Here I am as I walk this path alone wondering what the future holds. After all these years of tribulation and war within my own life, I finally see the open road. Always having to do things to please everyone else except myself. Standing by the rules to be good and do good, yet I get nothing in return, but to only be blamed for others wrong doings. I have come to realized that it doesn't matter what you do for some and how hard you strive to please them, it'll never be good enough. Therefore, I have given up long time ago. What is the use of pleasing those who won't appreciate you. So tired of living life that others wants me to live, so tired of living a life filled with daily arguements and frustration, tired of living a life with ppl who can't get along with one another, but to only despise and stab eachohter on the back every chance that they get. Yet, I am the one to be blamed.
Some ppl won't and can't take accountability for their actions, yet can only point their fingers to others, so they can justify their actions. If outsiders choose to believe you and not knowing the history of our life, so be it. But, hopefully the next person in your life will be able to enjoy the coaster ride as you'd probably learned to do good from the mistakes you made with me.
I only have one wish and that is that life treats you kind as the road for me is unknown, but however the pages of life opens for me, I am willing to accept. At least I am with those who truly loves me and supports me, my mind and soul can be at peace and I don't feel like a wreck from the sorrows of my heart.
