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« Reply #210 on: April 26, 2021, 10:56:18 PM »
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« Reply #211 on: May 15, 2021, 10:32:47 AM »
Sometimes things are sent to us not in the package that we imagined, but what's inside the package is what matters.  You make me happy and that's what I need.



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« Reply #212 on: May 15, 2021, 10:35:34 AM »
Thank you for always making me laugh all the time, for all the awesome times.



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« Reply #213 on: May 16, 2021, 07:43:02 PM »
The bonfire last night was so much fun.  You and I always have so much fun together!  I think you are always hilarious.  You are so free-spirited--it's quite amazing, really, how easy going you are.  I wish time stood still because you're so much fun to be around.  Anyway, I don't always know what goes on in your head.  Last night you were like, " You're my best friend, my wife."  I was like, "Whaattt?"  And you said, "We can make that happen, you know."  I feel I may have given you the impression that I'm not ready for marriage again... But I'm reconsidering.  I think it might work out.  You are good to me.  You're always so concerned when you think I might be upset with you.  I love that you are so in tuned to my feelings. I love that you fight for us.  I love that the most.  I've tried to create space but you only pull me closer to you.  I think that's how it is when a man loves a woman, right?  I've never been loved correctly by a man before so I'm very cautious and suspicious.  Which is why I do everything in relationships slowly.  It doesn't take much to spook me and make me recoil and say goodbye.  I love that you communicate well with me and fight for us always.  I love you, M.



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« Reply #214 on: May 16, 2021, 08:34:45 PM »
Let me take that back.  I've been loved correctly by men in my past before.  Three other men loved me correctly before.  Two of those three proposed and I turned them down.  I broke all of their hearts.  Maybe I'm not destined for good men in my life or something, because I always break the hearts of the good ones.  I believe I would have been happy with any of those three.  They knew how to love women.  They cared about and loved me.  I loved them too.  I just wasn't ready to get married.  But I guess everything happens for a reason in life, right?  Maybe there's a higher reason unbeknownst to me why I said no to their proposals?  We'll never know.  I only know I wasn't ready to get married when they asked.  I'm sure they are the most amazing husbands to their wives now.  Makes me kinda jealous of their wives.  Just a little.  Lol.  Anyway, I don't want to make the same mistake with M.  He is such a good man.  He makes me feel loved.  And I love him back.  That's the main ingredient.  Equal love.  But I have learned that it takes more than Equal Love.  Lasting love needs Compromise, Communication, Respect, Trust, Loyalty.  Do we have it all?  Only time will tell.



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« Reply #215 on: May 31, 2021, 12:26:53 PM »
We see so little of each other that when we do it's like discovering each other all over again.  I feel bad for him.  I told him it's OK for him to pursue someone else.  But he says he'd rather have an hour here and there with me than none at all.  I feel like I'm a disappointment as a mom and as a girlfriend.  Life could be better.



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« Reply #217 on: June 17, 2021, 08:07:26 AM »
Compatibility Signs:
R - recreational intimacy
I - intellectual intimacy
S - spiritual intimacy
E - emotional intimacy
S - sexual intimacy

It is so rare to find someone who is compatible with you in all of these.



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« Reply #218 on: June 17, 2021, 08:57:59 AM »
How is it possible that I can meet a mature adult who wants exactly the same things that I want in life and in love?  I don't even know.  You're like some unicorn.  What are the chances that you drop right smack on my lap and are all that I've asked for my whole life?  In my dreams for so long, I dreamed for you.  I used to have recurring dreams of a deep, genuine love, a type of love that takes your breath away, that completely consumes you.  A type of love where two people are completely and wholly, spiritually immersed in one another, as if you are them and they are you, where, in each other's eyes is burning desire and the whole universe.  Your world is just so unequivocally bliss and beautiful, even as everything around you is burning down, because as long as they next to you, holding your hand, smiling at you... nothing else really matters.  You came straight out of my dreams, my M.  I don't even have those dreams anymore because, you are not a dream, you are extremely real.  Thank you.  I love you so much.  I have been so empty for so long, pretty much my whole life, and I didn't think it would ever be possible for me to feel this way: to adore and love someone so deeply and genuinely, and to be loved and adored the same way in return.  Thank you, M, for all that you are.  Thank you for making it possible for me to feel this way.  Every day is worthwhile because of my kids, and because of you.  Other songs are able to express my endearing feelings for you... but this one in its meaning, pitch, modulation, and passion, best describes my passion and affection for you. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uNGguudoLVs



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« Reply #219 on: June 17, 2021, 09:57:03 AM »
I am not embarrassed for this admission.  “It’s true that, people, I’ve been sad.”  “I’ve been gone, I’ve been missing out…Been missing out for too long, forsaking things for too long.”  Forsaking things like, happiness and other things in life that I deserve.  My life, in a word, has been forlorn.  Pitiful.  Sad.  Hopeless.  Lonely.  Depressed.  Merciless.  Woeful.  Unfulfilled.  How much my heart has hurt.  How I've mourned for the difficult life I've led.  How much I yearned for that better half human warmth.  Which is why, I feel so incredibly blessed, so lucky... since the day that M came into my life.  His cheery disposition and the sun he's shined on me stands in stark contrast to what my life was before.  His presence is felt in such a wonderfully sweet, pronounced, and intense way.  Where there was once a sense of looming doom and a never ending darkness, I finally see something bright up ahead on my path.  There is such an exquisite gentleness in how his hand holds my heart, in the way he looks into my soul, in his kindness.  For so long, I knew nothing but elusive love, that, which created a profound yearning for something more, something more complete, more real.  I am forever grateful for how he sends titillating waves of joyful sensations to my heart with his graceful teachings for how I can be a better person; I love that beyond his charming charisma and outgoing personality lies a careful attention to detail, to be kind, sensitive, and caring to my needs, expressed through his eyes, his touch, and his words.  What beautiful strokes he is imparting on my life canvass... I pray that the ultimate painting and picture is one of peace, joy, happiness, and true love.  Not every day do I have a reason to celebrate.  But today I want to celebrate this love that I am so very fortunate to have found.



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« Reply #220 on: June 17, 2021, 09:57:37 AM »
There is an invasive amazing feeling that is permeating into my heart and into my life.  What blessed relief.  My heart is not as heavy. I welcome with open arms resilience and beauty to continue to come into my life.



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