I'm drifting away like a balloon into the night and then he comes back around, catches my strings and pulls me back to earth again. Sometimes I feel like I'm this lost little naive girl navigating the storm of life but other time I feel like this grown ass warrior woman who ain't going to put up with shit and aren't afraid to walk away from something that's not good enough for me.
I told him on three occasions that maybe we should split, that perhaps it was time to let go. Each time, he stops me, flip his shit on me or convince me somehow to stay. The last time was last week... I don't know why I keep feeling the need to break away from him, not like we already don't have enough space between us...he called me immediately and told me that it's not going to happen, he loved everything about our relationship, loved our connection and that we both are still good and together. The day after that, he went into the dating site we both meet and updated his profile pictures...... .I flipped my shit!!! Lmao I confronted him about it. He though I was funny. He finally texted me, "chill out! Everything's gonna be alright!" After I told him I can't stand his ass...
My guy is pretty hot, I'm not going to lie about it. Most of my friends have mini crushes on him and whenever we hit the clubs, girls be buying him drinks...or he'll get into that threesome conversation, and girls be trying to add me on to their Instagram, thinking we are really looking...or sometimes I think they do that to get to him. I'm never jealous about it though ok maybe a little...but here I am, for a long time, letting him roam alone. Maybe I'll lose him, maybe I won't! But I know one thing...I don't want to tell a grown ass man what to do, I want him to do what he wants bc I want to see how he is..