On my exciting and amazing journey to the stars.....

[Ajax616]

Every time that I am with you, you make all my fantasies come true.  Without you, I would have know what it was liked to be loved by a woman.  Thank you for daring birthday present.  I will always treasure it.

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Through my suffering of the heart from the last week or so, I have gained wisdom which I will be able to use all my life.  That is priceless.

I am at peace in the heart.

Thank you.

[Ajax616]

Confession:
Forgive me for I have sinned.  I have had un-cleaned thoughts.  I have had thoughts of taking other people’s money and bringing misery and sadness to them.  I have thoughts of letting go of my principles and not being able to bring joy and happiness to all those that I meet.  I have had a temporary lapse in being able to control my thoughts and my actions.  I have let go of my responsibiliti es of my very well oiled machine in discipline and thoughts.  For a couple weeks, I gave in to temptations.  I took time away from the responsibiliti es of my duty to my family and work.  In my temptations, I have had to hide the truth at times of where my about or intention.
It all started a couple of weeks ago when against my better judgment, and I went to friendly home poker game where I cleaned everyone out.   I have known for a long time now that I do not ever want to gamble for all the reasons above and more.  But after doing so well, I thought I might have gained my control and discipline back and wanted to test it at the casino.  So I went and did poorly, then very well, then very poorly, OK, and then OK, but poorly.  I think I could be a good player, but my subconscious mind is sabotaging me.  I started energetic and passionate, which could be both good and bad, but now I am very in control.  I still need to be able to think in fear and desire better, but when I am calm, I do have really good thoughts on the strength of my hand and others.  That all does not matter, not even my losses or wanting to make the game work or wanting to prove that I can win for my ego, because I do not have any passion for it any longer.  But through my experience, I have found some peace in my thoughts and my understanding.  What matters is this: it is not a vision of my life which I want to contribute to the world that I am a poker player, because:
Poker is too much too close to gambling.  Gambling wreaks havoc on every one’s lives, except the casinos.
It is taking time away from my contributions of love and kindness to others.
If I win, I am taking other people’s money and making them sad.
If I lose, I am losing precious money that could serve my family’s daily needs.
I am taking time away from my contribution to my own purpose and destiny.
By being there, I have lost control of my thoughts and my actions already.  Despite the temporary relapse, I will conquer myself.
But mostly, I am drawn to a purposeful life and destiny, and such a time wasteful pursuit will take away precious time from my life and destiny.

[Ajax616]

In gambling, you always lose.  Even when you win money, you still lose.  You lose something much more precious than money.

[Ajax616]

I saw my beautiful first cousin (of course different last name) last night and my mind started fantasizing about her.  I think she has a crush on me.  So you know what happened? I dreamed about her last night in erotic ways.

Do you know why?  It is because our dreams are our subconscious mind's attempt to solve our emotional problems. 

[Ajax616]

Perhaps the night before his enlightenment is not literally, like all the other moral stories, but metaphorically only.

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I know my number goal in life.  It's to strengthen the future, especially the next generation, and keep on working at it until the day I am no longer connected to this body.

[Ajax616]

Thoughts of the day:  What if our emotional energy is spilling into this Universe?

[Ajax616]

Be very passionate in what you do, because passion is very contagious. 

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If you build it, they will come.  If you envision it, you will create a vision for tomorrow.

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Hi Allgood,

Wishing you an exciting journey ahead in all the dimensions that you hopeful, in new and exciting places too.  Thank you for working so hard and diligently with us for a short while. 

[Ajax616]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fxhueyC70cU


To the very hot and amazing girl that I was dancing with a couple of nights ago.  I hope you will open up to the idea of us.  If not, we will always have Troy.

[Ajax616]

After being on this planet for nearly or more than half of my life, I am finally discovering how to love.  That is fantastic.

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I once saw a NOVA program that says that our dreams are our subconscious mind's attempt to solve our problems while our conscious mind is resting.  My dreams came into my dream last night and it told me to hurry up and stop stalling executing of my dreams and my goals.

[Ajax616]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QOajzx-W1rI

In Star Trek, they have much more advance technologies, but even more important, their philosophies are stronger than ours as well.  We need to grow our strength of hearts to accommodate our growing technological changes.