My dear PH Brothers and Sisters,
I hope this letter finds everyone and finds everyone well. I pray you and your families are in good health and having a great time.
PH has become like a second family to me and honestly I missed speaking with you all. So, today, I have decided to come back for a visit and to chat about life with everyone for awhile.
It has been exactly 3 weeks since my return from Laos, 21 days since my return to my home and my lonely existence. How do you pick up your old life again and do the things you once did? How do you go on living your life, when so much has changed, when in your heart, you know that things will never be the same again? Some memories and some experiences were etched too deep into my heart; there are just some things that time can not mend…. Things that have taken hold of me.
I miss May tremendously; there is just no two ways about it. I miss the touch of her soft hands, I miss the sunlight in her hair. I miss the sound of her voice; I miss the smell of her hair. I miss everything about her. May has gotten a hold of my heart and my soul and I don’t know where to go from here. Everyday, I can only thing of ways to get back to May. I am constantly online, looking for pictures and videos of Nong Hai and Laos, hoping to catch a glimpse of May. Every chance I get, I am looking for airline tickets, checking out dates for when I can take time off from work.
I don’t want to sound dramatic but what is wrong with me? I was never like this; I don’t like NOT having any control of my life or my feelings. I am on the phone with May every night and every weekend. It would seem my whole world now revolves around May.
Perhaps I will seek professional help.
Yours truly,
LHG