Sorry you're having a bad day Lisa. If you need to talk am here.
Have a wonderful day.
yesterday was a disappointing day pl. what more can i say? it's disappointing when those u love r never ppl of their words....it's disappointing when you trust someone, have faith in someone and all they do is leave u with meaningless hope...and after a while all u can do is doubt them. the relationship deteriorates and all u realise ur memories or what is left of them is nothing but a mere dream of what once was....which is nothing.
i'm upset, disappointed, hurt, angry......and though i know i'm not the only one who has gone through this or is going through this.....in a way i feel very alone and many of the times it's simply me, myself, and i who is left to figure out what the next step is....to pick up the broken pieces and decide if i want to glue them back together or if i want to start from scratch...or to just give up completely and say "the hell w it all".
i know all the right and necessary things to say and uplift myself....but my heart is heavy now and all i can do is set my life aside so i can concentrate on my career and buy myself some time--time for what exactly? I haven't a clue. *sigh* as much as i look ahead and want to and need to "keep trucking" i feel myself sinking...sink
ing...sinking deeper and deeper....like i'm stuck in quicksand or something.
blah....ph and this place is my safe haven....it's where i can say what i want to say (despite if someone is listening or not) but mainly it's where i can scream and say what's on my mind, what's in my heart--to keep me sane. my therapy if u may....but clouds beyond the clouds....bc some days i wish i really was with the clouds.