Kuv me Nkauj Hnub

[cwjmemdub]

well, when I dwell in my memory, I realize all the good things that could be lost at any moment and become more appreciative of the things given to me.  I do not let my s/o knows my thoughts fearing she'd use it to her advantage when she knows I'm vulnerable.

I'm not sure I understand you, but what I'm saying is that if my exgf knows that I'm a man of truth and never break my promises, then she'd regret not having the chance to have me.

When I make someone happy it does make me happy.  I'm just sad why it's not the person who's been praying to be loved by me.

[cwjmemdub]

I gave her all my heart, just not my mind.   

[LadyLionness]

That's too bad. 

I guess you are more emotional than logical.

[cwjmemdub]

Siab phem!

Tsis yog kuv siab phem I just can't control it.  You'd know if you ever fell in love.

[cwjmemdub]

That's too bad. 

I guess you are more emotional than logical.

Aren't them both go hand in hand?

[LadyLionness]

If they do, I think you would have been able to realize that the love is you and have always been in you... and you would have been able to freely love your wife without feeling any guilt or obligation to this other person from so long ago. 

Have  you ever thought that she seemed so great ONLY b/c you didn't have the chance to really live with her?  So you only saw the good side of her and not the complete her?

[cwjmemdub]

Even though it was a long time ago, the love that she had for me was too intense for me to ignore.  I can't get rid of the picture she was crying when she came to see me and I wasn't home.  Those moments froze in my heart and will never melt away.

I did see the bad side of her when one of my friends hit on her.  She didn't even look at him.  However, it just made me trust her deeper that she really was in love with me to chase me every where.

[LadyLionness]

No, that is not seeing the bad side of her... you will only get to see the WHOLE person after living with them for a while... that is when they STOP being a goddess and is simply a human being... with imperfection and all.  I can guarantee you that if you were to have a chance to be with her sometime in the future, it would not be as you had imagined all these years.

Instead of chasing a mist that could never be, let go of it and hold onto the reality that is in your hand. 

One day,  when it is too late... you will wake up to find that what you had wasn't so bad... but that you had forgotten to enjoy it b/c you were so focused on living in your memories.

[cwjmemdub]

LL & HS, isn't faithfulness the quality ppl look for in a person?  I was faithful to my exgf until I got married cause I knew I wasn't going to look for her any more.  Yet, without closure, I still have very deep feeling for her.  That's the reason I can't erase her completely out of my mind.

[cwjmemdub]

I know I'm guilty, but I can't help it.  I need my wife to help pull me out of the memory my soul indulges in and she's not doing it.  Sometimes she even helps to seal that hole by ignoring my feelings which I try to totally commit to her.  If your love is not as great as the one before you'll always live to regret it.  I want that 100% love and I feel that her love for me still has strings attached.

[cwjmemdub]

I'm giving a 100% of my love to my wife.  However, I still struggle with forgetting my ex.  It's not that I don't want to I just can't.  I've tried so many times and failed.  How can I forget the most beautiful girl I ever met?  I have a feeling that I'll never be able to forget her.

[cwjmemdub]

Dej tsaws tsag lub suab zoo mloog
Mi nas noog thiaj ua zes ze
Lawv quaj ntxhe ua kho siab zim
Mob siab vim kuv tsis tau koj

Ntses me loj dhia dawb pes vog
Dej lwg nrog hav khaub ntub ntsuav
Tus npau suav wb ob leeg ua
Pom sau rau txhua lub pob zeb tsis ntub

Kuv mi Nkauj Hnub koj puas nco tau
Hnub wb tsau da dej tsaws ntxhee
Wb muab thee rauv rau qhov cub
Tham kev hlub yuav tsis sib ncaim

Me npauj npaim los los nrog mloog
Ya vig voog puv nkaus kwj ha
Sib koom pa wb thiaj cog lus
Yuav hlub mus ib txhiab ib txhis

Kuv yuav ris koj lub siab zoo
Ceev koj moo mus txog hnub kawg
Mam nrog lawg yaj ua sab si
Ntws kom ti lub neej lwm tiam

[LadyLionness]

Life isn't about forgetting those we have loved.  It's remembering them and cherishing the memories... but not being slaves to them.

[cwjmemdub]

I'm not a slave to her.  I love her so much and she does the same for me too.  Our love would've been perfect if we were to have each other.  After I met her I didn't have the desire to love or like anyone any more.  My wife's the only exception.   

[cwjmemdub]

That could very well be.  Although, I doubt it.
The only spell she had was her beauty and her pure love for me.
Whenever she walked on the street she always made every guy's day.
That's how I knew I wasn't under any spell.