life Lessons From Marina Keegan's Posthumous Book of Essays

1. Dont be afraid to recalibrate your goals.
In her introduction, Fadiman recounts a story told to her by Keegans parents, about a sailing competition Keegan had entered when she was 14. Though she was a junior sailor, Keegan believed she could beat everyone, no matter how much more experienced they were. But the day was stormy, with 40-knot winds and 3-foot waves that caused her boat to capsize repeatedly. Marinas original goal had been to win, Fadiman writes. Her new goal was to finish. She came in second to last, to incredulous applause. She was soaking wet, her hair was bedraggled, and her hands were bloody from gripping the lines.

2. Youre not alone in thinking youre unworthy. Just keep it in perspective.
Im so jealous. Unthinkable jealousies, jealousies of the Pulitzer Prize-winning novel Im reading and the Oscar-winning movie I just saw. Why didnt I think to rewrite Mrs. Dalloway? I should have thought to chronicle a schizophrenic ballerina. Its inexcusable. Everyone else is so successful, and I hate them. But, she adds, someday the sun is going to die and everything on Earth will freeze. This will happen. I used to think that printing things made them permanent, but that seems so silly now.

3. You dont have to pursue goals that you despise.
What bothers me is this idea of validation, of rationalizatio n. The notion that some of us (regardless of what we tell ourselves) are doing this because were not sure what else to do, she writes in an essay about how 25 percent of Yale grads would enter the consulting or finance industry. Thats super depressing! I dont understand why no one is talking about it. I feel like we can do something really cool to this world. And I fear at twenty-three, twenty-four, twenty-five we might forget.

4. Value life all of it.
People are strange about animals. Especially large ones, she writes in one essay. Daily, on the docks of Wellfleet Harbor, thousands of fish are scaled, gutted, and seasoned with thyme and lemon. No one strokes their sides with water. No one cries when their jaws slip open. I worry sometimes that humans are afraid of helping humans. Theres less risk associated with animals, less fear of failure, fear of getting too involved.

5. Its never too late (even if youre not in your 20s).
What we have to remember is that we can still do anything. We can change our minds, she writes in the books titular essay. We can start over. Get a post-bac or try writing for the first time. The notion that its too late to do anything is comical. Its hilarious. Were graduating from college. Were so young. We cant, we MUST not lose this sense of possibility because in the end, its all we have.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 10, 2014, 05:27:28 PM
Re: Scorpion and Frog,

No matter what has happened, I do truly wish you a bright and wonderful journey.  You and I need to stay away from each other and stop talking for awhile.  Your family and your happiness will always be in mind.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 10, 2014, 05:29:08 PM
Zen in Trading:  "Just like archery, whenever there is effort, force, struggling, straining, or trying, it's wrong"  Trader X, by Jack Schwagger.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 10, 2014, 05:32:34 PM
"Even if I do tomorrow I have no regrets, because I have you." - From a beautiful life

Who can you say that about?  The only persons I can think of, with all my heart and no reservations at all, are my wonderful and strong kids.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 10, 2014, 07:39:44 PM
I still want to hear more of that story that you told.. I love that story... about the woman that became a monk.  :'(

I think I wrote the best that I could now it's time to write it in real life so hopefully one day, she will find true happiness.  Thank you for the encouragement.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 10, 2014, 09:20:12 PM
Untruths make matters three times worst.  The truth makes a bad situation half as bad immediately. 
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 11, 2014, 06:43:45 PM
"Only a man who has been defeated can come up with the extra ounce of energy it takes to win." - Muhummad Ali
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 11, 2014, 06:53:55 PM
"Once a story is told, it can never grow old." - From a song

"You can't step into the same river twice." - Heraclitus


Our story has been told and we can't step into it again.....I guess that is it.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 11, 2014, 06:55:44 PM
Genes get turned off and on in one life time, if it's not use.  Fish has gone blind by being in darkness.  Children has become for prone to heart conditions through lack of love.  Love, kindness, and giving are keys to making the next generation stronger.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 11, 2014, 06:57:44 PM
Why do I shut this to the max...because there is a very dark side of you, not worth keeping who has the wonderful person hijacked.  That is why.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 11, 2014, 07:00:05 PM
One day two women[a] came to King Solomon, 17 and one of them said:

Your Majesty, this woman and I live in the same house. Not long ago my baby was born at home, 18 and three days later her baby was born. Nobody else was there with us.

19 One night while we were all asleep, she rolled over on her baby, and he died. 20 Then while I was still asleep, she got up and took my son out of my bed. She put him in her bed, then she put her dead baby next to me.

21 In the morning when I got up to feed my son, I saw that he was dead. But when I looked at him in the light, I knew he wasnt my son.

22 No! the other woman shouted. He was your son. My baby is alive!

The dead baby is yours, the first woman yelled. Mine is alive!

They argued back and forth in front of Solomon, 23 until finally he said, Both of you say this live baby is yours. 24 Someone bring me a sword.

A sword was brought, and Solomon ordered, 25 Cut the baby in half! That way each of you can have part of him.

26 Please dont kill my son, the babys mother screamed. Your Majesty, I love him very much, but give him to her. Just dont kill him.

The other woman shouted, Go ahead and cut him in half. Then neither of us will have the baby.

27 Solomon said, Dont kill the baby. Then he pointed to the first woman, She is his real mother. Give the baby to her.

28 Everyone in Israel was amazed when they heard how Solomon had made his decision. They realized that God had given him wisdom to judge fairly.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 11, 2014, 07:19:48 PM
Everything you want is as a result of the fact that you think you are a human being....what if you are more...what would you want?‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 11, 2014, 07:20:17 PM
I am sorry I couldn't help us, but that is what happens when our entire relationship was laced with untruth. I don't even know who we were.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 11, 2014, 07:21:55 PM
Out of our team of 25 people, I am connectedness at the highest level of 5, the next closest person is a 3.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 12, 2014, 06:01:47 PM
Confidence.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UQutReRyF70&list=PLA309A4411A1164A4 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UQutReRyF70&list=PLA309A4411A1164A4)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 12, 2014, 06:02:54 PM
Failure.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=__V6z-ZzDRU&index=7&list=PLA309A4411A1164A4 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=__V6z-ZzDRU&index=7&list=PLA309A4411A1164A4)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 12, 2014, 06:03:48 PM
Courage.

If you're not courageous enough to take risk, you will accomplish nothing in this life. - Muhammad Ali

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sskfUWDO5AU&list=PLA309A4411A1164A4 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sskfUWDO5AU&list=PLA309A4411A1164A4)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 12, 2014, 06:06:59 PM
Perseverance.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bcv7U8juFOg&list=PLA309A4411A1164A4 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bcv7U8juFOg&list=PLA309A4411A1164A4)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 12, 2014, 06:29:05 PM
I know I am in love when I don't want to sleep, because my life is better than a dream.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XN5-6W_h3-o (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XN5-6W_h3-o)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 12, 2014, 06:30:44 PM
There are two kinds of failure: Those who thought and never did, and those who did and never thought. - Lawrence J Peter.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 12, 2014, 06:36:51 PM
It is not because things are difficult that we do not dare...It is because we do not dare that things are difficult. - Seneca
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 13, 2014, 10:28:55 AM
When the body suffers and weakens, the soul and the mind strengthens get stronger.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 13, 2014, 10:30:56 AM
Keep a memory of me, not of the half enlighten being or someone on an amazing journey to the stars, but as a man fallable and flawed. - adapted from Beowulf
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 13, 2014, 11:01:38 AM
Love Jason Segel, from How I met your mother.


https://screen.yahoo.com/jason-segel-muppets-monologue-000000113.html
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 13, 2014, 11:05:16 AM
Jonah Hill....


https://screen.yahoo.com/snl-monologues/jonah-hill-monologue-082210620.html
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 13, 2014, 11:06:07 AM
Jim Parsons...


https://screen.yahoo.com/snl-monologues/jim-parsons-monologue-075825028.html
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 13, 2014, 12:58:53 PM
Bob Procter.....

"Thought waves are cosmic waves that penetrate all time and space."  - Bob Procter.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MulLAfffQoQ&list=PL2E27A774527CAA92 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MulLAfffQoQ&list=PL2E27A774527CAA92)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 13, 2014, 09:10:52 PM
I still think you are truly amazingly talented.  Wished we could have met, built trust, and I would have gotten to know and you me too.  You would have found out that I could have saved you.

You invested so much in me, for your own good, I wish you hadn't thrown it away the next day. 
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 13, 2014, 09:39:45 PM
Because the manager is compensated with a profits interest in the fund, the bulk of its income from the fund is taxed, not as compensation for services, but as a return on investment. Typically, when a partner receives a profits interest (commonly referred to as a "carried interest"), the partner is not taxed upon receipt, due to the difficulty of ascertaining the present value of an interest in future profits.[5] Instead, the partner is taxed as the partnership earns income. In the case of a hedge fund, this means that the partner defers taxation on the income that the hedge fund earns, which is typically ordinary income (or possibly short-term capital gains), due to the nature of the investments most hedge funds make. Private equity funds, however, typically invest on a longer horizon, with the result that income earned by the funds is long-term capital gain, taxable to individuals at a maximum 20% rate. Because the 20% profits share typically is the bulk of the managers compensation, and because this compensation can reach, in the case of the most successful funds, enormous figures, concern has been raised, both in Congress and in the media, that managers are taking advantage of tax loopholes to receive what is effectively a salary without paying the ordinary 39.6% marginal income tax rates that an average person would have to pay on such income.[4] To address this concern, Congressman Sander M. Levin introduced H.R. 2834, which would eliminate the ability of persons performing investment adviser or similar services to partnerships to receive capital gains tax treatment on their income.[6] However, the Treasury Department has suggested, both in testimony before the Senate Finance Committee[7] and in public speaking engagements,[8] that altering the tax treatment of a single industry raises tax policy concerns, and that changing the way partnerships in general are taxed is something that should only be done after careful consideration of the potential impact.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 14, 2014, 06:55:39 PM
Never borrow your friends money, but give it to them.   - Oprah Winfrey
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 14, 2014, 09:03:25 PM
http://www.businessinsider.com/hedge-fund-tax-loophole-is-outrageous-2012-1 (http://www.businessinsider.com/hedge-fund-tax-loophole-is-outrageous-2012-1)

Carried Interest, instead of fees.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 14, 2014, 09:05:06 PM
http://www.nationalmemo.com/its-time-to-get-rid-of-americas-most-indefensible-tax-break/ (http://www.nationalmemo.com/its-time-to-get-rid-of-americas-most-indefensible-tax-break/)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 15, 2014, 05:13:00 PM
Can you give me some $$$? hehe  how are you tonight?

That's if, if I have some money....The money ran out a long time ago.  That is why I ran out of friends too. :)

I think you need some food, instead.

I am doing very good and you?
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 15, 2014, 05:21:15 PM
Sad that people only know you when you can help them out.  :'( I guess, its good to be poor so no one depend on you or bother you. I am doing well. Nice day with a slight breeze. Are you at home?

I am home studying..  I am just kidding about the money and the friendship.  Don't be so sad.  Yes it is a very nice day, and I hear tomorrow will even be nicer.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 15, 2014, 06:13:18 PM
Just know that I don't care if you don't have a penny to your name, I would still be your friend. lol I have not watch the news yet.... I've been so out of these days.

I didn't watch the news either.....I actually went online for a five day forecast. :)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 15, 2014, 09:56:16 PM
Lately, I am reminded of this quote:

An insincere friend is more to be feared than a wild beast, a wild beast may wound your body, but an insincere friend will wound your heart and your mind. - The Buddha.

I should not have taken this warning too lightly.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 15, 2014, 09:58:28 PM
Thank you for the wonderful opportunity to create good karmic actions tonight.  I know I am good, and thank you for the opportunity to demonstrate it, because I needed it. :)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 16, 2014, 10:23:15 PM
Red Flag....Funny


https://screen.yahoo.com/red-flag-000000452.html

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Post by: Ajax616 on April 16, 2014, 10:24:43 PM
Laser Cats 7, with Steven Spielberg


https://screen.yahoo.com/digital-short-laser-cats-7-000000999.html
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 16, 2014, 10:45:35 PM
We both are were stuck in Karma fluctuations.. ..karma cannot be stopped with force, but like anything with understanding. ....It will stop, because nothing good will come from further karma fluctuations between us.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 16, 2014, 10:45:58 PM
If we go, let's all die on our feet and on the field, not on our knees and in the stand watching.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 16, 2014, 10:46:30 PM
Should I paint it in the sky for you...that dwelling on your past will destroy your future.?
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 16, 2014, 10:47:04 PM
What is a good indication of a good and decent human being.....havi ng awesome and empowered kids.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 17, 2014, 07:21:12 PM
The reason we'll win for decades or 100 years to come is that human emotions are much stronger than reason and logic in the short run......It is part of our subconscious mind.‏

Through each day in the market, we capture the difference.  When I really think about it, that is what all the great investors and traders do anyway.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 17, 2014, 07:22:30 PM
People do not die of old age or sickness , but of shame.....or they ran out of ideas and reasons for living.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 17, 2014, 07:22:56 PM
My view of life is very clear and it all rests on love and kindness...and it will stay that way for the rest of my life.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 17, 2014, 07:24:25 PM
There is a balance in nature and in life that cannot be easily......ov ercome and if overcame will have repercussions down the road which we did not expect or want, because we would destroyed the balance in nature, our reason to live.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 17, 2014, 07:27:27 PM
Thank you to my beautiful strong warrior for inviting me to Northrop Auditorium to see Condaleezza Rice speak.  Thank you to Condaleezza Rice for taking your time to stop by and emphasizing the next civil rights movement.  Hopefully maybe I can find a purpose out of your enlightening talk.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Condoleezza_Rice (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Condoleezza_Rice)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 17, 2014, 07:30:34 PM
Anyone ever taken the Strength Finder......

Out of the four themes that was given to us (I am not sure if there's more).

I am the only one who was 5 on the Impacting Theme, the next closest in our group of 30, was a 3.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 17, 2014, 07:32:23 PM
Yesterday, I saw a play....called 'The Shadow War' about the Hmong Secret War in Laos.

http://www.brownpapertickets.com/event/581017 (http://www.brownpapertickets.com/event/581017)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 17, 2014, 09:02:10 PM
Only a man whos been defeated can come up with the extra ounce of energy it takes to win. Muhammad Ali
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 17, 2014, 09:05:57 PM
Ask yourself, "what kind of person am I becoming because of this relationship?" - Les Brown
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 18, 2014, 06:17:57 AM

I see.. are we expecting any rain this week? I want to go walking again... when the weather is nice.

Haven't you heard of?  "Do not wait for the storm to pass, but learn to dance in the rain."
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 18, 2014, 07:20:58 AM
Have you ever wanted to be one of the best in the world at something?

If nothing comes to your mind for now....be a world class person.

I do and I know what that is.....no it's no free solo climbing, but that is only an aspiration.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SR1jwwagtaQ (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SR1jwwagtaQ)

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Post by: Ajax616 on April 18, 2014, 10:49:19 AM
Since it's divided we stand, and united we fall:

Beautiful warrior, on your exciting and awesome journey to the stars, have an amazing time away from me. Your peace, happiness, and laughter will be in my thoughts always.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 18, 2014, 10:53:17 AM
A video from my sister this morning....Tha nk you loving me enough to cut me down.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rr8xvw0cgw0#t=35 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rr8xvw0cgw0#t=35)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 18, 2014, 10:55:51 AM
Persistence: My amazing journey to the stars.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lJ3C9SP8xRE&index=4&list=PLA309A4411A1164A4 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lJ3C9SP8xRE&index=4&list=PLA309A4411A1164A4)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 18, 2014, 11:14:55 AM
Adam Hewison: 10 Golden Rules of Trading.

1.   You must have a game plan
2.   Follow the game plan
3.   Stop losses
4.   Diversifying in markets that arent correlated
5.   Filter your trades an edge, capture the big moves
6.   Trade with the trend, we trade with that and the emotions of the market
7.   Do not listen to the news, just pay attention to what the market itself is doing at that moment.
8.   Do not listen to your brokers
9.   Money management
10.   Discipline, all we do is discipline to our game plan
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 18, 2014, 11:16:33 AM

A video from my sister this morning....Tha nk you loving me enough to cut me down.

Willing to accept and seek corrections

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rr8xvw0cgw0#t=35 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rr8xvw0cgw0#t=35)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 18, 2014, 11:19:29 AM
Partake and enjoy the abundant feast.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vV2YlnbXgAs&feature=youtu.be (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vV2YlnbXgAs&feature=youtu.be)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 18, 2014, 12:04:10 PM
A thousand candles can be lit from a single candle, and the life of the candle will not be shorten. - The Buddha
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 18, 2014, 12:27:07 PM
Thank you to a stranger, Kathy, I met for allowing me the opportunity to help you.  I hope you are having an awesome day.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 19, 2014, 08:24:32 AM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QBwqdA7_4lo (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QBwqdA7_4lo)

"Goodbye Yellow Brick Road"

When are you gonna come down
When are you going to land
I should have stayed on the farm
I should have listened to my old man

You know you can't hold me forever
I didn't sign up with you
I'm not a present for your friends to open
This boy's too young to be singing the blues

So goodbye yellow brick road
Where the dogs of society howl
You can't plant me in your penthouse
I'm going back to my plough

Back to the howling old owl in the woods
Hunting the horny back toad
Oh I've finally decided my future lies
Beyond the yellow brick road

What do you think you'll do then
I bet that'll shoot down your plane
It'll take you a couple of vodka and tonics
To set you on your feet again

Maybe you'll get a replacement
There's plenty like me to be found
Mongrels who ain't got a penny
Sniffing for tidbits like you on the ground
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 19, 2014, 08:29:37 AM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zSAJ0l4OBHM (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zSAJ0l4OBHM)

"A Horse With No Name"

On the first part of the journey
I was looking at all the life
There were plants and birds and rocks and things
There was sand and hills and rings
The first thing I met was a fly with a buzz
And the sky with no clouds
The heat was hot and the ground was dry
But the air was full of sound

I've been through the desert on a horse with no name
It felt good to be out of the rain
In the desert you can remember your name
'Cause there ain't no one for to give you no pain
La, la ...

After two days in the desert sun
My skin began to turn red
After three days in the desert fun
I was looking at a river bed
And the story it told of a river that flowed
Made me sad to think it was dead

You see I've been through the desert on a horse with no name
It felt good to be out of the rain
In the desert you can remember your name
'Cause there ain't no one for to give you no pain
La, la ...

After nine days I let the horse run free
'Cause the desert had turned to sea
There were plants and birds and rocks and things
there was sand and hills and rings
The ocean is a desert with it's life underground
And a perfect disguise above
Under the cities lies a heart made of ground
But the humans will give no love

You see I've been through the desert on a horse with no name
It felt good to be out of the rain
In the desert you can remember your name
'Cause there ain't no one for to give you no pain
La, la ...

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/A_Horse_with_No_Name (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/A_Horse_with_No_Name)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 19, 2014, 08:35:54 AM
Do not ever become emotionally desperate for someone or take advantage of someone else' emotional desperation... .
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 19, 2014, 08:36:44 AM
Everyone wants to become legit....just be legit in the first place.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 19, 2014, 08:44:28 AM
The Yoda Effect:

Luke Skywalker, "I can't believe it."

Yoda, "That is why you fail."

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8EwcYwax4Oo (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8EwcYwax4Oo)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 19, 2014, 08:46:55 AM
The Butterfly Effect: The little butterfly from your past that I asked you to not bring into our relationship, flapped its wing....in time it brew and grew into a storm, and here we are.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 19, 2014, 08:50:15 AM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CXTa8taaNvI (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CXTa8taaNvI)

Elton John's music on my mind today:  I guess that's why they call it the blue.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 20, 2014, 07:36:31 PM
Do not completely track people's communication, but their course of actions.  Their communication could contain beautify lies, while their actions dictates what is in their hearts.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 20, 2014, 09:11:45 PM
Make people feel good for having met you, and do not take advantage of their emotional desperation.

Do not become desperate, or I will be taken advantage of, always maintain my internal calm.  Don't let anyone put me in a bind.

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Post by: Ajax616 on April 20, 2014, 09:12:15 PM
The more you say no, the more they want it. - From American Hustle.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 20, 2014, 09:33:37 PM
Thank you to my beautiful and handsome warriors for running with me today.  Thank you to my big beautiful warrior for taking charge and running yesterday with your sister and then again with me in the evening.  You make me proud every day.  I get high watching you become a wise and strong human being and also watching your amazing journey to the stars.

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Post by: Ajax616 on April 21, 2014, 04:08:46 PM
 Finding a Diamond on a Muddy Road

Gudo was the emperor's teacher of his time. Nevertheless, he used to travel alone as a wandering mendicant. Once when he was on his way to Edo, the cultural and political center of the shogunate, he approached a little village named Takenaka. It was evening and a heavy rain was falling. Gudo was thoroughly wet. His straw sandals were in pieces. At a farmhouse near the village he noticed four or five pairs of sandals in the window and decided to buy some dry ones.

The woman who offered him the sandals, seeing how wet he was, invited him in to remain for the night in her home. Gudo accepted, thanking her. He entered and recited a sutra before the family shrine. He was then introduced to the women's mother, and to her children. Observing that the entire family was depressed, Gudo asked what was wrong.

"My husband is a gambler and a drunkard," the housewife told him. "When he happens to win he drinks and becomes abusive. When he loses he borrows money from others. Sometimes when he becomes thoroughly drunk he does not come home at all. What can I do?"

"I will help him," said Gudo. "Here is some money. Get me a gallon of fine wine and something good to eat. Then you may retire. I will meditate before the shrine."

When the man of the house returned about midnight, quite drunk, he bellowed: "Hey, wife, I am home. Have you something for me to eat?"

"I have something for you," said Gudo. "I happened to be caught in the rain and your wife kindly asked me to remain here for the night. In return I have bought some wine and fish, so you might as well have them."

The man was delighted. He drank the wine at once and laid himself down on the floor. Gudo sat in meditation beside him.

In the morning when the husband awoke he had forgotten about the previous night. "Who are you? Where do you come from?" he asked Gudo, who was still meditating.

"I am Gudo of Kyoto and I am going on to Edo," replied the Zen master.

The man was utterly ashamed. He apologized profusely to the teacher of his emperor.

Gudo smiled. "Everything in this life is impermanent," he explained. "Life is very brief. If you keep on gambling and drinking, you will have no time left to accomplish anything else, and you will cause your family to suffer too."

The perception of the husband awoke as if from a dream. "You are right," he declared. "How can I ever repay you for this wonderful teaching! Let me see you off and carry your things a little way."

"If you wish," assented Gudo.

The two started out. After they had gone three miles Gudo told him to return. "Just another five miles," he begged Gudo. They continued on.

"You may return now," suggested Gudo.

"After another ten miles," the man replied.

"Return now," said Gudo, when the ten miles had been passed.

"I am going to follow you all the rest of my life," declared the man.

Modern Zen teachings in Japan spring from the lineage of a famous master who was the successor of Gudo. His name was Mu-nan, the man who never turned back.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 21, 2014, 04:16:14 PM
Sidartha,

I think one of your greatest attribute is your generosity. Thank you for sharing your awesome insight of awakening.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 21, 2014, 05:19:57 PM
The True Destination in life is the becoming of a confident, kind, and empowered individual.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 21, 2014, 06:11:09 PM
Sometimes I think you're afraid of me, because you think I would take away your freedom.  If only you realize that it is my intention to truly give you your freedom.  Freedom cannot be taken, but only achieved through understanding.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 21, 2014, 06:13:10 PM
Something borrowed Flashback and Rejection:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c3OGivKM-6M (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c3OGivKM-6M)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 21, 2014, 08:29:05 PM
Life is not define by the number of breaths that we take, but by the number of moments that take our breath away. - XXXXXXXX
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 21, 2014, 08:31:21 PM
Emotional decisions are reckless (WOW).....that is what I have been learning so far.  Emotions has to be a slave to reason and logic, or else the consequences will be disastrous.  Charge your emotions to be in sync to reason and logic.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 21, 2014, 08:53:39 PM
Musashi VS Demon of the western provinces

Muhammad Ali VS George Foreman

Me VS the stock market


Well thought out strategies and its executions wins.  Emotional decisions, no matter how strong it seem or good intention, loses.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 21, 2014, 09:00:12 PM
Something borrowed:  First Love Confession.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vkurfHbLXH4 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vkurfHbLXH4)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 21, 2014, 09:14:42 PM
Matt Foley in Prison

https://screen.yahoo.com/matt-foley-motivational-speaker-snl-skits/matt-foley-prison-000000871.html
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 21, 2014, 09:19:27 PM
Buddha's Goal: Ultimate freedom and benefit all living beings.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 22, 2014, 04:44:43 PM
Confidence makes things come true:  Thank you Mxxxx for showing me that, when the Easter Bunny showed up.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 22, 2014, 09:48:18 PM
I am learning so much from my study of the market....and I am thinking that I need to turn that inquisitive mind inward on my failure of the last two relationship.  Part of the failure is my inability to properly do what I should have done, until it's too late.

X, I should not have dug that one up.  That one was best left alone as it was.  I dug that one up to deal with Y.
Y, Two lies and I should have been gone.  Untruth creates too much gap in reality and expectations, a painful gap.
 
As with the market, use reason and logic to guide my actions and at the same time, never break a rule of love and kindness and of the ways of life.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 23, 2014, 05:46:33 PM
I am wrong, because I destroyed too much on my way out.....I have to preserve what is worth preserving.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 23, 2014, 05:47:21 PM
I need to overcome such silly situations as the one last time by walking away......walk ing away.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 23, 2014, 05:48:56 PM
Hey you....why is life so hard and difficult....."It's because I can't do what I need to do, due to the fact I wanted an easy life."‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 23, 2014, 05:49:26 PM
People who live in fear and darkness only understand fear and darkness, that is why they need protection.... live in the light and nothing will harm you.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 23, 2014, 07:23:42 PM
I live in the world of "I can"

I live in the world of "I will give"

I have no excuses to fail from within.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 23, 2014, 09:47:29 PM
There is no failure in life:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=__V6z-ZzDRU&list=PL59CD0CF2AD5EDD60&index=7 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=__V6z-ZzDRU&list=PL59CD0CF2AD5EDD60&index=7)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 24, 2014, 04:47:51 PM
I pulled something - from Something Borrowed


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IxjQ6E0Bu4c (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IxjQ6E0Bu4c)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 24, 2014, 08:35:50 PM
I hardly regret much, because I am too busy thinking about today and tomorrow, but my few regrets are not showing enough kindness and not using enough of my mind to end unpleasant friendships.

I have to learn to be better when walking away to walk away with kindness and dignity, doesn't matter how bad the other has been.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 24, 2014, 08:58:05 PM
Guardians of the Galaxy

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b3isCLVghoI&list=PL8F29888A9D718594 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b3isCLVghoI&list=PL8F29888A9D718594)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 24, 2014, 09:13:54 PM
Thank you for my continue growth and understanding in the stock market.  It is all making so much sense to me now.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 24, 2014, 09:36:04 PM
I started watching this show while flying back and forth between Dallas and  Minneapolis.  Now I finally met the mother.

http://www.cbs.com/shows/how_i_met_your_mother/video/eIyUVM06lfYl5givPuYutzDDDq3wkTwV/how-i-met-your-mother-last-forever-parts-one-and-two/ (http://www.cbs.com/shows/how_i_met_your_mother/video/eIyUVM06lfYl5givPuYutzDDDq3wkTwV/how-i-met-your-mother-last-forever-parts-one-and-two/)

And I just learned that all this time that he's telling the story the mother has been gone for 6 years now. :(
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 24, 2014, 09:44:32 PM
Tell them why gut feel is wrong.....buyi ng on dips and selling into rallies.‏  It's a poor excuse for lacking a complete strategy for entry....and for exit too.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 25, 2014, 08:07:23 PM
I knew I was the greatest even before I became the greatest - Muhammad Ali
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 25, 2014, 08:11:12 PM
All our problems stem from the fact that we are not doing or cannot bring ourselves to do what we should do and accept doing what everyone else is doing.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 25, 2014, 08:11:33 PM
How do you know when you are full?‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 25, 2014, 08:12:14 PM
JNPR be more aggressive? Because TGT entry was lower?‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 25, 2014, 08:13:25 PM
It's not how good you are that matters....it's people's perception of how good you are that matters. We are all colored or blinded by our misguided perception.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 25, 2014, 08:13:44 PM
My biggest regret regarding you is that I did not have the wisdom to stop a thief from stealing her future away.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 25, 2014, 08:14:01 PM
Once an entry gets trigger, the order will mostly be filled too.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 25, 2014, 08:14:43 PM
Lesson from Walden.....you can do whatever you want as long as it makes sense to you.‏  Or even change your mind later.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 25, 2014, 08:15:26 PM
Suffering...th e suffering is internal (heart and mind) and not external (physical world). solve it inside and you will solve it outside with ease.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 25, 2014, 08:18:40 PM
This is so much more funny in the theater


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EevoRUakA88 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EevoRUakA88)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 26, 2014, 09:43:31 AM
Re: The Scorpion and the Frog:

Believe it or not, I am trying to learn to be a better man out of this.  I have so much time now to study the market, thank you for that, and I am reflecting on it and actually asking what I can do or how I can be better.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 26, 2014, 02:52:49 PM
The Turbulence of going up - by Les Brown

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ttCafmyrY84&list=PL0D1ED2508404C02C (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ttCafmyrY84&list=PL0D1ED2508404C02C)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 27, 2014, 10:25:33 AM
Dare and the World yields, or it it beats you sometimes, dare it again and you will succeed. - William Makepeace Thackery
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 27, 2014, 03:24:48 PM
DARE:

Great results require great ambitions.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 27, 2014, 03:37:24 PM
"If you want a thing bad enough to go out and fight for it,
to work day and night for it,
to give up your time, your peace and your sleep for it......

If all that you dream and scheme is about it,
and life seems useless and worthless without it....

If you glad sweat for it and fret for it and plan for it,
and lose all your terror of the opposition for it....

If you simply go after that thing you want,
with all of your capacity, strength and sagacity,
faith, hope and confidence and stern pertinacity... .

If neither cold, poverty, famine, nor gout,
sickness nor pain, of body and brain,
can keep you away from the thing that you want...

If dogged and grim, you beseech and beset it,
with the help of God, you will get it!"

- Les Brown
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 27, 2014, 07:33:08 PM
I wish you and I could watch Cosmos together so that we could come to the understanding of where we came from, discover our beginning together so that we would have the same understanding  of where we are going, together.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 27, 2014, 10:02:00 PM
To L,

I think you are very strong and getting stronger with each day.  Thank you for running with me in the rain today. I hope you embrace new things and new understanding and continue to grow each day.  You are one of the kindest person I have ever met.  You are such a beautiful person that sometimes I find it hard to imagine that you do not know how beautiful you are, and it almost makes me laugh.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 28, 2014, 04:39:28 PM
When someone cries.....some thing inside dies and something else, that will not make them cry, is born.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 28, 2014, 04:41:06 PM
Patterns may change, like the January effect, but the essence of our trading strategy will not change......as long as people make trading decisions.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 28, 2014, 04:42:25 PM
I think the reason that I am feeling a little low is that sometimes I forget "Silence is Golden."  Let it stay inside, if its wonderful.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 28, 2014, 04:43:06 PM
Could it be as easily as power corrupting a woman's mind.....if you want to test someone give them power?
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 28, 2014, 04:43:29 PM
Religion tries to create both the sickness and the cure at the same time.....creat ing a suffering that can be met through a given cure, theirs.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 28, 2014, 04:44:34 PM
It, being wonderful, will only exist in my heart, because that is where it counts the most. To say it, will easily bring in the EGO.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 29, 2014, 04:50:07 PM
Define OEXT for different VIX situations, an error on the side with VIX.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 29, 2014, 05:01:17 PM
"If we could bring ourselves to state the truth about a situation, then as the old saying goes....the truth shall set us free." - Jim Rohn

The truth was that it really, for lack of a better word, sucked.  That is why it is no longer here.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 29, 2014, 08:41:17 PM
Soft landings is best, as the FED would say.  That was a hard landing, but regardless a landing. :)
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 29, 2014, 08:43:50 PM
I will have made it as a world class trader when I am able to execute my trading plan and allow the market to judge my trades, without interference or expectations.‏ As Stephen Cohen would say, trade my theory and let the market tell me if I am right or wrong.  Then complete accept all results.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 29, 2014, 08:45:40 PM
The person that will come into my life will be special and I will not settle for less than that. She will challenge me to be better person and stronger person.
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Post by: Ajax616 on April 30, 2014, 09:14:39 PM
Mark Douglas:

1. Anything can happen
2. You don't need to know what is going to happen next in order to make money
3. There is a random distribution between wins and losses for any given set of variables that define an edge
4. An edge is nothing more than an indication of a higher probability of one thing happening over another
5. Every moment in the market is unique
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 01, 2014, 08:33:13 PM
With people who lies, there's no need to ask for the truth, because there isn't any truth, but it is best for everyone, to walk away immediately.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 01, 2014, 08:33:26 PM
Mark Douglas: Rigid Rules and Flexible Expectations
The best traders have evolve to the point where
they believe, without a shred of doubt or internal
conflict, that Anything can happen.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 04, 2014, 08:20:24 PM
While having lunch with my daughter, my fortune cookie read "The current year will bring you much happiness."
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 04, 2014, 08:27:53 PM
Thank you to my beautiful strong warriors for an awesome and challenging time this weekend.  You're all so strong and smart, and it makes me proud.  Thank you and have a wonderful week.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 04, 2014, 08:29:45 PM
How to not get your a$$ kicked by the police.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=igQDvYOt_iA (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=igQDvYOt_iA)
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 04, 2014, 08:50:19 PM
Chris Rock: White girls.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f3dVc2btTSQ (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f3dVc2btTSQ)
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 04, 2014, 08:53:41 PM
"Insanity in individuals is something rare, but in groups, parties, nations, and epochs, it is the rule." - Friedrich Nietzsche

That is why my methodology will work for the next 100 years and beyond.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 04, 2014, 09:07:26 PM
Invictus

 
     Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

William Ernest Henley
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 04, 2014, 09:07:37 PM
Quotes of the day:

"We have to serve ourselves many years before we gain our own confidence."   - Henry S. Haskins

"The Keenest sorrow is to recognize ourselves as the sole cause of all our adversities." - Sophocles

"Everyone is perfectly willing to learn from unpleasant experience-if only the damage of the first lesson could be repaired." - Georg Christoph Lichtenberg

"A loving person lives in a loving world.  A hostile person lives in a hostile world: everyone you meet is your mirror." - Ken Keyes Jr.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 05, 2014, 04:38:33 PM
Only a man who's been defeated can come up with the extra ounce of energy it takes to win......The story of Genghis Khan's triumph over his long friend and rival.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 05, 2014, 08:35:24 PM
Your heart can only be strengthen through falling or failing.....th at is a law of life. Do not seek comfort, but challenges every day.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 05, 2014, 08:36:04 PM
The way to peace and true happiness is through clarity and honesty and even if you fail to find happiness, the happiness will be in your heart knowing that you were honest and clear.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 05, 2014, 08:38:41 PM
This song came to my head today at work, and I was thinking, "could sweet pure physical love be a thing of the past for me?‏" 

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZjS0pzH1r24 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZjS0pzH1r24)
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 05, 2014, 08:46:02 PM
A co-worker told me today, a beautiful co-worker, that finding your soulmate is like finding a great pair of shoes.  It may not look much on the outside, but it feels totally comfortable.  She got it from a Korean Drama.  Then I thought of my Bruno Magli shoe that I fell in love with.  It was beautiful and stylish.  It had buckles and everything, unfortunately it was a size seven and a half, and sometimes 8 is tight for me.  I love to wear to it, but I know I was going to be in pain for the next 4-5 hours.  I finally got tired of looking at it and hoping that one day, it would "break in" and be comfortable, so I donated it.  Good bye to my Bruno Magli, I don't think I have thought about it much since.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 05, 2014, 08:48:25 PM
Dr. Doom:

This guys has the funniest nick name on Wall Street.....He finally turn bullish on the global economy.  Now that is scary.  I don't know why anyone would invest with him at all.


http://www.cnbc.com/id/101305199 (http://www.cnbc.com/id/101305199)
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 06, 2014, 04:17:43 PM
People are so beautiful. :)
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 06, 2014, 09:58:53 PM
My recent study from yesterday shows.....go with the trend.  The counter trend plays (P3) are really a waste of time and interfere with more productive patterns.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 07, 2014, 08:05:24 PM
The way is not in the sky, the way is in the heart. - The Buddha

Add desire to it too, and there lies my failure.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 07, 2014, 08:19:28 PM
Never tell anybody outside the family what you're thinking

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yut9qPyT9jE (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yut9qPyT9jE)
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 07, 2014, 08:21:07 PM
There are only two mistakes one can make on the road to the truth, not going all the way, and not starting at all. - The Buddha.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 08, 2014, 05:40:59 PM
Confidence makes things happen, and is also contagious.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 08, 2014, 09:50:01 PM
I am getting rid of P3 because

1. It is a waste of capital.  The positions result in zero profits.
2. It is an indication of wanting to call the bottom or top
3. I rather leave the capital to trade more profitable trades.
4. I have done my study and it is no longer needed in my patterns.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 08, 2014, 09:54:34 PM
While Studying the market:

I am reminded of Henry Ford and Thomas Edison's take on success and failures.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=__V6z-ZzDRU&list=PL59CD0CF2AD5EDD60&index=7 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=__V6z-ZzDRU&list=PL59CD0CF2AD5EDD60&index=7)
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 11, 2014, 09:51:43 PM
Why did I change my system:

1.  It is not trading with the trend...I am shorting too much and looking too much for shorts in a rising MKT.  I am not making the best use of the low VIX.
2. My Longs were highly profitable, and I am 60% short in this MKT.. Against VIX and MKT.
3.  It is more simple to use.  All the MA and S&R will be adjusted by VIX, not by me.
4.  It will be more useful when comes time to short as well.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 11, 2014, 09:54:47 PM
xxx xxx xxx,
Do you know that I love you

...
...
...
...
You are so fine
Like the Sunshine
Or like the sand
In a far away land
You're like a shining star,
Except you're very close to me, not far.

Thank you for the beautiful poem (from a long time ago), and I am glad you got your miss-understanding cleared up.

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Post by: Ajax616 on May 11, 2014, 09:56:16 PM
Nyob zoo tus phoojywg. How are you liking the rain?

I love the rain...my daughter and I were walking around Lake Calhoun yesterday, and we got caught in the rain, but we took our time walking through it.

What about you?
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 11, 2014, 09:56:46 PM
Thank you to my beautiful strong warrior for spending the weekend with me.  You are so patient, kind and wise.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 12, 2014, 05:40:26 PM
I finally realized why today, why I was wrong.  I was wrong, because I was lacking the higher truth of kindness. I was acting on values and beliefs that I will always hold on to, but they are very distant second to the truth of kindness.  That is why I failed.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 12, 2014, 05:42:13 PM
Put in Extra-ordinary efforts in life, and think and put in extra-ordinary efforts again, and sooner or later you will get extra-ordinary results.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 12, 2014, 05:42:54 PM
In the long run, wisdom can guide us for a happy life, but we can't live on wisdom alone.  That is why I will invite the queen of diamond back into my life.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 12, 2014, 05:43:43 PM
Why did I change my model? Because I want to capture the VIX and trade with trend of the MKT....instead of anticipating reversals.‏

It's a lot more simpler now, I am looking forward to implementing it.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 12, 2014, 08:06:32 PM
Life is a moment in space
When the dream is gone
It's a lonelier place
I kiss the morning goodbye...
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 13, 2014, 08:30:45 PM
I have:

1. Included 100 MA and gave it twice 40 MA, because it sends a signal where the trend is going.
2. Include .6*VIX (S&D) because I believe that it increase the influence on the MA and should be included.
3. Taken away OEXT - because it is still calling tops and bottoms.  Something, I want to stay away from.
4. Taken away TOBB, because it is too hard too define, and adds confusion to the importance of the trend.
5. Increase the Support and decrease resistance, because trending stocks will not need resistance.
5. Made OEXT a function of 60/40 S&R and BB, because they define the true range.  Made S&R 70%, because it's more stable
6. All prior changes were to MKT Criteria.  Stock remains the same, including a 90 S&R.
7. Changes 1-5 were made to simplify MKT criteria and stay with trend.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 13, 2014, 08:47:10 PM
Truth of kindness is greater than truth of honesty, although I will always hold honesty very close.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 13, 2014, 08:57:16 PM
"A generous heart, kind speech, and a life of service and compassion to others, this is what renews humanity." - The Buddha
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 14, 2014, 05:35:45 AM
How do I know that I am right on my patterns?

Because even my shorts make money in this environment.

How do I know that I am wrong on my market criteria?

Because I am generating too many shorts in this market environment.

I want to make the adjustment so that my market criteria is more MKT FRIENDLY, with reason, logic, and commonsense, and without going over board.

My aim is to trade with:
1. The Emotion content of the market
2. The Trend of the market
3. and with my Stock Patterns (p1-p2, s1-s2)
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 14, 2014, 06:10:41 AM
I have:

1. Included 100 MA and gave it twice 40 MA, because it sends a signal where the trend is going.
2. Include .6*VIX (S&D) because I believe that it increase the influence on the MA and should be included.
3. Taken away OEXT - because it is still calling tops and bottoms.  Something, I want to stay away from.
4. Taken away TOBB, because it is too hard too define, and adds confusion to the importance of the trend.
5. Increase the Support and decrease resistance, because trending stocks will not need resistance.
5. Made OEXT a function of 60/40 S&R and BB, because they define the true range.  Made S&R 70%, because it's more stable
6. All prior changes were to MKT Criteria.  Stock remains the same, including a 90 S&R.
7. Changes 1-5 were made to simplify MKT criteria and stay with trend.

1.  I am uncapping S&R, because I do not need a double break, BB is already breaking it for me.
     a.  This will allow me to stay with the trend better, and will value the trend and instead of trying to predict it's end.
2.  I am no longer using .6*VIX(S&D) for now, because it will double up on MKT Criteria.  I am already adding VIX(S&D) to my MKT value, there's no need to double up.
3.  I am still dfinitely including 100 MA, because that is going with the trend.
4.  I am using OEXT, because it's easy to understanding.
5.  I am using RC, because it's a strong quality that I want to see and use.
6.  The Stock Criteria remains the same, because it is working, even the shorts make money.  It remains the same too, because stocks will fluctuate more than the MKT when it trends.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 14, 2014, 06:26:38 AM
1.  I am uncapping S&R, because I do not need a double break, BB is already breaking it for me.
     a.  This will allow me to stay with the trend better, and will value the trend and instead of trying to predict it's end.
2.  I am no longer using .6*VIX(S&D) for now, because it will double up on MKT Criteria.  I am already adding VIX(S&D) to my MKT value, there's no need to double up.
3.  I am still dfinitely including 100 MA, because that is going with the trend.
4.  I am using OEXT, because it's easy to understanding.
5.  I am using RC, because it's a strong quality that I want to see and use.
6.  The Stock Criteria remains the same, because it is working, even the shorts make money.  It remains the same too, because stocks will fluctuate more than the MKT when it trends.

The MKT Criteria and OEXT Range, will determine when I enter a trade or not.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 14, 2014, 06:44:30 AM
Authenticity is always in style, it never left. - From a Swiss Watch commercial.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 14, 2014, 10:36:43 PM
Thank you for a beautiful day of volunteering work with wonderful co-workers and out to dinner with my awesome kids.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 15, 2014, 04:41:46 PM
You will see how beautiful the world is when you open to love and kindness and the world of I can....‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 15, 2014, 06:45:31 PM
BB's portion of OEXT is highly volatile.....i t may be too much to handle.

100 MA => 80 MA, 100 takes too long to turn.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 18, 2014, 11:21:23 AM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j4FbRl1Lms4 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j4FbRl1Lms4)

Amanda
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 18, 2014, 11:22:06 AM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uS9Qmgk4aR0 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uS9Qmgk4aR0)
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 18, 2014, 11:43:59 AM
How to design your destiny - Brendon Burchard

Thank you....

We get three things all the time, and the question is what will we do with them.
1. Struggles and suffering - How will I define myself during these moments?
2. Good things
3. Love and lost

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RjEMRNGApBk (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RjEMRNGApBk)
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 18, 2014, 04:49:58 PM
How about you?

I wrote it because it's for me too.  I am still learning to be a better person everyday.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 18, 2014, 05:46:08 PM
Out of the trails in this life, there is one that matters most, the trail of a true human being.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nTc0o-S7tgQ (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nTc0o-S7tgQ)
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 19, 2014, 09:01:53 PM
I have been thinking lately on KINDNESS, in all situations.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 20, 2014, 06:27:57 PM
THV, I am amazed every time I meet you.  Thank you for being a wonderful, kind, and strong person, all in one, and showing that love and kindness is the way.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 20, 2014, 06:37:29 PM
Why is the rabbit not afraid of the panther?
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 20, 2014, 06:53:58 PM
Trust is the foundation for all relationships. ..without it don't bother with the relationship at all.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 21, 2014, 05:05:02 PM
His motto, he told Guinness World Records, is that one should "always pursue what one loves and is passionate about." - Alexander Imich
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 23, 2014, 12:01:22 PM
People are so beautiful, kind, and loving.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 24, 2014, 06:58:53 AM
Given that you can correct anything in your life, what is it that you want to do right now?
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 24, 2014, 10:21:39 AM
Matsuo Bash: Frog Haiku

The ancient pond
A frog leaps in
The sound of the water.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 24, 2014, 10:25:15 AM
Old Pond is Bash's most famous poem. The speaker of this haikai is a person sitting by an old pond listening to the sound the water makes as a frog jumps in. An old pond is usually a quiet place where one can relax without the worry of much sound. By saying it is an "old pond" in line one, Bash suggests that the water is completely still to begin with, and that the frog leaping in causes the speaker to focus on the sudden splash. In line two, Bash states that "a frog jumps in". A frog in Japan is a symbol of the spring, so by this he indicates the approximate time of year. Line three, "the sound of water", indirectly implies a surrounding silence simply because the speaker is able to hear the sound clearly. This obviously indicates that there is hardly any noise in the background.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 24, 2014, 10:36:46 AM
Literal
Fu-ru (old) i-ke (pond) ya,
ka-wa-zu (frog) to-bi-ko-mu (jumping into)
mi-zu (water) no o-to (sound)
(Fumiko Saisho)

Figurative (various)
The old pond;
A frog jumps in
The sound of the water.
(Robert Aitken)
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 25, 2014, 12:44:30 PM
What is meant by "As long as grass grows and waters flow"
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 26, 2014, 09:46:47 AM
Not all. If that was the case this world would be paradise.

This world is paradise and heaven all combined.  Do not think otherwise, because you will create that reality too.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 28, 2014, 04:04:12 PM
Everything is perception.... .including the concept of exiting Samsara.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 28, 2014, 10:06:06 PM
Sarah,

When are you going to make your decision to come here and go on exciting journey with me?

Because I get the feeling that you are seriously considering it.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 28, 2014, 10:18:27 PM
I believe the changes that I made to my trading plan has brought me closer to where I want to be, if not there already.  Thank you to reviews and studying the plan over time.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 29, 2014, 04:33:07 PM
I finally get it when they say, "If you commit a sin, you are condemned to Hell."
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 29, 2014, 04:36:53 PM
Today, I had a really strong urge to write a book.......and then somewhere in the afternoon, it went away. "To Infinity and Beyond."
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 29, 2014, 09:36:35 PM
LHV, thank you for the dances last week.  I hope you joyous time and successes in whatever you do.
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 31, 2014, 09:37:46 PM
From a Txiv Cob Txheeb:  Three things for successful marriage.
1. Ntshai, ntshais tsam yus tus txiv tsis yuav yus
2. Ntshaws, ntshaws kom yus neej zooj
3. Txaj muag, txaj muag rau yus niam yus txiv ib tsam yus lub neej tawg
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Post by: Ajax616 on May 31, 2014, 09:45:11 PM
I better stop flirting with my very hot and (and recently) dressing more sexy co-worker because she's married, before I lose control of my emotions, and use my reason and logic to justify my hijacked emotions.  Thank you J, but I have to back off, because it's not a place I want to go with anyone.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 01, 2014, 04:21:50 PM
White Elephants

A white elephant symbolizes something no one wantsin this story, the girls unborn child. The girls comment in the beginning of the story that the surrounding hills look like white elephants initially seems to be a casual, offhand remark, but it actually serves as a segue for her and the American to discuss their baby and the possibility of having an abortion. The girl later retracts this comment with the observation that the hills dont really look like white elephants, a subtle hint that perhaps she wants to keep the baby after alla hint the American misses. In fact, she even says that the hills only seemed to look like white elephants at first glance, and that theyre actually quite lovely. Comparing the hillsand, metaphorically, the babyto elephants also recalls the expression the elephant in the room, a euphemism for something painfully obvious that no one wants to discuss.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 01, 2014, 04:53:17 PM
"Behold, O monks, this is my last advice to you. All component things in the world are changeable. They are not lasting. Work hard to gain your own salvation." - The last words of the Buddha
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 02, 2014, 04:23:11 PM
White Elephants

A white elephant symbolizes something no one wantsin this story, the girls unborn child. The girls comment in the beginning of the story that the surrounding hills look like white elephants initially seems to be a casual, offhand remark, but it actually serves as a segue for her and the American to discuss their baby and the possibility of having an abortion. The girl later retracts this comment with the observation that the hills dont really look like white elephants, a subtle hint that perhaps she wants to keep the baby after alla hint the American misses. In fact, she even says that the hills only seemed to look like white elephants at first glance, and that theyre actually quite lovely. Comparing the hillsand, metaphorically, the babyto elephants also recalls the expression the elephant in the room, a euphemism for something painfully obvious that no one wants to discuss.

Do not end up being a white elephant.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 02, 2014, 04:23:59 PM
What I learn from my funny adventure with you is this:  Kindness trumps all the other principles, even honesty and clarity.  Thank you.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 03, 2014, 04:52:54 PM
I now know what I have to do with you, my beautiful lost friend.  You will help me fulfill my destiny as a good and kind soul.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 03, 2014, 04:56:00 PM
All the patterns to life, success, joy, peace and happiness is already in nature and inside of us. There's no need to seek or look for man created toys or dreams, they are so childish compared to nature's ambition.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 03, 2014, 06:20:06 PM
Truth: Despite my male pride of pretending that there's none, I still do have a little animosity left to be confessed to and to dissipate away.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 04, 2014, 10:48:43 PM
Sometimes we can't see around the corner because we are blinded by our hopes, fears, and desires, which may or may not be real.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 04, 2014, 10:49:03 PM
The law of the Universe applies to all.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 04, 2014, 10:49:20 PM
Angels: What will be left of us is an energy signature independent of our desires and fear conditioned from this world.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 06, 2014, 04:43:42 PM
For a woman, maybe love and kindness is even stronger than physical attraction.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 06, 2014, 10:22:43 PM
Thank you for saying hello, but we still need further distance of time.  Take care of yourself.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 06, 2014, 10:33:01 PM
A generous heart, kind speech, and a life of service and compassion for others.....Thi s is what renews humanity. - The Buddha
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 07, 2014, 11:19:28 AM
Question to me:  Am I happier now than three months ago, six months ago, and/or a year ago?

If so, what has changed.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 07, 2014, 04:46:22 PM
Hijacked: Emotions overwhelming reason and logic, due to fear, stress or desire.  As a result, actions are no longer controlled by reasons and common sense, but my uncontrollable emotions, and will have exaggerated impact, more frequently negative than positive.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 07, 2014, 04:47:02 PM
Reason and logic will save us, because it always makes the right choice, use emotions as slave to reason and logic, not the other way around.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 07, 2014, 06:40:00 PM
Hatred (or anger) never ceases hatred (or anger), but only through love, that is the eternal and ancient rule.  - The Buddha

This applies to our relationship as well.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 07, 2014, 06:53:49 PM
You do not need to seek to know the truth out there as long as you know the truth in the heart, because it is what is in the heart that creates the truth out there.  Curiosity will only create disturbances for everyone.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 07, 2014, 06:56:19 PM
"To every man upon this earth
Death cometh soon or late.
And how can man die better
Than facing fearful odds,
For the ashes of his fathers,
And the temples of his Gods."[4]

- Horatius
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 08, 2014, 07:57:29 PM
Only a fool thinks he can control the temptations in his heart, if he succumbs.  We are all fools, just don't be a fool too many times.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 08, 2014, 08:30:08 PM
Remember this:  Your only job in on-going relationships is to make the other person feel good, in all sorts of ways.  If you do that the other person, will move heaven and earth to come to you or stay with you.  If you do not do that, then eventually they will leave.  Trust, honesty, clarity......a ll that will pales in comparison to the power of making the person feel good.  If you complain and put down the relationship, it will evaporate much quicker as well.  It doesn't matter, if you are right or wrong or they are right or wrong.......If you result, then there's only one rule.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 09, 2014, 09:08:16 PM
Suffering is the difference between expectation and reality.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 10, 2014, 06:28:39 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MGYfxnnyIuE&list=PLzGib8vBOqpJSi1GcY3i5n41AfiLbBHSX&index=5 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MGYfxnnyIuE&list=PLzGib8vBOqpJSi1GcY3i5n41AfiLbBHSX&index=5)

Thank you for your encouragement.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 10, 2014, 06:41:24 PM
May flowers line your path and sunshine light your day.
May songbirds serenade you, every step along the way.
May a rainbow run beside you in a sky that is always blue.
And may gladness fill your heart each day, your whole life through.

 - An Irish Blessing.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 15, 2014, 01:56:08 PM
My inability to diffuse our situation to a logic conclusion is what I will take from my interesting journey with you.  Thank you for the lesson.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 15, 2014, 01:57:22 PM
I know now what it is that I want to be:  Be someone who brings out the best in others, no what the circumstance.  A coach, a life coach, or a very good friend.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 15, 2014, 01:57:59 PM
Be more aggressive with S1 Positions..... .from .5VIX to VIX.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 15, 2014, 01:58:43 PM
Tending to my Fears' needs fulfills my life's purpose.

My fear keeps me alert and fresh, I will never want to get rid it, but learn to live in harmony with it.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 15, 2014, 02:00:38 PM
When do we get to meet God?  When we have no fear left in us, and only what is left is Love, Kindness, and Joy.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 15, 2014, 02:01:19 PM
You cannot know the strength of your faith, unless its been tested.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 15, 2014, 09:30:33 PM
A great leader is when the job is done.....the people says "We did it." - Lao Tzu
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 17, 2014, 04:05:51 PM
"When an old man dies, a library burns to the ground." - An African proverb

Thank you Yawg Soob Ntxawg for being a torch bearer for our people's culture and identity.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 17, 2014, 08:38:25 PM
When two people are shouting at each other from a distance, it is because they are far apart.  When two people are showing at each other at close distance, it is because their hearts are far apart.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 18, 2014, 08:19:55 PM
Inner Peace = Perception of reality - Physical Reality + (Return of positive or Negative Karma)
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 18, 2014, 08:35:26 PM
I am not disappointed in you, but in me.  You were going to be you and I could have acted better, and that is why I am disappointed in me.  My actions would never have resulted in a better you, but generate more negative karma that would result in a horrible you and me.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 18, 2014, 09:35:49 PM
"All you need is the plan, the road map, and the courage to press on to your destination." - Earl Nigtingale
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 18, 2014, 09:37:12 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=62DqsD2s5V8 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=62DqsD2s5V8)

The Strangest Screcet - By Earl Nightingale.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 19, 2014, 08:18:23 PM
WE BECOME WHAT WE THINK ABOUT. - The Budddha, Marcus Aurelis, Earl Nightingale (Law of Nature)
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 19, 2014, 08:25:04 PM
As you believe so it shall it be done onto u. - Jesus
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 19, 2014, 08:37:52 PM
You can only enrich yourself by enriching others.   Law of Success by Earl Nightingale
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 19, 2014, 10:18:47 PM
One Word Problem - Monkey Mind
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 20, 2014, 08:25:30 AM
There's an a negative energy inside of me, because I belittled someone, very tough, who I should not have.  I understand my fault now, so please let the negative energy decay away quickly.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 20, 2014, 08:38:03 AM
Go read your pm.  ;)

Thank you, I have been SLEEPLESS in my HEART waiting for your PM. :)

I will response later when I get home.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 20, 2014, 10:32:22 PM
The Hardest Things To Do in Life are what we all should be doing., because it is hard and can only make us stronger.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 22, 2014, 01:28:40 PM
I was at a park the other day.  I must have driven by that park dozens of time, but never stropped there.  I decided to stop there with my kids, and we saw a large fallen tree.  It fell because it was rotten on the inside.  The law nature, like gravity, knows no boundary, and is everywhere.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 22, 2014, 01:31:19 PM
Men need women, to know they are appreciated and to know that they are loving and kind.

Women, need a good man to lead, because we are ashamed of failures.

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Post by: Ajax616 on June 22, 2014, 03:27:26 PM
I want to raise a strong and kind human being and give him/her to the world.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 22, 2014, 03:32:25 PM
"Success is the progressive realization of a worthy ideal." - Earl Nightingale
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 22, 2014, 03:34:32 PM
The Opposite of Courage is not Cowardice, but Conformity.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 22, 2014, 03:37:57 PM
The Key to Success is having Goals. - Earl Nightingale
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 22, 2014, 03:58:47 PM
The architect of the Universe didn't build a stair leading to no where. - From The Strangest Secret.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 22, 2014, 04:00:34 PM
We can achieve nothing without paying the price. - From Sir Isaac Newton
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 22, 2014, 04:08:56 PM
Ask and it shall be given. - The Sermon on the Mount
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 22, 2014, 04:11:24 PM
Making money is a result of success.
Success in direction proportion to serving others.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 23, 2014, 04:13:59 PM
"Behold, O monks, this is my last advice to you. All component things in the world are changeable. They are not lasting. Work hard to gain your own salvation." - The Buddha

I finally get it now.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 23, 2014, 04:14:53 PM
I'm up for adoption!  ;D jk Does it take strong parents to raise strong children? ???

No, it just takes wanting strong kids....and then everything else will follow.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 23, 2014, 06:12:25 PM
A ship with guidance and a destination, will reach it's goal 99.99% of the time.  Now look at ourselves.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 23, 2014, 07:44:29 PM
Yes. I want to set sail. ;) The sea is calling my name.

Write it down, your goals and your destination.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 23, 2014, 09:57:24 PM
 29.   No Water, No Moon

When the nun Chiyono studied Zen under Bukko of Engaku she was unable to attain the fruits of meditation for a long time.

At last one moonlit night she was carrying water in an old pail bound with bamboo. The bamboo broke and the bottom fell out of the pail, and at that moment Chiyono was set free!

In commemoration, she wrote a poem:

    In this way and that I tried to save the old pail
    Since the bamboo strip was weakening and about
       to break
    Until at last the bottom fell out.
    No more water in the pail!
    No more moon in the water!
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 23, 2014, 09:59:44 PM
No Loving-Kindness

There was an old woman in China who had supported a monk for over twenty years. She had built a little hut for him and fed him while he was meditating. Finally she wondered just what progress he had made in all this time.

To find out, she obtained the help of a girl rich in desire. "Go and embrace him," she told her, "and then ask him suddenly: 'What now?'"

The girl called upon the monk and without much ado caressed him, asking him what he was going to do about it.

"An old tree grows on a cold rock in winter," replied the monk somewhat poetically. "Nowhere is there any warmth."

The girl returned and related what he had said.

"To think I fed that fellow for twenty years!" exclaimed the old woman in anger. "He showed no consideration for your needs, no disposition to explain your condition. He need not have responded to passion, but at least he should have evidenced some compassion."

She at once went to the hut of the monk and burned it down.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 23, 2014, 10:01:01 PM
The Giver Should Be Thankful

While Seisetsu was the master of Engaku in Kamakura he required larger quarters, since those in which he was teaching were overcrowded. Umezu Seibei, a merchant of Edo, decided to donate five hundred pieces of gold called ryo toward the construction of a more commodious school. This money he brought to the teacher.

Seisetsu said: "All right. I will take it."

Umezu gave Seisetsu the sack of gold, but he was dissatisfied with the attitude of the teacher. One might live a whole year on three ryo, and the merchant had not even been thanked for five hundred.

"In that sack are five hundred ryo," hinted Umezu.

"You told me that before," replied Seisetsu.

"Even if I am a wealthy merchant, five hundred ryo is a lot of money," said Umezu.

"Do you want me to thank you for it?" asked Seisetsu.

"You ought to," replied Uzemu.

Why should I?" inquired Seisetsu. "The giver should be thankful."
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 23, 2014, 10:06:50 PM
A Drop of Water

A Zen master named Gisan asked a young student to bring him a pail of water to cool his bath.

The student brought the water and, after cooling the bath, threw on to the ground the little that was left over.

"You dunce!" the master scolded him. "Why didn't you give the rest of the water to the plants? What right have you to waste even a drop of water in this temple?"

The young student attained Zen in that instant. He changed his name to Tekisui, which means a drop of water.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 23, 2014, 10:08:19 PM
In Dreamland

"Our schoolmaster used to take a nap every afternoon," related a disciple of Soyen Shaku. "We children asked him why he did it and he told us: 'I go to dreamland to meet the old sages just as Confucius did.' When Confucius slept, he would dream of ancient sages and later tell his followers about them.

"It was extremely hot one day so some of us took a nap. Our schoolmaster scolded us. 'We went to dreamland to meet the ancient sages the same as Confucius did,' we explained. 'What was the message from those sages?' our schoolmaster demanded. One of us replied: 'We went to dreamland and met the sages and asked them if our schoolmaster came there every afternoon, but they said they had never seen any such fellow.'"
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 23, 2014, 10:20:16 PM
The First Principle

When one goes to Obaku temple in Kyoto he sees carved over the gate the words "The First Principle". The letters are unusually large, and those who appreciate calligraphy always admire them as being a mastepiece. They were drawn by Kosen two hundred years ago.

When the master drew them he did so on paper, from which the workmen made the large carving in wood. As Kosen sketched the letters a bold pupil was with him who had made several gallons of ink for the calligraphy and who never failed to criticise his master's work.

"That is not good," he told Kosen after his first effort.

"How is this one?"

"Poor. Worse than before," pronounced the pupil.

Kosen patiently wrote one sheet after another until eighty-four First Principles had accumulated, still without the approval of the pupil.

Then when the young man stepped outside for a few moments, Kosen thought: "Now this is my chance to escape his keen eye," and he wrote hurriedly, with a mind free from distraction: "The First Principle."

"A masterpiece," pronounced the pupil.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 24, 2014, 06:40:54 PM
We become what we think about..... A Law of the Universe according to Earl Nightingale
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 24, 2014, 09:58:23 PM
Thank you for a day of understanding and such quiet peace today.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 25, 2014, 07:17:47 AM
How to overcome boredome?  Grow every day.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 25, 2014, 05:36:46 PM
Create your own new product - Elon Musk and Tesla
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 25, 2014, 05:41:44 PM
Jeff Bezos Cares about his customers more than his stock holders.....th at is why he succeeds, being customer focus.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 25, 2014, 05:42:49 PM
No matter how much I have been hurt, I will never try to hurt anyone back, because it is useless and meaningless, and can only hurt people starting with me. The most I will do is show kindness and walk away.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 25, 2014, 05:44:19 PM
Why do you want Superman's powers so you can fly like a bird?  So you can crush your enemies?  Or so you serve and give of yourself to others?  The key to Superman's power is his heart.  He has been cloned before, but the clones were easily defeated by Lex Luthor.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 25, 2014, 05:47:47 PM
No loving kindness, illustrates the point that...Kindnes s trumps all the other virtues.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 25, 2014, 05:48:48 PM
Hold your goal before you and everything else will take care of itself. - Earl Nightingale.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 25, 2014, 06:04:36 PM
CH with VIX, SVIX = .02, trade CH Patterns.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 25, 2014, 08:12:13 PM
Thank you for this amazing day. :)
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 25, 2014, 08:45:31 PM
Thinking and Doing will lead to success.  Talking loudly is just talking loudly, and has nothing to do with success.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 29, 2014, 06:53:53 PM
Understanding leads to wisdom and discipline.  It is the way to free the goose from the bottle.  Discipline on it's own, will not work without understanding.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 29, 2014, 06:54:27 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FGT1AcMRV9w# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FGT1AcMRV9w#)

I have Meat Loaf stuck on my mind.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 29, 2014, 06:55:54 PM
Thank you to my cousin Neej Yias for helping me to understand success.  I will add your distinctivenes s to my own (j/k).  I have forgotten what it was like to be in a loving home for a while now, thank you for opening up yours.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 29, 2014, 06:56:23 PM
Legal Zoom
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 29, 2014, 06:57:30 PM
I have to be a great speaker....... I want to make them laugh, cry and be inspired while I am on stage.  I want to get my point clearly across to win their hearts and their minds.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 29, 2014, 06:57:45 PM
I will fly because I can.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 29, 2014, 06:58:50 PM
We make mistakes and sometimes out of that mistakes comes the most amazing things. - from Transformers Age of Extinction
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 29, 2014, 07:01:44 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-CPRTI40x5U#t=39 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-CPRTI40x5U#t=39)

A great teacher to learn from
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 29, 2014, 08:52:51 PM
I have to be a great speaker....... I want to make them laugh, cry and be inspired while I am on stage.  I want to get my point clearly across to win their hearts and their minds.

Ask and it shall be given to me.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 30, 2014, 06:17:38 AM
CH with VIX, SVIX = .02, trade CH Patterns.

Trade all patterns with with OEXT = .50 - 1.5 Total VIX.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 30, 2014, 05:23:05 PM
We become what we think about. - Earl Nightingale
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 30, 2014, 05:36:21 PM
I need to find the difference between egotiscal and confidence really quick and stay in confidence, and not wander into egotistical.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 30, 2014, 05:37:42 PM
Do be afraid to contribute to the whole because that is part of me also. My fear to contribute, will create fear and greed among everyone, and will lead to more fear and greed.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 30, 2014, 09:29:29 PM
Something occurred to me this month that, fundamentals will always be right.  If it didn't start out right, it will not end right or it cannot blossomed into something wonderful and special.  Therefore my journey with you, is and always will be now a fading distant memory.

I will never break my fundamentals for anyone again.
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Post by: Ajax616 on June 30, 2014, 09:50:21 PM
Thank you for a continue growth in understanding. .....
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 01, 2014, 09:10:02 PM
I need to be good, very good and kind at all times.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 01, 2014, 09:10:25 PM
I have to earn my Red Badge of Courage.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 01, 2014, 09:11:03 PM
I am missing playing TR+1....needs to be with very strong situations. MKT RC...VIX....MK T MA80......and Stock RC‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 02, 2014, 04:55:00 PM
I am most in pain, not of the things that they have done to me, but of the things that I have done to them because they have hurt me. Therefore it is up to me to correct and ease my own pain.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 02, 2014, 04:56:47 PM
Reason and logic tells me that you're still continuing to disturb the field.  A jug fills drop by drop.  Please be careful and I hope you find true peace.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 02, 2014, 09:32:33 PM
Create a Hunger inside you, and it will naturally get filled.  Make sure that hunger is good for your future and for those around you.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 03, 2014, 12:09:47 PM
When I was younger my feelings were never troubled. - Meena from Bram Stoker's Dracula
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 03, 2014, 12:11:26 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ld6fAO4idaI&list=PL8F29888A9D718594&index=46 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ld6fAO4idaI&list=PL8F29888A9D718594&index=46)

The answer is not blowing in the wind, but in each of us.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 04, 2014, 08:23:35 AM
The difference between someone who does it and can do it and someone who can't is their beliefs that they can and cannot do it.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 04, 2014, 08:25:01 AM
Nyob zoo tus phoojywg,

Doing anything exciting for July 4th weekend?

Why is the best yet to come?  Are you planning for it and preparing to receive it?  Or you just hoping that it will be true?
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 04, 2014, 08:35:21 AM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7LE4wtPaano (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7LE4wtPaano)

Thank you!
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 04, 2014, 10:31:53 AM
You don't respect the chair, do you know why?  Because you're not ready for it. - Captain Christopher Pike
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 04, 2014, 10:44:03 AM
Hello P,

I just realized the other day that your failure, was my failure and started with me. I wasn't aware and I did not charge our journey with enough love, kindness, and positive encouragement.  I am sorry but I learning.  I hope you are doing well and living the life that your heart wanted.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 05, 2014, 06:54:12 AM
Short term hunger and long term hunger:

Our short term hunger and inexperience blind us to our long-term hunger.  It is our long term hunger that we must understand and cultivate so that we are driven to naturally satisfy it, and make sure it serves a purpose and is good for us.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 05, 2014, 05:51:09 PM


        O God, give me the serenity to accept what cannot be changed,
        The courage to change what can be changed,
        and the wisdom to know the one from the other

                                                                   - Reinhold Niebuhr
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 05, 2014, 05:53:28 PM
A sentient being's chance of maximizing his utility is a long and prosperous life. - Spock from Star Trek Into Darkness
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 06, 2014, 03:05:52 PM
Act as if it were impossible to fail. - the Strangest Secret
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 06, 2014, 03:11:37 PM
Prosperity is founded on the law of mutual exchange. - from The Strangest Secret
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 06, 2014, 06:57:41 PM
Thank you for a wonderful and challenging life. 
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 06, 2014, 08:51:54 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ud2XKt2N8fs&list=PL8F29888A9D718594&index=48 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ud2XKt2N8fs&list=PL8F29888A9D718594&index=48)

Have you ever heard a song and it captivated you right away?
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 06, 2014, 09:00:50 PM
Nothing Exists

Yamaoka Tesshu, as a young student of Zen, visited one master after another. He called upon Dokuon of Shokoku.

Desiring to show his attainment, he said: "The mind, Buddha, and sentient beings, after all, do not exist. The true nature of phenomena is emptiness. There is no relaization, no delusion, no sage, no mediocrity. There is no giving and nothing to be received."

Dokuon, who was smoking quietly, said nothing. Suddenly he whacked Yamaoka with his bamboo pipe. This made the youth quite angry.

"If nothing exists," inquired Dokuon, "where did this anger come from?"
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 06, 2014, 09:05:37 PM
I realized that thoughts of you are still creating a suffering in me everyday and that is the truth.  Despite my claim of understanding, I am still attached to the gap in reality and perception that you created while you were here.  You created a sickness of which you were the cure, either that or true understanding.  I no longer wanted the cure to be you and so I reached for understanding.  Being human my mind has yet to be tamed enough to reach that understanding.  I am running through habits of yesterday, but I am making up my mind to dwell in happiness and understanding.  Through each passing day, I am wishing you greater joy so that I can be free as well.  Thank you.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 06, 2014, 09:07:54 PM
Non-Attachment

Kitano Gempo, abbot of Eihei temple, was ninety-two years old when he passed away in the year 1933. He endeavored his whole like not to be attached to anything. As a wandering mendicant when he was twenty he happened to meet a traveler who smoked tobacco. As they walked together down a mountain road, they stopped under a tree to rest. The traveler offered Kitano a smoke, which he accepted, as he was very hungry at the time.

"How pleasant this smoking is," he commented. The other gave him an extra pipe and tobacco and they parted.

Kitano felt: "Such pleasant things may disturb meditation. Before this goes too far, I will stop now." So he threw the smoking outfit away.

When he was twenty-three years old he studied I-King, the profoundest doctrine of the universe. It was winter at the time and he needed some heavy clothes. He wrote his teacher, who lived a hundred miles away, telling him of his need, and gave the letter to a traveler to deliver. Almost the whole winter passed and neither answer nor clothes arrived. So Kitano resorted to the prescience of I-King, which also teaches the art of divination, to determine whether or not his letter had miscarried. He found that this had been the case. A letter afterwards from his teacher made no mention of clothes.

"If I perform such accurate determinative work with I-King, I may neglect my meditation," felt Kitano. So he gave up this marvelous teaching and never resorted to its powers again.

When he was twenty-eight he studied Chinese calligraphy and poetry. He grew so skillful in these arts that his teacher praised him. Kitano mused: "If I don't stop now, I'll be a poet, not a Zen teacher." So he never wrote another poem.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 06, 2014, 09:09:58 PM
Teaching the Ultimate

In early times in Japan, bamboo-and-paper lanterns were used with candles inside. A blind man, visiting a friend one night, was offered a lantern to carry home with him.

"I do not need a lantern," he said. "Darkness or light is all the same to me."

"I know you do not need a lantern to find your way," his friend replied, "but if you don't have one, someone else may run into you. So you must take it."

The blind man started off with the lantern and before he had walked very far someone ran squarely into him.

"Look out where you are going!" he exclaimed to the stranger. "Can't you see this lantern?"

"Your candle has burned out, brother," replied the stranger.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 06, 2014, 09:11:33 PM
How do I find the peace that I am looking for?  TOTAL DETACHMENT.

It is my detachment that's creating a gap in reality and expectations.  Therefore I will chose peace and be totally detached.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 06, 2014, 09:45:28 PM
"Behold, O monks, this is my last advice to you. All component things in the world are changeable. They are not lasting. Work hard to gain your own salvation." - The Last Words of the Buddha
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 06, 2014, 09:49:26 PM
Thank you for coming into my dreams, a long time ago, and telling there where you could tell me in the awaken world.  I appreciated it and I am always happy for you.  Then at that moment, I too realized that I am very far apart from where I want to be, regarding our garden, and I will replant it with a tree, instead of flowers.  A tree that may grow and shade us both in times of sunshine and/or rain. A tree is best because it does not require constant watering, and it doesn't grow thorns, and will survive cold extreme cold winters and hot summers.  Best wishes and thank you for coming to tell me. :)
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 06, 2014, 09:50:59 PM
SB,

Despite it having should not have been, thank you because it was very wonderful.  May your days be filled with sunshine.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 06, 2014, 09:53:22 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VH35Iz9veM0&list=PL5786CD2E89264F69 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VH35Iz9veM0&list=PL5786CD2E89264F69)

People make the difference and are the greatest assets of any enterprise.  Thank you for this great advice Sir Richard Branson.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 07, 2014, 09:18:14 PM
"Skills and knowledge are nothing unless you apply them." - Bruce Lee

I have a skill to break habits, and I know that you're not ready for me, and have not been so and will not be so.  The only solution is to wish you well.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 07, 2014, 09:19:26 PM
The greater Jihad is to conquer oneself. - muhammad
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 07, 2014, 09:20:07 PM
It is hard to deal with negative emotional pressures, therefore plan for it and do not put yourself there in the first place. Walk away. when you still have objectivity.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 07, 2014, 09:20:37 PM
Detachment.... the truth path to freedom.....th e truth path to happiness.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 07, 2014, 09:21:30 PM
I know why you caused me so much pain now....it is because you were in a lot of pain yourself....I forgive you and so I hope you're happy.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 08, 2014, 06:39:03 PM
When I look back, if I didn't allow you to talk me back each time, we would have had more to save in our relationship or for a future friendship. That is still true today, therefore we will have more by not saving this relationship any longer.‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 08, 2014, 06:40:51 PM
Once I saw a Christian rally on TV against a Muslim community in Michigan and it became apparent that all the Muslims had to do to win was to walk away and the lone speaker will be without an audience, and the whole thing will be neutralized. Instead, they stayed and got themselves all worked up and before you know it, many of them were arrested, while the real monster makes out like a hero.  I told my daughter that if we ever came across such a scene, we will laugh at it and walk away.  I met another monster, but I couldnt walk away.  I stayed and I listened, because I was hoping that it would hear me and when it did, it would change.  As a result, the monster came out looking like a hero, and I the villain, because I stayed long enough to get emotionally all riled up to take inappropriate actions.  These are the both the same, but desire blinded me in the second.  I will walk away from both, next time.  That is the best course of action.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 08, 2014, 08:46:44 PM
No man can enrich himself without enriching others. - Law of Success by Earl Nightingale
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 09, 2014, 06:32:18 PM
D,

I don't know what happen and why you left, but it was very good and fun working with you.  Best wishes my friend.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 09, 2014, 06:37:10 PM
I need to find the difference between egotistical and confidence really quick and stay in confidence, and not wander into egotistical.‏   Confidence is much more kind than egotistical.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 09, 2014, 07:04:07 PM
Anyone who contributes to prosperity must prosper himself. - Law of Prosperity.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 09, 2014, 07:19:24 PM
Be ashamed to die until you have won some victory for humanity. - Horace Mann
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 09, 2014, 07:20:23 PM
What would the world be like if everyone lived their dream. :)
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 09, 2014, 07:21:30 PM
Live Full and Die Empty.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 09, 2014, 07:32:06 PM
Life is short and unpredictable, eat the desert first. - Helen Keller
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 09, 2014, 07:43:29 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YlOv-jlX-As (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YlOv-jlX-As)

This song reminds me of when I was going to graduate school a long time ago.  I didn't finish.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 09, 2014, 07:49:18 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z6wCjIMxnrY (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z6wCjIMxnrY)

Have you ever listen or heard a song and then called someone to tell them that you love them.  This was my song.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 09, 2014, 07:50:51 PM
I know now what power I would wish for if I was given a choice....the power to make those around me happy (smile).
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 09, 2014, 07:58:53 PM
You may not realize it when it happens, but a kick in the teeth may be the best thing in the world for you. - Walt Disney

Walt Disney filed for bankruptcy 7 times and had two nervous breakdowns.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 09, 2014, 08:00:49 PM
Obedience

The master Bankei's talks were attended not only by Zen students but by persons of all ranks and sects. He never quoted sutras not indulged in scholastic dissertations. Instead, his words were spoken directly from his heart to the hearts of his listeners.

His large audience angered a priest of the Nichiren sect because the adherents had left to hear about Zen. The self-centered Nichiren priest came to the temple, determined to have a debate with Bankei.

"Hey, Zen teacher!" he called out. "Wait a minute. Whoever respects you will obey what you say, but a man like myself does not respect you. Can you make me obey you?"

"Come up beside me and I will show you," said Bankei.

Proudly the priest pushed his way through the crowd to the teacher.

Bankei smiled. "Come over to my left side."

The priest obeyed.

"No," said Bankei, "we may talk better if you are on the right side. Step over here."

The priest proudly stepped over to the right.

"You see," observed Bankei, "you are obeying me and I think you are a very gentle person. Now sit down and listen."
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 09, 2014, 08:01:25 PM
If You Love, Love Openly

Twenty monks and one nun, who was named Eshun, were practicing meditation with a certain Zen master.

Eshun was very pretty even though her head was shaved and her dress plain. Several monks secretly fell in love with her. One of them wrote her a love letter, insisting upon a private meeting.

Eshun did not reply. The following day the master gave a lecture to the group, and when it was over, Eshun arose. Addressing the one who had written to her, she said: "If you really love me so much, come and embrace me now."
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 09, 2014, 08:18:14 PM
A big, tough samurai once went to see a little monk.

    "Monk!"

He barked, in a voice accustomed to instant obedience.

    "Teach me about heaven and hell!"

The monk looked up at the mighty warrior and replied with utter disdain,

    "Teach you about heaven and hell? I couldn't teach you about anything. You're dumb. You're dirty. You're a disgrace, an embarrassment to the samurai class. Get out of my sight. I can't stand you."

The samurai got furious. He shook, red in the face, speechless with rage. He pulled out his sword, and prepared to slay the monk.

Looking straight into the samurai's eyes, the monk said softly,

    "That's hell."

The samurai froze, realizing the compassion of the monk who had risked his life to show him hell! He put down his sword and fell to his knees, filled with gratitude.

The monk said softly,

    "And that's heaven."
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 09, 2014, 08:19:13 PM
Joshu's Zen

Joshu began the study of Zen when he was sixty years old and continued until he was eighty, when he realized Zen.

He taught from the age of eighty until he was one hundred and twenty.

A student once asked him: "If I haven't anything in my mind, what shall I do?"

Joshu replied: "Throw it out."

"But if I haven't anything, how can I throw it out?" continued the questioner.

"Well," said Joshu, "then carry it out."
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 09, 2014, 08:19:46 PM
Joshu's Zen

Joshu began the study of Zen when he was sixty years old and continued until he was eighty, when he realized Zen.

He taught from the age of eighty until he was one hundred and twenty.

A student once asked him: "If I haven't anything in my mind, what shall I do?"

Joshu replied: "Throw it out."

"But if I haven't anything, how can I throw it out?" continued the questioner.

"Well," said Joshu, "then carry it out."

Zen = Clearing your mind?
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 12, 2014, 02:21:37 PM
http://www.4shared.com/audio/74Wl7hd4/Ncaim_Mus_Tsis_Qhia.htm?locale=en (http://www.4shared.com/audio/74Wl7hd4/Ncaim_Mus_Tsis_Qhia.htm?locale=en)

The first time I heard this song, I actually thought of you and the demise of our once wonderful journey.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 12, 2014, 08:12:13 PM
The Law of love and kindness is above all the other things that I have learned so far.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 12, 2014, 08:12:50 PM
The Law of love and kindness is above all the other things that I have learned so far.

Extends into plants and animal as well.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 12, 2014, 08:18:24 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nTuMYaEB35U (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nTuMYaEB35U)

My little sister sent me this on near death experiences.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 13, 2014, 06:26:59 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mxjl_2a-gFM (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mxjl_2a-gFM)

Don't cry for me Argentina..... even though I was rooting for you to win the World Cup.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 13, 2014, 06:29:54 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8uPmeWiFTIw (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8uPmeWiFTIw)

We are all subjected to pigeon superstition.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 13, 2014, 06:31:29 PM
When lost in the woods, or in woods of life, why and how do we die of shame?  We give up on the inside first and mantra ourselves to death.......ch ose to mantra yourself to never give up.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 13, 2014, 06:34:37 PM
While market making, I was better than the average.  Everyone had access to the same tools and resources and I was better than the average, in fact very good and consistent at times.  I got that way through role modelling and accidentally discovering the emotional intelligence for success.  I remember losing the emotional intelligence for success in trading and wondering what I was going to do.  I think I now know how to find all of it now, the role modeling, the emotional intelligence, and how to keep it, a formula for success.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 14, 2014, 08:23:17 PM
I'm not the type to give up. In fact, I'm the type to seek answers and solutions. Btw,  how are you on this gloomy day? Hope all is well with you.  :)

I am doing very good.  I hope you are doing good as well. Yes, it is unseasonably cool today.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 14, 2014, 08:25:06 PM
What makes you strong and keeps you staying strong?  Never compromising your principles for anyone.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 14, 2014, 08:26:54 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QM-tTWHU278 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QM-tTWHU278)

Just finished watching a great movie, with my beautiful kids.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 14, 2014, 08:44:02 PM
http://dealbook.nytimes.com/2014/02/02/after-scandal-sac-capital-begins-to-fade-to-black/?_php=true&_type=blogs&_r=0 (http://dealbook.nytimes.com/2014/02/02/after-scandal-sac-capital-begins-to-fade-to-black/?_php=true&_type=blogs&_r=0)

I understand that you are mortal now. 
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 14, 2014, 08:47:09 PM
"Skills and knowledge are nothing unless you act on them." - Bruce Lee
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 15, 2014, 04:34:12 PM
We are being born into this life and understanding. ....we didn't bring it with us.....what did we bring then?‏
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 15, 2014, 04:36:13 PM
Some people already know the extent of the darkness of their hearts, do not try to persuade them to be good or you will be disappointed.  Just give them love and kindness and let them go on their way.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 15, 2014, 04:52:45 PM
Karma is law of cause and effect, and it's implications are experienced over time.  That is why some people think that Karma is only a myth.
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 15, 2014, 06:24:41 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JHLMGBwAbhA (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JHLMGBwAbhA)

Words
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Post by: Ajax616 on July 15, 2014, 06:40:04 PM
Emptiness: The Most Misunderstood Word in Buddhism

"Emptiness" is a central teaching of all Buddhism, but its true meaning is often misunderstood. If we are ever to embrace Buddhism properly into the West, we need to be clear about emptiness, since a wrong understanding of its meaning can be confusing, even harmful. The third century Indian Buddhist master Nagarjuna taught, "Emptiness wrongly grasped is like picking up a poisonous snake by the wrong end." In other words, we will be bitten!

Emptiness is not complete nothingness; it doesn't mean that nothing exists at all. This would be a nihilistic view contrary to common sense. What it does mean is that things do not exist the way our grasping self supposes they do. In his book on the Heart Sutra the Dalai Lama calls emptiness "the true nature of things and events," but in the same passage he warns us "to avoid the misapprehensio n that emptiness is an absolute reality or an independent truth." In other words, emptiness is not some kind of heaven or separate realm apart from this world and its woes.

The Heart Sutra says, "all phenomena in their own-being are empty." It doesn't say "all phenomena are empty." This distinction is vital. "Own-being" means separate independent existence. The passage means that nothing we see or hear (or are) stands alone; everything is a tentative expression of one seamless, ever-changing landscape. So though no individual person or thing has any permanent, fixed identity, everything taken together is what Thich Nhat Hanh calls "interbeing." This term embraces the positive aspect of emptiness as it is lived and acted by a person of wisdom -- with its sense of connection, compassion and love. Think of the Dalai Lama himself and the kind of person he is -- generous, humble, smiling and laughing -- and we can see that a mere intellectual reading of emptiness fails to get at its practical joyous quality in spiritual life. So emptiness has two aspects, one negative and the other quite positive.

Ari Goldfield, a Buddhist teacher at Wisdom Sun and translator of Stars of Wisdom , summarizes these two aspects as follows:

    The first meaning of emptiness is called "emptiness of essence," which means that phenomena [that we experience] have no inherent nature by themselves." The second is called "emptiness in the context of Buddha Nature," which sees emptiness as endowed with qualities of awakened mind like wisdom, bliss, compassion, clarity, and courage. Ultimate reality is the union of both emptinesses.


With all of this in mind, I would like to highlight three common misunderstandi ngs of emptiness: emotional, ethical and meditative.

Emotional

When we say "I feel empty," we mean we are feeling sad or depressed. Emotionally speaking, "emptiness" is not a happy word in English, and no matter how often we remind ourselves that Buddhist emptiness does not mean loneliness or separateness, that emotional undertow remains. At various times I have looked for a substitute translation for the Sanskrit sunyata -- I have tried "fullness," "spaciousness," "connectedness," and "boundlessness" -- but as Ari Goldfield points out, "emptiness" is the most exact translation. "Emptiness" is also the term that my own teacher Shunryu Suzuki used, though he usually added context. Once, speaking of emptiness he said, "I do not mean voidness. There is something, but that something is something which is always prepared for taking some particular form." Another time, speaking of the feeling tone of emptiness, he said, "Emptiness is like being at your mothe