sitting here at work...well, in the school cafeteria...wa
iting for my kids. it's been a slow morning (which I don't mind). I'm here for a few more hours and then back to the office I go. A few things to do yet today and then I can go home.
The weather is much cooler now which means fall is on it's way. I never really cared for fall as I luved summer but being that my body doesn't respond too well to the heat I rather have the cool breeze and temps. Just please, no snow yet. If we could have minimal snow this winter that would be great. But who am I kidding? I do live in the midwest and there's no way I can escape the humid summers as well as the frigid ice cold winters. To not have it would be a miracles. LOL But miracle can happen.
Yeah, yeah, I'm an idiot.
Regardless, due to the nice weather today I think I'll go for a nice walk after work. Perhaps head to the riverside and walk around for a bit. If it's not too cold maybe I'll take my mat out and lie out and relax for a bit. We'll see.
It was rather awkward and nice at the same time last week. This girl I know--met her a few times and she's friends with a lot of other ppl I know, messaged me on FB asking if I was single. Turns out she had a friend who is single and to the point was wondering if I would be open to talking to him. Playing match-maker I guess. LOL Again, it was awkward, more so because we don't know each other that well so for her to think of me was kind of weird and nice at the same time. I was flattered and she had a few questions...od
dly enough she said this friend of hers, like me, she didn't know all too well either. LOL I think she's just trying to investigate for both of us...however, I've yet to really hear anything. When in time it is right..it will happen--no worries.
Speaking of which, though I've been single for a while now--I actually don't mind it. OK, no one wants to be alone but being that most of the ppl in my circle r married or n long term relationships I see first-hand all the chaos and hiccups and possible headaches in their lives/relationships. Granted, no relationship is perfect or does not have a little chaos or hiccups, and in no way am I a perfect person or am perfect girlfriend material, however I'm OK with saving myself the headaches and chaos. Some ppl in my circle think I'm cutting my losses too soon or am way too picky. Others may say I don't put myself out there as I should be and there are others who simply feel I've "given up" on dating, men, relationships, and luv. Perhaps it's one of those and perhaps it's all of those--whatever they want to think. This is how I see it. I'm 32--young still (despite what hmong OGs say or think), I do enjoy my "freedom". Do I want to meet someone and share some of these adventures with? Most definitely. Am I picky? Though I like to say that I'm not, who wouldn't be? If you didn't care who you dated or wanted as a life partner then why am I not in a relationship right now then? Do ppl not put thought into who they want as a life partner? Did you just pick them out of a crowd or take the first person who walked by or you saw? Of course we care and have "standards" in what we are looking for. It's these standards in which we have and how realistic our standards are as well as how flexible we are with them that will possible determine the possibilities of being in a relationship. I luv meeting new ppl and luv to converse. I don't have problems making friends with the opposite sex....as we can see, I have plenty. However, as usual I'm always that "friend". Yes, always friend-zoned and never the girlfriend. In ways I'd rather it that way...as I feel I want to be able to have a friendship with my s/o not just a romantic relationship. However, in many cases then that may "back-fire" and getting out of the friend-zone is then not possible. Regardless, I am still me...still enjoying what life has to offer and if someone comes along the way wanting to get to know me and share some good quality time together then great. If not, it's not a big deal.
Anyway....it's time to head back to the office....and get some real work done.
