Hard as it is, I find that statement to be true. I dreamt of carrying a crying bloody child looking for her parents and ohmy gees, I was ill for two months. I dreamt of a dog bitting me, and a car hit me from behind. But most of the time, when I dream of babies, I know I'll be sick later and it usually happens. :-\
So sad what happened to that young man who took his life. I'm curious, how did his birth parents reacted to this tragedy?
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KUV NIAM. :)
I was writing my little cousin from Wisconsin and in the midst of it all, I remembered something mom had said to us girls yesterday. We were starting up “Bridesmaid” from redbox and as the movie opens up, the scene shows the lead, Annie, doing all these funny sex positions with her ex-boyfriend…So my mom goes, “Oh-ho, ua cas es nej yuav mus qiv tau ib daim movie li no los saib. Txhob saib cov zoo li no. Nws tsis zoo yog nej tseem yog hluas nkauj xwb.” My sisters and I just busted out laughing. Here we all were in our mid to late 20’s and she still thinks it “bad” for us to be seeing such things? Come to think of it, she fooled us into believing that if we watched any kissing, sex, or nude scenes on TV, our eyes would turn red. As kids we all believed it too. I remember the siblings and I would sit there watching something on TV and then when the mushy parts came on, we’d turn our heads, cover our eyes, or quickly flipped to another channel. lol. Imagine what that was like while watching movies in class? Anyhow, our answer to mom was, “Niam, peb twb laus laus lawm ne. Peb tsuas saib thiab kawm es lwm hnub thiajli paub mus ua haib haib rau txiv neej xwb os.” She laughs and says, “Ohyo. No way! Tsis good kiag nawb…..Kab (our baby sister who’s 18) tseem me me ne. Tsis txhob tso rau nws saib.” lol. I gotta love mom though.
Now that I think about it more, my mom sure fooled me with stories when I was young. She told me child labor consisted of the stomach being cut open with a big knife. Whenever my younger siblings were born, I’d always ask to see the wound that had been sewn up but mom never once showed me. Shouldn’t that have triggered something in my head? Then she’d also tell me that if us girls even slept next to a guy, we’d get pregnant. When the brothers and guy cousins/nephews slept next to me on “parents are away for funeral/party/wedding” nights, I’d think to myself…”I don’t want to get pregnant.” Mom would just be like, “Don’t worry, only boys from outside the family can do magic.” lmao. Or how when the kids cried a lot and mom would say there’s a niam tais poj ntxoog who listens carefully and if she hears you, she’ll come by to see why you are crying. Or that one about finding a lost bird, rabbit, cat, or doggy and don’t bring it home because it’s only poj ntxoov cov menyuam. I remembered when we moved this one summer and there were these kittens that got abandoned at the corner of our deadend block and mom told us not to feed them or even touch them. There’s way too many stories. I wonder if someday I’ll end up telling little such stories like these to my kids too? Wait a minute, I already do that with my nieces and nephews. Oyo! My favorite one is when those munchkins are crying and I go.. “Yivvvvvv, Maiv Naim los lawm nawb. Ntsia kiag tamsimno.” Works like a charm.
Oh how I miss my childhood. Now that everyone in the fam is grown, I bet it hits mom to know we’re all standing on our own (at least for 90% of the time). Mom doesn’t have to worry…I can never really detach myself from her. She’s still my extra breath of fresh air when I’m suffocating.
Aw, I envy you. My mom has passed on. You and a lot of people are very lucky to still have your mum.
http://youtu.be/wsMsCw1B-aY
What dreams are made of.
I’ve been sleeping earlier than usual these past few nights. As a result I’ve been dreaming like crazy again. The other night I had dreamt about going to the chicken farm and fighting with African and Hmong ladies to get the plumpest chickens. In the end I only managed to get away with one who had a split breast with flesh showing. Then the night before that one I dreamt of taking my 21 yr. old sister driving. The roads were slippery and not even ones I had guts to drive on but my sister just weaved up and down the roads like it was a piece of cake. She made me look like a horrible driver with her skills. And finally last night I dreamt about getting married. All my family, friends, and even high school classmates were there but where was the groom? He somehow was missing and I was waiting on him. In the midst of it all I was also trying to light these candles but no matter how much I lit them, they kept burning out after a few seconds. I got frustrated and stopped. That’s pretty much all I could remember….what does it all mean? My mom used to tell me never go with a stranger in your dreams. Hum.
Interesting dreams, MSV. Fighting for the plumpest chicken... lol! You must be craving Hmong chicken. ;D
Damn these cramps. :-[ I can’t stay concentrated at work nor do I have the desire to eat anything. All I want to do is get rid of this argggg. I’m just so close to driving home so I can rest in a tub of warm water to soothe it. Hurry 3:30pm. I want to go home.
Girl, I used to be the same way before kids. The worst kind of cramps. Makes you think you're dying or want to die. After having kids... never had cramps again.
I'm sure he does love you guys a lot but his heart is torn by his family and the love for his girlfriend. When you're in love, you're so involved with your own little world that you tend to forget those who truly love you sometimes. I was in a similair situation. I always knew who loved me, my heart just refused to listen at times.
My lecturer shared this story to us in relation to teaching as a profession.
Yes, I have. The eyes tell a story (the truth). :-[
I used to have a 55 gal with fishes but no gold fishes because they shit alot! LOL I had Cichlids and used to have a silver arowana. I love fishes, I should go get a 10 gallon and set it up. The background would look really nice. If you do not get a background, make sure you use the fluorescent lighting. It will definetely make a difference on your fish tank. It bring out all the beautiful plant, gravel, and make your fish look really pretty. Live plants are very nice and also small rocks. Take a pix of your setting when you're done.
I know what you mean... :-\
I'm too busy sorting other people's lives but I can't even sort my own..
The big one was set up by my ex who took off and left me with it. I had it for a month but then I had to move out of my place so I sold it to a pher from here for $60.00. I sold him the tank, stand, and all the accessories. I love fishes too. I'm into betta as well. Weird, I know. I know how to breed them and set up the tank for them as well. hahaha. My ex was so much into fishes. We had parahana, ciclids, to arowana. Right now, I've moved on from the fishes to parakeets. I have 4 parakeets.
Yes, you should buy one of the underground gravel thing if you want more filtration system.
Yes, I know how to breed betta and raise them to adult size. It's not hard at all. hehehe. My birds and cat get along just fine now. He grew up with them so he know not to attack them but sometimes.. he still sneak behind them. They are too fast and will just fly away. :2funny:
MSV, just think of it this way. Would you rather be fat and beautiful or ugly and skinny. They can't change their face w/o technology but you can always loose the weight. You are only beautiful as you deem yourself to be. Who cares what other people think because I'm sure there are plenty of skinny/beautiful girls that are very lonely out there. ;)
Money is the root of all evil. ;D
how is your garden coming along?
MSV, that is great!! Mine are too. I'm just planting the typical. Green mustard (which is growing right now), green onion, celantro, red peppers, tomatoe, thai basil, lemon grass, pumkin, beans, corn, cucumber, watermelon, and some hmong herbs for chicken. That's pretty much it. I already put down some seeds so we'll see if I will be sucessful this year. Take pix and let me see and I will do the same.
MSV, who do you miss..?
Me too.. I'm super happy that I have 4 sisters whom I can share things with and do things with. We all very close.
Aww, MSV and Sweet_Tears, you girls are so lucky to have sisters! I want sisters too. I hope in my next lifetime I'll have sisters like you two. :'(
We can be the ph sisters. ;)
...tell me about a time when she was faced with something difficult and how did she go about handling it. I don't know if she was nervous, didn't understand the question, bored or what. She says to me....3 o'clock? I looked at her and said, can you say more on that? Then she goes 6 o'clock? ;O Or another girl started talking about how her mom's finance moved in to live with them and brought some bratty kids she didn't neccassarily like.
hahahaha.. your garden looks like my neighbor! Don't worry.. mine kinda look like that too. I don't have much growing yet. Will get to it this weekend. ;D
BWAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!! What a great start to my day! Thanks, MSV, for the laugh! I especially like the 3 o'clock, 6 o'clock? HAAAhahaha!!!
Yes, we made a little small garden for my dad. It's just a way to honor him. He loves flowers..so I'm sure he's happy to have one. There's like 5 of us.. so we alternate to water it.. when it doesn't rain. You should... every year around spring time.. the flowers will blossom and it will be so pretty...
OMG!! girl, we must really be twins from another lifetime.. I love crime/suspense as well. I can watch those all day...I'm crazy. ;D
Don't do it. If they tell you something bad/negative, you'll be thinking about it all the time. It's better not to know. :)
MSV, do you want to trade pix with me? I would love to see your face. :)
I don't care how you look like, I just want to see my twin. :D O0
It was so hot and humid today. I hope it won't be like this for j4 weekend.post coconut jello recipe plz....
My older sister is so wonderful! She came home tired from work and still managed to help make coconut jello for me to bring to work tomorrow. With all the other prepping I've been doing these past two days, a helping hand was so nice.
Need to be up super early so off to bed....
post coconut jello recipe plz....
No, but you can end up with a really bad heartburn. :P Btw, hi to you.. it's been a while..since I read your thoughts.
Scribble or doodle...
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Great job!!! I want to lose some weights too... still looking for that motivation. :P hey, pm me a pix of you.
Just wanted to wish you and your family a Happy Thanksgiving in case I forget! :)
:'( :'( :'(
Kheev lam zoo li luag es muaj ib tug kuv khiav tau mus quaj ib pluag rau hauv nws lub xub ntiag kom zoo kuv lub siab kiag. Ua cas hmo twg los kuv tau tswj kuv lub siab kom tawv tas li xwb? Kho kho siab hmo no li. Ntuj puas nrog hlub es tso kuv tus los ua kuv luag?
U can cry on my shoulder. ;)
Here is my shoulder for you to cry on.
Girl, don't forget to play "Khuv Xim Tsis Tau Deev"... I heard that's pretty popular hmong song. LOL
One hour cardio + 20 strength training.
Mood: Accomplished!
What I don't understand is how someone can say they are poor and have no money when they walk around with a coach purse. >:( I've never owned a coach purse in my life nor do I want to own one and you don't see me telling some sappy pity story about how I'm broke and am in a crisis. Sometimes I wonder if we can eliminate poverty all together if people just live within their means instead of going above and beyond that.
nice! goodjob at the gym! and yes i dont understand people lioke that either :/ ..
I know what you mean... like yesterday, it was so sunny and it made me so kho siab... but I don't know what it is that I am kho siabing about. :(
Dreams.
The other night I dreamt I bought a new house and discovered there was some psycho who had killed many people in the basement cause blood stains were everywhere. Scared the heck outta me...
Last night I had a dream I was not only doing 360 down the roads but also got pulled over by the police for speeding and not having my seatbelt on. LOL. I should be careful with my driving.
Wonder what's in store tonight?
I had a dream recently that I was shot. It was extremely weird because I've never had a dream like this before. I've shot people in my dreams but have never been the victim before. The experience was a little traumatic. I don't think I will soon forget it.
Funny thing is I know I caused it myself. Many times I determine the results of my dreams by my own subconscious suggestions. I think in this case as I met this stranger in my dreams, I had thought for an instant "what if this guy had a gun?" and what do you know? Dude had a gun and was pointing it at me. ::)
LOL. Thanks for sharing your dreams. :) Where did you get shot at? That reminds me of a dream I had 10+ years ago...dreamt a bullet went right through my head and I could hear my ears ringing as I laid there numb and bleeding. To this day I still can picture it.
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Another scary dream from last night.
I dreamt that I had returned back to our house in the projects. I was trying to get pass the door but was blocked off by this mean nasty rottweiler. It growled at me as I pretended not to see it....or more like I didn't want to make eye contact with it. lol. Anyhow, I kinda attempted to shove it with my leg only moving it enough for me to dash for the flight of stairs next to the front door. As I'm making my move, the rottweiler gets distracted for a split second. However, next thing I know, it's chasing me and barking furiously. Ekkkk! I look back and there is it....right behind me already. Poof! I woke up with my heart pounding.
Why am I scared of dogs?
You have some messed up dreams!
Dogs usually are a sign of protection in my dreams. I have these dreams where I am hanging out in a meadow surrounded by HUGE white dogs of all kinds. St. Bernards, mastiffs, huskies, even a wolf or two. I'm just laying around, walking around, hanging out with these dogs and they keep close to me. I was laying in the middle of a field on a sunny day (using one of the dogs as a pillow actually) when two women came and started calling my name. The dogs all got up and created a circle around me and the women couldn't get through. I called out to the dogs to let the women by because I wanted to talk to them but the dogs but they kept their vigilance and kept the women outside the circle. When I woke up, I realized, holy crap the dogs were protecting me from something quite evil!! It's not the first time.
I love my guardian spirits.
You really think my dreams are that crooked? lol.
I was told that dogs represent ghosts/spirits in our dreams. Perhaps you do have gaurdians watching over you......cause yours are white. Whenever I dream about dogs they are always black or brown. Never cute or cuddly.
And YES....women ARE evil. :D
You really think my dreams are that crooked? lol.
I was told that dogs represent ghosts/spirits in our dreams. Perhaps you do have gaurdians watching over you......cause yours are white. Whenever I dream about dogs they are always black or brown. Never cute or cuddly.
And YES....women ARE evil. :D
You really think my dreams are that crooked? lol.
I was told that dogs represent ghosts/spirits in our dreams. Perhaps you do have gaurdians watching over you......cause yours are white. Whenever I dream about dogs they are always black or brown. Never cute or cuddly.
And YES....women ARE evil. :D
I had a few of those awkawd moments before. Especially, when you locked eyes with eachother for a split second. You don't know if you should say "Hi" or pretend that you did not see him. hehe. Funny moments.
MSV, where are you trying to get to? Maybe you are not ready to move to where you want to be. Our hearts can be stubborn sometimes. I know that mine is. There are people whom I would like to drop like a fly but yet, they are still clinging onto me. There are places that I want to be, but my feet won't move an inch. I'm stucked! :P
I'm in the same boat as you. I'm doing well.. summer is getting way too hot to work on my garden.. have to wait for the early morning and at night. I'm already picking my beans and turn them into juice. hehe.
Zaub qaub. Mmmmmmmm! Best thing to eat on a hot summer day. Went to mom's and had a bunch. I came home and she packed me some too.agreed.. niam ntshai tsam yus tshaib yus nqhi .. ntshai tsam yus nyob tsis zoo.. niam ib leeg thaij li paub txawj xeeb txog yus xwb..lwm tu ces xyov li...ntshe yus twb tuag chim los ob peb zaug los twb tseem xam xam xwb
Niam ib leeg thiajli hlub....thiajl i txhawj tsam kuv tshaib plab....thiajl i pub qab rau kuv noj xwb. I feel so loved. :love4: She's amazing!
agreed.. niam ntshai tsam yus tshaib yus nqhi .. ntshai tsam yus nyob tsis zoo.. niam ib leeg thaij li paub txawj xeeb txog yus xwb..lwm tu ces xyov li...ntshe yus twb tuag chim los ob peb zaug los twb tseem xam xam xwb
Glad to know that we shared some interest. I love Flashpoint too!!! Can I tell you a secret? I had a sexual dream about that bald head sniper guy. Forgot his name. LOL
Yesterday brother-in-law went into the spirit world to see what was wrong with mom since she's been getting these random aches and pains out of the blue. Along the way, he started sobbing with his chants because he saw my dad. :'( He said dad tsis tshua pov hwm peb and that is why spirits are coming and going around us and both the homes. He also said dad didn't like the family living separately; dad wanted us to stay in one house together.
I could not hold back my tears.....Txiv, thov saib xyuas kuv niam peb os lov? Tsis muaj koj es twb tsis muaj leej twg li lawm ne...
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Celebrated another year. My family....that was my wish this year. :)
This is painful to read and immediately brought tears to my eyes! thanks for sharing something so personal.To
Putting together my halloween costume. So excited! I also went out to grab some stuff for the scary theme my sister and I are going to put together for the trick-or-treaters this year. I don't know why I all of a suddenly have this Halloween spirit in me. :)
Halloween spirit? Is that safe? Do you need an exorcism? ;D
Tej thaum kuv muab xav mas ua cas yuav tu siab ua luaj. Yug los ua ib tug ntxhais es txawm lub neej yuav zoo thiab vam meej npaum li cas los yeej tsis cuag ib tug tub. Txawm ib tug tub zaum txhua hnub ntsa taw tasli xwb los teb chaws twb qhuas thiab pom muaj nqis heev. Ntxhais niaj hnub sawv los ua tshais, mus kawm ntawv, mus ua haujlwm, los txog los tseem ua hmo thiab tu vaj tu tsev los tsis muaj leej twg pom li.txhob tu siab, tu neeg txawj xav thiab ntse tsis xav li ntawv. Vim lawv pom qhov yog thiab tsis yog
Ua cas laww tsis focus on bettering the hmong community es tseem waste time los set bride price thiab?
So sexist.....so disciminatory. ....so unfair. :(
txhob tu siab, tu neeg txawj xav thiab ntse tsis xav li ntawv. Vim lawv pom qhov yog thiab tsis yog
MSV,
Wishing you and your family a Happy New Year!! The best to 2014~
Always,
HS
Great story! I love watching documentary show as well. Gosh, I don't know how I will live if I can't see. But would you rather see and be deaf or blind and can hear?
There are good and great men out there, you will find him once your heart is fully healed. With your positive outlook and your desires in the simple kindness of men it should not be too hard. I wish you the best and keep on smiling no matter what.
I just saw the yahoo! News and it said some muslims might be on the plane. Is it always Muslims extremist?
*hug* hope you feel better. :)
Go for it!!! We all deserve to be pampered once in a while. O0
Lol I can relate to this. Sometimes we complained but when there is a good man there is no attraction. :P
They must have missed the memo about professionalis m. Some of these meskas girls at work dress like skanks to work. I understand it's hot outside and you want to be pretty in your little dresses or see through blouses. When you come and see clients everyday, a skirt that barely covers your booty and that or undergarment showing is not appropriate. Just a while ago I just saw one of them snotty girls and her skirt looked like a booty short. To make it worse, she had a few tats on her legs showing too. Ick! And she was in flip flops! I wouldn't be surprised if another coworker who didn't know her accidently mistaken her for a client we serve. Some people just don't get it. Have some class when you're working.Hi, can I come visit your workplace?
Hi, can I come visit your workplace?
I can relate to that feeling. It was very hard for me to get used to the fact that he no longer is sleeping next to me. Sometimes without realizing and out of bad habits I would reach for him only to find an empty spot. It took me a long time to get used to be alone.
^^^One of my reasons for going to the tournament this year! He's very talented.
Indeed! I actually didn't know which artists were going to be releasing an album prior to going to the tournament. Just randomly bumped into Deathryhme's booth and had to get his CD since I follow him on YouTube. He's one of the very few rappers I really enjoy listening to. He raps about life and its struggles...un like some who only rap about drinking, smoking weed and f'ing girls. ::)
I assume you got to meet him in person too?
Hi, MSV. I agree, I did meet him. He's a great artist.
Yes, invest in the super sexy red lipstick. My current fave red lipstick is Outlaw by Kat Von D. I love the light finish for a long-lasting wear. :)
I love Deathrythm too! O0
Feeling sleepless? Ive been having those moments too. Hopefully, it doesn't catch up.
I wake up hungry; I go to sleep hungry....
Last night I had a dream that a bunch of my close ladies and I went to Laos (or was it Thailand?) We had brought along these two huge beautifully put together tiered cakes. We went into a Hmong village and sliced up pieces to feed the villagers. The crowd got bigger as everyone gathered around us with their hungry stomachs and eager faces. I worked quickly to drop the slices on paper plates before having the other girls drizzle each with melted chocolate and sprinkled chopped bananas. As we got closer to the final pieces, I looked over and saw we still had about 100 folks waiting. My ladies and I felt so bad that we couldn't provide for them all so we started whipping up donuts! I tried to resist eating any in case those weren't enough for the remaining villagers too but....Failed. I stuffed a star shaped donut in my mouth with no guilt. Num-num-num. Before I could grab a second one....poof!
Ok, my cravings were definitely following me into my dreams! >:(
Hmo no nws no heev. Even a blanket can't keep me warm. :( I no longer enjoy these winters. Go away!!
Nws lub npe surfaced into my memory tonight. I happened to log into a very old email I used to use many many years ago. There they were....the emails we used to write each other. I wonder nws nyob li cas lawm xwb? We were two silly peeps back then.
Fingers are freezing....ar g!!!
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Nice dream! It shows the kind of person that you are! Even in dreams, you have a big heart, you are loving and caring, you are a humanitarian! :)
I have a "nws" that I sometimes think about too. I miss him as he was back then many, many years ago. Haven't seen him in over 20 years. I hope he is doing well and I hope his life is happy and wonderful. He deserves it. Wish him nothing but the best. (He had a great heart. At the time, I had never been loved like that before, it was almost scary, almost impossible to think about. Him, loving someone like me? Nevertheless, I felt his love for me was true and I appreciated him so much--his love and his genuine concern for my well being.)
There are times in our lives when certain people will leave such a big mark that we will never forget them. We will remember them always. I will remember him and how he loved me, always.