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Creative Corner => Online Journal => Topic started by: ButterflyKisses on June 24, 2014, 07:21:30 PM
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Last night, you asked me... "What if...
I had asked you to marry me then, would you have married me?"
The answer is "Yes, I would have married you."
But I asked you once if you were willing to forsaken everyone and everything for me... and you said, "No."
No matter what you say now, I know too much to know that there is no future for us. There never had been and there never will be.
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I met him during one of your PH downtime. >:D
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Although I don't like programming, I seem to be extremely attracted to programmers. Go figure! lol Maybe I like the way they think, they way they talk, they way they see things. I am a sucker for programmers. :D
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When was that? ???
2007 to 2009
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Before I met him, I never knew what loneliness felt like. I had never ever long to be with anyone until he came along.
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Do I know him?
No. And he isn't from PH. lol.
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This is my what if journal... I am going to ponder all of those in here... I do have one about a PHer... lol Maybe I will ponder him too... :2funny:
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Ahem*
<-- software engineer, sofware developer, web developer, programmer analyst, etc.
Hi, I'm minorcharacter . It's a pleasure to meet you.
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Can you program her? ;D
My fingers are known to have a mind of their own. ;)
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:o
I'm going to lotion my hands every night to make sure they're extra soft...
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Last night, you asked me... "What if...
I had asked you to marry me then, would you have married me?"
The answer is "Yes, I would have married you."
But I asked you once if you were willing to forsaken everyone and everything for me... and you said, "No."
No matter what you say now, I know too much to know that there is no future for us. There never had been and there never will be.
Wow. I've never asked husband this and I never will. I think I'd prefer that he forsakens everything for his parents and sibling. I'd like to come second. I'm sure he has me first but I won't accept that. I'll fight him. I will force him to help his dad and sister before me.
Just because you asked, and he said, no, doesn't mean he'll change his mind as he wanders thru life. There are just some things you don't ask. You just know. If you feel as though you have to ask, then you know already that he's not the one.
BTW, good to know you have the hots for programmers. I've worked with them in my days...quite a few. I won't say what I think of them, but I'm not a programmer gal. I'm a medicine gal...thus, my husband works in medicine. :)
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Wow. I've never asked husband this and I never will. I think I'd prefer that he forsakens everything for his parents and sibling. I'd like to come second. I'm sure he has me first but I won't accept that. I'll fight him. I will force him to help his dad and sister before me.
Just because you asked, and he said, no, doesn't mean he'll change his mind as he wanders thru life. There are just some things you don't ask. You just know. If you feel as though you have to ask, then you know already that he's not the one.
BTW, good to know you have the hots for programmers. I've worked with them in my days...quite a few. I won't say what I think of them, but I'm not a programmer gal. I'm a medicine gal...thus, my husband works in medicine. :)
Oh...you just crushed the Notebook :'(
well I only watched the movie...
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I loved The Notebook. Read the book and watched the movie.
How did I crush it?
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I loved The Notebook. Read the book and watched the movie.
How did I crush it?
:D
It's like the guy gave up everything in the end to be with the women he loves. She had been pushing him away but finally remembers in the end and accepts him. They both died and went off to a better place.
I recall the children were like telling their dad that their are others who are alive and still care and loves him. But in the end he choose the love of his life, not family.
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Moon Angel, it was a complicated situation. In order for us to be together, we would have to forsaken everyone and run off somewhere. After he said NO, I knew there was no future for us. He reminded me that he came back after two days and said YES, but I refused to budged.
I told him that someday when we are old and grey, we will be together... lol.
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It's like the guy gave up everything in the end to be with the women he loves. She had been pushing him away but finally remembers in the end and accepts him. They both died and went off to a better place.
I recall the children were like telling their dad that their are others who are alive and still care and loves him. But in the end he choose the love of his life, not family.
So I didn't crush it. I confirmed it. I said my husband would put me first even though I would prefer him not to. I know this without having to ask him. Thus, I don't ask (in response to the OP's conversation with her guy). You just know when someone will put you above everything. It requires no words. No asking.
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I work with them too, but I will be more specific and say that it's those IT support guys that has my heart pitter-patter... lol. At every company that I had worked with, I have always connected really well with one of them. There is always chemistry there.
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Minor,
So that's what keeps drawing me to you... even though you keep trying to push me away... and then pulling me back. >:D
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Moon Angel, it was a complicated situation. In order for us to be together, we would have to forsaken everyone and run off somewhere. After he said NO, I knew there was no future for us. He reminded me that he came back after two days and said YES, but I refused to budged.
I told him that someday when we are old and grey, we will be together... lol.
I C.
I don't share how my story started (it's something that I'll hold dear to my heart) but it was complex and very complicated too. Let's just say, the forces around us, did not want us to be (and they still are against us now after 13 years of being married). But, I never asked him that question, to forsake everything for me/us. He just knew. A guy will know and if he really loves you, he'll know what to do without being reminded, asked to think about it, or to consider it.
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So I didn't crush it. I confirmed it. I said my husband would put me first even though I would prefer him not to. I know this without having to ask him. Thus, I don't ask (in response to the OP's conversation with her guy). You just know when someone will put you above everything. It requires no words. No asking.
LOL...I guess so.
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I work with them too, but I will be more specific and say that it's those IT support guys that has my heart pitter-patter... lol. At every company that I had worked with, I have always connected really well with one of them. There is always chemistry there.
I C. LOL...I've always connected well with IT guys too but have never liked them in that way, except I did date a couple of DBA's in my days. Sales guys, on the other hand, not so much. They make me so angry all the time and I don't mean that in a good way.
It's good you know the kind of guy you want. Hopefully, you'll end up with one for the long haul.
Minor,
So that's what keeps drawing me to you... even though you keep trying to push me away... and then pulling me back. >:D
You're drawn to players? LOL. J/K. ;D
Some do like that lifestyle though.
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What IF?
BK catches her song bird boy and cages him to warble day after day after day. O0
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I C.
I don't share how my story started (it's something that I'll hold dear to my heart) but it was complex and very complicated too. Let's just say, the forces around us, did not want us to be (and they still are against us now after 13 years of being married). But, I never asked him that question, to forsake everything for me/us. He just knew. A guy will know and if he really loves you, he'll know what to do without being reminded, asked to think about it, or to consider it.
I agree.
Which is why I am turning him down now. He is making promises of forever, but I don't believe it and I am not budging.
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Are programmers players? If so then I guess so... hahahahahaha.. . maybe that's why it never did work out... b/c while I am drawn to them, I have enough discernment to know that life with a player is nothing but misery. :2funny:
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Are programmers players? If so then I guess so... hahahahahaha.. . maybe that's why it never did work out... b/c while I am drawn to them, I have enough discernment to know that life with a player is nothing but misery. :2funny:
Well you asked the what if....programm ers are all about...
if this is this and if this is that, then do this or do that, the output result
if result is this or that, then do this or that, then output second string result
LOL...players, nah...just pushing buttons here and there and gathering data logic here or there.
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Are programmers players? If so then I guess so... hahahahahaha.. . maybe that's why it never did work out... b/c while I am drawn to them, I have enough discernment to know that life with a player is nothing but misery. :2funny:
Sometimes you don't get what you want, but not in a bad way. There might be another career kind of guy out there for you...for instance, maybe someone who's a genius at math but not actually a programmer, like an engineer, a project manager, maybe even a math/computer science professor. Just keep an open mind.
Well you asked the what if....programm ers are all about...
if this is this and if this is that, then do this or do that, the output result
if result is this or that, then do this or that, then output second string result
LOL...players, nah...just pushing buttons here and there and gathering data logic here or there.
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That's pretty funny.
I got bored of the "If this, then that" logic really quick in those programming classes. Java anyone? I hated that one the most, but I think I just had a horrible teacher.
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BK, I don't think you're drawn to players. You simply gravitate towards others that are like-minded such as yourself. There's nothing wrong with that at all. A part of both of us enjoy joking around with him or her in a perverted manner that most people would frown upon, a part of both of us would boink the shit of each other at the Hilton on 94 and McKnight room 434 (hint hint wink wink), but at the end of the day we're simply like minded creatures. We have our interests such as in improving our writing, making social connections, coming to terms with ourselves, and we simply happen to be really horny for each other. ;) It's perfectly normal; I don't think my career or what people think I am (which by the way I'm totally not a player) has anything to do with it at all.
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I sometimes wonder what if BK corners me, then what?
;D ;D
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BK, I don't think you're drawn to players. You simply gravitate towards others that are like-minded such as yourself. There's nothing wrong with that at all. A part of both of us enjoy joking around with him or her in a perverted manner that most people would frown upon, a part of both of us would boink the shit of each other at the Hilton on 94 and McKnight room 434 (hint hint wink wink), but at the end of the day we're simply like minded creatures. We have our interests such as in improving our writing, making social connections, coming to terms with ourselves, and we simply happen to be really horny for each other. ;) It's perfectly normal; I don't think my career or what people think I am (which by the way I'm totally not a player) has anything to do with it at all.
Ah, thank you for that explanation. I was beginning to worry. This attraction thing really bugs me. :2funny:
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I sometimes wonder what if BK corners me, then what?
;D ;D
There's only one way to find out... NOW go and stand in the corner. >:D
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There's only one way to find out... NOW go and stand in the corner. >:D
I'm not a dunce! :2funny:
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What is a "dunce?"
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What is a "dunce?"
Only the smartest and fastest trouble makers gets to be crowned class dunce! >:D
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Only the smartest and fastest trouble makers gets to be crowned class dunce! >:D
I see.
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I see.
You see that, what if you're sitting in the corner with me? :2funny:
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Maybe 10 years from now, I will throw caution to the wind and run headlong into your arms, kiss you with all the hunger that is within, and make love with you until the run rise. But for now, this is it. The look in your eyes, the smile... I want to run my hand through your chest and ... opps... not mature forum... lol... just kidding... hahahahaha :2funny: :2funny: :2funny: :2funny:
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You see that, what if you're sitting in the corner with me? :2funny:
If I was sitting in the corner with you... well... you already know what I would do... ;)
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Maybe 10 years from now, I will throw caution to the wind and run headlong into your arms, kiss you with all the hunger that is within, and make love with you until the run rise. But for now, this is it. The look in your eyes, the smile... I want to run my hand through your chest and ... opps... not mature forum... lol... just kidding... hahahahaha :2funny: :2funny: :2funny: :2funny:
I am going to continue this story in the Mature Forum.
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If I was sitting in the corner with you... well... you already know what I would do... ;)
pointing at the corner...oh that's a nice line where two walls meet.
I like how one wall the light is reflected on it. The other wall the light is coming at an angle so it casts an umbra shadow effect.
As you can see that at the corner
I wonder just how much of an actual 90 degree right angle the corner would make. At this angle our heads and our eyes are too far away to see so it sort of looks like a nice right angle
Imagine if we can squeeze in closer and take a look at it...half way there...anothe r half way there...
Reminds me of a math formula of taking half and half and half and infinitely getting closer to that finite...
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