I had a dream about you tonight, and that is why I got up to write to you. I know part of tonight's mystery was about Dxxxx. I just wasn't sure if I pushed you there or not. I don't think I did. My subconscious mind still dreams about you. For a long time now, I know that your actions indicated that your mysterious intentions were not good for me. I am still disappointed and a little shock about our my meeting on that Friday between you, me and Dxxxx. I held on as long as I could so that we could have a soft landing, and leave each other in friendship, even if we do not talk. I do not regret chasing you and your friend, because it is that action that pushed it over the edge so that you can be free from me. I do not know what is in your heart, but I know that we could never build love, much less friendship or marriage with the kind trust we have. I could never love someone who designed a secret path to the past with all the support of her friends, and with deception. I know how to love only one way and that is with all I have to give with clarity and honesty. I am not what you want in your heart, and so I asked you, or am letting you know, that I will not come back, and should have left a long time ago, as a love in your love or your good friend, and please accept that. Having said that, please pursue your your desire with clarity of heart and mind knowing that you are no longer cheating on me in any way shape of form. You didn't tell me so, but I already know so. Always, joy, happiness, and beautiful smiles.