seriously!!! only time ive come down to cali is for FUNERALS. except for NYES and MONSTER MASSIVE. i drank every night from tuesday-monday morning!!! every nite til 4am with my cousins. we got helllllla TORN UP!!! we cried. we laffed. we reminisced. they told me to move out west. i said im a natural born midwesterner. cali life is to fast paced for me. i wont get to enjoy it enuff. i totally know how you feel! i drove from SFO-Chico. Chico-SFO and back. all in a 20 hr span. holy crap!!! we got in SFO around 1am pacific time. drove to Chico. got into Chico around 530am. dayem fog and traffic! traffic in SF at 2am! wtf!!! took us 4.5 hrs. we got to the hospital around 530am. we got to see my gramps on his back in the halfway in the bodybag. he was zipped up to his chest. getting ready to be sent down. i shed on last tear for him. checked in the HOTEL around 645-7am. power napped til 9am. went to the other gramps house. ate. hugged lots of relatives. cried. blah blah blah. this trip wore me out. physically and mentally. my dad didnt even cry at his own dads funeral. my father didnt even cry at his own daughters funeral. what does that mean?! to me?! i dont know but i sat and thought about it every day and ive no clue no idea.....now that im back home. i need to find a job. quick. i dont wanna be lazy and lull on things. *sighs* i need 1 more day to get myself back mentally....an d physically. i need to stay away from liquor/beer. i drank alot this week. i dont think ive ever drank this much in quite some time. i averaged 18 bottles of beer. 8 shots and some puff puff pass the magic dragon!!! i need to find some innner peace. *sighs*
