You were lucky, you got 2nd chance. Some people succeed 1st chance. My daughter was telling me a peer of hers committed suicide. My heart ache for the deceased and the parents, those left behind. NO matter how bad things get OR you think, life will get better, always will.
Kong, I'm glad you are no longer in that dark place...
I'm just curious, how did you get to the point you want to take your own life? How did you get into depression? J/c
As a community, we need to learn/understand so we can help people around us. This is no joke.
Without getting into too much detail to distract anyone away from the issue... And just so you know, I don't blame anyone or anything for my depression.
As a kid, I was a worrier. As far back as I can remember, given any situation, news or predicament, my small mind would race towards 100 outcomes and most of them would be of a dark ending. I remember going to Sunday School when I was 6 or 7 and heard the story of Noah and the Ark. To any normal kid, this would just be another biblical story, but not me. I had nightmares for months about rain and how the world would end, it got so bad that I hated and feared each time it rained. As ridiculous and foolish as this may seem, this was my life all the way thru college.
Fortunately, the same curse that was fueling my anxiety was also fueling my education. As a EEE major, my ability to overthink things was invaluable in boosting my ability my troubleshoot and resolved complex issues. I was an exceptional student in that sense. Shortly after graduation, my mind snapped. At first, I thought it was just the seasonal blues, going from Fall to Winter. But then Spring came and left and my depression only got worst, with each new day being more painful than the last. At first, suicide never crossed my mind, only the stupid and insane would ever entertain such thoughts I told myself. As the months dragged on, the mind slowly and almost without knowing gives in and at some point, it accepted the fact that dying is less painful than living.