Luvly I've been there....it's very sad and mean of your 'friends'. Keep your head high and make new friends
I've hurt the feelings of my friends before....beca use I'm their true friend and they needed to hear it even when it hurts. I believe friends are the ones who are still there through unpleasantness and honesty...
yes. I am a very honest person--even if it means it may sting a little. I rather my friend hear it from me than from a stranger or have her/him come back to me and ask me why i never told them. Why would I want them to be a fool or a joke? I would only expect my friends to do the same. But I guess not everyone thinks the same nor sees friendship the same. So can I blame them? Not entirely. But it still hurts knowing that all this time they knew that I'd end up getting hurt and instead of being honest w me they wanted me to "feel it out" and digest whatever feelings and emotions I was having or going through. Hello! Do you not see me stressed and frustrated? Do I not come and unravel myself in front of u and tell u my pain and cry tears of confusion. If you know you could slap some sense into me and tell me not what i want to hear but what i needed to hear and tell me the truth--even if it meant I'd be upset and cry even more--why bother to hide it from me and have me be a sad puppy and have such high hopes of something that was never going to happen? WTF? Instead every day when I make a fool out of myself and end up crying to myself all those around who were very aware of the "situation" simply just watched me and laughed at me the whole time. Wow, and yet you all tell me that ur my friend and am there for me--that u have my back. My back in what? U have my back in making me look like a fool? There's one thing to letting ppl learn life lessons and there's another thing when u know they're blind and totally getting screwed.
now, I am not blaming anyone for my actions or the result in this relationship or lack there of of one. I know and totally take responsibility to my acts, words, patience, and doing whatsoever. In ways I let things happen to me as well--understood and acceptable. But knowing that this all could have been avoided and these past years could have been something else. *sigh*
could of, should of, would of.......but no point now--it's all a memory now.