"Has it mattered to you, when you wondered?"
She nodded, but did not speak.
Kiss her, give her pleasure and be silent now, you maudlin fool. He knew full well he should end this conversation. However, he did not like to think of her wondering, and assuming she could not even ask without being thought an unsophisticate
d scold.
The vows that they had exchanged were supposed to take care of this question, but of course they usually did not.
"It seems only fair that we exchange gifts, I think. I will not take lovers either."
She looked so astonished, so utterly amazed, that he almost laughed. But something else in her eyes touched him deeply, and he would never forget the way she looked at that moment.
"It will be very nice not to wonder anymore," she said softly. "However, if one day you—"
He touched her lips to silence her. He did not want her to release him from this promise before he even discovered if
he could keep it.
"If someday one of us regrets this choice, we will talk about it, and try to remember when it mattered."
And why.
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Ravishing in Red, M.H
