I miss one day of work and I go back to a crap load of work. How can I do this job for the rest of my life? It pays rather good but considering what I have to go through just to collect my paychecks, I don't think it's even worth it anymore. I keep telling myself everyday to hang on cause things will get better but it seems like the more time I spend my time at this place, the more I become less passionate to help the poor.
Like for example, today a girl in her late 20's came in crying cause she needed help paying her rent. I had just returned from a long meeting and was already under so much stress (trying to play catch up before I left for the day) that when I found out she showed up without an appointment, it pissed me off. Anyways, as I sat there looking through her application to request for help, I didn't even bother to ask her once if she was okay. In fact at the back of my mind all I was thinking was....."Who told you not to take care of your ****? You chose to blow your money off on random **** so now you come crying thinking I'm going to pity your story and fix your money problems. I'm sorry, we all have to make sacrifices. Pay your bills first and spend on whatever afterwards. Get that right and you wouldn't be sitting here today. GOSH!"
This is not like me. I've always wanted to help those who needed it most. But this job, it's making me turn careless.
