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Creative Corner => Online Journal => Topic started by: Bokehlicious on March 28, 2014, 03:11:22 PM
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Love is everywhere! You just have to open your heart to see it. (In this case, an electric cord shaped as a half heart reflected in the glossy washer)
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My condolences for your lost. My brother is in the military and every time he gets sent offshore I stay up all night reminiscing about our childhood and hoping that he returns. Siblings can be some of the closest people in life, and my younger brother is probably the only person in the world that understands me and my twisted personality. I wouldn't know what to do if I received "that" call one day. Just thinking about it encumbers my heart.
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Yes, cherish every moment you have with your family for you will never know. In the blink of an eye, your life will can be changed forever.
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Willow - no goodbyes are ever easy. I'm truly sorry for the loss of your brother.
On another note - the title of your journal reminded me of when I first got my iphone. My son told me that he wanted to become a photographer because he took some really cool pictures of the highway while I was driving :2funny:
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This morning's drink, Lipton Black Tea.
I read somewhere that drinking a cup of warm water (lemon or tea) first thing in the morning before eating will curb your appetite and help with digestion. So, I've been drinking a cupful every morning for a while now and I noticed that I definitely don't feel as hungry.
@boo - Thank you! He was my little brother. It was because of him that I learned and became an expert at diaper and bottle duties. I still miss him every single day. Though I know he's in a better place.
You should get your son a toy camera that can actually take pictures. It'll be amazing to see how he sees the world through the lens.
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I've been under the weather lately and haven't had much appetite. I wanted something light and tasty so I made a Hmong tomato soup with green onions and cilantro. Nothing fuels the body better after recovery from the bug than home cooked meals.
Sweet_Tears, thank you for your words of encouragement! He's with my dad now so he's in a better place.
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The youls, a cup of lemon water with a few drops of honey and a sprig of mint for a smoother taste and to ease the raw pipes!
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This has been on repeat ever since I heard it the other day...nursing my cold under a feet of blankets. It brought back a wave of childhood memories (mostly the goods) as when we were so carefree and blithe. Then, our free spirit willed us to dream big and to become anyone or anything we want to. We had such courage, energy, and determination. Now, whether those dreams materialized or not, know that if the hope still burns eternal, we're the keeper of the flame.
Beautiful presentation (The foods). Love the pictures as well. Hope you feel better.
Thank you! I eat simply because I am my father's daughter; genetically blessed with a waxy, fat-like substance that will clog the arteries if not carefully monitored. And I am feeling better. Thanks for the asking!
Do you live in a spaceship?
Yes, I do!
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you changed the spaceship theme.
Well, as I noticed that my photos were not of anything beautiful about life, except for the love cord, more so of my white cup and bowls. I don't think many find them beautiful.
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Can I have a sip of your tea? Looks very refreshing. I love the color contrast in your photo. Especially the green mint leaves. :)
Help yourself. There's more brewing in the tea pot. :P
Lemony yellow, mint green, and white are my favorite colors.
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Love is everywhere! You just have to open your heart to see it. (In this case, an electric cord shaped as a half heart reflected in the glossy washer)
A kind hearted person I am
For I too, can be a man
Only if I can understand
I am unaware
So please bear
For I do care
Reading your theme
I am sorry, for it seem
A member you have lost
Memories do not get toss
Like this green moss
Or this tiny moth
For life is soft
It's always better to ask
A stranger for help
Then to keep it for yourself
Every thing revolves
And involves
And above all
There's nothing better then
A family's love
Family members
Gathers in December
A meal everyone makes
But for some
Time it will take
When ever you feel lonely
Look deep within
In your memories
For a lost love
No need to search
Look up in the stars above
And you can still find him
Remember,
That light will never go dim
Cherish the past
Hold on to the rest
For they are the best
Above all else
You have to let him rest
I'm not good with poems
Or rhymes
I am just a stranger
Passing by
I hope this will help lift
Some part off your side
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HuntedHeart - your mom is a smart woman, except had I been 18, I would believe in her saying. Hehehe
Shinta-San - thank you for the beautiful poem. I regret I cannot return the favor as I am a lost soul in the world of poetry.
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Amen!
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I'm just glad that you enjoyed the poem.
And was able to up lift a bit of your sarrow off your shoulder. Lolz.
only for a little right?.
I hope everythings doing fine at your end.
Have a good day.
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Shinta-san, yes, I am well. Hope the same for you as well.
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It had been raining from Saturday night and into late Sunday afternoon. As soon as I woke, I called her to wish her a Happy Mother's Day. I told her that I didn't have anything to send her. She replied,
Nyias nyob nyias ib lub ntuj ces hu los xwb los zoo kawg lawm.
Ntshe ntiaj teb no yus yuav pauj tsis tau yus niam txoj kev hlub kev ua niam zoo.
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It's a small world after all...
Some years ago, I left abruptly to return home due to a family emergency. I had met a nice man before my leave. We went on a couple of dates, no more than three...just dinners and movies. We weren't sexual, not even kissing or hand holding. After I left, I pulled a houdini on him due to the length of my leave so I just stopped answering/returning his calls/texts.
Today, I was met by the very same man in the lobby of my building. Of all places, in a city that is populated with almost 1M people! He came behind me, called my name. I turned around and was greeted with a genuine smile. First thing that came out of my mouth was, "I'm sorry for disappearing on you."
"Yeah, I was worried about you. I hope everything is good with you."
I was both embarrassed and ashamed...and like a fool tried to redeem myself to only make no sense.
To placate the awkwardness, he asked, "Do you want to stay in touch or are you comfortable for now?"
I replied, "I'm with someone now."
He nodded and smiled before we said our goodbyes.
Now, the question is do I tell the s/o that I ran into someone I thrice dated (many moons prior to meeting him) and who lives in the same building? Hmmm
Just for the record, although Mr. Who-still-wants-to-stay-in-touch is a nice man, I'm not attracted to him in a romantic way.
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The dream from last night was both unusual and surprising in a way that is unsettling or hard to understand.
In the dream, I was visiting family and relatives. Then I was transported into a vast green field filled with children running around picking wild flowers. It was picturesque. In my mind, I wish I had a camera to capture the peace and serenity that I was witnessing. Out of nowhere, a stranger offered me his small video recorder. I thought to myself, "I don't want a dinky little recorder. I want a camera because I want to freeze the moment in time."
Just then, right behind me, I saw the sky lit up in fire. Far ahead of me was a narrow valley tucked between hills and mountains with steep rocky walls and a stream running through it. Moments later, something swooshed over me and before I could turn on the recorder, it landed in the far distance gorge. It was a fire Phoenix. It looked tired and its wings drooped with no life to them. I knew it was nearing its death. Then my dream went blank and blackness shrouds the image from my mind.
I woke to see the above through my window from my bed. I reached over to my right for my iPhone charging on the nightstand and quickly took a picture before it only becomes just another dream.
Can you see the fire Phoenix?
They say the Phoenix dies to only live again. We can attribute the same to dreams and aspirations. It's never too late to dream again the dreams we dreamed.
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The Phoenix of flame
It's so insane
Ever saw fire in the rain
It's as beautiful as
The Japanese Crane
I'm lost in this photo
The sun setting behind
The day's ending of time
As pretty as the forest Bamboo
Lush and so smooth
Thanks for sharing that lonely picture
I'm quite depress now
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ST - the Phoenix, when think in terms of a spiritual manner, it's like a memory...it lives even though the physical is no longer there.
Shinta-san - another great poetry. Thank you!
kab.lug - thank you for stopping by!
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Two memorable things happened over Memorial day.
I was invited to a "white people" bbq. I am the only Hmong there aside another Asian couple. Anyway, a little white boy screamed, running around his mom..."I want some rice! I want some rice! I want some rice!" Then he dashed to the food area and grabbed a handful of rice (I brought) and stuffed it into his mouth. That was pretty amusing.
Then during the bbq, I questioned myself if I was a fobby when I reached for my kua txob tuav nrog zaub ntxwb, dos, thiab txiv lws suav mus ntsw qaij ci while all the white people were lathering on bbq sauce.
Hope everyone had a wonderful Memorial day!
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That's one cool palm tree photo.
I like bbq sauce with my bbq-ed meats. But, I do have it with rice and I don't care what anyone thinks! ;D
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moonangel - hahaha that's why I didn't care if anyone saw me reaching for my hot peppers.
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Ever notice how bright and sunny inside of the rainbow is? It's like all inside is encased in a happy bubble. Sometimes, I wish we can just bottle everything happiness inside of us. Then, the world will be a much, much happier place.
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My age is still young so my physician was really surprised when my test results came back - positive. That's precisely what she said, You're still so young, this can't be!
But woo me! This be!
I knew it from the first day my menstrual cycle was late for a week, then a month, then months, and months went into a year and so forth. And when it did eventually come back again, it became heavy. Though it has waned off for some years now; however, just the other day, I received a surprise visit from Aunt Flo and she came knocking hard! Again! Annoying!
Some friends tell me I am lucky; that I don't have to deal with Aunt Flo's visit each month. The truth is, yes, I think I am pretty darn lucky too because I have no desire to have children (does that make me a bad person?). Don't get me wrong. I adore little kids, but only if I can hand them back after I'm done with them. And my biological clock never ticked (now I understand why because it's broken LOL).
Maybe some years into the future, I may reconsider children. I know I won't be able to give a natural birth to a child, but there are plenty of children who are unwanted and abandoned by the very person who gave them life. Adoption is always an alternative.
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ST, tej zaum kuv nyaum nyaum es ntuj tsis pub kuv ua niam os. :'( :'( :'(
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Isn't the world just wonderful? That human and animals can live symbiotically in a mutually beneficial relationship and to the advantage of both?
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Over the weekend, while everyone flocked to MN for the J4 festivity, we escaped to a more tropical place and enjoyed a quiet weekend together. We couldn't have asked for a more beautiful and perfect weather. It was a nice respite from all the craziness that has been happening in the last few short weeks.
This afternoon, the s/o took his son to go take his golf lesson. Apparently, the lady coach who is his coach has coached alongside Tiger Woods' old coach and many youngsters who have turned pro and currently are playing in the PGA.
We were having a conversation about our day today and the s/o mentioned that the lady coach's son and his son go to the same school and they know each other. The lady coach suggested that they (the two sons) should take lessons together. I kidded with him that maybe in a subtle way, she was hinting of a hook up between them instead. He made a facial gesture as though a brilliant thought has come to mind and said, "Well, she is divorced." I replied jokingly, "Well, just let me know. I certainly don't want to come in between you and your love affair with golf. You can strut around saying you are now dating a PGA coach." LOL Then he turned serious and said, "Yeah, I didn't think of it that way." I turned to him and rub my right hand across his chest, "Does it stroke your ego knowing that other women fancy you?"
"Yeah," was his coy reply. LOL
Though I won't post a photo to substantiate my claim, I have to admit, my s/o is quite a handsome man. His athleticism and height coupled with his laid back nature makes him very appealing to the opposite sex. And he's not picky because he picked me!
So should I worry? Not one bit. I've grown enough as a person and learned from past relationships that having or being with someone doesn't complete me. I also think that it comes with having the confidence in yourself that whether a relationship make it or break it, life still goes on.
Hope you all watched some spectacular fireworks!
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Willow, I just stumbled across your journal. I love the photos and journal entries. Thanks for sharing with us. I'm a subscriber now. :)
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Willow, I just stumbled across your journal. I love the photos and journal entries. Thanks for sharing with us. I'm a subscriber now. :)
Thanks, sunsets! You're welcome to stop by any time!
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Fresh squeezed orange juice in ice with orange/cucumber slices and a touch of mint.
Lately, I am finding myself drinking from a Mason jar. I love the fact that these glass jars are not only keeping my drinks cool, they are also timeless and classic. They remind me of the country, of old world charm. I envision myself getting married under the overhanging shade of a big oak tree, with these glass jars filled with wild flowers suspending from the jutting branches. Or sitting on my porch in the summer sun sipping ice cold lemonade (from the jar) staring off into the wheat/corn field and deepen valley. That would be two dreams coming true for me if it'll ever happen. And who's to say it can't happen, right?
On another note, the s/o was telling me that his male co-worker broke up with his girlfriend. The co-worker found out his girlfriend went to the club and was grinding down with some guy. I guess he got jealous and ended their relationship. Then the s/o proceeded to comment on her body, that she has a rock'n body.
That of course, piqued my interest and I asked, "What do you mean she has a rock'n body? Is she in shape, work out?"
He nodded but added she had pitted acne scars on her face.
I kept asking him how he knew she has a rock'n body. And he said she also used to work with him and assured me he knew her way before we met. I wasn't appeased with the answer and kept pressing him on the subject as he wouldn't give me a straight answer. Finally, he let out a "Why, I can't believe it! You are jealous that I think another woman has a rock'n body." I stopped what I was doing and let him have the "LOOK", you know that evil, mean, wish-something-bad-would-happen-to-you look. LOL
(OK, I was a tad bit jealous. And what woman wouldn't be?)
His banter did help for the fact that I was in my bathrobe, my hair in a bun and was looking very dowdy and matronly.
I guess, every once in a while, I get my insecurities. However, they are just that, insecurities. I know my s/o, and he would never say anything deliberately to hurt me, and so to pacify his little teasing remarks, he said to me, "Everything about you is sexy (though I didn't feel it at the time) to me." LOL
So ladies, be a little bit jealous, but don't let it consume you. Jealousy can eat up your confidence and drown you in resentment.
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It is okay to feel jealous but too much of it can actually drive the other person away. Not enough or no jealousy can also make the other person feel unloved as well. Sometimes, those feelings only come on if and when that person makes us feel a bit threaten.
Btw, I love those jars too and I have a few of them sitting in my cupboard. O0
I know. It's hard keeping the green eyed monster from surfacing though. Guess that's human nature. Hehehe
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Spent the day at the beach soaking up the sun.
I feel it's really none of my business, but I have to voice my opinion on a matter concerning an acquaintance of mine. A little back story...the acquaintance's last two ex-boyfriends (long-term) have hooked up and the most recent ex just married over the father's day weekend. Her second most recent ex is slated to be married in August. Well, she is still single and looking. She's been doing the online dating and in the last year or so, has had three relationships (first two lasting just a few short months). These relationships became official in the first few dates (which I thought were awfully quick); hence, also, the quick break ups. Her current relationship is her third and with a much younger guy (who is seven years her junior). She's very proud of her "cougar" status.
Anyway, my point is that these men only want her because she seems desperate and needy so they take advantage of her vulnerability. The men she is attracted to are athletic, outgoing and still into the party, bar/club hopping scene. She, on the other hand, is ready to settle down and have a family. Her biological clock has been ticking for some time now. And she's not athletic or the outgoing type. I mean, she is not fat but she isn't in excellent shape either. In other words, her body is pog pog laus considering she hasn't had any kids. On numerous occasions, I have advised her to stop dating little boys and start dating men her age or older and if she only wants to date athletic guys, she must also bring the same to the table. Does she heed my advice? No. She got her heart broken over and over again.
As in the saying, you can only lead a horse to water; you cannot make it drink. Maybe this new younger guy can prove me wrong. Otherwise, she will eventually learn. However, I hope that when she does learn, it's not too late for her.
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She got her heart broken AGAIN!. Guess some people have to learn it the hard way, most do anyway.
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She is attracted to those type of men. Unless she learns how to stray from those type of men, she will have many heartbreaks to come. I find it that those young men are looking to have fun only. They are not really serious about settling down or want a serious relationship. And if they want to settle down, they will want someone who is younger than them or at least in their age range.
I know! When we talked, I asked her if she discussed her expectations with this new guy and she said they both want the same thing...to get married and have children. I replied, "That's fine and dandy, but just because he said that doesn't mean he wants those things now."