I wouldn't say that this new year is off to a bad start. I most def said it'd be about change. This time, I'm serious about my heart and I no longer want to be that girl who gets pushed off to the side nor the nice girl who lets herself get hurt. There's no point in hoping for something which will never happen. It's one thing when u don't know how I feel it's another when u know and right after teasing my heart I see u w her doing the same. I'm not stupid. I'm maybe stupid for letting myself get here and letting u control my emotions like u do. I admit, I very much adore u and will most likely still get the school girl feeling when u r around. However, my heart may cry every now and then I'd rather it sing....sing with someone and for someone who is willing to sing with me.
So this new year--I will take a step...one at a time distancing myself from you and opening new doors which await me. no more looking out for others when all this time they never looked out for me nor considered my feelings.
*sigh* It'll be hard but this is the best thing I can do for my heart and my soul.
