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Creative Corner => Online Journal => Topic started by: luvlylisa on October 21, 2010, 01:27:55 PM
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yeah yeah...I used to keep a journal. It was very therapeutic for me. And when I was abroad it was my life-almost. I blogged just about everywhere as well. However, in the last few years I've actually "dropped" my pen and haven't really bothered to "write".
In retrospect things have been mediocre in the past few years. Yes, things could be a TON better...but some things I just can't control. I've come to find myself analyzing a lot (just part of my personality as well) and many of the times it's really depressing. However, I can't let things get to me...especiall y now. So I have to knock through these "walls" and get through it all. I could sit and moan and cry about it (and at times I do) but luckily I have great ppl around me who luv and support me.
In the past year I've really come to know myself and discover who I really am. I've grown a lot and I've still more growing to do. I'm not that little girl who would just sit and take the jabs. Now, I'll freakin' look u in the eyes and not only blatantly tell you what I think of you but if need be, I'll counter u with a nice upper cut! "Kapow!" Take that b|tch! Now step aside please...watch it with the blood...it's a new coat mang!
So yes, I'm as luvly as luvly can be! 8)
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trying to concentrate on work...but my life keeps interfering. I can't run away from it all....but I honestly don't want to deal with it either. It's times like these that I wish I had a magic wand and wave it like so...and *poof* it's all done with. Unfortunately that's just not possible and this weekend I've to prep the papers and hopefully get things "laid out on the table" and finalize things.
Honestly, it's not so much that I don't want it to happen-I think it's time. But I just don't want to physically do it. I mean it's emotionally draining as it is already....but in the end I know it's best for everyone and we'll all be more sane than we are now.
Lisa, just think happy thoughts....ha ppy thoughts.....h appy thoughts.....h appy thoughts and you'll be fine.
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writing in journals help me get through my tough times. hang in there sweetie. :)
awww....thanks. i appreciate it.
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another gloomy day. gee, what more could I possibly ask for? rain, rain, go away-PLEASE!
Each day it gets colder and colder.
but eventually rainbows are ahead....and hopefully I'll get me a pot of gold as well. that, or i find that darn leprechaun.
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Thankfully I'm feeling a lot better today.
As I was leaving he was asking me all sorts of questions. I honestly just wanted to club him over the head and head off to work-but that would be wrong. I answered what I could/wanted and left. I just don't understand why ppl would tell u, or ask u to do something and go and then question what ur doing. Just doesn't make sense and it really irks me!!!
Anyway...I need to focus today at work. It's going to be a busy week with the kids....tutori ng, picking them up, dropping them off, interviewing some new applicants, and then going on a few college visits as well this week! That's not even it....I've to meet with the lawyer and get all this crap done as well! OMG, Halloween weekend, it'll be me, myself, and I. Thank goodness!!!
Urgh....back to work.
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...it's sad when you have to go to the office to "get away" from things. Well, might as well get some work done too since I'm here.
*sigh* the world keeps turning and sometimes you stare off into the distance thinking where did time go? how did things get like this? did we all see this coming and just didn't want to admit it-accept it even? things like this aren't suppose to happen. you weren't suppose to be like that....she wasn't suppose to have said that to make you do that and say that to us. and now everyone is hurt, confused, frustrated, bitter, and disappointed.
well, I hope you are happy with your decision(s). it was obvious that my/our happiness wasn't relevant to you...wasn't important. damn right we're upset...what else can you expect? but know this....karma is a biatch! it's not a threat, it's reality. you think it's so easy to open as many doors as you want and shut whichever ones you feel necessary. i'm simply saying....once you turn your back....shut this door. it is definitely an exit! i'm sorry....do u not see the "DO NOT ENTER" sign? but above all.....rememb er this: YOU chose to leave, WE didn't tell you to. so stop your "pity me" cries and suck it up! (b the "man" that you said you are....however in my eyes, you will never be the man you once were.)
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it's been quiet lately and in a sense things have settled. the holidays are coming up and once again this year it'll be tight for everyone. I'm not expecting much in all aspects in my life right now. Honestly, I'm simply looking to get through to tomorrow....th at's all I need and that's all I'm asking for.
awwkk....just a few more hours and I can go home...or do nothing.
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urgh...it's the weekend and I've to work tomorrow. thankfully it won't be all day...just a few hours.
I've to go take care of some "things" today...hopefu lly it'll all be squared off so I don't have to worry or deal with it anymore.
I'm ready....ready to move on and get work on me for a change.
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for some reason I'm really tired today...no exhausted. my whole body....it's like drained and I was nothing but sluggish today. I'm kind of hoping I'm not sick. That would completely suck especially since I've so much to do at work this week. I should have just stayed in bed all day today and not done anything....bu t unfortunately my mom would never let me get away with that. I should really invest in getting a lock for my room.
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please just leave me alone...I've already enough things to worry about can't you tell? Why do u keep coming around? U know how stressed I am already...plea se....stick ur big nose elsewhere and be gone *poof*!!!
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one thing at a time please.....
thus far I think things are going alright. I wake up every morning and am able to walk, talk, and move this darn thing of a body around...so I am blessed. Thanks, for yet another day.
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it's been a long day....but I'm about to join the girls for some yummy qhob poob and egg rolls. yummy! nothing new as of recent.
perhaps go to a bday dinner this weekend for one of my gf's bday. otherwise I've nothing planned....bee n laying low for a while...it's been nice not going out lately. i kind of need a break....from everything.
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So I'm now sick...nothing serious, just a minor cold. Actually right now I've got me a nice headache! Thanks to someone's thoughtfulness I've to run to get me some theraflu. My mom was mad at me bc I've been "lazy". I wish I could sleep in, but that's just couldn't happen-and I had to do my laundry today.
Turkey day is coming up and my lil sis and bil will be here soon. I'm excited but at the same time, we're all going to be pretty busy. Thankfully I'm going to ask off for a few days-well, I'm thinking about it at least. We're suppose to get some family pictures done as well...we'll see.
I'm glad that I'm not stressed as I was a few months ago. But turn one leaf to only find more cobwebs and spiders lurking underneath, I swear! It's not hard, just complicated and frustrating. Many times I just want to throw my hands up and say screw it. But I know in my heart I can't do that.
*sigh* it's funny how busy I am and how forgetful I've been lately....rega rdless somehow, some way-I find myself thinking about you. I probably shouldn't be...and maybe it's naive of me to even think of u in such a way. You'd figure someone as old as I-would not get so giddy-like a lil school girl but there's just something about you. I'm not going to let it get to this dear head of mine. It is what it is, whatever that may be. For now, it's like a cute puppy....somet hing that brightens up this dark hole of mine...somethi ng that makes me smile and forget about all my worries-even if it's for a second. I thank you for that...because some days I feel like I'll never crawl out of this dark hole...and sometimes I feel like I'll eventually get buried alive. There's no one to save me....but myself. So even though you don't know it, I appreciate your existence-even if you go throughout your day huffing and puffing about your daily tribulations-know that there's someone here who thinks the world of you. Thank you-for giving me a taste of what happiness could be.
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Yeah I'm still sick. I'm ready to go to sleep. Exactly what I'll do once I get home. blah.....take some theraflu and knock the F out.
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Yeah I'm still sick. I'm ready to go to sleep. Exactly what I'll do once I get home. blah.....take some theraflu and knock the F out.
Hey hope you feel better........ ..... and who were you talking about earlier? Silly girl, hahaha.
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Hey hope you feel better........ ..... and who were you talking about earlier? Silly girl, hahaha.
Looks like u found my lil spot here....
Well, thanks BF. ;)
Earlier? I was talking about someone? ???
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Looks like u found my lil spot here....
Well, thanks BF. ;)
Earlier? I was talking about someone? ???
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*sigh* it's funny how busy I am and how forgetful I've been lately....rega rdless somehow, some way-I find myself thinking about you. I probably shouldn't be...and maybe it's naive of me to even think of u in such a way. You'd figure someone as old as I-would not get so giddy-like a lil school girl but there's just something about you. I'm not going to let it get to this dear head of mine. It is what it is, whatever that may be. For now, it's like a cute puppy....somet hing that brightens up this dark hole of mine...somethi ng that makes me smile and forget about all my worries-even if it's for a second. I thank you for that...because some days I feel like I'll never crawl out of this dark hole...and sometimes I feel like I'll eventually get buried alive. There's no one to save me....but myself. So even though you don't know it, I appreciate your existence-even if you go throughout your day huffing and puffing about your daily tribulations-know that there's someone here who thinks the world of you. Thank you-for giving me a taste of what happiness could be.
This. Something on your mind tonight?
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This. Something on your mind tonight?
tonight? y, yes...y can't i get rid of this cold?
howver THAT...? that was yesterday. ::) rn't we just a lil nosy, eh?
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tonight? y, yes...y can't i get rid of this cold?
howver THAT...? that was yesterday. ::) rn't we just a lil nosy, eh?
Just wanted to make sure it wasn't a cry for help. As much as I dislike you, I would never want to one day wake up and log on PH to see you on the Hmong News. O0
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BTW I was kidding..... just in case you didnt get it, girl with no sense of humor.
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Just wanted to make sure it wasn't a cry for help. As much as I dislike you, I would never want to one day wake up and log on PH to see you on the Hmong News. O0
::) pssshhh! i might have cried...but what's it to u? n besides, if it was a cry for help...it wasn't for ur help ::)
n no, i'm not crazy...maybe stressed, frustrated n a bit overwhelmed... but that's it....ok n a bit irritated too.
besides if i end up in the news it'd be bc i knocked ur brains out. O0 :2funny:
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BTW I was kidding..... just in case you didnt get it, girl with no sense of humor.
::) go to sleep yo...stop stalking me n messing w my "journal". 8)
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Thank you for a good nights rest! I feel a whole lot better today-still a bit congested, but I think another night of theraflu will do the trick...I might just guzzle it all down tonight and KO. ;D ;D ;D Then I'll be sleeping like a baby.
Tomorrow we'll be meeting to hopefully finalize things. I really just want to get this done and over with. It's sad that it's been taking so long. Seems like this is sucking out all of me....my life as of recent and could be why I'm sick (other than the change in weather).
I'm spread thin and I'm not liking it one bit. That, too, may be another reason for my sickness. Blah...I just feel like blah.
It's been a while....uhmm. ...life is complicated and absurd but I'm glad to have one such as you around. Thanks again for the giggles and the tickles....the y are much appreciated-even if it's not ur intention(s). O0 O0 O0 Yeah, you can say I've a lil school girl crush...it's simply innocent. That's all.
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yummy! i just had a bowl of features pumpkin ice cream! omg! it was sOoOoOoOoo GOOD!!! i had to sample some for my ice cream cake i'm making this weekend for my friends thanksgiving potluck.
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i'm sincerely flattered...i don't even know what to say-for once i'm speechless. but thankfully, i won't let it get to my head.
no, unfortunately things r not settled ...not just yet. *sigh* i'm so sick of all of this. i'm so over it...but bc i can't be...just got to take it all as it comes.
u want in now after u've thrown ur hands up and given up. don't u even think for a minute that we'll let u back in. u've made the decision to "quit" so don't tell me u want to start over. sorry-game over mister! that's just too bad for u....not me.
on another note...yes, i miss u. ;)
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i'm sincerely flattered...i don't even know what to say-for once i'm speechless. but thankfully, i won't let it get to my head.
no, unfortunately things r not settled ...not just yet. *sigh* i'm so sick of all of this. i'm so over it...but bc i can't be...just got to take it all as it comes.
u want in now after u've thrown ur hands up and given up. don't u even think for a minute that we'll let u back in. u've made the decision to "quit" so don't tell me u want to start over. sorry-game over mister! that's just too bad for u....not me.
on another note...yes, i miss u. ;)
sometimes.. in order for someone to realize and appreciate what they have... they need to lose it first to understand the true value of what they once had. from your standpoint, you may say... "that's just stupid".... but from his standpoint... he didn't understand the true value and your worth until he lost it. If he's a good guy... and treated u rite up until the point of letting go... perhaps.. it's worth another try now that he understands your worth. just my 2 cents and experience from life.
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sometimes.. in order for someone to realize and appreciate what they have... they need to lose it first to understand the true value of what they once had. from your standpoint, you may say... "that's just stupid".... but from his standpoint... he didn't understand the true value and your worth until he lost it. If he's a good guy... and treated u rite up until the point of letting go... perhaps.. it's worth another try now that he understands your worth. just my 2 cents and experience from life.
i'm sorry but if ur a liar and a cheat and u glow and bask in ur own evil doings...and u prance around town and basically shove it in my face...in no way r u saying that u respect me, respect my family, respect or value ur "position" or relation(s) to me, luv me, want to be with me, nor do u want to stay or see a future here. he is the one who ventured out, he is the one who didn't want me, he is the one who left....did he really expect me to be the one waiting? o give me a break. ::) fool me once shame on me, no way r u fooling me twice! others u have but not me @ least.
thanks for ur 2 cents...if only that "is" the case.
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True that O0
Oh... n too get to the original question of Mlle Luvlylisa's journal ... Yeah, she is REALLY all that! ;) ... she's the real deal O0
aww...thanks lucky! :)
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i'm sorry but if ur a liar and a cheat and u glow and bask in ur own evil doings...and u prance around town and basically shove it in my face...in no way r u saying that u respect me, respect my family, respect or value ur "position" or relation(s) to me, luv me, want to be with me, nor do u want to stay or see a future here. he is the one who ventured out, he is the one who didn't want me, he is the one who left....did he really expect me to be the one waiting? o give me a break. ::) fool me once shame on me, no way r u fooling me twice! others u have but not me @ least.
thanks for ur 2 cents...if only that "is" the case.
oh in that case... NEXT! i hate liars and cheaters... you can do better than. I thought perhaps it was just his insecurities.. but if it's becuz of all the above.. NEXT... tell him to take a number and maybe he'll get lucky again... but tell him he's number 89646467946467 94641679746497 64979464649716 74648794 so it may take a while. O0
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I got ur back there Mlle luvlylisa O0 ... queen of Ph rap battle ;)
whatever...u give too much credit...i can't rap.
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so had a few things to do today at work....it was somewhat productive. Can't say I was on here much today...though partially not my own doing.
anyway...I was fine today, but for some reason I've got the biggest headache as of an hour ago. HOWEVER, not that I'm here....it's gone away. Do u think it's from PH w/drawl? LOL :2funny: :2funny: :2funny: Hey, just saying.
Tomorrow I'm going to head out to a new Japanese restaurant (although most ppl who work there are Chinese) in town here....Bamboo House. They've got a Japanese hibachi....but I don't think we'll be having that. My Chinese friend I met this summer wanted to go so my gf and I along with my Chinese friend and her bf will go check it out. Thus far I've heard mixed reviews-mostly good ones though. My brother and his gf went last week and they said it was good. For our small town it's considered "high end" so we'll see. It's nice to have something other than the usual mekas restaurants... .we have a Japanese sushi/chinese buffet dt which is somewhat expensive-the place is really nice but I think the food isn't really worth the money honestly. Will most def take pics to share.
I think I'll be making pumpkin and vanilla swirl ice cream cake for the potluck this weekend. It should be good. Hrrmm, what to make it more delish....? I'll have to think of something, either way I'm sure it'll be spoon lickably good!
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so i went to the new japanese restaurant tonight w my chinese friend echo and her bf. it ws so busy that not only did we have to wait to get seated...we had to wait til like forever to finally get our yummy food...but it was so worth the wait. i'll post pictures later (when i get to it). afterwards we stopped by the grocery store so i could grab some things for next weeks' turkey day. however since my mom luvs duck i got a duck this year (we usually have both on turkey day or xmas-but since my sis n bil r coming for thanksgiving, might as well) n if they want turkey someone else will have to get it. i got potatoes, stuff for pumpkin n lemon poppy bread n meatballs. i also got some stuff for my pumpkin vanilla ice cream cake for tomorrows turkey potluck @ my friends. i'll make it tomorrow morning...givi ng enough time for each layer. i've even got some ginger snaps n snickerdoddle cookies to crumble on top! itms going to be my thanksgiving masterpiece! let's hope it turns out good.this will be my first time making this one. i luv making new and experimenting with different flavors...will post up pictures too!
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making the ice cream cake as we speaking....wa iting for my second layer to harden. gosh, it's so boring today...well, so far. even PH is boring today. n speaking of PH...for some reason i still can't get on from work. keep getting server busy...so i can only get on on my phone-for now. ::)
i'm debating what i'll do next week. i have a few days off n my sis n bils will b here too. we'll have turkey dinner certainly but i dunno if i'm going to tag along w them to mn. i don't even know if i want to go out to the balck friday craze. i'm tempted since i'd like a laptop(need one for work) n a new camera would be nice. but i also want to do some xmas shopping too. which reminds me...i've to get my bils something-might do that today or tomorrow...sin ce we'll b celebrating xmas turkey day since they're not going to be here for xmas. i'd luv to go to mn...but i know if i go then i'll want to spend more $ and we don't need to spend any more $. urgh! ::) we'll see.
*i appreciate those who lurk on here...however fyi, many of the times my "rantings" when referencing to ppl...r not directed to one or the same person. so yes, it may b confusing to u, but it's for me to know...i may share..but i won't share everything. 8) kthnxbye
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sadly, my ice cream cake didn't set in time for the potluck n it was a mess...regardl ess it was still good. O0 that just means i'll have to make one for turkey day...well, maybe. 8)
the potluck was good...ate n the kids were all too cute running round n playing...laug hing up a storm. who knew they'd be so amused w a darn hallway just running up n down it. but hey, whatever keeps them from crabbypants n pouting.
we ended up just hanging out after everybody left..passing rounds of crown royal to the bday boy as we talked bout someone's luv life (no, not mine of course) n watched GROWN UPS (hilarious movies-the guys kept saying it would be them n 10 years or so).
i came home last night only to go in n out of dreaming bout a certain PHer. i kept having this dream over n over all night. i was posting threads @ my maptop n u were posting as well...posting to each other n commenting to one another back n forth. all i know was i was giggling n laughing the whole time...quite amusing. yes, even n my dreams u've got my attention. :D :D :D
started xmas shopping today...n just had dinner @ bamboo house again..sushi was sooOoOoo good tonight!
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went to bed late last night (then again, I go to bed late every night). as of recent, i've been having the wackiest of dreams. the only part that I remember from my dream last night was when I was sitting at a table talking to this guy who seemed to be one of my korean friends from abroad. but funny enough, while "studying" i was talking to him in english, chinese, korean and hmong. (it was odd bc most of my korean friends I made while abroad in china obviously spoke korean but were pretty good in chinese however, none were willing to speak english with me-and duh, they don't speak hmong.) The funniest part was when I asked him (in a mix of all the languages above) if he liked boobs while pointing to the picture in the magazine I was reading. He smiled. I was teasing him....as he blushed and we laughed. Apparantly we must have been in class or something bc we purposedly were trying to jumble up the language so the teacher would not be able to know what content of our conversation. ;D ;D ;D Damn, these dreams have been quite interesting lately. (Sorry, that's all that happened....no thing more than that you sick pervs!)
So we're sitting here helping my kids fill out stuff for scholarships as it's about that time of the year. trying to get a head start on things and hopefully get them started so that we don't have to worry about this later next semester. I just hope that these kids actually continue to look up scholarships and fill out applications. i wish i would have done that when i was their age....i mean, hello...free money!
it's going to be a busy week...i have work tomorrow but I'm off Tues til Monday! How awesome is that? O0
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OK pics of the yummy food I had over the weekend. O0 O0 O0 O0
The Japanese Restaurant -Bamboo House
the sushi bar side
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The hibachi grills
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the cool/pretty lighting in the middle of the restaurant
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our sushi: Black dragon roll, bamboo house roll, sweetheart roll, n california roll. dragon roll
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new york roll and sweetheart roll
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the hai nan duck
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mussels with thai basil
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orange chicken
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hot n spicy beef
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steamed dumplings
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These here are from the potluck
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...and the cute kids!
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I'm tired....too much gobble gobble! I'm doing laundry now. It's been a chillaxin weekend/break.
Trying to "finish" some stuff, hopefully things will "settle" this week. heck, they'd better.
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yes! i have the day off tomorrrow. O0 going to spend it w my sis n bil b4 they head back home to phili. we're going to go shopping n get manis and maybe pedis (my sis' xmas present 4 me). we're taking r vizio tv back cause it's not playing right (audio issues). we're going to take some family photos tomorrow n then have a nice family dinner too. we might head out to the new japanese place-nothing is certain as far as location...but we'll not worry bout that. we might just spend some family time playing board games tonight...sinc e we've not played for a long time.
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been busy....just simply that.
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do u ever feel like everything...l ike life is nothing but a blur? :-\
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tonight's so cold inside my room..... :-[
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I've been busy....
...and lazy. 8)
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just got done watchin this korean movie, the chaser. i give it an 8/10. it's about this guy who's a "pimp" (actually he manages a "call girl" service) n notices that his girls keep disappearing. so one night after a "client" calls n he sends over one of his girls he realizes that all the missing girls go missing after meeting w this client. the pimp thinks that this client is screwing him over buy selling his girls..little does he know this client is really a psycho/serial killer....and the killer sends the pimp n cops on a wild goose chase (hence, chaser). i honestly like movies like this bc u don't know what to expect-it's unpredictable, which i luv! n a lil blood n gore is a-ok w me! 8) overall, a good rental choice! O?
been busy w work recently but that'll for the next few weeks...i hope. :-\
there's all this darn snow n i hate it! blah! but @ least the temp has been midwest ok...though i know that'll change SOON! ::)
yeah it's been a while...and i should keep this to myself...but honestly, i miss u. hope ur doing well...sweet dreams dear. ;) i know when time permits i may c u again...until then i'll just keep myself busy. :)
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gotta do a few evals for work today....and then I'm off for the weekend.
What am I doing this weekend? Nothing.....go tta prepare some papers though. ::)
I think I'll go "window shopping" later after work....cause I can. O0 And it's a nice "work out". ;D ;D ;D ;D
you caught me....i've been secretly waiting here for you-no I'm no stalker! cause that would mean that i peek into your windows, drive five cars behind you when you go to work and back, break in and wear your dirty clothes while you're away running errands and frame the hair folicles i found in your bathroom! ｉ'm nothing of the sort! 8)
:idiot2: :idiot2: :idiot2: or so u think....mmmuu uaaahhaahahaha hahahahah!!!! :2funny: :2funny: :2funny:
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all that shoveling of the darn snow......than ks! now I think I'm sick!
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OK, made it out of bed today. Even if I wanted to call in to work today, I just couldn't. We have a staff meeting today, I've to meet with tutors to do evaluations and then I've two orientations this afternoon. It's going to be a LOOONNNGGG day! Thankfully I'm just a bit sore...my neck, my back and goodness these arms are aching. But at least we can get out of the driveway....we ll, my mom at least since she's the only one who parks there.
I'm a bit tired today. I came in early today since I don't won't be having tutoring now...I'll have to come in earlier everyday now. I guess I should be glad since it means that I'll be done earlier in the day. I guess.
I've really trying to finalize everything...b ut it's been taking longer than expected...and it doesn't help when I get "distracted" or pulled away from it. I know, I know-if I want it done I've just to do it and "get er done"! So I'm thinking by the end of this week....i had better have it all done to turn in!!!
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i've been feeling very disconnected lately....a bit lonely. :(
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Anything I can help you with? Haven't talked with you here in a while. :-[
awww...ur such a sweetheart! :) yeah it's been a while...n u've always been a great listener hpa...a true friend. i appreciate it mucho!
don't worry bout me...eh, i've been watching my dramas...just finished one tonight. n doesn't help that i'm an overly emotional kind of girl. ::) (but it was a good 1 anyway) O0
help? ??? ahhh...i don't think u can help me. r u going to play santa? can u pull out that guy (whoever he is) from thin air for this dear PHer? O0 i mean, i may b a jaded lil girl when it comes to luv..scorned n whatnot but i'm really a hopeless romantic...i'm just also a realist as well. even the jaded n pessimistic ones yearn for the "fairytale" too! *sigh* eh don't mind me...i was just think aloud. :-X
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Hey Lisa, if it's any consolation, you're greatly admired and your presence here is infectious. The cold, the season, just "something", right? Do take care and be well.
Love ya, like a sistah!!!
:) thanks hpa! got me all red now.
actually, i'm not diagnosed w it..and i don't remember the actual name of it, but i get really depressed in the winter. some years it's not so bad..other years i feel like everyday is a typical grey day, freezing -15 degrees w windchills making it seem -30, smuggy slush is nothing but dirty ice..n u want to do nothing but sit n front of the tv or lay n bed all day n stare @ the cracks in the walls. :( this year many things have happened-or r still happening n yet to happen...so i'm just "going through" it all. it's hard...life's hard n it can get very cold n bitter when u feel it all going downward...n u've got no one to hold ur hand n tell u it's going to be ok. sometimes or many times it's very exhausting waking up to deal w the little thing life throws @ u....many times u feel so defeated; ur numb to everything already that u just auto pilot it all now.
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so we met again tonight...had to make some definite clarifications n put an end to all of this. ::) so by the end of this week....it'll be a bittersweet goodbye..can't put this off anymore.
i help do this radio show once a month...urgh! n every time i do it i always end up n tears! just can't help myself....but either way i'm very passionate bout what i talk about (sadly my emotions get the best of me n i don't get to voice things as clear n concise as i hope to...but eh, it is what it is) i just wished us "kids" get a lil ounce of respect that we desrve for having the "balls" to talk bout these "controversial" topics. in no way r we saying ur wrong...it's suppose to be a safe place for dialogue...tha t's all it is. ::)
thank u for ur concern. got me choked up reading ur lil note to me. i do think of u as a friend..or someone i've come to know...but to know that u took time out of ur busy schedule to c that i'm ok (check up on me)...it was very touching...i appreciate it much! :) thanks for sending me a virtual hug...at least that's what it felt like-n i needed one too! O0 ur the best--yes, u know who u r. ;)
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It's a new day! O0 O0 O0
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::) snow....blah!!! >:( >:( >:(
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our family holiday pics....enjoy! O0 O0 O0
**POOF** gone!
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Luvlylisa great pictures! You have a beautiful family, and I see that they love taking silly photos too.
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Luvlylisa great pictures! You have a beautiful family, and I see that they love taking silly photos too.
actually the last one my BIL wanted to take a funny one with my lil cousins....so we all jumped in on it too.
Yes, I luv my funnies!!! O0 O0 O0
Thanks Peachy!
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urgh...I've got to drive an hour today to go out and do some "advising". I really don't want to be out in this snow....but work is work. ::)
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it's xmas eve...had pastor n some ppl from church over today...just to have a "thank u" dinner n have a "blessing" for the house n for the new year.
speaking of new year...it's fast approaching..a nd i can't even believe that the year had flown by so fast. seems like it's no where near the end but it IS. *sigh* where did time go? ???
times like these r suppose to b about family...unfor tunately, my family is dysfunctional. ..but now apart...broken . it's been hard, very difficult n we're all "dealing" w it the best we can/know how. what can i say...it is what it is. :-\
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Went out last night to the lights w my best girl and her sister. had fun....the lights are so pretty! we ended up coming back to her place to relax n watch some movies and drink hot chocolate. i ended up spending the night. xmas and gifts isn't a big deal for me....not really. nothing for me to rush home for.....so here i am on ph.
hrrrmmm....wha t to do today? ??? ??? ???
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my brother is awesome! he listens well. :) for xmas he got me hk stuff-not a surprise...but he also got me a new camera. (one of those samsung TL205 w the LCD front screen) i've been complaining bout my camera since the zoom button has been really sticky n sometimes the camera seems as if it's possessed (turn power off n it stays on or it doesn't even turn on sometimes, @ times it's on but it won't/can't do anything no matter what i press/do, etc.) i'm still playing round w it. he gets the award every year for best gifts (for me). O0
gonna have r meeting today...please, let's keep it short n sweet. there's no turning back now come tomorrow i'll be able to breathe n hopefully have all this weight lifted off my shoulders cause literally...my back, shoulders n neck has been so sore these past few weeks...i'm really feeling it! :( not good!
it's been a while...i hope u r well. time to time u appear in this mind of mine...sometim es when i least expect it. is it a good thing? i just smile as i think to myself...i must be blessed to see such a beautiful soul w all this chaos around me. thank u for the smiles...i appreciate it much. :)
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just when I thought this was going to be simple.....r u f*ing kidding me? Urgh!!!! >:( >:( >:( >:(
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though i say I'm patiently waiting....dee p down inside...I'm biting off all my nails and can't sit still....getti ng antsy waiting....how much longer mang!?!?!?! :-\
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i'm tired.....of everything. ::) :(
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at the office.....fin ishing up the last of it...or so I hope!
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Ｓｏ ｉt's a new year. 2011 is finally here. I had a relaxing 5 day vacay....i really didn't do much. new years was drama free and with that-good enough for me. i think a lot of ppl decided to stay in this year...probabl y a good thing.
the new year is off to an OK start....one thing forsure, it's going to be a year of great/many changes. That I'm certain.
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got a few things to do today....but imma go hit the gym today!!! Making an effort to drag my arse there bc I really need to. Again, thinking about myself for once!
Speaking of which...I bought myself some nice cozy "slippers" to wear at the office. It's just four of us who work here and most of the time we all take off our shoes and stretch our toes anyway...come summer we're practically barefoot in the office! anyway....the slippers are awesome considering the cold arse winters here. And since I am one of the few girls who don't wear boots...it's nice to have cozy slippers instead of my wet shoes from the snow. O0 O0 O0 O0
i've always had issues sleeping but for the last month it's been getting worse. I'm tossing and turning more than ever and I'm even waking up in the middle of the night now. Usually it was just sleep apnea since it took forever for me to fall asleep...now it's more like issues staying asleep. urgh! >:( ::) ::) ::)
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Happy birthday dad......ur papers have been filed today! (It wasn't purposedly to have been filed today...just finally got everything done. Oh well, at least it's all done now.)
I've gotten to bed early a few nights now...but nothing consistent. I really need to, I know. But for the life of me...I just can't seem to get to bed before 9. ::) ::) ::)
I did say that this year is a year of change didn't I? Well, someone decided to give my number out to a friend of hers yesterday. She asked first if it was OK (thankfully she did. I hate ppl who give out your number w/o asking!)...she said she had a friend who was wanting some company of a lady. ??? I'm no hater....and hey, I'm game to meet new ppl-it's not like he's proposing marriage or anything. If all else fails...I've made a new friend if anything. So I gave my consent and didn't think much of it.
Last night as I was getting ready for bed (11PM or so) i got this text message...noth ing but a :) obviously from a number I didn't recongnize. So I asked who it was....and he said the was my friends' friend. After a few text messages, he wanted to call me. So he called and we talked. Honestly, it has been a while since I've had anyone call me so it was "refreshing" as I told him.
He's quite a character....v ery outspoken and direct-to the point. He's a big jokester and may come off as a sleezeball even....but he sounds like he's got a good heart. I even got a change to "psycho analyze" him (I don't mean to do that...but it's only natural that I put this stuff I've paid great money for to use)and though he claims that he's just not the relationship kind of guy (@ least he's honest) he has obviously been jaded somewhere in his life to not want to commit ever.
Anyway.....it's just a phone call. He wants to call me again tonight...we'll see. I'm still at work, so eh. Nothing to make much of....as we're just "getting to know each other". It is what it is....whatever it may be. 8)
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eh.....i don't want to get out of bed @ all today! @ least it's friday! n being that it's friday my day will b a short 1...well, @ work that is.
*sigh* where o where...art thou tus hlub? i need some1 to rub my feet n neck. actually a nice all body massage would be awesome...but i'm ticklish. :D i remember getting those when i was abroad in china....the best thing ever! O0
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eh...I'm bored as phawk.
what to do, what to do....what to do?
Guess I'll head on home and get my tennis shoes and head on to the gym. I need it and well, I've nothing else better to do, right? Bout time I get my butt back there anyway.
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urgh...i don't want to do anything today. can i just stay n bed all day? who wants to snuggle n cuddle? trust me, u'll b warm! :2funny:however, strictly cuddling...if i feel anything else...*kick* ur butt off the bed. 8) i said snuggle cuddle! ::)
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have u ever lost anyone close to u? i can honestly say...i've lost ppl i knew n ppl who r family...but no 1 particularly "close"? i've lost one close cousin. he was about 16 n i was probably 13 @ the time. he was shot in a drive-by. yes, he may have put himself n this situation bc of the ppl he decided to associate w. regardless, he was a good kid, a sweet guy...a lot of ppl luved him-the girls especially. when he died it was the first time i had experienced death-in the sense where it touched my heart, tugged it n clenched it. it's been years now since i've experienced loss so close to me.
last night my brother n i were @ a friends' (technically we're related through my moms' side...n the oldest son is a good guy friend of mine since middle school) house helping them fold money boats. his father just past thursday. he had suffered a stroke years ago n had been wheelchair bound for about four years now. it was sad to b there..but the support was much needed.
just makes u wonder bout all others around u...everyone has a time. w all that's been going on n my life as of lately...i can't n don't want to imagine that one day when those luved ones' time is up.
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:sad1: got a killer headache ...but i've still laundry to do. ::) ::) ::)
gonna KTFO when I get home from laundry. I've been really tired lately....thin king work and all this paperwork crap is finally catching up with me! :confused2: blah!! :buck2:
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calling it a day....need to go home!
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OMG...is this the year for change or what? i'm not going to elaborate now...but goodness. i surely didn't c that tonight! nothing much really...but for someone who's been out of this game for a while...honest ly, it's kind of weird n quite frankly scarey too. half the time i've got this look on my face like..."er... :-\ is this really happening? ??? n do i really want to believe or should i believe this is happening?" 8) yeah it may be a bit overwhelming n much-not that i can't take it...but i'm just not used to it. (due to my own personal insecurities.. .blah blah blah)
anyway...i'm going to have me a four day weekend...yes, i've a funeral to attend, but some friends to be coming n2 town that i've not seen for a while...so it'll b nice. O0
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Yes, indeed it's been an interesting year to start. Works getting better...runni ng smoother...it's work
My phone's been going crazy and well....it's nice I won't lie. 8)
It's good...but don't get the wrong idea-cause I surely am not.
Tell me this though....guys these days! I swear, everyone is all about sex....it really is overrated. I don't mind that ppl are honest and straight to the point (yes, the mind games are annoying and if we can do w/o them-much appreciated), blunt even, however I'm a lady after all. I may be a very open person...hones t (sometimes for my own good...ok, maybe a bit naive too) but I've no shame...theref ore, I've nothing to hide in that sense. And honestly, I'd rather ppl get to know me-in all realness then you don't have to worry about "playing up" an image or whatever. I really am a "take it or leave it" kind of girl. But yes, anyway-back to my point....guys these days....strict ly about sex. Again, like I said in another thread...
"Hi, I'm John. What's your name?" :)
"Hi, it's Lisa." :)
"Nice to meet you Lisa."
"Nice to meet you too John."
"Wow, you have such a sexy voice." 8)
"Uh....uhmm, thanks." :-\ :-[
"So, are you a virgin?" 8)
"Excuse me? Did you just ask me what I thought you asked me?" :o ::) ::) ::)
"is that too personal of a question first meeting?" ???
::) ::) ::) ::) As I told "him"....I've no problem w/ someone asking me that....just not w/n the first encounter. bc honestly, I'm not one of those girls/ppl who jump from bed to bed...heck, I'm not even a serial dater let alone jumping beds. ::) That almost tells me what ur after....or at least what's really on ur mind. And honestly...fro m there I'm not going to take you all too seriously.
Also...please if u r trying to "talk" to someone...espe cially w/n the fist call or whatever...ur still "getting to know" each other. I honestly get uncomfortable when the potentials start talking in future tense.
"When we see each other...", "maybe this summer we..."......blah blah blah. Hold up dude...I just got ur basic "application"....no one said that you were hired....so y r u acting like u've got the job n am assuming the role already?
As I've said....I may be single....but please....I'm not desperate!
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r u kidding me? Don't tell me I've got game!!! After one conversation.. ..ur telling me u want a relationship? ???
:idiot2: :idiot2: :idiot2: :idiot2:
really, is it me? or should i just strap on my boots and jump right in?
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he called me right when i got home after my workout. i didn't mind talking until he kept pressing the "so what r we?", "what do u think bout "us"?" questions...th en it just got kind of annoying. i mean, he's actually hot looking-he could get any girl he wants...n mayb since i'm not going "gaga" over him he's finding me to b "interesting" n challenging. who knows. ::)
anyway, had to go wash up for bed...so he let me go--to wash up n still wanted to "talk really late tonight?" as he said. my usual answer..."uh, we'll c". 8) mayb that's my prob too...i bring it on myself since i'm too nice n don't want to give him a bruised ego...n don't just say we can talk for like 30 min the most bc i'm tired as fawk n i'd rather b sleeping than listening to the "bay bay" n "honey..".
but here's the funny thing...after i showered he didn't call n after a long day n my workout, honestly i was pooped! so i went to bed--had it been high school i'd wait up for these silly phone calls-no can do now. 8) however, i did text him apologizing not being able to talk n calling it a night...and KOed. this morning...i saw two missed calls @ 12:30 n a text message! something along the lines of...."i'm sorry i didn't call earlier, but i really wanted to talk to u...i miss u...i look forward to talking tonight then..good night" :-\
some crazy mofos, i swear! i don't doubt his interests...no t going to lie-it's a bit flattering. given that i've not had a relationship since high school i'd jump right onthis-especially considering what a hottie he is....but eh... :( just met the poor guy n he's already starting to suffocate me. nothing but red flags all over this. can't we just keep this @ a friendly "get to know u" level? ??? urgh! ::)
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I think he was ignored as a kid.
;D i told my brother bout these guys n he laughed....esp ecially bout this one. ^^^ funny though bc one of r good friends moved out to cali a few years ago..n he told my brother that cali guys got no game out there. :2funny: n i'm starting to believe that more now. :D
honestly, he'd be likeable if he wasn't so pushy n even needy...cause hems starting to sound clingy which can mean control freak! :idiot2: :idiot2: :idiot2:
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They get weird. Tell him to have a ham sandwich with a pickle spear once in a while. Might change his perspective and his "mackin'" ability. ;D
OMG...what a jerk! he just called asked me about my day...blah blah n then was like..."so do u wanna have fun w me...on the phone?" ??? i was like..WTF?! like i said..."what were u really expecting me to say nonetheless do? say yes n start breatheing heavy n stuff?"
he didn't what to say but apologized n said he had to charge his phone n would call me back. ::) i thought he was embarrassed n would just go like that. but no...he then added..."but don't fall asleep...n if u do text me so i know. cause i still want to talk." ::) please...i'm not even going to bother now. no thank u!
not worth my time, my minutes (if we were using any), not worth me getting to know him...cause thus far...burnt toast has more to offer me. 8)
thanks hpa for ur 2 cents though. i'll just take that ham sandwich n pickle for myself. O0
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Most are still getting off the dock...getting off of the Chinese Junk on the harbor.
guys or ham sandwiches? ???
n can u believe it? i of course went to bed....didn't bother texting him that i wasn't "waiting up" n as i woke up this morning to take my mom to phone i saw that he called me @ 3:45 this morning! ??? ::) hell-2-the-no i wouldn't b picking up any phone calls @ that hour-especially his. ::) stupid boys!
hpa...no, wonder y i'm single huh? idiots like that, no thanks! 8)
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Here's a tip Lisa, if asks you if you would want to talk with him later, just tell him straight.
He'll just bounce back like a kid, no bruised ego. ;D
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Here's a tip Lisa, if asks you if you would want to talk with him later, just tell him straight.
He'll just bounce back like a kid, no bruised ego. ;D
he hasn't been texting me...mayb he got the idea. 8)
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@ a funeral this weekend. we stayed til 4 this monring...n then came back to my house. funerals rn't suppose to b fun...but i had a good time yesterday. some old arse G was gaga for one of my girls (who happens to b divorced). he was old enough to b her father...he was this tiny old man...kind of creepy looking...who passed his business card to her through r other friends' husband. ;D he was a dr. of some sort w a lil clinic like business n mlps. but we found out from friends who r also relatives of the deceased that that old man was their uncle n he is married! ha, no kidding eh? ::) he wanted my girls' number to bad he took it upon himself to write her a lil luv note..it was hilarious n disgusting @ the same time. :D :puke: good laughs though! u just had to b there.
it's been days now since i've spoken to him...n i've been bz w the funeral n being hostess to my guests. he just doesn't get the clue...i ignored him for two whole days n finally text him that i am @ a funeral..can't talk-mayb some other time. he says ok...but was like just text me when u go home. ::) ur kidding, right? that was two days ago...he did the same yesterday night n text me this morning (as he does every morning). ::) ok, he's either clueless n dumb as a rock or he's just determined n persistent as fawk!
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i had a good day thus far...until i got here @ the funeral. i was fine...meeting up w ppl i've not seen n years n catching up. while my girl n i were talking to r friend..one of my cousins (though he's my dads age) came up to me n started interrogating me bout my parents. he then went to ask me specifics things bout my "feelings" bout my dad. i didn't want to talk about it..n the more he kept digging the more i was getting upset n emotional...to the point where i couldn't hold back the tears n i was basically sobbing. it was harder bc i didn't like the guy either. in addition to the fact that we were @ a public place n as hmoob ppl r...they were staring n wondering from afar what was going on. i eventually told him i didnmt want to talk about it anymore. though he was being sympathetic he was also criticizing me for feeling the way that i do. my friend told me he seemed genuine...but i felt otherwise.
what made it worse was another uncle/family friend who had a few too many drinks was talking to my brother n i n was telling us how bad he felt n was telling us that he didn't understand the y's as to the result of r family..but for us to know that he luved us too. he was telling us that we shouldn't feel bad n we shouldn't feel shame or guilt..it wasn't r fault. it was nice to know n hear but he was making a "scene" somewhat out of it since he was a bit intoxicated... talking so loud that everyone was looking. then again i was still emotional from my talk w my uncle so w his talk it sent me n tears fast!!! i just couldn't help it.
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To be honest, sometimes these OGs can be douchebags. Some need to simply simmer down, regardless of setting.
There, I said it.
yes, @ times i feel like they need to be put n their place. ::) oh well...
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Just smile and deliver as needed. ;)
i don't do "fake". i try my damnest to bite my tongue...but i'm very real...sometim es a bit harsh even w older folks but...more so the 1s who mistreat me n look down on me. if u don't respect me...i cannot do the same to u. 8)
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I didn't want to get out of bed at all today...but I had to. The weekend was an exhausting one. I slept most of the day yesterday....d idn't realize I was that tired but I most have been. :dontknow:
After sleeping most of the day yesterday I went and rented me some movies (Oh yeah, note to self need to return a few tonight!!!) and watched Resident Evil and The Social network last night. They were OK. He kept calling me in the middle of my movies but I didn't pick up (yeah, I was still avoiding him). I just don't understand. After about four days you'd figure ppl would normally just give up or get the idea and "move along". But not this nguy! ::) Though I've been ignoring him-I am still very nice about it. He called me last night after I text to tell him that I was bz and apologized for not picking up. He called once again...and for once I picked up. (Given that he has been so persistent I guess one little phone call wouldn't hurt.) For once it was decent talking to him. I was tired still and he seemed like he just woke up. He asked about my weekend and seemed genuinely concerned about me knowing that I was at a funeral all weekend (I didn't specify who so he just assumed it was someone close to me-especially since I was there all weekend) that was nice. Regardless, he kept the conversation short and was wanting to "check up" on me considering the long weekened I had had. Hrrrmmm....per haps that last episode made him rethink his "approach" to things. There is still no "us" as I've told him it's too soon to say. Thus far it's just simply someone who calls me from time to time. Until I know more or feel differently that's all it will be for now.
It doesn't feel like it's been a long day...but I'm still at work and I've another 30 minutes at the least. ::) I had originally planned on going to the gym after work (round 5) but I guess I can/should still go after work...it won't be too late. And I shouldn't be making excuses...I should at least hit the trendmil and sauna.
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been busy prepping for P-ACT testing for my kids. Finally finished today, though some ppl didn't wake up this morning so they missed it. That just means they'll have to make it up-on their own time.
I'm proud of myself...I've been making it a point to hit the gym. I can't go everyday bc of my hetic schedule...I'm lucky if I get to go twice a week. Now that tutoring will be starting soon...I really need to find time to "do me".
He's still not "out of the woods" as of yet. I'm still the nice girl...but still avoiding it when possible as well. I just don't understand...h ow someone can be so sure of something after a mere few weeks? Don't you want to get to know ppl first rather than just jump right in? It may just be my personality and it may just be the fact that I've been jaded and am VERY cautious--OK, sometimes too cautious for my own good. BUT I do follow my intuition often...and thus far, it's telling me nothing. You know what I mean? I mean, when you like someone-despite whether you've met in person or not--you click, your personalities click, right? You get that tingling feeling inside...the butterflies and your excited, nervous....u know like ur a lil school girl again. I DON'T feel that way. Most of the time....I'm ::) or :-\
The other night he STILL was asking me y we weren't an "item". He even asked me....""don't u want me as ur bf?" as if he was the sh|t and I was passing up a great opportunity or something...li ke he was giving me this once chance to be with him. WTF? ::) :idiot2: :idiot2: :idiot2: Again, I'm single but not desperate. I simply explained that I dunno him well enough...but it wasn't good enough of an answer for him. Yes, he makes valid points...."...we can still date and get to know each other...nothin g wrong with that"...."I'm single, you're single...I"m lonely....you're lonely.."
Hold up! Hey, mister I'm single...yes, but lonely-speak for yourself. I never said I was lonely. 8) ;D ;D ;D ;D We know who's lonely! :2funny: So I then ask him this: "OK, so you say you want to be my bf. what is it that you see that makes you feel that way? what is it about me...makes it certain as you are that we should be exclusive?"
His answer: "bc y not? I'm already talking to you. you're not dating anyone else....and like I said, we're both single." really? u text and call me everyday and that's ur reasoning? ??? ::) ::) ::) LAME! Yes, way, to sweep me off my feet....sorry, no-u do not pass go, u do not collect $200 and you most definitely am not getting some! U might as well just go to jail. :police: :police: :police:
Errr....I was like, "OK, but if you're just looking to fill up a space of being single....y bother w/ me? Yes, I'm single too...but if I wanted to just not be single I can simply do that here...no need to be calling strangers from 4-5 states over." He must have felt silly/stupid....whatever..cause he then made the excuse that he had to go and would call me back. ::) I just ;D ;D ;D and hung up. However, he did call back....at like 3AM! No thanks mister....I've better things to do like....zzZZzZ ZZZzZzzz :sleepy1:
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had friends over last night...just chillaxin, it was fun. good times, yes. O0 friday night we went to have a few drinks n headed dt bc the night was still young. surprisingly,we had a good time-lots of laughs forsure. my bro met this korean guy n was asked what his nationality was. my bro said hmong...n he was like cool. he told my bro that he looked korean not hmong...n then said thathe was korean. my bro was like "u should meet my sister..."! ;D yeah, i dunno y (ok, i do...since i've been back from abroad (china) my brother will intro all/any "foreign" ppl to me...as if we would click or something-what a dork!) he does that...but he intro us to each other. i said hi (n korean). he later bought us a round of shots, gam sa ham ni da. :) i went back to my friends n dancing. he n his friends came over by us n he started talking to me. found out he was from chicago...when i asked him y he'd come to this tiny town..he pointed to the girl next to him...n asked her..."y am i here? y did i come here again?" she gave him a glare...n he responded..."oh, for her." lol :2funny: ::) he was a nice guy...but reminded me of someone recent....lame . :D :D :D
anyway......
...u make my heart sing...but u rn't listening. probably 'cause ur too bz dancing to ur own song.
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it was a long day today... :-\
i haven't a clue y my left foot, no, ankle hurts so much. ??? i feels like i rolled it..but i know i didn't. it was fine when i woke up today but when i got out of the car @ work..somethin g was weird...i had trouble just gettin up from my chair cause i couldn't stand on it...let alone walk. so no gym today for me. :( but tomorrow, no excuses--i will go to the gym...jus limited as to what i can do. 8)
tired...need to sleep.
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OK this is my lame text/convo with the wanna-b bf...let's call him Tran, shall we? (Keep in mind he already knows what I look like...just blowing smoke up my arse....I'd rather go to sleep, no thanks.) The smilies are what I think he's feeling...and mine are what I really felt at the time.
T: Hey u! :)
LL:Hi T...it's been a long day. hopefully urs has been good. :)
T:Mines been ok. :)
LL:Good for u. :)
T:Haven't heard from u these couple of days...what u been up to? :(
LL:nothing... 8)
T:Any luck with guys? :-\
LL:what do u mean? ???
T:Any guy get at u? :-\
LL:Sorry, u should know by now..no guys don't "get @ me". ::)
T:Bcuz they r stupid!! ::) ;D
U b my gf? O0 O0 O0
LL:Ha, thanks. It is what it is...what can u say? :)
Err....again, my answer is still the same. Too soon to say that I want to go there, sorry. ::)
T:What r u doing at home? >:D
LL:Getting ready for bed. 8)
T:Take a pic of u & what u wearing >:D >:D >:D
LL:...I don't think so. ??? ::) :-\ :idiot2: :knuppel2:
T: Y not? ???
LL:Y should I? >:(
T:It don't matter how u look. :)
LL: Er...no thanks. ::)
T:I like what i c about u. ;)
LL:But tell me though, what exactly is it that u c? I mean, what do u like about me? ??? ::)
T:U, that's what I like about u. ;) O0 >:D
LL: U can't tell me what it is specifically? ::)
T:Ur beautiful face and sexy ass body! >:D >:D >:D
LL:Really?...is that so? ::) ::) ::)
T:Yes, babe. O0 O0 O0 >:D >:D >:D
LL:I guess....if u say so. ::) :idiot2: :idiot2: :idiot2:
T:I do! O0 O0 O0 O0
LL:OK...well, gnight gotta get me some zzzZzzZzz... ::) ::) ::) 8) :sleepy1: :sleepy1: :sleepy1:
T:OK...gnight. :'( :'( :'(
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My ankle still hurts.. :'(
He's still not giving up! ::) ::) ::) BUt damn...it's enough that I got a surprise in my FB inbox yesterday....b ut goodness! :o ::) got another surprise yesterday night when I got a text message. Someone decided it was hawt or sexy or whatever to send me sext pic of their family jewels. Seriously!?!?!?! ::) Do ppl really think this is their way of insuring that they'll "get some"....heck, that they'll get anything? Like I said...."do u send pic of ur c0ck to every girl?" ??? ::) He replied..."no, just u bc I like u." I'm sure I'm not the first to hear that...pfft! Again, I'm single-but not desperate. 8)
Don't get me wrong, I like men...I like them a lot....but give me a break-do u really think flashing someone ur c0ck is really going to "win" them over? Not implying it was "bad looking" of one....but what kind of girl do u take me for? ??? ::) So what did I do? i told him i had to go to bed. He tried calling me after he sent the pic (along with 5 other text messages ::) ) but i didn't pick up. Told him I had way too much for one night and there was no way I was going to talk to him after seeing "him". "Fine, we'll talk tomorrow, right?" :idiot2: :idiot2: :idiot2: :idiot2:
Seriously!!! Some guys just don't get it. ::) ::) ::)
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sorry, i've decided...game over!
we went out last night n tonight. it's been a while since i've gone out n had fun. good laughs w good company. O0 i'm so glad i have awesome friends. we danced a bit...sweating like mad crazy but it was my workout for the day.
i'm not a violent person but i was so close to chuckin my glass of water @ this white girl. the whole time she was looking some of my girls n other hmong girls up n down n making disgusting facial gestures n whispering to her friend n bf. it was obvious that she was talking trash. i don't look for trouble but i can't stand ppl who hate on others bc they feel/think they r better than them. she was totally dissing us bc how we "dance"; she thought her skills were better. she wasn't bad n it was obvious that she has had classes n was a trained dancer. no hating n that...but don't hate us bc u think ur better...that isn't cool w me. but i knew if i did anything i'd have to explain to my boss n kids...so i just let it be.
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It's been a long day. Just got done with tutoring...and I've still got laundry to do...but I'll leave that for tomorrow morning.
Nothing new here....gonna go home now and get me some :sleepy2:
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yet again...going through some changes.....
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i want to go to the cities badly this weekend...i told fres i'd come up for the show. however, this snow is NOT helping one bit! i'm due for some grooming as well..not to mention the fact that i'd like to check out the new flea market too. mayb i'll wait it out n c if sat. is any better n go then. we'll just have to wait n c. 8)
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headed to MN....possibly .
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my eyes hurt...yet again. I really need to get 'em checked out!
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urgh! i've been coughing up a storm....feels as if i've coughed up my heart, lung, liver n kidneys...my nose is stuffy, running, stuffy n running all n circles...it's ridiculous! i am congested n have minor headaches...ur gh! ::) i better b well by this weekend so i can go back to work.
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no such luck, i'm still sick! i've all the above except the headaches r gone...gee, i guess that's a good thing, right? ??? ::)
so what am i going to do today? SLEEEEEEEEP!!! might as well n hope this cold dies out mang! i've got to work tomorrow no exceptions!
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If u end-up there... n deceid to go check Stargate :D ... Say Hi to Big Bear, from Lucky Ly, sunny Cali ... He's the biggest/tallest caucasian bouncer... Bold head, goatee, n usually by the smaller dance floor for the younger crowd Mlle luvlylisa :)
i did go up but did not hit up stargate lucky, sorry. but i'll remember that for next time. O0
younger crowd? lol i'm usually on the "younger" side...only bc i like to dance n can only "mulan" to so many songs. :D
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status: still sick... :( i know--totally sucks! *cough cough* urgh...but managing.
i've got lots to do tomorrow--yeah, it's going to b a long day...let alone, a long week! tutoring all mon-wed...and i'm still not sure if i'm going to leave wed night or thurs morning for my conference. it might depend more so on the weather (which we did have a beautiful n "warm" day today). then again i did c an extended forecast n it says it's suppose to rain all day thurs...so i might just leave wed afternoon. madison is not far...but i want to get there safely n on time. *note to self: need to get directions to hotel where conference is @! n i've not decided if i'm goin to come home right away or the next morning...we'll c.
fri i've got our workshop i've to help w...n then sun another workshop i've to help w 2. college visits we've to do this month n i've a baby shower i've to help plan as well as our march bdays a bunch of r friends r all renting a "cabin" 4. so much goin on, it's great but my mind is n a million places...alway s multitasking that i feel like i'm not lost but not quite all there all the time, u know? ::) ???
anyway, we booked the place 4 the bdays! we're all so excited; we haven't done 1 of these trips since sept so everyone is really looking forward 2 it. i know i'm excited! good times awaiting i'm sure of it! O0
he's no longer callin or textin me now...i've said this b4 but it's been bout a week...so i think he finally got the pict! thank goodness. O0
it's been a while since i've heard from u...n though i don't want 2 admit it...i missed u, mayb even a lil more than i knew n a lil more than i should. yeah, u can say...ur startin 2 grow on me...n i honestly don't mind. but shhh!!! u didn't hear it from me. ;D 8)
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I feel so much better today (probably bc it was beautiful outside!). However, I am a bit congested still and my voice isn't all back--but I feel fine...OK occasional coughing here and there too.
Vday....shmee day! ::) ::) ::)
eating me some fruit and strawberry fruit dip...yumm!!! O0 O0 O0
work today was alright. another long day tomorrow.
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lucky....this ones for you.....OK, and 'em young ones too. it's been a while...so I'm a bit rusty yo.
mic check, mic check uh uh uh....check my flow
u c i'm back yes, i'm back on ph here talkin, spittin yo
cause this here mister workout-kid, mister lucky ly came knockin @ my door
asking me to spit yet again at my fellow hmong ppl, yo homies yo, yo, yo
kuv rov los lawm..los peb mus nram club mus seev cev, haus npias
all i c r OG cats--drunk...rubbing up against girls...."koj puas nyiam peb thiab?"
the girls w their micro dresses....so short you can see their coochies
one girl looked like a drugged up Cruella de Vil w damn huge a$$ boobies
but we know em guys be drooling all over the place....stari ng, hoping to cop a feel
only to find out at the end of the night she was a he...operation six months...deal or no deal
at the club grinding, cock-blockin, fist pumping, patron we drinking, chicken feet we grubbing
chicken feet? only at stargate deep fried please yes those are the best....hey, best not be hogging
mister lucky was right....luvly comes out to play at night
no fight, cause that just ain't right....i come to enjoy my night and if you are nice you won't get this in your face--yeah ice
i've got moves and i luv to groove....make the right moves and mayb there will be room for you too
i'll drop it like it's hot when the bass is pounding on your c0ck
two step when the treble rings in your ear you start to tremble
circle dance round n round...rememb er salavong, the favorite one when you go back and forth, up and down
i always have me a blast when i'm out on the dance floor
don't matter if i'm alone, with friends, a random guy or many more
whippin my hair all around...laugh ing up a storm...what more can you ask for?
cause i'm out to lose me some calories, feel the burn baby...sweatin it up all the way to the door
dancin til my feet hurt, leg cramps, and i toes are numb--can't feel em no mo'
that's how we do what we do...yes, me in the club....now toodle dee doo!
how u like that one lucky??? 8)
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I'm feeling awesome today! still coughing and all....but the sun was out today....and spring is near....so I'm all smiles!!! O0 O0 O0
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ok, i've decided i'm leaving tomorrow afternoon for madison. need to call up my friend n crash @ her place n head on out to the conference. hrmm...mayb i'll ditch the afternoon session if it's not important n go shoppin...mayb . O0 let's just hope the weather is not bad thurs. it's suppose to rain but is suppoedly the hottest day out of the week. urgh...muggy weather! ::) i no like @ all!
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It's wednesday..... the sun's out so I'm having a GGRREEAATT day (so far)!!!! 8) O0 O0 O0
gotta head on out to madison tonight for a conference tomorrow...it'll be boring since it's for work.
though I'm still shrugging off this cold I'm in a great mood today! Thanks dear for making me smile--as u always do. ;)
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i had the strangest yet quite amazing dream last night....LOL
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can't wait to go to bed tonight; I'm exhausted today.
not to mention once i close these eyes....I may return to that secret place of mine.....like heaven...whene ver I'm with u. :love5:
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The lady boss is baaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaack :D ;) ;D
lady boss? ??? 8) eh, u give me 2 much credit lucky. it's nothing...glad 2 c u like it though O0 it was ok...could have been better though...but it's all for laughs/fun. again, i'm no rapper...i'm no twista, busta, blige, peppa or whomever. just me, myself, lisa. 8)
again, thanks lucky...much luv! O0
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eh...he may make me melt....but the snow came again and I'm frostbitten. :(
oh well....u can't have sunny skies all the time. it's ok....I'm used to it.
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urgh! this snow is really starting to get on my nerves!!!! >:( >:( >:( >:(
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blah! :P I'm ready for bed....but I've at least another hour before I can go home! ::) urgh! >:(
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I'm tired as fawk today! and I've still got about five more hours of "work". maybe i can squeeze in a nap during tutoring tonight! Muuuaaahahahah ahah!!! :2funny: :2funny: :2funny: :2funny:
well, all I know is that after tutoring and droppin off my kids...I'm going to come home to KO. well, that is AFTER I head out to the gym (honestly, it's been about three weeks since I've been there--since I've been sick).
thank goodness the sun was out this morning and most of the early afternoon. Now it's a bit cloudy...let's hope the rest of the week is sunny too and warm. i want all this snow gone by march!!!
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sadly I'm still coughing, urgh!
it'll be another long night tonight since I've to go out about 30 minutes to tutor my kids....and three hours later drive home. I didn't get to the gym last night BUT i did get a good nights rest for once!
This snow is making me uber lazy....so please, melt away so I can be productive!
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o brother! ::) ::) ::) just when i thought he finally got the picture/hint n backed off...nope texted me twice this evening. please...just leave me alone mister. ::)
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hi luv, hopefully everything's gettin better for u. O0
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hi luv, hopefully everything's gettin better for u. O0
hey lelia...it's going...where? i've yet to find out. eh, there r good days n there others. i'm slowly getting rid of this darn cold...other than that things r alright.
hope ur doing well n this midwestern winter.
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I've the day off tomorrow (YAY!!!!). I could sleep in all day...but I think I'm going to go to my old high school and sit in on my old Chinese teachers' classes all day. I need to not only pick up on my Chinese but I need to think of some different teaching methods/styles for my class this summer. Hopefully he doesn't mind.
I've about another hour or so of work....(although I could just leave now if I really wanted to) and then my "weekend" starts.
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hrrmm....what to do tonight? ???
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hey lelia...it's going...where? i've yet to find out. eh, there r good days n there others. i'm slowly getting rid of this darn cold...other than that things r alright.
hope ur doing well n this midwestern winter.
luv, lets run away to where the sun is high.. and the weather is warm.. i'm gettin' really sick of this weather... i just need winter to be over with. sounds like sunday we are in for another winter storm. :'(
have a great wkend. hv lots of fun and just relax!
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luv, lets run away to where the sun is high.. and the weather is warm.. i'm gettin' really sick of this weather... i just need winter to be over with. sounds like sunday we are in for another winter storm. :'(
have a great wkend. hv lots of fun and just relax!
yeah sometimes i wonder y my family ever moved here. ::) or y hmong ppl in general move to the midwest...wint ers r gruesome!
i don't even bother checking the weather anymore. :(
a trip would be nice...i'm due for one....but just can't find the time lately.
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slept in a bit this morning...
urgh! more snow! ::)
what to do on my sat? dunno..lounge n then heading on out tonight! itms been a while...gonna get dolled up-just a bit. O0
he's an idiot! ::)
n he's simply sweet but we'll just leave it @ that. some things r better just the way they r...no need to change things for my sake.
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came home from a nice bday lunch w the girls. stopped by to do my taxes...attemp t to since i'm still missing s doc. ::)
i feel lazy now..but i need to start getting ready. i was really n a good mood to get all dolled up 2night but now i just want to sleep! ;D my bro n the boys r gonna stay in n drink here...n the girls r to go out. we'll c...i should squeeze n a lil power na. i think i'll go do that now. O?
i'll return w pics! ;)
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Or come back n bust some rhymes! kthanUbye ;D
;D ur such a dork lucky!
mayb once n a while i'll bust some just 4 u. O0
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monday....blah, what more do u want me to say.
good thing it's sunny out though.....rea dy for spring that's fo'sho!
but i've to get going and pick up my kids...
tutoring--yep, yo' dig?
pre-calc, physics, honors english....
subjects I can't help with, sorry I'm not trying to diss
but history, chinese, a little french and psychology
yeah these subjects i can help you in g....ha, ha, i'm no prodigy but he, he might as well give me that PHD
time management, goal setting and study skills we try to assist these young ones
to give them the proper tools so they won't be that bum on the couch watching re-runs
speaking of time...looks like I've to go now
got to pick up my students, come back and get my tutors my resources materials when will I return...uhmm. ..kuv tsis paub.
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still coughing....I know, wtf! But I'm drinking tea like crazy this morning...and will continue for most of the day. Need this cough to go away!
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lucky...u must have missed it....look above^^^^
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oh yeah n the pics.....uhmm. ...
go here: http://www.pebhmong.com/forum/index.php/topic,225958.msg3235029.html#msg3235029
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not feeling good today--yet again! :( *cough cough* *blows nose* blah...staying in today.
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stayed n today=no work since i wasn't my all this morning. :(
however exhausted bc had 2 meet up w the girls 2 shop since we're all helping 2 throw my friendsm wife her first baby shower. i'm n charge of games...n have gotten most of the prizes but they were wanting to shop for a few more. i guess.
one thing i learned...if i have 2 wait a few hours for u...then i shouldn't have waited n ledt after 10 min instead.
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these girls who have been trying to "get w" my bro irritate the hell out of me! ::) i normally not liked any of my bro's gfs thus far (even the current 1) but the girls who "crush" on him r worse than his gfs. ppl who try too hard are just pathetic to me. ::) n what's worse is my too nice of a guy bro thinks it's ok bc they're "just friends" ::) friends only work if there is a mutual understanding btween both parties. but we all know that she comes over to hang out n drink w "the boys" bc she's hoping that 1 day my idiot bro will dump his gf for her n her cutie son (which my bro already adores n luvs to play "father" to as i call it-which i believe is a no-no ESPECIALLY since he insists he's not romantically interested or physically interested in her). now i understand why his gf is the crazy jealous control freak that she is bc he does things like this to make her get mad @ him.
ha, thank goodness i've nothing like this n my life to worry about. ;D
it's nice out today, yay! O0
got most of the baby shower stuff ready. i've a few prizes i've to still put together n write out my agenda...gotta be organized. sadly the other girls i'm co-hosting this shower w have never done anything event planning so they r stressed n haven't a clue what they r doing. told them not to worry too much...as the party will run regardless of anything.
will b leavin soon w my gf 2 go help her shop 4 2 baby showers that she's needing 2 attend.
i'm drinking tea like crazy today! please cough just b done w me already cause i'm done n over u already. ::)
the trip is n two weeks; i'm so excited...we all r! O0 the 1 weekend i'll make an exception to drink since we'll b getting a keg...but don't quote me on that-yet. thus far i'm very proud of myself...haven't had any beer since new years eve! O0
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headed 2 bed...
my cough has settled a bit...for now. not going 2 celebrate just yet.
i know it's been a while but i honestly kind of miss u. :)
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urgh...what 2 do, what 2 do...
i'm tryin 2 go 2 bed but i can't sleep boo hoo
so i'm here on PH wastin time bustin rhymes
i should b sippin on some wine..i still have a bottle from last years valentine
but then again i don't care 4 it much
as i don't like the taste of it...as last years bottle i haven't touched
hangin out w the guys we like r beer
the green bottle-heineken, the 1 budwiper drinkers fear
but 2011 i vowed 2 saty off the stuff 4 the year
u c i'm trying 2 lose some lbs...slim down...i don't want 2 b THAT round
so far i've stayed on track n my friends have my back
lbs i hope 2 lose but no, not this dear rack
cause oh baby god, he blessed me
yes, these here....them DDs
they aim 2 please
but don't u ever think i'll get on my knees
hmigga please!
:2funny: :2funny: :2funny:
it's late n i can't sleep...so just amusing myself...don't mind me. 8)
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err.....and it's only tues. :-\
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let me drift.....
...drift....
...drift....
..drift...far far far....
...far away please.
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ggggggggrrrrrr rrrrrrrrrrrrrr rrr!!!!!!!!!
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i'm emotionally, mentally and physically drained. woke up today and my whole body was sore...i doubt it's bc of the weather, how i sleep or anything else....all this stress I tell ya! Kill me already, will ya!!!!
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hey luvly...
so did u make the deicsion on whether you'll be attending or not this wkend? i know how u feel. i was in college n my dad did the same thing.. but at least ur dad let ur mom go... my dad didn't let my mom go...so u r in a much better situation than me n my siblings were. although i hate what my dad did... i still luv him becuz w/o him... there wld be no me. i barely ever talk to my step mom... i barely talk to my dad too... only when i hv to... so be strong for ur mama...be strong for urself. u will get thru this!
Lelia
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no, i've not decided. but thanks, i really appreciate it!
urgh just woke up from a 2 hr nap n i feel like sh*t! not good. i've a baby shower 2morrow that i'm co-hosting so i can't actually not b there (i'm n charge of games). please tell me that come 2morrow i'll feel like brand new! O0 :-\
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the shower went fine...other than me running around like crazy. glad i was co-hosting it, but more glad it's over. there was good food but didn't feel like eating since this bug of mine has gotten my appetite down.
i'm still sick...i just want a nice all body massage..maybe like a dip in a nice hot spring n drift away to la la land...that sounds really good right now.
but no, my brother called n asked that i go buy a part for our broken toilet. r u kidding me? wtf? i guess. ::) i'll nap afterwards then.
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Have a beer, Lisa. ;)
oh thanks dear. :) i had me a good pitcher of peach sangria w my girl....it was much needed. O0 just 2 days of work this week 4 me...so can't wait 2 get off on wed. heading 2 mn on thurs 4 the day 2 shop 4 stuff 4 r cabin trip this weekend. again, much needed....can't wait 4 the weekend. O0
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yes, i'm ready for spring...been ready!!! 8)
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ulC-mfmXX-8
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8v_4O44sfjM
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awww RIP Nate Dogg!!! :'( :'( :'( :'(
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1plPyJdXKIY
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ok. we're here--most of us @ least...drinki ng but some r just acting a fool. :2funny: having a good time....i'm so glad 2 b here w u ya'll. i really needed this! thanks ya'll!!!n O0 ;D
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sorry been bz. had a great weekend though and I'm no longer sick! Got rid of the cough too! So I'm good for the most part! 8) O0
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......eh, nothing much. Rain one day and snow the next! BUT thankfully it's sunny as heck out today...melt snow, melt damn it! >:(
I need to get myself a new bike. O0
Works been OK....but I'm ready for most of summer to be over with so I can take my vacation already. mmuuaaahahahah ahhah! :2funny:
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Another sunny arse day! Unfortunately like yesterday...I'm spending it coped up in this darn office of mine! urgh! ::)
but planning on meeting up w my gf to do some window shopping aka my workout! mmuuaahhahahah ahah! :2funny:
eh....just hoping things will all settle over here in the next month or so.
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heading up to MN in a hour or so....gonna hang out with my girl beth for her bday and hang out with the guys this weekend. It'll be a nice weekend...I'm sure.
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OK...it was a good night. I'm glad we came.....plans didn't go accordingly but you know what....just gotta go w the flow.
things have been alright lately. i know in a few months things will be clear and I won't have to worry about much. life will proceed and we just go on our merry way (not that we haven't been doing so already). I dunno....i'm not sweating things....but work has been kinda of bz....getting ready for summer. however, like I've said...I can't wait for summer, well, july to be over w so I can go on vacation and go visit my sister and bil as planned. thus far looking for tickets have been a bit pricey, but we'll just keep looking.
things don't always go according to plans nor as wished/hoped....but one should be willing to be flexible and be willing to adapt to change.
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It's really starting to pick up now.....so yeah, been bz. But this weekend we're planning on grilling and just hanging out since it's finally getting nice out! O0 O0 O0 8)
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went w my kids today and did some community service. we went to pick up trash at the local beach--unfortunately it's a big flooded now so we didn't get to stay and do much. we then went to one of the local golf clubs and helped rake leaves and brush. it was mighty chilly out (which I wouldn't be surprised if I get sick again) but we managed.
i'm tired now....sitting at the office getting some last of paperwork done. Only to head out to do my laundry and then perhaps nap.
we had the gang over last night and grilled...yes, even in this chilly weather. it worked out fine. sorry, no pics. it was good to have everyone over and just chill. i'm back on my no beer rule...thus far I'm doing good. O0
hrrmm..to make dumplings tonight or not. haven't decided yet.
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urgh... ::) ::) ::) ::)
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Oh brother....spa re me the stories really. ::)
Anyway...been busy with work but had a good day today--for the most part.
Yay! I've got the house all to myself this weekend!!! What am I going to do? I dunno...maybe just veg out and do nothing. I might just decide to clean too. Then again I could just make dumplings and invite some of the gang over.
It's been so nice out lately, no joke! O0 Gotta luv spring!!!
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every1 is gone...it was good 2 have the house all 2 myself. my girl was over yesterday we ordered pizza, watched tv n chatted bout r daily lives.
it's going 2 b a lazy day 2day. the weather isn't the best 2day, kind of cloudy. :( n w no car i've not many choices n what i want 2 do.
trying 2 get things under control...urgh! 1 thing @ a time. 8)
don't get me wrong, i luv my single life...but it's been lonely. i'd like me a cuddle partner. i'd like a companion who i can laugh w n share jokes w, who luvs 2 eat like me, doesn't mind holding my hand every once n a while, who likes 2 have long talks on the phone, doesn't mind spending a few hours playing board games or heading out for a lil fishing, but isn't wanting the sexual stuff. in no way am i saying i don't want sex....or intimacy...int imacy, i am wanting...but i've alwyas been 1 who has been emotionally invested n attached more. awk, ::) just give me a cuddle buddy n call it a day. :2funny: :2funny: :2funny:
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it's so nice out today. yesterday there was a mini rainstorm and even hail for about 15 minutes! and once it was over it was sunny and calm as if nothing had happened.
Some ppl have been really testing me as of late. do they really want me to knock em over the head or something? ::) ::) ::) ::)
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xXIfEOqxKOE
I luv jimmy he's adorably hilarious!!! O0 O0 O0
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i'm so frustrated, annoyed, irritated, flustered n urgh! ::) upset! i just want to bang my head....NO! take a huge ax n chop off ppls heads!!! give me a break please!!!
i try 2 help them out n all they do is question me? wtf!!?!?! i shouldn't b helping anyway!!! this is just driving me insane!!! aaaaaaaahhhhhh hhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!
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the weather is nice n sunny 2day..n no snow!!! O0
made me some dumplings 2day...yummili cious!
*sigh* yeah i'm feeling xtra lazy 2day...there's still laundry yet 2 b done...still deciding if i want 2 do it 2night or 2morrow.
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listening to some kls...
it's snowing...like wtf?!?!?!? well, not much to do at work today...so I guess today than any other day. I didn't get to my laundry....so that's what I'll be doing after work. I've to stop by my dad's to drop off some paperwork. *sigh* It's finally almost over.
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just cleaning today....in more ways than one.
thankfully it won't be a long day today. was suppose to head out to do some interviews and orientations however, i don't have to go now.
we're suppose to head out to mn this weekend; i was looking forward to it but now we might not. the guys got a keg for their bro's bday but they want to do it at our house if possible. we'll see what the weekend has in stored for us. mayb bc of all this snow we might just stay home anyway.
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what a dork! yes, you!!!! ::)
heading home. thankfully tomorrow is Friday. going to drop off em papers FINALLY! I'm so glad to get things "done" and hopefully out of my hair. please let me have some peace now.
hrrmm...so we've decided to go up to mn for one night....my cousin is coming along with us. we'll most def hit up myth (or so we plan to) since DND boys are spinning. I just want to go and dance my butt off. it's been too long baby! hrrmmm...wear my hair up or down....i always wear it down but end up putting it up half way through the night since i'll be working up a good sweat. and in no way am i going to go all sexed up or hoochie...mayb e cute and of course, comfortable!!! 8) O0 O0 O0
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http://youtu.be/4pHhItkhc7o
this was running through my head last night while laying in bed! ;D ;D ;D it was the last thing i heard that day (song-wise).
anyway...i slept like a baby last night. i was very surprised how fast i fell asleep. i didn't even have to pick up my book! usually i fall asleep while reading or sadly enough posting on ph. that or i just stare @ my ceiling until i KO.
had a nice dream too....I don't recall most of it...but i do remember a few of my friends there....I was back in college studying and decided to ditch my classes bc i was late and left with my aunties (who were going to school too? ??? ). we got into this big chevy van that was all 70's like and eventually jumped out of the car only to walk back to campus. ;D ;D ;D that's all i can remember for now....but i do remember waking up oddly, w a smile....and w a sense of contentment. is that weird? ??? i think so....cause that doesn't happen often--or ever.
so stupid me...i forgot that today is good friday so I went down to the city hall/court house and was wondering why there weren't many cars in the lot (the newly remodeled jailhouse is right next/w/n the same building as the courthouse too). noticed a few ppl n their cars "waiting". then after scratching my head and pondering about it I just got back in my car and came to work. on the way..... :idea1: it's easter this weekend....and today is friday. oh duh! it's good friday=offices are closed. :idiot2: :2funny: i laughed to myself! what's even more funny? when I was in the lot I was thinking..."it's not like it's a holiday. is it? mang, wtf is going on?" :2funny: :2funny: :2funny: yeah, I'm a dork. 8) :D ;D
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http://youtu.be/2bcKWtyUBp8
i just luv luv luv jimmy!!!! ;D ;D ;D ;D
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Stop talking to yourself.
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Stop talking to yourself.
got a problem w me talking 2 myself? well, stop stalkin me n u won't have 2 hear me talk 2 myself. hmmmphh!
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OMG, I had the weirdest dream about work. was stuck in a minivan that I couldn't control so i couldn't stop to pick up my kids to take them on our college visit. i later ended up in this big house and all the kids and staff were trying to maneuver our way in and out of the house....there were so many ppl we didn't know where we were going or what we were doing really. Just odd.
it's a gloomy day today....with light drizzle. it's going to be a boring day I know it already. ::)
thankfully i've got most of it done. now i just need that one missing piece and voila! brush my hands clean and breathe!
I didn't sleep too well last night. no matter how I slept it was uncomfortable. please, when will i have me some good nights' rest? :-\
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Getting stuff done today and heading out to do some advising. It'll be somewhat of a long day today.
Hrrmm....I've been meaning to get this "thing" done...but been too bz to follow through as I had said. Sorry-you'll just have to wait. But I do have to say....it'll be worth waiting for. O0
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I'm so excited to head out to visit my sis this summer.
She just sent me text asking if I want to go to maroon 5 and train concert! O0 that or kesha. :-\ no kesha, please!
she's trying to look for things to do while I'm there...we've got atlantic city and NYC scribbled in...but that's it for now.
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好吧。。。今天过的点累。 刚刚回来上班有工作做。 很高兴明天是星期五。。。我要去 MN 看看我的好朋友。 她根她男朋友结婚。 那么很好意思。。。最开心！ 今天晚上我得好好准备。
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@ the office now but going to be leaving here in a bit. once again, I'll be up in MN for the weekend. I've not seen her for a while now...but a good friend of mine is getting married this weekend...well, she's having her white wedding since they already did the hmong one a month ago or so. I'm so happy for her. we've known each other for years and have shared many good times....from the sleep overs to the crying fests we had over stupid boys. we both have the same name so ppl would always call us by the other...which was odd since we looked nothing alike. she moved away in high school so i didn't see her @ church anymore and though we stayed in touch over the years...it's not the same.
anyway, off to her wedding. this time I'll be driving by myself so i've got all the tunes i need to keep me awake. oddly, i can't wait to get dolled up. LOL one of my gf (she's always down for anything and everything) asked if i was up for a party bus tonight (i think w her co-workers) so we'll c.
it's going to be a great weekend...and i do have to say the weather is wonderful today. yes, it's friday!!!
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had a good weekend! O0 O0 O0 O0
1 of my friends had their baby boy today!!! 8lb 5oz! I've no pics as of yet...but hopefully tomorrow!
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i dunno y but i feel a bit sad 2day...like i can sit n the corner n cry all night. what's wrong w me? ??? :( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'(
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Have some Breyers mint chocolate chip. O0
i don't like chocolate chip. :( but thanks.
watched a sad movie n triggered the waterworks...t he movies over now but i just can't stop the tears. n i was having a good day 2day 2! wtf! :'( :'( :'(
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watched another movie 2night (jet li's ocean heaven). yes, i was tearing up :'( but not as bad as last night. i dunno...i've been super emo these past days...n i dunno y. ???
anyway...mothe rs day is coming up n my bro doesn't have 2 work...but we've not talked about what we want 2 do.
the month just started n i think i'm broke already. wtf!!! mang...not cool! ::(
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ok...not going to have a sob fest tonight....i've got laundry that i've put off for the week. gonna head on home and get to that.
hrrmmm, what for dinner tonight? ???
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thanks mom 4 luving me the way u do. i know we always c eye 2 eye...but i know u luv me n have sacrificed a lot for me n my siblings. we can never thank u enough. luv ya mom.
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yumm....lunch was good.
Started off with a dark and gloomy day and a bit of a thunderstorm.. ...now it's bright and nice out. ???
It's only monday...blah.
things r going to start getting hectic around here since summer is fast approaching... .I've lots to do. pretty soon I'll be :idiot2: :idiot2: :idiot2:
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it was so hot yesterday...to day I'm wearing shorts...and what do u know...it all of a sudden got cloudy! >:(
got to commute an hour to one of the high schools so I can go "advise" and then....drive all the way back to sit in the office for a few hours.
well, at least I get don't have to waste my own gas and mileage....pic king up the rental in a few here.
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gonna leave here in a bit for a nice walk. i really need to get my butt into gear!!! grrr!!!
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I haven't spoken to him for a while...but am glad we caught up today.
it's good to know that after everything we've been through...we still have each other. he's such a dork! there are a few career possibilities that we were discussing about his and my future (possibly together). it's just a thought...but nothing serious for now. he's still on the other side of the coast (then again, I'm not on either coast). but i'd be lying if i said i didn't want to c him.
anyway....it's there absolutely is no longer a sign of winter lingering now....but seems like we skipped spring and jumped right into summer! it's so humid and icky out! regardless, gf and i r heading out for a lil walking....jus t trying to enjoy a lil nature....w/o letting the weather get to us too much.
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having wings 2night w some buddies. O0
i've been really good w my no beer policy. good 4 me! O0
hrrmm...will i survive the heat 2night? i better! last night i was tossing n turning all night n my own sweat. :D
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had a nice good nights rest last night! yay! wasn't sweating up a storm. O0 O0 O0
alright...sat and did nothing these last few hours now I'm about to head on out. what a friday huh? ;D 8) gonna head home to check in my mom and then head over to a friends house for some qhob poob! O0 yumm....i can taste it already! i like my qhob poob w/ quail eggs!
so there's going to be quite a few ppl in town this weekend (as graduations, weddings and other things going on). I wouldn't be surprised if dt will be packed tomorrow night. some friends want me to join them @ this OG party. :-\ i dunno if I want to know...honestl y, i'd rather rent some movies and stay home. one thing forsure, i'm going to dabble with my makeup tomorrow and try out some new looks. it'll be fun. been embracing my femininity as of recent and I kind of like dolling myself up and stuff. i'm still that girl that u can have a burger w and joke around, burp loudly, take on fishing trips and watch football w but every now and again, it's nice to be reminded that i can be and am beautiful and smexy. ;) who doesn't want that?
alright....it may be friday the 13th...but i'm having a nice day thus far. O0 O0 O0
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it's monday...my last day of my 3 day weekend. :)
yep, i slept n n thankfully it's a nice day out...sun's out 4sure...but a bit nippy. :(
hrrmmm...been thinking lately.....of u. ;)
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I have a feeling it's going to be a boring day today. ::)
hrrmm...at least it's a nice day out. I'll surely go for a walk today!
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yay...i think i can leave early today!
i've laundry to do...but i doubt i'll be getting any of it done b4 the weekend. oh well.
i've to work (maybe) over the weekend too...possible meetings here and there. short ones, i hope.
things are set for next week....let's hope it all goes down smoothly so all this wasn't just a waste of my time and NRG! cause if anything else goes up....i'm going to be splitting heads open!!!
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i'm sick of it. fine, i'm not going to say anything anymore. have it your way but don't think that bc i'm not getting on u means u can come to me when things blow up...cause i've had it. i'm not gonna stick around n c u fall flat on ur face--y? cause i luv u too much to. tough luv...hell yeah!
anyway....it's been a slow day @ work...i'm hoping to leave early today--bc i can. but we'll c.
darn, this printer is taking forever!!! ::) ::) ::)
hrrmmm...what to do this weekend? i dunno...but one thing's forsure i'm gonna work on that thuderstorm/rainstorm look for peachy_fish... ..still not content with my looks thus far. blah!
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yep, finished the look...now i've 2 decide which look i like best 2 submit.
saw baby 2day, he's just 2 cute!!!
surprisingly, have the house all 2 myself this weekend...thou gh i only "found out" this morning once i realized my mom was not home n my bro had left the night b4 2 visit the gf. O0 haven't had the house 2 myself n a while.
nothing much 2morrow. a possible meeting, gotta help out a friend n well, that's bout it. yeah a very boring weekend..but i like the down time so it's ok.
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thank goodness it rained last night..cause i was tossing n turning. i woke up when i heard all the rain but it was soothing n helped relax me...i was out wn minutes! n had me a nice dream 2 i might say. :D ;)
looks lik a nice day 2day n i've several errands 2 run. but i think i'll clean 2day.
yuck, after finishing my look yesterday i noticed two big pimples...n 4 the life of me my ocdness wouldn't let me leave them alone...2day they look hideous all thanks 2 my luvly self! gr8t! i'm an idiot!!!!
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there was a storm 2day...5 hrs now n no power! totally sucks! i dunno how ppl can live w/o electricity! i'm sittin n the car chargin my phone. the street lights by my house r finally on but not n the neighborhood.. .it's pitch black as i sit here looking down the street. dunno y ppl r drivin round still--askin 4 accidents 2 happen.
all i know is i'm bored as hell. i can do w/o tv but if i've no phone...dunno what i'd do. then again i could entertain myself by reading but now that it's dark...can't read n the dark. :( i even took a nap earlier cause i was so bored..nothing 2 do.
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eh...can't sleep....but dang, it's been really boring here lately :-\ wassup w that? ??? ::)
eh...work's going 2 b so bz now...ready 2 b mia 4 a lil while.
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urgh! i'm sick 2day! @ first i thought it was stomach-flu since i've been n n out of the bathroom all morning now i've a dry throat n stuffy nose! wtf!?!?!? not cool mang! mayb that's y i slept like a baby...dunno.
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driving in this rain......
...for work that is. meeting my kids. it's going to be a long day--I know it!
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i was sick yesterday...ru nning n n out of the bathroom all morning n then stuck w a stuffy nose.
today i had an itchy throat...was coughin most of the day.
now i'm still coughin (it's still itchy like a mofo!) but a massive migraine n now i've got the chills. wtf?! ??? don't tell me i'm coming down w a minor fever! not cool mang!!! not what i need right now!!!
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tomorrow is the big day. all things will come to an end. i just hope ppl remain calm n collective n no 1 does anything stupid (including myself).
i'll finally be able to breathe and not look back....ever.
...on another note...memoria l weekend this weekend and i've no plans. most likely we'll grill and just chillax.....bu t a friend or two are wanting to head up to mn for a day--i might tag along...who knows.
maybe i'll just stay home and clean. eh, does it really matter?
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this is a lot harder than i thought it'd b. :'( :'( :'( :'(
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it's done....it's officially over.
how do i feel? a bit numb...n honestly, i dunno how or what 2 feel right now.
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it's done....it's officially over.
how do i feel? a bit numb...n honestly, i dunno how or what 2 feel right now.
Aw. Hope you feel better soon.
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Aw. Hope you feel better soon.
i dunno if I'll ever feel better bout this.
but i guess....w time things will be OK.
life goes on, right?
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i dunno if I'll ever feel better bout this.
but i guess....w time things will be OK.
life goes on, right?
Yes, the wonderful thing is that we get to decide whether we want our lives to go on or not. Stay strong.
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Yes, the wonderful thing is that we get to decide whether we want our lives to go on or not. Stay strong.
true....just when I thought the toughest part was over...it's one thing to accept reality...but to live in it is another.
just something one needs to get "used" to I guess.
thanks though.
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...it was sad when i put my arm around her as we walked to the car and asked her if she was OK. I almost broke into tears when I saw the sadness on her face. she was trying very hard not to cry but she couldn't hold it all in. tears streamed down her face as she told me that she wasn't ok but she knew it was for the best and only wanted to give us the best that she could. my heart ached and i wanted to tell her that things would be ok but i knew that i'd start my own waterfall of tears if i opened my mouth. so in silence i let her share what was on her mind, in her heart...and stayed focused on the road--or tried to at the very least.
no one ever visions this for their family....but in the end i know it's for the best and for our sanity as well.
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urgh! i'm still sick....this cold won't go away 4 the life of me! blah!
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i'm so tired...fallin asleep as we speak! for 1 i'm gonna sleep early 2night!
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this cough needs to go away!
he's had it...I don't blame him....but sometimes I wish he wasn't so stubborn, then again I wish the same for her too. they don't make things easier for me....but gosh, in times like these we shouldn't be fighting and pushing each other away. but w all this crap going on--every1 "deals" w things differently, hopefully it'll all just "settle" and we won't have to worry about all the "little things".
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yay!!! Got my new bike!!! I've yet to ride it really....stil l need to make a few adjustments--I'll get to it this weekend or today!
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alright....hea ded home--sort of...well, out of the office at least for the day! it's going to be a good weekend...n if I'm lucky i can squeeze in some fishing time! yay!
i've still a few things to do for work...but i'm ready to start this weekend!
gotta relax before my real summer starts....whic h will be jammed packed with nothing but lesson plans, teenage drama, and meetings!
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i'm going to be bz bz bz in these two weeks....only to be even bzr for the following month!
gosh, I wish it was july already...caus e that means work will be at least half way over with.
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yay, rode my bike 2 work today!
work, work, work....but i'm having a good day thus far...so maybe it'll not only be productive but overall a good day.
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my stomach is not cooperating with me today! :-[ >:( >:( >:(
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it's a great day 2day...on r way 2 mn. y? bc we can...n there's nothing else 2 do...n y not? O0 8)
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It's r second day of training for camp and I'm already pooped for the summer! We're grilling out here in an hour or so...but i've so much to do...getting the last of paperwork and room assignments and whatnot right now. it's crazy!!! Not to mention that I've not even prepped anything for my chinese class either! No, really...I wish it really was July now! cause camp would be over with in a few weeks and then vacation time come August!!!
one thing forsure...I'll be a walking zombie for the next six weeks!!!
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OMG, i'm exhausted like no other! work is literally killing me! and though i'm thankful that it hasn't been extremely hot...i'm hella sick (yeah, again!) with the chilly nights (then again I could just close my windows).
so all the kids are moved in as of yesterday..wel l, most of them. today we had them do some psat testing (yeah, they surely luved us for that!) and we'll end the night with various group activities. thankfully not too much to do today! Thank goodness. I can't wait for tomorrow...cau se that means--time to go home!!! But only to come back on Sunday and do it all over for the next few weeks!
I've been so busy that i haven't even gotten my pre-test made for my chinese class on friday! eeekkk!!!
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Oh thank goodness it's Friday! The kids just left about an hour ago and I'm now @ the office finishing up some last paperwork before I head on out for my weekend! I need a shower, some sleep...and hrrmm...maybe squeeze in some a nice bowl of ice cream too please!
Yes, I'll get to sleep in my own bed tonight and tomorrow....an d come Sunday this chaos starts all over once again. at least we'll be at r usual schedule. i've to get my bike here on campus so i don't have to worry about being late to everything. these lil feet can only go so fast you know. har har har ;D ;D ;D
urgh, y can't this paperwork be done in a *snap*!?!?
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it's sunday and i wish the week was over with already! cause i know that it's going to be a long week already! no kidding!
went to a wedding over the weekend...will post pictures later.
work's been killing me....i luv what i do, don't get me wrong but don't u hate it when it seems like no one is on the same page? i'm constantly doing ten million things at once and seems like no one has a clue what they're doing...and they need me to tell them what to do. hello? we hired you bc you were suppose to know what you're doing already! ppfftt!
he called me this afternoon--haven't heard from him in a long time. it was nice...but i realize he always has bad timing bc i had to get to my staff meeting. oh well. sorry.
ppl flirt bc they sense some kind of chemistry w the other person. some take the next step and get into a real relationship. i don't mind the flirting and silliness....w hen it's "innocent" i think it's most "fun". but when feelings get intensified and the flirting turns into sexual "encounters" it can get sloppy and someone may end up getting hurt.
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nothing new....just exhausted....
@ least i'll get a lil break with this holiday!
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Thank goodness it's Friday!!!! I'm just waiting for my kids to leave and then I'm out the door myself. Gonna get ready on the way to MN and head out to DND tonight! We're most def going to go early so we can get in! Uber excited....jus t about dancing...i could care less about everything else.
we're only staying for DND and then coming back home-j4 is overrated now...and with everyone wanting to do different things might as well come and stay home. besides come sat. i'll have the house all to myself!!! Luv it....I won't be doing anything--but good that i can have a nice quiet house all to myself w no one to bother me. yes!!!!
overall, i just want to relax this weekend....aft er two full weeks supervising 8 staff and 42 high school kids...urgh! my mind and my body is telling me to take a break (unfortunately i can't so i'm going to take full advantage that i don't have to deal with them this weekend).
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the heart yearns 4 luv while it weeps
ur laughter is infectious--ur smile i even c n my sleep.
when u r filled w worries n sorrow
i wish i was n ur 2morrow
the 1 u look 4, reach out 2
cause n this dear heart of mine there is no1 other than u. :-[
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the heart yearns 4 luv while it weeps
ur laughter is infectious--ur smile i even c n my sleep.
when u r filled w worries n sorrow
i wish i was n ur 2morrow
the 1 u look 4, reach out 2
cause n this dear heart of mine there is no1 other than u. :-[
aww, *hugs* well go get him tiger, what you waiting for!
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aww, *hugs* well go get him tiger, what you waiting for!
:D uhmmm....just some rhymes inspired by 2 many dramas.
it's nothing really. but thanks 4 the encouragement.
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back to work....
...it's going to be difficult to sleep tonight since it's so hot and since I'm back at work--there's no AC! aaahhhh!!!
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oh thank goodness, it's a short week this week! I'm ready for the weekend! muuaahahahahah ahah! :D :D :D :D :D
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it's soOoOOOooOOo darn hot!!!!
I'm literally melting!!!!
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been bz with work....but plan to finish cropping/editing photos tonight so i can post them up! O0 O0 O0 O0
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it's been a while....
...just three more days and I'll be done--well, I'll have a few days off b4 we take all the kids to milwaukee for 4 days. I don't want to drive at all....wonder if there's any way I can get out of that. ha, i doubt it! boo hoo for me.
can't wait til august.....can't wait for my phili trip!!!
Well, gonna go home. I've my final i've to write up for chinese class but I think I'll do that tomorrow. I've some volunteering i've to do at a local tournament.... standing at the gate collecting money sun. morning before i head back to camp. what a weekend eh?
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i'm literally melting again!!!! too hot, too hot! i'd luv to be in a big tub full of ice right now!!!
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staying inside as much as possible today! yes, in a building with ac!
damn! I was taking my bike out and as soon as i got outside i realized that i got a flat tire!!! i was in a hurry so i couldn't take it to the air pump @ the gas station. maybe later today i might....then again considering the heat....urgh.. ..maybe not.
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imma stay @ the office as much as I can today.....y? for AC purposes only! O0 8) ;D ;D ;D ;D
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Nploj-tej hot.
nplog-teb hot? :D :D :D i wouldn't know, but i'm sure it's like it. actually, I asked one of my newcomer students if it's as hot like this in thailand (not laos) and she said it's just as hot and probably just as humid BUT they have the cool breeze from the ocean so it's bearable as here that's not the case.
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so took my bike home today since i couldn't get any air in the front tire. I dunno what's wrong--my brother thinks it's the air valve thingy--might be broken. urgh! but at least i got a chance to go home and shower. i even took a nap. but only to come back to this sauna. i've packed most of my stuff since tomorrow the kids are leaving and as soon as we're done with our staff meeting I'm going to head on out of here! Well, @ least put everything in my car and head on over to the office to finish some stuff.
so glad i can say goodbye to crappy silly fans and hello to my ac!!!
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getting stuff ready for milwaukee. i'm not really looking forward to it.....and found out that we go the tickets to the brewers--cubs game....woohoo! not! i hate baseball!
so a few things i still need to do....hopefull y i can get it all done!!!
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i'm so tired...camp is "over" but i'm pretty drained. come sun we're headed 2 mailwaukee...i've still a lot 2 prep but oh well. if only i could go sleep n have it done when i wake up. 8)
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ok..been n milwaukee this whole week...2night's r last night (yay!) here n we're headed 4 uw-whitewater 2morrow as r last college visit b4 heading home. 2day was quite fun just exhausted from all the walking all day yesterday n 2day. yesterday 2 college visit tours n 2day the art museum n then discovery world n the brewers game (which we parked not 2 far but finding ppl on 2 finding them @ the right gate...n then being y the right gate...urgh! ::) ) my feet r seriously swollen n aching! but it's good exercise 4 me--as we all know i need it. 8)
i can't wait 2 get home though! back 2 ac! yay! O0 i have a few things 2 do still n regards 2 work when we get back 2morrow or even 4 this week...but sounds like i stay home this weekend or head down 2 madison...i honestly want 2 lay n bed n finish my dramas (especially since i have the house 2 myself)--just hide out until i leave 4 my phili trip. 8) yyes, that sounds good...it'd b no different from my summer thus far anyway--haven't seen nor done much...but the girls want 2 c me now that "work" is over..whatever! ::) if only that was so!
anyway...i did get my oakland gyros though--2 of them! yummmmmy!!! ;D O0 O0 O0 O0
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home--at last!!! O0 O0 O0 O0
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yeah, i'm dead tired today!!!
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hrrmmm...to go to madison or not? i shouldn't cause i should be saving money for my vacay to phili....but nothing to do this weekend anyway. hrrmm...decisi ons, decisions, decisions.
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no madison...woke up this morning w a big puffy left eye...spider bite maybe? i dunno...but it's pretty puffy so i feel like i can't go anywhere...unl ess my glasses r big goggles!
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heading out to a cave w my kids tomorrow and then grilling and chillaxin at the park....it's going to be a long day forsure! am I looking forward to it? i haven't a clue right now bc i've still to go out and get stuff for lunch tomorrow and make sure i have everything before i go pick up my kids in the morning. i'm just destined to be exhausted w all my days--i swear!
on another note...headed to six flags for the weekend...then again--i think my girl and i will end up ditching the guys and just roam around chicago and see what we can find....some good food, that's forsure!
i'm gonna work myself out until i leave for my vacay--seems as so, huh?
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yes....getting things done today--putting in some extra hours so i don't have to come in tomorrow! yay! gotta get some laundry done tonight and then head out to pick up the car tomorrow morning and get truckin....six flags here we come. then again--us girls are going to go wandering bout in chitown....it should be fun!!!
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It's Monday...back to work.
Chicago/6 flags was fun...didn't get to go on as many rides as I'd like--actually sadly enough I only went on two. I know, FAIL. BUT it was hella hot and there were so many ppl....after a while...I was too dehydrated--headache and all...and my feet were sore from walking around so much my girl and i left the boys for a nap back at the mo and then went and did a lil shopping only to pick the boys for dinner at joy yees! had a great dinner though!! Yummy!
sun we headed back through miltown and stopped by 7 mile....walked around the mexicana villa and i slept the whole way home! I was a relaxing weekend...but an exhausting one.
just a few more days though and I'm headed out to my sister and BIL's in phili. I'm excited more so just to be away. But my sis has all these plans...and I'm thinking it's just good to see her i honestly could care less what we do. I already know we're headed straight to AC for a night and day....and then back in phili....and then to spend a night and day in NYC....to come back for my bday dinner and sit around since my sis has school for a few days...and then off for phili exploration and then home. i won't mind the touristy stuff but i've done it all in all these cities so i really could care less for them. but eh....sisterly bonding. funny though...now that she's married--we've gotten closer. in all reality we never got along and we have had some of the most vicious fights.
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looks like i won't be getting my new desk and whatnot to rearrange my office before i go...bummer!
i've two days and i'll be off to philadelphia. i'm excited....but disappointed seeing that it'll rain the whole weekend when we're out in AC and then when we go out to NYC it'll be raining too! blah!
so much to do....and yet i've not done anything! eekkk!
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all packed and i've already "checked in" my luggage though my flight isn't until tomorrow morning. went online and got that taken care of so i don't have to worry about it tomorrow. i'm excited....wha t can i say? whoot whoot!!! it's been a while since i've been to philadelphia('96) let alone NYC('00). it'll be a nice vacay and good to see my sis and bil. i've not met all of my bil's family so it'll be nice to meet everyone too.
but let's be real...what am i looking forward to most? duh, of course! w no exceptions--hands down the food!!!!! and being me, i can't wait for chinatown. sadly though, it's suppose to rain this whole weekend while we're out in atlantic city and when we head to NYC. just my luck huh? well, let's hope mother nature wakes up on the right side of the bed and decides otherwise. someone's got to be optimistic now.
i'm actually proud of myself. i'm a bit of a ratpack...sorr y--but my one luggage is only 30 lbs(2 pairs of shoes, two dresses, underwear, a pair of jeans, my jewelry, straightener, and toiletries) and i have one carry-on (a gym bag size--mainly w clothes and even a casual dress n there!) w my backpack which i mainly brought bc my sis insists that i bring a backpack since it'll rain in NYC and for my netbook. luckily for me, though my backpack is kind of big there's nothing really in it other than my netbook and a book to read--thank goodness for my back!
work today is uhmm...well, i'm trying to be productive but let's face it i'm seriously just sitting here wasting time. BUT i am getting some work done. i've got this newsletter that i've been working on--slowly, but at least i'm working on it than staring at the wall! LOL
i finally figured out who's picking me up sun from the airport. i had to ask my cousin--she's in madison so it's easier since my car will be dropped off there anyway. for a moment there i was starting to worry how i'd get to my car seeing that it'd be an hour away. whew! i've to remember to get her a thank you gift!
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ac was fun.....but now we're off to nyc...possibly meeting up with a pher.....hrrrm mm....
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the feet r numb...but more walking..i mean sight-seeing...tasting everything on r way--almost. ;D
heading 2 the brooklyn bridge n grabbing pizza...headin g 2 a beer garden...n then back 2 phili--i think.
unfortunately the rain is still taggin along w us! please rain...go away! as much as i'm enjoying myself here i'm so ready 2 head back 2 phili..not looking forward 2 2day. :-\
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nyc was awesome! i'm on the bus charging my phone n i should b catching up on some sleep n restin these eyes of mine but mayb n a bit. i'm completely exhausted but i did enjoy myself. :) we didn't really do touristy stuff but walked a hell lot n saw quite a few things....buts eriously, we ate r way thru nyc! :D u know me. ;D but i didn't get pict of everything.... however tried my best. i'll probably b posting pic 2morrow since everybody will b gone working.
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I'm beat.....it's my bday...i'm 30 today...but i don't feel like it. i guess that's a good thing.
cropping my pics....will upload soon!
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yeah yeah i know...i've yet to post my pics. i figured i'd post them all then i get back. sorry.
it's my last night here...we're just going to go bar hopping. i've been doing so much now that i really don't care for such an extravagant event. guess that comes partially of age as well.
i don't want this vacay to end but it will. i've just to remember to text my ride so she comes and picks me up @ the airport tomorrow.
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eh...back 2 work. blah!
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yes, finally posted up pics from my trip. hope ya'll enjoy now---cause i know i did. 8) O0
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i've been thinking of u lately....i've been wanting to reach out to u....but honestly--i dunno if i want to open that door. so for now...i'm just standing here....linger ing around pondering what my next move should be--if anything.
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so instead--u opened that door and reached out to me. it was nice "talking" and catching up. but i know now that what is in my past is where it was meant and needed to be. life moves on and thus i did...as u did as well. let's keep it that way. we don't need to be strangers--as that's not what i want....but there's nothing to "hang on" to anymore--other than our mutual respect for one another.
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what can i say....i'm wishing for Friday already. heading to MN to celebrate my bro and my gf's hubby's bdays. labor day weekend is always oh so fun for us every year!!!
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a few things left to do this week..but it'll be a breeze. yes, waiting for friday...so i can get out of here!!!
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8:30 and i'm still here @ the office....tryi ng to get some stuff done so i can leave early on fri.
can't believe summer went by like that!
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awesome.....bi lls r paid and i'm counting down the hours.
laundry tonight so i can pack for tomorrow to come in to work for a few hours and leave. don't want to feel rushed but i know my brother will want to get on the road asap.
excited for the weekend....jus t to see every1 n just chillaxin.
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had a severe storm here last night...some ppl lost power....i woke up to the rain and wind.....and when i was out on my way to work realized how bad of a storm we had when i saw a tree down almost every other block! crazy!!!
sucks though, cause we're leaving for MN to celebrate chad and lao's bday and we'll have to deal with this rain! blah! ::) we're suppose to head out to the state fair tomorrow...but more rain! really!?!!? rain, rain, go away--come again---uhmmm in october or something. please? please. well, if all else fails....we can still go to the state fair...and dance in the rain while we eat our pork on a stick, corn on a stick, gator on a stick, candybar on a stick, everything on a stick!!! ;D ;D ;D
it'll be a nice 3 day weekend hanging out with friends and whatnot. celebrating and chillaxin....j ust what i needed!!!
i intend on not having any drama.....but u never know with others. ::) ::) ::)
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the labor day weekend was a good one indeed. it was more relaxing than anything--which was much needed. thanks to those who came out to join us. will post up pics soon--of course. O0 8)
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work work work
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i've been thinking a lot lately....n u don't know it....but i think of u all the time. i even dream about u. i'll admit it...i like u more than i should....and when i c u--i try to act cool but honestly my stomach is n knots and i'm sweating like no other. n all i do is flutter when i c u smile.
eh...where is this guy huh?
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meetings all day today...
but thankfully my bro and i r going 2 go n look @ cars today...just look.
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well....still looking. bout to head out here in a bit and go test some more cars. i've to say this is not easy....probab ly doesn't help that I don't really know what i want as of yet.
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well, i think the new car will have 2 wait a bit...so i'll still b looking but nothing 2 rush.
it was a nice weekend...went 2 a wedding. thanks 2 my bro 4 giving me wrong directions i was late n missed the ceremony! i wasn't 2 happy bout that. but came back n had a lil lunch n vegged out b4 heading out 2 her reception. it reminded me 2 much of my sisters wedding. dejavu mang no lie! i didn't take 2 many pics...but a few.
the guys n i went out last night. played some billards n then they decided they wanted 2 go bar hopping (mainly entertaining their cousins who were here 4 the wedding n bc they're guys looking 4 possible girls, duh!) so we went. we all had a good time..some more than others. but glad i went out...it had been a while...n though some parts of the night reminded me how old i was there were parts of the night that told me...age is not relevant...it's who u r as a person. O0
i have no "ties" 2 him so i can't get mad when i c him flirting (sometimes a bit 2 hard) or dancing up on girls...i'm human after all so i do get a bit jealous i'll admit that. but being who i am...i don't throw a fit or "stake my claim" 2 things that rn't mine. a few times he tried dancing w me...i played it cool...danced here n there but i don't want any awkwardness btwn us so i play it down n let him have his fun. i was disappointed seeing him display himself n such light though. i know many guys who have hearts of gold n i adore them. but sometimes i 4get that they are animals who need 2 b fed...looking 4 their next hunt....next meal. as much as i know it's "how things work" i am a bit disappointed that some1 i could adore so much b like so. n then @ times i wonder if i was wrong 4 expecting so much from them. ???
on another note...while u were 2 bz ignoring me....i realized some1 else was making me laugh. 4 once some1 was looking @ me nstead of through me...n 4 whatever it is or is worth...i'm grateful. a lil smile was all i really needed. :)
i should chuck this ignorance out the window...u never know--these new experiences..o pportunities could b a blessing n disguise. 8)
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what do i want 2 do 2day? have a horror movieathon!!! just cuddle up n watch me some good arse horror flicks!!! O0 my kind of weekend!
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my eyes hurt today....and i've a headache now. oh it's that time of the year....when everyone's getting sick.
urgh...another 5 hours b4 i can head home...blah!
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it's time to move on....
i can honestly say that i'm doing well. things here and there could be better but for the most part i really don't have anything to complain about.
i'm been a bit bz with work...but new year is next week and this weekend i think i'll be headin up to mn to do a lil--just a lil shopping.
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our hmong new year is this weekend and though i'm not sure how i feel about the new location i am surely excited about my new saree outfit. granted, my mom still has to finish my top (no way am i having my big white belly hangin out-blah!) but i know i'm gonna look purdiful! i got jewelry and all...so imma be all bollywooded out! i hope the girls are going to wear their sarees too...or even their hmong outfits....we all should dress up this year.
not to mention--for once we may have nice weather! y else not be pumped about that huh? O0 O0 O0 O0
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ny is in a few days...can't wait! I've gotten most of my saree done--let's hope i get my top done....i'm all blinged out! it's going to be a good weekend forsure. the girls are coming and we'll have a great time. good food...good fun...lots of laughs and great company! what more could i ask for? i even have friday off! O0 O0 O0 O0
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i swear...if she doesn't get this done imma be hella P-Oed!!!! gggggggggrrrrr rrrrrrrr!!!! >:( >:( >:( >:( >:(
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eh...another ordinary week. :-\
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indeed another week....or work, work, work. just trying to stay on top of things.
i'm hoping that the last of things get done with this month--it's suppose to. i'm still waiting to hear bout the last of this other "project" that MUST be done. Come on now ppl get ur shiat together and b done with it please--y do we want to stall things? cause it surely isn't helping anyone.
i dunno y...but i keep dreaming either about him...or I find myself waking up and he's the first thing on my mind. his face, his presence--he's there...he's here w me. don't get me wrong i'm more than delighted but at times it's confusing. he's not mine and i'm not his. i adore the guy and i'd be lying if i said i didn't want more. he doesn't know how i feel--i've not told him and not saying he's a clueless idiot...but i don't think he knows. he's a good friend and we do spend some time together--always laughing up a storm. he confides in me and i can read him like a book (i know him better than he knows himself)--which I think scares guys off (sorry, it's just something i'm good at--reading ppl--i can't help it).
do i think he feels the same? it's hard to say. as I've said, we joke around a lot--i take jabs at him and he does to me....flirting some may say--we do like to sib tawb each other quite often. but nothing is ever overboard and we don't take low blows at one another--friendly flirting is all it is. regardless, we look out for one another (like many guys he can get short tempered when he's drunk) so I keep an eye on him (from afar) or make sure he gets home safely....as he makes sure i'm taken care of (getting me drinks, accompanying me when we're out, etc.) and defends me if needed (although I'm usually very chill and i can take care of my own--so it's really not necessary--but i know he'd kick some arse if I needed the help).
But isn't this what friends do for each other? I'm a big over analyzer so I play things over n over n my mind and try to see things from others point of view. any other lil girl would quickly jump to say..."yeah, he likes me. of course otherwise y else would be buy me drinks and sit next to me?" But i don't c it as he's given me "special treatment". It's not like he's calling me out of the blue and hanging on the phone w me. He dances with girls while I'm next to him and talks about others potential girls (but nothing ever comes out of these potentials--all fall flat somehow). However, at the same time--we have this connection...w here you can finish each others' sentences, when you have a conversation and w/o saying a word u know what he's thinking...and he knows what ur thinking as well. U know, those conversations when u don't talk with words but with ur eyes. It's like that when we joke around too....i can just look at him and we both laugh. Sometimes I even give him a hard time--u know, bust his balls and all he does is blush and laugh.
*sigh* i find myself in this position many times. but honestly, i've always wanted a life partner who is my friend--my best friend. someone who can finish my sentences for me and w/o a word know what i'm trying to say or think. but maybe i, myself want that so bad that i make things more than what they are. so is this all just my own imagination or is it real? are these dreams just my own fabrication of what i want? or could he be trying to tell me something?
eh, whatever it is...friends or more--i'm OK with us just being us. i'm not one who demands to be luved. i'm not one who pushes one my way. i'd rather one c n me the greatness that i c n them. i don't settle but i don't make something out of nothing either. for what it's worth, i'm grateful to have such a person in my life--even if he's just a good friend. :)
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going to work off site today....headi ng out to c some of my kids. it's going to be a boring drive and i'm going to be bored off my arse forsure! y do i have a good feeling that i'll end up driving 30 minutes out to only c maybe 2 kids when i'm suppose to meet with 12?!?! Please don't let that b the case cause not only will i be irritated but again, i'm going to be bored as fawk!
hrrmm...i should bring my chinese books and study or something--better yet, my korean books. *sigh* i can't wait for this day to be over with. yes!
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yesterday seemed like a waste of time... ::) ::) ::)
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so many kids in my life......y bother having any of my own. *deep sigh of exhaustion*
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it's a good day 2day. the weather is decent--actually really nice cause i'm in shorts 2day. though i'm sitting here at work i'm enjoying myself.
but i do know that it'll be a LLLOOONNGGG week for me. headed to tomah on wed and then 2 stevens point for a college visit with my kids (all 15 of them). thankfully i'll not have much to do on friday.
so hrrmm....shoul d i go to madison this weekend or stay home. part of me wants to go--just to get away from here....but i'm so broke it's not even funny, thus i should just stay home. might just sit my arse home this weekend and vegg. or go window shopping again and figure out what i'm getting everyone on my xmas list. perhaps that's more productive than going to madison.
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taking the kids to UW-Stevens Point tomorrow....ug h! Gotta be on the road by 6AM! it's going to be a long day forsure...n i just finished a 10 hour day today. blah....need to go home now.
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so much for putting in a simple few hours today. ::)
can't wait to head home and chillax. not to mention wait for my paper on sun....can't wait to coupon mang! O0 O0 O0 O0
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i've been so tired as of late. blah!
OK, so i'm at work tonight...with my students listening to music and listening to them talk about their finals this week. i'm hoping they are getting their work done and getting the help they need.
printed myself a few more coupons today! payday tomorrow but i've got some other things to do so i hope i will have some time to go and do some grocery shopping. made a list already...but perhaps leaving my big shopping for this weekend next week even--depending on the specials for next week.
so i have my xmas list made already....thi nking i'll get half or 3/4 of my shopping list done--hopefully.
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was planning on going out of town this weekend to hang out with some friends but i've to do some things for work so no can do.
gotta meet with some students of mine and do some recruitment thus--no time for anything else.
at least i'll be home this weekend. hopefully after getting my work done i can relax. next weekend i've to work too...but it'll be the last weekend for this year!
my friends' hubby is throwing her a surprise bday party....she'll be surprised for sure. so looks like thanksgiving weekend will b in mn this year--though i had not planned on it it'll be nice to hang out with them and celebrate. just hope it's not crazy crowded.
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it sucks to be working so much n always broke. what's even more sad...i've nothing to show for it.
guess it'll be like this for a lil while longer huh? blah!
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OK, got one xmas present done--wrapped and ready for the tree. i hope my mom likes it...i know she needs it.
uhmm...it's going to be a long day tomorrow....AN D saturday. blah--work.
@ least sunday i have a baby shower/sprinkle to go to. it'll be fun. i'm expecting to win me some prizes...i'm competitive--so i've been told. better be nice prizes! i know i throw a bombarse party...well, bachelorette and baby showers at the least. LOL
i hope we don't get any snow this weekend.
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we ordered the pac/marquez fight...the guys r over, there's beer, pizza, chips n random bets of beer 4 the losers...it's been loud n hilarious w all the smack talking...all n good fun! O0 O0 O0
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i've been sick w a fever 4 the past 2 days. i am suppose 2 attend a conference 2morrow (starts @ 8) but i doubt i'll b going now. i've a turkey day potluck @ 6 2morrow 2. i've yet 2 decide what i'll b making 2morrow but i know it'll b good--but of course! :)
eh...nothing else is new. paying em bills, seeing my kids, n same thing the next day. *sigh* thatms the life......or is it? :-\
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been having a lot of weird dreams lately....craz y ones.
eh...no snow yet--great!!!
turkey day is almost here. i'm cooking this year by myself....it's ok....but nothing big planned...just something simple.
on to party with my gf for her bday! she'll be 32 i think. it'll b a chill weekend!!!
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had myself a nice weekend! O0
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been quite productive with work....n only needing to be more productive.
getting my xmas cards done--slowly but surely.
eh...my desk is a mess with all this paperwork everywhere.... eh, i'll get around to clearing it--eventually.
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snow is here...eh, i can do w/o it but we r n the midwest so we're bound 4 snow...i'm sure there's plenty more on its way--eventually.
this is the last week of my "late nights" @ work--thank goodness! O0
hrrmm....packe rs won 2night...it was a close 1. they really need 2 work on their defence n dude....what was w all the butterfingers 2night?!?! blah! ::)
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sent out a good quarter or half of my xmas cards this morning....i've still to finish the rest.
eh, meetings and more meeting today. honestly, i just want to go home. actually no...i want to do some online shopping and shop some more...of course, not for me.
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ua cas ob ntus no kuv pheej npau suav dag dag ne. LOL
*sigh* I can't believe it's almost xmas already....dan g this year is surely coming by way too fast...next thing u know....it's already 2012!!!
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i'm sorry ur hurting so much...it's always unfortunate when u lose some1 u luv. n it also hurts when those u luv r hurting....n u know that there's nothing u can do bout it 2 make it better. :'(
headed 2 mn 4 my best buddy jack's fathers' funeral. never been 2 a lao funeral but anything 4 these friends of mine...cause they r my laughter, my strength n my happiness.
i know it'll b awkward....u there n him there...but my heart is still numb n is still afraid 2 speak...thus i shall remain where i am. no, don't get me wrong--i'm not wishing otherwise i'm only hoping that no matter what u will remember that there is some1 who thinks the world of u.
kthnx that's all i've got 2 say 4 now. :)
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yes, a new year.....w that comes a new me. thus...no u.
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if u don't like how i do things...y bother even asking me to do it then? ::) >:( >:(
now it was a waste of both our time--please don't bother me w ur complaints. shouldn't have asked for my help if you were only to criticize me about it later. gggrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!! >:( :idiot2: :knuppel2: >:( :idiot2: :knuppel2:
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*sigh* heading home now...it's been a long day!
xmas is just about here...but for some reason i'm not excited...not one bit.
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Yay! Off to my 3day weekend!!! I didn't even know until a few hours ago--been so busy that I forgot that I've got monday off.
and next week I'm only in on Tues and Wed. with Thurs-Monday off. Thus, a five day weekend as well!!! O0 O0 O0
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it's xmas eve n i'm bored out of my mind! every1 is bz w fam n well, 2 b honest being home right now is not only boring but driving me insane!!!
saw him 2day...i honestly dunno what i would do (i always think of the worst case scenario--can't help it) but i held it 2gether n we talked 4 a bit. we were civil n eventually i walked away. even while walking 2 my car i shockingly said 2myself.."wow, that went better than expected." :D :D :D i had mixed emotions still n am confused as 2 where i am or we r n this relationship.. ..but i know 1 thing is certain...i'm a lot stronger than i realized n learning more n more bout myself each day! merry xmas 2 me! :) some gifts really r urs n the making--literally! O0
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i'm no grinch but i hate this time of the year!!! gggrrr!!! i'm so emo...urgh! cry myself a river!!! blah!
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it's been a long while...n i secretly hope u r reading this.....but i miss u. just wanted 2 let u know.
good, now i've said it...kthnxbye. 8)
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你不知道的事 by: 王力宏
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I had an interesting dream yesterday morning. An old friend confessed 2 me his ♥ n admiration 4 me from many moons ago--we r still friends though living r own lives. He tells me that the ♥ btwn friends is deeply cherished but the ♥ btwn friends whom become ♥ers is like no other. Though we never took that step--he wishes me well and wants me 2 b more open 2 the idea of ♥ and potential mates...even those who r "friends" now. Bc they could b like us then--afraid of the future--the "what could b".
U wanna know what the funniest or weirdest part was? We were in a closet--in the dark talking about this which eventually ended up in the bedroom on those lao/thai mats on the floor sippin on some brewskies! LMAO!!! WTF, right?
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the sun is out dancing around today! hrrrmmm...it's december but it surely doesn't feel like it! Feels like it's the middle of September instead.
it's suppose to be cold tonight...and some sleet tomorrow or so...but new years is suppose to be 40 degrees....for WI that's like a mild fall afternoon. Though i don't mind....that's just disturbing bc we all know midwest winters is nothing of the such...and eventually all good things will come to an end. honestly, i don't want to be debbie downer but well, we know the storm is going to hit us eventually. I'd rather get winter done and over with rather than prolong it any longer. who wants wintery cold arse days in the middle of april!?!?! surely not i!
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it's been interesting... ..indeed!
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it's snowing out...cold n icy! :(
thank goodness i've got off...only 2 lay n my bed n cuddle up underneath these here covers n stay warm. it'd be nice 2 have a cuddle buddy but eh, i'll manage.
wow, n just a few days it'll b 2012, really? ??? :o eeekkk!!! where has this year gone?!
well, can't wait 4 some roasted pork! nom nom nom!!! O0
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i should b sleeping...
...n a few hours i'll finally b back 2 work..first day after the new year. eh, that's right...gotta remember 2 date things n '12 now.
hoping 2 go n early 2morrow so i can have more of the day 2 myself. but i'm not a mornin person @ all...so i already know i won't b n til @ the latest 10. only 2 sit n do nothing.
urgh! so annoyed! i've 2 make a stop n mn on friday after work. gotta drop my uncle off...it's going 2 b a long drive cause he doesn't talk...i just hope he doesn't try 2 play the pity card on me...not gonna work.
actually i'll b makin quite a few trips 2 mn this month of course none 2 4 my pleasure n fun...all bc i have "errands" 2 attend 2.
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yeah @ work....so much to do...but kuv tsis xav ua li os! ok...maybe not that much...just a few letters i've to finish up here...and then just sitting here staring @ the screen for a few more hours.
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guess i'm headed to MN again....it's going to be a long and boring drive--i know it!
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literally shopped til i dropped yesterday....u rgh, so exhausted!
i dunno....how do rich ppl do it? go shopping all day...w all em bags!?!?! whoah...sab tiag tiag! But then again, if u've got money u're probably not hanging on to ur own bags. then again u'd no need to go shopping either..u'd have ur assistant go pick up ur orders--or i guess that's y we've online shopping now..doh!
speaking of which..more shopping today...headed to hmong village to pick up some stuff and gotta go to the hmong stores for some rice and whatnot. it'll at least be a nice drive home--it's so nice out today!!!
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aww...2 bad packers...but ya know ur d has been off...4 a while now. ::) nperhpas now these underdogs r amped n r really trying 2 give their all. even em saints were taken down...some stupid sh*t they b playing...lame luss...but oh well. nothing u can do now. 8)
pho was so filling 2day....good 2 have great friends 2 share it w! O0
i've so much i've 2 get done n the coming weeks n months.....@ times i wonder y i even bother 2 taken on these responsibiliti es! ::) i really do need 2 learn how 2 say no. :-\
uhmmm...tsis paub tias qhov no yog dabtsi but we'll c where it yuav coj kuv...thov nws yuav pab kuv thaug txoj ke nod kom zoo.
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snow....blah! y do u insist on coming mang?!?!?! :knuppel2: :knuppel2: :knuppel2:
please mister sun...come out and play all day tomorrow!!! melt this darn snow please. kthnxbye.
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Stopping by to say Hello :-*
Oh....what a nice surprise. :)
hello mister! :wave:
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blah! Still sick....but i do feel better at least. I realize that w this demanding job of mine...i'm surprised i'm not sick more often. *better knock on wood* blah...and it's cold as fawk out! brrr....y did we move to wi? blah....but then again, i don't have to be here....i choose to stay therefore, suck it up lisa! yeah yeah, stop talking to myself.
headed to mn again! i hate driving in this winter weather! another weekend up in mn...this will be a short trip this time as my gf and i r heading up to pick up a few things for the bach party next weekend and to of course pick up my mom. she got back on wednesday but due to work neither i nor my bro could pick her up. and once again i'm stuck to do the drive bc i don't work weekends and this weekend he happens to. that's three weekends in a row that i'd b up there! granted i enjoyed myself while i was in town but really? my pockets r not happy! totally fricken sucks!!!
thankfully next week no late nights of work....hope to get some stuff done. i should b looking forward to next weekend..but honestly, i'm not. sad but true. too much stuff going on and well, i've too much on this dear plate of mine and honestly i just want to tell everyone to go to hell-nicely. LOL times like these i wish i had my own place and didn't have to report to anyone.....sit my arse at home and hide under my covers and watch movies all day long!!! yes, i'm a lazy arse...so what? unfortunately as lazy as i'd like to be....i can be anything but lazy now.
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really? ??? ::) ::) ::) >:( >:( >:( snow?!?!? y do u have to ruin my weekend...my drive up to mn? i really do hate u!!! blah!
urgh...so cold I don't want to do anything....go nna go home and maybe make some more tea and veg. yep...that's what i'll do.
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urgh...more snow!!!! >:( blah, i don't like driving in it nor do i like walking in it! blah, blah, blah...n blah!
I had to get up uber early today since I have to proctor another practice ACT testing this morning. They didn't tell me until last night sometime around 9. Thus, being a responsible person--I went to bed early...extra early for me. I usually don't go to bed until 2 or so so heading to bed anytime before midnight is like going to sleep before dinner time! but i had myself a good nights rest and woke up to find...dun dun dun--all this snow!
anyway, sadly enough only five students showed up this morning. better than no1 at all...*sigh* i guess.
so much to do, i swear! we start tutoring back up next week and i've got some things in the office i have to finish for next week, some paperwork and interviews i really need to get done. not to mention, start my summer stuff as well.
this week i've got to also get things ready for the bachelorette party. i just hope things go smoothly--i could care less about anything else. urgh, so much to do.....
thus far, i think 2012 is going to be a busy year, ppl having more babies, ppl moving, career changes and i can already feel my wallet start to empty out! blah! not good!!! :-\
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The snow is great for ice fishing. You should try it, fish the pre storm period. It's awesome
i actually enjoy fishing a lot....but ice fishing? i dunno. mayb one of these days dianahmuas will take me.
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very productive this morning! yay! now just a couple of things left to do and then a staff meeting which i know will take most of my afternoon! hrrmm...a lot going on--everywhere..work, life, home, friends, wow 2012 has been quite eventful and draining on my pockets. not good lil dragon!
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i don't understand my dreams many of the times...i have very vivid dreams--every night.
i haven't dreamt about u for a while...but u seem 2 like 2 come and go as u please. wassup mang? ???
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such a nice day out and i didn't get to enjoy any of it! :-\
oh well....at least i'm off tomorrow. only to clean the house and get things ready for my girls' bachelorette party. i'm just hoping it goes smoothly and well, i wanna c her get wild and let loose bc she never does.
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last night was ccrraazzyy! :D i would like 2 think that every1 had fun-i know i did. we didn't start on hmong time bc well, i wasn't gonna wait around 4 ppl! ::) food was good, drinks eventually was good on the party limo, n great being w awesome ppl! i only hope that the girls had a blast @ my girls' bach party. we didn't get her something 2 crazy, like a stripper but just a few fun things. O0 it snowed last night so we didn't get 2 go 2 r destination but daayeemm, all i know is that i woke up this morning w a bit of a hangover! i only hope the bride 2 b is phawked up blastered! (then again, i doubt it) :( ::)
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i'm still sore from the weekend....and a bit tired but it's monday...@ the office finally. going to c my kids tonight. i already know it's going 2 b a long day 2day.
nice sunny day--melt snow, melt!!! can't believe january is just about over. but that just means we're getting closer to spring and then summer!!! yay!!! O0 now back to pics.....I'll be posting them eventually.
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gonna go and finish my taxes tomorrow. urgh...time to get my arse home and in bed!
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oh well, looks like taxes and laundry will be tomorrow instead.
can't wait for the weekend? y? no reason--just want the week to be over with already.
hrrrmmm....wha t to have for dinner? ???
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finally doing my laundry, dunno how i did 2 weeks w/o doing laundry. ok, i do know--but i really couldn't afford to put off laundry for another day. thank goodness, so glad i'll have me some clean clothes! yay!
so i'm sitting here at the laundromat bored out of my mind as my clothes are drying. it's actually nice in here....the ceiling fans are going and it's really cool in here and of course i'm the only one in here. yep, grabbed me some dinner and after i fold these here clothes i'm off to head home and most likely veg out for a few hours, check FB and then attempt to sleep. sometimes i feel like i should get myself checked out for sleep insomnia.
blah...gotta fold now. ah, don't u luv the smell of clean clothes? O0
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more strange dreams...
work is boring but relaxing today. everyone is gone and it's been just me for the last hour or so. i didn't think i'd get much done today...but i did. thankfully i did some yesterday considering the potluck we had today and the long meeting.
can't wait to go to the store to pick up some stuff for sunday!
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had movie night w my best girl, maily...now we're on r way 2 the citiessince her hubby wants 2 get groceries 4 2morrow! just a quick road trip. yay!
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made some dumplings last night w my fav girl. had some for lunch with some asparagus. it was yummy indeed.
thinking about checking out the new indian restaurant in town this weekend. can't wait!!!
now i'm off to pick up the car and drive 30 minutes out 2 c my kids. another long night.
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i've no plans but i just can't wait til tomorrow!!!!
*sigh* urgh it's only 2ish....i've still five or so more hours of work. blah!
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got to work this weekend....but at least part of it is fun--taking the kids bowling after the workshop and then heading out to my cute kids' bday party at chuck e cheese. Got them each HUGE coloring books.
next weekend we're headed to madison to david's bridal to get our bridesmaid dresses. i've money saved up for it...as i know already that my dress will be at least a couple hundred not to mention my coverup. i don't even know if i'm going to buy my dress or not. i might just try on dresses to see what looks good and go elsewhere--that way i know i can save myself the money--especially since we're paying for these dresses (that we might not wear again) ourselves.
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getting a lot done today. just finished helping one of my kids with her financial aid....got about three more this afternoon to do. it's a great feeling knowing that they're one step closer to starting a new chapter in their lives.
i have the world's most unpredictable skin!!! I hate it! So i had a MONSTER zit AND pimple on my nose (it happens a lot and I dunno what to do about it bc no matter how often i exfloxiate, wash, or whatever to my skin...I'm still rudolph every now and then) and yeah, I popped it. Now I look like i have a hickey on my nose--and it's so nasty....it's like beat up like an old ugly troll or ogre's nose...ugly-galore!!! and it hurts like no other! that's life, i guess.
have to head down to madison next weekend for our bridesmaid dresses. we're hoping to find something; i'm not taking it too seriously though. i've gone dress shopping when it was my sisters' wedding but this time i really could care less if i find anything. no offense bride. but eh...it'll be fun just to grab random dresses though and slip them on for fun! imma grab the ugliest and poofiest things ever! just to do it! yes, will take pics forsure--it's suppose to be fun after all, right?
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i'm so tired but up early this sat...getting ready 4 work. i'm just hoping 4 the morning 2 pass right on by. @ least we're going bowling later w the kids.
i'm not suee if imma go 2 my friends' kids' bday party now. i have some other things i really should attend 2. we'll c.
she's driving me crazy again! urgh! i swear...someti mes i wish i wasn't n this position...but then what would she b doing? where would she b? urrgghh.... ::) i guess. :-\ 8)
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eh, it's been boring on here. for some reason i'm just not as interested in posting anymore.....
...oh well. 8)
need to find myself a new hobby. :)
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i'm so gone! if u think ur going 2 continue 2 take me 4 granted n take advantage of me then u've another thing coming. i don't do shady nor do i do lies. i have plenty of great ppl n my life n if u truly don't want 2 b a part of it then so b it....stop coming around or stringin me on bc i can honestly say i don't need nor care 4 u--especially when i know u don't appreciate me as i do u. i've no time nor nrg dear...so move aside please.
kthnxbye! 8)
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it's friday and i'm doing my laundry right now as we speak. just a load but better get it done since i've a lot to do this weekend.
the gf and i have decided to leave on our own probably tonight to madison. too much drama so we'll opt out and have our own lil trip. i really can't stand shady ppl...and i'm doing my best to bite my lip and just say nothing but it's not my personality to let things "slide". some ppl just can't take the truth--heated or not.
did my makeup today...only bc i have this huge scar on my nose now from these pimples thus i am too paranoid to let ppl see my flaws--so time to look pretty! muuaaahhhahaha hah!
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what do u do when i feel u've reached ur end? when u've been giving ur all only 2 realize that the other not only does not care but after many years 2gether is questioning ur relationship and almost questioning u as a person and ur character--as if u r a stranger 2 them! (wtf!) that they'd believe others words over urs but yet they r not ever willing 2 address or approach u of any unclarity. do u cut all ties n dust urself off? or do u stick it out giving ur all hoping that things will get better? :( ???
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i know if i wait until ur ready to deal w it then i'd have to wait forever...so we're not going to wait cause i've got better things to do--sorry but for once u can't run away from ur problems...how else do u expect to grow?
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after work tonight...it's on! i only hope we walk out respecting our differences if anything. it was good while it lasted and it'll be up to you if you want it to continue bc u already know where i stand.
on another note--darn weatherman!!! Fricken' snow!!!! >:(
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RIP grandpa faiv ntaj yaj! we will surely miss you. :'( :'( :'(
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i really feel like there's some1 or something that is always pulling me back (n all aspects) no matter how i climb or crawl back up. really...y does it seem like all the odds r against me? *urgh* blah! i'm completely drained...emot ionally, physically, mentally n spiritually! sucks arse!
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my cough is almost gone now..yay! my infection yes, that too is just about healed and gone. i'm just as good as new.
it's great with this weather getting warmer too!
this weekend will be quite an exhausting one I know it already. picking up my sis in mlps on thurs night....headi ng back to lax on friday only to get ready for my gramps funeral. it'll be long that's forsure, and then i'll be sending my sis back to the airport on monday.
so much to do this week--with the funeral and all and then for next week! thank goodness i've got the end of next week off so we can go on our cabin trip! it's long overdue and we all can't wait to go and simply chillax! so glad i'll b off my meds so i can drink!!! yeah it'll be a nice break that's certain!!!
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despite all that's going on in my life....today is a good day!!! yay! O0 O0 O0
thankfully the weather is nice too. too bad i'm in my office all day but thus far it's been a good morning.
laundry later and then some major cleaning. things are coming into place....i like it.
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Yes, you make me beam......
...i can't help but smile from ear to ear.
which only makes me think...if being with you is nothing much laughs and giggles and warm tickles...then if things progress and get a little hawt hawt then OMG...I'd be on cloud 9 4eva. LOL ;D ;D ;D ;D
oh...sorry, i was simply thinking aloud. 8)
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it was quite foggy this morning...but i'm all packed and ready to wait it out until i've to leave for mn. i procrastinated with laundry last night until about 9pm. I actually don't mind doing my laundry...howe ver, after work and dinner i really didn't want to do anything. my room was a mess as well and i really needed to pick up or hang up my laundry from the prior week (yeah I've been lazy and just left them sitting in the basket for a week and didn't bother to hang them up). it was a nice drive last night to the laundromat though. if it wasn't too late and had i not need to be up early this morning i would have gone for a late night drive--with the window down (thanks to the awesome weather lately) while singing along to some luvly tunes! but that wasn' t the case. i came home to cleaning my room. proud of myself--let's hope it stays that way. (which I'm sure it won't--sad, but true.) Made space for the air mattresses as i already know they'll be broken into this weekend. (We bough two new ones since the last one I bought--to replace the old one that had a small hole in it--was busted by my friend. I dunno what she did with it but it ended up popping soon after she finished blowing it up--maybe too much air? regardless, there was a HUGE hole on the side--there went my $, down the drain!)
though it'll be a long weekend and gramps funeral is this weekend i'm glad that i'll be seeing the fambam....thos e near and far. it'll be exhaustively pleasant. *sigh* just two more hours....
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it was a LONG weekend....RIP yawg faiv ntaj yaj! we will most def miss you!
back at work...doing what? nothing. it's a 2 day work week for me...y? bc we're headed to go to our cabin we rented for our annual march madness trip with the gang! I can't wait!!!
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RIP Yeng Vang....it's so unfortunate and sad that you felt you had to leave us. Though we've lost touch these past years I will miss you. I remember those days when we were lil kids and our families used to visit each other all the time. Your brother was always so mean to me but you and your younger brother always whisked me away from him and comforted me. You were short with words but always made me laugh. You will indeed be greatly missed! :'(
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kuv puas yuav muaj hmoo rov pom koj lawm nas?
i know i will.....y? bc i'll c u 2night. O0 8)
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having a grand time at march madness....i'll post pics later! O0 O0 O0 O0
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i have 2 say...i'm surprisingly very happy 2 c u. odd as it is...n as much as u may get under my skin u always make me smile no matter what.
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hrrmm...a surprising little note today...thanks for making me smile. what a way to start my day. :)
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such a nice day out...but once again i don't get to enjoy it. work work work. i will get a lil glimpse of it on my way to my dr. appt. though...only to come back to work and clock out @ 9 tonight. blah! @ least tomorrow will be payday!!!! O0 O0 O0 O0
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yay....thanks for nice weather. we're gonna grill and chillax 2night. gotta go pick up a few things.
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spring has sprung.....ind eed.
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i've been contemplating. ...hrrrmmm...s hould I or shouldn't i? i want to.....and if i don't then i won't get around to it until after the weekend since I'll be out of town. decisions, decisions.
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OMG, my stomach is in so much pain!!! :'( :'( :'( It just started feeling this way about two hours ago. I dunno if it's just cramps bc I normally don't get them but this "cramping" is like someone kicked me really hard on the left side of my stomach---u know, knocked the wind out of me and hours later it's still hurting. I'm trying to sit all sorts of positions but it's still hurting. My sis was complaining of abdominal pain a few weeks ago and we thought it might have been gallbladder stones....i really hope that's not the case with me.
i'm suppose to head off to the WI dells as of tomorrow for a retreat over the weekend and the last thing I need/want is any sort of uncomfortablen ess or pain to 'ruin' my trip. i think imma leave work here in a bit and go rest. yes, must do.
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yay...i feel a lot better now...took a long arse nap n the pain is gone. i still feel a bit nauseous but ok. just gotta remember some tylenol n meds 4 my retreat this weekend.
i'm glad i got picked 2 go on this womens retreat...n all honesty i just want 2 go away n relax n not have 2 think bout work. found out i have 2 drive the big van 2morrow...i was a bit disappointed as i was hoping 4 once it'd not have 2 drive..but @ least it's not 2 long of a drive. thank goodness.
hrrmm...it's been interesting but things have been put off 4 now...eh, that's just how my life seems 2 b...put this on hold 4 this. put that on hold 4 that, oh, can't do this bc i have that n this will have 2 wait bc i have this first. urgh!
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:wave: hello 'guest' reading my journal. fascinating isn't it?! :D jk didn't realize ppl come by.
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It's been a nice weekend here with these girls....and relaxing. :)
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back to work...blah.
now with spring here....time for some new things...and some change.
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yay...new phone and luving it. still getting used to touch screen...but i'm dling apps like crazy and can't seem to put my phone down at all....especia lly with these games!!! LOL :D ;D :D ;D :D
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hello 'guest' again. :wave:
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I feel some change coming on.....good or bad....it's going to happen.
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i'm so tired.....just got done with our volunteer work. now i wanna go back n jump into bed.
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just bc things happen...doesn t' mean it's an invite to talk sh|t! idiots!
anyway, a nice day out today....but i've got quite a few more hours left of work. hrrmm...what to do w the rest of my day when I'm off?
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i'm heading out for the day.
what can i say...i've mixed emotions right now...i can feel the butterflies! I haven't felt this way for a long time and i'm just as scared as i am excited. what will come of this? i have no idea. i may just be nothing....but all i can do is enjoy what is now and be grateful for it. thank u for reminding me how special i can b 2 someone.
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i'm tired.......of everything!!! Tired of being a joke, tired of ppl using me, tired of being forgotten, n tired of being taken advantage of. i luv w my heart but once i feel i'm getting cheated i call it out n if it's true i need out. i can't stand liars, cheaters, or shady ppl!!! So please, if ur not 100% then please let me b on my merry way.
Sadly i'm disappointed.. .but what was i expecting? The realist n me says "who cares...it is what it is n not the end of the world" but the dreamer n me says "i feel like i'm trying...seems like i'm getting somewhere...do nt give up until u know it is not possible"...n then there's the hopeless me who says "y bother when they clearly don't?! It's just never going to happen n i should just give up."
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darn bike!!! >:(
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i woke up this morning and for some reason i thought it was friday. i was disappointed once i realized it was only thursday....bu t at least it'll be friday tomorrow. so what did I do? i rolled over and decided to sleep (or try to go back to sleep) for another 15 mins or so. ;D ;D ;D
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had a weird dream yesterday...OK, not weird but funny and just caught me off guard. he's such a dork, i swear!
i dunno what to think now....decisio ns, decisions. a lot of thinking to do but nothing to get stressed about. in the long run i know it won't be something where I'll be regretting or crying over.
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i've been having weird dreams again....the other day i dreamt that somehow i gotten hurt and my whole right leg was bleeding like crazy. I had cuts and gashes everywhere from my mid-thigh all the way down to my ankle....bleed ing like no other! odd part was that I didn't feel any pain. instead i was worried about getting blood everywhere. but some reason i was wanting to clean it...so jumped into the shower--a huge communal shower, like in a locker room. however, this shower was co-ed! i was afraid i'd c others and or my guy friend who was coming in to shower after a work out...so of all things there was this wheeling laundry basket (like the ones at the laundry mat that you use to put ur clothes in and wheel to the dryer or your folding table) which was filled with beige sheets. I jumped into it--not I wasn't sitting in it...coinciden tally, it had an opening at the bottom so I was literally a walking-wheeling laundry basket! LOL Holding onto the bars I wheeled myself over to the other wall where the lockers were and tried to find the changing rooms. but all I was worried about was trying to cover myself naked self up and not getting blood on the sheets and leaving a trail.
I have no idea what the dream was about...but that's the first dream i've had were I was bleeding or hurt (physically). hrrrmmm....xod? ??? :dontknow:
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Dreaming of blood usually means you are overburdened yourself emotionally. It's emotional issue.
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Dreaming of blood usually means you are overburdened yourself emotionally. It's emotional issue.
Hi! Didn't realize ppl actually read my blurbs. :D
yeah...now that u say that....it sounds about right. thanks mister. :)
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If you have started the walk we discussed about you may be too tired to even dream ;D :D
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If you have started the walk we discussed about you may be too tired to even dream ;D :D
I haven't started the walk.....hones tly, there's a few things on my plate right now and ur assumption is true...I have been overly stressed and a bit emotionally strained.
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Well, in that case you will need to deal with it. Remember, you can only do so much. And you do not have to always be the one to get EVERYTHING done. Trust me, I know!
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Well, in that case you will need to deal with it. Remember, you can only do so much. And you do not have to always be the one to get EVERYTHING done. Trust me, I know!
Yes, I know pl. I've many things that have been on my mind for a while now which I haven't decided how I've wanted to 'deal' with them. The others on my plate are things that will be on-going and part of life...I just have to adjust and learn how to work around them more and better.
Many things come and go in your life, some are good and some are bad, some are necessary and others can be avoided if need be....however, it's how we experience life and what we make of these situations/things. Regardless, stressed or not I'm eventually going to have to tackle each one....perhaps it's a bit more than what I want and need right now at this very moment but it won't defeat me. Trust me, cause if that were the case I'd of been defeated a LLOONNNGGG time ago.
Thanks though! Hope you're enjoying your day today. It's sun shiny hot today but thanks to work I won't be able to enjoy any of it any time soon.
BTW, I think imma go for a walk today after work....I need it. Need to clear my mind and do some thinking.
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Great, you'll love it. It's very soothing, make sure you give yourself at least an hour walk. Oh, and turn off your phone. Give yourself uninterupted hour. Enjoy your walk.
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Great, you'll love it. It's very soothing, make sure you give yourself at least an hour walk. Oh, and turn off your phone. Give yourself uninterupted hour. Enjoy your walk.
ha, i was going to have my phone with me...so i can listen to music and walk....i luv music.....some times when i really need to think--i go for a drive and blast my music and just drive....
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ha, i was going to have my phone with me...so i can listen to music and walk....i luv music.....some times when i really need to think--i go for a drive and blast my music and just drive....
No, no music. When you are walking you need to be one with the self, feel the ground, feel the sun, and feel the air.
See my comment on a good walk
http://www.pebhmong.com/forum/index.php?blog=3884;sa=cat;id=15 (http://www.pebhmong.com/forum/index.php?blog=3884;sa=cat;id=15)
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No, no music. When you are walking you need to be one with the self, feel the ground, feel the sun, and feel the air.
See my comment on a good walk
http://www.pebhmong.com/forum/index.php?blog=3884;sa=cat;id=15 (http://www.pebhmong.com/forum/index.php?blog=3884;sa=cat;id=15)
U have a point, yes.
I've got so much goin on....sometime s i wish i could sleep forever or hide n a cave or something n never b bothered :(
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We have all days like that. You'll be ok, the hardest part is getting our butts off the bed lol :)
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We have all days like that. You'll be ok, the hardest part is getting our butts off the bed lol :)
Thanks :) n yes, my butt is off...n out if bed now. ;)
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thinking and planning on a trip to arkansas with the fam to visit fam down there. it's been way too long and we r n need of a good visit with awesome fam we left behind. i miss the days when nothing mattered but the ppl around u. nowadays that's easier said than done. we're all grown up now so it'll be different but perhaps more fun to visit. i'm just hoping that we can get off to go.
alternatives for my bday is LA if my bro can't get off. we'll have to cancel the family trip and i'll head to LA and visit some friends and my brother instead.
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tej zaug lub kua muag los....tsis paub xod yus xav yus dabtsi es los xwb. lub siab mob lub siab quaj...tiam sis nws hais dabtsi....koj puas hnod thiab?
kuv los kuj tsis paub...tsuas nrog nws quaj xwb.
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Nong Lisa vao yun ai bor kao jai ;D
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Nong Lisa vao yun ai bor kao jai ;D
ha....koj sau tias koj tsis to taub puas yog? ;D
translation: ha, you wrote that u didn't understand, am I right?
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You got it lol O0
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You got it lol O0
eh, figured.
ha, wouldn't u like to know what i said huh? uhmm....just some random sappy stuff....nothi ng important. 8)
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Lay it on me, maybe I can bring a :) for you today?
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Lay it on me, maybe I can bring a :) for you today?
it's OK...u just did. :)
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My job here is now done for the day :) Enjoy your weekend.
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My job here is now done for the day :) Enjoy your weekend.
thanks u 2. i've got a phone interview here in like 2 minutes....i'm nervous but i'm sure i'll be fine. 8)
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whew....that was a fast interview. i was still nervous but overall it was OK. I could have done better...but it was a bit intimidating knowing that i know three ppl on the search and screen committee. I hope after talking to my references that they consider me for another interview. for once, i'm really excited and nervous about this career change. well, it's not much of a change...but i won't be working with high school students anymore but with college students. i feel i would gain some sanity back....no offense to my students now....but i'll at least be on a regular and consistent schedule.
anyway, it's been a productive day. i got a few things done and finishing up a few more. i've also two evaluation meetings with my staff today...so let's get 'er done!!!
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Good luck Lisa.
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Good luck Lisa.
Thanks....
...come back as they told me I'll hear in a week if I make it to the next round.
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someone's been stealing my paper again! I didn't get my Sunday paper....my coupons!!! grrrr!!!!
I've not heard anything yet....but it's still early. I'm thinking maybe by Thursday. Hrrrmm....stil l so much to do but I wish the week was over with already so I can start next week and look forward to my three day week and begin my weekend! I get to see Jack and his lil baby Liam!!! Well, from the pics he doesn't look little anymore. ;D They are really feeding him well--or grandma is. It'll be nice to see baby Apollo and Liam together; I know their daddy's are hella excited to have them together. Them, version 2.0! LOL idiots, I swear! :2funny: But that's what we all hope right? To have kids and have your bffs kids n urs get along and be besties like their parents. I think it would suck if i was ever to have kids and they didn't get along or had conflict with my friends--best friends' kids. But we can't help that, even if we think we can.
spent the whole weekend watching my new dramas finally! thus far i'm liking it a lot. it's sad here and there, but funny and sweet. the only stupid thing is that my last disc is not reading....ggg rrrr!!! so i'll have to see if it's just my player bc all the other discs played fine....looks like i'll have to watch it in the living room...so let's hope that player works.
i'm having a nice lunch today! we grilled both sat and sun night....had friends over as we usually do and just ate and hung out. i didn't pack any trout (though i really wanted to) so it's just some rice with sausage and pork-chops today--still good! O0
i can't believe summer is just about here already! these past few days have been hot hot hot! I dunno how we're going to get through this summer. I have a weird feeling it's going to be hotter than usual...so that's going to be like stuck in a broiler-hot!!! Not looking forward to it at all. At least at camp we're in an air conditioned building so I'll be able to sleep at night now!
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I c another guest....hi guest. :wave:
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can't wait to get through this week....cause next week will be a short one for me...and i get paid!!!
hrrmm...it was nice to go home before 6 for once yesterday...ma ybe i'll be able to do the same today. we'll c.
mom's still gone....that lady! well, she's capable of taking care of herself but sometimes i wonder what she's really up to. ::)
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i'm an idiot....forgo t that it'll be a three day weekend this weekend...whic h mean next week will be a two day week! Awesome!!! O0 O0 O0 O0
So what am i doing this weekend? Nothing....no plans. I'm broke as well so i'll be home watching my dramas and chillaxin. 8)
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ok finally getting my arse outta hea! O0 O0 O0 O0
now if only it doesn't rain....blah! ::)
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Hi guests! :)
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back to work. did nothing over the memorial weekend...fini shed a drama only to start another one....but it was too boring so i stopped after the second disc. blah.
we didn't do anything really...we had the crew over sun night, drank, grilled, hung out and that was about it. yeah i had an unproductive weekend.
actually, yesterday was quite productive. i cleaned a bit and reorganized all my jewelry. that was about it.
i dunno...i've been sluggish lately...is it the rain? or something else? maybe both. but it's nice and sun shiny today so i'm a bit chipper. well, even more knowing that i only have one more day of work and then i'll have another 5 days to myself. I can't wait to see baby Liam and baby Apollo together....it'll be so f'ing cute!!! I've got some shopping to do.
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Omg, really?!?! My mom came back from an amish farm (she went to butcher oh a few--or like 30-40 chix w my aunt) n decided she wanted to grant my bro one of his wishes n bring home this lil puppy. Wtf, really?!?! :o my bro n i just looked at each other n shook r heads. We dont own the house anymore n r not allowed to have dogs....when we asked what she was thinking n didn't she know we couldn't keep it she said "es nws I txim txim hlub na. Koj teb hais tias koj nyiam nyiam thiab xav yug aub ntag neb. Kuv ib txwm nyiam nyiam aub thiab xav thiab nqa los rau koj koj yuav nyiam thiab". We still shook r heads. It's cute sort of but i was not feeling it. She's so absent minded a dog let alone a puppy is not what we need right now! Another expense as well n we really cant afford having her......nor can we anyway.
We finally got someone to claim her but i have to drop her off n mn since i'll b headed up there. My aunt really wants it for her daughter. Mom doesn't want to part w her....but reality is if she wants it sad but true she'd have to move out n get her own place that allows pets. Obviously that is not going to happen. She was saying she could hide it from maintenance n the landlord when they do random checkups. Omg, really mom?!?!?! ::) :idiot2:
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Why don't they allowed dogs? Most apartments do.
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Why don't they allowed dogs? Most apartments do.
Dunno, its in the lease--no pets.
Besides w my bro n i always working there's no one to take care of it. Cant rely on my mom since she brought it home she hasnt even paid any attention to it n it doesnt like her. My mom cant even remember to turn off the stove let or she'll leave her keys n the door...i wouldnt b surprised if we come home to a dead pup bc she forgot to feed or give it water n keep it locked up or something! Sad but very true. Not worth the risk.
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Had a nice weekend...drop ped off the puppy n went to meet up w buddies....saw cute babies all weekend n ate great food. I'm on my last day of vacay n i'll just going to chill, do laundry n some planning for my class this summer.
I've only one student which is different this year as i've always had at least 6 or so n they were all at different levels. I dunno bout this student n particular though....i usually have hmong students so i never had to explain too much or spent too much time with phonetics n pronounciation ....that most def will b a struggle for this student. But thankfully since she's my only student we have all the time to work n develop her skills.
I can't believe camp is starting this weekend!!!! I'll b MIA from family n friends for a month n a half now.....surrou nded by 40+ high schools students. At least we'll b staying n a better place w AC-YEEEAAAAAHHHH!!!!! I won't die of heat exhaustion now! :D but i still have my stuff to move in....remember Lisa, don't take/pack so much. Urgh....y do i feel this summer i will be exhausted more than ever? Not good. :-\
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I'm really at my wits end.....i swear all this stress will b the death of me! Aaaaahhhhhhh!!!!
Please I simply want to drift.......n2 nothing.
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bz bz bz bz......can't believe camp is starting this weekend (training)...students moving in on wed! :o :o :o
but at least that means the sooner we start...the closer we are to finishing. yes, sad to say but i'm counting the days til august. I don't want summer to fly by (though i know it will) but I don't want camp to take forever. I know i'll be working my tail off this summer....lite rally to exhaustion! at least i'll have A/C this summer..yyyeee aaahhhh!!!! O0 O0 O0
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bz three days of camp and the weekend went by way too fast!!!
the wedding was so-so..but i went and enjoyed what i could. can't and shouldn't make much out of nothing--on to the next.
i've set things aside but for some reason things keep springing back up...wassup with that? urgh, i just dunno anymore and honestly, right now i don't have the time nor the nrg.
back to my bz life with my kids...coordin ating and planning and repeating things about 100xs a day to the same kids.
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what can i say...I've been nothing but bz.
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Make time to enjoy your busy work life. Gotta have a good balance or you'll feel burn out in few years.
Good morning Lisa :)
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Make time to enjoy your busy work life. Gotta have a good balance or you'll feel burn out in few years.
Good morning Lisa :)
Hi :wave:
Yes, I know mister. I'm now coming down with a little something--figuring all the coming and going between buildings (the hot humidity outside and then the blast of coolness from AC in the buildings/class) isn't helping. I've been coughing up some nasty stuff the past day and this morning was worse. I did get a ton of rest and thankfully w my night schedule I have mornings to myself until lunch. As stressful and demanding as my job is I do love it...but I know I can't do this much longer.
How have you been? Hope all is well and that ur staying cool down there.
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It's good that we are busy at work instead of an unemployment lines right :)
I have been well, thanks for asking. Hope you are too. Have you been to the park or any walking trail?
It's been pretty hot here, I am dark already and it's not even summer yet lol
But I do get to relax in the evening at the pool.
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It's good that we are busy at work instead of an unemployment lines right :)
I have been well, thanks for asking. Hope you are too. Have you been to the park or any walking trail?
It's been pretty hot here, I am dark already and it's not even summer yet lol
But I do get to relax in the evening at the pool.
Not summer yet? It's summer in my book.
But ur right, better to be w job than w/o.
Park? I've not been to one on my own. We (my 40+ kids and r staff) went last Friday as we did various team activities and games. I've not been out to the trails as I've been bz w work and last weekend I was bz w a friends' wedding.
Just yesterday I went to pick up my bike and brought it on campus. So now I'm trucking along on that. It's faster than walking (since I walk so slow) and it gets me from point A to point B. I'll post a pic when I can. LOL
Pool, that sounds good but don't think I'll be getting to one anytime soon--lucky u!
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What can i say.....nothin g has changed, i'm still bz as ever.
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It's 4am n i can't sleep. ::) i'm suppose to b @ a meeting @ 10:30.... Blah!
It's going 2 b a long day!
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Looks like we're headed 2 MN tomorrow....wa sn't planning on it n though i'm not looking forward 2 the crowd i am looking forward to hanging out w my girl n some good food. Yeah i'm a hungry hippo, so what?!?!? Mmuuaaaahhahah ahahah!!!!
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exhausted beyond belief but at least my j4 yesterday was nice. good friends, good food, good fun. 8) O0 8) O0 8)
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Hi Lisa. How are you?
It's not like you not to share pics of your events.
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Hi Lisa. How are you?
It's not like you not to share pics of your events.
hi, i'm ok....how are you doing? how was ur 4th?
in all honesty, i've not been taking pics as of recent. n especially yesterday since i was 2 bz prepping n cooking. sorry.
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bz bz bz b.....yep, that is me.....but everyday i'm hella sleepy....tire d, exhausted, baggy eyes--doing nothing but staring out my window in a dazed daydream...... but now i've got to get to class and teach my wo ai ni.......to my one and only student--yeah, I know lucky me!!!
;D ;D ;D ;D ;D
i know i'm lame....but who cares.
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it's late and i should be sleeping but i'm not. had a late dinner after my kids came up to their rooms after the dance tonight. i can feel that my body is worn out and thankfully i get a break over the weekend and yes, i take advantage of it and rest completely. just two more weeks and we're done! i'm seriously looking forward to my vacation in august...my birthday--hopefully going down south to arkansas and spending it with family who i have not seen in years! it's nice to do something different and especially nice when it's with ppl who i love! last year i went to visit my sis out east so y not go down south and visit my fav relatives!?!? my bro and i r planning on driving down since it's cheaper than having the two of us fly out AND my mom as well. last i looked tickets were at least $300 p/person....we could pay for a rental with one flight and gas money and tolls would be enough for the other ticket--saving us a whole ticket if anything. oh, i just can't wait!!! relaxation.... we r meet u n august!
eh....speaking of which--i guess i should head to bed now.
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I hate liars, cheaters, shady ppl n sh*t talkers! I don't understand or like it when these elders say one thing n do another or better yet when they undermine u bc ur "a kid" or an incapable woman. Gggrrrrrrrrr!!!! >:( >:( >:(
Y do ppl think they can do whatever they want n think bc others "respect" them it's ok. B a man n do the right thing darn it n not the cowardly thing n hide behind idiots who r just as cowardly as u!!!
Uuurrgghh!!!!
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Sorry you're having a bad day Lisa. If you need to talk am here.
Have a wonderful day.
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Sorry you're having a bad day Lisa. If you need to talk am here.
Have a wonderful day.
yesterday was a disappointing day pl. what more can i say? it's disappointing when those u love r never ppl of their words....it's disappointing when you trust someone, have faith in someone and all they do is leave u with meaningless hope...and after a while all u can do is doubt them. the relationship deteriorates and all u realise ur memories or what is left of them is nothing but a mere dream of what once was....which is nothing.
i'm upset, disappointed, hurt, angry......and though i know i'm not the only one who has gone through this or is going through this.....in a way i feel very alone and many of the times it's simply me, myself, and i who is left to figure out what the next step is....to pick up the broken pieces and decide if i want to glue them back together or if i want to start from scratch...or to just give up completely and say "the hell w it all".
i know all the right and necessary things to say and uplift myself....but my heart is heavy now and all i can do is set my life aside so i can concentrate on my career and buy myself some time--time for what exactly? I haven't a clue. *sigh* as much as i look ahead and want to and need to "keep trucking" i feel myself sinking...sink ing...sinking deeper and deeper....like i'm stuck in quicksand or something.
blah....ph and this place is my safe haven....it's where i can say what i want to say (despite if someone is listening or not) but mainly it's where i can scream and say what's on my mind, what's in my heart--to keep me sane. my therapy if u may....but clouds beyond the clouds....bc some days i wish i really was with the clouds.
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yesterday was a disappointing day pl. what more can i say? it's disappointing when those u love r never ppl of their words....it's disappointing when you trust someone, have faith in someone and all they do is leave u with meaningless hope...and after a while all u can do is doubt them. the relationship deteriorates and all u realise ur memories or what is left of them is nothing but a mere dream of what once was....which is nothing.
i'm upset, disappointed, hurt, angry......and though i know i'm not the only one who has gone through this or is going through this.....in a way i feel very alone and many of the times it's simply me, myself, and i who i left to figure out what the next step is....to pick up the broken pieces and decide if i want to glue them back together or if i want to start from scratch...or to just give up completely and say "the hell w it all".
i know all the right and necessary things to say and uplift myself....but my heart is heavy now and all i can do is set my life aside so i can concentrate on my career and buy myself some time--time for what exactly? I haven't a clue. *sigh* as much as i look ahead and want to and need to "keep trucking" i feel myself sinking...sink ing...sinking deeper and deeper....like i'm stuck in quicksand or something.
blah....ph and this place is my safe haven....it's where i can say what i want to say (despite if someone is listening or not) but mainly it's where i can scream and say what's on my mind, what's in my heart--to keep me sane. my therapy if u may....but clouds beyond the clouds....bc some days i wish i really was with the clouds.
Lisa, giving up completely isn't like you. I understand you're frustrated and angry. I have been there. If I can come out of anything, you could as well. We are only sinking deeper in the abyss when we let ourselves. Your are stronger than that, you have the will and I know you can pull through anything.
You have friends here, you can vent and scream all you want. I am only a PM away. Talk to me.
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Lisa, giving up completely isn't like you. I understand you're frustrated and angry. I have been there. If I can come out of anything, you could as well. We are only sinking deeper in the abyss when we let ourselves. Your are stronger than that, you have the will and I know you can pull through anything.
You have friends here, you can vent and scream all you want. I am only a PM away. Talk to me.
awww thanks pl. :)
AAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OK, better now. 8)
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Good that is more like it! Now enjoy hump day and look forward to the weekend.
Good morning by the way.
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It's spirit week this week @ camp. Monday was PJ day, yesterday was twin/triplet day and today is wacky day. I participated on Monday and today (not yesterday bc i didn't arrange to dress up with any one else). Tomorrow is costume day--I've not decided how or what i want to do. Friday is family day but i've no "family" so I'll just wear my camp shirt. besides i've a lot to do on Friday as i have to get all the afternoon activities ready for Fri. it'll be fun forsure!!! Tomorrow night is our talent show--that'll be nice too. Can't wait! Can't wait for the weekend either....bc it's the last full week of camp. The kids go home next Thursday...and then return on Sun so we can head out to Chicago. I've still got the mini day trip to plan for all the honors students as well and then vacay!!! Yes, august! Can't wait for vacay and my bday!
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blogging and online journal...hrrr mmmm i should stop w one.
anyway...talen t show tonight....yay!
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yesterday was a disappointing day pl. what more can i say? it's disappointing when those u love r never ppl of their words....it's disappointing when you trust someone, have faith in someone and all they do is leave u with meaningless hope...and after a while all u can do is doubt them. the relationship deteriorates and all u realise ur memories or what is left of them is nothing but a mere dream of what once was....which is nothing.
i'm upset, disappointed, hurt, angry......and though i know i'm not the only one who has gone through this or is going through this.....in a way i feel very alone and many of the times it's simply me, myself, and i who is left to figure out what the next step is....to pick up the broken pieces and decide if i want to glue them back together or if i want to start from scratch...or to just give up completely and say "the hell w it all".
i know all the right and necessary things to say and uplift myself....but my heart is heavy now and all i can do is set my life aside so i can concentrate on my career and buy myself some time--time for what exactly? I haven't a clue. *sigh* as much as i look ahead and want to and need to "keep trucking" i feel myself sinking...sink ing...sinking deeper and deeper....like i'm stuck in quicksand or something.
blah....ph and this place is my safe haven....it's where i can say what i want to say (despite if someone is listening or not) but mainly it's where i can scream and say what's on my mind, what's in my heart--to keep me sane. my therapy if u may....but clouds beyond the clouds....bc some days i wish i really was with the clouds.
I can see myself in your expression.
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I wish you a better day tomorrow and many days to come.
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I can see myself in your expression.
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I wish you a better day tomorrow and many days to come.
thanks lav. i appreciate it. see urself...r u experiencing the same thing...or something similar? *sigh* sorry to hear so if u are.
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It's spirit week this week @ camp. Monday was PJ day, yesterday was twin/triplet day and today is wacky day. I participated on Monday and today (not yesterday bc i didn't arrange to dress up with any one else). Tomorrow is costume day--I've not decided how or what i want to do. Friday is family day but i've no "family" so I'll just wear my camp shirt. besides i've a lot to do on Friday as i have to get all the afternoon activities ready for Fri. it'll be fun forsure!!! Tomorrow night is our talent show--that'll be nice too. Can't wait! Can't wait for the weekend either....bc it's the last full week of camp. The kids go home next Thursday...and then return on Sun so we can head out to Chicago. I've still got the mini day trip to plan for all the honors students as well and then vacay!!! Yes, august! Can't wait for vacay and my bday!
So, you're finally going to be legal age and where are you heading for a mini vacay? :)
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So, you're finally going to be legal age and where are you heading for a mini vacay? :)
legal? depends on what i need to be legal for? ;D
my bro and i r taking my mom to visit some relatives n arkansas. it may not sound like a vacay, but it is. we miss it there. i was born in little rock and the last time i was there was when i was 8 or 9. the family there are our fav relatives....t hey're uber nice and sweet. my mom will drive us crazy on the drive there but it's worth it.
we're excited to go fishing!!! i'm completely looking forward to it!
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thanks lav. i appreciate it. see urself...r u experiencing the same thing...or something similar? *sigh* sorry to hear so if u are.
Yes, Lisa. But I trust that time will allow me to sort things out and move on.
Each pain makes us become stronger and wiser. Like you, I am thankful for PH's journal where we can scream, yell, cry, and express it all.
So if you ever need some listening ears, just write them down. :)
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my heart hurts....and every time i think about all that u said to me over the weekend.....al l i can do is cry. i never knew u felt that way and if that is truly how u feel i don't know what to do now. all this time i thought i was here helping u...i thought we both were carrying this "burden" together. i stayed bc i didn't want u to suffer; i stayed bc i wanted to help; i stayed bc no one else wanted to; i stayed bc i luv u....but ur now telling me after all this time my help is no good, i'm not worthy, my contributions are less or not as comparable as urs....that i've of no value. wtf mang?!?!? really!!! i've been grateful for everything that u do for me and help me with. but to know that u would discredit all or anything that i do really hurts. we both have sacrificed a lot of things to be here and here u pull the rug from under me--i don't matter, nothing i do is worthy to u? really? well, what the F am i doing here still then?
nice to know ur true colors now. it's sad that u had to come at me like this....but if that's truly how u feel.....when i leave please know that it's not bc i wanted to or bc i didn't care. it's bc U wanted me to and bc U didn't care.
goodness....i really can't take any more of this crap. what next? what more? please just let me curl into a ball and wither away....kthnxb ye.
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*hugs*
Lisa, hope this person takes back what he/she said to you soon before it's too late. On another note, hope your heart heals soon.
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*hugs*
Lisa, hope this person takes back what he/she said to you soon before it's too late. On another note, hope your heart heals soon.
Agree. Sometimes we do say things we really don't mean out of anger.
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*hugs*
Lisa, hope this person takes back what he/she said to you soon before it's too late. On another note, hope your heart heals soon.
thanks.
i dunno...i just know that i can't let this go on anymore. i'm not one to "run" from anything and it's REALLY getting to me--more than I would like and more than I expected.
due to my camp...i have to deal with this this weekend. after all, after my camp (work) we r planning a trip for vacay and i dunno if i really want to go now--knowing all this.
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Agree. Sometimes we do say things we really don't mean out of anger.
true...AND we were drinking.
HOWEVER, anger or alcohol.....so me times those things come out then bc it's really how we feel.....we just needed to be "pushed" or need a dose of "courage" to say what's really on r mind...n r hearts.
Anyway--off to my class....givin g my Chinese final today! Hope she's ready!
Thanks for dropping in ya'll....I appreciate it.
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true...AND we were drinking.
HOWEVER, anger or alcohol.....so me times those things come out then bc it's really how we feel.....we just needed to be "pushed" or need a dose of "courage" to say what's really on r mind...n r hearts.
Anyway--off to my class....givin g my Chinese final today! Hope she's ready!
Thanks for dropping in ya'll....I appreciate it.
True, sometimes people do say what they really want to say for a long time. Just like couples who are fighting, they will say things out of anger or frustrations. Once it out, they can analyze, talk about it and move on together if that would help and mend the hurt. In this case, it's siblings. No matter what have been said, good or bad. Siblings love and loyalty do not fade or die out.
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True, sometimes people do say what they really want to say for a long time. Just like couples who are fighting, they will say things out of anger or frustrations. Once it out, they can analyze, talk about it and move on together if that would help and mend the hurt. In this case, it's siblings. No matter what have been said, good or bad. Siblings love and loyalty do not fade or die out.
ur right it doesn't fade nor die out. but i'm really hurt. all this time...busting my arse dealing w my own frustrations with work and whatnot...i still do what i can to help out...to lessen this burden we both share. but to know that he feels everything i do is NOT good enough or not comparable or worse--i'm adding to this burden! what?!?!?! who wants to be that?!?!?
if u really don't need nor appreciate my help.....again, y am i still here then? I sacrifice just as much as anyone else....i'm not asking to be acknowledged or given a shiny star. but really....i'm a burden? me going to work and helping u pay the bills is a burden? wow. and here i was thinking i was sticking around bc i didn't want my lil brother to suffer alone.
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ur right it doesn't fade nor die out. but i'm really hurt. all this time...busting my arse dealing w my own frustrations with work and whatnot...i still do what i can to help out...to lessen this burden we both share. but to know that he feels everything i do is NOT good enough or not comparable or worse--i'm adding to this burden! what?!?!?! who wants to be that?!?!?
if u really don't need nor appreciate my help.....again, y am i still here then? I sacrifice just as much as anyone else....i'm not asking to be acknowledged or given a shiny star. but really....i'm a burden? me going to work and helping u pay the bills is a burden? wow. and here i was thinking i was sticking around bc i didn't want my lil brother to suffer alone.
Lisa, you're just an angel. He's taken you for granted. One day he will come to realized that your parts in the family matter and important. I just hope he will be man enough to apologize. If he doesn't it's his loss and he will have to live with that for the rest of his life. The day will come when he will see the amount and effort you have forked in willingly without complaints and put aside your own self and your life style so that everyone can benefit from. You're doing a great deed, though you may not feel like it right now, but you will see what I mean.
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Lisa, you're just an angel. He's taken you for granted. One day he will come to realized that your parts in the family matter and important. I just hope he will be man enough to apologize. If he doesn't it's his loss and he will have to live with that for the rest of his life. The day will come when he will see the amount and effort you have forked in willingly without complaints and put aside your own self and your life style so that everyone can benefit from. You're doing a great deed, though you may not feel like it right now, but you will see what I mean.
thnx pl.
i've been trying not to think about it much as of late....i've more important things to do/think about now. just two more days to go and camp will be over. i'll have about two days off and then four days in chicago with my 30+ kids...and finally, a good break. no, i'm not counting the days at all. ;)
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Sounds like a much needed time. Enjoy and take some pics to share with us. Don't forget to take that alone time, to walk and to enjoy the earth and heaven by yourself without any interference.
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Sounds like a much needed time. Enjoy and take some pics to share with us. Don't forget to take that alone time, to walk and to enjoy the earth and heaven by yourself without any interference.
as much as i want some alone time--that's going to be hard to do. My alone time will probably b on the bus there and back. sad but true. after all, i will have 30 kids w me....n a bIG city where most of them have never been.
i'll take pics indeed. it's not my first time in chicago--but i've not been there since maybe sometime last year or was it two years ago? maybe it was two. (we stopped by chinatown last august @ joy yees' but didn't do anything else.)
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OMG....so last night i was up late (like usual) and for kicks i tried looking up and loggin on to my old xanga blog. ha, it's still there and after a few attempts i finally got in! went back and read some stuff from 2003-2005...just getting good with my china blogs.
oh how i miss it.
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in chicago w my kids...we just got here last night and i couldn't sleep all night. i dunno what it was...the bed was rather comfortable but i simply couldn't sleep.
i was very upset last night though as i realized i had misplaced my camera! after digging through everything and making a few calls, the campus police found it. turns out i left it at graduation yesterday when i seriously thought i put it in my backpack. whhaa whaa.
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Good morning Lisa. Enjoy your stay. Getting old there I see :P
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Good morning Lisa. Enjoy your stay. Getting old there I see :P
Good afternoon pl! :)
It's been bz...jam packed w activities. I luv the l train but being n big grps is hard 2 have a good time collectively. Expect some setbacks n not everything will go according 2 plan.
Just 1 more night n headed 2 uw-parkside college visit on r way back home.
Yeah...old--must b cause i hardly 4get anything.
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So you're back home now right, was it exciting? Hopefully it wasn't all stress for you.
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So you're back home now right, was it exciting? Hopefully it wasn't all stress for you.
stress...i simply can't escape it. ::)
for the most part I had a good time. a lot of walking--so got that in. but again, as i said traveling in big groups w kids and staff who haven't a clue what they're doing doesn't help. i'm a very practical person who likes to be organized...ho wever, sometimes you need to be flexible and go with the flow. and if u happen to go the wrong way or whatever--ask for help or turn back around and try the other way. I don't like to travel with ppl who get flustered easily--bc they become debbie downers and brings the whole group down.
but yes, i'm home now and though i've worked more than my 40 hrs this week i'm in the office finishing some paperwork and prepping and finalizing other stuff before i head out for vacation in the next week.
how r u? what's new? how was lunch? conditioning going rather well too?
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Was at a funeral all weekend. So sad to c my girls lose their mom--my nyab (that's what i call her at least). it was a simple funeral...not much drumming or bowing since none of the kids r married....as they said, tshib lub paj thiab peb lub noob.
Being there it made me wondee how it'd b like if it was one of my parents.....ho w crazy it would b. would there b drama? Would ppl b making a scene? Would the usual ppl b talking sh*t? Would we b pulled a million directions or would they let us mourn r own way?
I also felt bad for the children as no one informed them of the rituals n ceremonies...t hus will they have blessings from mom? nowadays as menyuam hmoob mekas many do not know (nor understand) much n nstead of informing them others rather be the critic n run their mouth nstead. ::)
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I was hella tired from the weekend so i took the day off yesterday.
today we had two candidate interviews for our director position. both are more than qualified. I don't know what I would want in the office...as one is new to the area and would bring something new to the table and program. the other has been with the program for the last year and she is from the area--however, other than her year with the program it is still quite new for her. both bring a lot to the table. one however, has the advantage as she knows the kids and their families and has already built relations with school administrators and has and still is maintaining those relationships. either way, it'll be good to finally have someone to really report to now.
we're suppose to be heading to arkansas this weekend for a week or so but looks like my family down there will all be rather busy. so instead of a week we may just go for a few days. that means i'll be back home for my bday and we'll do something here instead. perhaps something low key. i don't want to go out or do anything extravagant--there's no need. especially since we're going "camping" labor day weekend for my bro and our friends' bdays. it'll be fun--relaxing definitely!
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interviews interviews interviews.... yes, that's what I'm doing all day today. ::)
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finally got in touch w the relatives last night thus we are set to head down to arkansas tomorrow.
it's been ages since i've been there...i think the last time i was there was when i was about 9. my brother went back in the summer of '98 and got to spend time with the relatives, fishing, hunting, going out on the 4wheelers and whatnot. i don't think we'll get to do all that (maybe some fishing) this time since many of the relatives are older now and with families. we were thinking we'd spend a week down there but maybe we'll just stay until wed. we'll see. it'll be nice to go away (other than across the river to mn) and do something different. i know my mom has been wanting to go down for a while now and we can finally take some vacation!
i remember living down there when we were kids and it was the best thing/time ever! then again, i didn't have to worry about anything. i had family who luved me and was cared for at all times. there was nothing to cry about--unless one of my bro's beat me up or i got knuckled for spilling milk or something. i do have to say though, of all my relatives my arkansas relatives r some of the nicest ppl i've ever met in my life! they not only helped babysit my siblings and i but they truly luved us unconditionall y. they have big and caring hearts and they were always supportive and encouraging. never did they speak badly about my family and i or anyone else for that matter. they luved giving hugs and their soft voices always brought smiles to us kids. i always thought the southern twang in their hmong was so cool--i still think it is. i'm actually somewhat saddened though born in arkansas i never developed the twang in my speech. regardless, we adored them all and when we moved to WI we missed them dearly.
*sigh* now, i just hope we don't kill each other on this 14hr drive down.
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Yep, we're on the road now. It's been just a mere 15 min. So far so good. We decided to head out earlier than planned but we should get there early tomorrow morning. My bro n i will b alternating the drive down. I'm most likely the one to drive the night shift.
Looking forward to this trip....haven't had a vaction since this time last year. Last year it was philly n the east coast w my sis this summer it'll b down south w the first hmong families we lived w when my parents came to the us. It'll b like taking a stsp back n time for me--a lil bit @ least...that i already know.
Don't worry....i'll take plenty of pics...espeaci ally after finding my camera! O0
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Still n Arkansas...@ a bar having a few beers w my cousin. So far it's been nice seeing the relatives n hanging out n chillaxing...e ating a ton.
I've not had access to internet since we're out n the boonies. So not been able to update much.
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Still n Arkansas...@ a bar having a few beers w my cousin. So far it's been nice seeing the relatives n hanging out n chillaxing...e ating a ton.
I've not had access to internet since we're out n the boonies. So not been able to update much.
Have fun. PH will still be here when you come back.
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On r way back....almost 2 kansas city n a few more hrs n we'll b n iowa where i'll b trading off 2 drive.
We didn't do much since the cousins were working...spen t lot of time from 1 relative 2 another though.
Thankfully i've still a few days of vacay left. Now, what 2 do 4 my bday 2morrow? Eh....no plans but that's ok. O0
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Enjoy since summer is abruptly about to end :P
So your finally turning 50!? :P
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Enjoy since summer is abruptly about to end :P
So your finally turning 50!? :P
i'll enjoy what's left of my vacay.
Ha, 50....sure. Then that makes u 95? 8) O0
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i'll enjoy what's left of my vacay.
Ha, 50....sure. Then that makes u 95? 8) O0
OMG am still alive! :P
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OMG am still alive! :P
Yes, ndeed u r. O0
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Relaxing weekend...gril led last night.
No plans 2day. All i know is i don't want this vacay to end! Goin back on wed is goin 2 suck. :-\
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Relaxing weekend...gril led last night.
No plans 2day. All i know is i don't want this vacay to end! Goin back on wed is goin 2 suck. :-\
I love those road trips O0
Sounds like you enjoyed it, pics would be nice.
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I love those road trips O0
Sounds like you enjoyed it, pics would be nice.
I've been back from my trip now for a few days. Just chillaxin these last few days.
Pics? I'll post them eventually--but i honestly didn't take a lot; we didn't do much.
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It's monday....i've one more day of vacay to orrow n then back to work on wed n then to the office to finalize some stuff for a lil mini trip for a small grp of my kids. Just some relaxing grilling by the lake n chillaxing out by the water. It's not a lot of work but it's bad that i kind of don't want to go. Eh, taking 10 kids n a minivan or two, grilling n prepping food, n sitting out the rest of the day n the sun(if we're lucky--which i think we will b), n drive them back, to clean n put things back @ the office, n finish any paperwork. Yeah that'll b my friday! Blah!
Anyway, gonna do my nails 2day just bc they're looking dull now. Mayb play w some new looks w the new gifts from my gfs 4 my bday! My girls r so sweet n thoughtful, they got me makeup n perfume 4 my bday n i luv them! :)
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How old are these kids, sounds like fun Lisa.
There's nothing like pampering yourself from time to time.
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How old are these kids, sounds like fun Lisa.
There's nothing like pampering yourself from time to time.
pl, all my kids r hs aged. It's suppose 2 rain friday--mayb so if it does i may just take them 2 the outlet mall. They all wanted 2 do nothing but shop when we were n chicago.
Yes ndeed these last 2 days of vacay is nothing but me pampering myself. O0
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I see, teenagers can be a handful.
Good, enjoy what's left of the summer.
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I see, teenagers can be a handful.
Good, enjoy what's left of the summer.
yeah, so either a day out grilling n out by the lake or shopping and movie or arcades.
let's just say w my job it's been a great form of birth control. ;D ;D ;D
How r u 2day? hope all is well down there. Working going well? I've a few more things 2 do still but hopefully I'll get out of the office b4 7pm 2day.
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LMAO
Don't neglect good men just because you have rotten few tomatoes :P You may be missing out on good uhm kissing :P
It's been a tough week for me emotionally Lisa. Everything is ok, just one of those moments where everything seems broken.
Glad you are having some RR time and at least you are traveling around with work.
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LMAO
Don't neglect good men just because you have rotten few tomatoes :P You may be missing out on good uhm kissing :P
It's been a tough week for me emotionally Lisa. Everything is ok, just one of those moments where everything seems broken.
Glad you are having some RR time and at least you are traveling around with work.
who said I was neglecting them? 8) rotten tomatoes? I hate tomatoes. ::) tomatoes, not kids.
missing out? on good uhmm...kissing did u say? ??? ;D perhaps...but i don't think I am. I like to think that i'm keeping all this together for my future (whatever and whoever that is). anyway....that's a story for another gloomy day.
awww....i'm sorry u have been feeling blah lately. I know how that is. Not good. But you know, things will get better in the days to come-I'm sure. As you would say, take some time out for urself...go for a walk and clear the mind of ur worries/concerns. I'm all ears if u should need someone 2 listen.
eh, travel for work. i guess. sometimes i wish it was just traveling by myself........ .............. .to an exotic island somewhere..... ..all expense paid!!! Now THAT would be the job!!! O0 :D
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who said I was neglecting them? 8) rotten tomatoes? I hate tomatoes. ::) tomatoes, not kids.
missing out? on good uhmm...kissing did u say? ??? ;D perhaps...but i don't think I am. I like to think that i'm keeping all this together for my future (whatever and whoever that is). anyway....that's a story for another gloomy day.
awww....i'm sorry u have been feeling blah lately. I know how that is. Not good. But you know, things will get better in the days to come-I'm sure. As you would say, take some time out for urself...go for a walk and clear the mind of ur worries/concerns. I'm all ears if u should need someone 2 listen.
eh, travel for work. i guess. sometimes i wish it was just traveling by myself........ .............. .to an exotic island somewhere..... ..all expense paid!!! Now THAT would be the job!!! O0 :D
Thank you Lisa, you're a good friend. I am much better today, see :) . I did take time to myself and hit the gym and park. Worked out all of my depressing feelings yesterday.
Hurry and find that special man, in case you do get a chance for an all paid expense trip. :) How much fund can you have alone :P
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Thank you Lisa, you're a good friend. I am much better today, see :) . I did take time to myself and hit the gym and park. Worked out all of my depressing feelings yesterday.
Hurry and find that special man, in case you do get a chance for an all paid expense trip. :) How much fund can you have alone :P
Yay! :wav: good 2 hear ur feeling/doing better. O0 @ least, that's what u say.
y r u rushing me? no need to rush n these things. besides, y rush when it involves 2 ppl? i can't do everything nor can i force things upon others. *sigh* perhaps i could try harder n the dept. of luv but from my experience whether i try or not...it just doesn't happen. no, it's not called giving up--but many of the times it is only 1-sided luv and well, that goes nowhere. and i'm not 1 2 just "settle". I've seen those kind of relationships blow up n those ppls' faces...n i know first hand that those kind of relationships will not work. hence, i'm n no hurry and if/when it happens it will. i'm not dwelling on it.
n besides....if i can tackling studying abroad in china alone....an all expense paid trip for work would be OK alone 2. (Especially if it's for work. If it's just a vacay on a tropical island somewhere then i would consider bringing a companion.)
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Had the crew over again 2night.....han ging out n sipping on some drinks trying 2 relax. It was nice n pretty chill until some1 got a lil 2 drunk n staring getting heated bout certain things. ::) whatever fools!
Slowly i'm starting 2 c things differently n i feel it's best 4 the both of us....whether u know it or not.
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Here we go another week grinding away Lisa, good morning.
Sorry to hear about your disappointment there. Sometimes it's better to know in the beggining what and who a person really is.
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Here we go another week grinding away Lisa, good morning.
Sorry to hear about your disappointment there. Sometimes it's better to know in the beggining what and who a person really is.
:wave: hi pl! yes, a good morning it is.
Back to the daily grind but at least it'll be a four-day week for me and a four-day weekend. O0 You've any plans for the Labor Day weekend? We've yet again rented out a place which is on a small lake. we'll be celebrating my bro and r friends' bdays so it'll be relaxing but crazy fun! u know us. (I'll post pics forsure--as I usually do.) Can't wait!
Disappointment? I don't think I'm that disappointed. It's maybe more of a realization that things just rn't what we c them, how we c them or how we want them. Sometimes it's better to accept things and truck along instead of being that sad puppy dog and sit or shamelessly hope and wait for something that never is or will be urs 4 the making/taking. So no need to apologize....c ause I'm not sorry it happened.
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That's cool. Enjoy your four day weekend. We will be out of town on my daughter's soccer tournament this weekend. And besides that we have a family gathering at the park.
You are a very understanding person. True, no point in hoping when you can see the truth.
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That's cool. Enjoy your four day weekend. We will be out of town on my daughter's soccer tournament this weekend. And besides that we have a family gathering at the park.
You are a very understanding person. True, no point in hoping when you can see the truth.
Yeah it should be a nice weekend. (let's hope ppl drink responsibly and contain themselves) Family and friends time is usually a good thing.
Yeah, I get told that often. Sometimes it's both a + and a -. But, as long as i'm not bsing myself nor others then I'm OK w it.
Enjoy/have a good game n time w the fam this weekend. O0
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off to another interview....
...then back at the office.
blah...Monday.
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recruiting, recruiting, recruiting...t hat's all i've to do and all i should and can do. blah. heading out to c some potential kids tonight. i've another interview tomorrow. the one yesterday was good. aside from the sticky table and chair i was sitting in....the mom and daughter were very intrigued and eager to start.
it's tuesday but my wednesday....h owever i'm already hoping it's thursday, cause it'd b my friday.
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I can be your assistant Lisa. How may I help you? :P
Happy early Friday!
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I can be your assistant Lisa. How may I help you? :P
Happy early Friday!
help? ??? :) n just how might u assist me?
Ha, if only it was Friday. :-\
Hope ur enjoying ur Tues though.
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help? ??? :) n just how might u assist me?
Ha, if only it was Friday. :-\
Hope ur enjoying ur Tues though.
If you need me to sent email or chat with any of your kids I could ;D
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If you need me to sent email or chat with any of your kids I could ;D
Uhmm....I don't think I can do that. But thanks for offering. :)
urgh....just a few more hours. i can't wait to go home.
been up watching vids on yt every night now....gotta luv yt! but i think i'm n need of a break cause my vision has been quite blurry lately and my eyes r either really dry or something. then again they water up every now and then as well. ahhkkkk!!! i really hope i don't need to get glasses!
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Glasses may make you look sexy and modern? :)
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Glasses may make you look sexy and modern? :)
uhmm...sure. :D :D :D if u say so mister.
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*sigh* if i go back n reread this journal as if it was some random persons' journal i'd think several things:
- she must be bipolar
- her job seems stressful and exhausting
- she has a lot of anger issues
- drama-rama in this dear girls life
- she seems very lonely
- she sounds like she's a lot of heartache and resentment
- she luvs 2 eat
- she's funny
- she luvs 2 have a good time
- she's probably never going to have kids
:2funny: :2funny: :2funny: :2funny: :2funny: :2funny:
yep, I guess that's me. :D ;D 8) :D ;D 8) :D ;D 8)
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She's friendly
She's kind
She's out going
She's compassionate
She's honest
She's a hard worker
She loves life
She's goofy
She's smart
She's trustworthy
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She's friendly
She's kind
She's out going
She's compassionate
She's honest
She's a hard worker
She loves life
She's goofy
She's smart
She's trustworthy
awwww......thnx. :)
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eh....driving out an hour for an interview. hoping this goes well....gonna get some lunch on the way. it's going to be a slow day today. just got back from the chancellor's address for all campus faculty and staff. i'm not on campus enough or our dept doesn't collaborate much with others for me to know everyone. however, i know some of the key ppl on campus and that's good--for now.
it's a nice day out. lately i've been wearing dresses...actu ally since the beginning of summer. i'm quite surprised in myself as the years pass by how much of a woman i've become or have embraced. don't get me wrong, i still enjoy the sweats, t-shirts and jeans....the frumpy, cool, casual look, but i don't mind the make-up and the cute dresses as well--just not all the time.
ok, my stomach is growling like no other--time for lunch. :D
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Well what do you know, Thursday is finally here for you Lisa :)
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Well what do you know, Thursday is finally here for you Lisa :)
:wav: :blob6: :wav: :blob7:
I know!!!!! The first thing i did this morning.....po sted on my FB: Yay, it's friday! @ least for me....muuaahhh ahahahahahahah !!!
Ha, tis true though.
Gotta luv Fridays. O0
anyway, how's ur day so far? bz 2day? is ur daughter excited 4 her game this weekend?
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Back.....
Tired n confused. =/
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i sit here and i can't seem to get anything done
and i'm not quite sure what is wrong
ok, i lied i know what's distracting me
but as much as i try to look past it my heart is just not as ease
it's heavy and i only find myself contemplating what i should do...if i should do anything
but really, i am simply scared that once i reveal my thoughts, my heart, i'll be left with nothing but pain
in this game of luv who is to win and who is to lose
what's there to really gain or to give...or r we simply just a muse
u don't know it but u have my heart in the palm of ur hand
i realize i can't blame u if u don't understand
for lips have not made their move
so i can't let myself think ur not hearing me...ur actions r rude
if i must be upset or frustrated it's honestly due to me, myself, n i
bc truth b all this time i've doing nothing but trying to hide
one may ask y make things complicated
i'm not trying to make things hard...as we both know how luv nowadays is so overrated
quite frankly i dunno what i'm more afraid of...
luv itself or knowing that i can be luved.
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but a lot 2 do @ work 2day. ::)
thank goodness it's thurs....which means 2morrow's friday. but i've 2 stay late 2morrow 4 another interview N i have 2 work on Sat. yeah....summer is really over now.
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A lot things goin on....n all areas.
*sigh* blah :-\
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i sit here and i can't seem to get anything done
and i'm not quite sure what is wrong
ok, i lied i know what's distracting me
but as much as i try to look past it my heart is just not as ease
it's heavy and i only find myself contemplating what i should do...if i should do anything
but really, i am simply scared that once i reveal my thoughts, my heart, i'll be left with nothing but pain
in this game of luv who is to win and who is to lose
what's there to really gain or to give...or r we simply just a muse
u don't know it but u have my heart in the palm of ur hand
i realize i can't blame u if u don't understand
for lips have not made their move
so i can't let myself think ur not hearing me...ur actions r rude
if i must be upset or frustrated it's honestly due to me, myself, n i
bc truth b all this time i've doing nothing but trying to hide
one may ask y make things complicated
i'm not trying to make things hard...as we both know how luv nowadays is so overrated
quite frankly i dunno what i'm more afraid of...
luv itself or knowing that i can be luved.
And how is not knowing or saying anything is a good thing? I would like to know and not go through years in the dark questioning myself, what if?
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And how is not knowing or saying anything is a good thing? I would like to know and not go through years in the dark questioning myself, what if?
of course it's not helping pl. but things r easier said than done and there's a few variables here that come n2 play making this a lil complicated. i've always been an honest person--especially to myself. i'm sure he's not stupid but yes, i've to say something. and there's no such thing as "perfect time"...and the longer I wait, the more of an opportunity i allow for "others". *sigh* heck, for my own sanity something needs to be decided and needs to happen. n whatever i decide i know i'll be content w that decision.
thnx though...for ur nudge or concern.
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OMG.....these dreams r really messing w my head! :idiot2:
but it was funny...and it's been a while since I dreamt in Chinese. Always nice! :)
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it's such a nice day out....just got back from advising @ my old high school..meetin g w my kids.
@ the office now trying to finish up some paperwork before i head out for the weekend. i've got a full schedule ahead of next week and well, i already wish next week was done w. yeah--so looking forward to it, can u tell? LOL
hrrrmm...the weekend. i did not plan on going anywhere and my gf really wants me to accompany her n her hubby n a mutual friend on this "fishing" trip. *sigh* in all honesty, i do want to go. but not only is it not in my budget but i have my reasons 4 not wanting to go. :-X oh, decisions, decisions, decisions..... what to do, what to do, what to do? blah! :-\ ::) :P
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Yeah...i went w them on the fishing trip. How was it? ??? Well, fishing? Major FAIL! OK, not major but semi fail. We went out on the lake both Sat n Sun all day n got nothing on Sat n towards the last maybe three hours on Sun finally got big salmon (which got their hopes up to stay) only to catch a 10 inch rainbow trout. Fisherman 1 caught both fish while fisherman 2 wS hella frustrated n disappointed from the whole weekend.
My girl n i had a good time though. We cheered the guys on n we laughed a tons all weekend! I'm glad i went. I was fortunate enough that he let me drive/steer the boat (since i couldn't do anything else....hadn't gotten my license all summer since i hadn't had time to fish hence didn't want to waste $). It was a bit scarey bc i freK myself out playing worse case scenarios n my head...yeah, i'm a dork. But even though the fishing trip was unsuccessful @ least every1 was a good sport bout it n we made the best out of the situation. We enjoyed each others' company. Besides, like i told them...."if we (the girls) had not come along u 2 would have been miserable guys who were too disappointed to tLk to each other n sulk on ur end of the boat making the experience even more sucky!" they said i was probably right. ;D :D ;D :D
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Lately everytime i close my eyes i c u....last night u can n gave me a letter which confessed ur luv to me. I cried n held ur letter tightly n my arms. I was happy....
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eh...just the usual today. nothing new.
went to the gym with the bro last night. felt great after the workout....my problem isn't working out--once i'm there i'm good....just need to get into the habit of getting my big arse there. blah. hoping to go tonight after work.
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quite a productive day today....but still a few more hours of work. gotta run out to my college application workshop and help my seniors fill out their apps.
*sigh* thank goodness i went to bed early last night...perhap s I will tonight as well.
another long day tomorrow so I hope I get everything done!
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Hungover....bl ah!
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bz bz bz....
urgh....fall is most def here!
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I do want 2 b true 2 myself but slowly i realize....wit h or w/o u....i most def will b ok.
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i've been bz...hence away from here.
still bz....but at least now since we finally have the net @ home...perhaps I'll venture on more now.
then again, a new chapter in this life of mine to start soon...thus, i'll b bz still and mayb a lil more than now.
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Good morning Lisa. Keeping busy is good. Hope to see you more often. Keep me posted on your new venture. I am getting closer in closing this chapter and begin a new one as well.
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Good morning Lisa. Keeping busy is good. Hope to see you more often. Keep me posted on your new venture. I am getting closer in closing this chapter and begin a new one as well.
u've got pm.
oh....u 2 r closing a chapter to only begin a new one? oh, please do share. :) 8)
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blah....workin g ur butt off only to be broke every month! fml! :-\ :-\ :-\
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weddings, new years, baby showers...n work. yep...that's the life right now. :-\
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You're forgetting thanksgiving and xmas is coming right up lol :P
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You're forgetting thanksgiving and xmas is coming right up lol :P
oh, don't remind me pl! ::) :P
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You're welcome Lisa ;D :D
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yes, it's new year time and I've got just a few more hours of work left. gotta mail some stuff to my sis, go help nyab clean for r awesome friends who r coming in, shop for some groceries, and get my outfits ready for ny.
2 bad it's going to rain all weekend! what a perfect weekend for ny huh? lame. but can't fight mother nature. still debating if i'll dress up. given the rain, i really don't want to. but given that it's ny i have an itch to adorn myself as well. i dunno. we'll see, won't we? LOL
i'm more so looking forward to the pre-party @ the house. some ppl want to go to the OG party and linger dt but i just want to look cute and have me some drinks. LOL but of course, i mean, y not? it's ny!
so looks like i may run into some phers...more so due to sports. uck, playing soccer n football in mud! blah for them...but could be something great to watch for me. LOL anyway...i don't plan on seeing or meeting anyone--but u never know who u'll run into (or have run into u) at such events.
yes, pics will most def be posted.....lat er.
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honestly, it hurts knowing and seeing him with someone else but what am I suppose to do? and I can't be upset bc u dunno what's running through this darn head and heart of mine but i am human after all and being human i am able to get jealous. am i mad? no. but am i disappointed? yes. I believe I am entitled to it.
but at times...I do honestly question myself....is it the fact that I care bc i luv him or is it that i think he's a good guy and i think i like guys like him that i like him to think that there is a potential future with or for him?
*sigh* I dunno to be honest...but i do feel once u have those jealous feelings then there is something "more than meets the eye". what do u think?
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U make me so nervous just don't know what to do w myself. Urgh!
I think it's time....or else i'm just going to drive myself crazy here.
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don't want to think today....don't want a sec to be alone or have "time" 4 my mind to wander.....got ta keep bz bz bz....bc if i don't i'm just going to fill my head n heart of sad stupid crap.
yeah i am not liking this fall season at all!
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had a much needed conversation yesterday and this morning I woke up to clarity. I am so glad someone reminded me of the woman I am...the one that I lost along the way--I forgot about her and turned into this lil girl who was lost and didn't know what to do with herself. how could i let myself get in so deep? i don't want to hurt anyone nor do i want to hurt anymore. i can no longer be selfish. thank u for reminding me that i'm more than this lil girl...that i am worth something, that I am a strong woman who can stand on her own. thank you for reminding me that there's more out there for me than what i know and have been only letting my eyes see (as of late). I feel like i literally turned a new leaf. No worries and i'm confident in whatever i decide to do, I know I'll be OK.
Thank you for seeing in me what I had lost. I greatly appreciate it!
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I am glad you are found! Turn the leaf gently and appreciate everything.
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I am glad you are found! Turn the leaf gently and appreciate everything.
Thanks i'm glad 2!!! O0 i'm in a whole new space now n i know no matter what i'll b ok.
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That's what I like to hear!
How's your week coming along?
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I'm doing well PL! O0
had another interview this morning since I didn't have to go on the UW-Eau Claire college visit (thank goodness considering all this rain!).
in the office today...gettin g a few things done. but honestly, nothing much to do. so what am i going to do? post vids on yt, post pics on fb, and look up some baby shower games for my girls' baby shower next week.
yes, it'll be a productive day won't it? LOL O0 ;D ;D ;D ;D
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Packing n moving on up.....literal ly.
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this is not fun anymore...
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while moving i found a big box under my bed and forgot i had it. what was it? remember back in the day when memory books were crazy popular? yep, i had 1 too. however, a few years ago i finally took mine apart...the letters, cards, and of course pics and put them in a box. so now i once again am reliving the past reading the old notes n letters and going through some old photos. ^^
i found some old luv letters too.....some were sweet and cute and still leaves me smiling while others...ha, what were these boys thinking? no, what was I thinking!?!?!? muuaahhhahahah ahahahahahah
i'll post some samples elsewhere on here.
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Cool. I find stuff under my bed all the time that gave me the thought, hmmmm when did I placed these there lol ;D
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Cool. I find stuff under my bed all the time that gave me the thought, hmmmm when did I placed these there lol ;D
;D ;D ;D
i also forgot i left my big old binder of CDs under there.... some old cds from the 90s' and early 2000s! O0
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I bet you got busy listening to almost all of them ;D
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I bet you got busy listening to almost all of them ;D
no....i didn't even open the cd case....most of the songs r on my laptop now....so no need to. i just listen to my songs on my phone now--it's more convenient.
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I still carry around my 8GB usb full of Lao and Thai music. :)
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Yay, i'm so happy! I have an interview at 1 of the places i applied to. The first place totally shot me down but i'd rather work at this 2 place. I'm supeR excited--really hope it goes well n i get it.
I really need a second job...even if that means i'll have no life.
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2nights workout was good. Nyab n i r on a mission 2 help each other lose weight.
Planning on wakin up early 2morrow 4 a nice walk.
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Good luck Lisa and keep working out. This time of the year is great to jog in the AM.
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Getting ready 4 my day. I know it's election day--which is important...bu t i've an interview this afternoon for a part time job so that's actually a lil more important to me right now. Gotta look extra nice today--yep, getting out the make up...nothing intense just something clean n natural. No, i don't wear make up every day.
But of course i'm voting right b4 i head to work; thankfully i live across the street from my voting poll. :) O0
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i hate how ppl think by keeping "secrets" from me it's somehow helping me! really? ::) :idiot2: i'm an adult, so all i ask for is ur honesty. no need in hiding or keeping things from me despite ur good intentions. yes, i may be hurt, cry even...I am human after all. however, i'm not stupid nor do i need ur pity. do u really think i'm that weak....that ur lil secret can break me? plah--leez! ::) the world will still turn tomorrow...i will wake up to yet another day....my world will not end bc of u....so don't flatter urself. i think i deserve the truth....it's better for everyone and less awkward for everyone...don't u think? I know I sure do. I'm not defeated nor am I going to let someone break me. ur not the first nor r u the last...so please get off ur high horse and just be real mang.
n yes, though i feel this way...there's no hard feelings nor am i going to hate. ur still someone dear to me....ur simply just not going to be THAT dear for me. I'm OK with it...so y can't u b?
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irritated and utterly annoyed.
on a good note...i hung up my pics last night...on my wall. one less thing to do. i've still a basket full of clothes to put away and more cleaning to do. hoping i'd get to it this weekend..but i've to work.
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Moving is a pain but it's also a new start :)
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Moving is a pain but it's also a new start :)
Yeah it is a pain....but i'm done--i think.
Got another interview to conduct n 10 min here. N then i'm done 4 the day. Yay!!! O0
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stayed up late last night.....what was I doing? found more luv letters and decided to read through them.
it's funny how back then he/they (the letters/the relationship) was nothing but the whole world but now looking back (not that it didn't or doesn't matter) but you realize if things didn't work out, it's OK and you move on. Back then we'd fight and plea for another day--only to be hurt regardless. stupid some would say but naive would also come to mind....eh, as well as desperately insane! :idiot2: :D :idiot2: :D :idiot2: :D
regardless, we're still good friends so it's ok. no hard feelings and no one "lost".
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finally....
...start training in less than an hour. i have to go back on fri for 4+ hrs....sadly, i'm hoping i get to be out on the floor this weekend. yeah, work, work, work.
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hrrrmmmm....ho ping i can leave early tonight. then I can go to the gym, yes!
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Just stopping by to say Hello :) Stay sweet :-*
Hi AI! :) thanks for stopping by....how's things going there w u?
Hunting lately?
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Lots of hunting lately but nothing to show for it. Things are good as usual. You doing good?
Nothing to show for it or not.....I'm sure you're enjoying yourself regardless, right? O0 either way, sounds like things are going good.
me? ??? as you can c I'm OK, just the usual work, work, work, n work. that's about it. been bz...2 bz i've hardly time to come on ph.
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training at the 2nd job 2night. just a few hours. i hope i start soon....cause i want/need the $. even if that means no potluck this weekend for me. thankfully i can get a few more hours next week since i'm off at the full-time job wednesday on.
yes, to having no life. how sweet!.
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Sabaidee Lisa, hope all is well :)
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Whatever the bro has must be contagious bc i'm now sick w a fever 2 just not puking--yet.
Texted him that i'm sick now n he replied he's at the hospital w an iV n his arm n getting xrays done....please don't let me be as sick! That would suck!!!
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I have to work my 2nd job 2morrow i hope i get better!!! :-\
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Omg! I'm @ work on lunch break n this morning watching people wait n watch through the big window doors. I felt like i was the animals at a zoo. All i've been doin is clearing out the fitting rooms and hanging n putting things up. Thankfully i'll b done earlier n the day. But more work tomorrow.
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work's going a lot better...balan cing the 2 jobs now.
it's time to move on....things are "back to normal" now.
yay....need to get my secret santa shopping done...started on one...still have another one to do or actually, 2 other ones to do.
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Out n about...seeing my kids--as usual.
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moving on....
...but dayem, no one said anything about creepers! no thanks.
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i've been a bzbzbz b lately...but things are ok.
headed back out to c my kids here n a bit. i hate making the drive every week but it's only an hour...not even--just 45 minutes. and to think i used to commute 30 min to work every day a few years ago. there's still no snow yet so i'm at least grateful for that.
i think imma do my nails tonight after work. maybe i can come home early--yeah that would be nice!
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nail fail....my presents look lame....so imma do something else tonight. not sure what just yet--maybe snowflakes or xmas trees.
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xmas cards....i just luv them!!!
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exhausted....n o more please.
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Blizzard warning so i'm staying n 2day...working from home n they called sYin i don't hVe 2 go n 2night since they r closing early. Good news 2 me! O0
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Get plenty of candles, in case power outage :)
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Get plenty of candles, in case power outage :)
i don't think it will be that bad.
Hi pl! :) how have u been?
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Hello Lisa. Nothing much, like you...working to make a living :P But I got a week off coming ahead. You?
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Hello Lisa. Nothing much, like you...working to make a living :P But I got a week off coming ahead. You?
i've got 2 weeks off from the full time job but working a few nights at the part time 1. Otherwise, no plans.
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Great, time to catch up on movies. I have missed so many movies in the last few years. I am going to get buzz few times during the time off ;D
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Great, time to catch up on movies. I have missed so many movies in the last few years. I am going to get buzz few times during the time off ;D
dude me 2! I haven't seen a movie, nonetheless, good movie lately! Wha wha!
I surely will have drink or 2 as well. :D we totally need 2 hang out 1 day pl.
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Sounds good, since you can grill!!!! I'll bring the booze :P
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Sounds good, since you can grill!!!! I'll bring the booze :P
deal! O0
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Working 2night n 2morrow afternoon--thank goodness i'm off 4 the next 3 days!
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@ work...getting off n 3 1/2 hrs n still needing 2 do laundry. Urgh don't want 2 do anything!
I won a gift certificate @ work 2day though yay!!! O0
My back still hurts...yester day i thought it was better but nope, fooled myself. :(
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lounging around today....bc i can.
but gonna start prepping some stuff tonight for tomorrow. nothing big...just a lil--especially since it's just me.
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Hi Lisa, happy new year!
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Hi Lisa, happy new year!
hi pl!!! Yes, happy bday dear! ;) O0 :)
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Hey Lisa, wanna go spray paint someone's garage door? I'm still laughing how your house is located right in front of rows of apartments! bahaha.... soo weird.
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Hey Lisa, wanna go spray paint someone's garage door? I'm still laughing how your house is located right in front of rows of apartments! bahaha.... soo weird.
huh? ???
U dunno where i live. But taggin garage doors? Sounds like fun! O0 ;D
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Urgh....can't sleep n my back still hurts!!!
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Finally doing my laundry since i've put it off for bou 2 weeks now. Yeah, i've been lazy.
So it's new years eve...what's the plan? We're havin the crew over 4 a cocktail party...it's r glitz n glitter cocktail party. R 3 friends who happen 2 all b bro n sis have bdays 2day so the 1 bro got a keg 4 2night. Yeah, we're really goin 2 party! :D O0 i should b tons of fun--no drama please! ::) we'll also b taking grp n family/couple pics since we have a photographer n the group.
So after laundry i've got 2 rush home n fet 2 making my korean/chinese pancakes n get ready 4 2night. Did my nails last night but i've got some touch ups i've 2 do.
I hope 2013 will b a good year--i already know it's going 2 b stressful n the sense that i'll b working more or harder n my professional development n career n general. That as well as workin kn getting myself out of debt! These studen loans need 2 go byebye.
Hope every1 else has a safe n a blast this new years! Til next year!!! O0 ;)
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Hi Lisa, finally new year is behind us ;D
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hi pl!!! Yes, happy bday dear! ;) O0 :)
What, I had a bday and I didn't know about it? :P
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Hi Lisa, finally new year is behind us ;D
What, I had a bday and I didn't know about it? :P
oh goodness...u know i meant 2 say happy new year....guess i was really tired or something being it was after midnight that i said that. LOL
But yes, hope you had a good new years. mine was good...didn't get crazy but woke up with a lil hangover...onl y to be recovered by pho. LOL
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Good stuff to have with the hangover. My friends had dear meat in the morning, and I was about to throw up lol
I had coffee with upside down german chocolate cake to cured my hangover. YUMMMIE
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urgh....back is still killing me.
this week will be a slow week at work...but getting things done--which is good.
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bz day 2day @ the office....lots to do!
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work work work....
at least my back's starting to feel a lil better...start ing.
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That's the American dream luvlylisa :P ;D
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That's the American dream luvlylisa :P ;D
huh? What? ??? that their backs are feeling better too? Damn! :D ;D :D ;D :D
I know...I'm a dork. tee hee! ;)
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whooohooooo!!!! :wav: we're having baby priscilla today! O0
well, not i of course but my buddies r having their lil baby girl. thankfully i live across from the hospital so i can go c her anytime i want.
actually i'm done with work now so off i go to enjoy some baby time and my weekend. (2 bad i have to work for a few hours EARLY tomorrow morning. But that's life.)
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my eyes have been hurting a lot recently...got ta go get em checked.
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Stop spending hours looking at porn Lilsa ;D not healthy for your eyes :P
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Stop spending hours looking at porn Lilsa ;D not healthy for your eyes :P
OMG... :o :-[ how'd u know!?!?! ??? 8)
;D ;D ;D ;D
anyway...i realize i really need to lay off my phone and even the pc at work (well, i can try to at least). but yes, i need to get 'em checked out.
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Put lots of ice in the sink, fill it up with water and throw your face in. That should cure the eye sore ;D
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Put lots of ice in the sink, fill it up with water and throw your face in. That should cure the eye sore ;D
i'm sick w a cold now so that would just makes things worse for me at the moment.
I think i'm going to really start going to bed earlier n no more games n youtube in bed late at night. We'll start there.
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Sorry to that, hope you'll get better real soon. Happy Friday!
Pick up a good book :)
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so went away...now it's a cough! really? urgh!
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Damn it's hella cold out today!!!
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I think i'm going to really start going to bed earlier n no more games n youtube in bed late at night. We'll start there.
Lol I have the same problem. I'm a youtube addict. Once I get started I'm on for hours.. :( Last night I was watching glee videos and I didn't get to sleep until 1:30am. LOL. How pathetic..
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Lol I have the same problem. I'm a youtube addict. Once I get started I'm on for hours.. :( Last night I was watching glee videos and I didn't get to sleep until 1:30am. LOL. How pathetic..
Hi Mattster! :wave: Welcome to my humble abode. :) (That is if you're new.)
Yeah every day I tell myself I'll go to bed early tonight it never happens. I come home from work (some nights I don't get home til 9pm due to work) and eat dinner, shower, catch up on some of my tv shows or chill and relax and then finally head to bed (by now it's about midnight or well after). I'm usually not tired but I know I need to get to bed...but being that I can't fall asleep I'll catch up on my games and then I'll hop on youtube and then like you, once I'm on I'm on for 2-3 hours. I just can't help myself. Usually after a while and after finally glancing at my phone for the time, 3:45, oooppsss--get to bed! Then I roll over and make myself go to sleep.
Last night I was up til 3:25.
(Thanks 4 stopping by. Don't really realize ppl read my "journal".)
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Hey thanks for the warm welcome. I'm kinda new. Reborn again? I used to frequent the old HOL forums back in the day but managed to get myself off the internet addiction for a while. Now I'm back. LOL
Wow 3:25am? If I'm up that late (early) during week nights I get minor panic attacks and then I can't sleep the rest of the night. I have a weird love/hate relationship with sleeping. I hate going to sleep but I love being asleep. Does that make sense??
Anyway, hope you have a wonderful day. Stay warm!!
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Hey thanks for the warm welcome. I'm kinda new. Reborn again? I used to frequent the old HOL forums back in the day but managed to get myself off the internet addiction for a while. Now I'm back. LOL
Wow 3:25am? If I'm up that late (early) during week nights I get minor panic attacks and then I can't sleep the rest of the night. I have a weird love/hate relationship with sleeping. I hate going to sleep but I love being asleep. Does that make sense??
Anyway, hope you have a wonderful day. Stay warm!!
ha, a born again net-aholic?!?! ;D HOL? ??? :D i remeber those days! Hrrmmm, did u have the same usernme then? I don't recall a Mattster but then again it's not like i knew everyone either.
Yeah i'm always up late...some nights i stay up to 4 even. 8) luv hate relationship w sleep?!?! :2funny: i most def understand! O0 i'd say the same thing bout myself. Getting to bed is damn hard but once i'm out--i'm gone. I could sleep for hours...as long as i don't have to go to the bathroom or no one turns on the light i can sleep through any noise. Yeah i'm weird like that. :D
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nice and sunny day out today. so nice out decided to wash the car today. :)
a few things to do at the office today and then off to see my kids tonight. it'll be another long night but at least i went to bed early yesterday. we'll see if i do the same tonight.
ate sOooOoOOOoOoo much yesterday during the game i literally was going to burst! overall, it was a good weekend.
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I am still burping my wings and heineken ;D
Good morning Lisa.
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I am still burping my wings and heineken ;D
Good morning Lisa.
good choice in beer. O0
Morning pl! How r u doing 2day? Hope all is well.
Washed my car yesterday....o nly to get more snow today. Damn! It was so nice yesterday and today it's gloomy and snowing. The snowflakes are big but it's not a heavy snowfall like it was a few days ago. Hrrmmm....poss ible no school tomorrow? I hope so! ;D ;D ;D
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Aren't you too old to be excited for a no school day ;D
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Aren't you too old to be excited for a no school day ;D
no. that means i don't have to drive out an hour tomorrow....in the snow! i hate driving in snow.
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Can't blame you there, why would you guys live in such a place ;D
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Can't blame you there, why would you guys live in such a place ;D
well....as much as i don't like the snow, it's home.
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The snow is is only bad when you have to travel in it. Otherwise it can be quite enjoyable.
I love the 4 distinct seasons here. For me only January and February are the worst months, because they tend to drag as I am wishing for spring to come.
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The snow is is only bad when you have to travel in it. Otherwise it can be quite enjoyable.
I love the 4 distinct seasons here. For me only January and February are the worst months, because they tend to drag as I am wishing for spring to come.
true...i don't like winter mainly due to driving in snow/ice. Otherwise it's rather pretty.
But yes...i'm dreaming of spring already.
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well....as much as i don't like the snow, it's home.
I understand. I love my city, so I know what you mean.
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I understand. I love my city, so I know what you mean.
yes, kho jai. (did i spell that right?)
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Damn, nothing bu sleet this whole day! Makes me not want to go anywhere or do anything...but i've got laundry to do.
It was a good night last night w the crew. Good food, good drinks, and great conversations. It's always fun goofing around n telling crazy stories but when u can sit down n have serious conversations about life--those r the ones when u share to grow w each other. Yes, great times indeed! O0
Every1is coming back over again pho...een through the sleet. :D
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I can't help but feel sad 4 him when he is no longer smiling...
So much i want 2 take away the pain, the sadness , the loneliness...
Please know happiness can be found if u let it happen
Don't push nor force it
Be patient and be kind to what u have n that u may find
And if allowed it may n can be everything u want it to be
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yes, kho jai. (did i spell that right?)
Kho pronouce in coal? It should be kob or khob as in cob.
Good morning Lisa.
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Kho pronouce in coal? It should be kob or khob as in cob.
Good morning Lisa.
OK...well, you know what i meant. :)
Yes, good morning afternoon. How have you been pl? How was your weekend? It's extremely windy here--thus cold today. But other than that...typical busy Monday for me.
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Saddness from within is a crime
The soul weaken when it should smile
The pain deepen with the ticking clock
I wish to have you back when time stood still
There I can be everything you want
I guess when it was not to be
Only you and I can see
well if sadness is a crime--then are we not criminals?
this soul may be broken but smiles linger from time to time
time may heal the pain however the mind never forgets
that time when you were my world and i was your everything
it may never be replaced nor may it be replicated--no matter how hard we try
you cannot hang on to something that isn't yours...you can't force luv...you can only let it be....
whatever it is...moving on...me without you....and you without me
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Eh....heading out in a bit here. more tutoring w my kids. I don't mind seeing them...but can't wait to get home and relax.
at least i finished laundry last night. now, if i can find some time to tidy up my room. LOL
vday dinner w the girls sat....i'm excited!
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Happy Valentines-Schmalentines Day!
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pretty in pink. :-*
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Criminals to our hearts
Where do we go from being broken
Time surely does not healed completely
March on we must with pain
Smiles outward, and crying inside
A crime comitted from within
Crippled and mourning
Without you to hold
OK no more sad n miserable lines....it's depressing.
onward to happier and better things that await us....right? :)
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Right, lets go have some coke n snickers ;) :P ;D
coke n snickers? ??? Hey! :o :-X :)
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It's on me! ;D :D ;) :) :P Hi Lisa
Hi...U! On u....sure, sure it is. ;)
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back on the road again here in a few. heading out 2 c my kids. hate having to drive out an hour 2 c a few of them for an hour or so and then making the drive back. thankfully it's sunny out...but it's hella cold! i really don't like driving in the winter....it's not so much the snow that i don't like--it's more the ice that i don't care for. urgh. ::)
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i'm uber tired today.
i just want to sleep...if i could, i'd turn off my lights in my office and take a nap. i don't think i'll be staying late tonight at tutoring...wan na get home--the sooner the better.
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Whah! Woke up to the snow storm. Snowing like crazy but not enough for a snow day--which means i still have to go to work--thankfully, only for a few hrs.
I will most def come home and crawl back into bed. O0
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Enjoy it, it might be on you one day :P :D
;D ;D ;D maybe. 8)
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Sabaidee, how's your week coming along so far? It's been raining here and you know what that mean ;D
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Sabaidee, how's your week coming along so far? It's been raining here and you know what that mean ;D
raining? I know? ???
it's cloudy today. but yesterday was sunny and warm--no coat necessary.
anyway...hope all is well for u....n so that rain stops.
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Thank you, and the same for you.
Don't work too hard.
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Thank you, and the same for you.
Don't work too hard.
Thanks pl. Just got out of my staff meeting. (I seriously don't know why they always take 2+ hrs!)
I've a few more hours and then I'm done for the day--thank goodness. I'm glad my boss is not asking, no, she's warning me that I cannot stay tonight at tutoring and demanding that I go home. As busy as I am...I'm so glad that she can tell me to stop working and get some "me time". What a good boss.
However, I'm simply going to go do my laundry after work...so nothing special about "going home".
Anyway...have a good evening and night. Tomorrow is hump day!
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I hear you, I hate meetings. Implementing this and that, suggestions, etc...wasting my time. Manager get all the dam credit.
Sometimes work place is great, like right now..instead of relaxing am paying bills online....
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Urgh, crawling back to bed
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helped my girl n her hubby move n2 their new place this past weekend. it's nice and quaint. even i wouldn't mind having a similar place to myself.
we cleaned and helped them rearrange and then made pho and "warmed up the house". it was nice. hungover the next morning...spen t most of sun in bed. LOL yes, a good weekend I would say. 8)
back to the daily grind today. nothing new. can't believe it's march already. we're suppose to get another snow storm tomorrow...so much for spring.
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On the road again today....oh how i hate driving in snow.
then again, good thing i am heading out today instead of yesterday.
hrrmmm...what to do tonight? i think imma watch a movie...gonna find me a classic and veg out.
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it's so nice out today....yay! that means spring is surely just around the corner. it better be bc i'm done with winter.
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what can i say....it's been a while....我很想你。
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r u kidding me....more snow? >:(
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Good morning Lisa
How's your week coming along?
It's dandy in my neck of the woods, just can't wait for soccer season to start.
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Good morning Lisa
How's your week coming along?
It's dandy in my neck of the woods, just can't wait for soccer season to start.
hey u...it's been a while eh. But sounds like things r going well for u. Good to hear. O0
I'm bz like usual w work. I swear i luv these kids but sometimes they drive me insane!!! :idiot2:
It's no longer snowing today n the sun is out dancing around. Funny enough it's suppose to get to 30 degrees later this afternoon--it's nearly 20 degrees right now but fine for me. No coat necessary today. (Then again, i hardly wear one anyway.) at least no snow for me to deal w on my hour drive out to see my other kids. I'll enjoy my dive out today indeed.
Hope ur day continues to be good for u. :)
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what?!?!? more snow today!?!?!? How dare she trick me! piss on u mother nature! grrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >:(
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urgh...rain today. this weather is surely going down the crapper!
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Urgh! More f'en snow! ::) :-\ >:(
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can't wait to get done with work today! y? bc in a few hours here I'll be done for the week.
tomorrow i'll be prepping all my food and packing for this weekends' trip. every year we go on r "March Madness" trip and every year we out-do the previous year. Of all our "cabin" trips this one is going to be the biggest group and biggest house. we rented a big rental vacation home in the dells (7 bdrms--sleeps 20 w 6 bathrooms!). There's a beach/lake nearby...howev er, due to the awesome wisconsin winters we most likely will not be able to do anything outdoors--then again it's mighty sunny today (but rather cold still). It's going to be sunny the rest of the week so let's hope w the sun out and maybe with higher temps we can melt some of this snow. Maybe.
we always look forward to these trips mainly bc it's one of the few times we ALL try to get together--and do nothing but relax! Sure, there's a lot of drinking involved (we're getting 3 heneiken kegs this year--last time we got 2 and had to do a beer run the last day) and we literally eat to r hearts content! But these r surely memories to last us a lifetime and then some!
I'll post pics....maybe.
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yesterday was an epic day/night. so glad we came and made time to get together with all these friends. to a few more days of crazy drunkenness and awesome food!!!
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I have been wanting to get away and hang out with old buddies for few days. Just the thought of flying to Cali is discouraging to me. Wish it was closer.
Glad to know you are out and having a blast Lisa.
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I have been wanting to get away and hang out with old buddies for few days. Just the thought of flying to Cali is discouraging to me. Wish it was closer.
Glad to know you are out and having a blast Lisa.
yes i am having a blast...you could be too. To have good ppl in ur life is one of the best things....I'm so glad I have these ppl in my life--and very fortunate! N u r 1 of those ppl. Enjoy ur weekend.
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some crazy mofos!!!
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it is more difficult for me to be luved than to luv. as much as I try...it's weird and awkward. though many want to be taken care of.....i find it rather disappointing that no one wants me to take care of them. :( *deep sigh* oh well, what can u do.
yes, the reason y i'm single. no, the reason y i'm single. yep, the reason.
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What was the reason? ;D :D :P
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What was the reason? ;D :D :P
that's the reason....whic h is the reason of the reason.
got it now? 8)
How r u doing pl? so ur still here eh? LOL
Hope ur monday is going well. it's been slow today but i've at least been somewhat productive.
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I see I see :)
I know right, thought I would have taken my leave and be sitting next to the Mekong by now lol :P
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I see I see :)
I know right, thought I would have taken my leave and be sitting next to the Mekong by now lol :P
lol....yeah i'd like to be away sitting on the beach somewhere too. but i'll have to make best of this office instead.
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That's the same boat am in ;D sadly we got years to go :)
It's better than being homeless :)
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That's the same boat am in ;D sadly we got years to go :)
It's better than being homeless :)
;D ;D ;D true. very true.
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i dunno....u can never be satisfied nor content these past few days. for some reason, i'm been feeling like a dark cloud.
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Chase away that rain and you'll see the sunshine :)
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i honestly care about u n ♥ u but being around u is 2 toxic 4 me. i only feel the pain n my ♥ n no matter how hard i try 2 smile and say something nice my lips curl and i only tremble knowing that a storm may cast over me. as much as i wish 4 this 2 b a great thing...maybe it's better 2 keep this distance btwn us. 4 both r sanity n 4 my ♥ 2 heal or @ least so my ♥ is no longer heavy. :'(
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Chase away that rain and you'll see the sunshine :)
well....some rain will never go away....as we all know...we need the rain in order to not only see rainbows but in order for things to grow.
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nice weather today....let's hope all this snow is gone by the weekend.
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Yay, another sunny day today. perhaps I'll go for a nice walk today. I at least got some vit d yesterday and ate lunch outside..it was still a bit chilly but tolerable.
no plans this weekend...just gonna hit the gym--that's it. need to.
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damn it was weird last night. in the middle of baking my bread and got a call. took it and didn't know what to think. one of my kids' mom calls me--here, I'm think she wanted to talk or had questions about tutoring or her child and then she's like..."r u home? let's go out. I'm coming over to pick u up!" ??? :o She didn't even give me a chance to say no--or yes even. I was not really wanting to go but she was coming regardless. WTF, i can't party with my kids' mom.
Thing is her younger sister and I were good friends in college and we were always going out. She at the time was always pregnant and had her kids (she was married young) so we know each other--but we never hung out or anything. OK, I take that back--we don't know each other--as I really don't know her personally other than she's my friends' older sister. Odd thing is, I'm not really close to her sister anymore. So it's already awkward and then being that I'm her daughters' advisor is even more awkward. I understand with her failing marriage and whatnot she wants some "me" time and has never experienced life w/o her "mom" title. But this just isn't right...and not professional--even if we know each other on a personal (sort of) level.
Luckily, she couldn't find her ID so we just had a drink or two at my house and left. Unfortunately, she said she'd try to find it today so we can go. :-\ I don't want to be mean--but I just might not pick up my phone. I hope she doesn't just show up at my house. Oh...running away from grown adult mom who wants to party her youth out. No thanks.
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yay! heading out early today! yes!!!! O0 O0 O0
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Here in Des Moines for a conference. Today's schedule is actually very low-key. I really don't have much to do until 1 this afternoon. So I'm sitting here in my hotel room taking my time to get ready. LOL
The drive here wasn't that bad; there was a bit of wind and light as well as heavy rain here and there. I got here safely and in 4 hrs. Only to realize after driving 3 hours that I had left my bag of professional/business attire at home! :o :-\ All I have in my bag are casual clothes and pjs--but i at least had a few bus-cas tops and two pairs of slacks. Whew! Then again being that many of us work with kids and the setting is rather casual I know I won't be the only one who will be "dressing down" this week. Oh well, what can you do? I'm no way going to spend money on clothes when it's not necessary. (But too bad I couldn't have it written off as a conference expense! LOL ;D 8) )
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Hi guests! :wave:
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Hey nerd! When are you going to take me out? :)
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Hey nerd! When are you going to take me out? :)
I'm taking u out? ???
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I'm taking u out? ???
Huh? Are you asking me out? :icon_scratch: :)
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Huh? Are you asking me out? :icon_scratch: :)
:boxing: yes, I'll take u out alright. :knuppel2:
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:o ???
wow....i'm shocked what can i say....
i dunno what to say really....just taking it all in for now.
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And you expect me to read your mind? :)
Hello dear friend.
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And you expect me to read your mind? :)
Hello dear friend.
??? huh? :dontknow: :icon_scratch: I don't think I know what ur referring to there pl.
but i'm fine. how have u been? how's soccer coming along? are you ready for ur lil girl to head off soon here for college? Wait, I know she's not going too far...but I'm assuming she's heading to live on-campus right and not commute from home?
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I was referring to your "I dunno what to say really" ;D
I have been great, lovely weather and everything is great.
No, not ready, never ever but yes she will be living in campus her first year per NCAA rule on athelete. We will eventually have to move closer to her campus so she could commute after. She wanted to stay with us.
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I was referring to your "I dunno what to say really" ;D
I have been great, lovely weather and everything is great.
No, not ready, never ever but yes she will be living in campus her first year per NCAA rule on athelete. We will eventually have to move closer to her campus so she could commute after. She wanted to stay with us.
Oh. 8) LOL :D
anyway...that's good things are going well with you and the fam. I'm sure it's bitersweet--she's growing up but also leaving-in a sense.
yes, the weather is great. it's nice and sunny here today--I'm about to leave here for my hour drive out to my kids...only to probably be there for an hour or so. *sigh* sometimes I wonder y I even go. ::)
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Came home to find my SIL and bro painting the living (arctic white instead of the nasty green we had when my parents bought the house). we ended up painting several coats on all the walls and most of the hallway except one wall in the living room (where tv and electronics are). My bro and I both work late tonight and tomorrow so SIL will be finishing what she can by herself.
i'm not one who is that picky about decor--probably bc it's my parents house (or at least it started out as theirs--bro and I pay all the expenses now) so I don't feel the need to "redo" or "claim" it as mine and do as I wish with it. SIL on the other hand...how do I say this....has taste for finer things....so she wanted to vamp up the house. Personally I don't mind...as long as it's improvements to the house and not chucking out ppls things to "de-clutter". It's one thing to ask one and help clean and organize and another to throw ppls stuff out (no matter what they are and functionality is bc u don't like it or see value or use for it) whether they are home or not. As I told her...do whatever you want but at least wait for mom and nicely go through her stuff with her and let her consider throwing things out and help her organize it all. We all know our elders are a bit of a pack-rat (some more than others=hoarders) but gotta be respectful to them and their things and feelings. Many times you have to respect their wishes and let them have their way. When you buy and have your own house then you can "tell" them what they can or cannot do/have. just my 2 cents on it.
On another note...as we were painting yesterday we were talking about the ugly stained and dirty carpet. I, personally, like hard wood floors. Anyway, SIL and I told my bro to ask the landlord (he works at the hospital with them--we sold the house to them) to see if they would consider getting us new carpet or if we find someone who can do it, they'd reimburse us for it. So he texted back this afternoon that since they're going to redo the siding later this spring they will put in new carpeting then as well! Whoohoo!!! So blessed! Can't wait to see the final renovations-which most likely won't be for a while.
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Oh. 8) LOL :D
anyway...that's good things are going well with you and the fam. I'm sure it's bitersweet--she's growing up but also leaving-in a sense.
yes, the weather is great. it's nice and sunny here today--I'm about to leave here for my hour drive out to my kids...only to probably be there for an hour or so. *sigh* sometimes I wonder y I even go. ::)
LOL You just love them kids.
Speaking of kids, I still can't believe mine is about to graduate from HS. WOW.
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LOL You just love them kids.
Speaking of kids, I still can't believe mine is about to graduate from HS. WOW.
yeah, i must huh? 8)
Yes, believe it. O0
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Urgh! Annoyed and irritated. Stupid ppl, I tell ya! ::)
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yes, more snow in the midwest...can u believe it? ::) Luckily, we don't have any here--let's hope it stays that way too. >:(
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yep it indeed is spring now--or at least it's starting to feel like it. i wore a springy dress to work today-just bc.
can't wait for the week to be over with so i can head out fri night to mn. y? it's my bff's dad's funeral and the whole gang is going to show our support. it's an awesome feeling when you know you have great ppl around u. I know i'm surely blessed in life with wonderful friends!
however, i hope there's not going to be some weird tension or awkwardness considering how things may or could be in my non-existent luv life. i'm riding with 1 on the way there and it's the only time we get to be alone...so i might make use of that alone time and really talk about thins we've been dancing around (or I might just leave it...I dunno). but knowing that someone else may be looking to spend time with me...is a little..uhmm.. ..different, would be the right word. I'm not one to lead ppl on...but i feel i must get over this hurdle first before i invest any real time or effort in something else. then again....for me, i'm taking things REALLY slow and i'm in no rush for anything from anyone. Let me figure this out first and figure out what i want or can handle right now. if this other dude is willing to wait and see it through then kudos to him...but i can't promise anything right now--hope he understands.
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Can't sleep tonight :-\
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SAD...yeah I'm sad.
Seasonal Affective Disorder....th at sounds about right.
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yes, it felt so good to finally tell him.
no regrets and i'm glad we can be adults about it. thank goodness!
i think it brought us even closer--not exactly how i wanted it but u can't push anything on anyone. spent the whole weekend together (well, amongst others as well) but it was good to know that we r at a place where it's not awkward and we can be rselves w/o the other thinking something or expecting not to expect anything--again, the awkward stage. sadly, the fact that he's so cool about it makes me like him even more. i know...but u can't fight what u feel. at least now i know i don't have to hide. it is what it is....whatever it is...i'm simply grateful u gave me the time to speak and u didn't laugh at me.....only with me. thank u!
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It's such a nice as day out! dayem...and I'm sitting here in my cave. :-\
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^2nd that today!!!!
On a side note...in order for a relationship to work or go anywhere one has to be willing to participate and put in effort. Where do you expect things to go if you're not willing to do anything? What's the point in initiating anything if ur just going to sit there and do nothing...almo st ignoring what it is that u asked for. Y bother asking if u r going to play like u don't know me? stupid kids. ::) ::) ::)
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I normally don't really like surprises...bu t what I thought was a creeper phone call turned out to be a great surprise. LOL He found my contact info and called me at work...explain ing that it had been a while but will be in the area in June and wants to hang out.
We're buddies and we love talking about everything as well as watch ppl squirm for stupid reasons. It'll be nice to finally hang out and just laugh about life. Can't wait!
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Hey nerd. How's life? Wait..... I can just read it here. ???
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Hey nerd. How's life? Wait..... I can just read it here. ???
hi bf....yes, u can find out what u want here.
dork!
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so sad.....it's heartbreaking when u hear n c how heartbroken someone is....n knowing that u can't do anything to heal their pain. :-\ :'( :'( :'(
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yeeaaahhhh baby!!!!!!! :wav:
4 day weekend here I come!!!! 8)
O0 O0 O0 O0 O0
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Have fun and be safe Lisa. :)
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Have fun and be safe Lisa. :)
thanks pl....n likewise to u! O0
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Gloomy n rainy all weekend--so much for a nice holiday break.
Eh regardless we still grilled n did r usual. Fun n relaxing yes indeed that was my weekend. But it always seems we need a vacation from a vacation. LOL y is that? :D :D :D
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busy, stressed, confused, frustrated...a dd in the gloomy crappy weather and yep, i'm nothing but emo as of late.
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summer's here and the weather has been so crappy lately!
urgh, work is just getting busier and busier! camp is to start next weekend (training will at least). I don't even want to think about it. However, I know the sooner it starts the sooner I'll be to finishing. *sigh*
blah!
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The previous night my dream started w a night out w the girls n ended w a pool party w the boys n swam w a cutie. This morning i dreamt the crew was all on a trip n while i was catching up w a friend i'd not seen n a while this cutie tapped me on the shoulder n sadly told me he had to cut the trip short due to his boss calling him in. I was disappointed bc i wanted him to stay--n surprisingly it seemed he wanted to stay--stay w me 2! W a shy smile he suggested however that i drop him off at least. I nodded n smiled back. He left me to tell the others of his early departure n i sat there n cuddled up feeling sad about the news. I must have been tired bc I was slowly falling asleep...but i was awaken w a light kiss n a brush of my hair off my face. Opened my eyes n there he was smiling at me. It felt like crying--he said to not worry n not cry--there would b more times we'd spend together. We both smiled n i fell back asleep n his arms.
What a dream eh? Seems like a movie mang! LOL *sigh*
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urgh! So much to do! Sometimes I wonder why I'm here. But I know in the end I enjoy it...even with all the challenges and stress.
Speaking of stress. I really need to find something to relieve myself of it all. I know it's not healthy for me and I can tell that it's starting to weigh on my body not to mention my sleep.
Sometimes accepting things is rather difficult but one needs to learn that everything doesn't end with a happy ending (no matter how much you want it to). It's really best to turn around and walk away--it may hurt but leaving now is better than waiting around with false hope only to realize the time and energy you "wasted". Appreciate things as they are and don't dream them out to be something they are not. Unless stated otherwise, go about your day and do what you need to...what makes you happy and all others will have to come second now.
Please take care of urself....if you don't no one else will and surely no one else is looking out for you. You can do this!!!
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spending time with my sister and bil today. my only day off to spend with them as they are here for the week. i've to go back to work tomorrow or maybe tonight--I'm not sure yet.
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it's only the second day and I'm exhausted already!!!! I've still five more weeks. urgh, will i be able to get through this? though I know it'll all go by faster than a blink of an eye already I'm annoyed and worked out to the max! hardly getting sleep and it totally shows! not to mention all the stress--making me break out like a biatch! mang, this is so not what I wanted nor called for! *inhales deeply* breathe, just breathe...I'll be fine.
anyway...off to prep for my day. a few things to do today--but nothing crazy--yet.
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bz bz bz bz...yes, that's what i am
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yeah it's been a while...what can i say though. these kids r driving me crazy!!!!
so ready for august already!!!
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yes, i'm still alive......tho ugh some days I most definitely do not feel like it.
thank goodness I've only to get through this week and next week will be just the "fun" stuff. most def I am excited for August! Not only bc it's my bday month but bc i can finally go on "vacation" and rest after this exhausting month and a half of chaos.
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it's almost Friday--we're almost there! thank goodness.
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You can say that again, I thought today was Wednesday...lo l ;D
Hi Lisa, how have you been?
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You can say that again, I thought today was Wednesday...lo l ;D
Hi Lisa, how have you been?
yeah i woke up this morning thinking the same thing lol
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You can say that again, I thought today was Wednesday...lo l ;D
Hi Lisa, how have you been?
awk, I've been bz (as u can c--which is y i've not been on much) but thankfully today is the last day of classes. Kids go home this afternoon. However, next week we'll be in mn for college visits and whatnot. Thanks for dropping.
How r things going with u pl? The fam? Soccer? Hope all is well n hope ur enjoying ur summer. :)
yeah i woke up this morning thinking the same thing lol
err....which part? That it was Wednesday or how have I been? ??? :D anyway, hi supa! :wave:
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awk, I've been bz (as u can c--which is y i've not been on much) but thankfully today is the last day of classes. Kids go home this afternoon. However, next week we'll be in mn for college visits and whatnot. Thanks for dropping.
How r things going with u pl? The fam? Soccer? Hope all is well n hope ur enjoying ur summer. :)
Enjoy your visit and I have yet to see any pics from your last trip lol
Everything is good, yes enjoying summer. Soccer season will resume in two months. We did not win the cup, came in 3rd. I was disappointed.
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Enjoy your visit and I have yet to see any pics from your last trip lol
Everything is good, yes enjoying summer. Soccer season will resume in two months. We did not win the cup, came in 3rd. I was disappointed.
no, I've not posted pics on PH for a while now. eh. ::)
Good to hear everything is going well for you this summer. Though it was a disappointment, congrats on 3rd. I'm sure it was a good game.
Thankfully, camp is over and I'm taking it easy at the office for the next few weeks until I'm on vacay for the following two weeks! Yes!
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was not feeling well last night thus called in today. though i feel a bit better my body is still aching for some reason. blah.
got two work days this week and then i'm on vacay for 2 1/2 weeks!!! O0 what am i going to do? not much for the most part. i turn 32 next weekend and have no plans. i dunno..i think as we get older bdays just aren't what they used to be. perhaps that's just me, i dunno.
but not to worry, we're having our "smoking hot summer bash" celebrating the summer bdays and a going-away party at another rental home in two weeks so i'm not all entirely not celebrating. i just don't feel like making a huge deal of my bday when we're going to celebrate it the next week. eh, that's just me.
though i can't wait to do nothing and be on vacay, i know i'll be bored out of my mind. i'm on a budget so it's not like i'll be able to go or do too much...but i really don't want to just sit my big arse at home all day either. guess i'll have to bust my butt and really take this time to work on me and dig deep to see something new. yes, i can do this!!!
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eh....my friday! what more can i say? O0 8)
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getting things ready for our 5 day getaway. all i've left is to pack and get the rest of the home goods and whatnot. extremely excited, dunno how i'll sleep tonight but i'm sure i'll get some rest. i've to drive tomorrow since i have the directions. gotta stop in madison for the kegs and to get the last of the groceries. it'll be a great weekend indeed! O0
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no, I've not posted pics on PH for a while now. eh. ::)
Good to hear everything is going well for you this summer. Though it was a disappointment, congrats on 3rd. I'm sure it was a good game.
Thankfully, camp is over and I'm taking it easy at the office for the next few weeks until I'm on vacay for the following two weeks! Yes!
Are you on vacation now or on your way?
New season will begin in 3 weeks. And I am excited again ;D We are going to try and win this year.
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Are you on vacation now or on your way?
New season will begin in 3 weeks. And I am excited again ;D We are going to try and win this year.
Hi pl! :wave: I've been on vacay since Thurs. last week. (got off right b4 my bday last week and I have off until after labor day). We're heading out for our lil trip tomorrow morning and will simply relax.
That's good that u guys r starting ur new season. Training hard eh? Hopefully the weather isn't that bad for training. The past week or so the weather has been great but the last day or two the weather has been insanely humid and hot. So I'm hoping it's not going to be too bad this weekend--for both u and I. Have a great season and bring home the gold! O0
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Hi pl! :wave: I've been on vacay since Thurs. last week. (got off right b4 my bday last week and I have off until after labor day). We're heading out for our lil trip tomorrow morning and will simply relax.
That's good that u guys r starting ur new season. Training hard eh? Hopefully the weather isn't that bad for training. The past week or so the weather has been great but the last day or two the weather has been insanely humid and hot. So I'm hoping it's not going to be too bad this weekend--for both u and I. Have a great season and bring home the gold! O0
We played through any kind of conditions, except lighting ;D
Have a great time! Take pics :)
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We played through any kind of conditions, except lighting ;D
Have a great time! Take pics :)
Yes, will do. Have fun and play hard! O0 :)
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Vacay is over and I'm back to the daily grind. *sigh* we're one man down now and there's going to be a lot of restructuring to do here in the office and most likely with the program as well. it'll be interesting how things change. I guess we'll just c where this all goes.
thinking of getting a second job. thankfully my boss here is looking to give me some more time to myself (don't get me wrong, she's not taking hours from me--she's simply lightening my load since she said I do too much). let's hope something pans out.
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If you are doing two jobs you will definitely be needing lots of coke and snickers ;D
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If you are doing two jobs you will definitely be needing lots of coke and snickers ;D
LOL Indeed, but no. No thanks to the coke and snickers. 8)
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sometimes i just giggle to myself....caus e i realize how dope i really am. bwwwaaahhhhaha hahahahahahah!!!!!!!! :2funny: :2funny: :2funny:
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y make a big deal out of it......can't ppl laugh about anything?
muuaaahhahahah aahahahahahah!!! ;D ;D ;D
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urgh, i should be sleeping but i'm wide awake.
thankfully tomorrow is friday. but got the SIL's sisters' wedding this weekend. so my weekend is pretty much planned out for me whether i like it or not. :-\
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Hi Lisa, staying awake? ;D
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Hi Lisa, staying awake? ;D
yes, i'm more awake today than I was yesterday.
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Great, wouldn't want to know you've return to coke and snickers for help? ;D
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Great, wouldn't want to know you've return to coke and snickers for help? ;D
no, i've put that past behind me now. it's tea and grapes for me today. O0
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Isn't that combo will lead you to the restroom fast ;D
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Isn't that combo will lead you to the restroom fast ;D
LOL the grapes are my snack for the morning....I had some yogurt too.
I'm drinking tea due to my cough.
i'm about to heat up my lunch....lefto vers from last nights dinner. yeah, tyring to be healthy but my gf n i went out for dinner and i got pasta...thankf ully i didn't eat a lot of it...but now it's lunch.
oddly, enough--i just came from the bathroom! LOL sorry, tmi. :P
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wow, i have to say i'm a little tickled. finding out quite a few things....and am intrigued. :)
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back to my usual work schedule now. i'm here at one of the local high schools...hone stly, sitting and doing nothing. Got my students' schedules and am waiting til lunch to "meet" them. I do this just about every day, each day at a different school with different students. Sometimes I don't mind seeing my kids and other times....I don't want to be there. Perhaps it's being in the building itself which makes me feel....awkwar d? ??? I can't put my finger on it quite yet then again, there are times when I feel like these kids could care less if I was here or not. No lie, some of these kids literally try to dodge and hide from me. Perhaps it's bc they don't want to "waste" time checking in with me and other times it's simply not wanting to spend their "free time" or study hall talking to me when they can be hanging out with their friends. *sigh* kids....no, teenagers. ::)
Thankfully, Tuesdays I don't have to go out to any of the schools. Its' my only office hour day which is when we have staff meetings or my one-on-one meetings with my boss. I'm actually very lucky and glad that my boss sees that I do a good job. Sometimes I do feel no one really notices what I do (or how exhausted I am from all the running around) but she tells me all the time that I need to take more time to myself and don't waste time on ppl or students who don't want to see me. Sometimes it's easier and better to pay more attention to the kids who deserve it and want it rather than the ones who "run" or are not wanting to participate in anything. It's easier said than done though bc many of the times the students who are "hiding" or running are the ones who need ur help the most--they just don't know how to reach out and ask for it or they are embarrassed about their situation and act out as their way of saying "help me". Regardless, I'm glad my boss acknowledges my work and is willing to have one of the two graduate assistants help me with advising and even taking over some tutoring supervision to lighten the load for me and the rest of the staff.
So with an adjusted schedule, I'm thinking I'm going to go and get a second job again. Yep, why not? I know I'll be busier than ever but girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do. 8)
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wow, totally caught off guard. ??? i don't even know what to say....for once i'm speechless. flattered and speechless.
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been eating quite healthy on the weekdays.....p roud of myself.
i was in the mood for hmong songs....class ic hmong songs today--so that's all i've been listening to. hope my fb friends don't mind all the music on their wall feed. sorry. 8)
gotta work this sat but eh, it's ok. just a few hours so i'm not sweating it. just gotta get some things done.
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yesterday was a sad sad sad day... :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'(
Matthew Stewart, I never thought this day would come. As much as I don't want it to be true--I know I can't change anything. I'm saddened to know you are gone. I'm saddened to know that we lost someone so great, so loving, so passionate for life and this world and the people in it, someone who has the biggest heart, and someone who has such a great spirit. I know there is so much you have envisioned for this community, the hmong community, the youth as well as the elders, for yourself and for your family, for Pi and her future. Though you're no longer here to give us your long pep talks we know that you will always be supporting us and now guiding us in spirit. May you be at peace until we talk again my friend.
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sitting here at work...well, in the school cafeteria...wa iting for my kids. it's been a slow morning (which I don't mind). I'm here for a few more hours and then back to the office I go. A few things to do yet today and then I can go home.
The weather is much cooler now which means fall is on it's way. I never really cared for fall as I luved summer but being that my body doesn't respond too well to the heat I rather have the cool breeze and temps. Just please, no snow yet. If we could have minimal snow this winter that would be great. But who am I kidding? I do live in the midwest and there's no way I can escape the humid summers as well as the frigid ice cold winters. To not have it would be a miracles. LOL But miracle can happen. ;) Yeah, yeah, I'm an idiot. 8)
Regardless, due to the nice weather today I think I'll go for a nice walk after work. Perhaps head to the riverside and walk around for a bit. If it's not too cold maybe I'll take my mat out and lie out and relax for a bit. We'll see.
It was rather awkward and nice at the same time last week. This girl I know--met her a few times and she's friends with a lot of other ppl I know, messaged me on FB asking if I was single. Turns out she had a friend who is single and to the point was wondering if I would be open to talking to him. Playing match-maker I guess. LOL Again, it was awkward, more so because we don't know each other that well so for her to think of me was kind of weird and nice at the same time. I was flattered and she had a few questions...od dly enough she said this friend of hers, like me, she didn't know all too well either. LOL I think she's just trying to investigate for both of us...however, I've yet to really hear anything. When in time it is right..it will happen--no worries.
Speaking of which, though I've been single for a while now--I actually don't mind it. OK, no one wants to be alone but being that most of the ppl in my circle r married or n long term relationships I see first-hand all the chaos and hiccups and possible headaches in their lives/relationships. Granted, no relationship is perfect or does not have a little chaos or hiccups, and in no way am I a perfect person or am perfect girlfriend material, however I'm OK with saving myself the headaches and chaos. Some ppl in my circle think I'm cutting my losses too soon or am way too picky. Others may say I don't put myself out there as I should be and there are others who simply feel I've "given up" on dating, men, relationships, and luv. Perhaps it's one of those and perhaps it's all of those--whatever they want to think. This is how I see it. I'm 32--young still (despite what hmong OGs say or think), I do enjoy my "freedom". Do I want to meet someone and share some of these adventures with? Most definitely. Am I picky? Though I like to say that I'm not, who wouldn't be? If you didn't care who you dated or wanted as a life partner then why am I not in a relationship right now then? Do ppl not put thought into who they want as a life partner? Did you just pick them out of a crowd or take the first person who walked by or you saw? Of course we care and have "standards" in what we are looking for. It's these standards in which we have and how realistic our standards are as well as how flexible we are with them that will possible determine the possibilities of being in a relationship. I luv meeting new ppl and luv to converse. I don't have problems making friends with the opposite sex....as we can see, I have plenty. However, as usual I'm always that "friend". Yes, always friend-zoned and never the girlfriend. In ways I'd rather it that way...as I feel I want to be able to have a friendship with my s/o not just a romantic relationship. However, in many cases then that may "back-fire" and getting out of the friend-zone is then not possible. Regardless, I am still me...still enjoying what life has to offer and if someone comes along the way wanting to get to know me and share some good quality time together then great. If not, it's not a big deal.
Anyway....it's time to head back to the office....and get some real work done. :D ;D :D ;D
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gosh, it's only tuesday. :-\
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I'll be honest....it's hard to move on when I see you everyday. as much as i try and want to move on u always end up bringing me back....simply by ur mere presence. *sigh*
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so we made a wager this weekend. i'll be honest i secretly hope he wins as i rather see him happy--which to me means i win just as well. (we won't tell him that.) BUT don't get me wrong, I'm not going down w/o a fight first, duh! So bring it on mang! 8)
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Yep, went out with my brother and our friend two weeks ago to the gun range for the first time. I've been waiting all summer to do this--I was so excited and scared at the same time! It was such a rush! I so want to go back and do it again...and maybe get myself a gun too! O0
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now the ball is rolling....and it's only going to go faster I feel.
better get ready then! 8)
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it's been interesting lately...but i've been bz.
yay, hmong new year is next weekend....i can say--I'm actually excited. saving money and just wearing what i have in my closet instead of blowing money off for no reason. can't wait to see everyone! O0
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yes, it's Monday and another week of work, work, work. thankfully i've friday off only to clean my room and the rest of the house as we are prepping for hmong new year this weekend. i've picked out what i'll be wearing...whic h hmong clothes on sat and what i'd be wearing fri night as well as sat night. i'm ready to mingle..uh huh! LOL ;D
things have been pretty ordinary as of late...nothing too interesting. work, home, eat, sleep--repeat for the next day.
i have 8 more hours of work today. Mondays r my 13 hr days. i rather not work that many on Mondays as no one is that productive on Mondays. However, it is what it is and i'll have to get through it somehow. blah! :P
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oddly, the more i try to forget....the more i remember and find myself falling all over again. *sigh* wtf mang!!!
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ppl just need to mind their own business. sheesh!!! ::)
anyway...my monday is almost over...almost.
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Been so tired today. urgh, it'll be a tough one to get through that's forsure.
all this hooplah with the h18c and dowry is getting cray cray. i'm not upset about the $600 however, I am more disappointed that they didn't get a woman's perspective or input. I'm also upset that they took it upon themselves to "do whatever so they pleased" w/o giving the hmong community a real and fair shot at understanding what they are doing and proposing. eh, then again, not everyone abides by or looks for h18c approval for everything. This also prompts thought into the function and purpose of h18c and its existence. Weren't they to help mediate and counsel conflicts instead of dictating or imposing their own personal (political) views?
anywho, it's almost friday....yay! I have tutoring tonight...anot her 9+ hours of work. yeah, so looking forward to it uh huh. Tomorrow we're taking a group of kids to UW-Stout. Yes, I have to drive....a 15p van. I so don't want to drive but I really don't have a choice. It's my boss and I both driving a van up. It'll be another long day. We're leaving at 6:30 and won't be back until 4:30! Luckily I won't have to work this weekend....wel l, not at work. But I do have to get up somewhat early to help my friend @ her parents house since they tau nyuj ua neeb. *sigh*
I have to report a hit and run. Someone must have backed up into the car and left a minor dent and a few scratches. My brother isn't too happy about it but being that I park in the parking lot all day while at work i have no clue who or how it happened. :( Stupid ppl though...don't know how to park let alone drive! >:(
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it most definitely was a long day on sat....came home and crashed for 4 hours! Sat was a long day as well but we had friends over to help "send off" a friend who is leaving to do his dissertation in laos for a year. it was a little bittersweet and sentimental after a good few shots in the system. toasting safe travels and good health to him and to friendship. LOL drunk idiots! :D
another monday....the month is just about over and pretty soon the year will be over just as well. wow, where did time go? ??? time really does go by so fast as you age huh?
this weekend i'm off to another college visit (this time I don't have to drive since we're taking a bus)--to Stevens Point. It'll be a long day but that's OK. I also have to work next weekend as well...just for a few hours on Sat. So that means I can shave off few hours in the week. eh, evens out.
heading to mn in three weeks for a friends bday. LOL those girls...."2nd chance prom" is the theme....thank fully I won't be going alone--but he's not my date. at least, i don't think we're going as dates........r we? ???
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choices....yes, a few choices i've got for turkey day.
a few choices in what to wear to my friends' bday party...
a few choices in treating a friend to dinner since i lost the bet.
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it's hard...he called yesterday and since i was at work i couldn't pick up. i listened to the voicemail later and though he's in town and i should go see him--i really feel indifferent about it. i know i should go but part of me is still very angry, bitter, sad, and hurt. it will be very awkward and it will be very forced and i don't like doing anything that makes me feel awkward nor forced....it's not genuine.
sorry if it means or implies that i'm being petty, disrespectful, mean, or even stubborn. i'm just not ready to see u. sorry.
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ordered my dress for next week...it's so pretty! Can't wait to get it!
i've been really sore lately....I think I need to stretch let alone a bunch of other things.
work has been OK....every week there's something on the weekends....th is weekend is our monthly sat event--programming for the kids--career day this month.
next week we'll be heading to UW-GreenBay. Yes, another college visit. We'll be staying over night....as long as I don't have to drive I'm OK with that.
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urgh, work this weekend. ::)
i'm just counting the days til next weekend. then i get to party with my girls.....and enjoy some qt w someone.
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So applications for grad school are open for submission on Friday. I totally forgot and just saw the notice today. I realize if I don't do it now I'll never do it. I really don't want to go back to school but realize that i must if i want to advance in my professional career. it's also demonstrating and setting an example to my students.
of everything i need to get my essay together think about what i want to write about. urgh! i really don't want to do it...but i need to think about the big picture and stop making excuses. this means i can't teach this summer....awww ...no more chinese class since my (online) classes start this summer. well, maybe i can still teach--we'll see.
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what a weekend!
hung out with an awesome gal....buildin g friendships... relationships. ..no matter what, all relationships in the beginning are always exciting and fun!
trying to maintain other relationships most def take work....nrg, and time. some may be frustrating, confusing, and make u contemplate what friendship really means while others help you learn about not just urself but about how amazing and truly inspiring ppl can be.
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started my grad school application. now i've got to get my references and start on my essay. sadly, i've no idea what i'm going to write about. i feel everything i come up with is not good enough of a topic. urgh! ::)
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luvylisa....gl ad to hear you are returning to grad school O0
I thank you for your time and dedication to those students. You are awesome O0
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luvylisa....glad to hear you are returning to grad school O0
I thank you for your time and dedication to those students. You are awesome O0
thanks. :)
uhmm....sorry but thanks to all the chaos with work my memory is totally shot. but do i know u? jw.
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uhmm....sorry but thanks to all the chaos with work my memory is totally shot. but do i know u? jw.
No you don't know me silly.....I normally just stalk your food pictures ;D
I just appreciate the work that you do because I am a parent and happy to know there are passionate folks like you out there.
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No you don't know me silly.....I normally just stalk your food pictures ;D
I just appreciate the work that you do because I am a parent and happy to know there are passionate folks like you out there.
OK, I knew I didn't know you (personally). It's all good. Yeah my food pics....
Awww....thanks for the kind words. It's fun and all but quite stressful too when kids don't listen or even parents who are just as stubborn or better yet, think we're miracle workers. Regardless, I do enjoy what I do. After grad school I dunno if I'll stay here but I know I'll forever will be working with youth in some way.
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just another day of work this week and then I'm off for the whole week! Yes!!!
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Wow mom r u kidding me? So the other day while we were sitting around the dinning table eating my mom goes...."koj yeej ib txwm muaj lub tias ntawm koj sab phlu lod? thaum twg nws ho zoo li ntawd lawm na?" I literally stopped eating and was both sad and upset and looked at my brother who just gave me a weird look and my SIL kind of chuckled. "Oyo ma, kuv yeej ib txwm muaj lub tias no na. Txij li thaum kuv me yeej nyob nod na!"
Talks as if she wasn't my mom dang! This mom of mine--makes me wonder at times.
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yay, all done with my xmas shopping. just a few more things to wrap....but at least i got around to putting up the tree. i have to say one my fav things about this time of year...wrappin g presents. i dunno y...but i love wrapping gifts.
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sending out my xmas cards! yay! I like how they turned out this year. O0
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work potluck today...stuffe d!
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can't wait for xmas and vacation...jus t want some time to myself.
need to get my graduate school application done and submitted. *sigh* yep.
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meetings, meetings, meetings, and more meetings today. so ready for the day to be over with.
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y can't it be friday already? i'm so bored here at work...and even finding something to do is hard. well, actually not hard...just don't want to do anything either. *deep sigh*
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been on vacation and haven't been doing anything. oh well.
going to be ringing in the new year tomorrow night....it'll be fun i'm sure.
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Good morning Lisa. Happy new year :)
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Good morning Lisa. Happy new year :)
changed ur nick again?
Yes it'll b a nice n fun new years--stayin in here at the house w the crew. What u guys doing? May 2014 b a blessed n happy year for u! Enjoy!
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I am one who is true to my feelings and true to my <3 but...
Although, it's been fun no more guessing games. I'm better than that. It's time i fight for myself n for my happiness--n sadly ur not part of it. These doors will lead me to new opportunities n things that won't make my <3 cry.
I am not one to ever force things upon anyone but y deny myself what i deserve? W a new year i will look forward to what i have n what will (want to) come my way. All these things...there's nothing but disappointment so no point n pretending. No more being nice. U don't deserve my time nor patience.
FYI, I'm not dumb. I'm only dumb bc i let my emotions get the best of me. Sadly it took this long for me to FINALLY realize....ur just like the rest of them no matter how hard I tried to make excuses or wanted to see u in a different light.
Thank u for teaching me that a <3 of gold is something ppl don't care for. I'll take it else where. kthnxbye.
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I wouldn't say that this new year is off to a bad start. I most def said it'd be about change. This time, I'm serious about my heart and I no longer want to be that girl who gets pushed off to the side nor the nice girl who lets herself get hurt. There's no point in hoping for something which will never happen. It's one thing when u don't know how I feel it's another when u know and right after teasing my heart I see u w her doing the same. I'm not stupid. I'm maybe stupid for letting myself get here and letting u control my emotions like u do. I admit, I very much adore u and will most likely still get the school girl feeling when u r around. However, my heart may cry every now and then I'd rather it sing....sing with someone and for someone who is willing to sing with me.
So this new year--I will take a step...one at a time distancing myself from you and opening new doors which await me. no more looking out for others when all this time they never looked out for me nor considered my feelings.
*sigh* It'll be hard but this is the best thing I can do for my heart and my soul.
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(((HUGS))) to you luvly :) I hope 2014 brings forth someone who can sing the song to your heart without asking you for the words :)
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(((HUGS))) to you luvly :) I hope 2014 brings forth someone who can sing the song to your heart without asking you for the words :)
awww, thnx. Appreciate it. I hope i may find someone but right now i just want to sing a merry song n go on my way. 8)
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it's OK to sit and reminiscence but it's not OK to relive the past....it's the past for a reason--it's not the present nor will it ever be ur future again. remember what it once was and know that it only is to make u a better person who will only stand firmer, live stronger, and luv even harder. turn back around and look on to the path ahead--it may be lonely but it will most definitely lead to great things. and then one day you will look back and be glad that u didn't turn and run away from what was awaiting u. stay strong and know with strife and struggles eventually comes happiness. u'll taste the sweetness after tasting the bitterness and sourness--it'll be worth it.
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been up all night...didn't even go to bed. running on three hours of sleep from the previous night. even i am surprised i'm not falling asleep as i'm typing.
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luvlylisa, you remind me of myself when I was in my 20's...although, I have no idea what your age is.
I'm glad that you've discovered your true strength in relationships (whether it be with a guy, family, or friends). It is after the pain that we find our direction. Wishing you a happy new beginning in 2014.
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luvlylisa, you remind me of myself when I was in my 20's...although, I have no idea what your age is.
I'm glad that you've discovered your true strength in relationships (whether it be with a guy, family, or friends). It is after the pain that we find our direction. Wishing you a happy new beginning in 2014.
thanks moonangel. if only i could still be in my 20's. *sigh* but I'm actually in my early 30s. i've not been sheltered though i've gone through a bit i have not been through a lot perhaps that's w caution or other reasons but yes, relationships no matter what age is quite the learning experience.
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Yay! Way to turn the start of my year around! O0 I just submitted my grad school app! Unfortunately, I won't hear anything until another month or so though. I'm ready for new things and ready to find and discover a new me. Yes, let's go! :)
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all this time....everyo ne knew and no one told me. all bc they didn't want to hurt my feelings. really? so instead u all sat around and let me make a fool of myself....laug h at me as if i was a joke........le t my heart get pulled back and forth with by these strings and no one wanted to say a word? wow, i have the greatest of friends. thanks. :'( thanks a lot! >:(
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Lisa, new year new friends?
Good morning.
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Lisa, new year new friends?
Good morning.
yea, widening...exp anding this circle of mine.
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Luvly I've been there....it's very sad and mean of your 'friends'. Keep your head high and make new friends O0
I've hurt the feelings of my friends before....beca use I'm their true friend and they needed to hear it even when it hurts. I believe friends are the ones who are still there through unpleasantness and honesty...
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Luvly I've been there....it's very sad and mean of your 'friends'. Keep your head high and make new friends O0
I've hurt the feelings of my friends before....beca use I'm their true friend and they needed to hear it even when it hurts. I believe friends are the ones who are still there through unpleasantness and honesty...
yes. I am a very honest person--even if it means it may sting a little. I rather my friend hear it from me than from a stranger or have her/him come back to me and ask me why i never told them. Why would I want them to be a fool or a joke? I would only expect my friends to do the same. But I guess not everyone thinks the same nor sees friendship the same. So can I blame them? Not entirely. But it still hurts knowing that all this time they knew that I'd end up getting hurt and instead of being honest w me they wanted me to "feel it out" and digest whatever feelings and emotions I was having or going through. Hello! Do you not see me stressed and frustrated? Do I not come and unravel myself in front of u and tell u my pain and cry tears of confusion. If you know you could slap some sense into me and tell me not what i want to hear but what i needed to hear and tell me the truth--even if it meant I'd be upset and cry even more--why bother to hide it from me and have me be a sad puppy and have such high hopes of something that was never going to happen? WTF? Instead every day when I make a fool out of myself and end up crying to myself all those around who were very aware of the "situation" simply just watched me and laughed at me the whole time. Wow, and yet you all tell me that ur my friend and am there for me--that u have my back. My back in what? U have my back in making me look like a fool? There's one thing to letting ppl learn life lessons and there's another thing when u know they're blind and totally getting screwed. ::)
now, I am not blaming anyone for my actions or the result in this relationship or lack there of of one. I know and totally take responsibility to my acts, words, patience, and doing whatsoever. In ways I let things happen to me as well--understood and acceptable. But knowing that this all could have been avoided and these past years could have been something else. *sigh*
could of, should of, would of.......but no point now--it's all a memory now.
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Yay, just one more thing to do and then I can breath a little more knowing that my grad school application is completely done. I'm excited and nervous--apprehensive all together. Will I get in? I don't know. I wasn't the greatest student in college as my sophomore and junior year I was struggling with a lot at home and personally which made school the last thing on my mind which then affected my GPA immensely. Despite that, at least I never dropped out but kept trucking along. I'm ready for something new and this time doing something for myself--to better myself.
on another note....damn this winter weather! I'm ready for sandals, shorts, and t-shirts! yes, I'm already thinking about summer. 8)
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luvlylisa, that's great you got the application in! I wasn't the greatest undergrad either but I was able to get into a master's program (although I only went one year and stopped), so I know you'll do fine. :)
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luvlylisa, that's great you got the application in! I wasn't the greatest undergrad either but I was able to get into a master's program (although I only went one year and stopped), so I know you'll do fine. :)
Thanks.
Yeah, professionally, I'm at a place where I feel I need to "up my game" thus going back to school if I want something "better". It's exciting but knowing that I'll have a ton of reading to do and more long papers-urgh, I'm dreading that. I have yet to get my essay in though--that's the last of the application process I've yet to do. Having a few ppl revise it before I send it in. I most likely won't hear until the end of February or March. I'm just hoping things will work out since my program won't start until summer and I have summer camp so there needs to be some kind of balance.
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I C. I know what you mean by upping your game. That will be a great investment...t he master's degree.
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I C. I know what you mean by upping your game. That will be a great investment...t he master's degree.
Yes it surely is. At times I wish I shouldn't have waited so long but it's OK.
Luckily, my boss is very understanding and supportive. We've even discussed the possibility of "other" things for me--but I've a while until I am done so it's all talk for now.
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Yes, I am FINALLY done! Just submitted the last part of my application. Now it's simply a waiting game. 8)
Had quite the conversation last night.. So I'm still upset--I feel I have every right to be. I know she thinks I'm bitter and feels I should be more light hearted about the 'situation'. Whatever. ::) I know I am someone who is very emotional-yes. But I am also someone who is genuine and sincere in my kindness, luv, and generosity. Do I regret anything I say or do bc of that? No. Bc it's from my heart. So yes, that means I "put" myself in a place where I can be vulnerable and may most likely get taken for granted or hurt. But that doesn't mean that ppl should still do whatever their heart pleases simply bc i'm willing to put myself in that situation. ur no better then I....what makes u think u can do whatever u want n then tell me i did this to myself. i will accept responsibility in putting myself self here and as naive as it may make me u sound more pathetic when u tell me that u knew but still did what u did--despite knowing that i'd still end up hurt, crying, and upset.
I just don't understand y ppl simply can't be honest? ??? ::) I'm honest w ppl--even if that honesty stings a little. No, I don't look to make ppl feel bad but I am not going to let them think otherwise either. What kind of a friend is that?
anyway.....i need new friends....sin gle friends please. ;D O0
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Yes, I am FINALLY done! Just submitted the last part of my application. Now it's simply a waiting game. 8)
Had quite the conversation last night.. So I'm still upset--I feel I have every right to be. I know she thinks I'm bitter and feels I should be more light hearted about the 'situation'. Whatever. ::) I know I am someone who is very emotional-yes. But I am also someone who is genuine and sincere in my kindness, luv, and generosity. Do I regret anything I say or do bc of that? No. Bc it's from my heart. So yes, that means I "put" myself in a place where I can be vulnerable and may most likely get taken for granted or hurt. But that doesn't mean that ppl should still do whatever their heart pleases simply bc i'm willing to put myself in that situation. ur no better then I....what makes u think u can do whatever u want n then tell me i did this to myself. i will accept responsibility in putting myself self here and as naive as it may make me u sound more pathetic when u tell me that u knew but still did what u did--despite knowing that i'd still end up hurt, crying, and upset.
I just don't understand y ppl simply can't be honest? ??? ::) I'm honest w ppl--even if that honesty stings a little. No, I don't look to make ppl feel bad but I am not going to let them think otherwise either. What kind of a friend is that?
anyway.....i need new friends....sin gle friends please. ;D O0
Here's a BIG SUPER TIGHT HUG followed by some comforting squeezes! Sorry to hear about everything. I've been pondering the same questions. The only answer I can come up with....they're not ready for greatness! O0
PM me anytime if you ever need anything. :) Congrats on getting that application in. Keeping my fingers and toes crossed for you!
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Here's a BIG SUPER TIGHT HUG followed by some comforting squeezes! Sorry to hear about everything. I've been pondering the same questions. The only answer I can come up with....they're not ready for greatness! O0
PM me anytime if you ever need anything. :) Congrats on getting that application in. Keeping my fingers and toes crossed for you!
Awww thanks. I appreciate it. :)
No offense....but do I know u? ??? Sorry if I have lost my mind and have forgotten.
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yes, I can most definitely handle the truth. I'm not upset that I didn't "win". That was already a reality that I knew would be a possible outcome--so the tears and frustration is not bc I didn't "win"! I'm more upset that I was made to look like the fool......that these friends who were trying to protect me ended up hurting me instead. Again, I know I'm a big girl and I can and did make my own choices and decisions. However, again, if you knew the whole time that my wishful thinking was indeed "all in my head" then why let me sit on cloud 9 hoping, thinking, wishing for nothing but complete disappointment? Perhaps the result would still be the same--I'd still end up hurt. However, why have me waste my time.....years, believing something that may have been fabricated? If you really cared, instead of going around the issue or trying to lightly sugar-coat everything and even tell me what i wanted to hear instead of what I should be hearing simply to save me from crying--oh pluh--ease!!! ::) I'm an emotional idiot...I cry when I'm happy, sad, joyous, or depressed! It's inevitable. I just would have appreciated it if ppl just be honest with me....slap me silly and tell me the truth even if it means hurting my feelings and being harsh. I'd rather hear it from you than from some stranger or see things literally unravel in front of me.
*sigh* This is all turning into something I didn't want. Granted I didn't know it would get like this but at the end of the day....I know I'm a strong person and I'll get through it--whether it be alone or not. I know once I get over this wall I'll be OK and the bitterness will evaporate and we'll all be on the same playing ground. However, right now I'm sitting on top of the jungle gym and I'm not coming down for a while....nor do I want you to come up here and sit nor play with me. I want to be alone and look up at the clouds....gaze into them and pretend I'm flying...jumpi ng from cloud to cloud where I can be free and feel safe. When I'm ready I'll come down and we can all laugh and even cry together as we once did--but for now play amongst yourselves please.
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my cousin wrote me again. it's always nice getting snail mail. as convenient as the internet is it's just not as personable.
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woke up yesterday morning and realized i don't want to waste anymore energy being upset when i don't have to. so let it all go. it surely has made sleeping a lot better for the last few nights. thank goodness!
yes, time to move on.
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OMG, been sleeping so well this week. it really soothes the soul (and mind) when u let things go. i haven't been sleeping this good in a long time. :)
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so glad it's friday today..... O0
it's been a productive day but damn, it's so boring. I have about two more hours today and yet i haven't a clue what i'll do. maybe i'll clean and re-organize my office. better than sitting here and slowly falling asleep at my desk! LOL :D
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yay, my hmong scarves came in today. luv them! O0
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I wasn't aware that he was invited over this evening however it wasn't the first time since i saw him new years eve. I saw him yesterday for the first time. Yes, I knew he'd be there but when you're friends with the same circle of ppl it's inevitable that we'd see each other or be amongst each other. To keep it short....we didn't really talk to each other at all. I really didn't know how I'd react or be or say or do when I was to see him next. I knew I wouldn't lash out on him. However, I really don't want to put myself in a place where I'd just end up following him around like a lost puppy--yet again, NO! So I kept my distance as I'm sure he sensed something and kept his. I couldn't even look at him bc I knew if I did I'd breakdown or melt. *sigh* He left earlier than others and I didn't even know it--so I'm guess I'm doing well. I'm sure everyone was wondering "how I'd take it" or "handle" seeing him. I think I did well.
When he came over tonight it was a little awkward but we were watching the game and I was preoccupied on my laptop doing some stuff. I wasn't really paying too much attention to him or spoke in general. It's not like he came over to see me anyway.
So it's still a process....I'm still processing. I'm no longer upset. I'm just trucking along. I'm not going out of my way anymore--there's no point--especially when ppl don't appreciate it. I am still that nice girl, that friend, but that's all I can and am willing to be.
Sleep has been great lately! So glad I am able to get some--good sleep--u know, the kind when you wake up in the morning and you actually know you were dead asleep as if you were sleeping on clouds!
I've also been rather sore lately. My lower back and especially my neck! Though I've been sleeping really well maybe it's how I'm sleeping that my neck is so. It's so sore and tense I can't even turn my neck.
Had a series of odd dreams this morning. Yes, strange but not crazy.
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got the day off today...so what am i going to do?
staying in today. all this snow ::) not feeling it one bit.
gonna do my nails and finish my travel blog. I've been putting it off but need to finish it.
can u believe we've only another week and we'll be a month into the new year already? time surely seems to be going by faster as we age.
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OMG, i'm so hungry it's not even funny.....but i've got laundry to do too. :-\
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Yay, just got an email saying everything is complete...now we wait (not that I wasn't already).
Hoping to get my taxes filed by this weekend. Yay, nothing crazy imma do. Just pay off some bills.
The bestie is making khob poob and extended an invite. I LUV me some khob poob! O0
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stayed in all weekend. i didn't even go in on friday. my throat has been a bit sore and dry lately. it doesn't hurt per se and my voice surprisingly is still in tact. but i know it's not "normal". not to mention my nose. it's dry one moment and then it's running the next! in addition to the crazy breakouts i've been having. I have two cyst-like pimples on the right side of my jaw and one on the left side and two small zits on my chin let alone the humongous pimple on top of another pimple on of course--none other than my NOSE! Oh, and a small pimple right next to it as well as a minor one on the left nostril! WTF mang! I know it's stress and due to hormones but dang, can't a sister catch a break? I'm so bad too--I am a picker (i blame it on my minor OCD) so I can't keep my fingers away. Awk! Ance scars are no stranger to me. Sad, but true. What's more sad is that my nose always breaks out like that! I exfoliate and cleanse my face every other day. I have combo skin but my pores (especially around my nose) are huge! I don't know what to do! Most of the year I look like rudolph mang! It's not funny nor is it pretty! :-\ I don't wear makeup every day either--only on "special" occasions. However, when I have rudolph nose I cover it like crazy with concealer and foundation...b ut it's never to my satisfaction.
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it's not as cold today, thank goodness. yesterday two of the cars died...had to jump them both.
students r back on campus and it's back to the usual daily grind now. we start tutoring next week so i'll be back to my 12 hr shifts. ::)
i just realized that i won't hear anything until April now about grad school. urgh!
hoping to pick up my taxes on friday. i'm also hoping that i'll get around the figures that i had estimated when i calculated them myself. next year i'll just do it myself.
a few things to decide on in the next months. decisions, decisions, decisions.
gotta pick up some things for chinese new year this weekend. i never have celebrated it but figured i can do a little celebrating... .well, i'll make dumplings at least and maybe some steamed buns too. we'll see.
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OMG! Yes, I know I am here to help these kids of mine but really? REALLY!?!?! This kid had the audacity to tell me that he shouldn't have to do anything and it was MY responsibility to do this (print off his ACT registration ticket) for him. R u kidding me?!?! I, of course, reminded him POLITELY that it may be my job to help him but it is also my job to help them to be more independent and self-sufficient in order to be successful (in the future).
Whah, my gawd! How unappreciative mang!
He expects me to print it off for him and bring it to him when I'm at his school on Monday (or drop it off for him--you know, whatever will "work" for me). It's not like he couldn't print it off himself. And of course he couldn't then bc he didn't have his login info which HE forgot to write down but luckily gave to our director. Even though she told the students that we'd be able to print their tickets for them the fact that he acted as if my soul purpose was to "serve" him and he didn't have to do anything as he put it "it was MY job to do A, B, C, & D for him". He even said that he shouldn't have had to ask me that I should just know that I was suppose to do that for him--wow, aren't we just so entitled here? Dayem!
Yeah we can't save everyone and there will be those who will fall through the cracks even when they have the support around them. It's one thing when u have so many obstacles in your way or are facing all sorts of adversity but it's another when you're just plain lazy and feel you deserve things just for the mere fact of existing.
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I'm excited for you in April :)
As a parent myself - don't cater to that child. He sounds like he needs a good crackin on the head from his parents....pla in laziness!
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I'm excited for you in April :)
As a parent myself - don't cater to that child. He sounds like he needs a good crackin on the head from his parents....pla in laziness!
Thanks! I am little disappointed that I will have to wait so long (as classes start in May!) to find out. I'm hoping I can just get in w/o having the interview (considering may of the faculty and staff already know me--but that's wishful thinking).
Yes, I should just back off on the kid and let his mom take care of it. However, from the conversations I've had w mom she somewhat makes excuses for him even though she knows it's his responsibility . ::) (Dad's not in the picture.)
Considering that our funding is based on how successful our kids are we can't risk anyone "failing". However, there does come a point where no matter what we do we have to accept the fact that some kids--you really can't help them no matter how much you try or want to. Sadly, they will only find out the hard way. I just wish it wasn't at the risk of messing it up for all others as well.
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urgh....been so tired these past two days!
we're back to our usual schedule which means longer hours for me...well, monday at least. thankfully today is a slower day at the office--just a few meetings.
been eating leftovers from superbowl sunday. we made a lot of food even though we didn't have that many ppl over. took all day for me to finish making my dumplings, sesame balls, and steamed buns but it was well worth it. O0
vday dinner is set. no new dress for me this year--let's try to save some money.
taxes are filed and sent. hoping i'll get my refund in a few weeks. :)
we're no longer going to philly for labor day this year as my sis called n said she'd be coming here now for a friends' wedding. hrrrmmmm, but i could still go somewhere if i really wanted to. we'll see.
been seriously thinking about getting my own place but considering that i don't have a car let alone it's not in my budget just yet i should wait. some days though....u just get that feeling that u shouldn't be there. :-\
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i got a surprising email from a friend last night. this friend was once my bff in high school and most of college. i'll be honest, i miss this dear friend and from time to time i miss the friendship we shared. no one knew me better and no one i knew better than my friend. but with time, we drifted apart and as life took us both on a different course we slowly became partial strangers. we are also at different stages in our lives which makes hanging out rather difficult as well (not to mention that we don't live blocks apart now). do i wish we were still close? sure. do i wish we made time for one another? yes. do i wish we included each other more in our lives? most def. will we? sadly, I think not. though the intent of maintaining a good friendship is most def. there the reality is it hasn't happened and it most likely won't.
when i was young and even a few years ago i always opposed the idea that men and women could not be friends. i knew very well from my own experiences that men and women CAN be friends. however, as i got older i find that idea very hard to swallow and believe. many of my friends who are guys (especially those who i was very close to) i am like a distant stranger almost. then again, many are married with kids. those who are single or divorced this does not apply to as i hang out with them and see them therefore there's no awkwardness. however, those who are married w/ family usually drift apart...as they attend to their marriage and soon to be family as well as their careers as I am to my career and life. one can say it's distance but we all know that me being woman, though a friend, one has to respect each other and respect their marriage and "step back". I'm no longer the "woman" in his life--even though it was strictly platonic. As much as he was the "man" in my life--again, strictly platonic--he is now someone elses' man...and their life. several times i've had my bffs' s/o's reach out to me (even while they were dating) and for the most part I've never had problems with their gfs. i want my friend(s) happy...and as long as he's happy w u--there's no problem. I stay in my "place" and support him when necessary. Even so, several bffs have told me after they break up with their gfs their girls liked me and didn't have problems with me personally--but they didn't like that I was that "other girl".
those who have gotten married i most def steer clear of crossing any lines or boundaries as I know and respect their relationship. Most of the time if I see these former bffs it's at family functions or community events--we address each other as I the couple/family altogether. I've even had a bffs' newly-wedded wife invited me out on a family camping trip and suggested that the bff and i go out a week prior to hang out and get some "alone" time. ??? I was confused and felt rather awkward. I of course said that though it would be nice to go since it was a family trip that it was not necessary for me to go let alone go out a week prior with my friend. I told here we have had numerous opportunities to hang out and can hang out anytime with him. Hrrmmm....I felt she was testing me as she had emailed me after a few months of dating and prior to getting married "informing" me that she was well aware and OK with our relationship--that I was his bff and to not feel I could not come around. Again, like I did later with the camping suggestion, I assured her that we indeed had known each other for years but knowing how much she meant to him I knew where I stood with him and knew that their relationship was also very important to him. When and if we decide to hang out that would happen when avail but they should have time to themselves and their relationship as again, I knew he and I can hang out any time if we wanted to. Kind of a "yes, thank you. no, thank you. carry on, I'm ok. Do you. It's no big deal." of a thing. Eh.
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guess my throat cleared up--thank goodness.
the weekend was pretty low-key. i didn't do anything. i must have been really tired on friday and took a 2 hr nap (6-8) which made me wide awake the rest of the night. spent the next hours up watching kdrama. i was alone all of sat and spent the day sleeping in but lounging in my room. got a chance to talk to a gf of mine. it's been a while since we last hung out let alone spoke ot each other. it was a good and productive conversation. she always knows what to say and is honest with me--even if it stings a little. I know that I can always count on her--sometimes even when I don't want to. LOL :D
did my nails...they're "valentine" themed. u know, shades of pink and hearts. eh, they're cute...and I'm not that creative nor talented. i just like doing them...it's thearaputic for me anyway.
a ton of meetings this week so i know i'll be feeling like i'm all over the place and i most likely will be. eh--that's life.
i still have to get stuff ready for our girls vday dinner this sat. treats, treats, treats. knowing that my fed refund will be in by then i can afford to splurge just a lil bit...but not get carried away. can't wait! O0
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it's my sis' bday on Monday....orde red some flowers to be delivered to her. Hope they don't get a ton of snow over the weekend otherwise she might not get them. :-\
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was my sis' bday yesterday and sent her a bouquet of flowers (some lavender roses, mums, and lilies I think). It was a little sad that that was all she gotten on her bday--but i did my part.
i've been very antsy lately. I'm not sure y. maybe antsy isn't the right word. just feel like i need to do something or should do something--something fun and/or different or whatever....bu t i dunno. it's as if my mind, body, soul can't sit still and is not content. i feel like i'm missing something or i should be doing something--but i just can't put a finger on it. doh!
things are getting better. i'm starting to come around and though i've let it go--little things still get to me. but i do have to say my heart is in a better place. thank lawd! :D
i can't wait til all this snow is gone! we got at least 3-4 maybe 5 inches yesterday! it was snowing pretty heavy and the snowflakes were huge! everyone was driving super slow--as they should be--but there were still crazy accidents! i have to remember to put a new headlight in--i don't want to get pulled over.
the bff and i r thinking this is the year to go on r cruise we've been talking forever about. this time i feel it's going to happen and it won't be all talk. i'm so ready!
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yeah haven't been in there for a while now....just busy and well, it's been boring here. nuff said.
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OMG, so the other day after work I went to pick up nyab so we could go get our gym memberships. I spotted these two dogs out of the corner of my left eye and somewhat slowed down (just in case as they were slowly jogging along and wasn't sure if I saw their owner let alone leashes. I think they were pointer dogs...one was a little bigger than the other--the big one was maybe up to my waist on all fours). As I kept driving down the road I saw that they came out of the huge arse snow pile on the sidewalk and ran into the street. I swerved the car to the right and braked like crazy however, there was a parked car on my right in front of me. I didn't want to hit the dogs and I didn't want to hit the car! OMG, OMG, OMG! I panicked I didn't even know what to do but hold my breath hoping the dogs would stop and turn around! The car behind me honked it's horn and the big dog stopped right in time--he was so close that his nose was literally inches away from my side mirror (I actually thought I had ran over his toes if anything). I heard the lady in the car behind me yell and shoo the dogs away. I about died right there. Patting my heart and breathing deeply I slowly put the car back in gear and went on my way looking back to see where the dogs went or if their owner came out. No such thing. I did see all the over cars trying to slowly go around them. Whew! Good thing I slowed down when I saw them out of the corner of my eye!
Dog owners! Please keep your dogs on a leash or in your yard (hopefully it's fenced). It's dangerous for everyone if they are running loose.
And that damn snow! Mr. Sun...melt that sh*t please!
On a different note....Urgh, I like cheese but cheesy lines and cheesy guys. ::) ::) ::)
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i swear some ppl can't take the hint mang. just bc i'm nice doesn't mean that i like u. ::) if that was really the case i'd not be single then, right? damn, i'd be a slut! ;D ;D ;D BUT I'm not. 8)
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trolls....i c someone is viewing my profile. hrrrrmmmmm.... whachu wannna know? u could simply ask ya know. ::)
eh...haven't been on ph much these days....it's just not the same anymore.
i've been keeping myself bz this year and have been distancing myself from ppl n things who bring me down. some may think or say i'm being rude or even b|tchy. however, for so long i've always considered what ppl had to say or felt and sacrificed my happiness let alone feelings for the sake of others. i'm at a place now where i am slowly learning to put my foot down and really execute on what i want to do. because in all reality, no one else is going to go out of their way to consider my feelings or considered what makes me happy. so if u don't like it--well, u don't have to--i'm not asking for ppl to understand it, like it, or accept it--heck, I'm not asking for anything.
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I understand you. Go for it LUVLYLISA! After all you are the luvly of them all.
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:hello: :hello: :hello: :hello: :hello: :smileinbox: :smileinbox: :smileinbox: :toothy2: :toothy4: :toothy4:
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I understand you. Go for it LUVLYLISA! After all you are the luvly of them all.
:hello: :hello: :hello: :hello: :hello: :smileinbox: :smileinbox: :smileinbox: :toothy2: :toothy4: :toothy4:
thanks wisg! :) i really appreciate it.
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I was shocked and scared when I got a text/call yesterday informing me that a good friend had a heart attack. I sat all day at the office wondering how she was doing. I finally got in touch with her sister who confirmed that she had to get a stint put in--that one of her main arteries was blocked. She was lucky that she got to the hospital in time. She's 32 and was told that she is the youngest case (here in town at least) to a heart patient. She was discharged from the hospital after 48 hours. I went to see her yesterday and though we all were laughing and reminiscing about our younger years in college I know in a few days it'll hit her. Regardless, I'm so happy to see that she is OK.
Life...can't take it for granted and if you really want to live it out you must do all that you can to make sure you live healthy to see it to the end.
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I was shocked and scared when I got a text/call yesterday informing me that a good friend had a heart attack. I sat all day at the office wondering how she was doing. I finally got in touch with her sister who confirmed that she had to get a stint put in--that one of her main arteries was blocked. She was lucky that she got to the hospital in time. She's 32 and was told that she is the youngest case (here in town at least) to a heart patient. She was discharged from the hospital after 48 hours. I went to see her yesterday and though we all were laughing and reminiscing about our younger years in college I know in a few days it'll hit her. Regardless, I'm so happy to see that she is OK.
Life...can't take it for granted and if you really want to live it out you must do all that you can to make sure you live healthy to see it to the end.
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Hi, luvlylisa! WOW...that is very young to have a heart attack. I'm glad to hear she's okay. I wish her a speedy recovery and no future set-backs. :)
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Hi, luvlylisa! WOW...that is very young to have a heart attack. I'm glad to hear she's okay. I wish her a speedy recovery and no future set-backs. :)
Her older brother WAS the youngest...he had his at 36. She comes from a family with heart conditions and other health problems. Mom passed away last year after her stroke; dad had his stroke before mom but made it though lives every day heart broken w/o his wife....they're also diabetic, high blood pressure and high cholesterol as well.
sometimes we can't escape it but we should try our best to not let it get the best of us.
i know i'm working on my health as well.
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so it's been almost three weeks since I got my gym membership. I go at least 2-3 times a week (yeah, I should be going everyday--I know) and though the numbers aren't coming off right away i have noticed that my endurance is getting better. I'm so proud of myself. Gotta do this in order to be a healthier me. I need it and i'm proud of myself for making and taking the time to focus more on myself. No one else to blame and no one else to do this but me. I know I'll never be a skinny girl nor do i want to be. As I've been saying....just healthy enough so I'm not panting like crazy after a flight of stairs. By December I'd like to get down to a size 16 at the least. As I told my nyab...I want to lose the weight but I want to be realistic. It's not that it's not possible but to think that I'd be a size 10 or even 8 by summer is a joke. It's OK if she wants to set those goals but being realistic I know 1-I can do it and 2-I won't be disappointed. Besides I want to lose it healthy not a ton at once...otherwi se I would have opted for surgery.
So yes, let's do this--the sweat is on! O0
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You can do it Luvly....one step, one day at a time O0
btw did you hear back about your application?
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You can do it Luvly....one step, one day at a time O0
btw did you hear back about your application?
thanks it's much appreciated! :)
Urgh, no. Have not heard from grad school--not il April. I'm hoping they mean the beginning of April n not the middle or end since we start n May. ::)
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wasn't feeling like hitting the gym yesterday--I so wanted to make a left turn and head home after work but the more i thought about it i made a right turn and headed to the gym. no one in this but me, right? once i was there I was good. that's always the hard part--getting there. once i'm there i'm always good about staying at least an hour and getting my sweat on.
today's been a slow and somewhat productive day at the office. i've been here all day by myself since the boss is out with meningitis and the assistant director was out all day until now.
anyway, back to reviewing scholarship applicants for the committee and then i can finally go home and start my weekend! O0
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You know what is interesting? The fact that you didn't know which path to take and you took the route to the gym. I called it the struggle with one self and it happened to me many times. The hardest thing is not getting to the gym, but once you're there everything is good. The Muslims have a word for this and it means Gihad or the struggle. This is the struggle where you have to fight your biggest demons (internal) and external struggles such as anything outside the body.
Glad you had a good day and have a good weekend.
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You know what is interesting? The fact that you didn't know which path to take and you took the route to the gym. I called it the struggle with one self and it happened to me many times. The hardest thing is not getting to the gym, but once you're there everything is good. The Muslims have a word for this and it means Gihad or the struggle. This is the struggle where you have to fight your biggest demons (internal) and external struggles such as anything outside the body.
Glad you had a good day and have a good weekend.
thanks wsg...it is quite the struggle but that's what makes it worth it at the end. if it was easy then i'd not be where i am today or how i am today.
i'll be hitting the gym again tomorrow but yes, enjoy ur weekend as well mister. O0
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urgh! this snow...light flurries or not, is totally ruining my mood. i'm so over winter...sprin g is here so y not give us the sun and warm temps like we're suppose to have? huh? please.
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I'm totally with you about the cold weather.
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I'm totally with you about the cold weather.
about 2 hrs ago it was as if a small blizzard came through! Windy like no other and snow was coming down really fast and heavy...was crazy to drive in you couldn't even see in front of you! Thankfully, it was only for 20-30 minutes but leaving a soft coat of snow on the ground. we're suppose to get more later this week. like common mang! ::) >:( >:( >:(
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Wow.
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so it sounds as though i may not hear from the committee about grad school for several weeks. one of the profs (who is the dean of students and my boss' boss who technically is my boss) stopped by last week (as she was in the area with meetings) and shared that the committee was delayed going through the regular grad applicants therefore have not started looking at the online applicants. (btw, i applied for the online program so i could keep my job and do school. the online program was a better fit for my schedule in addition, it is developed for professionals already in the field therefore an assistanship is not necessory.) I know applicants are suppose to get an interview and if they haven't even looked at applicants then in order to schedule interviews then shoot, I most likely won't find out until a week before classes start! wtf mang!
urgh, moving on. it'll be almost a month since i've gotten my gym membership. the first two weeks i went at most twice a week now i've been going at least three times a week. I've only lost about 7#s. I'd be lying if I said the #s don't matter but I have noticed that my endurance is kicked in and going 30min non-stop on the treadmill is quite an accomplishment for me. I'm not comfortable to be running yet but briskly walking at an incline surely is better than nothing. As a friend said...even if it's slow or me walking at least i'm walking laps around those who are sitting at home on the couch. O0 Right on! I'm really proud of myself for sticking to it and not making excuses or using "no one is going with me....i have to go alone". I mean, i PAID for this membership...s o if need be, using my hard earned money as my excuse to go is a good motivator. and i'm looking at this more as a health issue than about my appearance. getting smaller is just an added bonus. O0
had interviews all day today and will be finishing up here in a little bit. looks like i'll hit the gym today--feeling i should since tomorrow i'll be too tired after work. yep, i work tomorrow--thankfully, it's just tomorrow and not all weekend.
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it was really nice to do some volunteer work with my kids this past sat. a few of us went to an assisted living residence for elderly folks. we got the wrong directions so it was a bit frustrating (urgh, ppl who can't organize is rather irritating). However, they had a table of about a dozen elderly residents who were waiting to play bingo. three other ladies were waiting for someone to complete their euchre table and one resident wanted to do nothing but play bowling on the wii. We were there for three hours. Yes, three hours of bingo. They played for snack sized chocolate candy bars. It was really nice being there. At the end of our service one sweet lady kept thanking us for coming and told us we should come more often. she said they hardly get visitors and had we not come they've been bored out al day. "We wouldn't know what we would have done. The weekends are really boring for us; there's never anything to do--it's so boring." Glad to know our mere presence was all that was needed to make someone's day brighter.
Monday. *sigh* my longest day of the week. I'm here doing my usual advising at one of the local high schools. thus far, only two of my students have bothered to meet with me. i used to "chase" students down but now I've learn to let them come to me and if they don't--well, then they simply don't. It's not like they're in trouble however, if they think it's a waste of their time checking in or getting important info (or reminders of things they need to do) then they can't hold it against me. Anyway, just one more month of tutoring and then the ball snowballs as we prepare and roll into summer. the dynamics this summer will change indeed. we have a lot of new students this summer--which can be both good and bad--it'll most definitely be different. we're still short on teachers but I'm sure we'll make it work--somehow. I might not be teaching Chinese this summer. I'm not quite sure how I feel about that but in a sense perhaps that's a good thing. If I have grad school then I can hopefully set more time aside to that than class prep and lesson planning.
so on sunday my brothers' accord was leaving gas and died a few blocks from the house. he's not sure if it's the gas line or the tank that's busted or rusted out but he's hoping it's not the tank. he's extremely frustrated. i haven't had a car in years (since my saturn died in 08). At the time my brother had two cars which he only drove them seasonally. so i have been "sharing" cars with him since. being now that he may be temporarily with one car i may have to seriously start looking to buy one of my own. we were car shopping a few years ago (for me) but didn't find or see anything worth buying. being young and dumb i shot my credit and have been slowly getting back up (esp. now since i have a decent job). we have a friend who works at a dealership and perhaps in the next few weeks i'll be buying my very first car! (I've had cars before but i personally didn't purchase them--my first car was a beater my uncle bought me for like $400 and the second car was my mom's car which she eventually gave me and drove her van instead). i'm excited but being that i have a lot on my plate right now i'm surprisingly not as excited as i should be. eh, too much going on. but i'm sure i will be when it bring it home.
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had a nice weekend. went up to the cities as i needed to grab some stuff for work. i've not been up there since the beginning of nov last year. there were no real plans and eventually, my bro and SIL wanted to join me. thankfully the weather was nice all weekend. hung out with my bff and her hubby. my bro was craving steak so sunday we made sure to stop by the best steak house on whitebear (we usually stop by there). saw the guys this weekend and many of them went out the night before....some SIL's bday. Heard they got plastered fri night. we were thinking of where to go since we didn't make it to my bff's BIL's khi tes party. So all the older brothers and cousins wanted a "repeat" of the previous night and so we went with them to an OG club. I've never been to this one in particular and i guess we really weren't' expecting much. no hating, ppl do what they want....but wow, all i have to say is it was an interesting night. i had beer and shots flowing like no other. we danced to two of the songs but i think we had more fun ppl watching than anything. oh, and the stories i heard while in the girls bathroom! tips on how to maintain ur alcohol by making urself puke (while ur doing it urself), how so and so's friend won't let their newly ordered mail bride hang out with them bc they may be a "bad influence", interesting stuff.
i don't know why or how.....but we saw quite a few guys who seemed to be wearing wigs. they were almost mullet-like. I guess whatever floats ur boat.
Met an interesting person over the weekend. it's a small world indeed as he is my bff's BIL's BIL (his younger bro is married to my bff's younger sister's hubby's sis) AND he knows my cousins since he used to live in CO. I didn't meet him until towards the end of the night and we talked for a bit...u know, what's ur name...where are you from....how do u know....who do u know, etc. I sensed some chemistry and I saw my bff eyeing me from the other end of the table. We eventually moved down the table to them since they were waiting for their bowls of pho. I didn't feel like eating since i was full from all the alcohol already so i passed my bowl to him and we kept passing it back and forth. he eventually gave it to someone else. while everyone was eating he kept going over to the guys table and come back and sit next to me while leaning into me and resting on my shoulder. it wasn't as if he was drunk or anything since he and his sister showed up late (she had to work late) so he wasn't just being "sloppy". Once we all left somehow he and his uncle ended up in our suburban and went back to my bffs' place (where most of us were crashing or had r cars). He ended up having to take his uncle, BIL and the BIL's cousin home as they figured he had to be their dd. I went to say goodbye...."it was nice meeting u" and he said the same and reached his arms out of the car for a hug. It was a little awkward bc I literally had to hug him through the window--with the door btwn us. :D
it's always nice to meet new ppl. i don't go in "looking" to meet ppl to cling on to and title as boyfriend. but when u do find ppl who intrigue u and sense a spark it's refreshing and a simple added bonus. will anything come out of this? I dunno. But it's always nice to meet new ppl and form new relations whether they be platonic or romantic.
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It is nice to talk to those people who you knew or had someone known them in the past. There are some people who you forgot about until they resurface. You weekend sounded like it was a blast and your meeting with him made it much better, right? I am glad you had fun, and og parties are the best to meet nice people without having the loud music in the background.
Did you see Sith too? If so it was probably him by Village. He didn't want to buy no phers pho or treat them to buffet so he's been hiding indoors. Claimed no pher was going? LOL...j/kidding ;D ;D
I am looking forward to more updates and see if anything interesting happens. Always and forever wishing the one and only msluvlylisa the best time of her life. Nothing less and much much more great things to happen. ;)
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It is nice to talk to those people who you knew or had someone known them in the past. There are some people who you forgot about until they resurface. You weekend sounded like it was a blast and your meeting with him made it much better, right? I am glad you had fun, and og parties are the best to meet nice people without having the loud music in the background.
Did you see Sith too? If so it was probably him by Village. He didn't want to buy no phers pho or treat them to buffet so he's been hiding indoors. Claimed no pher was going? LOL...j/kidding ;D ;D
I am looking forward to more updates and see if anything interesting happens. Always and forever wishing the one and only msluvlylisa the best time of her life. Nothing less and much much more great things to happen. ;)
awww.....that's so sweet of u to say wisg! Living up to the name eh? O0
it was a good weekend indeed. again, the weather was great as well so that surely helped. it's always nice to see friends and spend time together. when around good company it doesn't matter what u do....ur bound to have good laughs and fun. Yes, i met someone over the weekend. again, I dunno if anything will come out of this meeting but for what it's worth, I'm glad to have met him--even if that was the last time I'll see him. :)
Sith? No, I thought I saw someone who may be resembled him but turned out not to be him. I hadn't planned on meeting him anyway so no big deal....pho or no pho (actually, i do eat pho but it's not my favorite--sorry). But like I told him, if I was to spot him I will certainly say hi.
I, too, hope and only wish nothing but the best to come in ur future endeavors wisg! O0
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bored at work today. *sigh*
i've got laundry to do later and then will hit the gym.
thank goodness the weather has been nice these past few days! spring really is here now. about time. i really hope mother nature is not teasing us this time and throws a sh|t load of snow back this way.
trying to get stuff done and planned for summer....ther e's so much to do but nothing at the same time.
urgh, it's only tuesday.
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I finally heard from grad school.
YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :wav: :wav: :wav:
Yep! Sent in my acceptance form and now I have to pay my deposit and register for classes. I start May 19th. I'm excited but nervous at the same time. I've got a lot of stuff to do prepping for summer so I'm hoping that I manage my time well with work and school. Wow, back to being a student. It'll be different and at times very stressful but I know in the end it'll be worth it. Let's do this Lisa!!! O0
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oh YAY!!!!! CONGRATS to you Lisa O0
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oh YAY!!!!! CONGRATS to you Lisa O0
thank you very much! :)
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just me in the office this whole week and i've been bored out of my mind. well, i'm working here and there finding things to do/catch up on or staggering it out for the week otherwise i literally will fall asleep at my desk every day.
just registered for my classes yesterday. i'm still somewhat anxious but it'll be good (at least that's what i keep telling myself). i went to lunch with an acquaintance who will be graduating from the same grad program--just so i can pick her brain and know what to kind of expect. unfortunately, she isn't and hasn't had a good experience. but it was still good to talk and hear her experience--good or bad.
it's very beneficial that i work here on-campus as well....i asked another acquaintance about financial aid and my paperwork and she answered my questions and added that she was also in the program (congratulated me on my acceptance into grad school) and offered me her textbooks for my use if i happen to be using the same ones! Yes, I just looked online yesterday and I'll need about 4-5 books with a bill rounding about $200. It's not a ton but that's just this summer session. I'll take any and all free offers, donations, materials I can get. Good to me. I sent her my list of textbooks and she'd go through and see if she has what I need. Awesome!
I've been missing out on the gym these two weeks. Bad, I know. I have been bz w my kids, grad school stuff, prepping for summer, and spring cleaning at the house. they're doing some smoke alarm and other house inspection stuff tomorrow and we need to clean the house--badly! Yesterday afternoon i took it upon myself to start in the basement. it's a fire hazard having my mom's stuff in the lil corridor by the basement stairs. they've asked us/her to clear the area twice now and she still hasn't done anything. it's hard explaining to my mother of her "habits". Though she thinks it's not a big deal with her "stuff" (bags and bags of blankets, pillows, sheets, pillow cases, and random fabric for her quilting and spools and spools of colored string) 'set aside' she doesn't understand that such things are a fire hazard (the materials itself--the furnace is on the other side of the wall) and that it's taken up the entire corridor underneath the stairs which is said to be the "safe zone" for tornadoes or other severe emergencies. When we owned the house she could do and have things however she wanted but now that we don't own it we have to abide by the landlord which she does not understand. I nicely tried to tell her about the basement as well as her room (which she has things stacked up along her walls like a fortress with extension cords lined up the whazoo, which again, is a fire hazard! She of course thinks nothing of it. ::) OG Hmong folks mang, hoarders like mad crazy! :idiot2: Funny though, bc I say all this and as i was cleaning, rearranging, and organizing her stuff last night--i looked to throw things out but felt bad doing it. I didn't want to throw everything away (though it would be a good thing i also know the more room u make the more she's going to find something to fill up the space with) but kept what i thought was in good condition and what she had dups up. Luckily she only saw the first few things i threw in the garbage pile. If she came and saw all that i had collected (8 huge garbags bags worth) she'd probably yell at me (that i didn't love her and was being mean) and would have gone through and kept a good 2/3 of it.
Sadly, we're just getting started. Gotta do it though--as I told her. "If you don't like it then do you not want to live in here anymore? They will evict us if we don't do what they say. Remember, it's not our house anymore--if we want to live here then we must do what they tell us." She didn't want to hear what I had to say but knowing that she didn't say anything she knew I was right. Usually when my mom and I "talk" she's always going off on me and yelling at me (yes, we have THAT kind of a relationship--we always have) but this time she didn't say much other than having a stinky face bc not only was I right but she had to get rid of her crap. LOL As much as we don't get along I am more sensitive to her than my brother. I wanted to break the news to her as nice and rational as I could instead of having him talk to her. What would he have done? "Mom, lawv kom koj muab koj cov khoom pov tseg na. Sw sw tsev lawv tsis nyiam na".....and two days later after she comes home from work she'd find that he tossed everything out (not out back in the garbage--he'd take it to a dumpster so she wouldn't be able to drag it back to the house). He's done it before and she was devastated. I'm not that cruel--even if he was right. There's a nice and simple way to do things w/o making others feel like crap. My brother is very cut-throat....he's usually right but his execution is very cut-throat. Oh well. Good thing I got to her first.
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Congrats on going for your masters. I hope everything works out and you do the best you can. I know those students you helped will be proud of you. I know I will. I enjoyed hearing about from you. Have a good night.
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Congrats on going for your masters. I hope everything works out and you do the best you can. I know those students you helped will be proud of you. I know I will. I enjoyed hearing about from you. Have a good night.
awww, thanks wisg. i'd like to think they r proud....thoug h i'm doing this for me this is also for "them". it's ez for me to tell them to go to school but i, 2, should be taking my own advice and furthering my education as well. lead by example. I, too, hope and wish for the best (and eventually some calmness and sanity) as I will need it in the coming months and for the next few years. it won't be ez but can't let that stop me, right?
thanks for taking time to see wassup w lil ole me. n yes, have a good night. i'm off to bed now too.
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work has been so boring lately. oh, kill me! ::)
i have yet to order my books for grad school. yeah, i'm waiting to hear from other students who may lend me their books...but so far the two girls I've asked said they have older editions of the books I'll need...so i guess it sounds like i'll have to purchase all my books. blah. can't believe i start classes in about three weeks! eeek! :o
the weather has been wonderful lately! :)
hrrmmm....fish ing was fun on sat with my brother. nyab of course sat in the car...i don't understand y ppl go just to sit in the car. ::) i need to get my fishing license though. Yeah, I know...i need to get it.
wow, in just a week or so april will be over with and it'll be may already. wow, we're almost half way through 2014!
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is it sad to say that last nights' chat was the liveliest night i've had in a long time? ??? :D
thanks to all who contributed. O0
gotta drive an hour out today for tutoring and some advising. fun eh? (no, not really.) I don't care for the drive. oddly, i like to drive when i have a lot on my mind or on road trips (minus driving in the dark, on bridges over big bodies of water, or really windy roads--eek! rhiab rhiab pob tw li!
well, i've got one book down from my list of textbooks for grad school--4 more to get.
it's suppose to rain today--i like rain, but not when i'm driving.
can u believe it's wednesday already? i had to think twice about what day it was this morning. yeah, it's one of those days. but i have to work this sat anyway...so blah.
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I'm just happy you are getting your classes and books in check girlie ;)
I check the library for some of my books so I don't have to pay for them. I've gone a few classes without having to buy any books. I totally understand about the money for textbooks ::)
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I'm just happy you are getting your classes and books in check girlie ;)
I check the library for some of my books so I don't have to pay for them. I've gone a few classes without having to buy any books. I totally understand about the money for textbooks ::)
That just shows how long it's been since I've been a student. I didn't even think about checking out the books. Then again--I have to get my ID first. I went and took my picture for it yesterday but it won't be in my hands for another week. ::)
Being it's grad school i might just buy them all anyway--dunno yet. The book I was given the owner said she didn't care if I gave it back to her or not. But knowing me, I'd give it back. She's really nice though cause she's willing to see if she has any of the other ones I still need.
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Hello Lisa, just saying hello and hope all is well. Congrats on schooling. O0
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Hello Lisa, just saying hello and hope all is well. Congrats on schooling. O0
Hi n thnx pl! :)
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That just shows how long it's been since I've been a student. I didn't even think about checking out the books. Then again--I have to get my ID first. I went and took my picture for it yesterday but it won't be in my hands for another week. ::)
Being it's grad school i might just buy them all anyway--dunno yet. The book I was given the owner said she didn't care if I gave it back to her or not. But knowing me, I'd give it back. She's really nice though cause she's willing to see if she has any of the other ones I still need.
Glad someone is willing to help out one another. ;)
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Glad someone is willing to help out one another. ;)
yes, me too. O0
wisg, ur up kinda late....y not sleeping yet?
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OK...i guess i'm no longer on hiatus from posting pics on ph anymore.
urgh....is it time to go home yet? just a few more minutes and then I can go. Yay! O0
only a few hours at the office tomorrow--only because i have to work on sat. yay. :-\
hoping if things go well i'll be going to mn next weekend. a much needed trip. (maybe this time it'll just be me.)
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it's hump day...eh. it's been raining all week which means it's also been cold all week. well, at least it's not snow.
wish it was friday already.
it's said that i get paid tomorrow and already have my payments set for all my bills....leavi ng me with barely nothing for the rest of the month. work so hard only to be piss broke. i really should get a second job. if only i could get paid to do nothing. *sigh*
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OK...i guess i'm no longer on hiatus from posting pics on ph anymore.
urgh....is it time to go home yet? just a few more minutes and then I can go. Yay! O0
only a few hours at the office tomorrow--only because i have to work on sat. yay. :-\
hoping if things go well i'll be going to mn next weekend. a much needed trip. (maybe this time it'll just be me.)
hey luvlylisa,
Yup missing your pictures. When are you going to post them up? I missing you posted pictures from the range. Don't mind see those pictures from your trip to MN a month ago. ;D
Well always glad to see pictures of a luvly girl name Lisa.
I am glad you're getting pay tomorrow, and like all paid day, it's pay the bills day. ;D
Hopefully you get your MA and make more money so you can treat me to dinner. ;D j/k
I want to go back there and experience the old days of living in the mountains. Finding my roots. O0
Well have a wonderful day. BTW, are you guys going fishing soon? White bass season is hitting and I am assuming in your area should have plenty of white basses? ;)
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hey luvlylisa,
Yup missing your pictures. When are you going to post them up? I missing you posted pictures from the range. Don't mind see those pictures from your trip to MN a month ago. ;D
Well always glad to see pictures of a luvly girl name Lisa.
I am glad you're getting pay tomorrow, and like all paid day, it's pay the bills day. ;D
Hopefully you get your MA and make more money so you can treat me to dinner. ;D j/k
I want to go back there and experience the old days of living in the mountains. Finding my roots. O0
Well have a wonderful day. BTW, are you guys going fishing soon? White bass season is hitting and I am assuming in your area should have plenty of white basses? ;)
hi wisg. ah, my pics. in ways i miss posting them but in ways....eh. i've been known as the girl who posts only food and ppl getting drunk so i have refrained from posting them. i think sometimes ppl get the wrong impression of me. (not that it matters--ok, maybe just a lil) i do like food...but there's more to be than a beer or two. ::)
the range pics? I think those r still in the outdoors and recreation section. have a peek and see if they're still there. pics from mn? LOL yes I took a few pics....but never posted them. they're on fb though. LOL :D
yes, working hard for the money only to be broke. but yes, that's y i'm going back to school (partially the reason)...to hopefully help myself in the finance department and not stress out so much about my bills and life. LOL :D treat to dinner? well, if ur ever in town--hit me up.
i've not gotten around to getting my fishing license. I'll do that Friday--tomorrow maybe. Yeah, tomorrow sounds good. Bass, yeah we get em here. dude ppl b out fishing like crazy already. couldn't wait for that ice to melt. ;D
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hi wisg. ah, my pics. in ways i miss posting them but in ways....eh. i've been known as the girl who posts only food and ppl getting drunk so i have refrained from posting them. i think sometimes ppl get the wrong impression of me. (not that it matters--ok, maybe just a lil) i do like food...but there's more to be than a beer or two. ::)
the range pics? I think those r still in the outdoors and recreation section. have a peek and see if they're still there. pics from mn? LOL yes I took a few pics....but never posted them. they're on fb though. LOL :D
yes, working hard for the money only to be broke. but yes, that's y i'm going back to school (partially the reason)...to hopefully help myself in the finance department and not stress out so much about my bills and life. LOL :D treat to dinner? well, if ur ever in town--hit me up.
i've not gotten around to getting my fishing license. I'll do that Friday--tomorrow maybe. Yeah, tomorrow sounds good. Bass, yeah we get em here. dude ppl b out fishing like crazy already. couldn't wait for that ice to melt. ;D
LOL. ;D ;D People are talking and filling their coolers with bass already and all I caught is buffalos. I want to go out for some pretty soon. Do you have FB? Pm me your Fb if you don't mind. Or I can do the same. I'll add you to our page; Hmong fitness and motivation. There are tons of Hmong from the world on there. ;)
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LOL. ;D ;D People are talking and filling their coolers with bass already and all I caught is buffalos. I want to go out for some pretty soon. Do you have FB? Pm me your Fb if you don't mind. Or I can do the same. I'll add you to our page; Hmong fitness and motivation. There are tons of Hmong from the world on there. ;)
Yes, we caught a few buffalo last two weeks ago. BIG ones! I posted pics before on here.
FB? I have FB....I have two to be exact. A personal one and a professional one. :D
Indeed, many ppl out there.
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two nights in a row where i've had less than 5 hrs of sleep. yesterday i got 4 hrs and this morning I got in 2 1/2 hrs. yes, i do this to myself. but i'm not tired so it's not a problem. although, i say that now--who knows what i'll be like later today. *zombie mode* ;D
my school ID hasn't come in yet so I've been waiting to go to the library and see if they have my books. I'd rather check them out but part of me is saying buy em so i don't have to worry about anything. *deep sigh* urgh, i guess.
mothers day is coming up and i really don't know what to do. yesterday i went looking for a nice spring jacket for my mom but didn't find anything. i bought her a really nice one about four years ago, she never wore it but a few months later somehow it grew feet and walked off. I don't know what happened to it. my mom has no clue where it is or who took it. still had the tags on it and everything. i know i can always get her flowers but i feel like flowers isn't enough. i know she'll luv them as flowers r her fav thing but eh.....i'll have to rack my brain more and think of something.
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yep, with just a click i'm down $200 but got my textbooks for the summer. i was sick of waiting and realistically if i was to check em out i'd not be able to write in the margins, highlight and make notes as i wanted.
everyone is gone and it's just me now. i wanted to leave early as i should have but everyone left before I could go and now I'm waiting for one of our grad students to stop by so she can drop off something. blah. i'm so hungry....tire d.....and did i mention that i look terrible today. Yeah, i don't wear makeup on a daily basis but good lawd, i look like a bag lady forsure. :D
anyway...oh, she just walked in. Yay, i can go now! BUT now i've got to go do my laundry. yay. don't u just luv sarcasm?
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it's been fun today...i don't think i've been this active on ph for a while.
:wave: hi guests.
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Hi Lisa! I just wanted to brag to you that I got my two textbooks for my class from an in house library next door to my work place ;D
I looked at all the libraries in the state to see who might have these two books - found out that a few of the college libraries have them checked out....but I guess today is my lucky day, I just walked next door to check them out for FREE :)
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Hi Lisa! I just wanted to brag to you that I got my two textbooks for my class from an in house library next door to my work place ;D
I looked at all the libraries in the state to see who might have these two books - found out that a few of the college libraries have them checked out....but I guess today is my lucky day, I just walked next door to check them out for FREE :)
sucks 4 me but good 4 u. O0
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urgh, my work laptop is going crazy! a few weeks ago i was trying to dl a video maker program onto my laptop. after dling it and playing around w i ti realized it wasn't what i wanted so i uninstalled it. Since then i've been getting random prompts for me to run and now random windows and ads pop up like crazy. no porn shit, just a lot of ads and spyware stuff. it's hella annoying and it's at a point now where i can't get anything done w/o something popping up or closing out on me or whatever. so most likely, there's a virus and so tomorrow i hope to drop it off at the help desk at work and get it situated. i really can't work w/o my laptop so i hope it won't take long either.
this week is the last week of tutoring for me. luv my kids but this frees up some time for me in my week now. yay! tomorrow we have a potluck and i'm making curry. i hope em kids can handle spicy! O0 it'll be a short day at the office tomorrow.
went and got my fishing license finally yesterday. my bro and i went out to the river and after 30 minutes i got the first catch of the day! I was rather proud of myself. i like to fish but i'm no where near good. I caught a nice 4lb carp. we ended up giving it to the cousin who was also there fishing with his friends. the bro? he had one but as usually plam lawm. so no fishy for him.
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The last time we went same thing happened but i didn't fish bc i didn't have my license yet. Started off crappy but he eventually go two big buffalos.
I go fishing w my bro all the time. He's never once told me i couldn't or shouldn't go w him. (Especially when we go trout fishing--i catch my share.) 8)
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it's been an interesting night to say the least. :D
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Nice catch Lisa :)
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Nice catch Lisa :)
thnx pl. how r u today?
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it's been an interesting night to say the least. :D
was phaj ej mystery man identified? i tried my best! kuv finally gave up on nws.
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You guys! Wait let me hide this...
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it was very difficult getting out of bed this morning. I heard my alarm and all i was thinking was "WTF! Time already? Dayem, give me another hour or so..." but then of course, while laying there....frick en-a....gotta pee! That always ruins my morning mang. ::) Got ready and packed lunch (some curry i made a few days ago) and headed out the door.
That red....if it rained last night i didn't notice but given that it wasn't wet out nor was the green wet I figured I had only heard the rolling thunder but it was merely just thunder. Red may have sent them my way and only thunder since I said we weren't getting any here. that dork! :D nevertheless, i have my umbrella in the car in case there would be a storm.
I'm sitting at one of the local high schools now....it's lunch time. I've finished my lunch now that it's getting into third lunch and i'm waiting to meet with the last wave of students. it's been rather slow and since we've ended tutoring for the academic year i don't have much to talk about with my kids. just making sure seniors have everything settled in regards to housing and of course all financial aid paperwork situated. I can't believe we start summer camp in a month! Luckily, at our staff meeting on Tues my boss was willing to give me Friday afternoons off so I can have time for school. Thanks boss! Sounds good to me. I just need to learn how to say no and let go of some responsibiliti es. It'll be hard but I'm sure letting go may be easier than I think. ;D
so he asked what today was...i'm thinking, to see who all knows, cares, or pays attention. I know what today is. so i told him....bday. he asked me to specify.....do h, look in the mirror kid--who else? LOL all he could do is laugh and nod. Yes, I would know....but don't flatter urself kid. I'm not going to be busting out with cake and balloons around the corner or anything. We've already established that THAT wasn't going to happen. done deal. and though that may be so....it doesn't mean I don't care. it just means i'm not going out of my way anymore. bc we both know it means totally different things to the both of us. so y bother confusing each other or save us the awkwardness.
anyway, I think imma leave work--tutoring early tonight. Or so I plan to. (but knowing me, I'll most likely end up staying late ::) ) I have some food prep i plan on doing tonight so tomorrow i can go into the office in the morning and then leave and assemble everything right away instead of having to do prep work and then cook/assemble. Might as well save me the trouble and time right? I'm making spring rolls tomorrow for our potluck with my students and their families. My boss is providing pulled pork and mac n cheese (for the vegetarians) and some have requested for spring rolls (surprisingly, not egg rolls but I'm sure they won't be disappointed if someone brought them too). I was going to make sesame balls but spring rolls it is.
the bff is coming this weekend as we have a wedding to attend (a mutual friend/family member). it'll be bz but fun i'm sure--it usually is when i see her. my SIL wants me to take pics of her n her sisters and their family on sun. i really don't want to....and sorry, but i'm really hoping it rains. it may be mean but i don't want to spend a whole day taking pics--especially since i know now that my bff is going to be in town. it's one thing if it was just for a few hours. but knowing she wants to go all out and get dressed in hmong clothes and whatnot i already know it's going to be the whole day. who wants to wait around all day for ppl? ::) not i. 8)
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tired as fawk today. zombie mode most def.
all but one of my books came in for grad school. i've yet to pick them up.
it was a long weekend but still went by really fast. it's also that time of the year....celebr ation time. every weekend someone is doing something. graduations, weddings, blessings....p arty, party, party.
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picked up my grad books today. they took a long time trying to "find" them. I still need two books which I'll stop by the library to see if they have them. I don't think I'll get them in time for class on Monday next week. HOWEVER, I got my new ID but it won't let me log to activate it. Apparently, due to me already having an ID, which is my faculty/staff ID through my university, it says I've already activated a card. Urgh! So who knows what I'll do. Regardless, something needs to be figured out and soon.
**called customer service** and got my ID situated. So now that that's resolved I have to go see if the library has my books. I'll look online first to save myself the trouble if they don't have them.
I can't believe I start school next Monday! Eeekkk!!!! :o I'm very anxious. It's been a while since I've been in "school-mode" so I'm not sure if I'm ready for the challenge. I know I have a sh|t load of reading I must do--which I'm totally not looking forward to. i've never liked reading and i was one of those who avoided it if i could. in this case most of my work for grad school will depend on my reading thus, I HAVE to do it. It's not going to be fun, but who said that it would be, right? Silly me.
I've not yet told my father about grad school. I figure it's no big deal right now. If it comes up I'll mention it but for now...let's just try to survive through it first. LOL Besides, I've not spoken to him in months.
So glad tutoring is done now. I've got final evals with my staff to do--just three more and then I'll be 'officially' done and can concentrate on summer. I've yet to look over my stuff for my Chinese class as well. I was at just one student but we just admitted a new student last week so I'll have two students this summer. Thankfully, they're in the same level-let alone the same class so this should be a piece of cake. They just better participate and put in effort. I had one of them last summer and though his Chinese was decent he tried to get out of a lot of work which never worked with me.
Now that I've more time I really need to kick my butt into gear and get back on my work-out schedule! I've been slacking big time these last three weeks. Yeah, I've not gone in the last three weeks....or was it month?! I most def need to go back and push myself. No more excuses. Once we start camp that will be something that I really need to set aside time for (other than my school stuff). I'll have my bike here as well so it'll help give me something else to do other than walking. Come on Lisa, let's do this!!!! O0
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online classes r open now. though we don't officially start until monday i have two syllabi and I can't believe it. one is 14 pages long and the other is 11. :o But I guess that should be OK since it's the course description, expectations, and assignments and whatnot. my prof is very thorough so that's a good thing, right?
i've completed my first assignment, to update my profile. now i've to write a introduction statement and i honestly don't know how to start. ok, i'm lying--i know how to start and perhaps i'm over analyzing this (which i know i am but hear me out mang). being that this is an online program like all other programs ppl r from who knows where, vary in age, with various values, views, experience, and perspective on anything and everything. however, this online program is developed for professionals already working in the field of higher education so there is a wider range of age and experiences here. with that said, instead of meeting in class face to face our introductions will be our 'first encounter' we have with each other. being that this is still a class, i can't write mumbo jumbo like i'm casually writing to answer a newspaper ad but i don't want to sound dry and prude either. this is my first impression that i'd make and it's a lot of pressure. i don't want ppl to think i'm this little girl who has no clue what she's talking about nor do i want them to think i'm going to be the token minority who is going to speak on diversity and for the disadvantaged populations (though I may). *sigh* i'll figure something out. knowing me, i'll write what i may and add a few things here and there in regards to my hobbies and interests but keep it simple at the same time.
i've logged on and looked around at the online site to see how to maneuver around. seems simple enough. for my intro class i have discussion topics each week to respond to and then i have to do at least two peer responses. all responses need to be relevant to the reading or at least my writing needs to display how i can or cannot apply the material. seems simple enough. thankfully, everything is on the syllabus and being that i have several weeks before camp starts I can read ahead of time so i don't get too behind once my life is turned upside down in june. :D yes, you can certainly do this Lisa!!!
speaking of which, i need to prep stuff for my chinese class. i could use some of the same stuff--which i may--but being that my two students will be in level 3 next year i need to see what units they will be covering so i can help them. i think class will be very easy this year. being that i will only have two students, its manageable and i may give them less busy work but more in-class and group presentations. we'll see. i can hear one of them now--he'll complain about anything. ::)
eating healthy today. had an asian salad (carrots, cucumber, lettuce, shrimp, pork loaf strips, cilantro, grn onions with a dash of fish sauce, lime, and hot chillies) and topped it off with some yummy vanilla yogurt and fresh strawberries. i saw that i had my oats and honey granola bar so i crumpled it up and threw it in my yogurt. o my gawd, i've not had that for a long time. it was sooOOOoOOoo good!!!! O0 next week...no more excuses...gott a do this!!! grrrrrrr!!!!!!
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Dear Lisa,
I found your youtube channel.
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Dear Lisa,
I found your youtube channel.
:o :-X :( ;D ;) 8)
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It's been really helpful in helping me choose my makeup. Teehee
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It's been really helpful in helping me choose my makeup. Teehee
Good. I'm glad u found it useful. O0
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yep, it's friday night...2:30am and what am i doing? on my laptop reading my course outline and going over my second syllabus for grad school. i've finished updating my profile or editing it and now i've gone through and read introductions of 5 of my cohorts. *sigh* Now having read their writings I'm not nervous at all. They were so informal (some even with grammatical and spelling errors). We're asked to introduce ourselves....w hat r undergrad and school was and where we went, why we want to go back to school, our goals, expectations, and fears in our program. thus far, it sounds like many of us will have the same fear(s)--how to balance life, work, and school in addition to writing papers. LOL :D
so yeah, i'm taking a break from my reading. I should be done by 3:30 the latest. That's all the hw for now at least. I have some videos and articles to read in addition to the reading from my textbooks (which I went ahead and organized with sticky notes of due dates). I think these three classes will be easier than I thought. Again, it's more about me managing my time. The online "participation" is no different than me coming on ph and writing here. LOL so in ways, i'm feeling a lot better about school and less stressed. if only my face would show that. (yeah, i'm breaking out again! eeekk!!!)
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i c many guests r up late.
i find it funny and a lil flattering ya'll want to be reading my daily thoughts...... this late on a friday night. but hey, no one's stopping u. 8) O0
hope it is fascinating or serves of some service for u. :)
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OK, finally done. it took longer than i had wanted it to....but at least i finished it. i'm tired now (though, the birds r already chirping outside my window) and though i have about four chapters of reading to do i'll save it for tomorrow...i mean later. 99 phers.....n trolls. ;)
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Taking a break from hw to do my laundry. Had to. I was running out of clothes mang! :o
So i finished all my reading about an hour ago only to get an email from my prof of the third syllabus which i have two chapters to read n two articles to read. Urgh, more reading! ::) that n my two discussion posts to do. Technically they're not do til mon n wed but i want to get it done w so i don't have to worry bout them during the work week.
This is the life eh? Though i'm trying to stay afloat i feel if i don't stay on top of my reading n take time out for school n myself i will most def burn out. No one wants that! Nah ah.
I was proud of myself bc i declined going fishing w my bro for the mechanics of APA writing style and the study of rentention w college students. I think the girls were disappointed i didn't go out for drinks w them last night too. However, this is something that they will need to understand. My time is limited n i will have to make some sacrifices whether i want to or like to or not. It's nothing personal--it just is.
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y am I here? i'm tired as fawk and i should be and really want to be working on school work. wow, who knew i'd actually want to work on homework? LOL :D
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Yay, after a long day/night of working on my first (real) writing assignment I turned it in this morning and my prof responded back w/n 10 mins!
Oh, Lisa - FANTASTIC post. I know some of us are huge fans of Upward Bound, and others perhaps didn't hear about it until you introduced yourself to the group. Thank you for describing how the competencies are evident in your work with UB. You are like the hall director, academic advisor, career placement officer, activities staff, orientation and family programs staff, all wrapped up in one! You'll have to let us know if you have any needs from us as you move into the summer season, which I know can be supremely busy......
She said other things but it was more relevant to my hw assignment and questions...ya dda yadda.
Perhaps I should give some kudos to ph as well. After being on here for so many years navigating and utilizing the online class is very similar to the forum here. While many in my cohort r having difficulty navigating (as well understanding course material--more so writing context than anything) I'm zooming around asking questions like it's my job! LOL ;D ;D ;D
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life is crazy.....very hectic and bz. trying to stay afloat. fortunately enough, i'm doing rather well. yay! O0
could go for a nice beer now. *sigh* yeah.
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first week of school has been ok. i've been logged on just about everyday checking to see what everybody has to say. it's been kind of fun--surprisingly enough. i've got reading for next week to do--need to do that tonight and tomorrow.
blah, i had a huge pimple on my nose which i of course popped. (NEVER do that!) i can't keep my fingers to myself which makes it worse. so yesterday as well as today i had to put on makeup since i felt like rudolph-yet again. ::)
i had planned to go to the gym right after work today but realized that i have an interview this afternoon around 4. hopefully it doesn't take long so i can go around 6:30 at the least. i want to get home early so i can start my reading.
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since i've started grad school this week it's been crazy. i've been busy like no other but oddly enough i've been pretty good with time management and getting all that i need to done. wow, who'd of thought if i just jam pack my schedule i'd be more organized? bwwaaahahahaha h! though it may be stressful i'm surprised and delighted that i've been staying afloat.
i shouldn't be gloating about this though....as i know the storm will be soon approaching as camp is just around the corner and soon enough u'll c my post about death! LOL :-\ ;D :D ;D :D ;D
yes, i did go to the gym yesterday....s o glad i went too. O0
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Oh, in case u r here reading.....ju st a FYI....all ****s look the same to me too. ::) 8)
Done with the first week of classes and got my "progress report". My prof responded (it's the same prof for my three classes I'm taking right now):
Excellent, excellent work. You have amazing experiences and insights. I appreciate your willingness to share the joys and challenges of your work - framed in the context of course readings - and not intimidating to those in the group with less professional experience. So happy to have you in this program and can't wait to meet you in person!
and in another class:
Outstanding work. I hope the focus on your interpersonal helping skills is a nice contrast to the bigger picture we're studying in SAA 700 and 720. You did exactly what I asked in these discussions - balancing being vulnerable/sharing with demonstrating knowledge gleaned from the readings.
in the last class:
EXCELLENT work, Lisa. I wonder if you want to do your research on the correlation between diverse faculty/staff and the success of diverse students? You would find plenty of research that demonstrates the value of diversifying our work force. In discussions this week, you did a good job of showing your understanding of the course materials, and a GREAT job of questioning data, sharing opinions, and generally making-meaning with your peers. Keep up the wonderful work!
I often find myself questioning what it is that my prof is asking of my cohort and I but this just confirms that I am doing a good job. Now I have to maintain this momentum and pray that once camp starts I'm not going to fall behind. That's the last thing I want.
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working on my last assignment for the week. yep, a summary which is due at midnight! Eekk!!!
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After several years I finally upgraded my phone.
Starting my third week of grad school it's been interesting to say the least, but I'm glad that I'm doing this. This resource review is kicking me in the butt.
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Wow...just yesterday you were talking about applying...it seems. Glad you've started your new journey. :)
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Wow...just yesterday you were talking about applying...it seems. Glad you've started your new journey. :)
Yes, it did seem like yesterday but we're wrapping up our third week and 2 quizzes, two papers, and 12 discussion topic responses later....i'm at a solid AB. i'm anxious for the last week as that is when i will start camp and it's my last full week of classes (we're done on the 4th of July). However, my last summer course also starts that 4th as well and goes until the day before my bday (in august). :( I'm looking forward to having my first "term" over with.
only working monday and tuesday next week so i can focus on school and finish up what i can before we start camp. it's going to be crazy i already know it. can you hear the excitement. yay.
thinking about treating myself this summer (after camp and school) to a trip out east again to visit my sis and her in-laws since we've not seen each other (and since she's no longer able to come out this way labor day weekend). it'll be fun. we don't need to do much...i just want to relax with the little time i have after a hectic summer.
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Glad everything is on the up and up Lisa O0 Hello btw...
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Glad everything is on the up and up Lisa O0 Hello btw...
hello dear friend! :wave: yes, things r going up, up, n away....(or so it seems) LOL :D
How r u n the fam doing? What r ur plans this summer? Started training for soccer?
Had a snickers the other day...no coke though, been trying to cut down on my soda intake. ;D
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halfway done with my first series of classes for grad school....and i'm getting nervous. I know I shouldn't be sweating it but urgh...just to think about all that i have yet to do before i start camp! imma die i know it. (OK, i'm exaggerating but dayem i don't want to think about all that i have to do in the coming weeks.)
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Yes, it did seem like yesterday but we're wrapping up our third week and 2 quizzes, two papers, and 12 discussion topic responses later....i'm at a solid AB. i'm anxious for the last week as that is when i will start camp and it's my last full week of classes (we're done on the 4th of July). However, my last summer course also starts that 4th as well and goes until the day before my bday (in august). :( I'm looking forward to having my first "term" over with.
only working monday and tuesday next week so i can focus on school and finish up what i can before we start camp. it's going to be crazy i already know it. can you hear the excitement. yay.
thinking about treating myself this summer (after camp and school) to a trip out east again to visit my sis and her in-laws since we've not seen each other (and since she's no longer able to come out this way labor day weekend). it'll be fun. we don't need to do much...i just want to relax with the little time i have after a hectic summer.
You're a bundle of motivation, luvlylisa. Keep it up! You deserve a nice relaxing and fun trip.
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You're a bundle of motivation, luvlylisa. Keep it up! You deserve a nice relaxing and fun trip.
thanks moonangel. i'm trying to get through it all. summer is more hectic with me due to camp. so i'm curious how my schedule will be like during the academic year. it's just the beginning but i'm sure two year will definitely fly by.
yeah, it's nice to take a break when i can and i know my sis misses us. so about time i visit her n the in-laws. my bil and i have bdays two days apart so we can do something.
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getting in this paper i have due at midnight. yeah, i've been procrastinatin g since i have all this stuff with work/camp to do.
luckily, i have the rest of the week off so i'm going to get this done and get all my reading prepped to take home with me so I can finish it and get started on next weeks' since I'll be going to the cities this weekend. need some time to myself. can't wait!
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in my fifth week of grad school and i've to say...it's a tough week this week! :-\ i'm taking a break from my journal critique which is due at midnight tonight. did i mention that i have three other readings to do and two other papers to finish by midnight as well? Oh, but first i have to sit through staff training as we just moved into the dorms last night (what a workout!). i'm really killing myself this week. shoot me already. ::)
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Yeah, I've been bz.....I have a week left of my first session of grad school and i just started "camp" last week so it's been a crazy two weeks! Training and camp while trying to finish papers and two projects! I'm very overwhelmed but still alive; yeah, even I can't believe it.
I am still planning on going to the east to go see my sis. Haven't booked my flight yet--but maybe in the next week or so.
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Booked my flight out to Philly. I'll be out there for two weeks! I can't wait. We might make a trip to NY too. Might.
My three classes are done but I've started my last summer course. My last day is the day b4 my bday. At least I can relax on my bday and then get ready for my real vacation out east at my sisters'.
school has been going ok. it's actually better to be honest. i only have class to concentrate on while i have camp.
i can't believe summer is flying by. just two more weeks--ok three, if you count the week out to milwaukee, left of camp. though i'll miss having my own place i will not miss camp. thankfully that means after camp i have two weeks and then no more school until after labor day and i will be stress-free for a few more weeks. *sigh*
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*sigh* there's always twists and turns in life.....the celebrations and the challenges...t hat's all i can say for now.
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Yay, got two of my grades........ .............
...and got A's in them both!!! I am waiting for one more grade. I don't know why it's taking my prof so long to put them in considering she taught all three of the classes. Oh well. I have to be honest....I was expecting grad school to be hard (academically hard....I knew it would be hard for me to juggle both a career and school--that was given) but I am pleased to say that grad school is much more easier than my undergrad.
However, my mom was in the hospital all last week so trying to manage work and school on top of accompanying my mom at the hospital for a week--I'm a week behind and have a group project due in three weeks. Not to mention, I'll be in Milwaukee for the week with my kids as we are on our trip. Though I will have wifi access I will not have time to do anything considering all the programming we have planned for the week. So I'm utilizing all of today to caught up on missing work and turn in what I can ahead of time.
Life has been draining but I'm doing what I can. I feel 2015 will be a year of continued change but a year of progress. Let's do this!!! O0
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i'm so behind on homework it's not even funny.
anyway....had a nice weekend meeting up with friends in mn. that's always nice. went to meet with this tailor and got my measurements for a spanking new hmong outfit. i'm so excited! can't wait to adorn myself for hmong new year!
taking the kids to the lake next week. it should be fun but I know it's going to be more work for me than anything.
can't wait for classes to be over with and for my vacay to my sisters'. just want a nice break. i've some things to do here at the office so with two weeks i'll do or finish what i can and then....time to relax!
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finally got my last grade from my first session of classes and yep, another A. I am rather proud of myself--and surprised. In high school I was a decent student but as life progressed I and I was spread in thin I was pulled from as well as strayed from my studious nature. For the first time in a long time it feels nice to see a 4.0 on my transcript. A job well done--for now. :)
Now that summer camp is over I have more time to catch up on my missing work and work on my project. My group and I have been meeting every night this week but that is ideal since next week is the last week of our class. I am trying to get all this done and stay afloat........ .sounds like my life in a nutshell.
Yes, just two more weeks and then Philly! I can't wait.....I so need this vacation! 8)
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Tomorrow is the last day of my summer classes! I'm so glad I finally caught up this week and right now I'm working on my last paper--my reflection paper. I'm hoping to get it done tonight so I don't have to worry about it. I have a response paper also due tomorrow but that's not going to be a problem. It's also dependent on all my cohorts projects so I can't really do without looking at their work first.
Summer seems to have flown by but in a sense it also seemed to have taken so long. Technically, it's not over yet. However, I feel like camp was sOooOoOOOOo long ago and this class took forever to end. LOL *sigh*
They're painting our offices today....right now my office has three white/eggshell walls and one sky blue wall. We're--they're painting it Navajo White...it's kind of off-white color. Right now there are desks and chairs all in the hallway--which is small already--and I still need to take some stuff out of my office before I leave today. My boss said most likely I don't have to come to the office tomorrow and I should just work from home tomorrow. No need to twist my arm--I definitely will not be coming. LOL
I hope to squeeze in a birthday dinner with some of my gfs tomorrow. Hope things work out so we all can hang out--even if it's just dinner. Three of us are August babies so it'll be nice to celebrate since we can't celebrate together.
So I'll be 33 in two days. Eh....nothing new....I still look like I'm 25 although some days I feel like I'm 21 and some days my body tells me I'm 58. LOL So eh. I can't wait until Tues though. I'm off to see my sister. Two weeks of complete nothing. I mean, we'll do things but I am ready for this vacation. No kids, no nagging, no stupid ppl bothering me, no homework and papers.....two complete weeks where no one has any expectations of me. GREAT!!! O0 Plus, there's so much to celebrate--I can't wait!!!
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feels great to be done with my summer classes! I know our grades won't be posted for a while--but I really hope my professor goes back to see what I submitted. I have a feeling I have to remind him.
i didn't do much in celebrating my bday yesterday. the night before some of the girls got into town too late so my dinner plans with the other bday girls got scratched since they couldn't do a late dinner. i ended up meeting with the other girls....we had a nice time, a shot or two....but they were so tired after the long drive, food, and the killer shots that they just ended up going to another friends' house and KOed. At least they took some time out to stop by and celebrate a bit with me since I knew they have a busy weekend. i had planned to hopefully grill at the house yesterday but my brother told me late the night before that we didn't have the grill anymore. So again, that got botched. So I ended up spending the day by myself...went to the stores...didn't really shop considering that I'd be going out to Philly anyway. It was a chill day--I kind of needed that. My brother ended up texting that we'd grill at a friends house instead so we ended up going there. Burgers, brats, steak, watermelon.... beer and shots all around. Surprisingly I didn't get wasted. LOL My brother actually kept telling ppl to give me more alcohol bc I was the bday girl and I was still not trashed. Gee, thanks bro.
The best gift last night....we had a lot of heavy and deep conversations last night with various friends--catching up with their families and whatnot. I know my bro luvs me and has my back but last night I really got to see and hear that he truly does have my back. I told him about an incident (or several) btwn someone and myself. this someone is rather close to my bro so I never bothered to tell him bc I didn't want to upset him nor cause conflict or tension. But bc we were on the topic, I mentioned it to him and he was rather surprised. At one point he had explanation but he basically said, "you're my sister and I luv you. What so-and-so did was wrong. Don't take it to heart and don't ever think that I think that way about you too. Unless you hear otherwise from me, never think that about yourself and never take what others say to heart. They don't know what they are talking about. OK?" That was good to hear. I luv my brother. He may be the youngest (well, younger bro...) but he surely is man of the house and takes care of everyone. Sometimes I feel bad bc though I may be older....due to cultural constraints, he will always be the man in charge and the one with all the responsibility . Though I'm not half of what he is...I always try to help him (so he doesn't carry the burden alone).
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Awwww. I admire the relationship you have with your brother. I wish I could have stronger bonds with mines but it's so hard when they don't talk much with us girls. :(
Happy belated birthday too!
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Awwww. I admire the relationship you have with your brother. I wish I could have stronger bonds with mines but it's so hard when they don't talk much with us girls. :(
Happy belated birthday too!
Thank you very much MSV.
Growing up I was rather close to both of my brothers. (Both are a year either older or younger than I.) Btwn the 2, I am closer to my younger bro. Growing up, it was just my dad and my brothers and I (my mom was in the picture but I was daddy's lil girl and so I followed the boys everywhere and wanted to do everything they were doing). I was kind of a tomboy--a girly one. I played in the dirt with the boys and worms don't scare me....fishing is cool but I also like my lil ponies, barbies, and the lil girl makeup sets and cinderella was so beautiful. This was carried out for most of my life when it came to friendships as well. I'd have 1-2 close gfs but most of my friends were guys. From middle school until now most of the guy friends in my life are mutual friends with my (younger) brother. My younger bro and I were so close (and hung out so much) that some ppl used to think we were either twins or dating. Ewww!
My sister and I had a different relationship. You'd figure with just the one sister that we'd be close but we would fight like cats and dogs. She was five younger than I so we simply weren't into the same things. We didn't have the same friends nor were we ever in the same school together. Any time she was entering a new stage I was making my way out. However, this all changed not only now that we are older but also when she got married a moved away four years ago. I think with time and distance we learn to see things differently and appreciate it all more. Though we still don't see eye to eye....we have more respect for one another now and learned to be patient with each other.
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Visiting my sis out east was great! I had a very nice time....relaxi ng indeed! Got to go with my sis and BIL to their first ultrasound as well. It was surreal but so exciting!
Back to work...reality now--not to mention, back to school. Just a week in. I think this course will not be too hard but I feel the prof is not as relaxed as the others.
I will post pic of my trip....eventu ally. :)
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it's been about two years since i've heard from him and today out of no where he messages me on fb. it's always fun talking to him....but i can never have a serious conversation with him. we flirt a lot and sometimes it can get "steamy" and sexual. however, that gets old. (tis true.) I've known him since junior or senior year in high school but we've never met and honestly, i don't know much about him. oddly, i don't really know y he comes around....he doesn't get anything from me other than the usual, "hi. how r u doing? what's new?" conversation and we go about r days. eh.
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yay, more good news! I just bought myself (a late bday present) a new car. ok, an old new car but hey, it's still new to me. LOL O0 technically this is not my first car.....i had a 81 toyota corona in high school but that one my uncle literally paid $400 for it (it might have been less). this is my very first car purchase of my own. talk about being an adult! LOL over the weekend my bro and i was talking to my cousin (who is a sales rep at toyota) and we were only going to test drive it....guess the skies cleared up today for a reason. LOL (It literally cleared up from the clouds and rain when we pulled up onto the lot.)
it's not about being flashy....just about being practical. i am now a proud owner of my lil 2006 phantom gray pearl toyota matrix (AWD). O0 Just signed up for insurance. Now we're just waiting for the plates to come in.
luv my bro...he's been such great help with this process. (He's the one who saw the car in the first place.) Thanks bro! Ur the best! :)
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Congrats on the car and sounds like you had fun with your sis... O0
Sometimes, distance brings family closer then living together in the same zip code.
Hi Rockin! Wow, ur a mod now? 8) O0
Thanks....alth ough I can drive it, I'm waiting for my plates before I take real "ownership" of my car. For now, it's sitting in the driveway.
Yes, it was a relaxing trip and indeed distance makes things grow fonder (I feel especially w family). This time when I saw her I didn't tear up at the airport. The first time I went to visit, it was maybe two years or so since I last saw her (technically--even though we weren't that close that was the longest i've gone wo seeing my sister ever) after the wedding so when I got off the plane and met her on my way to baggage claim, i could feel my throat close up and my eyes start to steam up and I felt like choking. I was feeling all sorts of emotions and it was off bc my sis and i have never been very affectionate with one another--i held back the tears but she ran to me and gave me a big hug. I think, we both knew then that our relationship, though it was the best when we were young--or even a few years ago, had changed and we had a new found respect and luv for one another. Sisterhood, yep.
Now I'm going to be an auntie and I'm uber excited!!! O0
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Congrats on the auntie.
Thanks! Was attending to my sister most of the time when i was visiting her. only 2 months and she was so tired and exhausted already....I don't know how she will handle her whole pregnancy but i guess that's for my BIL to figure out. LOL
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finally! my plates came in so i'm driving my lil beauty.
on another note....urgh, this class is totally driving me nuts. (then again, everything is!) I should be more concerned but i am at a point where i have too much right now and I just don't care. it surely doesn't help when things are clear and no one seems to be getting any answers. blah. whatever.
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this paper is literally killing me! It's going to be a long night!
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who knows how late I'll be up tonight. I'm at about five pages...I think with three more pages or so I should be able to get all that I need. Let's hope so. Oh...no, not hope. I mean, shoot me for being optimistic. I mean, I know three more pages will be the life of me. There! Bwwahhahahahah ahahahhah!!! :D :D :D :D 8)
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urgh....finall y submitted my paper. i'm at a point where this class is just not worth my time. i know i should say nor think so but eh, i've more and bigger fish to fry right now than worry. ::)
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yeah, i've been bz.
just one more week and I'll finally be done with this ridiculous Leadership course. It's a joke. I have to revise my grant proposal and submit it as well as this last project which is due Thurs. In all honesty, I just don't care for the class. Sad to say...but I'm not really putting in effort as well. ::) Either way, I'm still at a 4.0 and in a sense I hope it stays that way...but seeing how this course has been...it may drop just a tad. Luckily I'll enjoy my next class which starts next week--my diversity class. I like my prof for that class too and I know we won't be left hanging. Thank goodness.
The new car has been running fine. Nothing wrong thus far, which is how it should be.
Work has been going ok. Just going through the motions now.
Boy, I really need to get back into the gym...I can feel my body start to literally tie me down.
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simply put.....life has been complicated and I'm trying to stay afloat.
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Another paper. ::) I'm almost done but I keep finding myself distracted. Just another hour and a half left before it's due. I have about two pages left. OK. FOCUS, FOCUS, FOCUS, FOCUS, FOCUS, FOCUS, FOCUS, FOCUS!!!!!!!!!
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Last week of classes for me this week; thank goodness! I still have this group project and I just don't really care but it still needs to get done. That with finishing things here at the office and having eval meetings in addition to packing and moving by the end of the year. *deep sigh* many times i wish i was still young and stupid and worry/stress free....but that's just in my dreams now.
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so stressed out...my face is surely paying for it. :(
another short paper due tonight and got word that one of my grp members is dropping out (for the semester) so I'm off to do this group project by myself. It's really not hard but I need to sit down and actually devote some time to it.
back to square one with finding a place. ::) it's been frustrating and some ppl r really not being realistic....b ut who am i to say anything? I simply just pay rent. ::)
Oh, I can't wait for my vacation!
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Where are you going for vacation?
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Where are you going for vacation?
no where. Just need to relax n destress.
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it's been about over 6 yrs since I last spoke to this dear friend. He got married and well....let's face it....once ppl get married many tend to stop talking or corresponding with single friends of the opposite sex. He found me on fb last night and i found out that he's back on the west coast, divorced but with gf, and has five (or was it six) kids. he hasn't changed too much....more dirt on that chin. LOL glad to hear that he is doing well and has a beautiful lil family. it's funny how we met and remained friends for so many years. (No, it was never anything romantic.) He's always been a good friend and would call every now and then to say hi or tell me about his budding relationships. I have to admit, I felt bad for him when my friend ditched him when he came to visit her moons ago (after he arrived she realized he was deaf and was rather rude to him). Though we didn't have a romantic connection.... and he wasn't here to visit me....I showed him around town. Yeah, I'd say that one friend was rather rude....but I guess as a high school kid...was I expecting more from her? OK, I was. But oh well.
Just some self reflection.... being that I am single. (Not that I want to date this friend--that's not what I'm implying.) Is that why I'm always the friend and never the gf? I'm too nice or look out for ppl too much that (sometimes even overdoing it) that it is only seen as a nice gesture....alm ost motherly or sisterly-like? I know that I am rather understanding and try my best to get to know ppl (more on an emotional and mental level). I don't mind going out and stuff but a simple conversation is more than enough for me than a night out to the movies.
Eh....just a random thought. 8)
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house hunting has been stressful. please, please make this work.....and see that everyone is willing to go give in a lil here so we all can have a roof over r heads!
That project....? yeah, it's been put on hold now for another few weeks. yes, i've to admit i've been procrastinatin g but things have been coming up and well....it's not done yet. luckily for me, my prof is rather cool. i have another class with her this coming spring. wow, soon it'll be just about a year since i've been in school. Give it another year n a half and I'll be done! Thank goodness!
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xmas was good. ny is around the corner.....goi ng to a friends' bday/ny party. it's a masquerade theme....we'll see what i end up doing.
working on my project today....plan on getting it all done so i can finally turn it in. blah.
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Turned in my project. at least i got it done.
ny was good....hella hungover today...didn't do sh|t. happy 2015 'erone!
moving at the end of the month....thank fully we starting packing a month ago. i've got almost everything in my room done other than my clothes. can't believe after 20 years we are moving out of the house my parents bought. it's definitely bittersweet.
these two weeks of vacay have been relaxing (i've been uber lazy) and i kinda don't want to go back to work on monday but in a sense i'm glad i'm going back to my daily schedule. we don't start tutoring for another month but still many things to do.
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it's a new year, yep. 2015. i don't have any "resolutions" but I really need to work on my health. so back to the gym....keeping an online food log on my fb, no-alcohol (beer and liquor) policy and most importantly, no soda. It might seem like a lot all at once....but I know I can cut out the alcohol as I've done it before...it's the soda and gym time that I must really commit to. I'm ready for a lifestyle change and I need this more than anything...for my health and for my sanity. Let's do this!!!! O0
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It's been a week since I've been on my "new year, new me"...last I checked I'm down 3#s but it could be more. I'm in two fit challenges so I can stay accountable. Thus far, I think I am doing OK. My plan is to go to the gym @ least 3x p/week for @ least 30 min cardio. Anything else will be +. I will be pic logging my food intake. I am cutting myself off of all alcohol (one year I tired to be beer-free and I was successful) so no beer and no liquor this year AND no soda. The alcohol I know will be OK but the soda....my gawd....how I will die but I know cutting it out will do me wonders!
It's only been a week....but I'm very proud of myself. I'm not dieting to say but I'm just more conscious of what I put into my body. I'm also snacking a lot more so I don't eat big meals like I used to.
Urgh, classes start today and I already have a ton of reading. So much stuff going on right now....school, work, needing to move a the end of the month, weight loss, and life. I can feel the stress already.....ba d, huh?
Think positive thoughts....an d use it to fuel myself in othe areas. Common Lisa, you can do this!!!
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...typing up my first assignment for the spring semester...ano ther one due tomorrow. *sigh* so ready to be done w school. :(
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It's been a week since I've been on my "new year, new me"...last I checked I'm down 3#s but it could be more. I'm in two fit challenges so I can stay accountable. Thus far, I think I am doing OK. My plan is to go to the gym @ least 3x p/week for @ least 30 min cardio. Anything else will be +. I will be pic logging my food intake. I am cutting myself off of all alcohol (one year I tired to be beer-free and I was successful) so no beer and no liquor this year AND no soda. The alcohol I know will be OK but the soda....my gawd....how I will die but I know cutting it out will do me wonders!
It's only been a week....but I'm very proud of myself. I'm not dieting to say but I'm just more conscious of what I put into my body. I'm also snacking a lot more so I don't eat big meals like I used to.
Urgh, classes start today and I already have a ton of reading. So much stuff going on right now....school, work, needing to move a the end of the month, weight loss, and life. I can feel the stress already.....ba d, huh?
Think positive thoughts....an d use it to fuel myself in othe areas. Common Lisa, you can do this!!!
Yes, you can do it. Sending you positive energy! :)
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Yes, you can do it. Sending you positive energy! :)
Awww...thanks! I've been so bz with things I've been coming on here (or ph in general) less and less.
It's been almost 3 weeks and I've at least maintained the -3#s but have not lost anything else. I am consistent with meal prep so I stay accountable to my food intake and go to the gym 3x/week. Yesterday I felt like I was going to drop as I walked out with my arms feeling like noodles and the bottom of my feet were sore and burning. It was a good pain. Today I'm not as sore but my back and neck are....those boxing drills with my brother surely got me.
One step at a time. School is now under way and I've got quite a few things on my plate. Though I'm also back at the office my typical bz schedule doesn't start for another week--so for now I'm OK--staying afloat.
We're moving at the end of the month (another added stress) and i have just about everything in a box and ready to go. i''ve moved all but two boxes downstairs so now I just have my bed, a shelf, my wardrobe, and my armoire to take down.
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just something I was thinking about today n wanted to share...
Young ppl, plz remember ur only young 1. Don't grow up 2 fast. Take ur time on this journey we call life. At times the grass will seem greener on other sides than ur own, u will trip and fall, there will be ppl who will catch u and there will b others who will lure u for their on selfishness. In the end the scars and the love only beautifies ur soul. Appreciate words of wisdom and embrace those who tremble to speak. Live to seek happiness but don't forget those sacrificed theirs for yours.
In this fast paced world, it's ez to want to "sit at the big folks table" but realize the person sitting in their chair looking out the window with wrinkles upon their face and frail bones will be reminiscing about how they could turn back the hands of time and be a kid again.
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It doesn't feel like home yet but in time, I guess. We just moved into the new place. It's not exactly what we wanted but when ur running out of time and there isn't much variety you find what is suitable and affordable. So many things wrong though, urgh!
Moviing is a total body workout! I'm hurting just sitting here as I type! Every f'ing fiber of my being is literally sore!
As frustrating as moving can be...it was also very sad. I tried really hard to hold back the tears. It's been a little over two years since the divorce and since we no longer owned the house (but were still tenants since the person we sold it to let us stay and rented it to us) to finally drive away from my childhood was bittersweet... more so bitter than sweet but u know what I mean. Bitter bc it was home....it was what my parents, together, worked hard to provide for us kids; sweet bc this new year has definitely been about change and adjustments. A sign of new and good things to come? Hope so. It was also very sad bc as frustrated as we were with my mom and her packrat of crap she wouldn't let go of, to see her so broken was so much harder. My luv hate relationship w my mom is like no other but in the end she's my mom. We bicker, we argue, and we get on each others' nerves but in the end after arguing we do luv each other....n r own way. I know she left a little bit of her soul with that house this weekend. She literally was so sick that she puked upon reaching the new place and has been bed ridden since Friday. I just hope she can understand and accept that we all have to move on and can't hope for or live in the past. Cause it's really "killing" us and I know it's going to eat her from the inside out. The sad part is no matter what we say or do, it's not enough or good to heal her pain but instead she interprets it as not luving her. *urgh* Yus yog menyuam ces, ua dab tsi los yus yog tus txhaum.
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i can't believe this summer will be a year since i've been in grad school. i just registered for my applied research class this summer n i'll be honest....i'm very nervous. i've got summer camp and my research....ho w am i going to do it all? sometimes, I really don't know how i do what i do....but i does get done. *sigh*
still settling in at the new place. i'm hoping to get my desk next week....most of my stuff is unpacked...mos t. LOL
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my room is coming along. It's been a month since we've been here at the new place and it's starting to feel a lil more like 'home'.
i've been sick lately...colds keep coming n going. urgh....conges ted and then not and then again. so ready for winter to be over with.
finished my third semester...ok, it's not over yet but my two classes for this semester are now over with however, i have my last class for this spring starting tomorrow. I don't even remember what....no, it's Legal Aspec of Student Affairs. Sound like fun eh? Yeah, I guess. I already know my professor is cool but rather hard. He also the Affirmative Action director. It's also weird since we are colleagues but whatever. Gotta get this school done with. I start my research this summer and I'm more concerned about surviving that with my crazy summer camp schedule.
speaking of school...i'm taking a break from writing this darn paper. it's my last thing for this class and i've been procrastinatin g all weekend. it's due at midnight tonight. thank goodness i've already finished my project.
anyway....yes, i'm still alive. barely. but alive.
still food logging as i am on my healthy new me journey. lost a few months in the first month this second month i've not really lost much but i've at least been maintaining what i've lost so i can be proud of that. one thing at a time and small steps. i can't expect big change right away....i'll drive myself crazy with everything i've got going on right now. so let's do this right and the healthy way.
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Yes, I'm still alive.
Still working......s till working on my health......st ill in school.
Nothing new other than.......... .............. .............. as of yesterday evening I am officially an Auntie! O0 :wav: :wav: :wav:
My sister ended having her baby boy a month early last night. He's so cute! (Then again, most babies are.) I'm a very happy auntie and very proud of my baby sis and bil.
....n lastly, yes...a month and a half later and I'm still unpacking.
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the snow is finally gone....it's been raining all day today....but that's just to enable the green and bright colors of spring.
i've got darn research paper due tomorrow night and I've only started looking at my articles and sources. luckily, it's just the draft but still...my prof wants most of my paper completed. i've been procrastinatin g....i can't stand writing these things.......i dunno how i'm going to survive this summer having my applied research. blah!
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found out i got a scholarship for next school year. i don't know which scholarship i got nor how much it is. i have a feeling it's nothing big but it's better than nothing.
since our prof returned our research papers back to us late he extended the final draft to next week instead of this sun. so you can guess how ecstatic i am about that. i've not had time to work on it all week so i most def can use the xtra few days.
things with work haven't been hard but just disappointing as we are coordinating things for summer. just a lil over a month and only half of our teachers r hired and half of r staff r hired. it's frustrating and in the end....we have to work w what we have. urgh, just stressful trying to solve a big puzzle when u don't have all the pieces.
i've been addicted to korean variety shows of a late and i can't get myself to stop watching them. i literally watch at least three episodes a day! i want to catch up to the most recent ones but i'm about a hundred and fifty episodes behind. this has also put a fire under my but and i broke out with my korean books last week for the first time in over four years. starting back at the beginning bc let's face it....i never really started anyway. i've got han geul down for the main part but i'm still very rusty.
speaking of which, i still need to get together my stuff for my chinese class this summer. i will have three students this summer which is one more than last summer. it should be a good summer as they are good kids.
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Just another week left and then I start my research. not to mention, finalizing things for summer camp. I can't wait until after memorial weekend so I can have a few days or a week to myself....yes, that'll be great.
four months later and i finally unpacked my last box yesterday.
haven't worked out in a month or so now....but i'm getting back to my meal preps.
LMAO yesterday i dunno how nyab did it but somehow the handle on the fridge broke as she opened it yesterday. and of course like the clever mom she is, my mom took some white labeling tape and taped it back up. LOL
yep, that's life for me at the moment.
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started my research class this week. hello, note to profs! please do not assign homework which requires students to interview staff or other profs the week of finals. no one has time to meet with anyone.....so how am i going to get this stupid (1 page) paper done? You can't reflect on interview responses if u don't have anyone available to interview. doh! ::)
we haven't had luck hiring staff for this summer as well. two potential residential staff pulled out and another two teachers decided not to commit to their positions not to mention what we were already short staffed. urgh! this is not starting off on a good foot at all.
it's been low-key around here though. i'm broke as ever....and planning on paying some bills and giving my mom some spending money when she goes out to my sisters in a few weeks. so until after memorial week i'm literally counting pennies. :(
On a good note....Hello Kitty Friends Festival is happening the weekend after memorial week in MLPS. Duh, I'm going. Can't wait!!! O0
Though we don't talk much nor do we see one another....... ..i do know what today is. I wish you nothing but great success and complete happiness with u and ur family. Have a happy bday D! :occasion15: :occasion13: :occasion16: :occasion18:
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it's been crazy this week but i'm hitting pavement with all these things i've got to do at work. let's keep it going!
heading out in a bit to take two of my students up north for frosh registration. it is work but i do hope i'll enjoy my time with them. sadly, these kids r growing and every year i have to say goodbye to a new group.
mom's leaving to my sister in two days. it'll be nice for everyone. :D
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woke up to loud arse thunder! i heard big arse "cah-tung-ba-boom" and for a minute i thought some big truck literally crashed into the huge dumpsters outside my window.....but nope, just thunder. i rolled over and went back to sleep.
thankfully the rain is gone--for now. yep, it's summer...can't u tell? LOL
as like any summer....i've got my research class this summer and of course work....it's camp season. the kids moved in last wednesday and today is the first full day of class. they did ok on their pre-test....i feel we'll be reviewing more than anything this week and maybe next week.
i don't even want to think about hw and school. it's been a yr into this program and it's hard to think next year around this time i'll be done. it's kind of scarey to think about actually. when u get "mastership" i feel ppl expect something from u. as if u need to be accomplished and intellectually stimulating or whatever. ::) please...siste r just trying to make a living.
it's been forever....ok, technically maybe a year since i've been on a date or "met" someone. surprisingly, a friend of mine messaged me last night asking about my "singleness". long story short, she introduced me to someone who she said "reminded her of me" since we have similar sense of humor. for now, it's simple "getting to know u". interesting though....inte resting.
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ggggrrrrrrrrrr rrrrrrrrrrrrrr !!!!!!!!!!!!!! So irritated!
and ppl wonder y i don't come home often. ::) after a full week of graduate school, teaching my chinese class, and at camp w 40+ high school kids, and supervising 10 staff, i really don't want to come home to stupid sh|t. the questions, the nagging, the lazy ppl who make me feel like i've done something wrong. wtf mang! i just got home and the last thing i need is more frustration! stop....don't turn me into the bad guy and surely don't make me the fool. i don't expect ppl to appreciate me nor luv me or like me....but plz have some respect for me. family or not....if ur gonna be an arse....i've no time for u nor ur stupid attitude. i do what i can and if u feel that's not enough tell it to my face. i shouldn't have to feel like an outsider nor should i feel like I should be tip toeing around ppls "heart". brotha plz. ::) cry me a river...RRRRR!!!! No. 8)
moving on...i'm so glad it's the weekend! heard some relatives from Arkansas r on their way...haven't seen them in two years. it's always nice to see them; they're the sweetest ppl ever!!!
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i'll b honest, it's always kind of odd when i c guests reading my posts in here.....grant ed, if i didn't want anyone "seeing" into my life...I shouldn't share. but u ever wonder what ppl think or y ppl come and "look into" ur life? eh, no big deal........it's for my sanity and i guess....for ur entertainment (in some way, shape, or form).
carry on. 8)
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finally got my grp project done.
spending my time off simply relaxing. i've been watching nothing but variety shows and dolling myself up to only take some selfies. no, i'm not that narcissistic but when a girl has good lighting and is bored n ur makeup is on point today....gotta take some selfies. LOL
i guess i should head home now. i don't know what "festivities" are awaiting at home...most likely there is nothing. but it would be nice to sleep in my own bed for one night.
yeah, nothing interesting here. eh. hope everyone is having a safe and fun j4.
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hello. i'm still alive. summer literally went by too fast. though i have a little less than a month left i can finally start MY summer this weekend. i've been bz with summer camp and school all summer so i've not had time for anything. i'm taking a break from my proposal (which is due tonight) so thought i'd check in.
it's my 34th bday on sun. can u believe it? i know I can't. i've no plans and honestly, i'd rather not do anything. my bro texted me earlier that my sil wants to have ppl over sat night for my bday or maybe we can go out for dinner....is it bad that i simply do not want to do anything? my sil's bday was a week ago and unlike me, she likes a big celebration. although appreciative, i really do c the fuss in making a big ordeal if ppl just want to get together. plz, don't make my bday an excuse. if u want to hang out and host a dinner--plz do so but not on the account of my bday. do i bc u want to...my bday just happens to be the same day. eh.
we're heading to my sis' in philly the first week of sept. i will finally get to see my adorable nephew! can't wait.
i've been keeping up with my food logs but my workouts have been kaput. I've not worked out all summer...or since May really. It's bad. I'm stressed to the max with work and school but hopefully after this week i'll be able to get back to my regular workout schedule. let's hope so. blah.
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It feels like forever since I've been on here. Well, probably bc it has. If I think about it not much has changed or happened but at the same time there definitely is change.
Things at home have been eh, OK. We were looking to buy a house...but long story short, it didn't go through. The homeowners are idiots! They bought their house for $119,000 put in a sprinker system and decided to put the house up for $150,000. I don't remember the exact lot size but it definitely was not worth the $150,000 they were asking. Granted it was fairly new (6 yrs). Anyway, we didn't bite as they had hoped and have put house hunting on the back burner.
I finally saw my adorable nephew labor day weekend. My brother, SIL, and three other friends went to visit my sister and her family in Philly that weekend. It was a short trip but I really only went so I could see and spend time with my nephew. Too bad he was sick with an ear infection the entire time but he's so good, you'd not know he was sick unless you were told. Everyone spent most of the time shopping. It was definitely different from my other trips when I go out to visit them.
HNY was good. I improvised with my hmong outfit and it worked out well. Got some new jewelry, met some new ppl, and ate some good food. The weather was AWESOME too! Couldn't have asked for a better ny! O0
I'm in my last year of school and just started my second class for this fall. My first class is a continuation of my Applied Research Project which I've had to submit my proposal I've drafted last week. This second class is a Financ and Governance class of institutions in higher education. I have a case study due in two or three weeks and a research paper due at the end of the semester not to mention my final proposal I have to submit. I can't believe I will be graduating next May! OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG!
So recently I've been VERY stressed! Y? My supervisor has finally announced her departure from our program. Her husband has taken a job........... ...in NC. She's been very honest with me from the beginning when they had him go down for training at the end of summer. He's been home a total of two weeks since then. At that point nothing was certain up until last week. They are trying to sell their house now (which they just bought last year) and she has been looking for a job. As soon as one of those things happens she is set to go or will leave at the end of the semester at the latest. So y am I stressed? She has approached me and encouraged that I apply for her director position. I have thought about it but the more that this is becoming real I more I am nervous. Grant year is coming up and I am honestly not confident in my writing skills. I don't want to mess up this grant and have our program go under or get denied. That's A LOT of pressure!!! There are many other things I know administrative ly I have yet to experience or learn thus I have doubts whether or not I can do the job. Yes, I am definitely lacking confidence right now but more than anything I am simply scared. Fortnately, after my mental breakdown in her office yesterday (and meeting with a mentor and colleague) I was very surprised and flattered that many automatically assumed I'd step up to the plate. My supervisor assured me that everyone behind me is supportive and wanting me to take the next step. Again, that's A LOT of pressure. I feel like the the whole world is literally on my shoulders...an d if I drop it.....BAM, it's over! If anything, I am scared but I really don't want to disappoint anyone.
I also have one dilema. The assistant director has been here since forever. He was even here when I was a student in the program. I know this is something I have to get over but I still see myself inferior to him. Although we are colleagues I do what I am expected of and he does the same. My supervisor thinks I will "get over" that if I am the director and in all reality it's not like I'll be pushing him around. We shared tasks and we use our talents to our advantage. He's had several tiimes to take the lead but has chosen not to. True.
Yes, I have a few things to think about indeed. I am meeting with another colleague who was the former advisor and coincidently, was my tutor when I was a student in the program. I feel talking to her, who has gone through this same situation, will help me make my decision. I sure hope so at least.
*sigh*
On a good note...seeing my sister and nephew again this weekend. I am picking them up at the airport so we can attend my uncle's funeral this weekend. It's going to be a long weekend and I'm literally at my sister's service. Eh. At least I'll see my lil man. :)
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Sad but my uncle was put to rest now. RIP Yawg Laus PC.
I did get to c my nephew and sister since they came for the funeral. Once again, my nephew was sick with a fever this time. He was still very good and a happy baby though. We got to spend some time with my cousins and my niece as well. It's always good to see them. I spoiled the heck out of my niece and nephew too.
Update on the job...after several meetings and some reflection, I've decided to take the interim position. This way I can at least get my feet wet and if things go well I can toss my hat in the bag for the director position. I'm still hesitant but knowing I have great support behind me I feel more assured about my decision. O0
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I can't believe it....just one more semester.
If I thought 2015 was the year of change...boy will I be pushing through with more change in this coming year. Gritting through it all and needing to persevere! You can do it Lisa!
Since I'm here.....happy holidays PHers. I don't come on too often anymore....lif e has been demanding so I don't have time as I used to. (And quite frankly, PH hasn't really been the same for me.)
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Eh...it's been blah lately but that's nothing new.
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well, the good new is that you're going to be awesome! O0
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well, the good new is that you're going to be awesome! O0
Awww....thnx! O0
How have you been? Hope 2016 is going well for you!
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wow...just in and i c 5 guests perusing through my journal here. r u enjoying my mundane life? :D
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Yes, I submitted my last project on Sunday. O0 I'm finally done! I can't believe two years went by so fast! :wav: :wav: :wav:
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I heard it's going to be hella hot this weekend in Cali but I'm glad I finally have the chance to go on a short sister trip to visit my grandma in Fresno. It's just for the weekend but we needed to go see her before she gets too old and weak.
I may meet up with some (former) phers.
Overall, it's exciting other than the drive from LA. Regardless, I'm ready for sun, food, family, friends, and shopping!!! O0 O0 O0
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Decisions, decisions, decisions. A lot of thinking to do and reflection. What do I want and what will I have to compromise for it?
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summer has been stressful and i've had several meltdowns due to work. i got promoted and am now the director of my program since our director left in january (her hubby got promoted and had to move to NC). unfortunately i have just one other staff, who does NOTHING, so work has been stressful. having to manage everything and make sure my kids are all safe and no one is dying, really.
at least i finished grad school and got that over with. i dunno what i'd do if i had grad school while doing camp this summer. i swear, this was the summer to test me with everything all summer. "Let's throw everything at her and see just how much she can take until she breaks!" at least that's what it felt like. i definitely broke down a few times and had my haha-fest but never did i say i'd give up. if anything i was looking how to get over the hurdle and keep on trucking. *sigh* made it to the end of camp....now just wrapping things up.
transition. yep, that's where i'm at. i feel like i've been there forever and especially now with work.
i'll be turning 35 on Tuesday. 35. i don't feel old but some days my body tells me differently and some days my kids definitely give me the indication that i am old. LOL i've no plans...it's a weekday. if need be, i can celebrate when my sister, BIL, and nephew get here labor day weekend. yes, we'll celebrate then....it'll also my my lil bro's bday too so we'll celebrate everything then.
can't wait to see my cute lil man, my nephew Sawyer. he's so adorable but a big brat. i guess when ur the only child and gma and gpa spoil the heck out of ya u end being a huge brat. either way he's still my lil man. too cute for time out and too adorable to get yelled at. LOL
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we're moving (again). my bro and SIL bought a house and we are to be moving next weekend. i started packing but since most of my stuff is already in a box or storage bin of some sort i really don't need to pack my thins in a box. *sigh* wish i could just snap my fingers and get it all done with.
work has been coming together OK. Thankfully, I got two other staff now and the one staff that does nothing has been put in check. He knows his butt is on the line. That's right, don't fawk with me.
2017 is just around the corner....can't help but think what i will encounter next year. I guess we'll just have to wait and c. 8)
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what do i even say? i try and i do what i can but it seems to never be enough. what do u want from me? i look out for u n do my part but if this keeps up i can't c myself staying. i'm not asking for much or for anything. all i want is some respect. simply said but difficult to do. i guess.
as the yr is coming to an end i look back and for the last few years there's something in each that i find myself lost in or slipping away one thread at a time w. i do what i can and i try to take the higher ground but y am i the one who ends up disappointed? perhaps it's just me who over analyzes too much but i can't help that i consider others...even if it's before me.
....a plz, don't take out ur frustrations w the world on me! i'm certainly not n the mood nor do i deserve to deal w or hear ur crap.
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wow, jan 1, 2017. we're here. alive. breathing. all is good i guess. eh, yeah. 8)
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...still unpacking and organizing in the new place.
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新年快乐！Happy lunar new year! It's my year this year. Haven't looked into what this year is suppose to entail but I will be heading out here to get some goodies to make today. We don't celebrate it but it's been my way of celebrating and remembering all the awesome friends I've made while abroad. Nothing elaborate but it will be yummy!
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my maternal grandpa passed last month and we went to the funeral this past weekend. it was bittersweet.
one thing that kept coming to the surface all weekend, COMMUNICATION is key to everything!!! W/o good communication, misunderstandi ngs will always lie at ur feet.
starting to plan for summer already...eh.
got myself a mattress so i don't have to sleep on the floor or air mattress anymore. still looking for my bed frame though. blah.
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things are getting better....
...wish i can say the same about my moms' health.
summer is underway and I am trying to scramble to get things align. sometimes i question y i am still doing all this.
...then again, sometimes I question everything all together. *sigh*
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It's been months since I've been on here.....work is work. fam is fam. Nothing much has changed. eh.
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Got some good news yesterday. I will be an auntie (again)! :wav: :wav: :wav:
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Got some good news yesterday. I will be an auntie (again)! :wav: :wav: :wav:
Congrats dear!
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Congrats dear!
Thank you! Can't wait to see if it will be a niece or another nephew. Secretly (OK, my SIL knows I'd like a niece), I'd like a girl but that would mean three girls vs. the one guy in this house-my brother. U know he is hoping for a boy. LOL ;D ;D ;D
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Thank you! Can't wait to see if it will be a niece or another nephew. Secretly (OK, my SIL knows I'd like a niece), I'd like a girl but that would mean three girls vs. the one guy in this house-my brother. U know he is hoping for a boy. LOL ;D ;D ;D
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Update! I guess I have been a good girl bc Santa says I am an aunty to a healthy niece!!! Yaaassss!!!
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Anymore pix of food?
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Anymore pix of food?
haha, there’s always more pix of food. That hasn’t stopped. I just really come on here anymore tho.
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Yes, still alive.
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Can't believe the year is coming to an end soon. A lot has happened this year but I am looking forward to new opportunities and possibilities with the new year. I've been away from here and in all honesty, I can't keep track of all the aliases so I just don't bother.
Each day there is a new struggle yet there we find peace at the end of the day (and hopefully laughter here and there as well).
Work is OK; could be better but we/you do what we/you can and carry on. As long as I know I am doing my part and doing my best that's what matters.
My niece and nephew are growing day by day and I love being an aunty. I don't mind that things would simply stay that way. The niece is so cute and as of now I am a little biased bc she lives with me so I definitely shower her with luv, kisses, and hugs more than my nephew but he will always have my heart. Other than that....things with the siblings r good. My parents still drive me crazy and as usual, it's still all a working progress--our relationships that is.
Speaking of relationships. I'm still single (which is OK with me). Currently, I have been talking to someone (long distance-no, not from Thailand or anywhere in Southeast Asia) for about 9 months now. I'm not sure if anything will really come out of this as I feel we both are working on our careers and let's face it, I think we both are not quite sure how real things can get since we are oceans apart. I am in no way wanting to push or pressure for anything. It's fun and I enjoy "strolling" through this park than running through it. No surprise, he doesn't share his feelings much and with some language and cultural barriers I have been as transparent as possible with him. At least I know now that I have to be in order to not take things out of context and misunderstand one another. He also has come to know what it is that I need in how he should communicate with me and be as transparent as he can with me as well. We're both learning and we're both hesitantly or frighteningly taking small steps to work on this budding relationship. I like that I don't feel pressure nor have to be a certain way in a typical cat and mouse chase. I also don't like titles and labels as I feel sometimes ppl then want to play the role of something and I'm definitely all about my emotions and the feels rather than the title. I am being cautious but smelling the roses as well. Yes, you can say I am happy where I am and with whatever I have sitting before me.
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will be on winter vacation since students will be finishing up with finals and home as well. nothing planned since i have a cruise in april with the girls but it'll be good to sleep in and spend some qt with my adorable niece. yep, eat, sleep, play, veg, lounge, do nothing. what a life!
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will be on winter vacation since students will be finishing up with finals and home as well. nothing planned since i have a cruise in april with the girls but it'll be good to sleep in and spend some qt with my adorable niece. yep, eat, sleep, play, veg, lounge, do nothing. what a life!
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Which cruise line are you going with and where?
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Which cruise line are you going with and where?
Hey you! How have you been? I hope all is well with you mister!
Cruise? Which one? Ha, wouldn’t you like to know. LOL :D I am going with some girlfriends on a 4-day Royal Caribbean cruise to the Bahamas. It’s actually a bachelorette party/cruise since my friend is getting married. Never gone on a cruise before and have always wanted to.
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Hey you! How have you been? I hope all is well with you mister!
Cruise? Which one? Ha, wouldn’t you like to know. LOL :D I am going with some girlfriends on a 4-day Royal Caribbean cruise to the Bahamas. It’s actually a bachelorette party/cruise since my friend is getting married. Never gone on a cruise before and have always wanted to.
Wow, how exciting is that? Would love to go on one, but as for now, you go and tell me about it later. The bahama sounds like a true vacation, and beautiful to say the least. Post some pictures so we can enjoy it with you... ;) ;)
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Wow, how exciting is that? Would love to go on one, but as for now, you go and tell me about it later. The bahama sounds like a true vacation, and beautiful to say the least. Post some pictures so we can enjoy it with you... ;) ;)
Finally on vacay but not heading out until tomorrow to catch our flight out to Miami. We’ll be staying there for the night and day before heading onto the ship on Sunday. I still have to pack! ;D
I def need this trip but in ways it’s causing a bit of anxiety. If only money grew on trees. I have already invested so can’t turn back now. Urgh, just so much I know is coming up with work and with family I feel after I come back from this trip I will get hit with a ton of bricks! Ahhhh!!! :-[
I don’t post much of pics on here anymore (let alone come on) but we’ll c. If ur friends with me on FB u will def c—after the cruise. O0
Hope all is well with you WISG! 8)
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:wave: Hello! I just finished my six week residential summer camp. I am exhausted beyond belief but I have been doing this for the past nine years and nothing surprises me anymore when it comes to working with high school students. In the next week I will be taking some students to Valleyfair and then the week of my birthday coincidently I will be taking another group, our seniors, to Orlando to Disney World. This summer certainly is a busy one!
Other than that there’s nothing new with me I’m just catching up on my sleep and spending time with my little lady, niece, Cia Siab. At times I wonder how everyone is doing. You know, the OG PHers. Since I do not come on as often anymore I have no clue who is who now. Either way, I hope everyone is healthy and well.
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Hi, Luvlylisa! I was MIA from PH for a long time also but my crazy boss got let go awhile ago so life has been a lot better for everyone, hence, I'm able to breathe a bit more. But still, life is busy. You should come back to PH when you have time. So many new names though so I don't even know anyone anymore except for the old names. Hope you are well!
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I have started packing for Orlando but I still have to pack my clothes for the week and grab last minute stuff which I will probably do it tomorrow before we leave on Monday. We will be there for a week. I’m taking my seniors on this Orlando trip and we are going to the Kennedy Space Center, Disney World, Clearwater beach, college visits to Savannah College of Art and design and the University of Central Florida. On our last day we will be stopping by Icon Park n an outlet mall before we head home. It will be all of our first time at Disney World and coincidently we will be at Disney World on the day of my birthday. I don’t want and haven’t been celebrating my birthday ever since I turned 30. Only a few of my staff know that my birthday falls on this week however I do not think anyone knows it what day my birthday is. I rather keep it that way. I know we will have a lot of fun but I also know that it will be very exhausting. It is also hurricane season so we anticipate the rain even though we are not looking forward to it. I will go prepared!
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Disney World was OK. Orlando was OK. Definitely didn't care for the heat and humidity nor did the rain help but at least the students enjoyed what they could have of the experience.
Winding down the last of things for this last part of summer before the college students return and we start hiring for fall semester and ramping up our fall calendar of events.
My room is a mess and I don't care to do anything about it for now. Blah! ::)
We weren't dating exclusively--just talking. Although I am a bit disappointed in how it ended I can't really be upset. If anything, I appreciated what it was at the time and enjoyed what we had. I've no ill feelings and I've never been one to ask for anything in return nor expect much to begin with. I don't like being rushed or pushed nor do I do that to others. I am genuine and sincere n if ppl can't do the same then it's best to part ways when u don't c eye to eye. Thank you but time to move on.
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Life. It's been so hectic that I completely forgot that this weekend is Labor Day weekend and that I have an extra day off. I even thought it was Wednesday yesterday. ::) Yeah, my mind has been a million places yet I feel like I haven't been anywhere at the same time.
No plans since I didn't even realize it was Labor Day weekend. if anything, I just want to be alone and have some solitude. That's it. Yep. Kthnxbye.
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Goodness Lisa, I didn’t know you still kept this journal. Good job!
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Goodness Lisa, I didn’t know you still kept this journal. Good job!
It is the only thing I kind of come back here for. Otherwise, I poke around elsewhere but since I don’t recognize that many ppl I just troll n leave-I don’t even bother w commenting or posting.
This has been my own selfish way of logging my own thoughts n moments in time so I can come back n c where I have been. That’s all it really is....n a form of therapy but it has been less of that n the last yrs.
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Hump day today! :wav:
Nothing new. Work and more work. I swear my new supervisor has me running circles all the time. Urgh!
Anyway, Hmoob New Year is in the next week. I have to clean my jewelry, my room, and figure out what I want to wear this year. I think I will try something different from what I have in my closet. We'll c. 8)
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It was Hmoob Eat Thirty this weekend here. Of course it rained both days. ::) We will never escape the rain no matter if we have it in late Sept or Oct. Stupid silly but it is the truth. We can’t hide from it. I mean, at least it didn’t snow this year. :D
I am glad I got to add several Hmoob earrings to my collection. If only necklaces and neck-wear/gear wasn’t so expensive n I could actually find something that I liked. SIGH
Being a big girl, I always avoid looking at clothes-especially Hmoob clothes. What’s the point. I hate how vendors try to lure u n to buy their goods but sister knows ain’t nothing going to fit me-clothes or jewelry (necklaces, rings, and/or belts). I don’t think ppl know how much money they can make if they b more inclusive n have big girl/people sizes. I am loyal n if u have something I know I want, I WILL b loyal as long as u have what I want/need since it’s so hard to find anything that will accommodate my size (n is cute)! I told a lady today that her rings wouldn’t fit me (nor would her bracelets or belts). “Oh, tej zaum yeej muaj cov haum ma.” I tried her ring on my pinky finger bc I knew it was too small (maybe a size 5 or 6...I normally wear a 9/10 bc of my fat fingers). She was taken aback and was like, “oh, g haum as.” No duh, lady. I was trying to tell u that. She then said to look at her bracelets which I wasn’t even going to bother trying on-no point. I told her jokingly, “peb yog cov nkauj loj loj, nej twb tsis xav txog peb cov loj loj es. Yog nej xav kom peb yuav mam yuav tsum muaj cov haum haum peb ma.” All she could say was, “oh yog ma. Yuav tsum muaj cov haum haum nej tiamsi tsis muaj ne. Koj lam sim seb cov twg lam haum ma.” Still trying to get me to try. ::) I know she was hustling but my gf n I just wanted away to the vendor across to look at other stuff.
Three vendors down though we found these cute ass Hmong skirts that had elastic waistbands and they were a tad shorter (and quite vibrant in color-which I prefer) which is perfect for the short and stubby me. Sadly, they were $80 n it was the last stop we made so I had no more cash on me. My gf n I were trying on several skirts since we saw that they would fit us. The old lady was sweet but she said she was in STP but didn’t have a store at Hmong Village (or anywhere else) so if I wanted one, I had to get it then and there. I was a bit disappointed but I have a feeling I will hopefully be able to find them again. It was my one regret this weekend. Again, when u r a big person u go to where u not only r accepted but also welcomed n where things r accessible to u.
Overall, HNY was OK. Less ppl due to weather and not many playing sports like back n the day but it’s still r new year.
On another note. Let me just put this out here so I can sleep tonight. Don’t mind me.
Everyone is struggling in their own way. We all r writing r own story. Unless someone asks u to contribute n some way—don’t take their story n pen things n ur narrative. It’s not ur story to write-heck, it’s not ur story. U rn’t even n it so y do u feel u r being spoken to? No one said anything to u nor asked let alone begged u for help. If anything, we know u don’t want to nor would even offer. Plz, don’t make this about u bc it was never about u to begin w.
Kthnxbye.
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Oh :hello: hi guests. I c there is/was 6 guests here reading/trolling. I don’t mind. I don’t know for what reason u r here for or that u value what I have to say/share but thanks for strolling n. Hope it helps u pass time, learn a few things, share my pain or frustration, and/or entertain u. O0
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What’s up Doc? Valentines Day today. Nothing new. I’m more excited it is Friday. It’s hella cold out here...-15 degrees today. As much as I don’t want to go outside I will have to go to work. Yeah, work. That’s all that has been consistent w me.
Other updates, my niece is 20 months now n talking a bit. She one trouble maker but so cute at the same time!
Technically, this is a first that I have a valentines this year. Don’t get too excited or it twisted. Just been talking for a month...so it’s far from any relationship or anything. That’s all I will say for now. O0
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Life has been complicated in the last month. COVID-19 pandemic definitely has thrown everyone for a loop and if ppl can just stay their arses at home and wear masks....no worry about their darn seat at the bar, nails, or hair and rather their lives then we'd be in a better state.
Anyway, I am job searching at the moment. I never thought I'd be ending my time with my students but work has been toxic and although I wanted to have my own say in how I say goodbye to my students I guess I have to be OK with how things are.
I am just glad that I have been able to keep my integrity when it came to my professional career. That is very important to me and I find it sad that some of my mentors and supervisors have given up themselves for their cushiony seat. Sad. Just sad. Well, on to the next-no one to pay these bills but me.
My niece is two yo now. She is still a stinker, so sassy but still so cute. Her parents definitely have their hands full when she grows older. She may be quite the rebel. Lil miss princess indeed and her daddy is completely wrapped around her finger but he is quite impatient with her.
I am no longer "talking" to anyone. These guys. I like to have fun too but there is just no substance in anyone. I also may be too old fashioned. In a partner, I am looking for a good companion. Someone who wants to share their day-to-day, ambitions, fears, and stupid jokes with me. I want more than a friend but I want someone who sees me like their best friend as I would them. Is that too much to ask? Eh, no biggie. I've got other things to worry about before stressing about boys. ::)
Thanks for tuning in. Kthnxbye! O0 :hello:
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So my Nyab confirmed it.....I will be an auntie to my third niece/nephew around May next year! Yay! I dunno how they will do it w another child..they can’t even handle their princess right now but that’s on them. I’m sure the baby will b a cutie though!
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Got the first dose of COVID vaccine (moderna) at work last week. Won’t be for until the end of the month before I get my second dose.
I am said to go n at least once a week to my office-at least that is what I told my supervisor I’d do once I get vaccinated. I really don’t want to though. ::)
The bro n SIL’s baby will b here n a month. I am excited but not sure the niece is. LOL 😆
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Just thought I'd post this here. Someone asked me to share what I thought about true luv and how I want to be treated in a relationship. So here goes... O0
Hello mister. Hello. How are you doing? I hope this email reaches you when you are well rested and with the sun fill blue skies.
So you want to know how I feel about luv? Or you want to know what my definition of true luv is? I'm very much a hopeless romantic (I watch enough heart wrenching Korean/Chinese dramas to dream about what luv should be. However, I am rather practical and a realistic at heart. So as much as I may watch and root for the ugly duckling of Cinderella's to get the charming and successful prince, I know it's "just a dream." Reality doesn't work that way.
True luv? As I've said before, I believe in the concept of luv but I truly have not experienced it myself. So in ways, it isn't "real" to me yet. I also don't believe in the titles. What constitutes the title of boyfriend and girlfriend? Other than a ceremony and a legal documentation, what constitutes a marriage? Some ppl let the title define them and they give into the role of their title. They do things they think boyfriends, girlfriends, husbands, wives are expected to do but maybe they really don't want to. Personally, it's not sincere or genuine then. Again, I am someone who doesn't like to put expectations on others however, if I see their true actions executed in wanting to be with me, remembering things about me, going out of their way to do things for me (holding the door for me, ordering food for me that I want, holding my hand, or getting something out of my hair) shows me not only that they genuinely care but that they pay some attention to me. I don't want to be waited on or smothered but it's nice to know that someone is thinking of me and my well being. That someone thinks the world of me....that I can be happiness for someone. That is a nice feeling. I think that is what true luv is. Letting someone in while wanting to be the best of friends with your partner and returning the same respect, support, care, and luv back. I too, would luv a relationship when I can connect with someone so well that we don't have to say a word to each other...just one look and we both know what the other person is thinking. Or if we are talking that we can literally finish each other's words. I also think having the same sense of humor is also helpful. It adds to the chemistry that is already there. Lastly, I think no matter what, true luv is purely unconditional. Ultimately though, I have also learned that true luv is when you are selfless. It means whole heartedly luving someone and wanting them to be happy---even if it means w/o you.
How do I want to be luved or treated? In all honesty, if if all of the above is true in my partner then this person will be charmingly honest with me and respect me-all of me, my physical appearance, my personality, my intelligence, my values, my emotional and spiritual well being as well as my flaws. I don't need sweet words in my ear. If anything that can be rather annoying and irritating if it is excessive. I'm not a girl that needs to be swept off my feet. I'm pretty independent so I don't need a lot of praise. Maybe just a helping hand (especially in high places since I'm so short LOL ;D). They will be sensitive to my emotions but also know when to give me a kick in the butt when I am feeling unmotivated and/or down. They will know how to support me when I can't find the drive to get out of bed or cheer me on when I lack the confidence. I don't want them to go out of their way to do things for me but at least find ways to keep my attention. They will battle the struggles in my life with me and be there to celebrate when I have successes and will also welcome me as their cheerleader and my support during their tough times. They will also have me by their side to share the joy in their accomplishment s. I'd like someone who just doesn't want to be my luver but wants to be my confidant and most importantly, a companion. However, as much as we want to be together we will also understand we need to have our own space and time apart as well. I think this is important. It's not to say that we have to physically stay apart but having our own alone time, time with our own friends, or doing hobbies separately is important.
Deal breakers for me are liars and cheaters (I see them as the same thing bc if you're cheating then you're already lying). I also do not care for men who are disrespectful (especially to women, children, and the elderly) and I don't like ppl who use derogatory language.
Thank you for sharing what your views are on true luv and how you want to be treated in a relationship. It was nice to know. I feel you are rather more romantic than I am. Just an observation. LOL ;)
Might sound like a lot and maybe it might be complex...whic h is y I'm still single; but I'm not complaining. When u ask, I simply gave the answer. 8)
Kthnxbye!
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Urgh, so suffocating.
Anyway, the niece's third bday was celebrated this weekend. It was hot so eventually we brought out an inflatable kiddie pool. It was a small party but dayem....we were all exhausted.
Anyway, just three more days and my nephew will b here! So excited but I'm not looking forward to my aunty duties for this next week n a half.
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The nephew is now to be 5 and a half months. He's drooling like no other and just learned how to roll over. He luvs his jumper n enjoys conversation. Always smiling if someone is talking to him. Otherwise, just poops and pees and cries for now.
The niece is sick today. I came home to hear her mom say that she puked three times today. Had to run to the store to get some meds for her while nyab gave the nephew a bath. Yep, aunty duties.
Otherwise, my mom has been in the hospital for three weeks tomorrow. Mom had a stroke a few weeks back. It was scary n I was the one that found her n her car. Well, she was honking her horn like crazy bc her left side was completely numb and she could not move. She dropped her phone and keys so she couldn't call us. It was about 7:30pm. Luckily, she had good instincts when she was at her garden (which is about 30 min drive away from r house) as she felt her body was kind of off and was scared so she came home; parked her car and then it happened. She was so scared she pissed herself. I got her out but didn't really realize what had happened until I had to leave her on the curb bc I couldn't get her up over it since she couldn't move her left foot. I didn't want to drop her (cause I almost did). Nyab was inside with the kids and she can't even open a jar of chili oil so there was no way I could ask her to come help me with mom. We called the ambulance and got her to ER. Luckily enough they said that we caught it early and no operation was needed. She's been in rehab for two weeks now with OT n PT. Although she still is working on walking (she hasn't quite been able to put a lot of weight on her left foot) she at least has made improvements in getting strength back in her left arm and leg. She's a fighter but so negative and pessimistic. It's toxic being with her every day but I'm her daughter and despite our luv-hate relationship I am one of the few who is rather empathetic to her n her needs. I wished my other siblings would be more considerate.
Anyway, times like this is typically stressful but I know she will be OK and make it through. I am learning to be a better person n more appreciative person from this experience n hopefully, a better daughter.
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Urgh, how long will he keep telling lies or spinnin this story of his? I mean, it's sort of entertaining but at the same time-eh. G k. ::)
The big bro is back in town to pick up his car and visit mom. After the hospital visit today we drove out to Rochester to have dinner. Dinner was eh too. Too many ppl so food was fresh n even though the variety is more than what we can find n r dinky small city here...they took forever to replenish dishes and/or if u didn't watch carefully-u'd get nothing but "old" food or the stuff no one eats (the veggies or plain low mien).
Mom is supposed to get discharged on Tuesday next week but she has a UTI and other things r all whack so most likely she won't be home anytime soon.
I always knew my big bro was her fav....but I really saw it for myself two days ago. He really can do no wrong n her eyes. I know if I said or did anything like him she'd tell me I'm a b|tch n completely throw shade n fury at me. But nope, my brothers can do no harm n she doesn't bat an eye or frown but tells me I'm not only the worst daughter of hers or human being ever. I am not trying to win any brownie pts whatsoever w her but at least acknowledge that I am human n I, too, have feelings n emotions. Afterall, I am a reflection of u.
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Update...my mom did not come home today. The dr wanted to keep her for another day or so due to low sodium and to have another CT scan done just to double check. We had a meeting today with some of her care team about home care for her when she does get discharged. Family. Talk. Decisions. Stuff.
I really need to make time to study my Korean and review my Chinese more. I've been putting that off for the longest time. But on the flip side....I kind of been "studying" Korean with all the shows/movies/dramas that I watch. O0
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At the end of the day...I guess it really doesn't matter. No, I don't matter. So y do I even bother? ???
Toxicity is real. Trauma is real. Abuse is real.
Guess, I am not tho. :'(
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What a long day! I have no regrets.....on ly wished I can have more patience-with everything.
Anyway, mom came home today. It's been quite the transition for everyone but we'll be OK. With time we'll all adjust and see where we need to make other accommodations .
Now I finally have some time to myself. Not gonna watch my kdrama tonight. Running Man it is!
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Didn't get to watch RM.
Another long day. I'm up in arms n feel like a lost abused puppy. Lost? Sometimes I feel like a stray too. Or r they the same?
U said u came back for me? Is that pity? Maybe a form of luv...n a weird way I appreciate that but n another way I wished u would have not bothered to think of me n such a way. Things may have been very different but at the same time it may have been best--but we'll never know will we?
Do you ever feel like you just want to run? Literally just get up and go and have absolutely no worries, no care n the world, n just like that-fly? I hate feathered things or birds in general but I envy that they can fly and soar with the wind against their face/feathers n at least feel free.
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I can't believe I haven't come to rant or put thoughts down for almost a year (about 8 months).
Work is work-nothing has changed there. You can say that's a good thing. If anything, I am glad I'm no longer in a toxic environment n my supervisor actually appreciates me for once.
Things at home have been OK-for the most part. The kids r growing n I have a lil mini me-although I don't think her mom likes that she tends to be more like me-n the nephew is finally walking-still kinda drunk like, I call it drunken milk walking-but at least he's walking. He's also a bit colicky so he sticks mostly to his parents n is always crying but he does like his aunty when mommy n daddy r not around as well.
Mom hasn't been the best n if anything, very defiant. We can't reason w her anymore so now we just don't bother nor say anything. Regardless, we r always the "bad guy" so we've just given up. In levels of safety, it's bad and it is dangerous but again, she won't listen n is too stubborn. We could put her n a facility (what I am sure my nyab hopes for ::) but that's not going to happen) to ensure that everyone is safe but then we would be the low-life ungrateful children who didn't luv r mom.
J4 weekend, my sis n her fam came which prompt my older bro n two cousins n their fam to all come n visit together. It was nice to c everyone-the house was packed-but it was a lot of fun seeing all the kids (for some it was their first time meeting). If anything, we also learned to will need to make a trip out east for my sis and BIL's npe laus party in early summer. I'm excited n I know others r too but I just hope it will be a nice trip/time w as lil to no drama as possible. Is it bad to say that I hope my dad n his wife don't make it? I mean, we all r skeptical of them attending already since they've not shown up for anything already in the last two yrs anyway (funerals, weddings, etc.). :dontknow: Guess we'll have to wait n find out eh.
So, I have had a TT for maybe two yrs now but literally didn't do anything on there the first yr. Thanks to the last yr n being bored n addition not being able to really post on YT (editing just sucks) I prefer the TT platform with shorter vids. It's also a huge rabbit hole-yeah, u can def find me scrolling for hrs in bed regardless of morning or night. :2funny: I don't post anything outrageous though. Some food/mukbangs, vlogs n vids of my aunty time/life, clothing/makeup hauls, but I mainly wanted to share vids about the HMoob language (which I started to do on my YT). However, this past yr was overwhelming for me n a lot of areas of my life n I started a "Diary of a HMoob Daugther" series. Just my personal rants from my experience of being a HMoob daughter. Granted, the experience is of mine thus, may not resonate w everyone-that's OK-but hopefully, others know they do not feel alone n the space of being just that-a HMoob daughter.
Anyway, if ur reading this-thanks for "checking-in" or for being nosy. :D O0 Kthnxbye
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Yes, I'm still alive. 8)
It's been a lil over a yr n well, we indeed went to Philly n attended my sister n BIL's npe laus celebration. Made it a huge family affair n spent a week n a half out there-even got some family qt out n Ocean City for a few days. It was my mom's first time seeing the ocean. My dad n his wife showed up n although I thought it would be awkward-it was in the beginning, I was able to talk to him (sort of); heck, I even bought his wife a gift (of course I got something for my mom as well). To sum it up, it was a nice trip. Exhausting but good.
Work has been a bit chaotic with storage of staff n several transitions w ppl coming n going (resulting n several assignment shifting) but n another week we will have a full team again n will hopefully have caseloads set n finalized (for good) this time. I've been w this job now for three yrs n I've had to relearn things or unlearn bad habits w my boundaries but I'm proud of myself for realizing this n fixing it so I don't continue it n this role. I have also realized while learning to (re)set my boundaries I have observed that not everyone is willing to b a team player. I say this bc I knew when we were short staff n overwhelmed w our caseloads as is, but having to take on more programs n caseloads was a no brainer. U can't just drop or not serve students. But no one was willing to step up n take more. I had to break the silence n step up; told the new manager in order to serve students-even if I didn't the know the programs-I'd get familiar w them but will not cut out students. Unfortunately, it came to b just two of the six of us who stepped up. That was disappointing to actually see that my team (many who have been here for a long time) didn't want to step up (we stared at each other n Zoom for about a good silent 3-4 minutes-that's a long time to be silent and have no one unmute via video). Anyway, we have two new staff now but we're still in transition n caseloads will b a lil more manageable. We hope so at least. I did get word that we are now approved to have at least two remote days (campus-wide for staff) so I will definitely be requesting for another remote day (espec. when I found out that I was the only staff who was told I had to work four days on-campus while others had more options of remote-would have not been a problem had I not know that others had a choice where I didn't). Anway, other than that, work has been the same. Meeting with students, assisting them with their usual academic goals/issues/questions.
I really wanted to travel more this year but just didn't happen. Granted, the yr is not over yet but looking at my schedule already for the academic yr n other things/events coming up in addition to budgeting things out-not going to happen as planned. Maybe some short and small trips. We'll c I guess.
HNY dates are set for the end of Sept here now. I'm definitely going as I missed out last yr due to the family all having COVID. Got my HMoob outfits picked. Although the lineup for the night party is nothing compared to last yr, I'm thinking of getting a new flashy dress. Y not? :D
It's early but I did start my Xmas shopping already, at least for my niece and nephew. They're pretty ez to shop for. I have found when I start early n the yr I'm not running around trying to find things. It's ezr on the pocket n I at least try to get something on everyone's wishlist later n the yr. O0
Hope all is well w u...thanx for dropping n! :hello:
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Good to see all is well with you, luvlylisa! Like you, I am still alive too. :wave:
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Good to see all is well with you, luvlylisa! Like you, I am still alive too. :wave:
hi lilly! :hello: Yeah, same-o, same-o everyday. I guess that’s not a bad thing.
Glad to c u here (PH) n here (my lil ranting corner). ;D