All I'm saying is that if you want a good person to marry then you have to make sure you've made yourself a good person, too. Now you might get lucky and meet someone who is crazy in love with you to overlook your shady past, but my suggestion is to not bet on that. Otherwise, you could settle for a relationship of convenience. They don't care about your past. They just need you to help with half the bills, give them married status so they quit having awkward moments at family events, and don't have to feel like the third wheel when they're among their married peers.