luvly....is she really?

[luvlylisa]

Good morning Lisa. Keeping busy is good. Hope to see you more often. Keep me posted on your new venture. I am getting closer in closing this chapter and begin a new one as well.

u've got pm.

oh....u 2 r closing a chapter to only begin a new one?  oh, please do share. 

[luvlylisa]

blah....workin g ur butt off only to be broke every month! fml! 

[luvlylisa]

weddings, new years, baby showers...n work.  yep...that's the life right now. 

[proudlao]

You're forgetting thanksgiving and xmas is coming right up lol

[luvlylisa]

You're forgetting thanksgiving and xmas is coming right up lol

oh, don't remind me pl!   

[proudlao]

You're welcome Lisa 

[luvlylisa]

yes, it's new year time and I've got just a few more hours of work left.  gotta mail some stuff to my sis, go help nyab clean for r awesome friends who r coming in, shop for some groceries, and get my outfits ready for ny.

2 bad it's going to rain all weekend!  what a perfect weekend for ny huh?  lame.  but can't fight mother nature.  still debating if i'll dress up.  given the rain, i really don't want to.  but given that it's ny i have an itch to adorn myself as well.  i dunno.  we'll see, won't we?  LOL

i'm more so looking forward to the pre-party @ the house.  some ppl want to go to the OG party and linger dt but i just want to look cute and have me some drinks.  LOL but of course, i mean, y not?  it's ny!

so looks like i may run into some phers...more so due to sports.  uck, playing soccer n football in mud!  blah for them...but could be something great to watch for me.  LOL  anyway...i don't plan on seeing or meeting anyone--but u never know who u'll run into (or have run into u) at such events. 

yes, pics will most def be posted.....lat er.

[luvlylisa]

honestly, it hurts knowing and seeing him with someone else but what am I suppose to do?  and I can't be upset bc u dunno what's running through this darn head and heart of mine but i am human after all and being human i am able to get jealous.  am i mad?  no.  but am i disappointed? yes.  I believe I am entitled to it. 

but at times...I do honestly question myself....is it the fact that I care bc i luv him or is it that i think he's a good guy and i think i like guys like him that i like him to think that there is a potential future with or for him? 
 
*sigh*  I dunno to be honest...but i do feel once u have those jealous feelings then there is something "more than meets the eye".  what do u think?

[luvlylisa]

U make me so nervous just don't know what to do w myself. Urgh!

I think it's time....or else i'm just going to drive myself crazy here.

[luvlylisa]

don't want to think today....don't want a sec to be alone or have "time" 4 my mind to wander.....got ta keep bz bz bz....bc if i don't i'm just going to fill my head n heart of sad stupid crap.

yeah i am not liking this fall season at all!

[luvlylisa]

had a much needed conversation yesterday and this morning I woke up to clarity.  I am so glad someone reminded me of the woman I am...the one that I lost along the way--I forgot about her and turned into this lil girl who was lost and didn't know what to do with herself.  how could i let myself get in so deep?  i don't want to hurt anyone nor do i want to hurt anymore.  i can no longer be selfish. thank u for reminding me that i'm more than this lil girl...that i am worth something, that I am a strong woman who can stand on her own.  thank you for reminding me that there's more out there for me than what i know and have been only letting my eyes see (as of late).  I feel like i literally turned a new leaf.  No worries and i'm confident in whatever i decide to do, I know I'll be OK.

Thank you for seeing in me what I had lost.  I greatly appreciate it!

[proudlao]

I am glad you are found! Turn the leaf gently and appreciate everything.

[luvlylisa]

I am glad you are found! Turn the leaf gently and appreciate everything.

Thanks i'm glad 2!!! i'm in a whole new space now n i know no matter what i'll b ok.

[proudlao]

That's what I like to hear!
 
How's your week coming along?

[luvlylisa]

I'm doing well PL!



had another interview this morning since I didn't have to go on the UW-Eau Claire college visit (thank goodness considering all this rain!). 

in the office today...gettin g a few things done.  but honestly, nothing much to do.  so what am i going to do?  post vids on yt, post pics on fb, and look up some baby shower games for my girls' baby shower next week.

yes, it'll be a productive day won't it?  LOL