Written in 2012 after my friend's son killed himself

[unmatchable]

Just a carefree spirit as a child
Taking pleasure in simple things
Free and innocent for awhile
As I fly with invisible wings
Thought I was invincible
Like I can do anything
Young, healthy, and capable
I go higher on the swing
Feeling the air caressing me
Dreams and visions yet to come true
No stress on who I will be
Only to have love and joy with you
Who would've known I would stop at life
That anger and pain can take me hostage
Along came a task called life
A battle that I couldn't manage
The more I try to make things right
To be hopeful and be confident
The more it hurts to lose the fight
When the agony comes back again
This heart ache seems to be never ending
Tears of poison conquered happiness
Rushed through my blood but I keep pretending
Can't seem to steer from this emptiness
I honestly did the best I knew how
To keep you close in my heart
But this task called life is too difficult now
I'm so sorry we have to part
Each day feels longer, breathing became harder
Please you must understand this is my way
To hide in a beautiful memory together
I selfishly took your love to my grave
So I can only remember your smile forever
For you, I am grateful for my stay
Please forgive me, for this is my way
Please let me shine and live on in you
I'll find a way to make it okay
I'll be an angel to watch over you
And sprinkle dust of joy to take away your pain
I'll always be a special part of you
And I will lift you and dance with you in the rain
Time can never take away my love for you
Thank you for loving me too