Its funny how easy you can lose a friend ...
back in high school we always hanged out in a big crowd. i think that's why we stand out so much. lolz
i was the nerd who did everybody's homework, cuz they copied off of me of course. lol ...i was also the
photographer. taking photography class was way fun. and i always had a camera for everything. even when
the girls were fighting.
i think the first flight i've never gotten into with a friend was when she was high ...that was back in my
sophmore year. yea, she was really a biatch that day. back then i wasn't as outspoken as i am now. but
when somebody talks so much shiat about your peoples and nobody says anything she's gonna get owned. so
i put her in her place and shut her up. i didn't mean to hit her ...shoo, i was not gonna let no friend of mine hit
me in the face and get away with it. lol
girls are catty. i swear i had the catty-ish friends ever!! one time i went to my friends house (our hangout)
and i heard the girls in the backyard so i went through the back. all of a sudden 2 girls falls down towards
me and i'm like "wtf?" and the closer i looked i noticed it was 2 of my friends!!!! man, i was disappointed at
the crew for not stopping the fight. and you know i wasn't really a big shot like them so i couldn't say anything.
i just know that i wasn't hanging out with those girls anymore. lol
during my junior year ...that's when i spent my time trying to catch up on all the wrong things i've done
during my sophmore year. i worked hard to make it up so i was always home. after i was done with my
studies ... i went back to the crew and then later found out they were smoking the white stuff. yeah.
out of 18 girls ...6 of them were doing it. they were never the same. one girl did it so much she sold her
body for the drug. yea, and you know i didn't talk to her anymore after that. the other girls? they knew
i didn't like it so they never did it in front of me. as good as a friend they were to me ...they lost my respect.
yea, i haven't seen them since.
rumors. you know, when you have a big group of friends who's got lots of enemies you tend to get in
the mix even though you don't know about it ..yea, that was me. of all people?! me. i was the quiet one.
i think i was more into my school work then them. still i got caught ...after the teen dramas, rumors started
going out. and because i was the quiet one ...apparently they said i was the enemies homies. i was like ...
"who are they again?" ..lol. still ... lost 3 friends for that.
and now? i avoid them when i go back to Merced. there are some that i still visit every now and then but
most of them ...i just don't want to see anymore. they weren't so bad but they did alot of damage.
i'm not full of hate. i just don't like to hang out with people i know who will get me involve with things
that i know i shouldn't be. i was smart. i was one of the few that got away early.
