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Creative Corner => Online Journal => Topic started by: HisBaby on December 07, 2012, 08:56:07 PM
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Friday, December 17, 2012
We hit a deer tonight. He fell to the ground. I stopped the car and about to get out, but he got up and ran away. The poor thing; he got hurt badly. :'(
I was driving and looking straight ahead. He ran from our right side right infront of the car. :-\
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I read my journal. I notice a pattern. It starts out really happy, then it got sadder and sadder.
I'm going to live without him and see if life brings much happiness to me. :)
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U can never be happy unless u face ur monster.
I'm the bird in the cage. The cage isn't lock....I am free to fly but love ties down my heart. So no matter where I am, I would return. I have decided to face my monster....it's not the human monster, but the monster of my heart...the monster of love that tortures me mentally.
In my journey, I hope to be strong but only to find out that my heart grows weak like the weather. One day it's raining, one day it's filled with sun shine.
The beautiful cage makes me happy, yet it is slowly killing me.
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ylxQo3JOKlo (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ylxQo3JOKlo)
"Let Me Be the One"
I came across this song on my husband's playlist. I feel sadden by the song. I wish that I have someone when I need him. I wish that he loves me.
Yim xav yim mob lub siab. :'(
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The cage that never speaks
Yet the cage door is open
A heart that is tie down
But yet never too soft spoken
Free as a bird, but always return
Return to the point where it start
Where you think he’s monster
Which take your heart?
Now you’re asking for a savior
One which can be found
Only if you look hard enough
He will always be around
Open your heart to other
While letting the pass go
What you may find
Is more than you ever know?
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The cage that never speaks
Yet the cage door is open
A heart that is tie down
But yet never too soft spoken
Free as a bird, but always return
Return to the point where it start
Where you think he’s monster
Which take your heart?
Now you’re asking for a savior
One which can be found
Only if you look hard enough
He will always be around
Open your heart to other
While letting the pass go
What you may find
Is more than you ever know?
This is truly sad. :'(
Only a heart will mend a broken heart.
Show me how beautiful the world is
Lead me
Teach me to fly away and never return
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Why must I be so sad at this moment? :sad3:
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You can express yourself to heaven
Express yourself to deepest ocean
But if there is no love
Then there is not devotion
You can express yourself to the sky
Xpress yourself to earth
Again if there no love
Than it not worth fight for
Keep your eyes peel
One may come by for you to steal
Keeps yours open
He may be the real deal.
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You can express yourself to heaven
Express yourself to deepest ocean
But if there is no love
Then there is not devotion
You can express yourself to the sky
Xpress yourself to earth
Again if there no love
Than it not worth fight for
Keep your eyes peel
One may come by for you to steal
Keeps yours open
He may be the real deal.
I've realized so, but my heart is deeply trapped. I cannot seem to find the way out. Each day I wait patiently to be free. Some days I am hopeful to be free, other days I am hopeful for his love....then there's days like this moment where I am hopeless.
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Trap like a parrot, but free as a bird
Listen to heart, open your ears and hear these couple words
Many has said but has no meaning and not true
Most people want to hear these few words “I LOVE YOU”
Hearts are broken and hurts to bare
Never or less we all will over come our fear
Heart are broken and hurts so much
But feeling are never out of touch
Words are word and has no meaning
Without show emotion there is no feeling
Words are word and it has no beginning
But without truth and harmony their no dealing
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Trap like a parrot, but free as a bird
Listen to heart, open your ears and hear these couple words
Many has said but has no meaning and not true
Most people want to hear these few words “I LOVE YOU”
Hearts are broken and hurts to bare
Never or less we all will over come our fear
Heart are broken and hurts so much
But feeling are never out of touch
Words are word and has no meaning
Without show emotion there is no feeling
Words are word and it has no beginning
But without truth and harmony their no dealing
Thank you. I will treasure your kindness and do my best to move on.
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We will always be at war with our hearts for it dictates our path. Im fighting with mine rightnow. :-\
If I were you, I wouldn't even be fighting. I would take the chance and fly as high as I can. :)
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I guess this is how it's like when we are drunk. We acted out all crazy and then the next morning we wake up to something that we cannot recognize.
Never go out drinking with someone......y ou might wake up and not remember how he gets on your bed. ;D
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I'm glad that I become stronger these days. Each time I face the storm, my heart becomes harder. There was a big storm with heavy rain in my side of the world, but there was hope for a better tomorrow. And today I see the sun shines with much meaning to life.
My memory only has 5% left of history. I am positive that I will forget him. Perhaps our time has truly come to an end.
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I'm glad that I become stronger these days. Each time I face the storm, my heart becomes harder. There was a big storm with heavy rain in my side of the world, but there was hope for a better tomorrow. And today I see the sun shines with much meaning to life.
My memory only has 5% left of history. I am positive that I will forget him. Perhaps our time has truly come to an end.
Still dwelling about the pass... the heartache... the lost... set your him and and if he comes back to you than his yourss, if he doesn't he was never your to begin with....
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Still dwelling about the pass... the heartache... the lost... set your him and and if he comes back to you than his yourss, if he doesn't he was never your to begin with....
He is not coming back. :)
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He is not coming back. :)
If that is a fact, sorry for the little bird that left the cage. Your are now free to roam,
tabsi tsis txhob chim chim. There always be any other bird that will fly into your cage.
That will the one that is meant to be yours.
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If that is a fact, sorry for the little bird that left the cage. Your are now free to roam,
tabsi tsis txhob chim chim. There always be any other bird that will fly into your cage.
That will the one that is meant to be yours.
Ehehehe......we are physically free to fly wherever we wish, but our heart isn't free. That's the part that is killing. :)
He's the cage.....that's why no matter where the bird flies.....the bird will always return. Because she loves him so. Now that he no longer is here, the bird has no cage.
Okay....I am happy now. So I will stop talking about the him. :)
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=voNv78fjdnY (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=voNv78fjdnY)
I have not listen to this song for a long time. It suits the mood tonight. :)
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=voNv78fjdnY (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=voNv78fjdnY)
I have not listen to this song for a long time. It suits the mood tonight. :)
Nice song... can i ask koj yuav nkauj moob dag tsi?
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b2FOrJ-cBqQ (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b2FOrJ-cBqQ)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yKEaZAmrm-o (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yKEaZAmrm-o)
Cannot decide which version.
This song has deep meanings.
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Nice song... can i ask koj yuav nkauj moob dag tsi?
Xeem Yaj os.
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Xeem Yaj os.
leeg muam, koj lub npe hu lis cas thiab? ua cas hluas thiab zoo nkauj ua lov?
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wtr2qYiuiN0#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wtr2qYiuiN0#ws)
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leeg muam, koj lub npe hu lis cas thiab? ua cas hluas thiab zoo nkauj ua lov?
Koj nkag siab yuam kev lawm.
Avatar isn't me. I'm old. ;D
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Koj nkag siab yuam kev lawm.
Avatar isn't me. I'm old. ;D
oh... zoo mas... laus thiab hluas los tsis ua lis cag. Qhov zoo cas yog nws lub siab zoo xwb.
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sKwf7gME90Y# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sKwf7gME90Y#)
I love this song. :)
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oh... zoo mas... laus thiab hluas los tsis ua lis cag. Qhov zoo cas yog nws lub siab zoo xwb.
Thank you for your company Laib. I appreciate it.
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Our memories:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=goD0BNQfuBU#ws (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=goD0BNQfuBU#ws)
My favorite song.
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zvUsOXNPVxo# (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zvUsOXNPVxo#)
I just found this song. I am falling in love with this song.
Kuv xav kom lawv muab ua ib zaj nkauj Hmoob.
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Friday, December 17, 2012
We hit a deer tonight. He fell to the ground. I stopped the car and about to get out, but he got up and ran away. The poor thing; he got hurt badly. :'(
I was driving and looking straight ahead. He ran from our right side right infront of the car. :-\
This happened to me twice. I feel for them too, we are taking away their home.
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This happened to me twice. I feel for them too, we are taking away their home.
Yes, it's too sad.
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It snowed. How beautiful it has become.
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I just went to bed a few hours ago and this morning I am back to PH again. Ehehehehe someday a man is going call me psycho.
It's already 10:38 AM; I only done reading 9 slides. My mind and energy are not meant for school work anymore. :-\
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So I started reading at 10 AM this morning and I just got done with my two chapters of reading. I decided to skip reading the entire chapters. I just read the PowerPoint presentations. Yep, it took me that long to finish 100 slides. I tried this method of reading just the PP presentations, and I did okay on the test. It also saves time. So....I'm being lazy and with the short time I have, I take the shortcut today. ;D I hope I will do okay on tomorrow's test. ;D
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On this restless Sunday, the snow is beautifully falling nonstop. As I watch them fallen gently from the gloomy sky, my heart cries for you in silence. I may walk a million miles, but my heart will always find its way to you. I wonder if my name has a place in your heart. I wonder if you do miss me.
The past may already become history between you and I, but you continue to remain presently with me. Though I've said good-bye, but my heart still yarns for you.
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I love you so. Many thoughts came to mind.....shall I part forever or shall I remain by your side for life is short. I should treasure the moment with you, the opportunity to be your best friend, but my heart is aching in growing of much pain. What am I to do?
I am not selfish....I simply just want to be the only woman in your heart. And that's all I ever ask.....but it is an impossible not even in my dream.
You are my everything. When I am with you, I live life as if there's no tomorrow. Life is beautiful whether it is rainy or sunny. I would give up everything just for you. And now I can only imagine of climbing the highest mountain screaming for your name because you are the only thing I have.
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Baby, I said I no longer jealous over you....but deep down, I am growing in pain. I don't know how much longer I can endure the pain. I try hard to have a big heart and to have patience just so I can be with you until the end. Being with you I am in pain, being without you....I am lost. What am I to do?
I know...my heart speaks thousands of times to you. I am not seeking your empathy. Someday....I might be one of the women that you called "psycho". Oh....I wish my heart has the will to leave you and erase you completely from my mind and soul. I don't ever want you to see me going psycho over the love that I have for you. I just want to be your sweet girl.
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Hnub kuv nco tus neeg kuv hlub. Xav zaj twg los lub sij hawm tsis tig rov qab. Xav zaj twg los nws lub siab twb yog luag tug lawm. :-\
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It is okay to feel jealous toward someone whom we come to love. Heck I know that I have a jealous heart too but I am trying very hard to hide it. We all have our moment of weakness.
Sometimes I feel that it's best to be friends, so that there's no jealousy.
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Today I have spent 13 hours on my homework. I took 5 hours to read and then 8 hours to do 20 problems. My lowest grade for the class, 76%. :-\
Yesterday I also spent the entire day doing my homework. I finally figured out my mistakes and was able to get them all right. That was something worth spending my whole day for.
Still have lots to do yet until the end of this week. I will need the entire day tomorrow to finish this project.
These days I am having less and less motivation on my school work. Kuv dhuav kev kawm ntawv tiag tiag li lawm os. :-X
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Qhia kuv seb yog tim kuv los tim nws?
Tsis muaj leej twg xav nyob hauv lub tsev uas tus pojniam muaj lub siab luv thiab tsuas hnov cem tas li xwb. Tsis muaj leej twg uas xav nyob hauv lub tsev uas ntxhov nyho dej num tsis muaj tus pab ua.
If only we all know our responsiblitie s, no one would have to scold at anyone else, and we would live in peace.
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I'm feeling guilty because he chose to watch football and now he is sholveling in the middle of the night because of my madness.
Perhaps I should just remain in silence. Lets get a divorce. :-\
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The weekend has gone by fast. I wish that weekends never end. Will I fly back to my cage and let my heart be trapped again?
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From the beginning it was never yours
Does matter how hard you try to hold on
To a heart that ache as well maybe broken
But your minds, your soul shall never be out spoken
With the love you still endure
Take this as a learning lesson
Never hold any grudge and never take as a token
We live and we learn from our mistake
Never or less, never show how much your heart aches?
Maybe it’s for the better good, even for your sake
And maybe it’s time for you to take a break
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What would you like me to do today ST ;D :P