He is completely different around me. It's strange to not really be able to see each other in our own natural element everyday. He's a workaholic so I hardly see him and when we see each other, it's alway in a guise of being hidden away in a secret cave somewhere... where the rest of the world don't exist but us. Of course there are times in between where I get to see glimpse of his real natural self and he gets to see mine. Then, it vanishes and we're back to where we were, two souls just colliding through life and there is nothing and no one else but us and the world we created.
Out in the public and among people, he's flirty, social and center of the attention. His aura is strong and people can read it. When he walks into a room, something makes people turn heads. His confidence? I'm not sure. People can sense his presence when he walks through the door. And he knows it, but as much as he loves it... he's humble about it. He's never cocky but more like he's cute about it.
We could be in line at a liquor store and he's flirting, joking and having conversations with the people behind us, in front of us and the cashier... and the ones opening the door for us. Sometimes we'd drive by another vehicle going toward the lake or location we have just came from...he'll stop his car, roll his windows down and hold short friendly conversations with them. People like to be around him all the time. He's naturally friendly. His co workers calls him for advice and he gladly give it to them, then jokes with them. Everyone calls him for one thing or another, friends, cousins, coworkers, random people he just meet etc. he love being at the service of others...he lives for that. He have this non serous side to him when he's with others...
But with me, he's super serious. No flirting. No joking. Straight serious talks about life, our day, future plans and things of that nature. He blushes when complimented and when I get kind of flirty he... just let it go...he doesn't flirt or jokes with me much or at all. His phone calls are mostly to invite me out or to make plans. His texts are to see what I'm doing and mostly to set up a date. No random, chit chats! We talk about life, and we learn shit from each other. When I get mad, he calms me down with one word or message, so we don't fight. He'll say things like,
"I know we both have a bad side but if we get along and can communicate well, there's no point into having to show that side... we shouldn't want to see that side from each other!"
And I agree. I know sometimes I catch him in little white lies, I don't confront him bc I know he doesn't want to hurt me...and I respect him so I never question it. There's demands but it's not to the point of losing our minds over it. We try our best to compromise... yes that's the word here lol "compromise and sacrifice"
He is loving and affectionate but sometimes can feel like he tries to emotionally be distant with me from time to time...so that shit always confuses me... But then I do my own shit too that probably confuse the shit out of him. But it's not questioned, nothing we do with each other is questioned, like we just believe each other and accepts it, however it is the majority of the time. And I know it's weird...that I just thought of this today.... I told him about a crazy dream I have and he messages me happy and kissy emoticons. When he told me he worked 20 hours over the weekend, I never questioned him where he was, "I'm having dinner, get some rest. Talk you soon" was all I said Bc I didn't want to take his time..
Sometimes I feel like something's missing in our relationship, or wrong with us lol