Well... I have come to a crossroad of making choices in which it could determine the ultimate destruction of my entire being.
I just hate it, can't eat, can't sleep, can't think straight.. OMG.. It's driving me nuts.
Trying to stay sane, I stay up all night long while the world around me sleeps and just stare out in space wondering to myself what is the purpose of life anyways?..
Life is sooo.. damn confusing and complicated. Maybe if I wasn't such a blonde, I wouldn't be so confused and be in this place to begin with.
Anyways... After the aftermath and great destruction of my being, I will officially become a nun. No more of having to worry or think about the opposite sex. Might as well do something useful for a change.. Yeah... Being a nun to the monestary and caring for children. I love children, they are gifts from the heavens. I especially love the little babies, they're so tiny and cute. If I was rich, I'd open up an orphanage for children and care for them until someone adopts them. When I hear about children being abused, breaks my heart as they are so helpless.
Well... just trying to clear my mind of my frustrations.. will come back some other day and talk to myself. lol..