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General Discussion / Re: How’s your day?

« on: August 08, 2022, 01:56:34 PM »

Howdy frans! 

It's been forever since I have bene on PH but just wanted to drop in and say hi...Happy Monday! 

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Online Journal / Re: luvly....is she really?

« on: July 17, 2022, 10:33:44 AM »

I can't believe I haven't come to rant or put thoughts down for almost a year (about 8 months).

Work is work-nothing has changed there. You can say that's a good thing. If anything, I am glad I'm no longer in a toxic environment n my supervisor actually appreciates me for once.

Things at home have been OK-for the most part. The kids r growing n I have a lil mini me-although I don't think her mom likes that she tends to be more like me-n the nephew is finally walking-still kinda drunk like, I call it drunken milk walking-but at least he's walking. He's also a bit colicky so he sticks mostly to his parents n is always crying but he does like his aunty when mommy n daddy r not around as well.

Mom hasn't been the best n if anything, very defiant. We can't reason w her anymore so now we just don't bother nor say anything. Regardless, we r always the "bad guy" so we've just given up. In levels of safety, it's bad and it is dangerous but again, she won't listen n is too stubborn. We could put her n a facility (what I am sure my nyab hopes for but that's not going to happen) to ensure that everyone is safe but then we would be the low-life ungrateful children who didn't luv r mom.

J4 weekend, my sis n her fam came which prompt my older bro n two cousins n their fam to all come n visit together. It was nice to c everyone-the house was packed-but it was a lot of fun seeing all the kids (for some it was their first time meeting). If anything, we also learned to will need to make a trip out east for my sis and BIL's npe laus party in early summer. I'm excited n I know others r too but I just hope it will be a nice trip/time w as lil to no drama as possible. Is it bad to say that I hope my dad n his wife don't make it? I mean, we all r skeptical of them attending already since they've not shown up for anything already in the last two yrs anyway (funerals, weddings, etc.).  Guess we'll have to wait n find out eh.

So, I have had a TT for maybe two yrs now but literally didn't do anything on there the first yr. Thanks to the last yr n being bored n addition not being able to really post on YT (editing just sucks) I prefer the TT platform with shorter vids. It's also a huge rabbit hole-yeah, u can def find me scrolling for hrs in bed regardless of morning or night.  I don't post anything outrageous though. Some food/mukbangs, vlogs n vids of my aunty time/life, clothing/makeup hauls, but I mainly wanted to share vids about the HMoob language (which I started to do on my YT). However, this past yr was overwhelming for me n a lot of areas of my life n I started a "Diary of a HMoob Daugther" series. Just my personal rants from my experience of being a HMoob daughter. Granted, the experience is of mine thus, may not resonate w everyone-that's OK-but hopefully, others know they do not feel alone n the space of being just that-a HMoob daughter.

Anyway, if ur reading this-thanks for "checking-in" or for being nosy.  Kthnxbye

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Online Journal / Re: luvly....is she really?

« on: November 01, 2021, 08:49:34 PM »

Didn't get to watch RM.

Another long day. I'm up in arms n feel like a lost abused puppy. Lost? Sometimes I feel like a stray too. Or r they the same?

U said u came back for me? Is that pity? Maybe a form of luv...n a weird way I appreciate that but n another way I wished u would have not bothered to think of me n such a way. Things may have been very different but at the same time it may have been best--but we'll never know will we?

Do you ever feel like you just want to run? Literally just get up and go and have absolutely no worries, no care n the world, n just like that-fly? I hate feathered things or birds in general but I envy that they can fly and soar with the wind against their face/feathers n at least feel free.

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Online Journal / Re: luvly....is she really?

« on: October 31, 2021, 09:56:27 PM »

What a long day! I have no regrets.....on ly wished I can have more patience-with everything.

Anyway, mom came home today. It's been quite the transition for everyone but we'll be OK. With time we'll all adjust and see where we need to make other accommodations .

Now I finally have some time to myself. Not gonna watch my kdrama tonight. Running Man it is!

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Online Journal / Re: luvly....is she really?

« on: October 30, 2021, 03:11:47 PM »

At the end of the day...I guess it really doesn't matter. No, I don't matter. So y do I even bother?

Toxicity is real. Trauma is real. Abuse is real.

Guess, I am not tho. 

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Online Journal / Re: luvly....is she really?

« on: October 26, 2021, 06:29:27 PM »

Update...my mom did not come home today. The dr wanted to keep her for another day or so due to low sodium and to have another CT scan done just to double check. We had a meeting today with some of her care team about home care for her when she does get discharged. Family. Talk. Decisions. Stuff.

I really need to make time to study my Korean and review my Chinese more. I've been putting that off for the longest time. But on the flip side....I kind of been "studying" Korean with all the shows/movies/dramas that I watch.

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Online Journal / Re: luvly....is she really?

« on: October 23, 2021, 10:08:37 PM »

Urgh, how long will he keep telling lies or spinnin this story of his? I mean, it's sort of entertaining but at the same time-eh. G k. 

The big bro is back in town to pick up his car and visit mom. After the hospital visit today we drove out to Rochester to have dinner. Dinner was eh too. Too many ppl so food was fresh n even though the variety is more than what we can find n r dinky small city here...they took forever to replenish dishes and/or if u didn't watch carefully-u'd get nothing but "old" food or the stuff no one eats (the veggies or plain low mien).

Mom is supposed to get discharged on Tuesday next week but she has a UTI and other things r all whack so most likely she won't be home anytime soon.

I always knew my big bro was her fav....but I really saw it for myself two days ago. He really can do no wrong n her eyes. I know if I said or did anything like him she'd tell me I'm a b|tch n completely throw shade n fury at me. But nope, my brothers can do no harm n she doesn't bat an eye or frown but tells me I'm not only the worst daughter of hers or human being ever. I am not trying to win any brownie pts whatsoever w her but at least acknowledge that I am human n I, too, have feelings n emotions. Afterall, I am a reflection of u.

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General Discussion / Re: Nyob Zoo PHers!

« on: October 23, 2021, 12:57:56 PM »

The women are way more lurkers than us guys. LOL.

I don’t deny that. But it seems y’all sure have a lot to say.    Carry on! 

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General Discussion / Re: I KID YOU NOT..... some of my relatives already have their Christmas tree out!!!

« on: October 22, 2021, 08:25:26 PM »

Wtf

Yall crazy
So you guys don’t do turkeys???
Im looking forward to drinking game with the in law
SOMEBODY IS GOING DIE THIS YEAR FROM ALCOHOL POISONING!!!

We typically put r tree up turkey day/weekend but my nyab really wanted to put up the tree. I haven't a clue y so early--again, I'm the only one who has anything to put under the tree who would actually want to put it up. 

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General Discussion / Re: Nyob Zoo PHers!

« on: October 22, 2021, 08:18:54 PM »

Looking forward to it..LL..

I don't know if you remember a member named "Free" way back but he's kind of like him with less articulation and more LIES...

Out of respect for your thread, I will focus on food pix...

LOL Thanks for wanting to b respectful but we know PH....threads get hijacked all the time. Eh. 

Hrrmmm..."Free" I vaguely remember-it's been a while since I've been active on here. Honestly, I don't remember a lot of ppl....just a few. Also doesn't help when many OG kept changing aliases....I lost track after a while n then I simply stopped coming on/interacting.

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General Discussion / Re: Nyob Zoo PHers!

« on: October 22, 2021, 04:43:32 PM »

OMG, neb mas.....

Business as usual here, life is good! 

I hear ya...well, hopefully we'll get to see some of your awesome food photos in the near future..

glad to hear u r well.

Food pics on here? We'll c. 

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General Discussion / Re: I KID YOU NOT..... some of my relatives already have their Christmas tree out!!!

« on: October 21, 2021, 09:28:49 PM »

All deck out and decorations too

Damn

That is crazyyyy
It is soooooo early

Plus we still gotta eat turkeys

Yep.  🎄 My nyab just put our Xmas tree up on Sunday however, I'm the only one who already has presents wrapped--just haven't put them under the tree yet.

I start my Xmas shopping early....the earliest ever was in May. This year I started in June. 

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General Discussion / Re: Nyob Zoo PHers!

« on: October 21, 2021, 09:23:58 PM »

 

Hi VH. I still c u on here too.

I feel most ppl on here r the guys. Just my observation.

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General Discussion / Re: Nyob Zoo PHers!

« on: October 21, 2021, 09:21:04 PM »

Was that you talking to Sonny and Calvin them food blogger on YouTube?

Thought that was you on his comment section when Calvin was visiting the Hmong village. 

I put that link somewhere in the food section if you want to see it.

LOL  Yep, that was me commenting on Calvin's vid. 

Hi DuMa!

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General Discussion / Re: Nyob Zoo PHers!

« on: October 21, 2021, 09:19:40 PM »

Nice seeing you again double L, welcome back! 

Hi. I lurk from time to time on here. 

How have you been? Hope all is well.  I know u've been here the whole time. 

Miss your food photos..

Yeah, I miss posting them too. I post some food pics here and there on my other sm accounts...but not like how I used to on here. Then again, I'm not eating as much or now with COVID we aren't gathering as often eating the abundance of food like we used to. Both good and sad.