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Online Journal / The brighter days ahead
« on: June 17, 2019, 07:15:24 PM »
Summer in California has been a lot cooler compared to the previous past years. Since it's mid June, the temperature has cool down a bit compared to the past week when we were hitting the triple digits. Seriously, it was crazy hot especially if you drive in an all black car. I feel as though my AC wasn't blowing any cool air. Like seriously even though I blasted the thing.  ;D Last week, it was indeed very hot. Imagine being outdoor at a funeral and in this hot Cali weather? You get what I'm saying? I got burnt but for a good purpose and more vitamin D's for my body.  :)  I'm glad, the temperature dropped down during the weekends along with some nice cool breeze blowing into the valley. Since it's summer, I can't complain because it will get hotter as the days goes by.

 This morning as I was woke up (still waiting for my alarm to sound), the sun was shinning brightly through my window even though it was 5:30 am. Thank god I do not live near any Asians who raised roosters or else, that damn sucker will be crowing in the morning before my alarm goes off.  ;D I remembered driving home around 5 am a few months ago before the time changes and it was still very dark outside. It's crazy how the season changes and the 5 am a few months ago was still dark and the 5 am this morning was very sunny.

It has been a long time since I wrote anything on here. To be honest, I haven't been feeling like myself lately. I stopped doing a lot of things that I used to do and now all I do is, go to work and come home. My life is just that boring.  ;D  Well, a person just can't stop doing the things they enjoyed for a reason right? Most defiantly. I mean, there must be something that triggered or is wrong with the person for them to stopped doing the things they used to do. Well, today I would like to share my story with you. Its because I fell into depression. Depression is real.  I, in my million lifetime never would have imagined that it will hit me this hard. Like seriously, I'd always been a joyful and cheerful person, someone who doesn't hold grudges and just full of life. A woman who is strong minded and knows what she wants/can make herself happy.  However, I believe a person can only take so much on her plate and in the end, I broke down. I was so broken, I felt as though my two wings had been cut off and I couldn't fly or run no matter how hard I tried. I went downhill.

Today, I am slowly getting back on my two feet and since I'm getting treatment, hopefully, I'll become the MK I once was in here. Finger crossed.  :) When I was prescribed antidepressant s, it helped me right away. Crazy as it sound, these med really helps. I feel as though, I had the energy to do more things and on top of that, I feel sharper and my mind is clear. When I hear stories from people, many said that the medications doesn't work for them and so forth. However,  I'm the exact  opposite and I do not know what to make out of it. My family doesn't believe in depression. What many think of it, most think that that person or I was just plain lazy. Well since I'm running out of time, I am going to end it here tonight. I asked to up my dosage and right now I am currently taking Wellbutrin. Well, until next time. Bye!

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General Discussion / Betting sports online
« on: March 21, 2019, 10:49:23 PM »
Admins or MOD’s please do not move this topic to the sports sections because I know nothing about sports. I just want to ask a question for a friend.

Do you bet for sports online? What is the minimum or the max you usually bet for? I’m just curious because this person is betting like crazy and constantly checking the scores and on its phone. At first the bet was 50-100 but now it’s 1,000 up. This is today’s activity. Is this common or normal? Thanks!







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General Relationship / My New Man....
« on: March 14, 2019, 05:58:32 PM »
Hello everyone. It has been a long time since I’ve been on here. My 34th birthday just recently passed a few days ago. I would like to update and share my story of moving on in life. Last year in April 2018, I started talking to a guy I met on FB. I didn’t like him at first because he was a boring person on the phone. We talked here and there and I told him that I am currently in a relationship with my man of almost 12 years and we can only be friends. One day I decided to call him up at work and we continued to talk daily. My goal was to talk to him as a friend to help killed times. However, everything changes when we continued to talk every day and he asked me to meet up with him.  I was skeptical at first because I knew its wrong of me to meet him and impossible because my boyfriend (ex) comes up with me to visited my family as well. I told no many times but he pushes my button to the point where he dared me to meet him. Finally, we met at night time on May 30, 2018 in Sacramento. We met at a store parking lot and then decided to go to a park that I enjoyed walking when I visited Sacramento. We went to the park, walked and talked for an hour. I was sick so I didn’t want to stay too long. When I met him, Wow, he is so skinny. He’s like half of my size.

After meeting him last night, the following day he asked me to meet him again and grabbed some Jamba Juice. We met up and grabbed some drinks and talked for an hour or so inside the place and parking lot. Afterward, I went back home. For the month of June, we continued to talk and he was pressuring me to leave my boyfriend (ex) because he said what if my man finds out and beat me up? He was worried. We continued to meet up every weekend for 4-5 times from Friday to Sunday in June. The more I talked/see him, the more feelings I started having for him. On June 27th, 2018 I left my boyfriend (ex) and went to my parent’s because I admitted to my boyfriend (ex) that I am cheating on him with another guy. I felt so bad because I hurt my man so much to the point where he told me to leave. He was so angry with me, he walked out of the house. I left him that day after work.

When I got to Sacramento, it was late and I went straight to the guy that I was talking to. He comforted me and I felt better. I explained everything to him and he said he’s happy to hear that I left him because I walked out of my unhealthy relationship. The guy that I was talking to told me he’ll wait for me until December. If by December I do not leave my ex, he said he’ll let me go because that means I still love him. I left my boyfriend (ex) earlier than expected. We continued to hang out for a few days and that night on June 30, 2018, he got down on his knees and asked me to be his girlfriend. I told him I can’t because it’s too soon and I just recently got out of a relationship with my ex and we haven’t officially ended yet. He looked sad and later that night when he asked me again for the second time, I said “YES”.  I feel it was too fast and too soon for me but I told him myself, we’ll date later down the road as well so might as go take the chance and go for it. And I did.

My family and friends said to me that I moved on too fast and the guy I’m with is just a rebound guy. Many people purposely said it in front of his face that he’s just a rebound guy and after 1-2 months I’ll leave him and go back to my ex. Everyone doubted our relationship but my man, proved them all wrong. It was hard for me because I was still confused and hurt but he held on to me tight and made our relationship work. I’m very thankful that he’s serious with me because if not, he would have left me already. He took the chances and now that he got the chance to be with me, he made it work. No relationship is perfect but I’m happier now then I was back then with my ex. It’s so nice to have a man who is the opposite from your ex. This guy cooks for me all the time, help me do my laundry, help set up table and cook for my family, clean, drive to places out of town and many more. After a few months in, my family grew to love him. By the end of March, we’ll be dating for 9 months. Its crazy how fast time fly by.

This past weekend, he threw me a big birthday party and spent so much on me. I planned so much stuff and he did it all for me. On Sunday we went to Reno with one of my sister and her family. He upgraded our free room and it was really beautiful and spacious. We had a great time at Reno and I ended up babysitting instead but it was fun hanging out with niece’s and nephew. I rather spend my money on the kids then waste it on the slots and get nothing in return. We are long distant boyfriend/girlfriends and see each other from Friday nights until early Monday morning when I leave back to my hometown.

Before you judge me and assumed things, my ex cheated on me from January 2018 until the day I left him. I never knew he cheated on me until August when I checked his phone calls because I was still paying for his cellphone. My ex and I hardly talked or text and that month he has over 3,000 text messages. I was shocked! I cancelled his phone and asked him to return the Samsung 8+ because I still got payments on the phone and he doesn’t deserves it.  It hurt as well because when I left my ex, he didn’t fight for me to come back home whereas for his older brother, he was doing everything to can to have his baby mama back. Before I left my ex, he said the worst things to me so I will not be able to leave him. I left him too because my new man complimented me and gives me the confidence to love myself again. My ex admitted to my brother that he cheated on me. I’ll admit, I fell into depression and let go of myself. I let go of my looks because I was not happy in life. With my new man, I’m starting to love myself again and I’m so much happier after I got the help I needed. I took antidepressant s for a month and am with someone who loves me for me. My man is a skinny guy and he’s HALF of my size. He accepts me being natural beauty and doesn’t judge me even though when I wear no makeup. We’re only a year apart.

After all, time does heals all pain. It took me a while to be myself again and many might wonder how is it possible to leave a man you’re with for 12 years and date one right away? Everyone has their own stories and answers so anything is possible. If you’re not happy in your relationship, let it go because you’ll find someone that will love you and accept you for who you are if you give them the chance. You must be strong and move forward. If not, you’ll go back to where you’re at in the first place. Love is hard but don’t make it harder on you. Until next time, Bye! 

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Hello there... Ever since I got my tires rotated at Nissan Dealership, my brake squeak loudly. Do you guys know what could of been the problem? Also, ever since my partner changed my brakes, I guess he must of not done a good job, when I braked my brakes goes room room like it's accelerating. I don't know how to explain. My car doesn't drive as smooth as before but it brakes good and everything. I'm frustrated.

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The Single & Dating Scenes / Talking to guys at the age of 30+
« on: April 10, 2018, 12:23:09 PM »
Good morning everyone. It has been a while and after my last post on here, I started talking to more people even though I'm still in a relationship with my partner. My experience of talking to more guys are from the FB page Hmong Singles and looking. I joined the page and decided to become active by posting questions and to my surprise, I got many friends requests and messages the more active I became. I'll average to 10+ request a day for a week. It was nice to know that even though I'm 33, it was still possible to find love at my age. When I first started talking to guys, I had a low self esteem. The more opened I became, I started feeling better about myself and I could feel my confidence coming back. I became more happier because of positive people who I've let into my life.

I spoken to a few guys and I told them honestly that I'm still in a relationship. I am blessed to know that they still stood by my side and waits for my call/texts. Whenever I feel down, those friends are just a phone call away. I don't know if the reason why I can't tolerate my partner anymore is because I'm talking to a new guy? When my partner and I are together, I'm not happy. It's like I just want to get away from him and I haven't spoken to him in almost a month. I ignored him because I feel he's toxic to my health. Whenever we argued and I'm not happy, I'll take off and call or text my guy friend. When I'm at work from 8-5, I could text/talk my friend but when I'm home, I can't. I'm feeling so empty because I'm confused in life. I don't want to have feelings with anyone but the more I talk to them, they are giving me the comfort and communication that I've lacked in my relationship. They are making me feel better about myself. Am I selfish for making them have feelings for me? They told me they misses me and I'm at a lost for words. I didn't plan for this to go this far but now I don't even know anymore. I haven't met anyone in person because I told them I have no confidence and I can't meet them. Sometimes I wish I could hang out with them but I know it's only for the best if I don't. The more I hang out with someone, I know feelings might develop and or I might regret the things I do. I'm also afraid if my partner finds out, it wouldn't be pretty.

Since I'm older, I prefer talking to younger guys because I feel they'll understand my situation. There are a few older guys who messaged me but because I'm not into guys with kids, I ignored them. I told everyone my preferences in guys is with someone who has no kids. I'm not being selfish but I don't have time to deal with baby mama's drama. Besides, it's harder to win a single parents love because their kids comes first. You get me? I don't know maybe I'll change my mind set later but I'm being real too.  ;D

When you feel the lowest in life, there will be someone who will come into your life and will brighten and stand by you if you allow them. I don't consider me cheating on my partner because I'm not meeting/seeing any guys. Besides, I don't allow my feelings to go over the limit as friends. When they called me sweet/lovely names, I told them to call me by my given name instead. It's still possible to find love at any given age if you allow yourself to. Right now, my goal is to start working out and lose weight. I'm excited because I started feeling better.

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