The Not so private Diary of JonniJacco

[JonniJacko]

Dear Delilah, How's it like in NYC.....

I know you, I know you weren't always that way. Many have came and gone in your life, few left blessings, and more leave damages. I know you are better than this. I hope you find the peace and healing you need. May you find your true essence again. There is always room for forgiveness. After all, everything happens for a reason. You got this. You will rise again.

[JonniJacko]

How you think makes how you feel, how you feel, makes how you act. Think positive, my friend. If it's not an option, then take a long nap and try again.

[JonniJacko]

I was in a huge building, somewhere in the Heavens....Whe re the Divines was counseling troubled souls. I'm not sure why I was there, but I woke up with a reality that hit me hard. As I was exiting out of this humongous building, I saw someone who looked like it was Mr. Ebenezer Scrooge.

He was arguing with a divine counselor, and I heard the counselor said the following to MacScrooge. "Life is or was never about you, but you were always about life. Start today, make a difference in the world. In the end, what good is it, to have everything, but done nothing for the world......... .....

I dunno....but I suppose in a way, we naturally feel good when we do something good for someone who actually appreciates it.haha Maybe we are indeed all Just "ONE"

But I gotta stop sleeping during the days....I always wake up from it feeling like I just got back in my body.....LOL

[JonniJacko]

It's the most wonderful time of the year. Whether you get to spend it with friends, families or someone special or alone, it's a time to be reminded that the best things in life- Money cannot buy.....Cheris h the moments and remember that at the end of the day, it's not the gifts, but the thoughts, the moment, the presence of genuine love...Because after that, it's back to the grind and primal instincts. Christmas only come once a year. Make it count. lol

[JonniJacko]

My sister drove me to the clinic. My primary doctor was out for the day, so another doctor took a look at my eyes. She asked me how many times I'm putting the drops in my eyes a day. I said, 3 drops in each eye once a day. She look at me sternly, and said "Sweety, the directions said one drop in each eye every six hours no more than 3 times a day. Your eyes are dilated. hahaha

My sister drove me back home, and said, "dude you gotta learn to listen, you can't always do things your way, you know people mistakenly overdose on medicines and stuffs"...I said, I don't regret anything...LOL She then goes on to say "Bobby thinks you're like the coolest most badass uncle ever, you better change or he's staying far away from you"....haha

I pretended to be offended and said to my sister "you know, all you siblings think I"m this bad guy, bad role model, but the truth is I"m actually too nice..I put everyone first, and that's the real reason why I'm in last place....Maybe bobby thinks Im a super hero, not a villain...mayb e get with the program, teach them the real world now, don't wait and make the same mistakes parents made...and didn't prepare us for the real world"....She said, "we all turn out fine, but you....you're not special"...I said "you're not the middle child you dont know"

she knew I wasn't serious, but she took it serious anyway and to the heart...LOL oops dang it..never tell a parent how to be a parent..doh... ..WHen I got out of the car, I said, sorry, then I hilariously attempted to say you know "I love you guys all and would die for anyone of you in a instant if I have to" seriously...bu t failed miserably...Sh e look straight ahead trying hard not to laugh....but something tells me... she knows I mean it and that I got a point.. hahaha

 

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https://youtube.com/shorts/qmNJphuWTXk?si=T3prHuVeNhuT4eo

UFO sighting

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cmUSAlN25Mo

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5zsBkwLH-vk

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nZXRV4MezEw

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I'm a very Honest person to others....but I'm the biggest liar.....to myself. Don't lie to yourself. If you're mad, be mad. If you're sad, be sad. If you're happy, be happy...But only show it to those who will be happy for and with you..

[JonniJacko]

Notice one of my headlights were out as I stopped by the grocery store. A auto parts store was in the same shopping center, so I walked over there first. The clerk was still going in and out of the store assisting another customer, and the other clerk was on the phone. So he told me to wait a minute. While waiting, in the corner of my eyes, I saw some coke and other drinks. I was like, you know what, I'm just gonna hit two birds with one stone here. Not even gonna go to the grocery store, it's late, and all I really need was my dose of caffeine for tomorrow. I can do one more day of cup noodles for lunch..haha I"m anxious to get home, it was a long day. While the clerk finish helping the other customer, he looked at me, and said, "is that all for you? just two overpriced cokes. Highly expensive at 3 bucks a bottle you sure? LOL I said I meant to go grocery shopping in the store a few stores down- but notice one of my headlights was out so I came here first, but I don't want to go there anymore. He apolagized for the wait, and said the cokes on the house. He got my headlight bulb and offer to replace it right there and there for me. I said thanks, but I'm parked over by grocery store. He laughs and said, I"m not in the mood for a hike right now. I said thanks anyway, and thanks for the free cokes. hahaha

Got home, pop my hood, swap the bulb...and Thank God there's still good people out there. 

[JonniJacko]

Have you ever been judged- fairly or unfairly? Criticized- rightly or wrongly? How you respond and not how you react, reveals your true strength or real weakness. Being Vulnerable, Soft, and Empathetically kind is often misperceive and misunderstood as fragility and weakness. Being Vulnerable, is the strength to allow yourself to potentially be hurt by others, for them to undermine your values and to disregard your thoughts, so you know exactly what kind of person they are, so you can see their true colors. And if the embrace your vulnerability instead, then you found either a friend or partner for life.

Vulnerability is not a sign of weakness, but raw confidence, heart, and resilience.

(stole this from someone and modified it somewhat)  I was touched and impress.

[JonniJacko]

She was always made fun of growing up. Her physique was always on the heavy side. She was somewhat related to me, though I'm not exactly how. My parents would visit them from time to time. Her family was always somewhat unorganized. In the little neighborhood among many Hmong families at the time, they were the laughing stock. Me and the siblings never made fun of them openly, but we did joke about them among ourselves. More like teasing. admittedly one time I remember my older brother and I couldn't help but chuckled at each other after she made a comment about losing weight after she barely made a round around the track to her older sister. She heard us laughed a little but the guilt of that moment stuck with me til this day.

She is like a sister to me after all. When I heard she was getting married about 10 years ago, I couldn't help but felt overwhelmingly happy for her. I said her fiance definitely love her for who she is.

She moved out of state, and not much was known about her life after that, but that she was happily married and both were highly involved in their Church.

One night out of the blue, I received a text not knowing it was from her. Told me to give her a call when I get a chance and she had sad news. I called her a hour later. On the other end, I heard a weak tired voice. She said she's not much to live and see if I like to FaceTime her, as it could be our last time seeing or hearing from each other. I would never FaceTime anyone if I don't have to but I agree without question in this situation. She look weak, frailed, and so sad.

She thanked me one last time for all the times growing up as kids for always making her feel included, accepted and loved even though I wasn't always nice or stood up for her. She muster a slight laugh and I smiled back. She was just calling everyone she knew growing up that mean something to her to say her last good bye. And I said everything will be ok in Heaven. She said she had no more tears. And so she said bye one last time and close the call.

A few days later, her husband posted the sad news on their digital page that she was returning home--to the savior.

[JonniJacko]

In the end, only love can stand the test of time. We will crossed paths with many souls in our lifetime. Some will come and go, but those who once love us and those we once love will always cross our mind and stay in our thoughts, even if our time together, wether it's friendship or romance comes to a end. This just means life isn't perfect and won't ever be but love is, or was for a certain period of time.

Love one another, and remember It's not humans, but human nature, it's not actions but results, and a lot of it is not in our control. This is why you always love because you never know what happens tomorrow.

[JonniJacko]

It's true folks, 40's is when you just begin to really wise up....20-30's were trials, tribulations, and WTF am I doing years....lol

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2btUa53yDkU