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Creative Corner => Online Journal => Topic started by: Wi_sweetguy on March 13, 2014, 10:00:17 PM
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What if we could ask ourselves, the possibility of seeing tomorrow's future. Would we plan ahead and try to change today's outcome. What if knowing something in the shadows would devour your soul, would you wish you have more time to say one last good-bye. What if life was leading you in the path where your hands are helpless, your feet are deteriorated, your body is too weak to go on and your soul is gone from your body. Would you have accept the fact that this is the doing of "Destiny."
The mind and the body are interconnectin g waves of pulses traveling from one synapse to another. It is the magical machine of our complex system, able us to move, jump, run as far as we can go, think as big as the universe, see as far as our 20/20 vision, but what powers this complex machine. If the power that drives the magician machine glows a little less, would the body still function? The body is driven by the soul which compel us to think happy thoughts, or in instances, where one is in danger and adrenaline sent to the front line.
Ever since you closed the door, I have been searching for the keys to open the gated fence of my soul. Like the gate of heaven, only the death walks among the gods. Time goes by, blessing those who don't have to go on suffering, will I find it. What If could change back the hands of time and be there a little more, spent another extra day, hold you in my arms once more and tell you I have realized my wrong doings. Like the wind carrying your scent, it passed me many years ago, and I have not found your trails yet.
As the night lord rode his chariot across the sky, I dreamed that in wake of our meeting,
We crossed path in the valley of recarnation, where we appeared before each other's eyes
Together staring eyes to eyes by the rest stop for the souls of the gones to be reborn
Were we really in love or was it just a conspiracy to fool our own hearts
Were we the equivalent of adam and eve? Foolish we were.
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When we were young, we had memories of occurrences that were either real or false. Our childish mind diluted with fact and fiction and tainted our memories. When I was a little 3 years old, I was not like many others my age. Mature ahead of what I would want, I knew where the store was in the camps. One day, I asked kuv niam for money and she gave me 5 bathz so I went to the store, a man and a woman sitting behind a table full of candy. I gave them my money only buying 2 bathz worth of candy. Little did they know, we would find out how deceiving their hearts were. I returned home with candies worth 2 bathz and Kuv niam hais tiam, where is the rest of your money. I shook my head and told her I gave them everything. Little did those two foolish cons knew how hard my mother work 9-5 killing chickens to earn these golden eggs. So we went back to the two deceiving foolish jokesters and they plead the fifth. After minutes of arguing they gave in and return our hard earned money.
When I was growing up I could remember the incident like it was yesterday, but this time it was on a floating boat. When did I developed another sequence to the memory where I got tricked. What was fact and fiction? I told my mother the story of me buying candy on the boat, but there was no such thing. I swore it was true because the memory seen so real, seeing myself jumping on the boat and buying candy from the two people who had mad a mockery of me. I swore, but how could I have imagine such a fiction. Yes, I did remembered buying candy on land, but when did they intertwine overlapping one another. But then again, I asked myself, how could a 3 years old jumped on a boat to buy candy? It was all too unbelievable.
In my deepest concentration I have gone back to the blurring scenes of me as a baby boy. If I focus enough, closed my eyes, I could see myself meeting my father for the first time when he came back from Laos. O0
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Very nice. Please continue to write. I want to read more. You can really express your thoughts into words.
Thanks you. I am glad you are reading this and it's my pleasure to have someone like you in my audience. I will definitely write more.
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I agree with you. Sometimes we get our facts and fictions mixed up. I guess one of my reasons for remembering the past is my attribute of investing in the moment kind of things. It's funny because when I was younger I could remember everything, but now I barely remember my own checking ACCT. pin #. LOL. ;D
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haha.. I'm afraid my Acct. will have too much money for you to see all at once. hehe.. ;D ;D
How does $.10 sound? ;D ;D
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It's okay, at least you have 10cents. I have -0. :2funny: :2funny:
I'll give you my .10 cents. oh wait I forgot you tell you to move the decimal 6 times to the right. hehe... -> I wish huh? most of my assets are invested. No funds to show for, but aren't we living for today and tomorrow's future. hehe..I'll have enough to treat you to buffet. haha.. okay no buffet, too fattening. hmm..BW3 carribean jerk wings. my treat on that forsure.
good night.
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Very well done. As someone who enjoys free writing and creative writing it is always a pleasure to read another person's work.
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What am I do to sitting here on my black comfy office chair staring at the screen while my fingers pressed down on every key as free thoughts roamed the chambers of my castle. Should I continue expressing the free thoughts from the inner and outer consciousness of one's mind or do I have go into yoga mode where I decipher every message hidden deep in the locked dungeons within the places I am afraid to go. Should I try to manipulate the unconsciousnes s and for those few seconds closing my eyes and clearing every thoughts that had entered in to my room of codes so for those brief seconds I could go back to the times when it had everyone in it. What is this memory that I have been trying to retrieve in the last days, weeks, months, and years?
Before the mind decides to make decision it goes through a process in which the central nervous system filters the information into a series of categories which enables us to follow a certain path leading to our outcome. Have I mentioned that even before the central nervous system makes the bold move to declare a command, it is the sole responsibility of the one true god that enables that command to go through. Who is this god that I a referring to? Is it the creator of all living things or can this so called god be the reminisce of the one man who once walk the earth. You see the creator itself is the creator who lurks in your mind, it is your spirit or also known as your soul. This is the same entity that can link our minds together and predicted in times what the other person is thinking. This is the same entity that flies out of your body when you're in a serious life and death situation and enables you to see you. You might ask, how is it possible? All of this doesn't make any sense. Well how do you explain a person being unconscious and claim to have seen the whole scenario in which he was being saved or how he could have perceived the scene in graphic details when his eyes were closed.
This spirit that lives inside of us, makes the decisions whether you are a good or a bad person. Whether you are a generous loving person or a generous hateful person. Or how about whether your outcome will include the world "insanity". In every instances, the moves we make is controlled by our inner consciousness which allows our message to be filter out into the filtration system of stages decides which route to take. We ask ourselves do we steal the can of soup to feed our starving child or do we obey the law and do not steal it. It is these filters that enables a good man from a deceiving one or a thief with good intention to a thief robbing us in the legal fashion.
As Coldplay's Paradise being played over and over again, the beats and the words echoed smoothly in to my chamber of thoughts. I have realized that over the years of writing, it is these individual songs that allow me to think freely searching every room for something to write about. So am I dreaming of Paradise? This is the greatest place live and as my vessel holds my true guidance, it is a pleasure to walk among the many others who have brighten my existed as one day we all will follow the foot steps of our ancestors in to the realm of the one true creator.
I leave you all with one thought.
A person with good motives will have you in their best interest; going through the exceptional measures to satisfy and comfort the doubts you might have of them.
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When do we use reasoning to explain some of the most difficult unexplainable theories. Do we not have the common decency to say this is a human being and these are the rights they are entitled to.
Where do we draw the line and say to our selves what if it happened to us. Do we play pretend as if we don't notice it or do we shun it into the closet. Acknowledging the righteous reasoning is by far the most proving empirical formula to battle any debate ever established.
I see and hear people argued and talk about many things as if it is the one true thing, but what is the true. Do we not accused until proven guilty? The why is the world in war about many things that can be avoided if we just use our moral reasoning. Do we put two male lions in one room or do we acknowledge that they will kill each other and separate them would be the best idea.
If this is the case then why do we continue to use some theory or believe in some entity that is being manipulated by people to control our minds. Do we allow them to dictate our thoughts and tell us they are right and it would be best to not question them since they are in the position. What I am getting at is that, we are all born equal, and we should use moral reasoning to thank the diversity in this world. We have already seen what extremist have become and in the end their life went to waste. We as human beings, must live to love those around us and validate each and every person.
My father always told me that Revenge is not the answer. He said son, "If you get beat up and you're okay then let it be a bygone. Revenge will lead to another revenge and the cycle will never end." It was hard to understand at first, but as I learned more and more I realized his words were true. If we form the cycle of insanity trying to repeat the same experiment over and over, will anything change? When do we say no and look for real diplomatic solutions.
"Do not like everyone, or hate everyone, but only treat everyone the same." --my mother
I will always remember the times with my parents. The words they instilled in this young man, they created. He will surely keep them in his heart.
If I could remember I had a journal in the 5th grade. I tried to write in it everyday, but every time I opened it. Time went by and it was already the next year. Every time I wrote something in it there would be a long gap before my next journal. I will share it one day soon.
As seconds run, the hours are nearing, the days are dropping so fast I don't remember what day it is, and only months till my return of the holy grail.
Time is of the Essence, and time is something we cannot stop. Time makes people think, time slows people down, time is what people are always trying to beat. Unfortunately, there is no such thing as cheating time.
Journal coming up next.
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Each time I read my dairy, journal, or what you may call it, it always bring back the memories I have left behind. Are there memories relevant? I have closed many of those chapters, but every yeah I do a cleaning, I always find my dairy and it surprises me every time. I know many accounts are supposed to be private, but I will disclosed as much as I can. Names will be change. Thanks for reading. Quick note; Mai is referring to a name, but girl in general. My Dairy was given to me by my fifth grade teacher. I was encourage to write in it like most 5th graders.
Dear Dairy, ??/??/99
This morning Mai Zoo gave me a picture of herself. So I am going to write to her with my picture it. She is pretty and she's on the bus with me.
Dear Dairy, 05/05/99
I went to summer school. I went to Wisconsin Ave. It was a lot of fun. I was in Mrs. Peterson and Mr. Walker's class.
Dear Dairy, 05/22/99
My class went to the circus parade at the lakefront in Milwaukee. It was a lot of fun. We did a lot of things including watching a circus show, petting animals, clowns and many other things. The circus show was from Baraboo, Wisconsin.
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The big question is do you measure your status by the amount of wealth you have. When acquiring or in possession of such wealth, do you feel rich? Someone said being rich is not how much money you have, but how much you give to others. There are many degrees of being rich, and when do one say enough is enough?
A quote "A man sacrifices his health in order to make money. Then he sacrifices money to recuperate his health. And then he is so anxious about the future that he does not enjoy the present; the result being that he does not live in the the present or the future; he lives as if he is never going to die, and then dies having never really lived."
When most people will find interesting about me is that I am a universal person. I follow the teachings of Confucius and Buddhism along with many other religions.
"Be kind whenever possible. It is always possible."
-Dalai Lama
"There is no need for temples, no need for complicated philosophies. My brain and my heart are my temples; my philosophy is kindness."
-Dalai Lama
"My religion is very simple. My religion is kindness."
-Dalai Lama
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"If you can, help others; if you cannot do that, at least do not harm them."
-Dalai Lama
The same goes with the quote
"If you love something, do not pick it because and by doing it you will kill it. Leave it alone"
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Dear Dairy,
??/??/01
I haven't had the time to write in my dairy for at least two years now. The year is 2001. Today at school is boring except for the gym because I like to play sports. My teachers are Mrs. Zegear, Ms. Delatong, Mrs. Holt, Mrs. Griffy and I have Mr. willinksy for gym. I also have computer with Mrs. Calloway.
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"Teb lauj yim hais tiag ua laab luag ces tsuas zoo tawb ntsuj, yuav poj yuav seb ces tsuas zoo taw tus."
Pom muaj tseem ob?
My sisters took our family out to eat at Thai BBQ for my mom's birthday. Also it was mine, but it went by dead silent like the wind blowing without making a sound. My sisters pitched in and gave me a wonderful signed card and $40 bucks. I offered to give them back the money for the bill, but they declined. Thanks for treating your big brother. So while we were at the table I joke around with my dad telling him when it's his birthday. He has to treat us and not the other way around. LOl. So it worked and my father will take the family to Chicago for crabs and all the good stuff. His birthday is in April so I can't wait. I really enjoy spending every second with my family before everyone moves away. I will missed them in the coming up months.
When I was young I mature at a fast rate that most teens would have begun puberty. I was already enjoying the travels to different cities for the soccer tournaments and the new years. Been to so many parties that when I hit my prime age of 18-21, I didn't feel like going to the clubs. I am not a club guy, but have been a security guard for my BIL's party. LOL. I get in for free because he's a party promoter and those times were nice, but it's not so fun when there's no girls you like.
When I was younger, I had always wanted to be 18 and 21, but now that I am way passed those days. I could only look back at the memories and wonderful why did I wanted to be old when I was still young. Now that I am somewhat old, I want to be young again.
Time have changed, most of the people I once knew are all married and have their own thing going on. Out of all the guys I hung out with, there are only two guys that are still single. My brother who is in the military and my uncle around 30. We chatted last week and he said he was getting to old and might have to pull the ultimatum. I hope I can attend his wedding, but if not then I wish him the best of luck and thanks for being a cool uncle. Nicest person with the biggest heart. If I attend his wedding then there might be a slight chance I get to see someone special in MN. haha.. LOL.
It's early in the morning and what the heck am I doing at this hour. LOL.
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*sighs* I often get into nolgastic mood when reading stories such as yours from the past. I don't know how old you are now but I remembered growing up fast during my time as well. I think that's why most girls get married at early age.
Well, happy belated birthday to you! :)
Thanks for taking part of my history. I tried to convey the past, and the future with the sense of old fashion type of setting.
You could say I was born the year of the might dragon, the month before the beginning of Spring, and the day before you were sweet tears. LOL.
How about this. I am old enough to drink, old enough to flirt, old enough to know how sweet you are, how enough to get passed the above age group, and lastly, old enough to look at your eyes and make you wonder if you have reach the seven wonders of the world. haha...LOL...f or you to know..haha LOL.. :2funny: :2funny: :2funny: O0
Thanks for the commence. When is your birthday? Day and month.
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Dear Dairy,
02/06/01
I started playing chess and I think I am pretty good considering that I beat six people, but I lost to one dude. I improved greatly thanks to the Chess CD, and it helped me with honing my skills. I thought for a rookie beating six people is amazing.
Dear Dairy, 02/08/01
Today at school was cool because I beat Rich at a game of chess and he pretended he was fake playing. I knew he was playing for real, but he wont admit it. He challenge me in a game of chess for tomorrow's lunch break. It should be fun to see how it goes.
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Dear Journal,
02/06/01
How have you been? I have been doing good these few days or months. I am off spring break today and very excited to go fishing with my uncle, but something bad came up. My uncle came back from work and we were supposed to go together, but my second uncle told me I couldn't go anymore because the car didn't fit me. That sucks because I had just bought life jacket. Well upon hearing this my beloved uncle Thomas decided to take me with him to Osk Kosh and so we didn't go with my second uncle. I was glad I was able to go. I caught 9 white basses on the boat and it was a fun day.
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Dear Journal,
9/4/01
How are things going for you. As for me, I am doing good. I blame myself for not writing in here as much as I should have. This summer I had the best time of my life. I went to LFC Six Flags trip with my friends and we had a great time. I didn't get to ride the Raging Bull, but it was okay because it looked to much for me.
I also went to LFC summer camp and it was an amazing experience. The first day was fun, I started a group called LTT= Lovers To Tells. LOLs. What kind of name is that. Well it's the lover's group. haha. We only had 4 members but then all the little guys wanted to join so we let them join and we were their bosses. Haha...nothing serious, but just making it fun for everyone.
Camp was where I met the most beautiful girl I have ever seem. Her name was the same as the sun, her sweet voice was as sweet as sugar, and her personality was like that of a Kind person. I only saw her a few times at the community center and each time, my heart jumps out wanting to know her name. So Saturday night came and we were separated into two sides; one for the boys and the other for the girls.
Well before bed time, the Her lady told us two very sad and scary stories that made us didn't want to scare the girls at bed time, but we did anyways. We threw bones by the girls camp so wolves or ghosts will scare them, but it was all for fun. Then later that night, something did happen. We were sleeping around 2 am and the wolves came by the girl's area, maybe looking for bones or something, but we got woke from that. It was exciting to feel the adrenaline of something like this happening.
On Sunday, I finally was able to meet her. The most beautiful girl on this planet, but my cousins didn't think so. I guessed we all have different taste, but I liked her. She gave me her name and I asked her for her last name, and I didn't want to hear it, but it came out. She was a vang too, and damned, why do all the sweet girls have to be Vangs. Oh well, so we became friends, but did questioned if we were related or it was okay to talk, but you guys already know the outcome. We don't date other Vangs.
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Here is how my journal looks like.
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Dear Journal,
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I have not been writing at all and so many things had happened. I starting playing soccer with my older brother's team called " Red Tigers." I am the younger guy in there, can you believe it. Everyone is 16 and up mostly adults. It sucks to be the only youth person playing soccer, but I love soccer.
Well something big happened to me. :love9:
At the Osk Kosh soccer tournament my cousin Phooj told me about a girl name Mai Lena and so I was excited to go meet her. I don't know how they meet these girls, but I think I might like her. On Sunday, I met her again, but I didn't recognized her, she was too beautiful that she her presence made the day brighter. The look on her face was like a girl who knew she was in love. To be honest, I was kind of shy. I managed asked for a walk and held her beautiful soft hands tightly never letting go of her grip. We walked and I gave her a kiss on her cheeks. The funny thing was I thought I already knew that she was the one for me. What kind of person thinks like that right away. A foolish young hearted in love?
I called her 5 times during the next week and did she really break my heart. I asked her so many things but she kept on telling me she was going to ask her sister first. Haha. She broke 10% of my heart by doing that. Well I can't wait to go see her.
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Dear Journal,
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Freshman year was good, I met a couple of girls who I thought were pretty cool. There is one Thao girl who I had already knew from chatting and she was too experience for me. I called her a few times and I tried acting like I was an experience person, LOL. But she surprised me because she got into some pretty intense conversation about you know what and common. I tried to act as if I was someone I wasn't and it was good for the acting but I am actually still a very FRESH. Know what I mean. LOL. Well I didn't really get closed to her at school, but she was a friend. Then there was the Lor girl who invited me to her party, but I didn't go. She did more than just invite me to her party, but over to her house on the week days. It sucks because she missed school and I'm bored to death. I didn't have a car so I didn't go over to her house. Thank god.
Now it's 10 am at night and I just got off the net at my uncle's house. Well at school I took out Mai Lena's pic to see and she's so pretty. I missed her and going to see her for her birthday. I am going to buy her a card and wish her happy birthday.
Forgot to mention, but our school played against Vicent High and I scored 1 goal for the soccer team.
I was on the JV and Varsity soccer team, which was good. My name was in the Prep's column in the daily Newspaper. That is so cool.
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So sorry to hear that she turns out to be a Vang. I have never met a Xiong that I was in love with or is infatuated with (knock on wood). She could have been the one... but now she will only remain a friend to you. Glad that you had fun. The last time I went on something like that was when I was in 6th grade. We went for a 1 week camp and I'll tell you, I missed my parents more than anything in the world. I couldn't wait to get back to them. On some nights, we (girls) get pretty up because there was a dance. I remembered spraying some sparkle into my hair. Trying to look pretty for the boyz.Then, at night time we would tell stories and sing. I remembered the counselor asked me and my friend to sing and the only song that we know how to sing was "Ntuj No tuaj lawm" but as we sang, we forget some words so we just made it up they said it was good. :2funny: Then someone farted and everyone ran outside... Those are my childhood memories.
Your childhood memories are fun to hear. Tell me more about it. I am imaging as I read and all I can see your childhood face. The one where you were holding on to a black coat or something like that. Glad you had fun. Don't drink too much wine and save some for me. ;D I could use one glass to KO, since I haven't had a good sleep since my break. ;)
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Dear Journal,
10/07/02
I was going to buy her a plastic case with a bear and a rose, but I decided to get something else. I went to the store and bought her a lighting crystal art cube. I hope she likes it.
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Dear Journal,
Stevens Points tournament. I got to play two full games and we got second place. I had the best time of my life there.
Well so many things have happen. I will cut it short and brief on the outcome. My friend who took me to see my friend and his friend, well he got married to another girl and my ride was cut off. I thought this was the girl of my life, but it was only for the moment. We broke up and glad I wasn't dating anymore because she lives too far.
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Wi_sweetguy, it's weird but I feel like you and I are soulmates... wait, I don't mean it like that... more like, I think we came from similar backgrounds... and because of that it's great to see your thoughts/writings because I can appreciate them. So, thank you. :)
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I have many stories to share but they all were just boyz chasing me... I'm sure you don't want to hear about those. LOL j/k Can I tell you that when I was younger, I didn't know where MN was? I thought it was another country. Silly of me, huh? I had the most wonderful childhood memories because I had so many friend and I had so much fun. I was very active.. in all sort of sports from running track, volleyball, and basketball. So sad how times fly by and now I'm so old... :-[
I didn't know you used to play sports. Well I love running, volleyball, and basketball. You know what I like most about in school. I was the only person in my class to climb the thick rope that goes all the way to the ceiling. Did you like playing tether ball?
I don't really think you're old. Don't know how old you are, but everyone need a little bit of excitement. What I mean can't be explain, but you just need that motivation to see how precious every second is. Where do you want to go travel in the world?
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Wi_sweetguy, it's weird but I feel like you and I are soulmates... wait, I don't mean it like that... more like, I think we came from similar backgrounds... and because of that it's great to see your thoughts/writings because I can appreciate them. So, thank you. :)
I know it's weird, but some how I feel the same way too. It is like I learned so much from you. I have this mutual feeling for you that I can't explain. You're just so right and you will always be a reason for me being here. O0 When you're here I feel like we understand each other. O0
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Once upon a time there was a girl who like me so much that she wrote me letter and enclosed pictures of her. She was a Xiong girl from MN, but I broke her heart. I was too childish, and didn't cherish her friendship. I saw her in MN new year, but I didn't know how to treasure the moment. We never went out, but there was chemistry between us. She would always update and call me to see how things were. She was pretty attractive to and our backgrounds are similar. One day she came with parent to town for a funeral and I couldn't make it to see her. I know she was heart broken, and this is the one girl that got away. Maybe it was good that she got away because who know what it would have been it we were together.
Well I apologize to her one day and she was very sweet and kind. She told me she will left the door open for me because she doesn't want to be the deal breaker. Tu siab, khuv xim tsis tau hlub tus neeg ua hlub yus es yus mus yuav tus tsis yuav yus.
We said our good byes and she was gone. How sometimes I wonder if she's doing good or not. Is she married or is she still single?
For most of the part, she is probably already married since this was 10 years ago.
I don't mind crossing path with her and just seeing her happy smile one more time. That would be more than enough to know she's doing good and I am happy for her. Same goes for Sweet Tears. O0
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Hmm... tus neeg zoo li kuv, tsis muaj leejtwg xav hlub os.... Tshua tau ntshib koj xwb yeej zoo kuv lub siab lawm... tshua paub hais tias koj tseem nco txoj tus neeg zoo li kuv. Kuv yeej paub, koj lam hais xwb, nyob haus koj lus siab, koj lam hais xwb. Vim koj tsis xav kom kuv tu siab... Kuv yeej tsis tu siab os mog tus neeg zoo.. Koj cov lus zoo xwb yeej zoo kawg lawm... Xav ntshai yog wb hmoov xwb...
Kuv yim muaj ib tus phooj ywg Nkauj Hmong xiong nyob sau kos tias tias li ob. Tsis dab, tabsis mas li kuv hais. Vim kuv tsis tuag wb txoj kev phooj ywg zoo es kuv thaij tau nplaab nws mus lawm.
Kuv thaib hais tiag yog kuv pom nws thaij kuv pom KOJ LUAG NTXIM xwb ces kuv tus zoo siab lawm. Kuv tuag hauv PH no tu yog vim koj nam Mai.
Yog hais tiag muaj txoj hmoov kuv tsis tau koj lub siab, los ntsuaj tau cov koj mus ua sib hais tiag kuv yim nco txoj ib tus neeg zoo li koj. Tsis muaj ntau nti neeg ua raus kuv lub mem nplooj siab. Koj yog ib tus. Maybe our time difference is the factor, but we are still alive right. Be can be good friends and you know I am only a digit away. Tau koj muaj kev nyuaj siab, nco txoj kuv hmo.
Kuv yim paub hais tiag, wb
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High School city champs. Where in the world is sweetguy. Which hmong guy is it?
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Yog muaj ib hnub koj mus ua koj lub neeg lawm, kuv yuav zoo siab rau koj heev li. Koj tej mem kev zoo yuav nco ntsoov rau wb tej mem kev zoo. ncaws rau hauv koj lub siab hais tias tiag no muaj ib tus neeg ua yeej tau nyiaj nyiam koj lawm naw hmo. Yog muaj ib hnub ntawm es koj ncaim kuv mus lawm los kuv yeej nco tab kuv lub neeg hais tiag muaj ib tus hluas nkauj MN ua tau ua kuv lub siab ntriav tsis ntxaw ntxes.
Qhia rau koj kuv kho siab, xab txog thaum twg ces nco koj tshaj. Leeg muam, tabsis no koj pom nco txog wb tej mem lub qab zi?
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I know it's weird, but some how I feel the same way too. It is like I learned so much from you. I have this mutual feeling for you that I can't explain. You're just so right and you will always be a reason for me being here. O0 When you're here I feel like we understand each other. O0
I feel the same way. I enjoy seeing you on here. It's interesting that I feel close to you and I don't even know you... it's a nice feeling. :)
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Yeej nco hos... yuav tsis muaj hnub ua yuav tsis nco.. vim koj yog tus #1 ua tau show rau kuv what kev hlub yog dabtsi. Koj yog ib tus neeg zoo heev.. Leejtwg tau nrog koj nsthai yog hmoov... vim koj siab zoo thiab koj paub xav. Nsthai tsis muaj ib tus neeg zoo li koj lawm os. Pab tu siab ua kuv ntshib koj lig lawm xwb...
Sweet_Tears, koj in a relationship lawm los? The way I see it, if you are not in a relationship yet and Wi_sweetguy isn't in a relationship yet and you're both single, you should have dinner already. I am rooting for you two. :)
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When was the first day of spring? It's feels as if I have been lost in my own home surrounded by nothing but trees and the animals who would sing for me every morning. I went outside today, trying to get a feel of spring, but is it really here for it is here because the weather person said so. Either way, it is the time of the season where I have to do major upgrading on my yard. I was very lucky to have purchased my home with a beautiful back yard next to the forest.
I fell in love with this house the first time I saw it. It was on the market on the 4th day and I said to myself I have to check it out and as soon as I got to the back yard. I was stunned. I was amazed at the beautiful fall color of leaves and the bushes of red thorns had brighten every inches of the yard. Although my house is small, it is very cozy and a great place to raise a family. I live on a quiet, sort of dead end street next to the forest, single family homes with very little activities except for the squirrels, and it's almost two years and everything is peaceful.
Finding a the right home is like finding the right wife. The first time I looked to purchase a home was in 2010 and every house I've been to was the one, until I saw the next one and although I tried to file papers, it never went through. I was young back then and did I really know what I want in life or even in a house? There was a house in particular that I thought it was a great deal. 29K and I wanted to cash it. Am I crazy. The only reason why I like this house was because it was two story single home and everything was new. It had potential, but like many new home buyers or single guys who wants to find the right one, it isn't easy. My parents came to see it and they disapproved the house due to many reasons. It was in the bad section of town, on a one way, right next to a bad h.s., no garage, and everything else. I thanked them for their insight and they were right. I should have looked at all the factors before making any decision. Thinking about how naïve I was, that was how I felt when I first met the girl of my dreams at the green bay tournament.
Sometimes when you think you know it all, in reality what you know, others may have already known. I am glad I found the house that I love. I feel good living here and being independent is a good thing. But like all good things, there are flaws. Not that spring had arrived, I hope there will be no more snow so I can fix the yard, clean the bricks, bring in more soil, plant more flowers and vegetables. The answer you guys might be asking is. Do I do the yard work?
My answer is I am a gardener and a environmentali st. I believe in keeping the environment clean and I always throw my organic waste in my small section of compose.
Last year, I had almost fallen prey to a bad contractor. He promise to fix my roof, but did such a bad job. I came home from school and he tore the shingles off, but had peeled my gutter in the process. I did pay him a good 350, and I sent him on his way. What kind of a contractor comes to work with a black basketball short and a black t-shirt with nothing, but a flat bar and a hammer.
What did I do? Well, I did what I always do. Called my cousins and we got to work peeling the shingles off and tossing it in a dumpster. I called a friend to installed the shingles because he had a nail gun and he helped me with the main and garage roof. Thanks John. I owe that guy. I under paid him, but he's one of those people who is willing to help. And so I learned from this guy that helping others is what counts and good karma will come your way one day.
My new roof. I fixed it on a hot summer day to and it was back pain labor. Thanks Mom! for the watermelons.
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I used to plant some peppers, green onions, hmong squases, and others.
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This was so beautiful during the spring and fall, but now it looks hopeless until I help refurbish it.
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The front yard needs to be swept clean. I need to wash the bricks and dyed it back to red then add more soil to the foundation and put back the bricks. Can't wait to DIY this project.
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These are cilantro plants with seeds still on the branches. I dried it so I can reuse the seeds soon. Have about 4 of three and cilantro will be an abundant.
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My fishing poles. It's almost here. Will she watch me fish?
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Logs for BBQS.
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Sweet_Tears, koj in a relationship lawm los? The way I see it, if you are not in a relationship yet and Wi_sweetguy isn't in a relationship yet and you're both single, you should have dinner already. I am rooting for you two. :)
Only time will tell if she's willing to go to dinner with me. I will treat her to morning, lunch and dinner, but she knows what she owe me. ;) If by then she's single then maybe we can have a moment of romance over dinner ;D ;D ;D ;)
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Very nice home and u did a great job on the roof. All you need now is a wife to take care of your garden. ;D :D
Nhriav ib tus poj niam zoo mas tsis yooj yim. Yog yooj yim ces kuv tus tsis tuaj hauv no, tabsis koj pem ua kuv lub siab tuaj kom tau ntsib koj. Koj pom kav ua kuv tus pom niam nam? LOL. ;D ;D
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Ride bus xwb? haha..pom yog koj yuav tuaj visit kuv nam? ;D ;D Kuv mas pick koj up easy tsaj. O0
Kuv lub tsev feels empty without anyone. Maybe someone like you will warm it up.
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If I'm there you might need to turn on the a/c. :2funny:
I chose a house with central air on purpose. I know it's going to get hot and humid one day, so have to make sure all the rooms are cold. ;D Do you have a/c in your home?
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The reason why I fell head over heels for my beloved. When I first saw her in the fall of 2011, I knew she was the right for me. I couldn't wait to submit my offer and although she was a priced lower than what she would go initially for. I knew that I had to wed her in the tradition paying extra to secure my beloved. Oh how much you have serenade my soul and calm the beast inside of me. You are the light that shine through my window and wakes me up. You are my castle in the sky.
I was able to grow out the different color of flowers on the left side of the house. I didn't use fertilizers and didn't add new soil so it didn't grow as big and fat.
One day I will return to her. I will miss you for the time being. I have taken good taken good care of you and will continue so for the rest of my live.
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My uncle ceremonial party went great although he forgot to prepare small glass cups for the thank you part. He's getting used to the ceremonial part and will be holding his future bride soon. He is a big hearted tiger, but it's sad that he has no father. His father passed away in the war decades ago and growing up was tough. My other uncle, younger brother to him was affected by not having a father and rebel at a young age ending up in trouble. Now that he's older, he realized that without his father he will have to take his father's throne and become his own man. Two of my tiger uncles are big hearted and willing to always put down their hands first.
For those without any parents, you know how hard and sad it is not to have the person who loves you the most and be there for you. I've seen it first hand how people are affected by inner demons, although they may not show it, but it leaves a scar in their heart and soul. Many people with parents may not realized how much their parent means to them, but I do and spending time with them is what I want to do for the rest of my life. I want to see the smile on my father's face and the joy on my mother's part when I buy her a nice house with two acres of land to farm.
How I wish I can be your son forever and never growing old to see their happy faces. My mother is a great planter and loves to farms. She wants two acres and a small chicken house in the outskirt of the city where peace and nature means the same thing. Your son will do his best to accomplish it someday, although you could afford it when you retired. I will be your guiding light since you did the same running through the harsh and frightening jungle of Laos, carrying one baby on your back and another in your womb. It was not me in the womb, but your carefulness to avoid a miscarriage is the reason why I have a big tiger brother. The reason for the Red Tigers. O0
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Wow. All those gorgeous leaves.
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Wow. All those gorgeous leaves.
I am a nature person and the beautiful sight of nature soothes my soul. I love the different colors of the leaves and how peaceful it is to live among nature. ;)
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I love the privacy of ur home. So peaceful and beautiful.I can see a bench and just enjoy the nature.
I have a nice white table with folding beach chairs. I'm missing the umbrella in the middle of the table but I'll get one soon. I am in love with privacy and nature. I just love the sight of fresh greens and vibrant colors.
Do you have any goals in the future to live in a nice and peaceful area?
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I want to live closest to nature as possible. I am not a city girl person. I like the quietness and just watching squirrels chasing each other up/down the trees all day. That's my lifestyle. I hope someday I can achieve it.
Great minds think alike. O0 I believe you can do anything you want to because behind PH, this beautiful girl is a dreamer and in the process her dreaming, it will become a reality. I hope you will achieve it someday and please show me pictures of you beautiful home sweet home. I am glad that you like nature and want the peace and calamity. You know what I realized in life. You can have all the friends in the world, but when time calls, the only people by your side are your family members and your love one.
There is no certainty in the future, but I'll know that no matter what, I'll always be here when you need someone to talk to. O0
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"Time is free, but it's priceless! You can't keep it, but you can spend it. Once it's gone, you never get it back. Make the best of the time we have"
When Estein thought of time, did he ever imagine going faster than time and cheap his way to the future? When time is loss, can we simply make up for it? What if the conditions are different and making up time is useless. My suggestion to conquering time is spending it till your heart contents. Don't let opportunities pass you by, and don't let faith decide your love one. if you see that special person, don't be afraid to ask for her lovely name because she could be the best thing to happen. Don't let work take over and miss those special family times.
In the coming month, my cousin and friends are going on a farewell fishing trip. Many will remain in their current positions, others will be settling down, others will be leave the state, the country and others will have their good byes. This trip is meaningful because it could be the last time we are together as a group. I am looking forward to our new spot where the fishes bite like crazy and every second is a bite of fish. BBQ fish will be on the menu. I am not a drinker, but I can't let this special moment go by. Let's drink toast and remember this day.
Time only moves forward like birth to death. Precious as time is, we have to cherish every sec and moments that will define the highlights of our past.
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Oh, how I missed my mom's home cooking. It feels like a man living on island and eating exotic food. What I missed the most is the nostalgic meals that brings back the hidden taste bugs and the soup that heal the wound. Oh, how I missed you so much.
In the coming months, a journey ahead of to create the utopian dream. I vowed to hold righteous in the trust you instilled on me. I will missed your meals ever than before. I hadn't had a good meal in days, weeks, and months. Only when I visit, and sit at the throne along his majesty do I get a meal fit for a king.
Any queen in my castle will only know the true meaning of happiness if a meal is well prepare. I yearn for one who will be the supporting queen in the kitchen and our kingdom.
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Dear Journal, Date:??
The first time I saw her was like in motion picture. One of those scenes where the guy sees the girl and time stopped. When I drove passed her, my time stopped although motion was occurring. Somehow I saw her eyes, her hair, her face, and her beautifulness. Does the saying do not judge a book by its cover make any sense? Can looks deceive the eyes and bring forth what is in their hearts.
A love so strong, not even the reaper can tear us apart, but only foolishness can bring forth the sacrifices of death. How those times could have been tragedies leading to hundred of cries through the my hometown. Guess the saying "If you don't see a pigeon fly from her nest then don't assume her innocence yet"
Am I thankful for my guardian who have watch over me and protect their descendant.
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I can go back home, but it feels different when you have live independently for a long time. I missed home cooking because what I cook is not as good. I missed her crawfish and her fish. I eat too healthy and I need someone to fat me up. Its been so long I don't remember how good a bowl of Pho Piak or home made pho taste like. I do make my own pho, but I tend to waste it so I only do it once in a while.
I was once an aspiring pianist, took lesson and could read notes, but now I am just an old fable. I do not own a piano anymore, I gave it away years ago, but when I see one my hand get the itch. The only songs that my fingers can remember even though my will of fire had died out is
Christmas without you, ocean of love, Just for love, Green Sleeves, and another one. I played FF10 once, but it was many years ago.
Thanks for the song. I love this song and the movie too. Have you seen "Spirited Away" and "Howl's moving castle"?
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Howl's moving castle is such a masterpiece. Watch it when you have time. It's a good love movie too and the story line is amazing.
The creator is very popular and he's the kind of that emphasis even the smallest details. I love all of those movies.
Have you seen "Whisper in my Heart" Also from the same creator?
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Whisper of the Heart.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m3XDPKvgXLE (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m3XDPKvgXLE)
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Dear Journal,
I had a great exchange of words with one of the most respectful and wanted on ph. She's a wonderful person. Well, lets put it this way. If timing was right then I'll see her someone day. If not then just seeing her smile is enough to soothe the friendship we have. God bless her and her family. Have a good night.
Sincerely,
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Dear Journal,
For the last 10 years, I haven't had the chance to spend time with my nephew. Although we live states apart, I feel that I missed out so much on their youth. I know it is still not too late and I am planning to make it up soon. Basketball and eating out should be fun.
One of my uncle passed away in Stockton, Cali and his funeral is this week. I felt bad for not making it and wish his family the best. I missed my hometown and all the kids I grew up with. I wonder if they will remember me when I go back there. It's been over 15 years since we moved to WI and missed all my cousins and families still living there. I know things have changed and places are not the same anymore, but the question is whether I will feel good going back there? The first thing I want to do is eat out and see how it compares.
Dedicated this song to someone who did the same for me.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C4HJ0zfZ-EM (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C4HJ0zfZ-EM)
And dedicated this last scene to her too.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sr5zIQGOeU8 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sr5zIQGOeU8)
Happy a good night!
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Great song... here's the hmong version one. ;)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Diztmv_zW_8 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Diztmv_zW_8)
Hauv Khob no rau Nkauj Hmong Xyooj
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7WrTeRjo6FQ (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7WrTeRjo6FQ)
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Dear Journal,
For the last four years, I have been taking care of my grandma who is nearing her 80s. Since her strokes, her inability to walk put a lot of stress and burden on the family. My uncles and aunties are all working and there is no one to take care of her, but me. Since I work during the day and free on the night, I took the responsibility of being her gate keeper. From the beginning I wasn't close to her. She was not the type of grandma you would love because she was very different in the sense that she favors and dislike those who do not praise or give her items. Most of her friends never really care to seek her although she went to a senior center and her fondness of keeping her finance to herself not spending a dime on herself or people have taken the very thing that matters the most to any human being. That is friendship.
In the last four years, I sit there watching her walked as smooth as a snail, but today she walks as if she was a limping lion. My mother called me to come home and help watch her for the night because they have been too tired of taking care of her especially having to wake up late at night 4 to 5 times to help her to the restroom. So I am here watching her sleep like a new born baby. I tried to sleep earlier, but each time I do, she calls for me name.
In the last four years, I was her best friend and we grew more than what we had from the beginning. We talked about her ability to sing khw txiaj, hu nplig, grown vegatables, her child hood, her families, her father's 9 pot of silver hidden in the ground somewhere over the mountain in Laos and many other things. Her favorite place to go is the Casino and taking her there makes her happy. She can stay there 3 days and 3 nights if she wants too, but I let her stay there for two hours or so and I take her back home. I am not a gambler so I walk around drinking free soda and look at people betting their saving away. From time to time, I've seen one or two of my uncles who have loss everything in the casino. They went first then got their wives to go and now they lost their house and their relationship. Casino is very tempting to play, but I live by my three golden rules and that prevents me from doing anything of these havocs which would result in misfortune.
So I'm writing to you with the intent that one day, reading you again will bring back memories of what I did today. Well the movies "Koos Loos tuaj ntsawj ntsuj" is playing now and it's a good movie. I have Strange's Hero in one of my tabs and I might not be able to finish it, but hopefully I do this weekend.
I got two teachers okay for May the 8 to take two exams. I just need to talk to two more teachers and I'll be done. Hello the sunshine state!
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ST, the drama I watched was good and funny. The hero is clever and out smarts everyone. The drama is called
Strange Hero".
Any plan this weekend?
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Spending time with my mama and that's about it. How about you? Tell me what are your routine? I want to visualize it. ;)
Sounds like you're going to have fun tomorrow. Your mom is lucky to have you. O0
Monday & Wed.- wake up at 8 and leave for school till 4 pm. Then work on HW and leave to my part-time job till 9pm. Come back around 10 and leave to the gym till 11 or 12am then off to bed.
Tuesday & Thursday- wake up at 7 and leave to school till 12. Then go straight to my intern job at the Hire Center till 4 pm then off to my other job till 9. Then gym or homework and off to bed.
Friday- I spend the day with my brother at the gym and we go eat out. Then karaoke if we feel like it.
Sat and Sun is spent with relatives and helping my dad with his stuff.
And yours. 8)
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Sounds great! My life is too boring to go into details. I pretty much just stay home unless I have to go out like grocery shopping, visiting my family, or attend family's event.
haha...my life is boring too, but the gym keeps me happy. Friday night is usually guys night out, but too busy lately. Some of my friends are party type, but I always decline. Too many girls to look at the clubs. I prefer one special girl only. ;)
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U mean, you don't want to steal all the attentions away from all your friends, that would make more sense. ;D I can see you being a Chippendale dancer. :2funny:
haha...lol. You want a lap dance? ;D
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In the coming week, a cousin of mine is beginning a new journey with his newly companion. It will be an extraordinary day as he wears the founding clothes of the Hmong Vaj Clan and show his effort of commitment in the thousand year long tradition. His beautiful wife will be wearing the outfit of her in laws, signifying her commitment to be part of his family and clan. This weekend will be one happy moment in time for these two love birds at they celebrate their wedding and ever closing the ties between the two clan.
How I seeing them bring me back memories of yesteryear. Hence, it will probably reflect my recollection of myself wearing and going through the same tradition. It's been awhile since I wore my mother's beautiful Hmong clothes. My beautiful Hmong outfit representing the Hmong people from La Phrang Ban. Did anyone know that by looking at their clothing and their head gear that you can tell the area they are from?
I used to wear it during the golden years of my youth, and hope I will wear it again in the near future. Thank mom for always sewing a different set for your son.
I made a call to top soil companies, but it seems like most of the places I've called are not operating due to winter's frozen cold. I hope I can get some top soil soon and fix my foundation before my departure. It's going to be tough leaving my castle, but the future will hold that certainty.
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The city of Stockton, where I grew up and had most of my childhood memories. I grew in the downtown area in a big yellow duplex next to a big church. When the church bell rung, we would sleep in horror thinking about the funeral being held there. As a kid, I was always independent and brave not thinking about the dangers of the world. I would walk to my cousins, which was probably a couple miles away and hang out with the kids at their residence. Then one day, we moved to the north side and it was the beginning of my cherry picking. The neighborhood kids, we would ran distances to pick plums, yellow fruits, oranges, and cherries from people's front yard, back yard, and trees on the side walk. One time I went with my friends to pick up cherries and came back to get a whooping. My dad also gave my brother a whooping although it was me only that went, but he thought my brother went to. Sorry for getting you a whooping. Since that day, I stopped going with the friends to pick yellow fruits and cherry.
Secret pepper dipping sauce for fruits.
chili pepper flaks
sugar
salt
and MSG
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Today, a pigeon decide to take a dump on my beautiful washed civic and the evidence of white poop points to those pigeon. How tasty they are in the open pit with salt to marinade the meat and the crunchiness of their bones will satisfy their behavior. How I cannot wait till bird season. LOL. ;D
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I am very excited about leaning out and see how far my physique will take me. Cant wait till the next two weeks.
Time is closing in faster than what I thought. Semester is nearing, my departure is not too far away, my move back home is just around the home and making a new change will bring new changes for my future. Whether the change will be good or bad, I hope my guardian angel will watch over me and be my protector. Started packing my stuff and this week will almost be my last week to stay here in my castle. With the keyboard, I write to you letting you know of my last entries and hopefully serve me when I'm have loss memories.
Listening to Mai Muas Hawj's song and making some adjustment for the big move. Thinking of my absence will be a sad and hope I will be missed by everyone. Will I be another forgotten member who will my legacy live on as one of the sweetest people here. My return is uncertain, but just maybe, someday I will return with or without the holy grail and seek the promise I made to someone special. If I can fulfill that promise then I would love to take this leap of faith into the unknown and experience a time of my life, but if not then I would be happy to have know such a wonderful person. Never had so much fun online before and I could have swore it feels so real, but in the end I just want to wish everyone the best.
Maybe someday I can meet up with the good people in here and have lunch or hang out with them. Or maybe even throw in a picnic and have a joy of laughter talking about the past. LOL. That would be so much fun. Some of the thrills I get reading these posts make my day and add another day to my life. Oh I will missed some of you wonderful characters.
Soon the path in the hidden forest will be reveal and my journey will stop where the one who can satisfy my belly will be the crown queen of my castle. Someday I'll look for that precious treasure and treat her like it is our last day.
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Sweet Tear,
I have the pleasure of meeting all you wonderful people on here. I can't imagine what I would be doing the last 6 months if it wasn't for PH. I tried coming back here time after time, but I couldn't feel the connection. Most of my reality life sets outside of PH and it was hard for me to get to know people in here since I'm not as active. Then I decided to give it a shot in the fitness thread and your responds change me forever. If it wasn't for a special person who decided to take a chance on me then I wouldn't be here.
I am gracious for he welcoming and forever in her debt. She's the reason for my existence in PH and keeps me from being bored. I don't know what else to say about her besides the fact that her tainted memories will forever be in my heart. For someday, I will read all of your letters and could only reminisce about the past. Although, our flesh have not been encounter I hope someday I will see you in person. But that is up to you and faith if it shall let us meet outside of here. Like you said, we are in different circumstances and I don't want to our friendship. Whether in Ph or in real life, you're a friend already. I am afraid if I see you walking by, I wont know it's you because I don't have the best memories.
The best thing that has ever happened to me is you. Believe it or not, I come here to read your beautiful poems from the heart and your memories which I take my imagination to another level. I feel as if I was watching a movie when reading your stories and they intrigue my heart. Never have I pay attention to people's journal, but your memories are precious. I could read it over and over again and it would still bring the same excitement. I have been coming earlier than usually and I have to say your presence here change my course of direction.
I am gracious to have know some of you wonderful people on here. Unfortunately, I wont be able to come here anymore until I find the holy grail. When I will find it? I don't know, but I hope something I will be back here and still see you wonderful people. I missed VH's self of righteousness and I am always learning from him. MinorC and his sarcasm is always making me laugh, which I admired so much, Reading Json/trouble's posts are like two people who know they enjoy each other's company, but wont say it, Lily is such a wonderful person whom I have gotten to know and she knows I wish her the best in her life, Pinkie is a really nice person to joke with and she's a lovely person and to everyone else have fun and wish you all the best.
And to you my sweet tears, you're like the person I've never met, the girl with the beautiful red cheeks, the girl who's eyes can make anyone fall in love with her, her kissable lips and her lovely, which shines the most about her. I enjoyed your company and will truly miss you. Remember when you sent me those two picture of you. LOL. You sent me old school picture and not the recent ones, but I still accepted you because it is the heart that matter the most. Then seeing your FB picture was even more amazing. I would kiss you in an instance if your were single, but the matter of the fact is I wish you the best. Hopefully everything goes according to your plans and wishes.
Tau koj kho kho siab, koj yeej paub hais tias kuv nyob qho twg. Kuv tus ntsuj tsis nyob how PH lawm los kuv lub siab yeej nyob nrog koj mog tus neeg ntxim kuv lub siab. koj zoo li kuv ib sav thaj. I am cherishing every moment for someday I wont get this opportunity.
Sincerely,
Tus neeg nqa zig
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ST, you're so funny. I'm not leaving yet, I'm still here for the time being.
Health progress as of today.
Beginning weight = 173 lbs
Current week= 3rd week of cutting down
Current weight=167lbs
I'm seeing more improvement on the reduced body fat.
Very happy with the progress.
This new journey to educate myself is exciting and hope it wont be a waste of my time.
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I know... but just in case you never come back... :-[
I can't denied that fact. You look good in that photo in your journal. Your hair is very beautiful and sexy. hehe... ;D
You know what's funny, I have too many typing errors and sometimes I say it in my head, but I forget to write it down. Also I'm supposed to wear my glasses, but don't want too.
When are you going to send me a photo of yourself for memo?
Guess who I talked to today? Your FB friend and he knows your name. LOL. remember my uncle on FB, you guys met through hmong kitchen? ;) ;)
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Hahaha... What did he say ? ;D i bet he's wondering where i disappeared to. ;D
Yeah, he did. He texted me like where did that one lady go? I told him you quit FB. People missed you on FB. O0
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Dont tell him im on PH though. :2funny:
haha...why is that? Does he like you or something? He asked me where I met you..haha..LOL . I almost said PH, but then had to think it over. I told him, you added me and that's how I met you. He said something about you showing him a pic, huh? haha... ;D
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Uncle is pretty cool. He's a good guy and he's a family man. Love his positive ambitions and hope him the best. I wont tell him anything, but I did tell him you're awesome and hotttt. Most Ph guys are dying to see your pics, but thanks for giving me the honor of doing it so. you know once in a while I get pms about your pictures. hehe.
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WHAT? This must be confession night! Hehe i don't believe you and have you been sharing my naked pix? :knuppel2: ;D
haha...confess ion night it is. Thanks for the naked picture of your hot bod. Its mine and only mine. Sorry guys, cant share something I love.
Not kidding about the pm part, and you do have plenty of admires.
Since it is confession day, I'll start. I have a trip to your neck of the wood soon. O0
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And why are they pming you and not me? >:( :idiot2: >:( not like you are my Agent! :2funny: come when its sunny!
I would be lost without a guidance. Can you go out or maybe not? ;D ;D
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You can always come and rescue me in my castle up in the sky. ;D :D
I would love to take you out, and have a very nice long walk so you can tell me about your dreams and your goals. I want to help you out as much because I want you to be happy. You know I am still open about our fishing escape. ;)
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I've been lurking in here from time to time but never officially made my mark that I'm reading. Hahahaaa....or as dot would say "I'm stalking". :D I'm sad to read about your departure. :( As many will agree with me....you are one of the good guys. :)
Btw, you are wise beyond your years. I really admire that about you.
I hope you'll keep us updated. At least update the fitness photos from time to time. ;)
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I am just a normal guy, my feeling are no different than many of them, my intentions are no different than a respectful person, my sense of respect is no different then any good men, my love and appreciation is by the same as other passionate guys, but one thing I have that is different is my uniqueness to love one person through thick and thin. O0
Btw, you are wise beyond your years. I really admire that about you.
(Life lesson learned through diplomatic resolutions, peace and the value of something more than material)
I hope you'll keep us updated. At least update the fitness photos from time to time. ;)
(I'm planning to update one more time before my departure)
Still want to dash through Phelan park?
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Plans for the weekend is simple. Clean and pack and move some of my stuff to my old place. For the first time in my life I have actually set dates going as far as 1 month. I don't usually plan week to week, but now I have to. Next week is a get together with the family and friends. Then the 19th of April is my fathers birthday. Also the month of my older brothers birthday and we planning a trip to Chicago. We going to eat out at my fathers favorite restaurant. He loves crabs and all that good stuff, and it will be a day for my belly to remember. ;) Then will be visiting my sister and her kids before my departure. My brother wanted me to join the air force since sight seeing in Seattle, Washington is a beautiful place.
One thing about me is that I love nature and bike riding in the national parks and canoeing down the river. I enjoyed camping very much and like it when all friends go and enjoy themselves with games. No beer! Just spending time with your lady and doing fun activities. ;)
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I am just a normal guy, my feeling are no different than many of them, my intentions are no different than a respectful person, my sense of respect is no different then any good men, my love and appreciation is by the same as other passionate guys, but one thing I have that is different is my uniqueness to love one person through thick and thin. O0
Still want to dash through Phelan park?
If you're ever in my neck of the woods, sure. I'll make a special appearance at Phalen with you. ;D
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Dear Journal,
I woke up to a gloomy atmosphere, the light had not penetrate through my curtain, and if I had sleep any longer I would have been late. I woke up tired, but had a bit of protein shake and went on to enjoy my daily routine.
I had a great evening with Don, my collegue who was lay off from the Internship job due to low funding. This guy is an amazing guy and don't listen to him talk or you will get drag into his long some what boring stories. When I first started over a year and a half ago, I didn't know and listened to one of his stories and he took 1 hour of my over time. But I am glad he's back because we are like two peas in the pod. He's very considerate to me and treats me very well. So we talked about windows 8 and how this version is confusing but starts very fast. I bought a windows 8 recently and it is still confused as ever just because I am barely using it. On my tower for most of my essentials.
Heard the new that another dream match up came true. My uncle is finally end his streak of the dating life and making an effort to realize the girl of his dream. He propose to his girl friend of two years and she said yes. FYI. She's a beautiful white woman and glad she see the potential to be with a handsome Hmong man. I want to congratulate their future together and hope their future will be like blooming fruits and flowers.
Two more weeks until Chicago with the family. Can't wait to cheat on my diet! ;)
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Dear daughter,
You asked if I could take you to the school carnival and I said yes. I hope you had fun playing all the wonderful games and seeing all of your classmates. I hope out dollar raffles tickets will win the HD GO PRO for your father. If not then it is okay. Did you enjoy shooting darts into the balloon? I know it was your first time, but you did great. You were to excited and didn't know which game to play first, but luckily your dad was here to guide you the way. Did you enjoy the sprite? I got the Jimmy John's sub and it was decent. I am glad we had this moment together for one day you're going grow up and live your own life.
When I see your personality, it reminds me of myself. I hope you understand that I wanted to be a funny, clumsy, and a comedian father to you so you wont take life so seriously in the future. I want you to have a side of giggles and be a peaceful person like your dad. Diplomatic solution is the best way to resolve any issues. Remember when I took you fishing and you had that I knew it personality? You got it from me huh? You're such an outgoing person although you're a bit shy. You're just like me. Shy around others, but once I get to know them then it's a bit different.
Well glad you are my lovely nkauj ntxawm and be a good girl because I know you're going to be like us; home people. LOL.
Sincerely,
Your father
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The weekend is jammed pack with things to do. I am started the morning with light ab workout and dips. Then heading to my uncle's house for his celebration. Then will come back home and do some light packing and finish my projects. Sunday will be a sunny day and it will be a great day to do just about anything.
I am thinking about doing a book review on "The Relic" and add it to Moonangel's book review. I picked this book from Goodwill and loved it ever since. Glad I read the book then watch the movie because the movie didn't do the book justice.
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Interesting read.......... especially a certain letter. ;D Hope all goes well for you wherever you're headed to. ;)
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The book I picked up from goodwill. Yes I shop at Goodwill, for books, movies, clothes, suitcases and other goodies. I am the person to take care of another people's treasure.
I am current at page 100 something, lost count, but will find the last page soon when I start reading it again. So far so good, but haven't had the time to finish it. Had this book for a good 6 months now and its probably one of the longest books I started and not finish it. Well going to finish this book so.
Off topic, but from a gender's perspective, women are extraordinary and awesome. They were once the minority and prevented from entering the men's ivy league colleges, but now there are more women graduating from college and are in school. In the next decade they will break into the math and science field. Just my thought.
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"Once upon a midsummer's night,"
"I prayed to the stars and heaven to take this pain away.
"But on that night a wish came true for in that instant I met you.
"I'll drop a tear in the ocean and when you find it, that's when I'll stop loving you.
"It's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart can't stop."
by Dara T.
Once upon a midsummer's night,
I looked to the moon and asked for it to be brighter
To reflect off the ocean where I dropped my tear
Hoping it will stay there, but now I prayed to find it back
For what I gave you, can't be taken back
I wish upon the stars on that faithful day
As I took your hand, you made vows
To live, to love, and to cherish
To echo the wave with our love
But on that evening, heavens took me away
I asked the gods for the reasons of my existed,
He told me was to comfort your dark days and bring you light
For she was supposed to given you wonderful nights
Was I just a thing to be tender with?
God told me no, he gave her a chance to be with me
So I can be her guiding light, her savior
But my effort was like melting butter
The lord asked me what he should do to her
I insisted, nothing be done to the tainted memories we had
For I want a clean slate, a new beginning, a new dream
He asked me to open my hand and closed my eyes
With a small touch, my chamber of thoughts was clear of deceits and lies
Upon the midsummer's night,
I looked down the ocean to drop a tear
Will she really be here?
The thought should I or should I not?
Was my dream with god real or not?
For that faithful day, I decided not to drop a tear in to the ocean
For I wished upon the stars to never have met you
Although it was pleasure and pain
Life was always in rain
It was hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone who doesn't love you back
Given the circumstance, I wished to go back
To the time when I drove by
Looking into your medusa eyes
Never to take that leap
-- by WSG
To Dara
I searched the ocean and found your single drop of tear
once upon the shooting stars
your cries echoed through the heavenly courts
I came a bit too late
On that faithful day
You found me
You came too soon
For the heavens mourned
An angel of heavenly sent
To protect, to love, to serve
You're titanium heart to still protect even through death
Your desires to still believe
For someone so undeserving
You are now free
You gave humans a shot
To drop something as precious as your tear
In a ocean unpenetratable by their eyes
You were the Angel of savior
Come forth into the light
For righteousness and good heart will bear your true name
Walk to the heavenly gates, and for once you were heavenly sent
Break the titanium heart, for once it brought you pain
Empty your sweet tears, for once brought you bitterness
Walk into the light and stand above all
For your sake, the heavens called
Be upon the shooting stars,
So on this faithful day
you will live a new life miserable free
I hope you are doing well with your child. May the angels watch over you soul and guide you to the light. Where god will acknowledge your kindness and give life a new meaning. One day, you will find justice.
by wsg
in loving memory of someone who's life was taken away, and may the gods punish those who have done her wrong.
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What ifs, to the lovely lady who wrote me letters over the years
On that faithful day I read your letter. The kind words resonated within my chamber of thoughts, but it fell into the ocean of memories. For one, I had not known the affection you gave me, the meaning you put behind every words, the thoughts going through your mind when you made all those calls, and your desire to stick by my side.
I admit to the flaws of my creator, my genetic mutation within the double helix. If you should see a shooting star, make a wish to never have met me, for the treacherous deceit upon your lovely soul. I had forgotten even your friendship, and the echoes you brought me back. Remember that day, you saw me for a brief moment from a distance, I forgot to look, then in that moment I asked for you name, was it just a memory? Never had the chance nor gave you a chance through my lust of deceit, to cause you pain and sorrow, and inflicted thousand of needles. For that faithful day, if I would have step out, maybe your heart will be fully content.
In riddle and metaphors, hard to resonate, for when you read this letter, you will fully understand. For the brief memories of what could have been, let the dying memories of yesteryear be that of the past like the river flowing downward. For we could only wonder what if.
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Are my eyes fooling me because I saw all my nicks reflecting on this poem. Very nice and thanks for sharing... My condolence to you.
Maybe my poem will soothe your heart and fill in the missing gap.
upon the next shooting star, you should look up to the moon and asked for the date.
On the eve of the cold breeze and the northern star glows a bulb of white gas, the shooting star will come and make it last.
It will come fast like wind bringing your scent to me.
For your tainted memories could be wash away like the flowing river of spring
The bygones, yesterday be a closing chapter within your soul
If I could, I would, bring that star you, give you the moon
Make you go back to when your heart was pure
For I will come in the form of a deer
Catch me if you can and never let go
That wish, you made will never give you more tears
No more tainted memories
No more what ifs
No more desires
For the instance you held on to that deer, you will forever live an astounding life, full of lovely and good memories
Sorry if the poem had a weird vibe to it. If you find that shooting star or know the date. Tell me. ;)
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If I should ever catch that falling star from the sky
I will treasure it like it's my last breath on this earth
I will pray to the God in heaven to let me see you just once
Even if the moment already passed us by, I want him to grant one last wish
So, that we can reverse the river of time to where we both were still innocent
When your heart was still unbroken and not tainted with memories of the past
We met too late when the stars has crossed its legion to the next
However, with will power and determination, anything is possible
The next chapter would be a book writing of you and me, our love story... ;)
Very good lyrics,.........
if possible I would sleep the night away, and if dream was the only place to be with you then let me sleep forever.....
have a good night and sleep tight...bye
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It was a great day today and yesterday. The temp is around 60 F and I'm feeling the heat already. Actually I had on a nice, soft, sweater that it's butter guy would wear, and had on a coat was not a a good combination.
Well yesterday, opened the garage and forgot to put seeds in the bird station so I went back inside the home. Came back out and this is what happened.
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Who is the culprit behind this mess?
It was not a bird, a squirrel, or a rabbit, but a chipmunk that decided to feed himself. Now I left the seeds on the floor so he can come back to clean it up. Hopefully he does so it wont go to waste. Have fun animals.
Drew this picture on the patio side walk for fun. I know I need to clean the stain. ;D ;D
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Going through my fb and this picture remind me of you're mustache and mysterious identity.
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Dear Journal,
The last week compare to this week is amazing. I had the best workout of my life with a friend of mine at the gym. Usually, we don't work out together because of time difference, but I made time for us to work together and it was insane. He thinks by working with me that I will push him to his max level, but really I see him pushing me in a way that doesn't allow me to give up on those painful reps. I guessed when you have someone looking up to you, it changes your perspective. I was amazed that by cutting down from 174 to 164 lbs. I was able to maintain weight and become stronger. Of course with healthy eating and motivation, I squat 245 lbs 5 times and max 10 reps at dead lift at 245lbs.
With every reps and every motion in the body, its not the reps that counts, but the contraction of your muscle fibers squeezing and coming together. It's not about the lifting weights in the mirror and looking at yourself curls the bells, but the thought of how you will create that muscle.
I told him my analysis on becoming a better lifter and a champion in our perspective. I said to him, it's not about lifting heavy or doing reps, it's about being able to vision yourself and seeing your own art work in the process. You should have an image of what you want to look like and work from there. An example is when I lift, I tend to imagine myself being Arnold or those guys doing the same thing as myself. It creates an energy and allows myself to see me doing the reps and thinking I will look like them. It is the mental aspect that creates the will for you to do the extra reps and see yourself working towards that goal.
So far, he's a great guy to work with and easy going. He's around 5'6, 160 lbs, but his triceps are huge. We are looking forward to tonight so no ph for me later on. Have a good night ladies and my gentlemen. O0
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Mice? ??? Your daughter is very cute. I want to pinch her cheek. Now, I know why you like my cheek. ;D
Your cheeks are very lovely especially when you're blushing. hehe. Thanks for the pm. Zoo nkauj li thaum kuv pob koj tus neeg ntxim nyiam. ;)
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My weekend was not as boring as I thought, although the Manny vs Bradley fight wasn't as exciting as I thought. I wanted Pacman throw more punches, but it looks like his age is affecting him in this fight.
Following the fight, my cousins had plan for me to be the designated driver to go fishing, but I got tired and cancelled their request at the last second. I got home around 2 am and fell asleep till 2pm in the afternoon. I decided to go to the gym and get rid of the one can of Bud Light I drank during the fight. LOL. I only drank one and they know I'm lifting.
I got a call to karaoke and decided to go clean out my voice. I thought I sounded good for this song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YOtJhafpgXQ#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YOtJhafpgXQ#ws)
It was my first time trying this song out and I did not so good.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CiUGJP47HVo#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CiUGJP47HVo#ws)
then did a savage garden song and unchained melody. I didn't do good on those, but I sang my heart out with "Khuv xim tsis tau deev". LOL. yup that song... ;D ;D
I had fun last night and want to thank the cousins for a fun night.
The family is planning to head down to Chicago for a nice big catering of delicious crabs and others. ;)
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:2funny: :2funny: :2funny: Koj khuv xim leejtwg nas? LOL Should have sang it to her so she will know how much regret you have. :2funny:
No one, but it was a fun song to sing. I was never really into the girls I dated back, then but it could have been something if I did. I had opportunities, but I didn't want to waste it on the ones I didn't think would be worth it. ;) I dedicated that song to you..Khuv xim tsis tau pom koj... :'( :'( :'(
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Other men would have said "Thaub, koj ruam lov?" hehehe.. Glad that you just don't give away that sexy body for meaningless pleasure. ;D
I got that a lot. When I was in my youth around 14-17, I had a couple of girls that chase me around, but I was too stupid as they would say it. There was a girl who knew me from school and sat next to me shading me with her umbrella. I didn't think much of it, but glad I made the right decision to no go over her house when her parents weren't around. I am not a one night stand person and I prefer quality over quantity. The body, and the soul is very important to me. The soccer ogs would be like you will regret it later on. Now, I'm a bit older, but I don't regret anything. I am the kind of guy that only pursue someone if I like them and I don't like that many girls. ;)
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saving this body for someone special, she's out there somewhere..... . ;D
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Listening to this song right now.
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I had a busy weekend attending an UIL's Hmong traditional party and had to sit at the end of the table. I usually don't sit here because being the toasters, you have to drink beer and liquid. It was a busy weekend and not many people came and so the job was mine. The lamb curry was so good, but it gave me stomach acid afterwards. It's been so long since I drank especially liquor.
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Where in the world is sweet_guy? ;D
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The host gave me the honor of toasting and 12 shots later I didn't feel to good. Only on special occasions will you see me drink. They all know and respect my lifestyle enough to let me pass and I thanked those who are understanding. Yup, I hang with OGS. I might know your dad if you're from my area. LOL. J/k....
Well for Easter Sunday, my parents celebrated by going to the buffet as usual. My dad loves eating crabs and we always go to his favorite one. I ate too much and someone call 922. my stomach is to full. LOL.
Last week Friday I bought a Hmong Necklace and glad I made the contribution by supporting my Hmongs. It feels great to understand and help our people rise up. Also bought papaya and sticky rice. It was good as usual, but if someone special was there to eat it with me then it would have tasted better. ;)
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Plans have been arranged and it will be a rocky ride two weeks from now. It will be a path of unknown and I hope for the better. I will part with my precious lover in the coming weeks and hope it will be maintained and care for as I did. I will take one last picture with you before I hand you over my to brother. I married you when you were only 62K and now you're 72 K. I will missed you dearly. As we depart, just know that I changed your oil every 3K miles and gave you everything I had. Never took you over 80 MPH, and never broke your engine. You will be missed.
I have a huge DIY project to complete. I ordered and the top soil came in. All I have to do now is finish the slope of the foundation to divert water away from the foundation. The pile of dirt is huge, 10 yards to be exact. I have 1 week to do it before my other tasks. So many things to do and so little time. Anyone wants to help? ;)
My cousin's wedding from last week was simple and easy. The bride's family made it easy and they drink soda more than beer. Many people are getting married while others are staying single.
After two years of being single, I realized what my mistake was and with the freedom I have, it feels good. I was like a bird locked in a cage, but now I am as free as a bird flying in the sky. One thing about myself is that I am straight forward and don't like playing with other people's hard. I think it is a tragedy to break someone's heart with false promise if you wont be there till the end.
My uncle wanted me to talk to some good girls, but it feels strange. I am just a simple guy and I realized after many years what kind of girl I truly like.
The truth is that I have always known what kind of women I like, but I had make poor decisions in the past. I went with the opposite and now have face the consequences. So what type do I like.
Someone with a big heart, very nice and kind, not stingy, love everyone, her parents, my parents, understanding, and long temper. I like having guesses come over and she will have to be supportive. Yup, I know I am not the best and hope she will like my personality too. If you do find her before I do then tell her I was once here....LOL. ;)
How do you find a girl like that? Most of these girls are in college and you only find them once a year at the new year if you're lucky. Besides recommendation s, it's hard it you don't have any connections.
I don't know what the future will hold, but do know I am just a simple guy with the best intentions. O0
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Yep i see your brother and you. Lol
you're up early? ;)
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You will find her. Those type of women still exist.
The rain woke me up. Why are you up also?
I'm waiting for you... hear the rain drops and knew it must be the heavens dropping her sweet tears... so do you missed me?
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Here is an old picture of guys. I was 22 I think and my hair is still intact... I missed it so much..
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I ate too much and wont look like this till this Friday, but it's okay. You like my hair cut. I am not this big, but pictures are deceiving. Here is my latest progression pictures.
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Yes, haven't seen you around for awhile. You know its not like you not to stop by my place. But I am going to catch some sleep now. Good night sweet man.
I'm going out too now. Sweet dreams and see you later okay. Byes. sweet dreams as usual. ;) ;)
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Wow, looking real good!! I see every curve of the muscle from you abs to your rib cage. O0 I will be intimated to meet u. Since you're hot and im not. :'( you look 10 years younger too.
Don't be intimated. I wont bite. I am very gentle, but don't let the lion out of his cage or you will have a run for your dollar. ;)
Thanks for noticing. I am trying to be more ripped. Next week is my last week and I hope to achieve it to a somewhat degree.
Here is the DIY project.
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I hope to get done soon and then I will be free.
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Where is this holy grail that I will be searching for? I don't know where it is, but if I find it then my life will be fulfill. Where do I start looking and how will I know I've found it? What is it exactly? If the holy grail does exist I hope it will bring me more joy and a future of blooming flowers.
Where is she?
Who is this beautiful girl
whose smile can light up any dark days
who is she
who is this girl with a big heart
Her kindness will make even the angriest person happy
Her thoughts are no more than positive feeds
Who is this girl who can shed a new day in my life
Where is this girl
if you can find her, tell her I am here
;) ;) ;) ;) ;)
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Here is an old picture of guys. I was 22 I think and my hair is still intact... I missed it so much..
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I ate too much and wont look like this till this Friday, but it's okay. You like my hair cut. I am not this big, but pictures are deceiving. Here is my latest progression pictures.
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Wow...look at you. Just walk to a park like that and I'm sure every girl there will drool.
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LOL. You're so funny, but I like it. ;)
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Looks like you have a big project ahead of you. Is anyone helping you at all? Too bad, I live too far, otherwise I'll be glad to help you out. I don't mind getting dirty. Have a great day! :)
I'll bring you a cup of water. It would be nice to have someone like you helping me out. I'm doing it on my own, everyone is too busy. O0
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Kudos to you man....I've done my fair share of DIY home improvements.
Please show an after picture. I wasn't quite sure what you were trying to do there with that big mound of dirt and pile of bricks.
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Kudos to you man....I've done my fair share of DIY home improvements.
Please show an after picture. I wasn't quite sure what you were trying to do there with that big mound of dirt and pile of bricks.
Will do. Thanks for dropping by. I love doing DIY projects and it saves a ton of money. O0
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Last week was a tough week. Didn't get enough sleep throughout the week, but had a great sleep yesterday. One of those sleeps where you fall deeply.
I got the DIY project done yesterday. Just need to plan flowers and everything should look great.
Here are the before and after.
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A pile of dirt + workout = A finished DIY
Finally a year long DIY is done and over with. The basement will be good for another 50 years. Just kidding another 5-10 years and more. O0
My back yard white neighbor wanted to see if I can sign the paper so he can have hens running around. I told him any day because I love raising chickens and feeding the birds/squirrels/rabbits too. We had a chat and found out something interesting. When I was cleaning by our back fence and heard some Asian people talking, I tried to listen and see if I could understand their conversation just to find out their race. They sounded Vietnamese with a bit of hmong tones and for a long time I thought they were Viets.
Then I told the white guy with two Asian babies that if he need permission then my side by side Hmong neighbor is pretty cool about it and it would be no problem. He then told me he's married to a Hmong Lor gal. I was just thinking, so they are Hmong people and not Vietnamese. Now I know I need a hearing aid. ;D ;D
Just thought I share this.
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Today I regret not going to the Vang Council Convention. I should have went and witness my dad receiving one of the most important awards any Hmong leader can get. I can't believe I didn't go, but glad my dad got the award. As the chosen leader of the Vang Clan in Milwaukee, my dad received the honor award signed by my uncle(the new WI 18 COUNCIL LEADER), VangPao's son; Neng Chue, and two other important people in the Hmong community.
I am proud of you dad, keep up the great work!
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Have you ever had one of those moments when you're so happy to lay on your bed and relax. I did just that yesterday and just about every day in my old room. I am glad to be back at my parents place. Its been a such a long time since living on my own, and being back makes me feel 17 again. I feel like a young teenager with a cell phone, instead of an old phone, and laying on my bed late at night. Turning off my lights and put on some soft music. Laying on top of my soft breathable American blanket, call a special girl. I would then talk to her like how I did in the old days and this would go on till 3 or 4 in the morning. (If only I had someone special to talk to)
I feel alive and young living here. Forever young. ;)
Being the youngest son, I know I will have to carry on the family name and it's my responsibility in the future to take of my parents. This is a big task, but you know that your son wont fail you. Going to get you guys a place with two acres of land. Going to try the best that I can. Thanks for being wonderful parents. ;)
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Wow...I think I will be seeing some flower beds in the future there from your DIY project.
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Wow...I think I will be seeing some flower beds in the future there from your DIY project.
I want to plant some flowers, but I will be gone and it will be someone else's place for a while. I will probably have my mom plant some flowers if the tenant doesn't do it. Glad I got the project done and don't have to worry about the putto of water at the corner of the house. I got added more soil to create a slope for water to run away from the foundation. ;)
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Wi guy - looks nice! I've done a similar project so I can understand how well you've slept afterwards.
Since you will be gone awhile I would recommend getting some hardy perennial plants in that area. That way you won't have to spend money annually to spruce up the area. There are several wi native shrubs/trees that have a high water absorption temperment that would be suitable for that particulare area. I would recommend that to assist in drawing out the water naturally and quickly. Just remember NOT to plant Oriental bittersweet because it's restricted for planting in Wi due to it being a highly invasive specie.
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Wi guy - looks nice! I've done a similar project so I can understand how well you've slept afterwards.
Since you will be gone awhile I would recommend getting some hardy perennial plants in that area. That way you won't have to spend money annually to spruce up the area. There are several wi native shrubs/trees that have a high water absorption temperment that would be suitable for that particulare area. I would recommend that to assist in drawing out the water naturally and quickly. Just remember NOT to plant Oriental bittersweet because it's restricted for planting in Wi due to it being a highly invasive specie.
Thanks for reminding me to plant some perennial plants. I am shopping for plants this Thursday. I can relate to your DIY project too. I did sleep like a baby and didn't hear a sound. One of the best sleeps I had in a while. Well thanks for coming by and being awesome. O0
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Thanks..
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The beginning of an end's new beginning (written in journal 2013)
The beginning was the end and the end was the new beginning. Every new beginning has to start from somewhere. I should have folded my chairs and wrapped up my belongings sooner, but one's foolish heart keeps on waiting to see if change will ever occur.
I waited long enough by the bus stop, those days of waiting and waiting for the renovated bus, but it always came as the same old bus. Nothing seem to change. When being asked if I would take a different route, I hesitated, but after many years of battling the old cancer I was becoming the cancer.
On that day, she never thought I would have the courage to to leave because I was too kind and always worried for her sake. Never in my wildest imagination did I realized I was the reason for my own downfall. I was always there for her when she was down or when I though she needed my help. Nice guys finish last, but not today.
This nice guy is finishing first and thats why the wind's direction changed.
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Journey to the West
This was many months and many moons ago. When I realized my own happiness was finding my self I went with the wind. The wind blew different this time. The air was much warmer and the sun shined brighter. The sky was clear blue and when night came. The stars glowed whiter and the moons reflection off the ocean was of her self.
I took one last look at Milwaukee and had to stop in Arizona before heading to the Sacramento International Airport. My uncle came and picked me up and went back to Stockton. The city I grew up in changed so much and couldn't remember any places.
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ST, you know the guy who sang "Oh kuv mem Leeg Muam"?.. ;)
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Thor Lee? Yes, I do know him.
Glad that you reached your destination and that you are fine. ;)
I mean Lis toj....I thought you knew Lis right?
I made it home and will enjoy this week with friends at the GB Labor day tourney.
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Yes, I know both of the singers Lis Toj and Thor Lis. Glad that you made it home safely. Enjoy your time in GB. O0
I told him that pic was for the a special friend...
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Memories from the past; The sweetest Gal
During my teen years, there was this particular girl who I came to know. She was very sweet and kind. It was during 6th grade that we saw new faces coming into school and hers caught mine. She was not the tallest nor the smallest. Her height was around 5'3 and her complexion was fairly light brown. She had a long face and had the qualities of a woman I would chase after. I didn't get to know her right away or gave thoughts to chasing after her, but it was one of those moments where you wonder who they were.
It was probably around the same day that a boy came to our class and said he was from the vegas area. His parents moved to Milwaukee and he was the oldest of his siblings. I didn't care much about him, but I thought it was awkward that these people came at the same time. It was during lunch time that I saw them talking to each other that I knew they were related. I asked him if he knew them and he said that were his cousins.
Then school was over and summer came and was gone. Fall came and school went like any other day. Then somehow during lunch hour, I keep on seeing her and something was telling me she had something for me. It's been so long and I cant remember how we met, but fast forward a year later.
It was during the Chang New Year at a church and I saw her with her mom. I being a goodie boy at heart and knew the ritual of yesterday's past, I went up and ask her mom politely if I may have her daughter for a dance. Her mom looked up and I was quite well dressed and had a nice attitude. A big smile helped convinced her mom.
We stepped into the ball floor and I held her close. Hands were closing tight and I whispered in her ears, "Are you having fun?" She replied with the softest voice I ever heard. Then afterward I walked her back and asked for a second dance. She smiled and said yes. This time I had her arms to my shoulder and my hands wrapped around her back. Her body was slim and it was like never wanting to let go. We slow dance through out the night and had a great time.
Before the night was over I asked for her phone number and she gave it to me.
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Sweet memories of the past. It's always so wonderful to remember these special stories from our past. When love was innocent and pure.
These sweet memories are hidden and filed away. It is true that these are the memories when we were still pure and was a walk to remember. ;)
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Sweet memories: Maybe she is the one gal
Not too long ago, a good friend gave me his SIL's little sister's number and gave her a call. Our first conversation on the phone was a bit awkward and it only lasted a few minutes. She sounded kind of mad because some random guy had her number and is this how women are in this present day? Well we ended the conversation with a "she'll call me tomorrow." Then the next night came and she called me. I was surprised and didn't know what to expect. She asked if my friend gave me her number and I kept on playing around with her.
It's been a while since I talked to someone like her. I mean her voice is sweet as the honey sugar that reaches your tongue and the sensation for more sweet continuous out weight all other options not to have another bite. Her voice, the way she speak, her tone is steady and flows nicely. She sounds like the lady of my dreams. Well that's probably not true because I say that to most girls when I talked to them.
I am no one special and my words are just from recollections of romantic version of the guy from it's not butter. Or from Mr. Grey, sexy verses. Well maybe not that deep but enough to wound any women and make them fall for me, but somehow this girl is different. She laughed to my jokes and her laughs are like nothing from the past. I am afraid I may have joke with her too much. Not being straight forward and use too many metaphors. She wants to see my picture and I hesitated and tried to test her water to see if she was the kind of gal in my book.
The kind of gal I see in my future life is someone who has a big heart and has long temper. Someone who is motivated and knows what they want in life. I want someone who is understanding and know that when she closes her heart, it will be me that closes her door. Well I sent her some false pictures and told her the opposite of me. So far, she seems busy and didn't reply back, but I am staying optimistic.
I must remind you all that I don't know how she looks like and I don't expect her to look like a beauty. I asked my friend for her picture and he gave me her FB. I thought she was going to be the one girl I saw in his fb friend list, but it wasn't. I went to her FB and she's looks great. Tall slender and tandy light, the girl with a bright, white as sun light, this girl had on a sweet smile. I must remind you guys that nothing beats a girl with a happy face, a smile that will light up your dark days and she had that in her.
Never in my wildest imagination have I met such a person. I usually don't chase the sun down for such a gal, but she has been in my thoughts lately. I wanted to visit her, but she went out of town. I think I may have a crush on and usually crushes are only in middle school and high, but something is telling me if she gives me a chance then I'll make her see what life is all about.
Maybe she is the one girl......but distance is a factor. We live thousand miles apart and its only a phone call away, but it is much more difficult than that. Anyone will tell you that seeing that person on a daily schedule is more fitting and will make the relationship work to a degree.
My friend told her I am like the best person out there and gave her the whole run down on my resume. I am not all that but you could say he's my wing man. I know I have a great wingman who will make me better than what not. ;)
My friend and I are planning to visit her soon in December and will see how this turns out.
All we every want is a chance, an opportunity to and if that opportunity does come, will not miss it. Will not miss the caravan of life that come through once in a life time.
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Sweet memories: Chang New Year
It was a nice sunny day, on a Saturday and my uncles wanted to go to Chang New year and we went. The new year held in a isolated bar from the city and it was small, but fitting in a way. We went there to hang around and didn't do much because it was boring. Then night fell and we decided to go to the after party. It was around 8 pm, the wind was not strong and the breeze was just right. There was no humid in the air and the leaves have changed colors. When we got to the place, the bar section had their lights still on, but walking to the open floor becoming darker. I walked around looking for a similar face and out of the blue, she was there. The girl whom I talked to from time to time. She was the girl from middle school whom I had dance with the previous year.
This girl, well she's different in many ways. She's quiet and thinks before she says anything. She has a great attitude and seeing her is like seeing an old best friend from the past. We talked here and there, but nothing serious. From the moment we lay eyes at each other, we felt we had always connected. Without a single word spoke, it was like Edward and Belle from Twilight. It was as if we could read minds and were compatible with each other. She was sitting on the far right, next to the wall with her mom. I went to her and talked to her. The moment I sat next to her it was like the world stopped. People around us were ignored and no matter how fast time went, it meant nothing to us. The atmosphere changed as I asked her for a dance and she nodded with a yes. On the dance floor, we held each other and I gave her a peck on her cheek. She smelled so good and it felt so right.
When the music stopped, we turned and went over to her seats. Somehow there was always this instant connection and once again we locked eyes. I held on to her hands, her beautiful slender hands, soft as father and firm as a pillow. She talked about life and at this very moment, nothing seem to exist. I gave her three kisses to her cheeks or maybe a kiss to her lips. I don't quite remember but I do remember kissing her on the lips. Her lips were soft and kissable. Shes not a great kisser, but that didn't matter because the love when two lips touches is what it matters.
Soon the party was over and we parted ways.
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I hope she is the ONE for you. You deserve someone good. Keep us updated.
Maybe some day, I'll looked back at these online memories and say wow... I hope these online journals will keep us young again when we are reading it even if we are old already. ;)
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I want to come back in the next 5, 20 years and smile when reading your post. ;)
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Labor weekend
I think I may of had too many drinks. I don't usually drink, but when I drink I think my bill would probably be card not accepted. lol. ;)
I came back home missing my uncle's grand party in Fresno fair ground, but didn't miss a single thing back at home. My brother took me out to fortune and had the best shrimp and deep fried squid. We went to soccer practice and had the best exercise in months.
Labor weekend was a blast.
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Smile with the most enjoyable gesture, laugh like you're living it, live like how live was meant to, and remember the young hearted; forever young,
Had a great time coming back. Until next time and still counting the days.
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A letter to my daughter
Hi moon gal,
I couldn't be there when you had your 7th birthday, couldn't be there to see you're first swimming lesson or your karate kicks. I wanted to be the best dad to you and teach you the life lessons I learned. The last time I saw you I didn't get a chance to take you out. Remember you wanted to challenge your dad at swimming? Actually at everything. See that's how I know you have my trait. When you smiled, I see me in you. That's how I know you're a sweet caring gal because your dad is not too different. That's one thing I noticed about you. You're outgoing, fun, and your smile lights up the room.
Do you remember when I took you to soccer practice and you ran around chasing the soccer ball? Well, seeing that was my happiness. And you cried when the soccer ball hit your shin. Your dad was hoping you would like continuing to play soccer but the choice was yours. I cant believe the days go by so fast. When I left you couldn't hold your breath before ending a sentence, but now you out beat your dad. Hearing your voice brightens my day. I missed you very much.
Remember what we talked about that one day? I asked you if you miss me and you replied that you had to much going on to think about me? Glad, you're keeping your focus on school and your daily activities. As much as I want to see you I can't. You are to young to understand but you already know you knew what you think is everything. I hope you enjoy all those stories I told you. I tried to be funny, but my jokes are no good.
The days are gone and hopefully I be there to catch your smile from time to time. Even though my presence is absent , just know you carried on a proud heritage. Glad I can be your father. Due to circumstances I can't be there for you like how a great dad should, but hopefully you will understand later on. Just know you're dad won't be gone forever and he is only a call away. Sorry if I couldn't see you as much as I would like but in the we will be together again.
Sincerely,
Your funny dad
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All those years I never make use of what I had but kept it for a special occasion. What a mistake I learned. Now the tides have turn and I've seen the possible. My potential for the person that I am.
I learned to not listen to the naysayers. To take a leap of faith and dive in to the unknown. After all, no one knows how our story will go but just keep in mind that we are the narrator.
What an excitement to se everyone again. Now I just need to find our old childhood pictures and identify each other.
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Maybe it wasn't me but the environment that didn't suit me at all. I didn't feel alive when I was still in the old state, and always felt an emptiness. I had always wonder if there was a time in my life when I will feel the fire. If the fire still burning strong or am I getting old.
I dreamed that I'll head in a different direction and making a run for my life just to feel the need to thrive in thewe conditions. For a while nothing seem to matter, but fate persuaded me in a new path.
These days, the sun shines brightly. Even on a cloudy day, it still shines. I am finally back, to the hometown where my childhood friends are. Where the memories of the past only speeds up the process of getting acquaintance with the long lost cousins. This is my home. I feel safe here. I feel great here. I feel like it's welcoming. This is the place where I'll get marry and do my wedding here.
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Whoa bro, where have you been? Hope you're doing well. Back in your hometown, eh? Let us know when you find that perfect girl.
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While I'm counting the days, I had an excellent 5 days weekend vacation. I guessed sometimes faith works in its own ways and luck contributed giving a wonderful touch to it. A friend of mine heard I was going to fresno and persuaded his friend to see me and it worked. I finally made it to her town and she finally came out. When I first saw her, she was unbelievable beautiful. Her voice and her personality has a sweet persona to it. She's single and maybe is ready for a real man. I don't know but if the opportunity is given then I want to give it a shot. This girl, I finally met afters months of saying I was going to her town, but work didn't let me do it.
I already knew from that day, that is the girl I am going to marry. If fate and the opportunity comes I want to make her mine. When she smiles, its beautiful. I am not the best looking guy out there, but that don't matter. What matter is that there is trust.
I never thought I would make another trip back there, but I want to go see her again. I have already ask her about the Christmas dance and if she wants to go. Besides fresno new year is around the corner.
I have to admit, I am going to live here and make the best out of it. I hope faith will bring me closer to her. Now on to sac new year and happy thanksgiving to all of my family and friends.
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Whoa bro, where have you been? Hope you're doing well. Back in your hometown, eh? Let us know when you find that perfect girl.
Hi minor,
these days the fire is thriving and no matter where I go, it feels like home to me. Im in love Californias beaches and the many places down here. The high palm trees gives the feeling like scene is opened and the free spirits can do what they desired.
What can I say about the perfect girl. I have met a few down here and there is one I really admired. If the opportunity arise, I am going to marry her. I'll be back next year to let you know how it goes. I am willing to travel 6 hours to see her. Haha...long distance relationship that could last a lifetime.
Hope you're doing good and finding that sweet beautiful gal. Happy thanks giving and live life.
On a side note, for a while I wanted to grow old and missed out on life. Now I realized I need to live life and it feels great. Could be right time right place.
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These days
Maybe it was long ago that I had forgotten to live. When I was younger I had always wanted to grow up. I wanted to be 18, them 21 and so on. When I was finally 24, I realized all these years, I made too many sacrifices. Always push to make a living for others and had forotten ro really live.
One day I realized that holding on to those bits of memories were useless and held me from my full potential. Sometimes I wondered if I should have done it sooner. Why was I afraid to make this new change. I guessed those who are unwilling to adapt are those falling behind. Little did I realized the meaning of life.
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When I came here, I didn't know what to expect. The beautifulness of this valley is like a bowl of roses.
The new years are lining up and this month will be awesome. I didn't get a chance to go to the Sacramento new year, but had a chance to go to the stockton, eureka, and will be going to the Merced and fresno new year.
I feel alive living down here. The dates are set and the fire will burn bigger and stronger than the last.
A sweet vacation.
I had a wonderful year, mysterious meeting with some special people and had a great time seeing the family and friends.
I want thank a wonderful gal for be wonderful and living life like it could be the last. She showed great sportsmanship and had a great time with her. Thanks for a great time. I am glad I met you and you're a wonderful person. It takes someone to understand another.
I want to thank you and my friend very much. I hope some day over the horizon, the sun will continue to shine in your path, lighting every step of the way.
Bucket list
Singing on stage- completed
Take a vacation with someone sweet- completed
Fresno new year
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What can I say, I finally got to meet this gal who kept me on my tippy toes. I want to thank my best friend for pushing matter and his editification. I know I'm not as highly as what he said, but maybe he's right on a couple of point.
I can't grantee a life of luxuries, but I can give her three things. Sshelter, unconditional love, and will always be the Luckiest man to treat her like no other.
After an hour of convincING this sweet gal, she finally agreed to come out. Also I finally managed to visit her town after many months. I guessed good things happened to those who are finally given a moment.
I saw later that night around 10 pm
When I walked into the bar, she sat there waiting for me. For a moment it was like when I first saw my past. This gal had on a black coat, she looked like no one else.
We chatted and all I saw what her eyes and her smile.
She's one of those gals, that if other guys don't treat her right then someone will.
All night long, I kept starring at her smile, she asked why am I always smiling. It's simple. If she gives a guy like me the chance, she will want no one else if she digs a good guy.
It was a wonderful night and hope that I will get to see her one of these days. I don't usually chase after these wonderful gal, but what happens when a guys knows what he wants and the gal thought she knew what she wants too, but when she meets her match, she's blonde. Lol.
Maybe this is my opportunity to seek something better.
Give it my all and chase for the rainbow. At the end of the days, if it doesn't meant to be then I won't regret it. After all life is better when the fire burns and the rush of adrenaline flows in every blood vessel.
Maybe the fresno new year will shedd some light.
"Just for love"
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Sweet tears, your funny and ntxim hlub at the same time. I'm not looking for the perfect girl. I'm looking for your duplicate. ;D
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2014; my best year
If there was something to brag about then it would have to be that 2014 was my best year. Everything went accordingly to plan and it was just an awesome year. Met all my California relatives and it was unforgettable.
I managed to find a decent job in cali for.the moment and save up for a nice two door sports car. I met some nice people and made many friends. The exciting thing about 2014 was the fact that I finally found some cousins that clicked right away and we had a great time. Love my two cousins and everyone very much.
The benefit of being single is meeting some nice women. Met some nice women, but it was nothing serious. Then met the gal from fresno and she was very sweet. I thought about pursuing her, but then i realized we aren't compatible. It's nice to be in likes of someone. I have to say, cali has some very nice women.
Took a vacation to LA and it was awesome. Had a great time with friends and experiencing something different is awesome. My next stop is vegas, tijuana; mexico, and not laos;lol.
Every where I went had families that showed me a great time. Thanks to family and friends for an awesome time. We did many things that can be said in here, but we had great times together.
2014, feels so good. I took a big breathe and swallow it in and breathe out 2015. Hopefully it will be better.
Pictures coming up and fresno logs.
P.s ..to ST.
That girl I thought I was going to chase, well not anymore. Something came up. Will tell you in the next log
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The girl on the phone
When I got to California, the atmosphere was different than wisconsin. I lived with my aunt and uncle in law and they were very helpful in making me comfortable. The days felt long and boring, and the days went by so slow. Couldn't imagine what to do the next day because it was boring. I haven't met any of my relatives at this point and haven't bought my car yet, so I wwas limited in this place.
A good friend called me and introduced me to his friend, who is much older and our conversation clicked right away. This woman, her name is M, she's a mature and fun person on the phone. I joke about dating her from time to time and she said she will introduce me to her sisters. I can decide who I want to get to know. Her two younger sisters are 26 and 20 and I call to see which I prefer.
Out of the blue, I called for the 20 years old named Jeni and she whoo me with her California words. Her laugh and her voice was very sweet and loving. She was willing to talk to me although she alrwady had a long distance boyfriend. So I call a couple more times a d though naw... so I called the older sister and our conversation was okay.
I stopped calling and thought it was over before it begin. Life went on without thinking about her. Then the Merced new year came and saw them for the first time. They wore some really nice hmong outfits. Got to ball tossed with them for the time being and it was awesome.
It was my first time seeing Jeni and she has her own beauti and a lovelyness to it. She didn't talked to me much but it was okay because at least they got to hear mine. Time went on and nothing happened, they only crossed my mind as friends only and nothing more.
Time passes and fresno hmong new year was comin up and my good friend was coming down to enjoy it with me. At the same time, my uncle and his band was throwing a party too and my friend asked if M would go with us. The sweet woman M said sure and at the same time he was going to see if his fresno sister would be my date for the party.
My friend came on the 23, just in time for the big party at the fresno fairground. We went to.merced to pick up M and she said her sisters should go to.make it fun and we said sure. At this time, my friends fresno sister was out of town and I was dateless, but it didn't matter.
We got to the party, and my friend chicken out on showing M a good time so I stepped up and we dance to the music. I always believe that no matter what, you have to make it fun and live in the moment. After taking M, I looked at our table and the girl Jeni sitting by her mom, she looked gorgeous. I asked her to slow dance and she hesitate, but I don't give up easily. I grabbed her hands and said, your hands are beautiful, let's dance and she looked and surely, it was a yes.
She's 5'4 or 5'5 and her body was very warm to hug. Her family are home people, and they barely get to party so they are still newbies, but it was okay because I could show them. Some how when I dance with her, something trigger my heart. This girl, her laugh, her smile, her cheeks, her voice and her kind personlaity was more than eenough to whoop my mind.
When the party was over, I realized something on that day, she was a.keeper. she thinks before she speaks, thoughtful and very kind. This is the girl I would day is wife material. Lol.
I didn't take her too seriously, because the fresno hny was coming up and it would more awesome to be single. Fresno hny day 1 came and it was amazing. Ball tossed with many girls and got everyone of their phone numbers. Most of my nor cal cousins came down and we had a blast. There were many beautiful hmong girls and everyone has their own unique style. Love all of my hmong ladies.
Later on that afternoon, i saw Jeni with her family she looked beautiful. The only way to describe her in my own words is, she's lovely as can be. Her impression makes me want to chase her, but this is the new year. Can't settle down yet. Bought her a rose for 3 dollars.
The night party was decent, should have went to the night club. My cousins went to imperial and some girls I met went there too, but decided to go to fresno fairground parties. If you never been to the fairground parties then you're missing out. It's like walking through a hmong street with parties on both ends. I had a great time.
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Thanks ST,
You can always share your stories. You know I love them very much. After your other stories are making me fall for you even harder. ;)
So write more..okie.
you know theres only a year left on the time frame. What if she can't make it, what if when the time comes and she forgets. I'll still be waiting and wonder.
What if I don't get to meet her.
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"Fresno hny day 3."
The woman in the pink outfit who came later around 10 to the party with her friends; my cousins. I didn't know she was single. Well I was introduced to some MN girls and we danced a few songs. They left. She gave me her number but I never bother to call her. Sometimes women think we are hungry wolves but maybe we are gentle souls too. We are not all about sex; it's so much more.
Then my eyes was wandering around the band party and noone caught my eyes. A uncle came and said theres a single girl overy by my uncles. I went and took a look and she was there. Unsure, I asked my cousin and he said she's single.
She looked stunning and the most beautiful girl I have seen that night. The music came on and I went to her and she was sitting with her beat friends. I said, you're beautiful tonight, let dance to this beautiful song. She was nervous because she hasn't dance in a long time. She wasn't sure, but I smile and tap her should aiming for her hands. I led the way with one hand holding hers and the other feeling the song.
We danced and she was nervous, it's been a while for her and because she's not a party person. She had a beautiful and sexy figure. All my cousins were thump upping me and high fiving. It's a guys thing. Then soon, my friends and cousins wanted to dance with her and stole a few. I got a few more dances and asked for her number. She said sure.
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the night was wonderful. Saw her again on the 4th day. We walked, bought some drinks, and talked. She's funny, sweet, phones and very faithful.
This is the girl every men would want. She has all the qualities men no need to seek anywhere else. A good man with a good wifeeling and that's who she is.
Thanks For Being A GOOD friend.
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Wi_sweetguy, the journey with you has been a great and memorable one. Keep smiling and be happy whatever you do and where ever you go. ;)
Thanks ST,
The opportunity of life was given to me again. I am living again and life has been great. My stay in cal, is awesome. I met and diddid any things and don't regret one bit.
I enjoyed your company. If the right time and right condition was true, I would have take you for a brief moment. Lol. Pom yog nam ttwb nkauj hmoob lub cheek rosey li lub paj tawg tshiab?
You already know why I always come back time after time.
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ST,
Tsis yog koj twb forgot about qho wb hais lawm los,
pom yog koj shy, shy? Lol..hais tau, yuav tswm ua koj tau naw...
1 xyooj lawm xwb.. i sing a song for you. My fav. Song.
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Falling in love with two girls
Sometimes life is unfair, you don't meet one girl at a time but two at the same time. You don't know which one to focus on, both are beautiful and kind. Both are sweet, both are honest and very catchy. One is younger and then other is around my age.
The younger one has a beautiful smile, her laugh is adorable and makes me feel like I'm magnet to her voice. The way her eyes looked at me, it's like she wants to give me her time, her heart and her love. I don't mind dying if her eyes were the last ones I saw. She's thoughtful, and listens to her mom; traditional and innocent. When she speaks, she chooses her words carefully and that stole my heart. Her kindness, her talent for playing the guitar, sing and sketch.
This girl MJ, she's like the girl i have always wanted. When I went to see her, it's like she makes me young and alive. There is something about her that I don't want to lose. I took her to the movies two times, and we are doing something this coming up week. So far, she's giving me the signs that if I want to I can chase her and she will come to me.
The girl in pink, shes the girl every men would want. She's funny, nice, kind, gentle, faithful, honest, wife material, good heart and will be there for you. Getting to know her, I think she's an awesome person and I can't stopped talking to her on the phone. We talked about everything and she has driven my drive to where all good things cannot end.
This girl, she's very sensitive and thoughtful. We both knew the what ifs, and the chances of our fate. What can I say about such a beautiful. She's beautiful, she's caring, she can cook, she's like the girl i should have met years ago and married. I'm going to see her this week too before going back home.
What do you do when there are two women you like, you know them both at the same time, both are what you al wa ys wanted, and both are wife material.
It's hard when your heart and your mind don't not want to work together. I don't know the certainty of the future, but I will see both girls and date both. The best thing is that they are from the same town and that.makes it easier, but have to be careful too.
After all I'm not.married and they arent, so anything goes right and it is an open game until someone gets married. All I know is which one makes my heart jump, beats harder than my own rythm then that's the one i will focus on and give her everything one women will ever want. After all, I already have food, shelter and clothing. Just need a woman. ;)
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Both girls know that i am single and talking to others. The younger one said if my heart wasn't so siab coob, and it is up to me to choose her.
The older one, she knows there is another girl i like.
It's hard to choose, when both are good and have good personality. For MJ, right time, right condition. For the older one is right time but wrong condition. My heart and mind donnot want to work together. How can this be ST?
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Because you're a siab coob kinda guy! ;D :knuppel2: If I was your girl, I'll dump you so fast.. hahaha. j/k
Luag Cua Dev...lol
haha...Sweet Tears, you're funny and I like you for it.
It is just that this time, I want to test the water and see which one is the best for me then bring her home for a keeper till the end of time....
You know...if only you... O0
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The year of the shining blue moon
California is a beautiful place, the mountains to the valleys, the rivers to the ocean, the country side orchards to the variety of stores make California a wonderful place to live. Beside the fact that jobs are scarce and there are signs everywhere saying that bathrooms are for customers only. California is definitely the place where it hardly rains and every old car looks like every new car in the winter states.
This journey into tapped territory was definitely worth the trip into the wild wild west.
These are some pictures of my stay in California.
The Fresno Hmong New year was exciting and had a pleasure of meeting every wonderful persons. There weren't many over 24 yrs old, but it was still fun ball tossing and eating the food. The night party was fun and exciting.
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I can see the 1st and 3rd (all the same pix).. not the middle pix though. Are you saying that you are getting cranky?
haha...yeah...
Its been almost a years since I post a pic on a forum..im becoming computer dummy. ;D
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The best Hmoob band party came from the Cawv hmoob band in Fresno.
I thought their crowd was much better and the environment was well established.
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In town hanging out with the cousins.
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Just some pictures of the people, places and events I have been to. Great memories for the 2014.
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You are living life to the fullest. Going out cost money. How are you able to go out so much?? I need tip and tricks.
Simple...
Work, save up money, bought a house and used it for rent. Also you don't need to live like millionaire to have a fun lifestyle. O0
You might know these people.
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From your small town. lol
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Four years later and returning without the holy grail. The searching will come to an end, but not today. My adventures searching far and wide, across the oceans and into unknown territories. I've discovered the nature of our existences and the will to never give up. O0
And yes, I've uncovered secrets and mysterious encounters.
Battle with hecklers and face off with ancient Chinese mystic magicians who seem to like being close to me and have a conversation while they try to impress me with their ancient trick of showing their high end Rolexs for a quarter of the price. ;)
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and I will read the stories whenever you post them up.
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and I will read the stories whenever you post them up.
Awesome! Will post them soon. You will enjoy some of my journeys to the paradise of the new world.. ;)
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Chapter 1
So it had to come down to this, it had to be what I thought I would never come back to, but maybe this journey searching far and wide was here all this time. You know what's true? Everything I did, was for myself and there was nothing more satisfying then realizing my years away from home was bitter sweet. The place I dreamed of was not you, and I had left you for Nkauj hmoob California just to realized that all those years laying under the shades of giant pines was lonely some and reminded me that I would do anything just to see your face again.
I came back here hoping to see how much you have changed, and I could hardly recognize you, but what remain the same was your presence because you and I know that you are my lady. Where ever I went, what ever i yearned for, someone I always wanted to be with and ready for love was you. How we left at bitter ends and came back with full open arms seem to bring back old joys. Why are you so understanding and will to take me back for I have taken the ultimate betrayal of leaving you for you.
My dear Nkauj Hmoob Wisconsin, its been almost five years, and here I am. It's cold outside, and the wind had a crispy touch to it. My hands were so cold that the thought of frostbite was rationalizing and I had to get going before my face could be feel the cold burn. Last week was cold, and yet you still shown that you are truly fitted to win Miss Midwest as one of the most desirable girl to be with.
To be honest, I should have written, but I acknowledge my wrong doing and will give you all of my attention from now on. Where ever I went, you will always wait for me, no matter how hard it takes, you stood by me. I will always remember you my home state. Thanks California for you time for what it was worth the world to see all of my long time family members.
(Next chapter: California, Nkauj California)
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chapter 2
I woke up to realizing that I have been here for over a year and loneliness was creeping on me. I could smell the morning breeze of fresh air and the feel the fog that gives a slight chill when touching my skin. I took one look and the saw that I was the only person here and wondered how would I be able to to stay here for another year. See, this place had no internet connection and I had secluded myself from the world. I was a hermit living peaceful and had no worries about the outside world. There was no need to know what goes on in the outside world. There was no need for facebook or outside contact. What I had here was more than anyone can ask for. I had successfully lived a life similar to true hermits and it felt good.
Realizing a year had passed and the hmong new year was coming up, I thought about going to fresno, but was unsure. I didnt know whether it woud be a good idea to go or not because I wasnt expecting to find or talk to any girls. Days before the fresno new year, I got a call from my cousin to go to fresno and decide it might just be a good idea.
When we got to the fresno fair ground, it was interesting to see so many beautiful hmongs in hmong clothing and their desire to participate in ball tossing made it so much more fun to court. Remind you all this was my first time, so I didnt know what to expect beside the fact that there will be a lot of hmong women here. We wandered around the fairground, going through and between people and spot many potential ball tossing ladies. so we did some ball tossing and it was very nice to be able to enjoy this tradition. Most of the ladies were sweet and willing to engage in the game. I was able to get about ten numbers from the event, but it was just for fun and games. In the end, there was really no names to the number and no connections so those numbers went down the trash. It was fun indeed.
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Chapter 5: Road Trip to the Bayou
The beautiful sun was shining one last time for my good friend as we drove to Arkansa so she can be closer to her parents. After her husband died, she felt the lonely that occurred as she missed her mom and the bond that they had when she was still a little girl. She had asked me to help her drive the 22ft. Penske Truck as she drive her suv with her kids. The journey lasted two days and tiring, but we made it safe and sound. The biggest challenge was driving through gusts of wind and the boredom.
After resting for a few days, we decided to take a trip to see the beautiful bayou area. The trip was pretty interesting because of scenery in the south is different than the midwest and western states. After some ten hours or so, we got to Lousianna and there was a terrrible rain storm. It was so bad that the coffins came out of the ground and most places flooded. Many roads closed, but our persistent led her to different roads and soon we got to New Orleans. It was indeed a beautiful place. The French Quarter was amazing and never thought it was such a huge place. No wonder why Mardi Gras was held there.
Will update with pic.