The Not so private Diary of JonniJacco

[JonniJacko]

I finally look at myself, a really good look, in the mirror. A few new lines, a few more silvers. Still handsome as ever though. lol Yeah, I can't go back now...everytim e I go back to acting and thinking like a 20 year old, I literally feel sick....I never wanted to grow up. I always feared growing old....A part of me died, but another said I'm finally accepting peace.....

[JonniJacko]

Life is like a basketball team. You can go the business route, or you go with the Faith route. But because Pro Basketball is a business more than ever now, Basketball teams operate like a business. This means sometimes trading a fan favorite, the star of the team. To find different pieces and the best they can get To mesh all the pieces together and to work together in optimal performance.

If I own a basketball team. I'm old school. I rarely trade, and keep the same guys for many years until they all figure out how to play and work together...Im going with faith....hahah a

Unfortunately, social evolution is real. Some things just can't work like how they use to. The majority always win, even if the majority is wrong.

So in life today, sometimes you have to let go of people, people you respect but could be the reason holding you back. Take for example: Tom and Luke are great people. On the surface they seem like great friends to each other. However, secretly- they both compete who is more dominant. Luke is more humble, so Tom has a small edge. Luke knows this, and realize everytime he is with Tom, he's in the passenger seat. Luke decides to cut ties with Tom...Years later, Luke see his life improve a lot. He has a great career, accumulated assets, and only keep friends that are on the same level as he is, never competing low key with each other, whether its friendly or not, working together, not against each other. Lifting up each other, never low key putting down...

So life is like a basketball team. Just because someone is a good player, doesn't mean they will be a good fit....In life, sometimes you make friends with good people, but they may or may not be a good fit to your life. They might fit perfectly into someone's else's life...But if not yours, you gotta look at it as a business. You gotta cut them lose. Because it will be either them or you......and that's the cold truth about life......is that it can be tricky sometimes and not all good things are good for you even if it's good for everyone else.......... You really got to know yourself and recognize who and or what is holding you back...

However, a all faithful person is like that versatile player. They'll fit in and improve anyone's life. So I say, always go with a person who has a ton of faith....they are your best bet. haha But still its no guarantee....L OL but if you have to choose, i say go with the one with the most faith. Because real champions don't need to win championships, they just need to win the hearts of fans.....

[JonniJacko]

A short conversation with the Heavens:

How am I going to survive and maintain joy in life going into my 50's and beyond???

I knew you would have trouble with this, that is why I have you waited til now to really start making something out of life.....

Where do I start then?

Stop wondering, and start doing. Something as simple as getting off your chair now and start sweeping the floor.....

[JonniJacko]

Sawv daws laus thiab dab tuag tas lawm lauj.....

Met up with some old friends for breakfast PHO..And one of them upon arrival blurted out "oh yo!, yom, sawv daws laus thiab dab tuag tas lawm lauj!"

We all chuckled and laughed.

I continue the rest of my day at work, just hoping someone,anyone will tell me I look good today...lmao

[JonniJacko]

I realized in my family, we don't have anyone who can really bring 'Life" to the family. LOL Like how some families out there, they have maybe that cool uncle or cool aunt with a cool ranch or cabin out in the woods, where families can go camp out whenever. Maybe it's that cool uncle who owns a auto shop, where his nephews comes to hang out even if they don't know or want to know anything about cars...Maybe it's just that aunt, who just randomly invites families to dinner because she got bored and cooked up a feast...haha

This probably isn't anyone's fault if you want to consider it a "fault"..I think it's just more like in todays time, everyone is just so fixated on survival, and with everything going up. Anyone who presents themselves as a "liability" in the smallest sense is pretty much dismiss.

Yeah, we're living in harsh times...But I have too many nephews and neices that look up to me...Gotta live up to the title: the cool uncle...Maybe they're just still too young. Once they start liking the opposite sex, I might just be known as the Quiet Uncle...LMAO

[JonniJacko]

Where do all these people and cars come from..Thought I wake up early for a morning jog. Only to find a Tai Chi club doing Tai Chi, some Triathlon athletes training, a couple making out, and a lone wolf sitting on his truck's bed just smoking away.

Moving to Wyoming or the Dakotas soon...Where everyone in the state knows your name....haha

[JonniJacko]

Brylan is a young, tall, handsome fella. But one thing about him, is he's overly kind and nice .He's the kind of guy who women are comfortable to talk to, right off the bat,because he has no "creepy" bones in him whatsoever..It's common to see a random chick with him just talking. But I know these kind of guys...I was never one of them, because I have a lot of "creepy" vibes to me...LOL But I sense energy like a shark smelling their prey across the oceans...haha j.k women are comfortable around these kind of guys because they are easy to talk to, don't ask for anything, just very friendly vibes....safe too...

One day Brylan asked me about "women" advices....Sai d he's tired of being seen as just a "nice guy anyone can talk to...I don't know why, but I pretended like I knew it all....LOL And maybe subconsciously, I do...LOL....I said things like, masculinity is number one, dont be overly nice, but don't be a **** too...just go with your current energy...don't put any pressure on her...just be alive...LOL... .stuffs like that....Two weeks later when I saw him again, he had a really weird looking hyena neck....spotty hyena....hahah a

He said, what I told him must of had work because the girl he was chasing for the past 6 months finally gave in...I said, oh, nah, Its all you...I gave you what most mature men already knew but probably too stingy to tell other men...LMAO...B ut most of it isn't teachable, only obtainable with age and experience...h ahaha So he said, you mean I can still fuke things up? I said, you dont learn if you don't make mistakes...You don't become stronger if you don't get hurt sometimes...ha haha

He then said what about you? You must have gotten a lot of girls? I said, I'm a good trainer, but a horrible boxer....LOL

[JonniJacko]

I was working hard. Going above and beyond..I really respected this group of workers...I work with them before and they are just a group of hard workers.Took care of my workers. Made sure they were set up for success and was well ahead of plan... I finally sat down, just for a brief moment and watch a short clip on my phone. In the corner of my eyes I see someone walking hastily towards me. Before I look, I felt a unpleasant energy. So Intuitively I got up look and it was a manager from a different department. He got pretty close in my face, started to almost "dogg" me. Saying you can't sit down, come on man you know that. Instead of just leaving after that, he proceeded to tell me "be mindful, they're working hard,while they see you sitting is going to rubbed them the wrong way"...."if you need to sit down, or take a break, or use your phone- go to the break room, have someone cover you"

I look at him sternly straight in the eyes and said "Man to Man, you're just sizing up on me now are you, If you're having a bad day, don't put your frustration on me... Write me up if you want, call me out respectfully if you need to, but please don't question my manhood. I don't do that to you or anyone, please me mindful yourself."...He walked away fast.

A half hour goes by. My Manager comes talk to me. He was like "I know you, me personally, I don't care what you do as long as you stay efficient and get the job done, if you need to sit down, watch videos on your phone to unwind a little, just try to keep it minimal, and be discreet doing so. look around and make sure nobody who can write you up is around. judge how many minutes you can afford to slack off before getting back to business".....then he leaves...and said "don't worry, you're on my off limits list" that means I'm not getting no write up for something petty like that.....Then I lightly hollar out "yo, you  know I own this place right" he turns the corner and laughs....He knows it.

So yeah folks, don't ever let anyone's work title intimidate you. If someone sizes up on you, it's a form of disrespect...a nd when that happens, you get into street mode with them...You put them in their place...they really want to size up....they need me more than I need them...I bring more than just hard work, I bring joy, peace, and harmony...And everyone who knows me like that, knows that's a damn fact..That place would be nothing without me..People there would be heartbroken if I leave.....haha ha

Insecure ass mofo pick on the wrongggg Hmiggaaa....ha ha

Man, thinking now what really got me red, was the guy was implying me that "Im lazy".....

Hell naww, I aint lazy....even my workers would occasionally tell me to take it easy, take a rest, don't worry about them,...they even remind me "hey, break time...or it's lunch time".....the reason my area is always clean is not because of me, but because of them doing a little part of my job for me as a show of respect that I work hard for them...so they can make rate....day in and day out....

I can't believe how fuking petty humans are these days...It's dispicable.... fuke man....hahaha that's it...I'm having a great weekend now...LOL

[JonniJacko]

Dear Uncle,

You never once complain about how hard life was for you. Orphaned at early age, soldier at 11, lost most of your siblings either due to illness or the effects of war. You and Pap stayed positive, you were the introvert, pap the extrovert. You never asked for much, never had much. Everything you ever own was always second hand. Cars, wives...hehe oops...But your love, it was first class.... You were proud to give things and people a second chance. 20 years ago, the doctors said you have less than 1% to make it out of your second heart attack. You woke up, alive, and slowly regain consicous..Doc s couldn't explain or agree.

I said its foolish, but you insisted that it was because of my Prayer. Said you felt me held your hand, and heard me prayed...To be fair, eldest cousin was crying uncontrollably ..And I just pray..somethin g I probably do once every 10 years...hahaha

Uncle, if I ever have a son, I would be honor to have you as my son in your next life time. I would give you everything, a life that you deserve. Though Im sure, all you would ever ask for again...is to love and be loved. To be wanted, to be seen.

RIP my dear Uncle. I will try my hardest not to shed  a tear. Because you and pap always use to tell us boys, real men only cry once in their life. When they are born...haha

Love ya Uncle.