luvly....is she really?

[luvlylisa]

been having a lot of weird dreams lately....craz y ones.

eh...no snow yet--great!!!

turkey day is almost here.  i'm cooking this year by myself....it's ok....but nothing big planned...just something simple.

on to party with my gf for her bday!  she'll be 32 i think.  it'll b a chill weekend!!!

[luvlylisa]

had myself a nice weekend! 

[luvlylisa]

been quite productive with work....n only needing to be more productive.

getting my xmas cards done--slowly but surely.

eh...my desk is a mess with all this paperwork everywhere.... eh, i'll get around to clearing it--eventually.

[luvlylisa]

snow is here...eh, i can do w/o it but we r n the midwest so we're bound 4 snow...i'm sure there's plenty more on its way--eventually.

this is the last week of my "late nights" @ work--thank goodness!

hrrmm....packe rs won 2night...it was a close 1. they really need 2 work on their defence n dude....what was w all the butterfingers 2night?!?! blah!

[luvlylisa]

sent out a good quarter or half of my xmas cards this morning....i've still to finish the rest.

eh, meetings and more meeting today.  honestly, i just want to go home.  actually no...i want to do some online shopping and shop some more...of course, not for me.

[luvlylisa]

ua cas ob ntus no kuv pheej npau suav dag dag ne.  LOL

*sigh*  I can't believe it's almost xmas already....dan g this year is surely coming by way too fast...next thing u know....it's already 2012!!!

[luvlylisa]

i'm sorry ur hurting so much...it's always unfortunate when u lose some1 u luv. n it also hurts when those u luv r hurting....n u know that there's nothing u can do bout it 2 make it better.

headed 2 mn 4 my best buddy jack's fathers' funeral. never been 2 a lao funeral but anything 4 these friends of mine...cause they r my laughter, my strength n my happiness.

i know it'll b awkward....u there n him there...but my heart is still numb n is still afraid 2 speak...thus i shall remain where i am. no, don't get me wrong--i'm not wishing otherwise i'm only hoping that no matter what u will remember that there is some1 who thinks the world of u.

kthnx that's all i've got 2 say 4 now.

[luvlylisa]

yes, a new year.....w that comes a new me.  thus...no u.

[luvlylisa]

if u don't like how i do things...y bother even asking me to do it then?   

now it was a waste of both our time--please don't bother me w ur complaints.  shouldn't have asked for my help if you were only to criticize me about it later. gggrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

[luvlylisa]

*sigh* heading home now...it's been a long day!

xmas is just about here...but for some reason i'm not excited...not one bit.

[luvlylisa]

Yay!  Off to my 3day weekend!!! I didn't even know until a few hours ago--been so busy that I forgot that I've got monday off.

and next week I'm only in on Tues and Wed. with Thurs-Monday off.  Thus, a five day weekend as well!!! 

[luvlylisa]

it's xmas eve n i'm bored out of my mind! every1 is bz w fam n well, 2 b honest being home right now is not only boring but driving me insane!!!

saw him 2day...i honestly dunno what i would do (i always think of the worst case scenario--can't help it) but i held it 2gether n we talked 4 a bit. we were civil n eventually i walked away. even while walking 2 my car i shockingly said 2myself.."wow, that went better than expected." i had mixed emotions still n am confused as 2 where i am or we r n this relationship.. ..but i know 1 thing is certain...i'm a lot stronger than i realized n learning more n more bout myself each day! merry xmas 2 me! some gifts really r urs n the making--literally!

[luvlylisa]

i'm no grinch but i hate this time of the year!!! gggrrr!!! i'm so emo...urgh! cry myself a river!!! blah!

[luvlylisa]

it's been a long while...n i secretly hope u r reading this.....but i miss u. just wanted 2 let u know.

good, now i've said it...kthnxbye.

[luvlylisa]

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