Ever since middle school, I have always wanted a love that isn't afraid to let the world know that we love each other. To Hmong people, it would be pda, but to me, I would like for him to hold my hand when we walk. Give me a kiss if he was leaving, or give me a hug, or even just a caress on my arm.
Maybe this is a yearning that will not be fulfilled by men, but only God alone. I am tired of waiting for humanly love.